This is my life

New piercings :3 #doublerook #piercings #ear #owies

Merry Christmas everyone :3 have an amazing day <3 #christmas #lightsonmytop #lovetoall

Getting into the Christmas spirit at work #christmas #bluesantahat

Christmas tree :3

Everything has gone downhill in the last 2 weeks. I got dumped for someone else and just when i thought things were alrightish and I could talk to my ex without completly breaking down I find out she committed suicide. Then I end up spending a week in hospital to stop me from doing the same. Only problem is that I still want to. Everything is fucked up and nothing makes sense I really just want to die and not have to deal with any of this anymore. Life is too hard I just want to give up :'(

I have to take my septum peircing out or im going to get kicked out of home. My girlfriend is pissed off at me because i was busy last night when she called. Im being forced to eat even when Im not hungry. Life is just generally shit right now. I just want it all to stop. I want to dissapear. I havent felt like this for so long and to be honest Im scared. I dont know how to deal with things and Im scared of what Im going to do. I need help