Addressing all allegations
Before mentioning everything, I'd like y'all to note a few things.
— Trigger warnings: Mentioning gore, slurs, Offenderman, mentioning an abuser (Crystal Castles, Ethan), mentioning of alcohol, etc. — Please do not harass Seirei over this at all. Yes, she made 2-3 videos about that and yes, she has spread some false information, but this is about me and not her. She does not deserve to be harassed. Seirei has been harassed over this, which is why I wanted to mention this. [ @seireitonin ] — Some people don't want their names leaked, so obviously I will draw over some users. — If I'm unsure about what prons to use for different people, I will use they/them. — I don't know where people got that from, but I'm not 25, nor am I in my twenties. My age will be mentioned in this post. Topics: 1. Doxxing & Spamming gore 2. Crystal castles 3. Kastoway 4. Lulu canon sheet 5. Offenderman „headcanons“ 6. Sally‘s channel 7. "Groomer" allegations 8. L slur 9. Asher 11. School shooting jokes? 12. The whole SA thing 13. "Ben drowned controller"-person 14. August and her personal relationship 15. Alcohol mentioning 16. Overly dark humor 17. Krunkatron
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Doxxing
I think people tried to doxx me over all of this now, sending my IP address to Seirei and (possibly!) others, which is a bit wild but there's not much I can do except get a VPN. They also threatened to doxx a literal 13 year old and spam them gore images which is fucked up, nicely said. "Tulip" is the "frenchfucker67200" person.
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Crytal Castles
Because someone mentioned me supporting Ethan Kath, I'd like to mention that I don't. He's a terrible person who has abused Alice Glass (The old lead singer of Crystal Castles) for years and more.
I do love listening to Crystal Castles and ramble about how much I love the music, but did not say anything positive about Ethan. I don't idolize him either. I idolize Alice Glass, who unfortunately was a victim of Ethan.
As far as I'm informed, Alice is the victim and Ethan the abuser. I heard rumors about Ethan being innocent, but there's too much against him. I'm just a Crystal Castles listener, I do NOT know what's the 100% truth.
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Kastoway
I made a video, claiming that "Kastoway didn't actually do anything" and people shouldn't immediately believe everyone claiming stuff without showing proof, and now I'm basically getting called out for that too. I researched a bit and went through his sister's TikTok who made a whole google doc about Kastoway, linking it in her bio. People claim Kastoway is trans-phobic and supported a really weird creator (Sally's creator, La_Mishi_Mishi), so I wanna show what I actually found related to that since I never saw anything confirming that Kastoway is trans-phobic.
The links in the doc don't work anymore. Also another screenshot of me saying "as far as I know" and not saying "100% the truth".
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Lulu canon sheet
Basically; In our Discord server, every character has her own channel for canon information and images. I threw in most canon drawings the creator made, including one where she was very exposed with only a part of the chest-area covered and the hips including private areas. This was a scar, body and bruise reference. I only put it there for scar refernece purposes, though I see and understand how this drawing is disgusting and should not be shown in a public server. I deleted it after talking about it with someone I will keep anon and a few mods.
Because people got upset over me adding a sexuality headcanon, it's canon that Lulu is straight. When making the headcanon about her being straight, I had no intention of "sexualizing her". I just threw in a headcanon about what sexuality she could possibly have since apparently she's dating someone?
^ This is all canon information. I'm not sure what "via" means, so I'm not gonna comment that, that's all I could related to Lulu's age. I do not know how old she is on the picture, but assuming she's a minor, I deleted it from her channel.
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Offenderman
Someone basically claimed I was making Offenderman headcanons:
^ , even though that's straight up a lie? Those are not my headcanons, those were canon facts. For context, we have channels for all characters and their canon information, including Offenderman (until he got removed). I copied those from his canon sheets on DeviantArt, I did not write them myself.
Rough context to the Offenderman channel: He was supposed to be a part of the book because of the whole 4-Slender-brother thing and I planned on killing him off & was NOT gonna include ANY of his actions, but after people expressed their discomfort towards Offendermans channel and him being a part of the book, I removed him completely.
I also like to mention that I don't support Offenderman nor his actions at all. I only added him to have "the 4 Slender-brothers" in the book.
Krunkatron was willing to purposely take something out of context which is kinda crazy, but also what you have to expect when it comes to using Discord, I guess.
But yeah every time someone tried to tell them, they got blocked.
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Sally's channel
Krunkatron claimed I called Sally "sexy" which is also a wild thing to say, purposely taking it out of context.
