Paralyzed
I wonder how people decide how and who to reach out to when they're having a bad day. I feel like when I'm in these moments where the panic and anxiety take over, I isolate myself because I don't want to become a burden to anyone. I reached out to a therapist today to see if they're taking new patients because I feel like I really need help with coping mechanisms.
I feel paralyzed. I'm afraid to take any more steps because I can never seem to find the right way. I feel like everything I decide on is always the wrong choice and the only thing I'm wasting is my time and everyone's around me. Logically, I know things won't change and I'll never know if I can really do something or not without actually trying, but emotionally, I'm afraid to try again.
I'm already 33 and I feel like I have little to show in accomplishments. Its as I've reached my limit and theres no where else to go for me. I'm getting too tired for all of this. I know I have many friends that would be there to support me if I just reach out for someone to talk to, but I just can't seem to get myself to say "hey, I really need a friend right now."









