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there isn’t Awareness in a world, the world appears in Awareness.

so theres smth that i really want you guys to understand: desires are illusions. whatever you desire, you have within already. you focus on the object when the object itself is not important. you are being fooled by believing the object is what you want. lemme elaborate:

lets say you desire to be in a relationship with sp. now what happens most of the times? you have all these butterflies, you feel loved, good, excited whenever you spend time with sp. so now your ego mind is mislead to believe that sp is the cause of those good feelings

surprise: nothing could be further from the truth. sp is just awakening smth that has ALREADY been within yourself. sp is just giving your feelings space to flow freely. and that is so crucial to get: its not THAT sp, THAT job, THAT object. its you wanting to FEEL a certain way

you are giving objects way too much meaning when those objects are just neutral without your awareness of them. they may be enhancing your feelings, sure. but theyre not what is causing you to have those feelings in the first place. all these objects are NOT the obstacle. its YOU

you are already whole and complete. you are pure consciousness in human form. you are limitless and in fact creating your entire experience here on earth. you ALREADY have everything you desire. EVERYTHING. there are no limits. all these objects are there to be experienced by you

what i want you to get from this tho is that these objects never were the problem. "i cant have sp :,(" "im broke :,(" no, thats false. your awareness lies on NOT having those objects. on ONLY feeling a certain way when "having" that specific object. youre being dependent on it

see how ironic that sounds? being dependent on smth that you have created yourself. being dependent on smth that wouldnt even exist without your awareness of it. it is YOU. really sit with this. you HAVE everything you ever wanted already. no limits whatsoever

you being excited when sp "finally" conforms is also not a long-lasting feeling of happiness bcs it shows that you still gave that object more meaning than yourself. wait until you finally realize that the journey of life has always been SELF. everything is SELF. I AM THAT I AM

objects have no meaning guys. if you feel offended or triggered by this, then you know where your awareness and your attention is on (hint: not on the fulfillment of SELF). we are human, its natural for us to desire things, but keep in mind that those things BELONG to you already

nothing is separate from you and once you truly understand this, youre free. now go and enjoy your life and your "desires" to the fullest now, bcs what else is there other than the present moment? heres to an amazing new year! <3 ily

💔 sp who didn't commit, didn't want to show affection, was cheating, toxic, etc.

🤍 sp who is dying to commit, is constantly showing you affection, would never dream of cheating or even hurting you

both of these people exist right now in the moment depending on whichever you're aware of. STOP dealing with 💔since you left that reality there's no need for that dusty mf to exist. and probably 🤍 hates them because of the growth and pain they had to endure to get there. imagine your entire life being about the worst thing you've ever done. (luckily i don't have to) but whenever i think about how was trying to manifest him back but would keep arguing with him in my head i literally imagined me and 🤍 talking and then all of a sudden i get upset at 💔 who no longer exist and is a shadow of 🤍 past. i can consciously accept this fact but 🤍 cannot. every time i think about 💔 and how i was treated i was just reminding 🤍 of his past (therefore doesn't exist) mistakes. since i was trying to manifest 🤍 while continuously interacting with 💔, hot and cold behavior instead came up. stay with 🤍

he didn't want to reach out cuz he was scared i hated him and tbh since thought transmission exists that's exactly what i was showing him by arguing with the previous version. once i stopped this and decided i wanted to put the past behind us i realized it was ego in the first place so it was REALLY easy.

You understand nothing.

You know nothing.

Your "know that I have it" is persuading the hell out of Vanessa, drilling thoughts into her head and desperately trying to get her to accept them.

Knowing is being. If you really knew, the thing you knew would be materialized. You know you are Vanessa so you're being Vanessa. And you'll continue to only know and be Vanessa if you insist on manifesting/getting things because there are no things to want. Would you want Vanessa if you were her? No. You are her so you don't desire her. And you won't be able to be Vanessa 2.0 if you don't shed this Vanessa first. That is, let go of thinking the thoughts are yours.

There is nothing to desire and you can only have by letting go of the thought that you don't. And that thought is close to impossible to let go of from the standpoint of being Vanessa because she'll continue to hang on it, it is her. Even if Vanessa lies to herself like you did right now & says that she knows she has it, she obviously doesn't believe that if she's trying so hard to achieve it.

First off, realize you are never not it. We are actually fully realized all the time. We are fully realized Beings saying that we are not. So all we do is let go of “we are not” and what's left over is the fully realized Being that we are.

Second, if you're able to understand it intellectually but not able to use it, it's because you're not looking at yourself honestly, truthfully, with deep desire to see your Self, in the process of which you have set up as the subconscious mind all the things you will not look at.

