I think itβs time use got a post of Me when Iβm myself. For people that I have spoken to and have seen me dolled up, know Iβm not a biological girl. Nor do I have all the feature biological girls have. In exact Iβm still a βboyβ but my goal as you may tell is to become a full on girl. Surgeryβs the lot. I only have a few days a week to be the real me. I donβt even have my girl stuff in the family home I keep it in my friends where I say a few other nights a week.
My goal is to be a full time girl, the real me. I would love to be able to just go out with a bit of makeup or natural and just be myself but as I have a really not understanding family and anyone who knows me knows that my family is involved in certain lines of work that if I came out to them it would look weak to the family name and would be outcasted.
My goal is to become financially stable soon so I can move out of ye family home and into my own accommodation and start being me full time. To be able to come home from work, take my clothes off, run a nice steamy hot bath and soak into it with a rose fragrance in the air and candles lining the perimeter of the bath. I could then get out and out my nightie on or a nice pair of velvet PJs. But that canβt happen until I move out and Become financially stable.
I want to be able to start my transformation into the real sky only a few people know or have seen and know itβs me. I want to be able to go out with the girls without spending hours getting ready and making sure I look perfecto( I love that word. Perfecto : ). I just want to be me and be the true me as my friends have said to me.
As some of you may know and Iβm not the proudest of but it was fun and I canβt lie it brought a lot of my finances from it at the early stages, I do porn. I havenβt done it long and I donβt plan to do it into the foreseeable future but to answer to the questions Iβve been getting. The answer is YES. And to answer the questions about do I model. Yes., Iβve been modelling since the age of 5 technically 4 but I turned 5 a few weeks later. I did regular shoots till about 7 when I started doing for big names and brands nationally and internationally. Around this time the modelling people I was modelling for started to say I would look amazing in a dress and little remarks about I have beautiful lips or amazing eye brows and eyes or lashes. But as a kid I thought there messing wish me. But a few weeks later I got asked to βstep inβ for Michelle who couldnβt come in ( she was one of the main young female models for the people there ). My mother got told theyβd offer her 7,500 for it and at the point I was at I was doing shoots for 1,000-1,300 at most. So it was a big opportunity. I said yes after I heard the money as a kid u would. So there I was at 8 years old getting dolled up for the first time by a internationally known makeup professionals and brands using there best stuff on me. Me a lad who was just wearing a pair of armarni jeans and a Hugo boss top and jacket is now wearing thousands of pounds of professional high grade makeup that alone cost more than my hole outfit I was wearing before hand. The wig was 500 alone. Plus all the spray and styling my hair. Then came the outfits. One was a mother and daughter lingerie outfit set. Then was three dresses a skirt and two pairs of jeans. But this time they wear for a girl and thatβs when the head of the hole modelling I was doing realist I made a amazing girl so for the next few years after that I had more girl shoots than boy.
So from there it got big. I did shoots in NYC. LA. MIAMI. RIO. PARIS, LONDON, VANCOVER. TORONTO. AMSTERDAM. BERLIN. NAPLES. BARCELONA. MADRID and a few other places around them major cityβs while I was at them. They where as I got older
What Iβm basically saying is to become the true me. Itβs not just about putting some makeup on and pretending the word has disappeared. Itβs gonna be a rocky rollercoaster of heartbreaks fears and a deep heartfelt of leaving my family behind but to fulfill my inner heart and to be able to live happily thatβs what I might just have to do.
Than you to anyone who read threw that. But I thought I owned you all a little more about me.
Monday 22nd November 2021
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