about me: maia, 21, side blog to spam can’t follow back, dms open for girls n gays, i write mainly nsfw n occasional sfw, ignore any mistakes etc & most importantly im hamza ali mazari’s/fawad khan’s wife 𑣲⋆
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disclaimer: this is completely fictional, not in line with real-life events/movies or romanticise the real individuals, ooc depictions, one shot, none spy au.
cw: shauhar gentle dom hamza gifting his wife in two ways! softish sex, dirty talk, cream pie, fingering/oral — F receiving.
a/n: currently morning for me so good morning guys!! did you guys miss me or should i fuck myself hard?
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your handsome shauhar was always the cutest at dawn. you cherished the daily ritual of skin on skin and the way he without fail every morning peppered your face with gentle kisses and whisper to you in his raspy morning voice. the early moments of the day beginning held his repressed side, it was the only time he allowed himself to have these seraphic moments in a world crawling with malice.
despite years passing since your nikkah, today was thankfully no different. if anything your ishq had only developed into a total mutual maddening adoration. every night ended with the pair of you tangled together, amidst the kambals, messy hair and warm skin, you could lay there for hours in his solid, strong embrace you felt hamza stir behind you as you snuggled deeper into his hold, one of his arms tightening around your waist to inch you closer. his large, calloused fingers pressed gently into your stomach, caressing lightly before pulling you flush against his broad chest, burying his face in the crook of your neck with a sleepy hum. your mind still foggy meant a little sound left your lips at the feeling of his cool breath grazing your skin and his coarse beard tickling you making a cute smile tug at his lips, “good morning meri jaan,” he mumbled.
you shifted and let out a grumble sound in response, beginning to gain more consciousness. he stayed pressing his muscular chest against your back as you fully woke up. the weight of his hips settled right into the curve of yours, safe and comfortable. that black vest you’d stolen from him hours earlier was bunched up high around your waist. awareness trying to seep in as you arched your back slightly, a long morning stretch that pushed your ass directly against his morning bulge. you were still blinking away sleep with your cheek against the pillow whilst hamza’s hard on was poking needy into your back. now, his arm stayed tucked under your head, propping you up, while his free hand traced slow, lazy circles over your bare hip, his thumb dragging delicately against your skin. he left small kisses against your shoulder still in that daze of being half asleep, breathing in the homely scent of your jasmine and vanilla.
within a minute he’s got you propped up on your side with one leg hiked up and your thin underwear tugged past down around your thighs. hamza exhaled sharply against the crook of your neck, his fingers instantly tightening on your hip with a sleep warmed grip. his rough palm slid upwards, dragging over the bare skin of your stomach, pulling you even closer until your spine was perfectly spooned against his chest without an inch of space separating you both. his hand drifted lower, fingers slipping beneath the lace to just rest there. he didn’t move just yet, his warm palm flush against your skin, feeling the quiet heat of your body waking up.
“waise, neend bohot gehri thi,” he teased, his voice still thick with sleep against your tangled hair. “par lagta hai abhi tak poori tarah aankh nahi khuli aap ki.” you pushed your hips back into his hand, nodding numbly. keeping your eyes firmly shut to cling onto the little faint feeling of a slumber, muttering, “accha? aap hi thora jaldi mein lag rahe hain.” “jaldi kis baat ki, jaan?” he chuckled, the vibrations of his voice rumbling right against your back. “hamare paas toh poori subah hai.”
he kept you both on your sides, the angle easier, less demanding for a quiet peaceful morning. hamza pulled the lace down catching on your ankle before you kicked one leg free, leaving the other tangled with the sheets. he pushed his own boxers lower, before he kicked them completely off. he was bare against you now, his naked skin feeling hot and solid. his easily eight inches resting against the cleft of your ass staying there without entering just yet.
his hand moved between your legs from the front, fingers finding you with that same sabr he always had. he rubbed tender circles, coaxing a soft urgent sound out of you. your arousal being fuelled more by his touch, making your cravings for him more desperate. your body ready before your mind had fully arrived. dipping a finger in using the arousal the dream of him kindly provided to gently finger fuck you looking at the sight of your head tilting back in pleasure, mouth agape. “tum har din aur khoobsurat lagti ho..khuda ki qasam, tumhein dekh kar dimaag kharab ho jata hai mera,” his words making you more hungry for him as he added another finger sinking them in with no resistance, feeling the subtle feeling of you fully waking up around him.
“aankhein kholo, jaan,” he whispered, his other hand turning your chin gently so he could see your face in the dim light. “mujhe dekhne do tumhein. bilkul aise..dekho kitni zyaada tayaar ho chuki ho mere liye.”you turned your head slightly, biting your lower lip as you look back at him, “tumhare liye..ab aur mat tarsayein.” you moaned out, a lazy smile breaking on your lips despite trying to sound firm though it was hard with his fingers being pumped inside you.
you reached back blindly, your hand finding his hip to pull him closer. you weren’t in the mood for his usual antics of taking his time, he liked to savour every second of intimacy with his wife whereas you couldn’t stand the torturous edging it would feel like, “come.. i need you.” he withdrew his slick covered fingers, transferring that wet grip to your thigh to hold you steady. lining himself up, his dark, tip glistening with pre cum pressed against your wet entrance, pushing in ever so slowly. both of you simultaneously letting out a sigh in content as the steady, unyielding pressure burned so perfectly you could swear you almost stopped breathing for a quick second. your hand flew back to grip his wrist, your nails digging into his skin. he didn’t stop until he was seated deep. his slightly damp hair beginning to cling to his forehead before dropping to your shoulder as a few low pants left his lips. he felt even more massive like this, the blissful angle making him fill you completely until you could feel the throb of him in your lower belly. hamza stayed still for a moment, buried to the brim inside you, his hand splayed wide across your thigh to hold you flush against him. he just waited, letting your cunt flutter around him and adjust to his size again.
“saans lo jaan, sahi ho?” his voice losing its playful, sleepy edge, checking his own control as much as yours. the tremor in his arm showed how hard it was to hold still and be patient. “move,” you demanded against the pillow. “please, hamza..” with that he did as he pulled back just an inch, the slide wet and tight, before rocking forward again to grind. his hips rolling against your ass while he stayed deep inside. his hand moved back between your legs, fingers spreading your folds and pressing against your clit so that every small, rolling rock pushed you directly into his palm. your bodies slapping together with a wet, rhythmic heat that echoes loudly through the quiet room. he doesn’t let you escape a single stroke, his thick, long size stretching your tight walls to the absolute limit as he grinds his pelvis hard against you. you are helpless under his weight, whining into the pillow as the sheer fullness of him fills your entire abdomen with every sliding push.
every single thrust forces a high pitched sob from your lips as his huge cock repeatedly drives you past your limits fucking the sleepy haze out of you. hamza matches your desperate writhing with total authority, his large hand gripping your top leg to hike it even higher against his side to reach even deeper. the sound of your soaking wet cunt sliding around him becoming louder, a messy testament to exactly how thoroughly he is destroying your senses. his hips slam down hard, burying himself balls deep against your ass, forcing your body to mold entirely to his muscular, tanned build. you can feel the heat radiating between your bodies as he aggressively claims you from behind, leaving you entirely consumed and in his hands. “meri haseen jaan,” his voice ragged from pleasure whilst his teeth grazing your earlobe. “itni narm, itni tight ho tum.. subah subah pagal kar rahi ho mujhe. itna khubsoorat jism diya hai khuda ne tumhein, poora dimaag kharab kar diya hai mera.”
“mhm,” you hummed, your head tilting back. barely being able to focus on his voice when your mind still felt groggy, “baatein kam karein.” he’s treating you with more calm thrusts, big hands groping at any fleshy part of you that he can reach, his husky voice thick with sleep as he groans. it doesn’t take long before your breathing gets a little ragged at the edges and you’re whining and moaning softly along with him. he let out a dark chuckle that rumbled right against your back. “acha? dimaag abhi tak chal raha hai?” his fingers between your legs pushing against your entrance for a quick second then travelling up to rub lightly against your clip. “batao na, itna wet kyun ho rahi ho mere liye? poori raat isi ka intezar tha na tumhein?” you lean back tiredlessly against his chest, needing more if the raw depth of his thrusts. “haan, hamza.. sirf aap ke liye,” your voice muffled against the pillow. “acha lag raha hai?” he asked, his voice ragged against your ear, driving his cock deeper, burying himself to the absolute root to claim that sweet spot with every single press. your desperate yes for more fuelling his own needs to hear the pretty, disheveled sounds.
