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  So I Lucid dream every single night. I remember 90% of my dreams and they are always extremely vivid and feel very very real. Very frequently these dreams are just not fun. Accidentally killing birds, family members trying to kill me, saw style death traps where I try to save my husband and always fail, end of the world scenarios on and on and on. Just incredibly uncomfortable things, you're trapped, you're aware you're dreaming but it's a lot of work to "Kick yourself out" in a way. It drains on you and makes you a bit scared to sleep at times. Markus could basically be a log when he's sleeping, once he's out, he's out. But he gives me permission to wake him up enough to make him half conscious for if I need it. Just trust me... You don't want this shit  But if you really want to experience a lucid dream, set an alarm in the middle of the night and make sure you're conscious enough to turn it back off. You are very very likely to experience something then. XD Even when he's only like 30% concious he always manages to register if I'm not okay and just hugs me and falls straight back into log mode XD

  Before anyone says anything, I've tried many eating routines and this one was agreed uppon with my therapist as a decent choice and has been the most successful. Oh my lawd, I was training the last week to get prepared for a true intermittent fasting diet. Now I'm virtually only on tea every second day, that's it. Maybe a tiny amount of chicken stock in hot water just to get through the night. It's so weird, I never really think about food THAT much but man.... just random ass thoughts of food have been pestering me all week XD. Like I'm just doing my work and suddenly "Oh I should make x" Good lord this is a very powerful example of willpower and control, the thoughts of food have been plauging me all day xD

  Kay before anyone says anything. I'm obviously exaggerating a bit XD, He does get angry and can get a bit heated in the car but never directs it at other drivers or me, he just vents his anger to the air around him.We've gone on a number of road trips by now, so I've seen a lot of reactions from him. Including one time where we easily could've died from an idiot taking over a bus on a curve. He's actually quite the safe driver and I snuffedout any bad habits he had because wifehood. This idea came about during one day where he just kept ranting and ranting and ranting and it was progressively getting worse and worse as he'd seemingly go back to neutral. We were both really stressed because this trip had to do with my citizenship too. I decided to have a semi abstract depiction of a car so that I had room for more expressive poses, I think it's still readable despite breaking a few dimensional rules XD

Ah theres always something nice about the peace and quiet you get in the tub. The water hugging you with it's warmth, and you all to yourself. I have a bad habbit of bathing for at least an hour usually, I blame Lush products lol... I was just in the bath other day and I wanted to have a go at trying to depict the feeling.

One, I am a major roller coaster nerd. I'd dreamed to go on this coaster since I was like 12. I never in my wildest dreams thought I'd ever to get to ride it one day, let alone a second time. I have to deeply thank HoxieRedhoof for making one of my serious dreams come true <3 Secondly. So as I've mentioned a few times, I was very sick from a pill change. I was a zombie with no sense of emotions. I couldn't even have the will to get my pen in my hand and was sitting for 6+ hours at the staircase doing basically nothing. I was really REALLY not okay. But finally, the pill was slowly working it's magic and was inching it's way from being a hell hole to a life changer. We went to the park after Galacon since it was only an hour away. Between that and seeing my childhood dream once again really ripped me right out of the 2 month misery I was in. It was one of the best weeks I had ever had, and I love you dearly HoxieRedhoof for making that happen <3

Oh wow I’ve been debating about posting this one for a good while. But I bit the bullet and did it. I was worried this was kind of entering cringe territory but my friends claimed it didn’t seem cringey and was moreso cute. This was a fun experiment though! Hope you guys like it~

Annnnd that's our New Year! Happy New Years everyone! This is the view I got in Austria!

