Dream:Â
7 nights in a row I had terminator dreams, where the Arnold terminator tells me I’m being chased by the liquidy terminator and then rescues me much like in T2. This dream has popped up ever since I first saw T2 when I was 12, always when I’m feeling most vulnerable and struggling whether or not I should trust others. An invincible protector who literally can’t hurt or betray me, rescuing me from toxic people? This dream is transparent.
Then Wednesday night I dreamed that I snuck into the amazing library of an elite university. After poring over all the books and artifacts, I was discovered by the staff who said they wouldn’t press charges against me if I began seeing a spiritual director on a regular basis. They sent me to a patient, knowledged, understanding old priest at a middle school parish. We had peaceful weekly meetings and he had me clean the church when it wasn’t in use, which I enjoyed.
Thursday night I dreamed that I hiked through a park with a lake on my way to clean the church again. A great blue heron was sunbathing, I sat on a rock and watched it a while before continuing. The church was different this time, it’s appeared hundreds of times in my dreams. The basement is a museum of Church crimes, the main floor is an elegant but distant/cold/detached church with art deco windows, cream walls, and blood red shag carpet. A stairway to the left takes me up to a dusty hallway with windows on the left side showing a cloudy sky, an abandoned chapel with a decorative iron door on the right. I always go up there whenever this church shows up in my dream.
Last night I dreamed that I was cleaning the shag-carpeted church when the liquidy terminator broke in. The Arnold terminator grabbed me and took me to a natural spring and baptized me.
Interpretation:
Well, I think your interpretation of why the Terminator might be appearing in your dream is spot on. It is indeed completely transparent. These are all separate dreams, but I'm not going to interpret them individually. The main thing I want to talk about is the one thing all of these dreams have in common: a connection to church.
These two elements, Terminator and church, are an interesting combination. And while they seem completely different, it seems to me that they share a common quality: protection. And not just a strong armed protector stepping in when you need it - even the most trustworthy can turn on you at moment's notice - but an unconditional protector. In your waking life, especially when times get tough, this is what you desire most.
But what if you're taking it too far? Are you trying to be invincible? Being an untouchable hero is fine in a movie, but in your waking life trying to be invincible is just a chink in your armor. Someone will eventually find it and use it to hurt you. And when someone does hurt you, you may not be able to avoid the pain. Try to stop finding a hero, and face your emotions head on.
The fact that you act as a caretaker for this church goes along with this notion. Your inner world has you nurturing the protections you have built around you. It's easy to put up an impenetrable shield when you feel hurt or anxiety, but it's better in the long run to face the world.
But that's not to say all you haven't been making great strides lately. The baptism in the most recent dream seems significant to me. A baptism can represent  a resurgence in your faith, both in yourself and in a higher power. Have you achieved greater self-realization lately?
There are lots of symbols in this set of dreams to consider, but I hope I've given you something to think about with regards to the recurring church motif.