This is all copied information I threw in the channel after copying it from her canon sheets. I didn't read everything, I just threw everything in I found. A while later I went through everything and noticed the "sexy", so I removed it.
As far as I can tell, La_Mishi_Mishi (Sally's creator) was explaining the "meaning of the name Sally" which you can literally see on the screenshot too.
Though, I don't see why they would have to include that in a character description of an 8 year old, so I'm absolutely NOT defending them & removed it. Not to mention that they drew weird shit as well.
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Groomer allegations
I don't really have much of a choice in this since allegations like that are serious as hell, so please, I'm not 25 (where ever people got that from). I'm a minor. I was never comfortable with revealing my age or talking about it a lot, since I got groomed several times and wanted to avoid that happening again.
Some of my friends didn't know, so don't pounce on them, only a few knew. The me driving a car video, that was in a parking lot. I've shown my ID to a few people like August, Vanessa, Asher, Alory and Jack too.
I never planned on sharing my exact age. Once people started making guesses, saying they think I'm 19-24, I just went along with it because I was not comfortable sharing my age.
With that being said, most of the allegations are probably cleared up. Specially the "jokingly flirts with minors"-thing.
And before krunk comes at me for my diagnoses, surprise, you can get diagnosed at the age of 15 in Germany. Some personality disorders can be diagnosed at 15 and yes, I got my diagnoses by several professionals. Faking mental disorders is disgusting, I don't do that.
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L-Slur
There's basically a screenshot of me saying the L slur, and I just want to say that I didn't know it was a slur. I don't use slurs I'm not allowed to use, so I immediately stopped saying the word once Alory (the person who I said it to) explained it.
Some people claim it's not a slur, some say it is, but it doesn't really matter. What matters is that I will not use it again since I'm not a lesbian and have no right to use that slur.
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Asher
Some people claim Asher is a n.zi, and I just want to reassure everyone that he is definitely not one. He explained several times that he does not support any of HABIT's actions and rambles about how terrible he actually is. And no, I'm not "grooming Asher"?? Like I said, I'm a minor myself. In fact, I helped Asher get rid of groomers to stay safe 3 times now.
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School shooting jokes
I basically made a joke about something like "shoot them like the kids in America", and honestly, isn't that the most common joke? I see so many famous YouTubers like Markiplier or Flamingo joke about it, almost everyone on TikTok and literally everyone I talk to. I see how people are uncomfortable if they suffer under trauma related to school shootings, so I won't make those jokes anymore, but aren't they more or less normal at that point? (genuine question)
Tumblr is only letting me add 30 images in total, so I'm trying to think fo a way to show screenshots without being forced to make 6 different posts.
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The SA "joke" thing
There have been allegations of me "joking about SA" which is false though. I'm not gonna mention who I'm talking about since they told my friend through Instagram that they don't want to be a part of this drama. For privacy reasons, I will refer to them as "X".
X referred to themself as a whore quite a lot in the server, so I genuinely started to believe it. On call, they also told me they were a whore, and I was convinced this wasn't some joke but something serious. X told me that they have been SA'd in the past, but what they didn't tell me is that all of their sexual experiences were SA. Like I said, I genuinely believed X was someone who just slept with anyone they wanted.
I started calling them a whore too when they asked if I believed them, saying "yeah 50/50" because I knew some of it was SA and was still convinced some wasn't.
To skip less important details, X cut contact to me and we haven't talked ever since. X's best friend did DM me and talk to me about the whole whore "joke" thing, explaining the details to me.
If I would've known all of it was SA, I would've not joked about it. At all.
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The "Ben Drowned's controller" person
Basically a 12 year old that was upset that they got kicked from our server. You have to be 13+ to use Discord. Either way, they claimed that Virus (someone who tried to get nudes from a 13 year old and someone who tried to groom Asher) was not a groomer.
Please note this person is ONLY 12, so DO NOT HARASS THEM.
They were spreading false information, claiming Virus (aka Kiro on those pictures) is "normal", even though he's far from that. Virus is 22, telling a 14 year old about his kinks, offering to write smut, writing smut, talking about porn and sending sexual drawings. This is absolutely not okay. Saying "Asher could've told him to stop" is not a valid excuse either. Why would an adult tell a minor about that in first place. That's just disgusting.
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August and their relationship
There's nothing much I have to say to that other then that people shouldn't send around screenshots of August's and their ex's DM's?
They are both the same age and (as far as I know) were comfortable with what happened, bringing up their old relationship has NOTHING to do with all of this, so stop.
