Tell me would you ever love me again

October 16.

Did I die? Yes. Am I dead? Yes. Am I gonna recover? No.

The first episode of the competition series opens with an emotional tribute to Liam Payne; the One Direction member served as a judge on the show prior to his death in October 2024. At the time, 5SOS shared a statement remembering the singer they spent three years on tour with at the height of their breakthrough.

“There was always a bright light in you,” they wrote. “We are so devastated that this world put that light out.”

“It’s impossible not to get affected by it,” Hemmings says of Payne’s death. “All that anger and frustration, and sadness and grief, definitely plays a part in it.”

These emotions surfaced in a particularly distinct way on “Boyband,” which originated as a much darker song than the mischievous final product. “It started from this dark but funny place, like getting called a boy band and having those egotistical feelings.”

happy birthday, angel ❤️‍🩹

Liam's birthday is coming up and I had been thinking about if for weeks now. I will not be online checking the dash, I will schedule posts that talk about him.

Every time I think about Liam's birthday I cry and I want to scream of how unfair life is. I hate that this is the first birthday without him and that time will keep moving and we will still have to count more birthdays without him.

I hope for any person that will deal with sadness, grief of any difficult sentiment tomorrow find a way to have some comfort, do whatever is best for you and makes you smile a little bit and distract you.