Emerald Eyes🌞

I feel good and it might sound silly,

But I feel the rush of tonight.

Read a few things that remind me of younger me,

As if it’s not through the same eyes I still see,

Realizing that I’m still her.

Passionate, free, a light in the dark;

Still finding space in society to make my mark,

I do not need to be the same.

I fall in love with love,

And when push comes to shove,

I care more than anybody I know.

Happiness encapsulates my life,

I live to be alive,

When the words just don’t fit on the paper right,

When I’m trying to move my way past the night,

And even more occupancies.

Still searching for the one that finally calls me,

Knowing well enough, I was raised on Disney movies.

Cuddled in a water bed by my life-giving granny.

Air fills my lungs, 

But I am not sure that I am breathing.

I’m going through the motions,

Surviving without a deeper meaning.

How long will this feeling last? 

Surely no more than the winter.

I’ll keep my feet moving,

Though I grow fatigued much quicker.

Sleep is my opiate,

I’m addicted to the drug.

I thought it was helping me feel better,

Until I realized the hole I’d dug.

I’d do anything to be happy,

But am obsessed with things that keep me sad. 

I try not to let myself think about it,

Because the thought just makes me mad. 

I will not let the darkness keep me,

Summer is surely on its way.

Until then I’ll find shreds of light, 

Though not as much as you do.

I wanted to rest forever,