final notes.
I’m sorry, I really didn’t mean to drop this bombshell on you. I know I haven't been here for more than 2 months, and I'm sorry for leaving so fast. I guess I couldn’t really find a better time to say this, haha oops. Thank you all for 430 followers. It means a lot, and at the same time, I’d like to apologise to all you 430 followers for doing this.
I’ve decided to leave tumblr. I don’t think it’s the right platform for me. I’ve gotten too blissfully distracted in genshinblr, but at what cost? It took a toll on my mental health. I didn’t really recieve hate anons, nor did anything happen that majorly affected me. To be honest, I too am not quite sure about the specific reason why I’m leaving. But I think it’s because I can no longer handle the flooding emotions I get from this website. Who do I talk to? Who do I trust? Who is my friend? Did I do anything wrong? How do I make people like me? What should I do? I feel like a lamb in this pack of wolves. I feel like I have to walk on eggshells every time I have to talk to people here. I realised just how small I am in this world, let alone on this platform. I’m sorry I had to word it that way, and I'm sorry if this made you feel negative emotions. Perhaps that was why I never frequently reached out when I felt insecure.
Of course, there still are a whole lot of you whom I truly think deserve the whole world, whom I really, really, really appreciate knowing, whom I know I would trust my entire life with if I ever met you. You know who you are, so I won’t bother calling you guys out.
I guess I'll never know if I’m a good person or not. But if you intend to talk to me after reading this post, I’d prefer if you’d be 100% honest about what you thought of me. It doesn’t necessarily have to be good. I’m completely okay with you telling me that you honestly hated whatever part of me. I want to work on it so that I don’t make the same mistakes that made you dislike me.
After about 4 hours after I post this, I'll change my password. I’ll keyboard smash, not save my new password to desktop, and after that, never come back to this account. I won’t deactivate my account, because I still want people to read the works I'm so very proud of. But I don't ever want to see genshinblr again. And with that said, I'm not going to keep in contact with 90% of my moots. But if I do feel like I want to continue being friends with you outside tumblr, I'll let you know, and you can tell me if you want my private ig account to chat with me frequently. Or my genshin asia uid.
Hopefully, after I leave, I’ll have a more refreshed mind, and I can concentrate more on my studies and other interests without worrying about my blog.
Thank you for everything you’ve done. Whether it was supporting me, hating me, or not even knowing me. Thank you for being a part of my tumblr journey. I’ll remember you guys. Maybe. Once again, sorry for doing this.
Love from the clouds, Jayee
and with that said, i realised that i would not have the chance to finish my two series :( so i'll share the planning docs with yall, in case yall wanted to see it!
empty thrones and heavy crowns planning
macabre planning
