what I think abt in the car listening to the same 3 CDs

watching every ryan gosling movie and so far he's an artsy piece of shit. hail mary and fall guy seem to be part of a new trend where he's fun to watch

one of the hard things about being a lesbianish trans guy dude is letting yourself be physically attracted to women without guilt. I like boobs! Wowza! I'm not a bad person for finding my girlfriend attractive!

watched project hail mary yesterday and rewatched iron lung today. I'm having fun. I'm quitting my job.

there's something beautiful abt being with someone when you're both teenagers and growing into adults with them. like some days I'm just in awe of the gorgeous woman my girlfriend turned into. dear lord. I remember when we had bony elbows and babyface. when we were 90% legs and 10% acne. and maybe I'm still there but when I blinked she became a goddess artists would die to sculpt