Jian yi suffering vs Zhang zhen xi kindness
So thinking about it, after his birthday poor Jian Yi has had a really crappy couple of days!âŚso please bear with me since itâs a long post :P
First he had a peak of happiness!
Then we all thoughtâŚyes!!! this is gonna be great!!! and then bamâŚthis faceâŚ
After this everything went downhill!!!, fist he meet some bullies âŚ
And felt weak..
Then the confrontationâŚ
And seeing his most important person being hurtâŚ.
Which was of course very harsh on himâŚ.
then the guilt cameâŚÂ
impatiently waiting for him to wake up âŚ
seeing him at the hospital âŚ
He felt sad and lonelyâŚ
even doubting what he wanted to do with his life..
then the past came back to haunt him, and he got sick..
So he had a moment of temptationâŚÂ
and everything became even worse..
He felt like he screwed up so he might lose the most important thing to himâŚ
And it was to much to handleâŚ
 he felt confused..
and extremely hurtâŚ
so he wanted to erase the painâŚ
But when he woke up the next dayâŚ.the pain was still thereâŚand the memory as well..
So of course he wasnât feeling well at school eitherâŚ.
then reality came back to slap him in the face, is not just the two of themâŚ
plus the memory of last night was still thereâŚ
and he had to face what happenedâŚ
Then a gossip came and the whole school was aware of his ârivalâ feeling âŚ
and to make it worse, on top of all that confusion he was called what he feared the mostâŚ
So at this point Jian yi must feel emotionally exhausted!! anyone would! like what the hell is wrong, how can it be possible to have so many crappy thing to happen one after another???âŚ.BUT THERE IS A SILVER LINING ON ALL THISâŚand that is that above all, Zhang zheng xi kindness has come up everytime Jian yi feels like falling.
whenever he make a sad faceâŚ
when he feels weakâŚ.
when he is having a bad dayâŚ
whenever he is under a threatâŚ
somehow he will come up to protect himâŚ
to cheer him up..
to make him feel needed and wantedâŚ
to make him feel safeâŚ
he takes care of the small detailsâŚ
he takes care of him when he is vulnerableâŚ
when he just can't stand up in his own two feetâŚ
He worriesâŚ
and wonât leave him aloneâŚ
he feels Jian yi´s painâŚ
like his ownâŚ
and will always try to do something, to make it a bit betterâŚ
even if he is not that good at showing his emotionsâŚ
he will be there to catch himâŚ
to ask if he is okâŚ
to look after himâŚ
and defend his reputation, even when Jian Yi is not thereâŚ.
he won´t ever leave him aloneâŚ
even when Jian Yi is shutting him outâŚ
because he wants to understand him betterâŚÂ
he wants to make it clear that he is not aloneâŚ
   and someone truly care for himâŚ
Because love in any form is always patient and always kind.
Hope you guys like it!!!! these are my edits on the latest Old Xian 19 days chaptersâŚit took a while so I hope you enjoy it :) !!!
I just read this a few nights ago and this is by far the sweetest, most beautiful thing I have ever read.
My heart forever breaks for Jian Yi but I really believe that he will be happy some day.. holding hands with the person he loves.
