j0phus

It's bizarre to me if this isn't obvious because I feel like he knows it and that is why it is really hard/awkward for me to talk to him. If it weren't for that, he'd be the best person. (LA would be another poor choice for the same reason.)

Lindbergh baby.

Amelia Earhardt.

What happened to Howard Hughes.

The grounding of the Concorde.

Retiring the Space Shuttle program.

There's more stuff like this that I'm not listing.

It's this. Not that.

I'm still stuck. I can't leave and there is literally no way out. I can't even afford an emergency. So in case you think things are fine because I have a job, it's basically minimum wage. I'm not sitting here ok.

(At least, put $100k in a FedEx box...)

I don't want to say what is happening, but it's barely treading water with 2 emergencies about to happen. So please, at least don't smile on camera. I can't handle any more gaslighting. At all.

Then just a reminder to people who see me every day, I was driving a Land Rover and BMW making $200k before this happened. This is not my lifestyle, I don't know how to engage with people- I think about people stalking/harrassing me and other people. Personal experience with blackmail and violence etc. All the time. I can't talk about it. I just come to work to do my job, in the same room, with the same people as best I can and leave.

Bill Withers - Lean On Me (Live in Chicago, 1972)

An amazing coincidence that I super appreciate and am very thankful for, that I ordered this handmade shirt to wear the day I met Jakob.

So very sincerely. More than money, I need this back.