“ab batao, raat wale daaway kahan gaye tumhare? tumhein poori tarah pata hai na tum kis ki ho? tumhein pata hai na tumhara mard kaun hai? sirf meri ho na, jaan?” the intense authority in his voice makes your entire body shudder. you cry out softly, pulling his arm tighter around you to release some of the sensations he had you experiencing. your head tilting back, “chup hamza, baatein kam karein” listening to your needs he met you in a messy, filthy kiss, his tongue sliding against yours as he began to rock himself deep into you even harder. the sound of skin on skin grew wet and heavy, filling the previously quiet bedroom.
hamza adjusted his angle, tilting his hips slightly making you gasp directly into his mouth. you moan out against his lips, shattered by the pleasure as your walls pulse tightly around his heat, feeling the throb of him deep inside your belly. he was hitting that perfect spot relentlessly, his shaft pressing firm and steady against it with every slow grind. “hamza.. just like that, more please,” you moaned out as your body relaxed while your walls grasped his cock, feeling every vein and twitch within you. the drag of his huge cock making you dizzy with the way he’d make sure every thrust kisses your cervix before pulling nearly every inch out, his swollen tip enough to stretch your walls as he’d slam it all back into you.
“ab nazrein kyun chura rahi ho?” he whispered against your skin, breaking the kiss for just a second to watch your face. “sach bolo na, pasand aa raha hai na tumhein? haan..mujhe dekh kar batao ke kitna maza aa raha hai.” you could only muster a nod, no coherent words forming just a string of soft whines, but your face and meek noises said it all. your hand gripping his arm tighter to ground yourself. he was sweating now, his skin hot against your back, his messy hair damp at the temples where it brushed the back of your neck. his entire body working to possess you in this overwhelming amount of pleasure.
he speeds up the pace, his hips locking you in place with shorter, faster thrusts that stay buried close enough that he doesn’t pull out completely. his hand slipping under the stolen vest to squeeze your breasts, his veiny fingers cupping and flicking your nipple to earn a hiss from your lips. then he moved to touch between your legs with a demanding urgency, all while keeping his luscious rhythm satisfying you both with an overwhelming feeling. “bohot achi tarah le rahi ho mujhe, shahbash..dekho kitni perfect fit ho tum mere liye.” he praised as he began to trace tight circles on your clit to drive you over the edge.
“aap ka hi haq hai..main sirf aap ki hoon, hamza.” you uttered. you’re so close, each thrust building a stronger, adamant knot in your lower stomach. you clench around him, involuntarily earning a rough groan clashing with the faint pretty squeaks from the birds outside. his thrusts falter for a second as he fights hard to keep the hard rhythm, his grip tightening around your waist hard enough to leave pink bruises.
it rolls through you like a wave, your body locking up, back arching against his chest, mouth open as you pulse around him. he keeps his hand rubbing and stroking you relentlessly through the peak of it. “you’re wrapping around me so tight jaan, khuda ki qasam, jaisa tum feel karwa rahi ho..main is waqt poori tarah tumhare reham par hoon,” his weight keeps driving forward, dragging heavily against your tightening walls, prolonging the intense release to savour the feeling just a little longer. the grip of your orgasm too much for his control. hamza buried himself deep one last time, grinding hard against your ass until his thrust came to a halt. his whole body tensed, “y/n,” your name falls from his lips like a sacred dua, his hand leaving your clit to squeeze your waist gently, holding you flush against him as he spilled ropes of his white thick cum to paint your velvety walls. as you both ride out your collective, brain melting orgasm, his deep groans into your hair as you both finally collapse tangled together.
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he reached over to the nightstand, his skin brushing yours as he turned back around. he pulled a delicate payal from a small velvet pouch. the tiny bells gave a melodic chime in the quiet room. “yeh tumhare liye hai,” he muttered as his lips brushed your skin. “raat ko toh tumne mauqa hi nahi diya..bohot jaldi thi na tumhein? is liye ab pehna raha hoon.” you laughed softly, your face warming up as you turned your head slightly to look at him. he switched your positions, having you flat on your back hovering, his long hair falling forward to frame your faces like a curtain, temporarily shutting out the rest of the world awaiting you just for a little longer. “hamza, aap bhi na..hosh hi nahi rehta aap ko. raat ko hi de dete.”
“tumhare paas hote hue hosh kisey rehta hai? aur itni pyaari cheez raat ke andhere mein thodi na deni thi,” his green eyes glistening with affection. hamza slid down the bed, his warm hands grasping your ankle gently. he wrapped the chain around your ankle, fastening the clasp. gold complimented your skin colour beautifully and hamza would only buy the best for his beloved wife. he pressed a warm kiss in the middle of your foot. “meri jaan, kitni haseen lag rahi ho,” he whispered. he trailed lingering kisses up from where he started to now at your calf, making you shiver in want for more. he scattered a row of soothing kisses up your thigh, moving over to your hip pulling his vest up off your skin for more easier access.
hamza crawled back up the rest of your body, his chest pressing into yours as he finally leaned over your face. “pasand aya tumhein?” his mouth an aching few millimetres against your lips. “haan, bohot pasand aya..shukriya” you breathed out, wrapping your arms around his neck. his gaze dropped to your mouth, “phir toh mera inaam banta hai,” before closing the remaining distance to press a deep, kiss straight to your lips.
his thumb brushed over your lower lip, a smirk at the corner of his mouth. “waise, tareef bohot sasti thi,” he teased, his voice losing the remnants of the sleep rasp. “sirf ek shukriya? itni mehnat se select ki hai maine.” you rolled your eyes playfully, your hands moving from his neck to tangle in his messy morning hair. “accha? bari mehnat ki hai aap ne? lagta hai abhi tak poori tarah aankh nahi khuli aap ki. warna tareef toh aap ke dimaag tak pahonch jaati.”
hamza chuckled as he leaned his weight over you, anchoring you to the mattress. “aankhein bilkul khuli hain, jaan. aur dimaag bhi bohot ache se chal raha hai. isi liye toh keh raha hoon ke inaam abhi adha mila hai.”“adha?” you raised an eyebrow, a small smile breaking on your lips. “baki ka adha hissa kis khushi mein? payal toh sirf ek paon mein pehnayi hai aap ne. doosra paon toh abhi bhi khali hai.” he let out a low whistle, shaking his head with a dramatic sigh. “toba hai, kitni hisabi biwi mili hai mujhe. har cheez ka hisab pehle se taiyar hota hai.”
“hisab toh rakhna parta hai, hamza,” you countered, your fingers gently tugging at the loose strands of his hair. “warna aap toh baaton mein hi behla dete hain.” lifting your head to steal a abrupt kiss from him, “achha? main baaton mein behlata hoon?” he leaned down lower, his nose brushing against yours, his breath warm on your skin. “raat aur abhi ko toh nahi lag raha tha ke main sirf baaton mein behla raha tha. tab toh bade daaway kar rahi thi tum.”
your cheeks flushed instantly at the reminder of the previous night in which you had spent hours exploring each others bodies and the position you had been craving for too long making you try to look away from his intense gaze, but he caught your chin softly with his fingers, forcing you to look into his dark, teasing eyes. “ab nazrein kyun chura rahi ho?” he whispered, his smirk widening. “raat ko toh bari himmat thi.” “chup karein,” you muttered, trying to hide your face in his neck, but he wouldn’t let you, his soft laughter filling the quiet room. “subah subah sharam nahi aati aap ko?”
“apni biwi se kaisi sharam?” he asked, kissing the tip of your nose. “aur waise bhi, sharmane ka waqt raat ko tha. ab toh sirf sach bolne ka waqt hai.” “sach yeh hai ke aap bohot zyada bolte hain,” you retorted, trying to sound firm but failing as a giggle escaped you. “ab doosri payal pehnayein, warna main yeh wali bhi utaar doongi.” “himmat bhi mat karna,” he warned playfully, his hand sliding down to squeeze your waist gently. “itni mushkil se toh clasp bandha hai maine. chalo, doosra paon aage karo.”
you shifted slightly, moving your other leg towards him. hamza reached back for the velvet pouch, pulling out the second matching gold piece. the tiny bells making a bright sound. he held your ankle in his firm grip, his thumb rubbing small circles against your skin before he wrapped the chain around it. “lo, doosri bhi pehna di,” he said, clicking the clasp shut with a snap. he didn’t move away immediately, instead letting his fingers trail up the arch of your foot, making you twitch in eager anticipation. “ab toh hisab barabar?”
“hmm, ab socha ja sakta hai,” you teased, looking down at your ankles which were also claimed with your shauhars love, he needed you to be adorned in his devotion. “chalein, ab thori si tareef aur kar deti hoon. bohot khoobsurat hai.”
