texas forever

Staring at the camera Jackson sat still for a moment, not exactly sure what he was suppose to say. He managed to smile shyly at the lens, shrugging a little. "What am I suppose to say?..hi?" He sighed deeply, sitting straight before he started to speak again. "Look I'm going to be completely honest. If you made it to 24 I'll be so fucking proud of you -- of me. Us, whatever. If you even made it out of Dillon alive I'll be so fucking ecstatic. But, that'd be like, a miracle, wow. Um. Let's just say, hypothetically, you made it to 37. Are you clean? Did you do everything you wanted? Marry Winnie? Tell me you married her. If you didn't, find her, sabotage her marriage if she got married and tell her you love her and she's your other half. Actually-- don't. If she's moved on, don't do that. Don't, don't be selfish. Not with her. If she's happy, don't fuck it up. Make sure Aaron is still in your life because you're gonna need him to talk to the cops when you kill Winnie's new husband." He laughed, running a hand through his hair. "Don't do that. Don't kill anyone. I hope you haven't killed anyone. I know you want to get revenge on anyone who fucks with you, but, just don't dude. Let Karma do it for you. She usually does a pretty good job at that. How are Julius and Parker? If you don't know, you better go call them up right now. They're probably like married or something by now. If they haven't come out as lovers by 37, tell everyone you know. How is Grant? Still being fake? Tell that guy to grow a pair and do what he wants, fuck everyone else. I really hope you're with Winnie right now while you're watching this, so she can know that you've loved her ever since you first saw her stab the meatloaf surprise that one day during lunch. She said she swore it moved and she made you laugh, you remember don't you? I know you're laughing right now because you remember." Jackson started laughing as he remember that day now too. Settling down, he sighed deeply, looking at the camera, imagining himself at 37, picturing what he would look like as if he were right in front of him. "I'm really proud of you for making it this far, alive. I hope you're proud of us too. I hope you like who you are now at least. I really hope you get to see this."