Bones

Getting back into restricting is honestly the best feeling in the world. It makes you feel like you FINALLY have control over yourself again.

if you think you can just follow me and start talking to me as if we were friends well you are correct

my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

pretty sure i’ve reblogged this already before but it’s just so accurate

this is literally so fucking accurate. my brain will always tell me shit like “just have a fruit and dont log it” but bitch i know what i did!

LMAO happened last week