“payal ya main?” he asked instantly, crawling back up the bed, his arms framing your head as he looked down at you with a cheeky look in his beautiful eyes. “payal, bilkul,” you said plainly without hesitation, yet your eyes had a hint of mischief. “aap toh bas normal hi hain.”hamza gasped dramatically, as if he was unbearably wounded. “normal? aur main? jaan, pooray shehar mein mere jaisa koi nahi milega tumhein. yeh jo subah subah itna haseen chehra dekhne ko milta hai na tumhein, is ke liye log taraste hain.”
“acha? bade daaway hain aap ke bhi,” you laughed, your arms wrapping around his waist, pulling him down closer against you. “lagta hai aap ka self confidence kuch zyada hi high hai aaj subah.”
“jab biwi itni khubsoorat ho, toh confidence khud hi high ho jaata hai,” his tone softening as the teasing edge gave way to the unwavering devotion. he leaned down, his lips brushing over your cheek, then your jaw, before finding that sweet, sensitive spot right beneath your ear. “ab batao, mera baki ka inaam kab milega?”
“kaunsa inaam?” you whispered, your voice losing its playful edge as your heart rate picked up under his touch. “wahi.. jo abhi tak udhaar hai,” his rough hands sliding under the stolen vest, his warm palms resting flat against your waist. “aur mujhe udhaar pasand nahi hai, jaan.”
“hamza, nashta bhi banana hai..” you tried to reason, though your grip on his shirt tightened, pulling him even closer. “nashta baad mein banega,” he whispered, his lips pecking your skin all the way back up to your jaw, his green eyes searching yours with an intense desire look that made your breath stumble. “pehle mujhe mera inaam poora chahiye.”
“aap bohot ziddi hain,” a helpless smile on your lips. “sirf tumhare mamle mein,” he replied, before leaning down to seal his lips over yours, erasing any remaining words of yours with another passionate, consuming kiss. the sound of your words was swallowed by another deep kiss. his beard and mustache brushed softly against your cheek and jawline, sending a shiver straight down your spine. you reached up, your fingers tangling into the long, dark strands of his hair, pulling him closer as his lips grew more urgent, parting yours with a rough groan.
his large, warm hands slid up from your waist, his palms tracing the dewy skin until he caught both of your wrists, gently pinning them above your head on the pillow. his broad chest pressed against yours. he broke the kiss for just a split second, trailing his lips down your throat to bite softly where your shoulder met your collarbone. “tumhe lagta hai main abhi chorunga tumhein?” you couldn’t even answer. your head pressing into the pillow as his lips traveled lower, pressing a path of kisses down your stomach. he moved with slowness, his beard brushing against your skin, making you shudder beneath his touch especially when he reached the curve of your hips massaging the bruises he left scattered.
the clinking of the payal filled the quiet bedroom with every single movement you made. he got onto his knees right between your legs causing the tiny bells to chime as hamza caught your ankles, lifting your legs to drape them over his broad shoulders. he pressed a lingering, intense kiss to the arches of your feet, then up your calves, keeping his gaze locked on yours as he crawled back up between your thighs. the elegant payals around your ankles gave a frantic chime as your legs were exposed to the cool draft of the room.
his massive broad shoulders filled the space between your knees. his long, brunette hair fell loose trying to veil his green eyes as he looked up at you. he reached out, his hands gripping your thighs with a firm, unyielding pressure that left instant marks on your delicate skin. he shifted down the bed, his large hands gripping your hips firmly to slide you down with him until your thighs were draped over his shoulders. the cool morning air hit your bare skin, but the heat of hamza’s breath between your legs instantly replaced it.
“hamza..” your fingers embedding themselves into the sheets as you felt the first touch of him against your inner thigh. “shh, aram se, jaan,” he whispered, his voice deep and raspy in the quiet room. he leaned down, his tongue trailing a slow, wet line up the inside of your thigh, making you twitch. “itni pyaari lag rahi ho. mera dil nahi bharta tumhein dekh kar.” his hands slid under your ass, lifting you slightly to angle you perfectly for him again. he parted you gently with his thumbs, his eyes looking up for a brief second to catch your dazed expression before he leaned in fully.
when his tongue made first contact, pressing firm and flat against your clit, a whimper left your lips still sensitive, recovering from the orgasm moments prior. hamza didn’t care. continuing the long and teasingly soft strokes that swirled around your most sensitive spot, before his tongue dipped lower to fully taste the slick he had caused. the sound of his mouth lapping filled the room, mingling with your whimpers. “itni wet ho rahi ho..itna acha lag raha hai?” his lips trailing against your skin, his cold breath sending a flutter straight to your core. “batao mujhe, meri jaan. pasand aa raha hai?”
“h-haan.. more hamza, please,” you whined, your back arching off the mattress as his tongue flattened out and swiped firmly up your slit. your eyes rolling back as he circled your clit with a harder pressure from his earlier gentle little licks. “look at how beautifully you pulse for me. poora pagal kar diya hai tumne apne is shauhar ko,” he growled softly, his fingers digging into the flesh of your thighs to hold you completely still as his pace turned urgent. your hands found his shoulders, your nails digging into the hard muscles of his back leaving sexy red scratches. his tongue worked in fast, heavy strokes, while his thumb pressed firmly at your entrance, opening you up to the cool air just as his mouth kept you on the sweet edge for more. he was eagerly satisfying every greedy desire, “oh fuck,” your sharp tongue failing you as your inner fire turned into a helpless, shivering anticipation for more.
his thick beard brushing harshly against your inner thighs. you let out another gasp, your fingers tangled desperately into his thick wild mane of dark hair. hamza didn't relax his grip, his large palms stayed gripping your thighs, spreading them wide, exactly where he needed them. pinning you down, keeping you exposed to his gaze as he swirled his tongue repeatedly over your dripping core with repeated licks from your clit to your entrance that was already soaked in a mix of your messes. “kitni pyaari awaz nikalti ho tum.. sunne do mujhe, apni jaan ki awaz sunne do.”
he was mapping you out, already knowing every single point that made his wife whimper just how he loves hearing the sounds you make as he devours you. pressing into it until you were completely undone. thrust your hips against his face, rolling them left and right using him as if his sole purpose was to be used by you as your toy. when you grinded high enough you could feel his nose brush against your puffy swollen clit, his beard now covered in your juices tickling you again and again with each sway of his head as he flicked his tongue at a fast pace, long strides twirling left and right leaving no skin untouched.
the overstimulation from holding your second orgasm and his grip meant you were on the edge almost about to release without his permission, “i’m close..hamza i can’t hold it anymore,” his mesmerising green gaze was one you could never ignore, especially when they are so keenly watching you fall apart between your legs your arousal dripping down his chin and coating his beard. “hamza..please,” you sobbed softly, moving and thrusting your hips against his mouth. “jaane do jaan,”he beckoned, returning to suck on your clit feeling the tremors. the gold bells of your payal chimed just as sweetly as the noises you were making. hamza let out almost a growl like sound against your wet cunt sending a tingly sensation throughout each vein coursing through your body, “that’s it, good girl..do it while i’m holding you like this.” he leaves a final kiss against your clit before nestling into the bed next to you, tucking you tightly against his chest.
his large biceps wrapping around your waist, pulling your spine flush against his solid warmth while his fingers lightly stroke your side to calm the residual energy in your muscles. “i love you, hamza” you say before he shifts to cradle you, lifting your upper body gently so your head is resting securely in the crook of his arm, your face turned toward him. his large hand reaches up to cradle your jaw, his thumb wiping away the damp heat on your skin with immense care. he leans down, covering your face in kisses, pressing one to your forehead, then your closed eyelids, and finally down to your nose until his lips find yours in a deeply affectionate kiss, pouring all the pure devotion into it. “main bhi tum se bohot mohabbat karta hoon, meri jaan,” his tone laced with a little tiredness. “bohot zyaada.” he presses one last kiss to your lips before shifting your weight, pulling you back down with him into the warm kambals. “dekho kya haal kar diya hai tumne mera..subah subah ek pooray mard ko apnay aagay bheek mangnay par majboor kar deti ho,” he mutters in between a couple of hot kisses to your neck, his lips resting against your skin and holding you tightly in a way that makes you feel nothing but utterly safe forgetting about the world a mere few footsteps away. he continues to gently stroke your hair, whispering endless slips of soft, quiet appreciation whilst your breathing finally stretches out into sleep.
