Jellen

I want to be your favorite place to go when you’ve had a bad day or a good day.

I remember at first, I was terrified to talk to you everyday. I remember I used to be scared to kiss you, to hug you, to even talk to you. And it was all because I was so frightened of messing it all up, of messing us up. I didn’t want to say the wrong thing, or do the wrong thing, so I did nothing and hoped for the best. As time went on, my confidence lifted up and I came to the realisation that you were in love with me, no matter what I said or did. So I began kissing you without notice, grabbing on and hugging you when I felt like it, talking so much that you had to tell me to shut up. And that’s when I fell for you I suppose, I showed you parts of me that nobody else has seen because I’ve always backed off, but you, you loved me for them. And I suppose I gave off too much because everything got too much for you and you left. Now I’m terrified to even leave my bed because I don’t want to lose somebody like you ever again.

You have no idea how hard this is