Happy 2019 everyone. This year was especially tough for me to get through, I know for a lot of people this was the case. Heres to hoping next year is a little better. It kind of dawned on me near the end of the year that my friends were great at keeping me going. This is a small gesture of our many long years together despite being all over the world. We have people from Canada and New Jersey to Germany and Hungary and even more. And despite being so far apart from each other, we do manage to visit and hang out. We are just a strong family, we live day by day and are always connected despite the distances, some of us even producing relationships from it. So here's to all the moments we've spent together, managing to stay strong and stay together, supporting each other when needed and surviving through this rather rough year.

Oh heck even my toothpaste has this issue. Many brands of toothpaste make me feel sick when used, so I found this ONE SPECIFIC brand in canada that works. And guess what doesn't exist in Austria? Guess who has 8 boxes of this toothpaste that was brought over via airport. Of course, on the other hand I am gaining new tastes and things I like as well. Groiggn and Gluhwein being two new winter season favorites. Both incredibly unhealthy lol

So like I've said before, our home is very VERY small. Like no couch level small. We finally figured out we could squeeze in a couch in one area of the house but it was gonna be tight. I was mainly eyeing a simple red, non modern 2-seater couch. Some time went by and it was still just planned, we couldn't find what we were looking for anywhere because the measurements were VERY tight. One day suddenly a local acquaintance came over to visit which confused the hell out of me (We've had like 3 visitors since I've been here). And in they come with this HUNKING BIG RED UGLEE COUCH LOLThe guy owns a local pub and was getting rid of the couches he had in the building, so he gave a whole set to us! The couch is now affectionately joked as our ugly red couch throne because we sit on it now for discord video calls.

I can't give more meaningful or emotionally impacting gifts like I usually prefer, because of the emotional disconnect and it causes and awkwardness in the air of the entire get together.     I dunno, just wrapping the gifts this year didn't give me the usual excitement it normally does. Knowing that there's nothing special about the gifts, just kind of bums me out. Of course, the gifts we got MY family this year feel a lot more impactful than what we did for HIS parents.   ================================= I am particularly excited this year because despite everything I just said, me and his parents did manage to team up to give something "bigger" to Markus than what he would normally get. If I'm lucky, maybe this is the start of connecting with them a bit better. I'm more excited about him getting his gift than anything else this year. Knowing we had to team up to get it to him, I know will mean something to him. (By this point, interactions with his parents weren't exactly known for going very smoothly)

This is mostly a teaser for DeviantArt but I thought I would post this here too. 

Lol so like I said before my feet are awfully cold. At night I like to attack HoxieRedhoof  with my feet just to mess with him because they are so darn cold it's like touching him with an ice cube. It was annoying him so much he forced my feet into a bucket of warm water the other night XD Just so I couldn't get him

So our house is like... ancient. Like at least 100 years ancient. The area of the house we actually live in also holds a walk in attic, which is currently being used for storage. It's super cold in this room and it recently dawned on us that we could utilize the space. Our house area is very small so any extra space is a godsend, like we don't have any room for a couch level small, not that I'm complaining but we can't deny it's dinky. The extra space would be appreciated. Only problem? the roof is slanted so much that, like in the picture, I am short enough to stand under the angled roof but not Markus lol. He has to duck his head. We have a long term plan, that it could be used as a full proper room in like 10 years but for now we are just planning on adding insulation and a chimney based heater in the room so I can use it for a change of scenery. I don't like doing my traditional art at my computer space so this would be perfect to just put a table and desk in for artwork. Once we get rid of all the spider webs first though...

So because of the new heart meds I’m on, I get very cold feet, to the point they go white  So I started sniffing around for a solution because normal socks just wasn’t doing it. I’m in a “tourist” town, which means there is a lot of cheap merch around when it’s not winter season, one of which is these really REALLY nice thick socks that have real sheep's wool on the inside. AAANNNNDDD I immediately became OBSESSED WITH THEM HARDCORE LOL. I have about 8 pairs of these and wear them every single day XD They by no means are “sexy pony socks” because they make my feet look like Soras from kingdom hearts level huge. But they do a wonderful job keeping me comfortable and I looooove wearing them ^^ ======================

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