Imagine a hamza yalina smut on hamza’s throne??? Or a hamza yalina smut after he comes back home after drinking the namkeen chai (she doesn’t identify him here) and he leans on her for comfort but it slowly unfolds into smut (is it weird😭😭😭)??? Or a hamlina smut of their wedding night. I am sorry but i am dying for their smut and you write the best ones😭🙏🏻
hi babe! thank you so much! i’m trying to currently write another shauhar hamza fic including morning sex so you could imagine that w yalina for now until i write a hamlina smut but yes i love this idea. for so long ive wanted to write him doing the deed on the throne that might be an x reader. as of now i’m planning to post a hamza fic then i was gonna write another random trio scenario but i really like this idea of urs where she doesn’t find his identity out yet leading to smut💗🎀
the other ideas are even more hamlina coded n hurt comfort for when aalam dies is a big yes!!! like maybe she tries to comfort him but he pushes her away abruptly n then when he comes back n makes love to her n she wipes his tears like he’s such a pretty crier n he’d be extra soft n gentle w yalina i just know it. ill take this idea n save the wedding night smut for another time! (feel free to request to anyone else as i might be a while.)
also random but imagine the first time he took her to that red room ik a lot of people believe they lost their v cards when he came back on 26/11 but i lwk think they did it then & they were both each others first n last sorry i can’t imagine jaskirat with anyone else ever.
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Hey I tried opening your story “ keeping up with the mazaries” but its showing “no posts here” is something wrong in there
hi babe! thank you sm for telling me cuz i had no idea! i haven’t been active for a little over a week so idk if thats what’s made me shadow banned but i have one of the parts available on wattpad. my acc is - itsnotmaiii or you can search on my blog at the top for ‘zayan’ or ‘yalina’ it will list all my posts related to the trio!
idk why i’ve been shadow banned or why my posts aren’t showing cuz wtf i’m lost. has this happened to anyone else? tagging dhurandhar for reach incase it’s happened to anyone else
I am absolutely in love with keeping up with the mazaris… hamlina fic dearth is real and you are doing gods work giving us crackfic of theirs… please give us more i love this trio😭
hi babe! thank you omg i’m obsessed w them before yalina finds out his identity like we weren’t given enough clips of them three istg. i’m gonna post a x reader before i make another part to keeping up w the mazari’s i have a little idea but if u have anything u would like to see feel free to send me ideas.
if anyone is interested in sending me scenario inspo i’m not promising i’ll get around to writing it or that i won’t tweak it but i’d love to hear ur cute scenarios on them anyway!
not lil zayan fighting his abbu to be his ammi's jaan but woh nahi jaanta aaj woh yaha hai kyuki uske ammi abbu ek dusre ki jaan hai
hi babe! ur so right imo he would throw a tantrum, he can barely handle it when his ammi’s attention is on his abbu, so sometimes hamza tires him out like playing football then later on when zayans knackered he can have yalina to himself but last time he was busy slaying terrorists leaving him w no time to wear him out so the result was being interrupted by his chalaak beta.
i honestly have countless cute trio scenes in my head over them!! i can imagine hamza teasing zayan whenever yalina gives him affection like them bickering to be her jaan is one of my favs they both wanna be her jaan and claim her as theirs. also zayan would respond to meri jaan even when it’s meant for his abbu n then get annoyed cuz he has to share yalina which makes his only child syndrome hit hard n throw a tantrum.
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“zayan, bachha, kya kar rahe ho? wahan se hato,” yalina said, trying to gently pull him back for cuddles. he had tried to storm off after going through a suffering incident of watching his abbu smother his ammi with love. his turn had been first until he had pushed him away not wanting anymore of his stinky affection when he could have his ammi’s.
the little toddler, turning his head away with a adorable pout, “nahi. main nahi sunoonga.”
yalina suppressed her laughter remembering she’s the adult here and can’t encourage her child’s tantrums, especially when it’s caused by something as trivial as calling her husband meri jaan in front of him, “zayan. ammi ki baat suno.”
“nahi!” zayan yelled, still refusing to look at her, “zayan nahi bolna. jab tak ammi jaan nahi bolengi, main baat nahi karoon ga!” with that she immediately wrapped her arms around her son, dragging him into her lap.
“theek hai baba, mera beta sirf meri jaan hai,” she cooed, pressing a fat, dramatic kiss against his chubby cheek.
“ha! main aapka jaan hoon na!” he pestered wanting more reassurance, his loud voice cutting his abbu off before the man could barely gather his thoughts.
hamza threw his head back against the pillows with a deeply offended gasp, side eyeing the child who had just hijacked another one of his mornings. “achha? tum ammi ki jaan ho?” hamza challenged.
zayan nodded eagerly, “haan! main hoon!”
“tumhe pata bhi hai tum yahan kyun ho?” hamza asked.
zayan crossed his arms stubbornly, he didn’t like his abbu’s tone it felt like a trap, trying to act unbothered at what his abbu had to say, but failing by tilting his head curiously, “kyun?..”
“tum is liye yahan ho, kyunki tumhari ammi ne pehle mujhe apni jaan banaya tha,” hamza retorted arrogantly as he looked from his irritated toddler to his beautiful wife who was warning him to stop with her eyes which he gracefully ignored, “phir humne socha ek chota sa golu paida karte hain jo hamare darmiyan baith kar larega. basic rules hain, zayan. pehla haq mera hai, so technically ammi meri jaan hain. so simple ownership rules ke mutabik, ammi pehle meri jaan hain, tum line mein peeche lago.”
“nahi!” zayan argued back, “abbu jhoot bol rahe hain! main pehle aaya tha! main bada jaan hoon!”
hamza didn’t bother hiding his amusement openly laughing at his grumpy kid, “tum pehle? oye, tumse pehle main aya tha iski zindagi mein. in fact, main tou pehle se yahan tha, tum tou bas mera birthday gift ban kar aa gaye ho. a free bonus surprise offer.”
zayan realising his stubborness wasn’t working as it should and that he was being deemed a mere ‘birthday gift’ his thread of patience snapped. “nahi! jhoot!” he wailed, looking like a tiny, offended lunatic.
watching his child in great despair struggling to comprehend exactly what he meant, hamza took the opportunity to kiss his wife’s hand multiple times, shoving zayan over the edge, “nahi! ammi meri hain! gande chor! no kiss meri jaan!” desperately clinging to his ammi, shielding her from his abbu’s slimy kisses.
deciding to finally step in before her sulking baby again reaches for violence over her, “hamza. bas karo. please, stop debating your son on who came first, especially using this birthday offer logic. tum dono meri jaan ho.” she repeated for the millionth time.
You were led astray into the forest, the rustle of the leaves coaxed you into the unknown.
You despised being the damsel in distress, despised being the delicate princess who had to live under the safety of your knights and the 'care' of your father but who would have remembered their morals, their sanity their very being in front of the man who emerged as a stone statue to your deliverance. The bronze of his skin turned gold where the scattered sunlight seeping from the trees escaped, grazing the part of his face and muscular arms.
The rescue had been too calculated too intentional , you were not naïve you saw the look in his eyes that tried to guise the concealed under a forged kindness of a man who simply stumbled upon the shehzadi's perturbation and saved her, risking his life like a godly man
He spoke with your abbu jaan, his eyes never once ever so slightly moving an inch to your face, but the encrypted message reached its rightful hearer, he was talking about you, perched up at the end of the glowing pound, out when you were not supposed to be.
You looked past plainly put deceitful nature of his kindness, you looked past everything to watch the man duel for the title of your knight oh how romantically he bled for you. Your heart had made space for a man that was far too dangerous for your own understanding .
A love letter to my knight, to my beloved betrayer , to my munafiq
Tropes- Historical setting(not accurate) ,muslim/islamic empire(fictional place) , the knight and his princess, spy Hamza, betrayal, angst, misuse of trust
Warnings- Explicit sexual content, manipulative Hamza(duh), age gap, honey trap, blood, voilence , conservative
a/n- my first hamza fic, this was the secret fic I was yapping about for quite some time lol, alsooo Hamza wont be using his name Hamza with the reader, but a spy name ,hope you all would love the concept even thought its pretty much crack ship kind of
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having a restless toddler is never an ideal situation for his parents. his hands moved in frustration across the mattress trying to reach his precious ammi.
normally she had him in her arms. something was seriously off. he blinked, rubbing his tiny fists against his eyes, only to realise he had been deliberately pushed out of the way to the far end of the mattress. instead of him, it was his abbu was wrapped around his ammi, spooning her as his face was buried deep in her thick hair, looking as peaceful as ever. zayan’s little face twisted in immediate betrayal and jealousy at the atrocity. he quickly sat up, pointing a chubby finger at the thief who stole his cuddles, “haw! abbu chor!”
hamza’s eyes cracked open, a slow, smug smirk spreading across his face. he didn’t move an inch, instead tightening his grip around yalina’s waist to pull her even closer. looking at his grumpy son who was getting more agitated as the seconds passed, “maine kaha tha na, zayan,” his voice husky, laced with satisfaction at his win. “ammi meri hain. ab tum har gaye,” he sung out to irritate his baby further.
zayan pouted so hard his lower lip began to practically touch his chin, but before the pair could launch into another bickering match over their jaan, yalina stirred, groaning at the early morning drama. neither of them wanted to set her off, most of the time she was the furthest thing from a morning person.
the war had been declared again as zayan shot a venomous look at his abbu who had the audacity to laugh it off, deeming him as an unworthy opponent.
hamza kissed his beautiful wife’s forehead before letting her rest to start his day.
stubborn zayan, however, wasn’t one to forget and accept defeat so easily.
