âIf youâre messy youâre more likely to mess up,â Quincy jeers, his fists clenching into a tighter fist. Control, control, control, he repeats the mantra in his mind, youâre not one of them, youâre stronger, more in control. âThe skills of a Seeker are limited to being conceited, relying on others for their own survival, and making horribly messy hunts and kills.â For the time that heâd spent in Soulmeria with the eye rising to power, Quincy had seen just how horribly Seekers killed. They fought without formation or swift moves. They were rugged and rough and killed like they were beating a rat to death with a baseball bat. It wasnât a pretty sight and it definitely wasnât quite a skillful kill. Quincy thought that his skills in fighting were seemingly much more organized. He wouldnât rush at his opponent without learning a bit of their weaknesses and strengths first. Thatâs why, when he did kill the occasional Seeker, he stalked behind them or started the fight in a quiet area. Quincy was less prone to a messy kill, unlike the average seeker.
Quincyâs fist squeezed tighter, his knuckles turning a brighter white than his pale, dead skin already was. He needed to take a deep breath before things got out of hand for him. Heâd forgotten how much this specific Seeker could piss him off. They were a lot a like in plenty of respects, but they also knew how to hit one anotherâs nerves. Quincy could feel his throat becoming dry and his voice straining, âRagtag group of refugees? Do you think you have the right to talk to us like that when itâs your army of murderers, criminals, insane, self-concerned that put us in the position of refugees in the first place. Try it out for a day. See how you like living in fear and pain and anger whenever the word âSeekerâ is even spoken. See how you feel when the one person you love, or if thatâs even possible for you - I donât know if you even could love anyone but yourself, being taken away from your arms and devoured right in front of you. And the worst part of it is, youâre probably going to be killed and eaten next, so you can feel a pounding in your chest of the fear knowing just how ruthless and heartless the Seekers can be. I hope you realize just the amount of damage the Seekers, that you, have caused this world. You fucking asshole.â His scoff is a little too loud, a little too winded, âI could drink from humans, or supernaturals, or anything I please. Like I said, I have self-control, which Iâm exercising especially hard right about nowâŚâ Quincy refused to give himself the monstrous personality that went along with the title vampire. It was cruel and unjustified to just go around killing whoever you pleased, and that was another little voice that echoed in the back of his head.
Quincyâs eyebrow lifts slightly again, his smirk turning up, and his tone arid, âAre you sure about that? If anyone were to be caught by humans, it would probably be the large, skeletal, cannibalistic, and ravenous creatures. At least I somewhat blend in.â It was nice to blend in with humankind more than other creatures, it gave Quincy a unique advantage. The only other creature most lucky to be graced with human traits while hiding in this realm was most likely the wixes. In Soulmeria being so human-like might be a downfall in strength, but for the Soulmerians hiding on Earth it was lucky and left them less chance to be caught if they could suddenly transition into a terrifying form. âI just thought it might tire your jaw out. Is there such thing as Wendigo lock jaw? Gobbling down several humans must have some effect on you, right?â Quincy feigns concern with his lips pouting out, and head dramatically cocking to the side. âYou see, being a Wendigo is all about self control at the beginning. Unless you were born one, then someone with greed and lack of patience has to consume the flesh of one of their kind to become one. You all made your choice to become the way you are. Just because you couldnât hold out one day, or find help in time, youâd rather eat another for your own benefit and survival then respect the remains of someone else.â Quincy growls, âYou made your choice in the past to eat someone out of your own self interest, and Iâve made my choice to not be some bloodlusting monster to keep several innocent people alive and well.â
âYouâre on a leash, you were put on own the instant you joined the Eye.â Quincy smirks, âyou donât have to assimilate into the human lifestyle if you leave, Jack. Youâd just see something other than Bright Haven, is that too scary for you to think about? Not being under the comfort of the Eye who has obviously kept you so comfortable and safe.â Quincy bites at the skin on the inside of his cheek, âYou should get out more, maybe you would be so drab and pale if you went elsewhere.â Quincy nods slightly in agreement to Jackâs ability to fit in even without trying to make an effort, âBut, donât you get tired of people asking if your sick or whatâs wrong with you? Itâs a bit worrying to always see someone who looks like theyâre fast approaching death. Hell, what can I say, I look a bit pale sometimes myself, considering I am technically in the family of the undead.â Quincy sometimes got asked about his appearance, but he would have assumed it would be much less than Jack. Wendigos could range in just looking sweaty and tired, to looking and smelling like they were rotting. Even to a vampire, it was a bit too disgusting.
