Pairing- Huang Renjun x F!y/n
Warning(s)- Yandere themes, emotionally manipulative!Renjun, mind break, y/n poses symptoms of Stockholm syndrome, temper tantrums, undertones (not mentioned) isolation and emotional deprivation as 'punishments', overall messed up. not proof-read.
Type; wc; drabble; 1.19k
It was your fault. It's all your fault that it came to this.
Or so said that small voice in your head as you watch the man you thought you knew oh so well pick and throw anything that came into his line of sight.
"J-Jun.. Calm down" you cautiously approach him, voice as shaky as your form when he pays no mind to your silent pleas. "He needs help, this isn't healthy, you don't want this?' How're they supposed to know your wants, huh?! Did they dedicate themselves to reading you well like I did? Did they devote themselves to you?! Are they the ones having a future with you?!" goes a row of well arranged books on the shelf as he continues ignoring your existence.
Renjun is a sweet guy, a really sweet one for that matter. Never once has he taken the initiative to hurt you. Never once has he ever tried replacing you. Never once has he made you feel worthless.
If anything, he makes you feel like the only woman in the world with the way he looks at you. The way he talks to you. The way he does everything he can in his power to keep you happy.
Then why're you two such an imperfect couple?
'You're yet to come around the fact that we're destined to be together, Y/n. You'll see what I mean as the time passes', "Oh aren't you a little oblivious? Baby, we're meant to be. Doesn't mean there isn't a mountain of things we have to work on.' 'Quit being stubborn, would you? You brought this upon yourself! All I ever did was tell you what's right because you can't seem to be able to do anything right!' He'd say with that loveable smile of his. The same soft one he'd coaxed you with into falling in love with him.
Ah.. That's right, you're the problem here.
"Renjun, th-they don't mean anything-you know that! They're just trying to look out for m-"
"Look out for you? Why? Am I hurting you? Do I make you do things against your will? If anything, Y/n! You're killing me. You're chipping away at my sanity bit by bit! Don't you see??" The exasperated tone Renjun speaks in kills you, your knees feeling weak as it fails to hold your form upright.
"I-i'm sorry, Jun.. I didn't.. I didn't know.." you zone out while speaking.
You're hurting him. He's right, you are hurting him.
Renjun is a sweet guy, a really sweet one for that matter. He always puts your needs and interests before his. Took you to places you'd say you'd always wanted to go to. Got you gifts almost every other day. Stayed at home when you'd seem even a little out of it. Yet, he never asked for anything in return.
All he ever wanted was for you to love him as much as he did.
Of course you're hurting him.
"That's the thing, Y/n.. You never know anything. Do you know how much it hurt me when you actually took their words into consideration? You don't know anything, yet. Just, just hold on until it all makes sense will you? Please, you're killing me.." the last bit came off as a whisper as he kneels down in front of you. Hurt evident on his face as a lone tear escapes from the corner of his eyes.
In a way, Renjun knows the way he's going about dealing with you is wrong. He doesn't want to use brute force trying to get you to come through, he really doesn't. He's been trying to coax you with words and actions solely. He wants you to feel his love for you, and he's pretty sure he's doing a good enough job with that. But with how slow the things have been processing, he may as well resort to force.
You're easy to break. Easy to coax, easy to fool. Renjun noticed so. He knows how easy it is for people to play with you. To play with what belongs to him. Which is why he'd sworn that no matter what, he'd protect you and lead you down the right path. Because obviously, a gullible little girl like you wouldn't know what's good for her.
You stay quiet as he shifts to situate himself right in front of you, shaky arms coming up to cradle your face gently, urging you to look at him, "They don't want you to be happy. Don't you see, doll? They're trying to take away what's keeping you happy. I make you happy, don't i?" his eyes widen comically as he awaits an answer.
"You do," you reply meekly.
He makes you really happy for that matter, excluding episodes that take place as such the one right one, he's done nothing to make you unhappy. Even right now, all of this wouldn't have happened if you'd ignored your 'friends' and never tried voicing it out to him. Because it doesn't make sense. Whatever they'd said doesn't make sense.
He isn't hurting you. You're hurting him.
"Then why would you listen to them? Baby they're trying to take advantage of you. They're trying to keep you all to themselves. They don't want you to be happy. They don't want me to be happy. They don't want us to be happy." you choke back a sob. That makes sense. They're trying to tear the two of you apart. They're trying to get you to make a mistake. They're trying to take Renjun away from you. Of course this makes sense.
They don't want you to be happy. But Renjun does.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Jun" you shake, guilt overtaking all of your senses as you mutter apologies after apologies, saying how it was never your intention to hurt him, saying how you'd make sure to never contact those 'friends' again, saying how you'd stay beside him no matter what others say as he rubs his hands around your shoulder in a calming manner.
"I know you didn't mean to hurt me, doll. But you did, didn't you? Will you make up for it, for me?"
You nod your head vigorously, albeit knowing what "making up" entails.
You don't want to stay away from him. But this was an effective method of showing you his worth. Showing you that he's your life line. That he's the one keeping you sane.
That he makes you happy but you managed to hurt the one source of happiness you have.
"When 3 weeks pass, I'll take you to your favorite cafe, hm? I'll feed you all your favorite foods! Buy you a lot of clothes, okay? But I'll need you to behave for me. For just 3 weeks." he coos into your ears.
As you find comfort in his embrace, ignorant to the slight smile playing in his expression as he once again had you playing his games, you let out a sigh, one of relief or defeat, you're not really sure.
But the one thing that you are truly positive about is;
'Ah.. I am the bad guy here. Renjun truly is a really sweet guy'