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Alcohol mentioning
The whole alcohol mentioning has been stopped about 2 months ago. People already expressed their feelings about this, so I stopped. I used to send pictures of my collection at times, which some people twisted into "promoting alcohol" as if I was telling people to drink.
As said, I stopped around 2 months ago (I think) and won't really mention alcohol anymore. I don't know why people brought it up again if we stopped.
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I'm gonna post a "part 2" tomorrow or once I can, talking about all the overly dark jokes I made. It's like 3:17 AM and I have to go to work in a few hours so yeah I'll do that tomorrow.
A few more notes!!!
— I'm most likely gonna delete overly rude comments because it's just unnecessary (looking at Krunkarton who said "Idc if youre a minor, slit to the bone"???) — Read everything before commenting something please, I don't wanna explain things several times when most answers are in this post — Again, I'll address the rest in the second post because of the picture limit
Telling 13 year olds stuff like that is feral. (most of the comments are towards 2 of my friends so yah)
Addressing the other allegations (2)
Please read the first post I made before judging anything in this post, since I cleared up a lot of stuff there.
L slur, again..
Swe3t-strwberry
Overly dark humor in general
Krunkatron
L-slur, again...
Apparently some people didn't believe the fact that I didn't know that the L-word was a slur, which is just fucking desperate at that point. I'm sorry but seriously, people expect you to know all slurs in the world and when you apologize & state you didn't know it was a slur, people are still mad??
There are hundreds (if not thousands) of slurs, I can't know all of them. If I accidentally say one of those slurs & someone tell me "hey you can't say that", I will apologize and won't say it again. Like I did with the L slur. Screenshot related to that are in the first "addressing allegation" post.
I was not trying to offend anyone, and I'm sorry if I did. I will not use it again, as I've said. I don't understand why people are still mad, to be honest.
Also, please note English is not even my first language, so it's harder for me to know about things that are considered offensive in America or England, etc... The person I said the L slur to (Alory) took no offence by it, which they stated, too. Again, screenshots are in the first post.
Swe3t-strwberry — (Trigger warning; SH and suicide mentioned)
The person who told 13 year olds to "slit to the bone" and telling them to kill themselves, which is fucking insane. They also got mad at me for using the L slur, but at the same time use words like retard (I can use this word). It's just hypocritical of them after saying awful things towards a minor and using slurs (towards other people with harmful intent) themselves.
They called people "retarted" for disagreeing, purposely using that word as an insult. But get mad when I don't know about the L-Slur. Again, just childish & hyporitical.
If I do something wrong, directly talk to me. Call me out in person. I'm not gonna get mad and smash my keyboard against the wall, I don't know what some people think I'll do when they talk to me. As long as others are polite & respectful, I will be too. I'm trying to be understanding and see this whole situation through everyone's perspective.
But what do I expect from someone who's overly obsessed with me & tries to fish out literally ANYTHING to get mad over. Seriously, please just close Tumblr and do something meaningful. You're not helping any "victims" by telling people to kill themselves or slit & record it.
Overly dark humor
NOTE: I grew up and still live in Germany, dark humor with almost no filter at all is very common and normalized. When making jokes, I had no intention of harming or upsetting anyone. People around me made hitler jokes and all sorts of other things 24/7, literally joking about anything.
So most of the stuff has been normalized to me. This is NOT an excuse, this is an explanation to why I've made those jokes without considering they can be insulting towards others that are not "used" to 'jokes' like that. I also used to have a friend who's black and was completely fine with this type of humor. Though, I should've been more mindful about it all since not everyone's boundaries are the same.
I feel like if only I confirm that any sort of dark joke is "normal" in Germany, people don't believe me and think it's some sort of excuse, so I wanted to show others just confirming it. Again, I never meant to offend anyone and I’m sorry if what I said seriously upset you. Those jokes had no harmful intend. ————————
—Down-syndrome joke I basically made a down syndrome joke 4-5 months ago with Argie in DM's, saying some rather mean stuff. I can only repeat that I had no harmful intend and that it was just a bad joke. I stopped joking about it a few months ago and also talked about it with Argie in person. I'm sorry if I offended anyone, I will not continue with those jokes and stopped with them a while ago either way. ———————— —The n word thing The n word thing was COMPLETELY taken out of context. I NEVER said the n word nor was I close to saying it. It's a screenshot of me making a "joke rp" with Kousomii/Kat where I said "tries not to say the n word". The whole "rp" was about NITRO. I was referring to nitro, but some people purposely took it out of context and claimed I was about to say the n word. I don't use slurs I'm not allowed to use. (Don't hit me with the "erm you used the l slur". I already talked about this in this post and another post.)