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later that night, zayan had been tucked into his own bed hours ago, leaving their bedroom quiet at last. with the toddler finally out of their sight, the tension dissolving into releasing their suppressed desires. hamza had yalina pinned beneath him, his large hands massaging her hips, “itni haseen jaan hai meri..pure din mein bas is chehray ko dekhne ka intezar rehta hai mujhe,” he rumbled before sealing the distance between them both. his lips passionately claiming hers, kissing his dear wife as he’s desired to do so, fueled by the pent up frustration over the past few days. his mouth opened wide over hers, his tongue pushing past her teeth to slide deep into her mouth, tangling with hers deeply, stealing her breath. she let out a little whine, her hands gripping his shoulders as his mouth grew hungrier, his lips sliding over hers in a way that made her vision faint and ears ring. the pressure of his hard shaft pressed perfectly rubbing against her sensitive clit had her whimper beneath him, sending him a low groan that rattled in his chest.
hamza’s hands slid down to cup her breasts roughly as he dragged his huge cock against her wet cunt. she let out a needy gasp at the slide of it, her body trembling from the teasing. hearing that little noise only drove him more feral. he loved the sounds he got out of his pretty wife and wanted to hear more. his thick cock grinding right against her soaking cunt, as he briefly pushed just the tip in for a long second. she let out a weak whine into his mouth, he broke the kiss to drag his lips down the line of her jaw, his breath tingly against her skin before he buried his mouth in her neck. he sucked gently at her sweet, sensitive spot to leave a faint pink love bite. the room was warm, filled only with the sound of their ragged breathing and the rustle of the sheets shifting against their skin. “tum sirf meri ho jaan. itni khubsoorat..pagal kar dogi mujhe,” hamza panted, peppering more kisses against her soft skin, his beard scratching her slightly as his lips traced another path up from her neck to her jawline. yalina arched into his touch, she needed every inch of him. a breathless moan escaping her mouth, “hamza..please i..” just as the tension in the room reached its absolute peak, the door creaked open.
a meek sniffle cut through the intimate noises.
hamza froze instantly, his entire body going rigid as he hovered over yalina. he let out a long, deeply pained groan against her temple, closing his eyes in disbelief. yalina gasped, quickly pulling the duvet up to her chest. standing in the doorway, clutching a stuffed bear by its ear, was a clearly upset zayan.
“ammi..” he whimpered, a hot tear rolling down his cheek. “bura khwab..monster aya tha.” the annoyance vanished from yalina’s face instantly, replaced by her motherly instinct. “oh, meri jaan,” she cooed, forgetting all about the sulking man as she poked him in the chest to move. rushing to pull one of hamza’s shirt over herself, simultaneously scrambling to fix the blankets in time, since her husband was stuck in a trance of despair.
hamza reluctantly rolled off her, lying flat on his back as he stared blankly at the wall. he looked like a man whose soul had physically left his body. “ya allah, mujhe sabr de,” hamza muttered to absolutely no one in particular, rubbing his face with both hands in utter defeat.
zayan paid no attention. he didn’t care about his abbu's misery. he had other priorities, he rushed up onto the bed, oblivious to what he had just interrupted. wedging himself right between them, burying his cute tear stained face directly into yalina’s neck, sniffing loudly.
yalina wrapped her arms around him, rocking him gently. “kuch nahi hota, meri jaan. ammi yahan hain. monster chala gaya.” safe in his ammi’s soothing hold, zayan’s sobbing stopped within minutes. his little face coated with wet eyelashes and a adorable sorry look for himself whilst he shifted around until he was comfortable, on the verge of a graceful slumber.
but he was forgetting one thing. right before he closed his eyes, he looked straight at his abbu, meeting his narrowing green gaze as zayan gave him a sleepy, yet undeniably victorious look.
hamza then glared pathetically at his toddler in pin drop silence until he whispered, “tum jaan bujh kar karte ho na?”
zayan ignored him, snuggling closer to his ammi, shutting his eyes with a content, blissful sigh.
yalina hid her face in the pillow as she tried to muffle her laughter. hamza looked down at his gorgeous wife, then at his son and let out one exhausted sigh, realising that he was probably never, ever going to win.
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the next morning, hamza woke up with a stiff neck and a sour scowl. zayan was fast asleep, carefully pushing his toddler’s stinky feet away from his face, hamza shifted closer over to yalina’s side of the bed.
she was already awake, lying on her side and watching the two of them with an amused smile. “good morning, meri jaan” she whispered softly, her curls tumbling over her shoulders. “kuch good nahi hai,” his morning voice raspy and incredibly grumpy, though yalina had always found it effortlessly seductive. “yeh larka meri jaan lene ke chakkar mein hai” hamza grumbled.
yalina chuckled, reaching out to stroke his cheek. “bachha hai, hamza. and he was scared.”
“bura khwab usay nahi, mujhe aa raha hai,” hamza muttered. he leaned over, his eyes softening as he looked at his wife. ignoring the sleeping toddler between them, he leaned across the mattress and pressed a deep, hungry kiss right against yalina’s lips.
as soon as the kiss grew more needy, zayan’s toddler spider senses alerted him. without even opening his eyes, the three year old felt the exact second his parents were sharing a cute moment. an annoyed, furious grunt escaped his lips as his little arms swayed blindly through the air, trying to smack at whatever was interrupting his peace, his face twisting into a look of irritation.
yalina immediately pulled back from the kiss, breathless and giggling as she caught zayan’s stray hand to keep him from accidentally hitting his abbu.
“bas hamza, choro, uth jayega phir se,” as she hesitantly pulled away from him. hamza took one look at his son’s furrowed eyebrows, knowing his baby was on the brink of launching a full scale morning tantrum. accepting his limits, he quickly retreated, tossing zayan’s floral kambal he had also stolen off his legs. leaving for a shower before his kid could open his eyes and scream his ears off.
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hamza entered the kitchen, looking every bit like a frustrated husband on a sacred mission. he scanned the room cautiously. zayan was safely strapped into his high chair at the dining table, momentarily engrossed in a bowl of coco pops, using his plastic spoon to splash the milk around rather than actually eating it.
with his son occupied he wasted no time to seize his opportunity, he carefully slipped up behind yalina, his muscular frame enveloping her. his large arms wrapped firmly around her waist, pulling her back flush against his broad chest. “hamza, hatto,” yalina hissed under her breath, though a soft smile appeared on her face instantly, “zayan dekh lega.”
“dekhne do” hamza muttered into the crook of her neck, his long beard scraping pleasantly against her delicate skin as he pressed a warm kiss right below her ear, trailing a row of them lower as he spoke, “poori raat uski bura khwab wajah se zaya ho gayi. kam se kam ab tou sukoon lene do.”
yalina leaned into him laughing lightly, “tum bilkul sudharne nahi wale.”
“meri wife ho tum. kyun sudhroon?” hamza mumbled, his hands sliding down to rest on her hips, placing her right where he wanted her. he was determined to steal every single ounce of her attention before the little dictator at the table noticed.
but a mazari’s sixth sense was incomparable.
the clinking of the plastic spoon stopped instantly. hamza stayed still, his lips still pressed against her neck, holding his breath.
“ammi! juice!” zayan’s demanding voice echoed through the kitchen.
yalina tried to step away, but hamza’s grip tightened. “dont move,” he insisted. “ignore him. he has milk.”
“abbu! nahi. hatto ammi se!” zayan yelled louder, his little face flushing pink with immediate jealousy.
he began banging his spoon against the tray of his high chair in a chaotic protest, “ammiii! gande abbu ko maro!”
hamza finally let go of yalina’s waist with a frustrated, defeated groan, turning around to face his son. “oye, badtameez. main apni wife ke saath khara hoon. tum apna cereal khao aur chup karo.”
