I hate being hungry but I also hate not really feeling like having a chance to eat. I know that with the trip everyone went on, the money for food would have been tight regardless... but I also had to make my single meal each day last so this bitch could have each meal she wanted. A meal the first day and then dessert with coffee, two meals the next day with dessert (I only had one meal), and then two today (I had a few chips from a bag because there isn't anything left).
I'm just so tired. Majority of what offered more calories was back to back nutritional shakes while I kept a meal from 2pm yesterday all the way to 1am this morning. It just sucks. And I don't want her to get bitched at but I regret there not being more. I'm starving and there isn't much of anything in the house, I don't want rice or cereal, and I hate pancakes.
I was requested to eat two meals per day at the least. But I haven't had anything today and made excuses because it'll be my ass on the line. I'm so hungry all the time but I always ignore it because I don't see a point. I'll just chew the inside of my mouth until I have nothing left. Feel like the blame is on me, though. Even staying cheap for myself, I avoided everything just because someone else eats all the time. Like I'm happy that she eats, but it's also at my expense as well.
Finally at the point where eating anything hurts so whatever. If it keeps making me sick, there really isn't a point to eating at all.
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