IsawTheComet

I still miss you. Sometimes.

I find myself not thinking about you as often as I did. Find myself not wanting to hear about you, nor wanting to check up on you. It's great. It's such a relief. So much weight and hopelessness has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't know if it was the incident that caused me to reexamine my feelings for you or if I've just finally come to terms and this is the actual acceptance. All I know is that I'm finally ok with not being the girl for you. Because darling you're not the guy for ME.

I don't know what would make me feel better: not talking to you at all or talking to you some times? It's like, I want to know so much. But at the same time, I don't want to know about that girl in your class. Or the one in traffic. Or the one in the past. Or the one you still love. It's torture. To hear you speak of them and wish you'd speak like that about me. The feeling I get when you send a message, the feeling I get when you ignore mine, the feeling I get when I so much as hear your name.....that's torture. I really want to make this go away. How long can a crush last?

I’ll take your friendship. I’ll keep my feelings to myself. I’ll accept what can’t be. I’ll feel free. This is acceptance. 

"You might really be the very best one to ever suit me, but I can't expect you to see how I see, cause sometimes I don't see a thing...but personal pressure is making me guess, my time's running out as we're both getting dressed, I don't know who's body I rather feel pressed, but I cannot rest on my thoughts: Cause we had a good time, Then it was sorrow, I call it stealing, You call it borrow, So I want my heart back, If you're not gonna keep it, If you've got no uses, Then I'm gonna need it, And someone else is gonna need it too...."

I get a little bit and I want a lot more. But I'm not gonna get it and I'm ok with that. Or maybe I'm not ok with that.