Mio.

I have no energy. I just wanna have a day off already. ugggghhhhh why are higher ups and managers so dumb fuck

anyways I'm bored tired and have no energy.

also I love my cats. I love my babies so very much.

fucking hate my perception of time due to ADHD. like sometimes 2 hours feels like it went by in an instant, and other times what felt like 15 minutes was actually 5. tf

soooo I saw a spicy book today with my name on the front cover. will not divulge, but I do have a (somewhat) uncommon name, so it felt *very* uncomfortable to know of its existence. very weird experience.

i've been randomly getting headaches more often, and I don't know why. I drink plenty of water, so I know it's not that. Maybe it's the weather? idk

today was somehow incredibly slow and then went by really fast.

i have been once again asked to make the most anxiety inducing car ride of my life by myself. this time I have experience and more time, but still.

too many thoughts tonight, too little time to type it all out. will most likely forget by morning. yay ADHD

today happened. am very tired so keeping this short.

pharmacist didn't believe me about my prescription until the computer spat out my information at her. (she was very nice and probably just following procedure)

HALLOWEEN STUFF IS COMING OUT IM SO HAPPY YAY

accidentally broke some glass today. was all good.

today was another mostly lazy day.

slept way the fuck in, made some treats, did laundry. did just about nothing else.

i am very curious to see how tomorrow goes.

it'll definitely be interesting.

so my manager got fired-

(we weren't told that explicitly because reasons but context clues exist and all signs point towards the flame so yeah)

AND WE SORTA JUST ACTED LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED?! WHAT?!?!?!?

and then current guy in charge was like "yeah me and [other manager] will be pulling doubles for a while" and I'm like 'we just can't stop making poor management decisions now can we' (but not out loud ofc I'm not dumb)

anyways bought a really cute mini Bundt cake maker will make some treats tomorrow

oh and as always- fuck corporate, and fuck CEOs.

(but good news if I ever decide to leave I have been offered a job multiple times at a grocery store by the store manager there. so there's that)

today was genuinely the perfect day.

slept in, was lazy, ate good food, bought some stuff.

a perfect day off. 10/10 no notes

i thought I had gotten used to people being two faced; I guess I was wrong.

I'm not the one affected this time, but still, it's someone I care about. They couldn't be themselves for MOST OF THE DAY, until it was just us closing, and we could finally just talk in peace. I don't know what's going on, but we're in a professional fucking setting people. You guys are MANAGERS, running a goddamn store with people who rely on you to keep your shit together. This person is like an older sibling to me. Get your fucking act together.

I think i'm just mad at people right now. Mad at corporate for making shitty decisions, mad at my roommate for being ungrateful and inconsiderate, mad at customers (sometimes).

And then I see a tiny bit of hope? And I want to cry. Because I feel like I missed it. I know I have depression, and I know I do good work, but... should that really be all it takes for some minor stuff to affect me that badly?

nothing super interesting happened today.

just stuff

hot as balls though. fuck the heat man I hate this weather.

also fuck corporate. ew.

today was...interesting, to say the least.

started off the day with the news I did not get the new position (I'm too valuable where I am. fuck), and then got the news that the CEO is fucking everything up in the store because it's "how he wants it." (via higher ups.) I have a few choice words for him.

then I got to wear an inflatable chicken costume, my manager both called AND texted me while I was in the restroom fighting for my life (he needed my work ID and password because my terminal logged out as soon as I went in the restroom.)

and I had to clean shit stains out of the bathroom that somehow got worse the more I cleaned up.

i need a vacation. and a braincell. possibly a shot or a cigarette, idk man. I need a break. too much bullshit.

currently munching on some delicious green grapes. I like grapes.

pretty chill and low-key day. didn't do a whole lot, but I made dinner for a relative who was in town and they really enjoyed it, which made me really happy.

i officially get the news about the new job position tomorrow. weirdly nervous about it.

Happy day 200!

Work was shit again today. Just exhausting.

Feeling a little under the weather so keeping it short tonight in the interest of resting.

I hated today. So much.

Corporate decided it would be a great idea to remodel the store DURING OPERATING HOURS. Like gee I wonder what that’s gonna do to sales.

I was so exhausted today. Never wanna do that again. But guess what? GOTTA DO IT TOMORROW YAY

I think the gods enjoy spiting me. Or whatever it is that’s up there. You never know.

I had a conversation today I SO did not want to have, but my manager made me. He sometimes acts a little TOO much like an older brother.

You know food is good when the spice hurts your soul but you can’t stop eating cuz it’s so good. Hell yea

I had the great privilege of taking out a trash bag with a dirty diaper in it. Yippee.

After I got off work, immediately went to a family dinner. Social battery? Dead. Energy? Gone. Damn near went to sleep at 10, which I rarely do.

Today was a good day.

Slept in, lazed around, did some shopping, did some shit.

I love lazy days

I also binged 2 comics so that was fun

Does anyone else not really like running into customers on your days off? Because they’re used to me being in polite customer service mode, but off the clock? Keep to myself, and I swear. A lot. So I just don’t know how to act. (Just smile and wave, smile and wave)

So my manager may or may not get fired for making a racist joke. We don’t know.

Today was pretty uninteresting.

Do you ever wonder about what it’s like to not know you exist? Sorta like when you’re asleep? A state of unconsciousness? A saw a video of jellyfish and it got me thinking….is dying sorta similar to when you’re asleep, but not dreaming? Idk man