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I hate this feeling,

I had enough,

You did not choose me to pursue you, but I choose pursue you, thoroughly.

I hope you can read this

Alam ko busy ka ngayon. Madami kang iniisip. Madami kang inaalala. Academics, family problems and I guess ako (o baka assuming lang). For sure puno ka ng anxiety ngayon. You’re bothered, I think. Pero kahit ganun, cheer up okay? You should know na andito lang ako. Still waiting like what I’ve said before. I won’t leave you. Maybe I’m away but you should know na lagi mo akong kakampi. YOu can call my name. You can chat me anytime. i might not be able to read it immediately but I’ll be attending to your needs. I’m always yours, Okay?

However, I know I’m giving you so much to think but you should know na I’m always here, I won’t leave you this time, I won’t hurt you at any circumstances.

I want to talk to you like what we used to: talking about future, about our children, about our travels, about us. I want to make fall in love with me over and over again. Cheesy pick-up lines. I want to do all of those, with you. I miss you so bad, can’t we just go back to the days our love was strong?

You keep on insisting that I must forget you.

But how could I? You give me so much to remember you.

How could I forget you if all I see in my life is to be with you?

How could I forget you if your name is now the lisp of my conscience?

How could I forget you if your face is the pleasure of my eyes?

How could I forget you, if the memory of us become the center of what I am now?

How could I forget you if your language is now my second nature?

How could I forget you if our lives now must be connected?

How could I forget you if your kisses and hugs are my needs now?

How could I forget you if the idea of it makes me long for you more?

How could I forget you if I so much in love with you?

What must I do now that I have lost you?

I continue asking this to myself. Numerous answers would emerge. At that point, I would begin to overthink. Would it be a good idea for me to continue pursuing you? Imagine a scenario in which I become so worn out in the center of the way, yet you actually continue running so quick. Until when would it be advisable for me to continue doing it? Imagine a scenario where you failed to remember that there was somebody who's pursuing you.

 Or on the other hand

 Would it be advisable for me to allow you to flee from me and look out for the finish of the way? Imagine a scenario where you have met somebody in route. Imagine a scenario where you failed to remember me, who's looking out for the opposite side of the way.

Hug

Isa ito sa mga actions na pwedeng magpakita kung gano natin pinapahalagahan yung isang tao. The space between the bodies tells us how close we are to the person. The tightness of touch implies how important the person to us. Nagpapakita ito na hindi natin kayang mawala yung isang tao. Kung mawala man, mahirapan tanggapin.

Ito yung pinaka gusto kong gawin pag nakita ulit kita. Kahit gano katagal, kahit saan, kahit sino makakakita. Gusto kong iparandam sayo kung gano kita kamiss. Gusto kong iparandam sayo na sobrang lungkot ko nung nawala ka. Gusto kong ipadama sayo na ayaw kitang mawala.

Gusto kong sabigin na yakap mo yung hanap ko pag naiiyak ako. Na yakap mo yung hanap ko pag nag ooverthink ako.

Pipiliin ka, laging ikaw Ikaw lagi gustong tinatanaw Pipiliin ka, laging ikaw Ang pangalan mo’y laging isisigaw

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