“nahi! meri ammi hain!” zayan shouted back, tossing his spoon directly at hamza. however, it missed by a mile, clattering on the floor.
yalina shook her head as she picked up a cup of apple juice from the counter. she walked over to the high chair, leaning down to place a comforting hand to ruffle zayan’s hair while sliding the cup toward him. “achha baba bas, dono larna band karo. meri jaan juice piyo. aur hamza, tum apna naashta karo aur chup chap kaam par jao.”
hamza slouched onto the dining chair right across from his son, watching the toddler take a triumphant sip from his straw. the kid literally raised his eyebrows at his opponent over the rim of his cup.
“nahi yeh mazaak hora hai. yeh mujhe chira raha hai.” hamza snitched, pointing a finger at his son, “yalina, look at him. yeh jaan bujh kar karta hai.”
“tum dono ek jaise ho,” yalina sighed as she sat down between them, passing hamza a cup of steaming chai and took a sip of her own iced coffee. “is ghar mein ek bachha kam tha jo tum bhi bachhe ban gaye ho?”
hamza ripped off a piece of aloo paratha, chewing grumpily. “uff please. mujh jaise shareef insaan ko is badmash dramebaaz se compare mat karo.”
the playful idea slipped in her mind, looking more tempting as she looked at hamza’s brooding, handsome face, then at zayan, who was stopped splashing his breakfast, currently trying to wipe a smear of cereal milk off his nose with his forearm. she set her glass down, a sneaky glint seeped through her gaze, “waise hamza” yalina began softly, her voice carrying a tone that instantly made hamza stop eating. he looked up, his sharp green eyes narrowing slightly in curiosity, “hm?”
“main soch rahi thi..” she trailed off, keeping her gaze fixed on her cup as she swirled the remaining liquid. “zayan ab teen saal ka ho gaya hai. thoda bara ho raha hai.”
“shukar hai allah ka,” hamza grumbled, glancing at his son. “jaldi bara ho taake isko is ghar se bahar nikaloon.” he muttered as he chewed more aggressively.
“i think he needs a sibling” yalina said plainly, looking up to lock her eyes directly with her sulking husband, “ek aur baby hona chahiye na? zayan lonely ho jata hai.”
hamza literally choked on his paratha.
he coughed dramatically, grabbing his cup of karak chai and gulping it down to clear his throat.
across the table, zayan stopped smirking and slurping his juice, his little head tilting in confusion, he didn’t quite understand the word ’sibling’ yet. he just knew something suspicious was going on.
“kya?” hamza rasped out, staring at his wife with wide eyes to check if she was joking. “ek aur? are you out of your mind, yalina?”
“kyun? kya buraai hai?” yalina teased, thoroughly enjoying the panic on her husband’s face. “ek chota bhai ya behen.. kya pata twins ho jayen?”
“ek zayan ne meri zindagi haraam kar ke rakhi hui hai” hamza retorted desperately, as he leaned across the table toward her. “mujhpar taras khao, jaan. agar ek aur zayan is ghar mein aa gaya, tou main sach mein paagal ho jaongi. mujhe meri wife kabhi wapas nahi milegi.”
yalina held back her laughter as much as she could, reaching over to squeeze his bicep, “ho sakta, bilkul khamosh sa bacha ho. zayan ke bilkul opposite.”
“impossible,” hamza groaned, slumping back into his chair. “mazari blood hai. tez aur ziddi hi paida hoga. i am not taking that risk.”
zayan, not happy with the suspicious energy and catching his name being thrown around, slammed his fists on the tray, “abbu! no talk me! no zayan!”
hamza pointed his hand in exasperation at the toddler. “dekh rahi ho? abhi se threat kar raha hai mujhe. agar ek aur aaya, yeh dono mil kar mujhe is ghar se nikal denge.”
yalina couldn’t stop laughing at the misery of her favourite, intimidating man stubbornly refusing the idea of a hypothetical newborn. “theek hai, theek hai. hum baad mein discuss karenge.”
“baad mein bhi nahi,” hamza countered firmly, though a pretty smile broke through his stern exterior as he watched his beloved smile.
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a/n: lwk idk what’s happening with my other fics xx i’m not ok, i think something is deeply wrong w me for still mourning this fuck ahh couple. like wdym we won’t be getting new content n see them reunite, ever??? i cant even listen to music in peace without thinking about them. when i tell u ive never felt this over a fictional couple i mean it, i hate jassi for not sending them away before hand, literally anything to have them all together (yes ik his country came first etc) but he could’ve atleast told her loves her like wtf i hate men esp this emotionally constipated final boss, i don’t want to have to read into every little detail, just tell her u love her bruh u know it’s the last time so say it 🤬 it is 5am so im probably being dramatic over the edits of them
nfak hits diff with hamlina istg n i will never stop talking about this song, i’m trying to make a drabble with this intertwined however it’s not really working out but the song is insanely beautiful
hi babe, i’m gonna post my first part to the keeping up with the mazaris, tomorrow (hopefully) i was gonna split it into two parts so think of it as two drabbles in one 🤍
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now i’ve never even been to india nor do i completely understand politics there. but its common sense that political opinions differ just like day to day ones do, that is life. ur not gonna get along with everyone, that does not mean u go and send the most disgusting messages u can to them. its not pretty to spread hate especially to people who have done nothing, quit directing your anger at the wrong people.
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synopsis- Uzair holds Aslam daughter captive to use her as a scapegoat for information while she bewitches him with her softness to avenge her dead father
a/n- its a lil short 5k words :P but its here yaya please read and interact died writing it ( majak jokes jokes can you tell its 4 am ugh) very divergent from the actual plot of the movie
Trigger warnings- Age gap 32-21, neglected child, death, gore, crimes, gun, crude language, periods, masturbation(M)
Blood dripped down the bonnet of the coal black SUV, the sunlight finding its way to reflect on the part that were covered in red, atop sat a man you had known for most of your life in your father curses, sometimes on the television, somewhere in the back of the poster his very pixelated self always living in the shadow of his brother- the reputed Rehman Dakait. It wasn't an unknown fact that Rehman was dead now, in fact it was the news that had shaken up the whole of Lyari and got the weight of your father's shoulder significantly.
You recalled the scene from a few weeks back, the running broadcast, the cries on the TV, people shouting tributes outside the hospital when your father returned home his usually impeccably clean kurta covered in dust, his hair ruffled and coarse, his body sinking and unable to hold itself up due to the injuries,you had bolted up to meet him,to put his bruised arm over your shoulder only to be met with a quiet command to move over that stayed in your more than any of the shouts could ever have.
It was a quiet declaration that you will never belong with him, not in the way a kid does to their father.
It was clear your father had killed the man, he spewed hate at the sight of him, his words transcending from curses from him to the balochs and then there was this other name mentioned, the one that made your cheeks flush and hide your face from your family because even when said with dripping with venom, it was his name, a man you had come to admire before you knew it - Uzair Baloch.
He sat stop the bonnet hoarding the barely alive body as a prize, a warning tied at the front of his car, you could recognize the bloody disfigured face from the times he had spent at home talking low with your father in the hall not even a month ago, Uzair hands did not hesitate using the kasai knife on his neck with relentless blows till Arshad pappu neck barely hung on to its body thin lines of stretched over skin and then even that thin string was cut off.
You were not supposed to be here, a walk down the street had come to you going to your favourite secluded place in the part where you maybe were not even welcome but it called for you at times, the empty terrace top of the now secluded tall building. Rehman’s part of the town was not meant for you but then again your father didn't bother to check up on your whereabouts and no one saw you as anything other than a face in the crowd, you were the ghost daughter of Aslam after all.
The sweat stuck at the neckline of his khakee colour suit that was now decorated with splatters of blood, his eyes bloodshot and fixed on the head as he screamed expletives to the head in his hand, vengeance often drowned the moral consciousness and this was a clear case for it because what brutalities one had to go to, to perform something so vile and not even flinch, what level of agony have they drowned in that ‘this' feels like peace.
The gruesome scene had you stuck in place, a little behind the ground but you were still there, close enough to hear the last bated breath from Arshad lips and the rumble of Uzair's chest, you wanted to move, you wanted to run but it your legs were in a quicksand, the control over your own body slipping with each passing second. The wet mud engulfed you to the point you felt you had sunken three feet under the ground unable to believe all that you were watching right now, the head being kicked around into the crowd, the screams of people, the trail of blood it left behind made bile rise at your throat.
