t.s

I can see every single person, and if you think that I can’t, that’s not true. I can see every person illuminated, and highlighted. You know, a crowd of 60,000 people is a magical thing no matter what but it’s absolutely breathtaking for me being able to look out and see just how many individuals that is. And when I look at you, and I see that, it makes me think about my crowd not as a, kind of um, a loud, dark, entity, it’s, it’s a group of individuals. And when I start thinking about that is when I really start thinking. And I start thinking about how every single person here is going through your own set of circumstances in your life: things that scare you, things you regret, things that you’re so excited about, things that have happened to you in the past, things that you are afraid of happening to you in the future. You know, every single person here has lost somebody, and maybe even very recently. Maybe there are so many people here tonight who have gotten their heart broken or felt betrayed by a friend, or lost somebody they never thought they’d have to say goodbye to. Maybe we have people here tonight who fell in love with a habit that was bad for them, and they had the hardest time in the world quitting, and every single day is a struggle not to go back to that bad relationship, or that bad habit, or that bad addiction. Whatever it is, every single person here tonight has something that they overcame and overlooked and did not dwell on in order to get out of bed, put on clothes, and be at this concert tonight. Please keep that in mind. Keep that in mind when you are next to someone in line, keep that in mind when you are dancing next to someone who is here by themselves, keep that in mind if you are out in the world and for one second you forget that everyone is struggling with something. I think that we need to give ourselves the benefit of the doubt more and we need to give other people the benefit of the doubt more. And I just wanted to say that if you are going through something right now, or have in the past, and you listened to my music in that moment, I look at that as the highest honor in the world, and I will never be able to thank you enough. I think a lot of the time we are so hard on ourselves because we look at our lives and we compare our lives to other people’s lives; we look at every mistake we’ve ever made in our life and we hold it against ourselves. We look at it like it’s a mark against our record. Guess what? There is no record. That’s not how it works. Making mistakes is part of your life and you are going to do it over and over and over again. Be kind to yourself. Please. You have been there for every single lesson I have learned, publicly or privately in the last ten years of my life and one thing I can tell you is that the mistakes that you will make do not make you damaged. They make you wiser; you take something from them. And I just want you to know that; that if you feel like life is raining down on you over and over and over again I need you to know that that doesn’t make you tarnished. Walking through a bunch of rainstorms but continuing to go on with your life, that makes you the opposite of damaged or tarnished. That makes you stronger, wiser, smarter, and ultimately, I think it makes you clean.

“im getting old” starter pack

I can see every single person, and if you think that I can’t, that’s not true. I can see every person illuminated, and highlighted. You know, a crowd of 60,000 people is a magical thing no matter what but it’s absolutely breathtaking for me being able to look out and see just how many individuals that is. And when I look at you, and I see that, it makes me think about my crowd not as a, kind of um, a loud, dark, entity, it’s, it’s a group of individuals. And when I start thinking about that is when I really start thinking. And I start thinking about how every single person here is going through your own set of circumstances in your life: things that scare you, things you regret, things that you’re so excited about, things that have happened to you in the past, things that you are afraid of happening to you in the future. You know, every single person here has lost somebody, and maybe even very recently. Maybe there are so many people here tonight who have gotten their heart broken or felt betrayed by a friend, or lost somebody they never thought they’d have to say goodbye to. Maybe we have people here tonight who fell in love with a habit that was bad for them, and they had the hardest time in the world quitting, and every single day is a struggle not to go back to that bad relationship, or that bad habit, or that bad addiction. Whatever it is, every single person here tonight has something that they overcame and overlooked and did not dwell on in order to get out of bed, put on clothes, and be at this concert tonight. Please keep that in mind. Keep that in mind when you are next to someone in line, keep that in mind when you are dancing next to someone who is here by themselves, keep that in mind if you are out in the world and for one second you forget that everyone is struggling with something. I think that we need to give ourselves the benefit of the doubt more and we need to give other people the benefit of the doubt more. And I just wanted to say that if you are going through something right now, or have in the past, and you listened to my music in that moment, I look at that as the highest honor in the world, and I will never be able to thank you enough. I think a lot of the time we are so hard on ourselves because we look at our lives and we compare our lives to other people’s lives; we look at every mistake we’ve ever made in our life and we hold it against ourselves. We look at it like it’s a mark against our record. Guess what? There is no record. That’s not how it works. Making mistakes is part of your life and you are going to do it over and over and over again. Be kind to yourself. Please. You have been there for every single lesson I have learned, publicly or privately in the last ten years of my life and one thing I can tell you is that the mistakes that you will make do not make you damaged. They make you wiser; you take something from them. And I just want you to know that; that if you feel like life is raining down on you over and over and over again I need you to know that that doesn’t make you tarnished. Walking through a bunch of rainstorms but continuing to go on with your life, that makes you the opposite of damaged or tarnished. That makes you stronger, wiser, smarter, and ultimately, I think it makes you clean.

state of grace is for the boys and girls who make another person their religion and silver jewelry and early morning walks through the city and smelling spring in the air and the moment you realise that you are alive right now and this is all there will ever be and shards of bright stained glass and the way the light looks through them and waking up next to someone you love with the sunlight spilling through the curtains and onto their face and crisp white shirts and pretty underwear