I woke up thanking god for waking me up this morning I check my Facebook and log on to my twitter, as I look through the pictures of peoples life,I ask myself why am I the way I am now? why cant I have a group of friends and just live life? I never use to be like this when I was little I was friendly outgoing fun to hang around, now I feel like all of that has changed, I have one friend and a boyfriend, but little do you know I been through a lot with the both of them so really I’m on my on in this world . Everyday I hope that this change would come, I talk to god and ask him to break me out this shell that I have became to grow on for a very long time , people think I’m stuck up or don’t like them but its not that its either if you hurt my feelings in the past I know its wrong but I hold grudges, I mean I’ll speak to you but yeah I wont talk to you witch I need to learn how to forgive and forget .. or either I’m just shy to talk to you. One thing I don’t do is kiss ass I will never kiss ass for people to be my friend and trust i see a lot of that where I’m from I don’t need friends that bad I rather be by myself then to do that.I’m really a funny goofy person but no one never see that side of me. People don’t understand as i stand out from the crowd , as everybody having fun with each other I observe real good and i guess that’s why i don’t talk to a lot of people because these people are so mean to each other will do any thing for somebody to like the them it might come down to them talking to your home girl or your homeboy significant other and I HATE it so bad that’s not even cool to me how can u let your girl talk to a guy you use to talk to? but off topic lol I’ll come back to that later but yeah maybe u can say i judge things before it happens, to me it’s a win win situation but that’s how I react to people.If I’m hanging with a group of people and I see how you treat there other friends that will determine if I want to be there friend. There is so many fake,lien, and not trustworthy people out here. I’m about to start college and 4 more days and I
