In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. I seek refuge in Allah from Satan. It is raining today. Alhamdulillah. In the area where I live, rainwater often accumulates on the roads at regular points. May Allah (SWT) bless us with balanced and beneficial rainfall. Ameen. May He (SWT) protect us from excessive rainfall and its harmful effects. Ameen. I am grateful for my university. They were patient and understanding when I faced significant difficulties that affected my studies. I am still struggling in some ways, but I have also experienced growth. Alhamdulillah. May Allah (SWT) grant me the ability to complete my bachelor's degree within about a year. Ameen. Today, I thought about having biryani, but I also reminded myself to remain disciplined because I estimate that I have around 175,000 Taka in debt. My mother and sister tell me not to worry. Alhamdulillah. Astaghfirullah. Even so, as a 32-year-old adult, I believe I should remain responsible and mindful of my financial obligations. My father says he is not worried about our family's debt. MashaAllah. He is working diligently to resolve our financial situation through the sale of land in our village. It is physically demanding for him, and I try to contribute whenever I receive information or have an opportunity to help. At times, I become involved in family disagreements. My temper can fluctuate, and my doctor has explained that this is part of my condition. He has prescribed Convules CR 300, to be taken as two tablets daily, in addition to the four tablets I am already taking. I am following his treatment plan. Alhamdulillah. I have also noticed that whenever I perceive a threat, even a minor one, I tend to warn people around me immediately. My family and my doctor have advised me that this reaction can be excessive. They encourage me to maintain emotional balance more consistently, avoiding both emotional highs and lows. My treatment includes medication for bipolar disorder, which is intended to help stabilize my mood. May Allah (SWT) grant me balance, patience, wisdom, and complete well-being. Ameen.

In the Name of Allah. The first quality that must be guarded is truthfulness, because lying has no place in the life of a believer. We are commanded to be people of truth. It is astonishing how often we deceive ourselves. In a sense, every time we recite, "Ihdina as-sirata al-mustaqim" ("Guide us to the Straight Path"), we risk making a false claim if we are unwilling to accept the guidance that Allah has already provided. Allah answers this supplication immediately in the Qur'an:"Dhalika al-kitabu la rayba fihi hudan lil-muttaqin.""This is the Book about which there is no doubt, a guidance for those who are mindful of Allah." (Qur'an 2:2) It is as though Allah is saying, "You asked for guidance, and I have given it to you. Here it is." Therefore, if we sincerely ask, "Ihdina as-sirata al-mustaqim," we should prove our sincerity by following the guidance of the Qur'an. Otherwise, our words remain empty, and we fail to live up to what we are asking of Allah.

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. I seek refuge in Allah from Satan. I have found myself struggling after my examinations ended. It is rather ironic. I may have relaxed my guard a little—I do not know; Allah knows best. I remember feeling something similar on the 5th of May. I thought I was in control, but perhaps that very assumption contributed to my current state. One of my teachers once said, "Do not say that you are in control, because you never truly are." Those words continue to echo in my ears. Even though this reminder is reinforced five times a day through our prayers, I still find myself failing to learn its lesson. La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah. There is no power and no strength except through Allah. May Allah (SWT) forgive me and guide me, Ameen. Alhamdulillah, my examinations went reasonably well, by the grace of Allah. I pray that Allah (SWT) accepts my efforts, grants me beneficial knowledge, and continues to help and guide me in all my affairs. Ameen. All praise and thanks belong to Allah, and gratitude to everyone who supported and prayed for me.

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In the name of Allah. Life is difficult, but if you have a touch of faith, you will experience its beauty. It makes it all worth it. You can truly experience this depth among the poor. A poor person is naked with their emotions. However, one must be careful not to get carried away. To talk a bit about myself: I feel like I am conducting a class in dim, gentle light, guiding a group of mature students at the tertiary level, Alhamdulillah. I hope you will keep me in your prayers so that I may do well in my impending examinations.

In the Name of Allah. I have 100 now, and I gave him 32. He is unhappy, but what can I do? I am not a prophet, astaghfirullah. This is my limit, alhamdulillah. On another note, this lady—astaghfirullah—considers the Kaaba to be God, which I feel is a form of shirk (polytheism). Apart from this belief, she is actually quite good in her speech, mashaAllah. May Allah (SWT) protect us and grant us refuge in Him from disbelief, poverty, bid'ah (innovation in religion), and showing off. May Allah (SWT) grant us a deep understanding of religion. Ameen.