———————— —The emojis Basically a screenshot of me using emojis of like 4 black people with wide eyes is going around. Those emojis are memes from another server, I didn't think it would be harmful towards some people. After seeing how it genuinely upset some people, I want to apologize. The reason why I used them in first place was to tease my friend, Kat, who stated she hates those emojis, so I sent them to tease her a little. I had no harmful intention at all. Again, I'm sorry if I upset someone.
^ Screenshots with context, basically just confirming what I just said.
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—Cassies boundaries 💀 Cassie and me have pretty rude humor towards each other, jokingly saying "I hate you, get out", etc. We are insensitive towards those rude jokes since they are just jokes after all. The amount of times she said the same is hilarious, but of course "sweet strawberry" gets mad at me when I say it once. Cassie was not affected in a negative way by this joke. She literally makes fun of my disorders too AS A JOKE and I don't call her ableist either. We ask each other a LOT for boundaries to not accidentally cross them & if we are ever upset, we talk things out in DMs.
Also before anyone thinks this isn't Cassie, I simply use the name Kasi to annoy her since she hates it.
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—Hitler joke There are a few people upset over me, jokingly saying "im like hitler n stuff", and to be honest, I really don't see how that's very harmful? I'm German so I didn't think it would be much of a deal. It was also in my and Eve's DM's. No one else was affected by it.
I know damn well war was a horrible thing and Hitler is NOT a good person in the slightest, I wasn't trying to say anything else with that joke. If I offended someone however, then I'm sorry.
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—The feet joke... People are trying to sexualize the feet joke I made towards August, saying it's grooming, which is just insane to be honest. I'm not even older than August, and the only thing I said was "I'll wrap my feet around you to keep you warm". I don't see how that's sexual. The feet jokes are a big insider between us (me, august, and 5+ others.)
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—The "Im not black thing" There's a screenshot taken out of context again.
I didn't even realize how offensive the whole thing sounded until I looked at it again. The all caps and "fucking" made it sound like I was offended. I want to apologize for that, because I wasn't. It was my mistake for wording it poorly and I will take accountability for it. So, I'm sorry if it sounded offensive. I should've watched my language.
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—This... There was one that was actually bad which I realized immediately after. I don't even know what I thought when I said that but I was really fucking stupid for saying that since that was clearly not okay. The part of me apologizinh immediately after saying it was cut out in the screenshots that are going around, so here's the whole thing. The second Kat told me I can't say that (which should've been obvious to me), I apologized and stopped saying it.
I'm genuinely sorry, saying that was definitely not okay. This is the same day where I jokingly blackwashed Toby after Eve asked "Is Ticci Toby black". I didn't realize that that was insulting either. So again, I'm very sorry. Me growing up with those jokes being normalized is not an excuse. I will not make those jokes again, not in a server nor in private.
It was some sort of mistake, but I should've known better in that case. I can already smell people trying so say "He DID know and is 100% racist", but yeah. I can only repeat myself that I'm genuinely sorry and immediately apologized after making that joke. It was not okay.
Krunkatron
My first thought was that Krunk was that "sweet strawberry"-person, but I doubt it now. I understand why they were upset about some of the things or even all of the things I'm addressing. Again, I wish to be confronted directly instead of people taking things out of context (like the Sally name thing, the Offenderman shit and some other stuff I addressed in the other post).
Please do NOT harass Krunk over this at all. The fact that they were upset is valid, so I apologized & will apologize again in this post.
Just wanted to mention this again, since Seirei told me she received a lot of hate (including racism), which is not okay, AT ALL. So leave Krunk out of this, please. I just want this to be talked out in peace without more hate and unnecessary arguments.
Some other screenshots:
I hope I addressed everything. If anyone has questions, be respectful & simply ask me. I'm not an aggressive nor rude person. Sure, I can be sassy, but I'm respectful as long as you are too.
Again, don't attack anyone over this, not me, nor Seirei or Krunk. Their feelings are valid and I have no right to make them uncomfortable with my jokes.
If I make any other "bad-joke", please directly talk to me and tell me to stop. A part of the whole "not understanding" thing could be the fact that I'm autistic (diagnosed by a professional), but that is NOT an excuse either! Though, that's why I want people to directly confront me instead of blocking me so I can't reply. I'm not using my disorder as an excuse.
