Unfiltered & Unapologetic

Then I'll be remembered as helpless.

But if I die while dancing and singing,

I'll be remembered as a legend.

How to endure without ever saying a word,

And then my sister says "maybe you should leave" just so she isn't troubled or loosing sleep over having to baby sit her dog more so that my cats don't hurt him.

My entire family knows the hard year I've had managing work, school ( I got as close as I could to all 100% in my course work and graduated), got married in June. Planed that wedding moved into a joint apartment has my in-laws live with me. and then filed for divorce in November. Moved in with my sister for a month, found a new place and moved again.

And worst part is I expected this from my mother not my sister. I believe she knows better.

Good to know where I'm not wanted.

And neither does my heart.

So for what reason do I need to stay?

The biggest mistake of my life,

To feel special when I needed you.

When I felt lost,

I hoped you noticed the silence,

But you were never there.

Your silence hurt more than words.

I waited...With quite tears.

Believing you'd return with love this time.

Asking why I left you.

Just you think, Just for a second...

Could you love someone who ignored your pain?

Who made you feel like you were never enough?

Is emotional abuse.

"Can you at least tell me where your going and when you will becoming back? You can't just leave with out a word and come back whenever you feel like it."

Your setting a boundary.

And he says

"so I need to tell you even if I leave the house for five minutes? And tell you every time?"

Calling you controlling and overbearing.

He has no respect for your boundaries.

So what are you still doing there?

For something as simple as this.

If the cost is , my wellbeing, my peace, my happiness, myself worth,

Women not wanting anything from them.

After all useless things are often forgotten in the shelf and then thrown out for it adds no value to your life.

Don't hoard trash thinking one day it will be useful.

If it's not useful now it never will be.

Trash is trash.