Isa

I’m disappointed. I hoped for the best, but I also expected for the worst. Or maybe I already saw this coming but I just kept on denying until the truth slapped me real hard. I was thinking, ‘Why do they keep listening to them? Is our voice not loud enough? They only make up 5% of our population, why do their shitty opinion weigh more than ours? Why can’t they just fuck it?’ I honestly kept thinking about that out of frustration for several years now. But I guess, I can’t really blame the management nor the members. It’s not their fault and it’s not like they wanted this to happen. They’re the victims here. It surely hurts them more than it did to us. They had to come up with a decision, a difficult one and I guess, it’s this. We really, finally, came down to this. This isn’t the SJ 2019 comeback I was anticipating until yesterday. I’m done being mad and frustrated. I’m tired and depressed. I cried twice today at the office after reading the news and recalling all the shit that’s been going on for days, no, actually, for years now. All the shits. I thought I was just disappointed, period. But I realized, I’m really on a deep shit. I know it’s just pop music but I loved the members like a real friend who just happen to live abroad. SJ meant a lot to me and I wish nothing but the best for them and their well-being. It hurts to see how the fandom is slowly killing them. I’ve been thinking of quitting from this fandom but if there’s anyone who has to quit, it’s not me nor thousands of other ELF who truly care for SJ. If I leave, if any of us leaves, the only ones left would be the entitled stock-buying abusive termites and that won’t do any good for the boys. I don’t know how long or until when I’m gonna stay to support SJ. I definitely didn’t start supporting them and put a schedule when to stop. So I’ll stay as long as I can to support Super Junior - all 15 of them.