Tav 23 They/honk/it

i feel like im getting too close, im becoming too attached to you , and my first instinct is to push u away so u dont see how selfish and awful i am, but the thought of losing u makes me cling harder, and when i cling i fear youll be the one to push me away, so i push myself away first and its a never ending cycle

so scared to ruin what we have, you're so special to me and i can't mess this up, i dont know if i love u but u want to, i want u to love me, i wanna be yours , i wanna be ur main, i want to be your first choice, but i cant tell u this cuz i cant lose u too

ughhh i miss them , i miss them so bad, i wanna break no contact, i want to apologize, i want to beg for their forgiveness, i want to beg for their love, i just want them to love me back

i want to be yearned for and that is my downfall

i fucking wish ppl would just tell me that theyrd not into me instead of just leading me on and i stay awake hating myself just waiting for them to text back

i meet someone-> i draw yaoi of us-> they leave 🔁

i need to stop getting attached to quickly to ppl who give me attention

i just want them to tell me they want me