I want to introduce to you guys the first men that I ever fell in love with. I will not state his name. But I can tell you that I fell in love with his smile, his attitude, his voice, everything. Unfortunately things didn’t work out between us. I wouldn’t had mind if he would’ve been the only men i would’ve dated. But that will not be the case. Perhaps we both said/after a certain way. I know it hurts, and yes as I type this tears are rolling down my eyes. I hate not knowing what could’ve been if only it would’ve worked out. It hurts like fucking hell. Just know that you’ll always have a special place in my heart. I will cherish the memories we shared together. The only thing I tried to do was loved you. I won’t speak badly of him because I loved him. It will definitely take some time therefore I won’t be on this blog for an indefinite amount of time. Thank you all. And thank you to the first men I ever loved. All I can do now is wish you the best and you deserve the best in the world. I’ll always love you and you know that. Goodbye

Probably more than just that month. It’s a very lengthy story and I do not feel like sharing it. Just know this, he cheated on me and the guy he cheated on me with cheated on him.... so karma is a true bitch you showing mess with. But to this day I still respect him and won’t trash talk him. Because at one point in my life I loved him and he was everything I wanted. However he made his choice and cheated. Whether he had feelings like I did it’s uncertain and unclear unfortunately. What I can tell you is that I am in very much pain and there’s not a day that goes by yet that I don’t miss him. Hopefully it will get better. But yes I am heartbroken. I would’ve never put him through this pain. I won’t say I regret anything or take back any words because at that time I meant every single thing. All I can do now is wish for him the best. Because I will never be able to hate him even after what he did to me. I still think about him; every time my phone rings or lights up I hope it’s him. But that will not happen... I loved him... he didn’t. Now all there’s left is to pick up the million of broken pieces of my heart and move on.