my crazy life

Wear orange for self harm awareness day on March 1, 2020. I am in recovery for self harming. I unfortunately relapsed a month and half ago when I tried to take me life once again but I'm grateful for that moment because it woke me up and made me realize that I had not been taking care of my mental health and my alcoholism. I'm happy to say today I am sober and happy! ❤️❤️ #selfharm #mentalhealth #mentalillnessrecovery #alcoholism #loveyourself #bipolarawareness #suicideawareness #suicideprevention (at Louisville, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9FmBsIJd_z/?igshid=1qul86hlf8egh

💔💔💔 #prayforaustralia #prayforrain (at Buffalo Wild Wings) https://www.instagram.com/p/B66xEqiFNie/?igshid=huyi7b23blzl

Those eyes 😍😍😍 😍 #catsofinstagram #catlover #cats #cutekittens #blueeyes #kittensofinstagram (at Crescent Hill, Louisville) https://www.instagram.com/p/B63__k3FsZg/?igshid=1174ri0b94fkh

It's been a month-and-a-half since my back got hurt. I have been in physical therapy for about 3 weeks now and going to pain management tomorrow. I am still not 100% but I am feeling a little better. I'm hoping it's not because the pain medicine is just masking the pain but I noticed that I don't need to take it as often. Just pray that I can get back to work soon I'm getting restless and very bored! (at Crescent Hill, Louisville) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6tcn6mlQNM/?igshid=ywbkgxpruwru

It's hard but I was given this life because I was strong enough to live it #chronicillness #chronicillnesswarrior #chronicpain #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #bipolarawareness #bpdawareness #loveyourself (at Louisville, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6oU-DBlhw9/?igshid=hlu5aajhvu8d

My sweet babies ❤️💙 #cats #catlover #catsofinstagram #crazycatlady (at Louisville, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6lpBXCFWbu/?igshid=ms93ttudw59e

Merry Christmas from our family to yours ❤️ 💚🎄🎅🎁 (at Crescent Hill, Louisville) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6fl26rF9vP/?igshid=1e0mgaqxy57n4

Lazy day for the baby girls 😍 #cats #catsofinstagram #crazycatlady https://www.instagram.com/p/B6Q7_m3F9Sy/?igshid=doworc24dd0e

This is the raw me...On the right is me feeling positive and overall stable. On the left is me feeling the demon that I hate so much called depression coming in. I'm also in pain from the bulging and degenerative disc in my lower back. These picture were both taken today hours apart. Mental illness and chronic pain is no joke...I just want some relief. #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthistrending #bipolarawareness #bipolardisorder #bpdawareness #chronicillness #chronicpainsucks (at Louisville, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6KCx2oFYtl/?igshid=1gv4niie31ud9

My dad gave me some of the ornaments that I got as a child to hang on my Christmas tree 🎄🎄🎅🏽🎅🏽❤️❤️ #christmastree #christmasornaments https://www.instagram.com/p/B6HKB1oFLzc/?igshid=w2526wfu7xrq

My dad gave me some ornaments for tree that I used to have on my tree as a kid. ❤️❤️🎅🏽🎅🏽🎄🎄 https://www.instagram.com/p/B6HJkaAF3BJ/?igshid=asvkqyetpgdg

Poppy 💟💟💟💟 #catlover #catsofinstagram #cats (at Louisville, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6Gmr43FNei/?igshid=1fioi8gxaohq2

My babies know I hurt I've got Zoe on my head and poppy at my feet. I love my babies more and more they are my 💓 #catlover #crazycatlady https://www.instagram.com/p/B6BL2DkFbRM/?igshid=r9v0j4k7cuce

I'm in love definitely coming back (at Purrfect Day Cat Cafe) https://www.instagram.com/p/B50oXmGF3pj/?igshid=1eo9tn8eatiwa

Zoe 😙😍😍 #kittensofinstagram #catsofinstagram #cats #catlover #crazycatlady #blueeyes #beautiful https://www.instagram.com/p/B5nvAJwpyER/?igshid=1lmu9bf1he0vo

Trying to stay positive through this...they said I have mild Facet arthropathy in my lower back and that is what's causing the pain. I keep doing all kinds of stuff that should be helpful but my back still hurts 😔 I'm going to the chiropractor tomorrow and getting a massage I hope I get some kind of relief because I'm suppose to be back at work by Thursday and standing is the worst 😣 #backpain #redhair #positivemind #positivevibes #radicalacceptance https://www.instagram.com/p/B5nunUTJisD/?igshid=1nyrzt2oc8dx1