âWhat do I know about love? That you will never truly experience it, and that I have loved and been loved by plenty of people.â Quincy bites down against his lip, his eyes rolling. He was tired of arguing and tired of Seekers. âJustice?â Quincy grits his teeth, his cheeks burning a hot red. âYou know what real justice would be? Getting rid of every Seeker on the planet who ever killed a person or a creature with a family who misses them and wonders where theyâve been. You know what real JUSTICE would be?â Quincy pauses, calming his voice down from the volume it had reached, clearing his throat, âJustice, would be the Eye being brought down along with all of their sheep, and Soulmerians finally getting to go back home.â He feels blood leaking from his palm, his fist finally holding a bit too hard. Quincy doesnât care if Jackson can smell the blood, he doesnât even care too much for the stream of crimson running down his hand. A threat escape his lips, âYou want to see just how courageous Iâve become?â
âWhat Iâm trying to say is itâs a smaller amount of flesh than youâd ever consume. And, at least it doesnât contain any kind of bone or large amount of muscle, tissue, and organ. And for someone of my kind, itâs incredibly hard to digest much else other than the blood itself.â Quincy looks away from Jackâs gaze, âIâm not weak if I ask for help from others. Especially in the case of food. Itâs like going grocery shopping. Which you probably havenây heard of because youâre choosing not to assimilate into humankind.â
âI think youâre mistaking grace with skill,â he remarked, trying to mask the tension roiling just beneath his skin. It seemed like itâd be all too easy to reach out and remove Quincyâs head from his shoulders, end the verminâs life once and for all, but thatâd be a nasty mistake to make in public. The humans in the area wouldnât pay much attention to a small argument, but a murder was sure to cause some unfortunate consequences... the most pressing of them being the end of his anonymity in Bright Haven. Humans were much more inclined to punish what theyâd see as wrongful death, and that wasnât accounting for the disaster revealing himself would cause. After all, with their pitiful strength, beheading their fellows was much more difficult... and any witnesses would be sure to remember that heâd done the impossible. So, instead of taking out his growing anger on the vampire, he clenched his jaw and gathered together as much self control as he could muster. Soon, he reassured himself. Soon. âAnd underestimating just how much goes into creating an army. Itâs more than just taking a few killers and throwing them into the war. Not that a Soulmerian would know that,â he finished, scoffing.
Their disorganization would, once again, be their downfall.
Hatred burned in Jackâs gaze, the feeling making it a point to remind him of how easy it would be to start this fight... and with the right circumstances, finish it. But even fights drew human attention and counted as enough of a crime in their culture that theyâd likely try to detain himâthey might not be successful, but itâd stir up more trouble than it was worth... for now. âI have every right!â he snarled, baring his too dull-teeth. âYou think I donât know what itâs like fear for my life? To feel pain and anger whenever youâre reminded of the people responsible for that? You think I donât know what itâs like to watch my friends die, to know that youâre going to be next? To watch them, in their final moments, turn on you?â It was difficult to keep his voice low when anger felt like it was ripping him apart from the inside out, but somehow he managedâeven so, it didnât stop the venom in his tone. âYou Soulmerians are all the same. You think youâre the only ones who have ever suffered,â he spat, curling his lip. âOf course I know how much damage has been done. You think weâre a bunch of children that think weâre playing a game? We know what weâre doingâand we know why.â Or at least, some of them did, for reasons that had differed from seeker to seeker. Even Jack had once been among them, though now the question had returned to haunt him; why was he invested in this war? Right now, it was people like Quincy.