Then there was another prop with the lifeless landing in your direction, everyone in front of you moved but you were stuck in that same quicksand and you dreadingly came into the line of his sight.
Years of watching him with starry eyes only for the first encounter to be this catastrophic, those brown eyes grounded you the heavy feeling of swamping replaced by something as helpless as how weak your knees felt at the sight of him. The way his broad chest heaved made your own breathing break into small vulnerable pieces, the thick dark waves of hair glistening under the sun and falling over his forehead he was the storm and cold at once, from the way his gaze pierced you with a burning intensity and the way his jaw remained shut tight like you weren't there at all.
Then came the crashing realization of this outrageous display, this madness all for his brother that your father had killed, maybe he was calculating, for you to be the next target.
You shrieked ducking your head into your dupatta with clammy hands running away
He looked down Arshad's head and where it had lolled too, the dirt sticking to the blood, the blood that had stained up his sleeves, he doesn't even remember how many men he killed today but he lashed that blow till the ache in his heart a felt a little less hollow, till his brother felt revenged for.
Over the dirt of the city, blood on his hands and the hate in his heart all he saw was her
The first life you had was short lived to the exact number of six years, it ended with a scream of from the end of the Hall, the next thing you saw was your father on the ground clutching his stomach as blood leaked out in ample amounts, staining back at the wall where he did your yearly height measurements, you were so excited you were finally six and going to watch a new line add up to the list but it was all smudged now just like your memories, there stood your ‘father' so sternly like he hadn't shooted your abbu jaan.
What was his crime anyway? It was to have you with his wife before they were married , and it was for his wife to hide the truth from him until now and too meet your abbu in secret at times
Your ‘father’ took you in,his house was bigger,better like the one you had seen in cinema, his house had a tv that meant you did not need to watch it from outside of a store or from a neighbours window, that luxury the colours of the house, the new toys all of fell flat to the wall you shared with your baba, scribbling cows that looks like horses or vice versa into the old chipping away wall, you couldn't understand why did he had to take it from you.
To Aslam it was a matter of pride and in all glory he couldn't keep the only man apart from that had touched his wife alive, not when his face couldn't find the space for him in his heart. Your mother well she never found it for anyone not for your father or your ‘ father' or for the kids and as well as you and to Aslam's misery taking away a life did not make her wife any more closer than she was to him before because as much as it stinged she simply did not care, nothing in the world existed for her except from her herself or maybe that what you had know from what you saw and what you remember because at 7 she was gone, in the same dark world where your father was.
It was an accident, a car driven too fast crashing the honourable police men wife, it was tragic it made headlines on the newspaper filled out column and then a week passed it was nothing more than a photo hung up in your room, the bedding here was more comfortable than the mattress you and your father snuggled in but the sleep never came easy here, it was a constant battlefield of memories you didn't need anymore, an endless thought of what show next when you close your eyes now, 6 years of your life you can't go back to ever or the one year of your mother's cold silence.
And then there was your father a loving family man with two daughters and a son and one charity case he kept in his house, on days you wondered if he felt guilty for taking away a child’s father right in front of their eyes, guilty enough to keep you in his shelter not guilty enough to feel phased by your yearning eyes as he played with his daughters, watched the stupid cartoon with him with them draped over his lap while you sat in a cold corner on the floor and before you knew you had learned to crave him to be your father.
Because him being your father meant you would start existing in their space, you were well fed and clothed and had your own room but you were not there, not in birthday parties, not in festivals, not on trips to restaurants but why ? You were such a good girl weren't you? The sweetest one thats what Abbu has always said so then why were you not with the restaurant but in the kitchen waiting for the dinner to cook, why was there no celebration of your birthday, why did he always forget to shop your clothes for your eid why did you always had to go with the servant minute to get something, why was your eidi sent to you by the servant’s hand and not his, if your abbu said you were the dearest then why could not this man think the same?
What could you make out from the conversations you had witu him they were limited to a morning and good night and silent stares across the room, or the way his smile visibly dropped at the sight at you but mom was not there anymore to check up on you occasionally and your abbu was long gone and so was his warmth and now you needed him to love you to feel something again other than being a shadow in an opulent house.
One day that passed with the same brooding intensity that the others did you saw your ‘father’ coddling up his second born since she had scraped her knees on the way home, he whispered praises to her till her crying subsided into sniffles under the caress of his coarse hand moving every so gently to caress the back of her head. Later you found yourself at the very top stair breathing nervously as your small feet fiddled to step out in the air and fall down to fight against the natural instinct of your body to keep yourself, grubby fingers twisting into your frock half in an unconscious fiddle half to keep yourself to hold back from saving yourself as you jumped down the stairs.
The cold marble clashed with your skin hard enough to leave behind faint purples and blues, the hard edge of the stair digging into your stomach once before you finally met the floor with a thud, “ baba” was the first word to leave your lips and come to your mind and the face flashed before you was the face of the man who was never coming back to save you lost into the skies afar and all that remained was the man in front of you right now. You were facing the front of his khussi shoes as he watched down at your battered form for barely 2 seconds before walking past your battered self but there remained some broken memories of him sleeping beside you, holding you into his chest but it couldn't dull the coldness he showed in the moment.
And the rare times you got some sense of compassion when you were conscious was when a boy pulled your hair in a fight undoing half of your braid and Aslam had walked into the school to find you crying outside in sand, knees scraped , face stained with tears and dirty. He carried you all the way back home talking to you about mundane stuff , the weather, the classes at school before asking what happened and watched his expression darken when you mentioned a boy did it “ Itni kamzoor hai kya meri bacchi joh ek ladke se dar gaye?” He knew how to say it to a kid to make them feel braver than they were,You shook your head firmly, hiding in his chest, “ Nahi baba”
Another time being when you were 12 and woke up from your nap with a harsh crump in your stomach and and a large stain at the back of your frilly skit that bled through the bedsheets into the mattress, you knew what it was but none of your sister and your mother remained a picture on the wall and it was already time people had started leaving work to reach home in time for eid the house devoid of any servants and caretakers both your sisters at their phuppo left only one person for you to run to was your ‘father’ rested against the pillow, sprawled on the leather like a wild animal nursing a glass of wine in one hand the other holding the phone to his ear spewing out elaborate curses one after another to the poor man on the phone
“ Abbu” you whispered standing anxiously at the door before treading soft your steps as light as a feather as you treaded slow to him, he did not hear you the first time continuing on the phone, “ Abbu” you said more loudly and he was absorbed on the phone in whatever has made him miserable today, “ Abbu” You said loud enough to understand he heard you, saw you and was just ignoring you.Ignoring the pain that stirred in your chest and travelled painfully to the pulse of your wrist, you gathered yourself up again ,
“ Abbu khoon aa raha hai” he paused, putting down the phone “ Kya?” “ Khoon aa raha hai..aur dard bhi ho raha hai” You sniffled watching your feet, hands clutched and twisting the fabric of your skirt, he held your hand walking you to his room, a place you were never allowed inside of and the second you entered it felt like a whole different world, the air warmer inside with the lighted incense of lavender, old ghazals played in low tunes in the background the lights warm and pale orange painting the white of the wall in its shade, you could see what he did all day by how things were put out it showed how he lived in, the cigar burn out on the ash tray that rested right beside the poetry book on his bedside table. The half finished glass of whiskey on his table and the clothes he had scattered out when he was going to drop his children to their relatives, and the half hidden photo of your mother covered by his thrown off clothes that felt a little too intentional to be accident but you could also see how much how her remained in his room.
The clothes were still in the clothes pressed and folded once and then never opened again, and you knew that lavender scent was not his choice but your mothers because you always smelled it when she picked you, the sweet smell of her hair making you fall asleep quicker than usual, he was a man drowning in grief no matter how hard he tried to hide it always found its way back to him, unable to throw away the wedding photo that was still up on the wall or the brush that still had her hair sitting so dauntingly on the vanity along with her bangles that she did not up on the day of her accident because it looked like she was trying to hard with them.
Aslam shuffled through his cupboard feeling slightly skittish as he handed her the pad, “ yeh kaise use karte hai” You looked up at him you really did not know, how were you supposed to. He sighed patting your head like you were an untrained pet before telling you calmly, you nodded wiping your face. “ Yeh lo yeh phen lo”
He handed you his kurta opening the bathroom door for you, your insides felt like they were falling off and above all it felt weird this was his space and you were bleeding in here. Carefully you tried to stick on the pad on the fresh underwear you fetched but it did not work and the feeling grew more uncomfortable by the second till you had no option but to call for him again .
