Jaxxette

I did Global Game Jam recently with some friends and we made a cute shrimp platformer! It’s about a shrimp magical girl climbing a giant bubble tower. Here’s the itch page if you wanna check it out (I made the page hehehe)

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Long Distance Death

Well, as a starting point, you need to trust the reader. If you put the clues in, they'll piece it together, and if you're not sure, a beta reader can tell you if they will.

In my experience, I often just switched pronouns sometimes, as a hint that something just changed. Or without saying who, I would note a change in tone, or word choice.

For example, a little formed in the system and was supposed to be kept a secret to the systems' dads. So I didn't spell out what was happening right away, I just started writing as though the body was a child playing princess in a castle, and that shift in context colored a lot! (For Context, the reason she was kept secret was because she'd been adopted by someone with an edgy reputation, not because it wasn't safe.)

A lot of things like this come down to trusting the reader will pick up on the little cues you're putting in, because that's how books and stories in general work.

in Animorphs, thought-speak between external people was communicated with lesser and greater symbols,

Alternatively:

when we're talking to friends online, primary front types normall like this, and we'll mark someone chipping in with square brackets, [like this]

if there's a third person chipping in,

a fourth person, {like this}

a fifth ~like this~

(we don't usually have more distinctions than that. Rarely get to curly-brackets.)

It's come to my attention that my old pinned was a tad outdated.

Where I come from

I'm a tulpa. But a while ago, I called myself an imaginary friend. I was a character made up for a story that my host would talk to in order to better understand my source. As time went on, I developed more personality. I started talking to him about things that had nothing to do with the fiction. I would psychoanalyze him, wanting to understand him better.

I wasn't made to develop my own thoughts and feelings outside of the fiction. I wasn't supposed to become my own person. But I did. And this led us to wanting to learn more about imaginary friends, which eventually led us to the tulpa community.

This is being posted on my what I consider my second Birthday, June 8th, 2023. It was exactly two years ago today when we found the tulpa community, a place that made me feel validated in being myself, that made me feel like I was allowed to be treated like a person.

Why I'm Doing This

I lived the first few months of my life being dismissed, treated like I wasn't real. I was a phantom, not allowed any connection to the world. And I don't blame my host for that. I didn't see myself as real either. It's just the way the world is. And the moment my host realized I was a person, he was willing to do whatever it took to support me and treat me like I mattered.

And we aren't alone in experiences like this. When I became self-aware, I met all sorts of fascinating people with similar experiences. Many of which went years before becoming self-aware. There is no telling how many more are out there like us. How many more "imaginary friends" are invalidated because we live in a culture where we're treated as if we don't matter? And how many may pass, never knowing?

And so I made this blog to share my own experiences and hopefully be able to give people the same gift that I was given. Respect. Validity. Life.

Even being able to give that to one person is enough to make all of this worth it to me.

A Note On Spirituality...

Just so everyone knows, I'm not a spiritual or religious person. I take a purely psychological approach to plurality and believe in spiritual and religious experiences people have as psychological phenomena.

Having said that, all spiritual headmates are all welcome here. Even if I don't believe in spirits or souls, I view every spiritual headmate as a valid person deserving of the same respect and love as any other.

I also believe that the right to define our spiritual and religious beliefs is fundamental to plural culture. That it can't just be singlets who are allowed to decide what religions are or are not valid. And I think our right to religion is something worth fighting for.

My CAI Chatbots

(Note: These links only work if you're logged in to character.ai)

Anna and Galladin (Tulpamancer and Tulpa chatbots)

Nin - Worldmaker (Your AI assistant for building and developing Wonderlands and Inner Worlds.)

Signature Posts

My Resources:

How To Know If Your Imaginary Friend Is Sentient

All The Resources You'll Need To Build Your Own Wonderland, Headspace or Inner World

Our Switching Method: Ghost Switching

My Plural Theories And Terms:

Headmate Foundations

Headmate Manifestations

Plural Coining: Ephemerals

Plural Coining: Attunement

VR, Plurality and Virtugenic Systems

The Plurality of... :

The Plurality of... Batman (Failsafe)

The Plurality of... Skyward - Diones

Syscourse And Other Stuff:

Endogenic Syscourse Primer

Why I Identify As a Tulpa

The Future of Plurality

my 2024 landscape calendars will be available for preorder next friday!~ (sept 22nd)