But what happened after heâd left? What happened once he was curled up in his home-away-from-home, sifting through his memories and desperately trying to ignore that same question? He could only overlook his continued ( if distant ) involvement for so long. âOh, you could? Really? Thatâs why you choose to waste your time sucking on cowâs blood?â he asked, his falsely innocent tone laced with hidden resentment. âPretend itâs self control all you want, Quincy. We both know thatâs not true. Youâre just hiding from yourself.â Part of him was jealous that the vampire had the luxury to preach on his self-control and murder-less feeding habits; Jack couldnât survive on anything less than human flesh. Not for long, anyway. âIf you think I go running around looking like that, youâre a bigger idiot than I thought,â he snapped, bristling. He knew that, compared to a vampire, he was a much more obvious sign of the supernatural, but he refused to let humans see him. Even if anyone did see him... his lightning speed and incredible senses made sure they wouldnât live to tell the tale. âYou thought wrong,â he shot back, a bit annoyed that Quincy was so stuck on the fact that he was a wendigo. Why did it matter? They were both built to be man-eaters, regardless of the vampireâs personal morality. âYou donât know anything about being a wendigo,â he growled, curling his hands into tight fists. Control? It had nothing to do with control, and he wouldnât stand being called weak for refusing to sit back and let himself die. âAnd you definitely donât know anything about what happened to me.â
Jack grated his teeth together, his patience beginning to wear thin. How could Quincy get under his skin so easily? How could he succeed in bothering him where so many others had failed? âIâm not on a leash.â He rolled his eyes. âHas it ever crossed your mind that I donât want to leave Bright Haven? Iâm fine here. Just because you decided to leaveâand then come backâdoesnât mean that everyone will.â It was ridiculous how annoying Quincy could be when it came to his unfortunate condition, and he was half tempted to lash out and punch him. âWhat does it matter if Iâm tired of it or not? Thatâs life,â he said, managing to sound less bothered by his comments than he actually was. âHumans always stick their noses where they donât belong. Another thing you picked up from them after you left town, Iâm guessing.â While heâd done his best to dodge the question, it didnât change the fact that he was tired of the constant concern he was shown. He wasnât cursed with the worst of sickly appearances, but just because he didnât appear to be literally rotting away didnât change the fact that he looked close to death... and humans, apparently, were much more concerned about that than he was.
Again, he rolled his eyes. âSo youâre a mind reader now? You can just tell Iâm completely incapable of loving anyone?â It was an absolutely ridiculous claim, and a false one at that, but he wasnât about to work to prove Quincy wrong. That was too stupid of a move when relations could be used against himâhe wouldnât put it past Soulmerians to lower themselves to that degree, and even if the vampire was against it, he wasnât willing to take that risk. âWhat, you think seekers are the only people who do those things? I know the king liked to send out as much propaganda as possible about how Soulmeria was a perfect little paradise, but you have to be naive to think that we all lived in perfect harmony. Just because you didnât see the violence yourself doesnât mean it wasnât there.â He shook his head, a sneer working its way back onto his face. âEven if you were right, there isnât a home to go back to. Soulmeria is gone, Quincy. Itâs dead. Itâs not coming back. The only place you have left is Earth.â The sharp scent of blood only fueled the hatred within him, giving him a sick sense of satisfactionâclearly, he was bothering Quincy just as much as he was bothering him. Good. âGo ahead, show me.â He goaded him on a bit too eagerly, but if he was going to offer... well, he wouldnât mind finishing the fight.
âDo you think werewolves are just as disgusting?â he asked, grimacing. âOr do you just have a problem with me, specifically?â To him, blood alone was about as satisfying as just water. He could live off of it, for a little while, but if he didnât consume flesh and bone, he wouldnât last very long. Vampires had the luxury of being able to keep their victims aliveâwendigos, whether they liked it or not, had to kill them in order to feed. âYouâre weak for denying what you actually are, not because youâre asking for help,â he replied icily, clenching his jaw. âAnd I know what a grocery store is. Iâve lived here long enough for that.â