However, it's not necessary to dig up this unconscious mind, in fact it's much better to try to quiet the mind. When we're able to get the mind totally quiet, what's left over is the infinite Self. Every thought is a thing of limitation. Therefore when we quiet the mind, we still these limiting thoughts and this infinite Being that we are becomes self obvious to us. The Self is then not occluded by the limiting thoughts! We see It, we recognize that we never were that mind, that body, and from that moment on, the mind and body have no influence upon us. We determine for the body as we would a puppet and it has no effect upon us, as a puppet that we would be controlling would have no effect upon us.

If you want a "method", then the very best method of all methods is to quiet the mind to see the Being that you are. Pose the question: “Who am I?” and if other thoughts come in, ask, “To whom are these thoughts?” The answer is “To me.” “Well, who am I?” and you're back on the track, seeking to see your Self.

''Who am I?” is the final question that everyone answers, so why not begin with the final question?

There are two ways of growing: one is what I call the negative way, eliminating the negative, going into the mind, seeing the cause of the problem that originated in a thought some time in the past. When we see this thought, when we bring it up into consciousness, we naturally let go of it. We see how silly it is to hold onto it and therefore correct that thought and behavior.

However, the other way is better. It is the positive way. Quiet the mind and see who and what you really are, the infinite Self, pure Awareness. In the over all, there's really only two ways: eliminating the negative and the better, putting in the positive, “I am that I am,” “I am It.” The latter is by far the faster.

Let's now take a look at this so-called apparency, the world. The world is only an illusion that we created mentally. It is not external but in reality within us, within our mind. Someday you'll discover that you created this entire universe that you see. The method of creating is by first creating what we call a mind. We create our mind, which is nothing but a composite of all our thoughts, conscious and subconscious, and the thoughts create the material world. Every little thing that happens to each and everyone of us is created in our thinking. We mentally set up a thing called time which makes it even more difficult to see things because we think now and things happen years later. But the only creator there is, is the mind, your mind.

So now you discover that you created your trouble, then you discover that you can create anything you desire. After you discover that there is nothing that you cannot create, you're still unhappy. The reason is that you have separated yourself from the all that is.

You say you realize you are Awareness but you still "lack" things

If there are any problems that remain, they only remain because you are holding onto them in thought. The moment you let go of them, they are gone! If you tell me that isn't so for you, that isn't true. The truth is you're still holding onto them, telling me that it doesn't work. Now trying to get rid of a problem is holding onto it. Anything we try to get rid of we are holding in mind and thereby sustaining that problem. So the only way to correct a problem is to let go of it. See not the problem, see only what you want. If you would only from this moment on see what you want that is all that you would get. But you hold in mind the things you do not want. You struggle to eliminate the things you don't want, thereby sustaining them.

Now the very highest state is simply Beingness, and if we could only be, just be, we could see our Infinity. We would see that there are no limitations. We would see that we are the All. We would be in a perfectly satiated, permanent, changeless state. And it is not a nothingness, it is not a boredom, it is an Allness, an Everythingness, a Total Satiation that is eternal. You will never, never lose your individuality. The word “I” as you use it to mean your individuality will never ever leave you. It expands. What happens as you re-remember what you are is that you'll begin to see that others are you, that you are me, that you are now and always have been gloriously Infinite.

This subject cannot be learned intellectually, it cannot be learned through the mind because it's perceived just behind the mind. We can use the mind to gradually undo the limitations enough so that we can get behind the mind by getting it quieter. If it were possible to get this subject through the mind intellectually, all we would need to do is to read the books on it and we would have it. But it doesn't work that way. We have to very concentratedly dwell upon our Self that is just behind the mind. Turn the mind back upon the mind to discover what the mind is, and then go beyond the mind to the Self. So to get this subject, each one must experience it, realize it, make it real by going to the place just behind the mind and perceiving it there.

If you examine thoroughly the mind, you will discover that it isn't, it's an illusion. Let it go its way, just watch the mind. The ultimate witness is the Self. It's a tremendous thing to watch the mind. Not only does it quiet it, it makes the mind not you. If you trace the source of the mind, you find it is nothingness. This whole world is a dream illusion, which means that it isn't!

Unlimited joy is our natural, inherent state which we have, through ignorance, undone by imposing concepts of limitations. Anytime we have trouble, anytime we have a problem, we're being the limited ego. We’re trying to express the Self through the limited ego, and it's too small, we get squeezed and it hurts. If you'll just accept that you are not that, that what you are is God, Awareness -- and God is All, God is Perfect, that's all you'll ever meet with!