My Weightloss Surgery Journey

I'M proud of MYSELF!! I know anticipation/excitement of the surgery is a huge motivator, but I'm doing this - I'm doing this on my own - like the first time ever without trying to starve myself, no diet pills, no binging. Down 15 pound, and I FEEL GREAT ABOUT IT!!

Tomorrow is my consultation appointment, I’m not really nervous, more so, curious. I think I also will hear the results from the psychological evaluation I did. I haven’t thought about it much…it is what it is. I’m hoping I get a better understanding of what all I need to accomplish diet wise in the next 4 months. Wow, as soon as 4 months I could be in the losers bench! I get excited as each day passes. I cannot wait to weigh what a average person does, it has been over 25 years since I have!

One of the pre-Req's for my weightloss surgery is to have a mammogram. I don't know what it is, but since starting this journey, I haven't been as nervous/scared about doing tests. I was more nervous doing the psychological evaluation than the mammogram. I'm glad I didn't stress myself over it because it wasn't bad at all. This morning was also my second weigh-in for WeightLoss Management with primary care physician (pre-req of 6 months). I lost 7 pounds since my first weigh-in. I'm pretty happy about that. I would like to lose 19 more before the surgery, but I guess that depends on the surgeons requirements. I meet with him next Monday.

So, I think I found something I like! This morning I am having a chocolate muscle milk with pb fit mixed in....it is pretty dang good!

This evening I have my first support group meeting I have to attend for weightloss surgery. I'm kinda looking forward to it....to hear everyone's story. I've asked my husband to go with me, I think it would be beneficial for him to hear the good and the bad of what I could be going through.

Well, I know absolutely NOTHING about protein shakes, but I really need to find something I can tolerate, because in my near future these will be my meals. So, today, I ventured off to the nutrition store to see what they can maybe recommend. I walk in with the "deer in the headlight look".....looking side to side, like wtf am I doing here. The guy at the counter must of seen my face of confusion and asked if he could help me, why sure you can because I can't help myself! This turned out to be a pretty good experience, he let me sample several different ones that have been recommend for weightloss surgery. I found me one that taste like a vanilla pudding cup, why of course this is the one I'm going to buy (and happen to be one of the most expensive ones, imagine that). I'm sure, I won't say in a couple days, but soon, you will read me blogging about how I absolutely hate these things and I'll die of starvation when I'm on a liquid diet - so for now.....I'm off to drink my vanilla pudding cup in a bottle disguised as something good for me.

Vanilla Pudding Cup in a bottle!

Soooooooo not looking forward to this. The psych I was referred to does a "test", and me being the researcher I am- I had to FIND THIS TEST. I'm not sure what I found will be it (mmpi) but from what others have experienced in this evaluation this is the test. I start to do it online, answered probably a 100 or so questions, got bored and started scrolling down and scrolling and scrolling - HOLY HELL THERE ARE 500 questions!!! My ADD will never let me get through all that, ugh... I am nervous as hell over this evaluation...what if I'm nuts? I think I'm just an average person, I am right? If I fail this "test", I can be denied surgery... let's just think positive here - I'm fine! I can get through this!