alone forever

I live every day like I have nothing to be here for. my heart is shattered into pieces and you where meant to fix it yet you ran away and haven't looked back.

I cry everyday and spend all of it in my bed, I eat one meal a day and have lost 10kg but I worry no matter how much I loose you will never return.

you said you could never see a future together which hurts me too much, I thought I gave you so much love my I worry everyone I love I will loose and they will move on like nothing happened.

the only thing that makes me feel anything is when the blood rushes out and the stings of the fresh air hitting my open wounds. it makes me feel calm and relaxed and helps me to think about nothing else apart from the pain and I can finally let go.

I don't think I will ever recover now and feel I won't be able to move passed this feeling.

forever yours,

how could someone as loving and caring as you could ever hurt me in such a way?

looking back on it all, all I can see are the times you made me happy and loved. I don't understand why you did this and why I was never good enough.

I feel like I can never be loved and I just wish I could wake from this awful dream.

im hurt and confused and I don't understand why you won't talk to mean just throw me to the streets.

I thought our love was endless, where'd yours go?

did I not show you attention enough? did I overwhelm you with my. emotions?

I truly though you where the one and now I don't know where to go from here. my heart feels like it will explode and I can't control the panic attacks. every time they happen only one thing will make it go away.

I don't know what I did wrong and how I could ever fix it.

forever yours,

you had your whole life ahead of you. it would have been filled with endless love and commitment but you are a coward.

you think me not yelling, screaming and hitting you meant I still wanted to be friends? how can I be friends with someone who betrayed me?

how could someone so apparently caring ever do such a thing? you disgusted me, what a vile thing to ever make some go through.

the endless grief of not ever feeling good enough will never go away now and you are the reason I hurt myself.

I hated everything about my life before you came into it and now you left me alone I hate myself the most I ever have in a long time.

I hope you read this and feel horrible. you knew how fragile I was, and you still killed me.

I hate you and what you have done to me.

you are worst than your brother at least he wouldn't treat someone like a toy and throw it away when its broken.

I hope you feel awful forever knowing that I probably will kill myself because of this.

forever yours,