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tw // anti-asian violence

there’s been a fuck ton of aapi hate since the beginning of the pandemic and especially lately, with the georgia shootings today, and even the grammys last sunday

all this said i just wanted to share a few resources (none mine!):

- anti-asian violence resources (this resource is also linked in my pinned, it contains information, petitions, places to donate and a lot more)

- stop asian hate (contains petitions, places to donate, ways to spread the word and more)

- sites to donate to and share (if you have a twitter please consider retweeting)

- a cumulative twitter thread with a little bit of everything and more than i explained

+ stop asian hate gofundme

+ asian american resource center (an atlanta based foundation focused on housing and civil classes)

+ red canary song *

+ butterfly *

+ swan vancouver *

* above are three grassroots (not sure if im using that word right) dedicated to advocating for asian and migrant sex work! check them out and donate if possible

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as an ex drama student, the monologue delivered by tom sturridge in the hiding spot is phenomenal - his control of his face (making his expressions slightly nuanced or dramatically different within seconds) & deliberate pauses in his speech are incredible work! they really create a haunting, lasting effect which aligns perfectly with nigel's character.

when eddie redymane cries here, you can really feel the traumatic impact on his character, emphasizing the contrast to his generally passive reactions beforehand. it is REALLY effective in portraying alex at the peak of his humanity as he's never cried like this before (right before it comes crashing down - given that we know what alex is about to do here.)

the way that nigel here stares at reverend donaldson after he kicks alex out of the classroom gives me goosebumps every time. there is so much communicated through that look, there's a clear disdain shown here because essentially his shared ideals have been shunned. (though my forbie heart would also like to believe he was slightly aggravated at the way alex was treated)

also, it is crazy how here you are able to immediately tell in the intro that there is no sanity left behind alex's eyes. he looks remorseless, while still having a level of poise - when it directly transitions to alex in the cafeteria, it is really like we are seeing a different person - he looks like a deer in headlights. "what the hell happened to him?" is EXACTLY what pushes you into fully becoming invested in the movie.

eddie redymane's acting honestly has been quite significant in intensifying the debate around alex's culpability, no one could've played him better!

like minds is so good because it had two good actors who had been in practically nothing, a probably very low budget, and a well executed dream

everyone say thank you tom sturridge and eddie redmayne

After so many years and tears (three-ish weeks) I FINALLY finished it—A piece inspired by @gali-in-distress ‘s Trans!Nigel AU post ! :D

Was obsessed with both the concept and how the edit turned out, and I also, funnily enough, ended up seeing it around the same that both my own gender dysphoria and PMS were starting to beat my ass. So one thing led to another, and I ended up working on this.

+ here’s two other doodles I made playing around with the concept below

But also, another thing I've considered is: what if they're *both* humans and Nigel just happens to be interested in the vampiric ways. It makes sense if you wanna consider the idea of vampires technically being dead and Nigel not being dead, but he wishes to blur that separation between him and that state as much as possible. So yeah, he's human AND he's picking up the habit of drinking blood. He's already pretty sickly (which would be caused by the blood intake) and sensitive to sunlight, so Alex ends up thinking he's a vampire at first, especially after catching him sipping straight from a blood bag. But nah, Nigel's just fucking weird and enjoying his time LARPing as one.

And, like the previous concept, he'd try to get Alex to join alongside him; leading to a few murders, as Nigel would make use and store as much blood from the bodies they claimed.

Unfortunately for them, raw blood is very dangerous to consume for a multitude of reasons (bloodborne illnesses, secondary hemochromatosis, natural emetic + laxative, etc) so like... they're both probably going to die in some very painful ways (if you want that delicious whump material, go ahead). But hey! To some degree, I guess that was the point??

Whenever I see an influx of new faces around here, I like to throw out a welcome and some helpful info about the site and our weird little movie.

Tumblr In General

For anyone new to Tumblr in general, some tips, explanations, and etiquette about how it works (mostly bc it's all very different from the usual social media game):

How to use Tumblr - see this for a quick intro to some settings you will definitely want to adjust. How to find posts on any blog -- this mostly pertains to searching on browser which is the only truly reliable way to find anything on this site. You technically CAN look at Tumblr on your phone's browser, but it's annoying bc it keeps wanting to default to the app if you have it installed. The Ultimate Explanation of Tagging -- what to tag, what not to tag, and what a tag actually does here. I have to emphasize one of the points they make: never spam tag a post with unrelated stuff. I guarantee this will annoy people to the point of reporting the post and maybe blocking you entirely. This isn't IG or Twitter or Tiktok, and doing this is not going to increase your "reach" in some mystical algorithmic equation.

The For You page here is based on some insanely dumb, random, and unreliable choices and an overall crap way to see the stuff you want. Part of the point here is to curate your own experience, not let some shit algorithm decide what you see. Find blogs posting content you like, follow them, then scroll your Following feed. The people you like will reblog more things you like from people you may want to follow.

at the end of the day it all comes back to your note about the Real maraclea 🤑

No, not a stretch at all! I think those are excellent parallels to draw. It's quite plausible that Greg matched these two shots on purpose. And you DO know I love to bring it back to my feelings about the "real" Maraclea.

Here's a visual just to hammer it home for everyone:

Alex standing behind both of them is so important to me.

Submissive and Beheadable

The two trespassing some area and hiding together in a small space; Alex cracking open a bottle he stole and taking a massive gulp, only to end up letting out a grunt of disgust and laughing afterwards. Nigel isn't a fan of drinking or smoking, but he still tries a sip because Alex offers it. His nose immediately wrinkles at the overwhelming taste, and he's shoving the bottle in Alex's hand away from his face.

Just think about itttt—both of them egging the other on and making awful choices out there for the fun of it. Away from unwanted eyes, they can be as pushy, touchy, and vulgar as possible. Dirt gets streaked over Alex's pants and somehow on his cheek, and Nigel gets unexplainable bruises from the hasty way they're moving around. Nigel cracks the driest, yet most morbid joke possible and Alex guffaws in disbelief (mind you, he'd find this same sort of joke unfunny in the morning after, but currently, he's too in the moment to care). So much grabbing; Nigel's pulling at Alex's sleeve, Alex is cupping the back of his neck, they're just pushing and pulling the entire time.