Lionhearted

There are many things I could say to you. This letter won't sum up the message I'm dying to tell you but many of those words may not be very nice and most of them probably wouldn't make a difference to you in any way. With all the things I would want you to hear from me, here it is:

I forgive you —

I forgive you for keeping me up so many late nights wondering where you were, who you were with, what you were doing, because you wouldn't bother to tell me.

I forgive you—

I forgive you for calling me names like crazy, annoying, attention seeker, pathetic, childish and all because I wanted you to love me, and only me. Is it even too much to ask? I guess it is.

I forgive you—

I forgive you for the countless fights about the same things over and over again because it seemed that no matter how much it hurt me, you didn't care. For all your “it won't happen again's" when you always did the same mistake and for your “give me another chance's" when you truly didn't deserve them.

I forgive you—

There is no hope in holding onto the anger and sadness of something that was not real. Of someone that is not even man enough to respect me and fight for me.

I forgive you—

I forgive you because in order to love who I am, I cannot hate the experiences that molded me. I will never get back the many things you have taken from me but there is one thing I have and it is something I could never have while being with you. Something I have gained while letting you go —Self Worth.

So I forgive you.

I forgive you for making me believe that the never ending feeling of fear, sadness, and hopelessness was love.

Don't worry, I forgive you.

Have a life now.

To you who is being loved by a girl with a good heart,

You always wonder why she’s so sensitive, why she is so caring and why she’s so willing to give you so much of herself without expecting anything from you.

To you who don’t work hard for the attention she gives you and just accept the love you think you are entitled to while she accepts the love she thinks she has earned,

You wonder how she accepts the apologies you don’t mean, why she forgives the mistakes you intentionally do to hurt her and how she forgets the misery you never stop bringing.

You have been loved by a girl who doesn’t just see you as a man, but a man whom she has prayed earnestly.

She has been making excuses for you when you hurt her. She has been looking past how cruel of a person you truly are because she believes that you will change that is why she’s been ignoring the idea of leaving you because she’s just not the kind of girl to give up on you —she’s not the girl who gives up on people easily. She’s the girl who is too stubborn to fight for a spot in someone else’s life even tho she forgets her self-worth.

She just has a good heart that enables her to see the good in someone and not let the imperfections determine whether or not you’re good enough for her. She firmly believes that you have a good heart and you’re capable of meeting every expectation she has because she would do the same for you —without question.

But let this sink in,

Here’s what you should be afraid of.

You should be afraid of the day a good heart gives up on you. You will be able to lose something valuable and it’ll be a little too late for regrets.

DON’T CALL ME THAT

I AM EVIL

I AM THE SHADOWS IN THE NIGHT

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