He saw you standing with new tears and got to work, showing you how to actually use it, peeling off and sticking up the parts in the place, “ Baaki pata hai aapko? Ek hafte tak chalega yeh aur har teen ghante change karna hota hai” You nodded your eyes fixed on his face rather than his hand as he explained to watch some of that cold expression fill your heart with uncertain hope.
You sat in the middle of his bed holding in whimpers, the texture felt weird between your legs and the fact that you were supposed to put up with this for the next 30 years or so scared you, he reached back into the drawer pulling out the tablets he always kept handy used to the routine after having two daughters, moving mechanically so to boil the water for you to drink to soothe the pain. You swallowed the pill yucking out loud when you accidentally tasted it. The taste was so bitter and crass, he ruffled your hair with a chuckle you had never heard from him before.
Pain was the only thing that brought you two together a once in a blue moon event where he would go as far as checking up in your room to see if you were sleeping and read you stories if you could not but never did he looked at you once when you were in front of his kids or allow you to step out when relatives or his associates were home, and the more you grew the more the distance came back, he hated how none of his kids looked as much as wife than you did, a carbon copy of the woman he had loved with such devotion once to the line of your eyes and the smile of your laughter to the very way you sat reminded him of her- a thought he wanted out of head for years now, you reopened the wound he tried to cover in with duty and intoxication and the dirty life he carried on .
You passed in the first division of your school, standing at the door with your sister, your father knew the result was going to be released today and he was walking over with a wide smile, asking and hugging her daughters as they went off excitedly, whining to him to send them abroad. You opened your mouth to speak the smile plastered wide on your face but he never asked you , they all went into the house without a word to you. You tailed behind trying to hold up the same smile, awkwardly fakely but your heart was really waiting for him to ask, he never asked. You watched him send off all of his kids abroad out of town to study with only you left in the empty house with him- he never asked. It was so unfair your grades were higher you deserved it so much more than any of them did but what could you even say to him? You were already indebted to him, as he is raised his harlot wife kid, and what was he going to say to you , that as if your father could have provided better for you than he did.
Two years pass in that agony watching every friend you ever made get busy with life and leave you behind, two years that passed in watching your hard spent night of studying catch dust in the alimrah the air had grown so suffocating that you wished he had killed you off with your father that day, but then came the unexpected change he asked you to have dinner with him, actually spoke with you about how everything was going. You were frustrated you couldn't understand him even if you tried but that small childish part of you craved for his attention , craved for the time you were not the one on the floor watching tv but curled up in his like a daughter and the day he would see you were his daughter.
The were in your room changing into the anarkali he had just gifted you when you head a bang outside too harsh for it to be your father’s usual way of dealing with thing that he did not liked, he resorted to throwing things but it wasn't that it was a screech of what sounded a lot like bullets going off, other loud thump that was definitely the sound of door breaking and your heart instantly jumped to the thought that had captivated you since days now, the gaze of Uzair that left an imprint on your skin, was it him? Were you really next?
You stood there like a coward, trembling in your room while he destroyed everything you had ever known, recognising the loud clatter of glass breaking that was most your mother’s most ardently , the one you made the servants put in fresh flowers everyday. You were supposed to go out and do something but were you? The thought hit before you allowed it with every going off bullet isn't this what your ‘father’ deserved at all, who were you save him at all when he killed your abbu right in front of your eyes
But so also dangled the naive hope of the life that could have come after this ,after your ‘father’ has finally found time to talk to you and give you a gift with his very own hands for the first time in your life, with unsteady hands that felt like they were going to fall off your bodies you twisted the door knob opening the door slowly, the sound that couldn't reach the confines of your locked room now uncovering in layer the incoherent shouting clear now, the pained grunts of your ‘father’ hitting you like a kick to the gut, he was losing.
You wanted the close back down and never come out, but the light from outside had found its way in so had the eyes of the men who stood bloodied, from the narrow opening the last thing you saw was Uzair, your eyes dragged over his arm that held the glock in his hand to the stern posture of his chest as he stood scornfully up straight for someone who had blood on his hands, they stopped at his face to watch the ice frigid expression of his face he as embraced himself for the impact of the shot, the loud crack went off the air smell of the gunpowder and your eyes shifted quick to see what the barrel was pointed at, tilting your head slow. Your father remained lifeless on the ground with the grisly wound right between his eyes “ Uzair bhai yeh kya kiya isko nahi maarna tha” you heard the word over the whirlwind of emotion wrecking your nerve, and when three seconds passed with your eyes fixed at the same daunting sight you realised Uzair had not spoken a word since and the way your body was burning with the feeling you couldn't pin over what had happened.
He was looking at you, FUCK, you looked him in the eyes accidently the coldness so rigid the devastation came incredibly fast, with your hands fumbling with the lock twice before you scrambled back falling very back on the floor, the white your anarkli catching at the afternoon light and falling at your from the very back, looking extremely haloed at your ruins, the long skirt of silk and softness moved on its dancing beautifully in sync with the rhythm of your heart thrashing at the cage of your ribs as the door banged open, with every tremor that ran down your whole body it slides smoothly over your skin, you looked back at Uzair and strangely he still managed to pull you out of that quick sand, the death you just witnessed replaced with the fear of him.
He didn't care to tone down his touch as he manhandled you onto his shoulder without a word, the dull green contrasting with your swan white, presaging what was to come.
Painfully he dragged you out of the car without not a single word shared between him and his men and from the look of it his revenge wasn't complete yet, the misery sinking the under line of his eyes. You were scared teeth clattering in shivers that didn't seem to stop and his grip was of iron over your wrist, holding it so hard you were it would bruise.
Uzair hauled you inside the haveli that was a crumbling beauty owing up the schemings of your father, you couldn't fathom what he was doing, he could have killed you right there why drag you here maybe he did not meant to kill you at all, the other idea forced itself into your mind spreading a traitorous heat through your body - you were disgusting
Screaming you struggled over and over to free your hand and vexed by the way you struggled constantly against him “CHORO CHORO!” your screaming only intensified jarring at the empty walls of the house, “Chup kar” He finally grunted out barely audible and he fastened his pace moving to a room, you redoubled your effort but all of it went to vain, when you reached the dreaded door frame he pushed you inside but you held tight at the wooden edges refusing to fall into the dark room that promised nothing.
You utilised something different turning to face him at the same time he was going to grip your back and push you in with all his force, the front your dress teared with a loud chirp the ‘charrrrr’ going off into the void, the neckline of your anarkali torn and left in his hand while you had hit the ground from the duress of the shove.
Your cleavage fell full out on display but you were too paralysed with the fear too move, his eyes fell on the flesh for a fraction of second before locking onto your face with those unreadable eyes for what felt like an eternity, he threw the torn fabric back at you striding out the door, locking you inside with a click so loud it echoed throughout the vast haveli.
Uzair did not intend to touch you, you were only here because he needed the information he didn't get out of Aslam when he was alive, so he was going to get it out from you or that's what he told himself. At the display that graced his vision he could not bring himself to look at something that you did not offer even after how tempting the heave of your rising and falling of your chest was the terror stricken face and the disparity of how you looked at him.
The fear was evident but so was the unnamed feeling same from the day he had seen before, locked onto the way moisture sat atop your lips and quivery they were calling him to devour and satiate his thirst , how your eyes glistened from tears you had spilled out and how beauteous you were, the fear combined with your entrancing beauty had him unable to control himself , this wasn't the time or the day but he was painfully hard.
He pulled the string open to his salwar, torturing himself with the slowness, he had not felt this way in months, he had not felt this unrestrained when he was cutting off Arshad’s damn neck. The shallow broken breaths and how close they were to his skin moments ago was a catalyst to the fire. He wrapped his rugged hand tight around his twitching long, eyes rolling back at the sensation, fuck he did not even know your name but you already felt his. He had encountered the softness of your palm in between the pulling and pushing, shuddering at the idea of you holding his throbbing cock instead of him.
He ran his hand up and down, stopping at the top to catch the pre cum from his mushroomy head to make the action more slick, fisting his hard length with the brewing possessiveness in his heart. He rejoiced in your fear because he understood that's not what it was alone continuing the rhythm with eyes closed and all that stayed at his closed eye lids was your face, the trembling screams and screech and what send him over edge was the recallment of you whispering his name so low it got carried away in the breeze, but he heard and the way you said said it between your struggles like you had known him all his life, the familiarity pairing sickly with the distress and that damn saintly white he had derelict-ed.
For the time his release shot out, sticking to his own hands and stomach you were a parizad in his eyes.
a/n - yaay its finnally here had been stalling it for weeks now, hope you all would like it I promise the reader was only completely helpless for this chap baaki there is more to unfurl about the family as well lots of angst