je'suis elle

“Mommy’s baby. Hi, Xaby. Are you ok? Where’s your jacket? Wanna go outside? Go get your toy. Hi, mommy! Are you hungry? Want some food? Want mommy to pick you? Hadi gel. Xaby, NO! Gel, Xab. Give mommy kiss. You ok? WHAT A GOOD BOY! Çok akılısın! Look at Baby! Mommy’s baby, Baby. You miss mommy? Mommy misses you! Xaaaaaby!! Xab, gel! Oooo, my baby. Look at my baby. Tamam, Xab. Aht aht, Xaby. Baaaaybeeee. Goodnight, Baby. Okay, ciao ciao Baby. Mommy’s leaving you. Xaby, GEL! Bad boy! Mommy loves you. Baby, Bay-be, BAY-BE!! Why are you so mean to mommy? Labubu! 24 carat gold Labubu. Hi, mommy. Oooo, look at you! Why are you so grumpy?! Don’t talk back to mommy! Get in your bed! Okay, hadi, gel. Come to mommy. Xaby, Baby. Seni yerim.”

Baby is gone.

27.05.2026

#10

the evening is over.

forced smiles,

pleasantries are buffering.

today’s lessons

are lingering.

it’s a pleasure to be here.

see you around.

oh-

i had the strangest dream. i won’t write it down, i’ll let it slip.

let them blend

let my tears

let me mend

let them cleanse

let them flow

let them teach

what i must know

let them carve,

let them weave,

let them shape

what I believe

let them hum,

let them sing,

let them birth

a softer spring

let them break,

let them bend,

let them lead

the journeys’ end.

screaming in laughter,

doubled over.

strong arms,

pulling me,

luggage cart rides.

i thought nothing,

saw and spoke

the same things

it was the last time,

pure peace kissed

me on the lips

i never thought about that

moment again until i found

myself staring and smiling

at someone else’s

memories.

it wasn’t all bad.

i miss those moments,

nothing else.

you have to fight

to feel at home again

in a place that was

once your land,

dance, dance, dance

hey mama,

i've never been home again

and the trees were pens

the sky's a parchment,

we're lovers again

low and high,

a single bride

tales of eternity

slowly collide

each wave a whisper,

each branch alone,

a myriad of words

Just like that,

I found myself back to the pages

that held the words I wrote for

you.

Eraser in one hand,

my heart in the other,

where do I start?

Maybe at the beginning,

where hope first touched the ink,

or at the end,

where dreams crumbled to dust.

Between the lines,

perhaps,

where love once lingered,

seeking a place to rest.

With trembling hands,

let the eraser meet the paper,

but let the heart remember,

Twas all a dream,

Requiem.

He told me things,

Some, I mean,

I believed.

He took

His leave.

Twas

All a dream.

a river, a conversation, a heartbeat.

Before dawn, darkness.

And after.

i take shelter in the

night.

i panic when my

eyelids

flutter

in the

light.

plenty of

dreams

& solitude

are well-known

comforts

holding me

tight.

twirling under the moonlit sky

in a lost state of mind

with just my lover and I

is where I went.

I call this tune Transported Teleported.