Those Little Moments....

I am so disappointed with my parents. My father has anger issues. My mother has a lot resentment for many people, and never admits making a mistake. My father has hurt us in one way or another because anger blinds him. He apologies every time. My mother never does. Although she claims to accept her wrongdoings. Now, I don't know what's worst receiving an apology that fades faster than the sound or never receiving an apology. I was extremely depress during the great majority of my childhood and most of it was due to my mother's harsh words. 4:53pm I fought with them a few minutes ago. I told them how that much anger can hurt them and us. They feel wrong by their superiors at work and they talk about their resentment and anger day and night. My brothers and I avoid talking to them some times. I personally feel like dying every time. I feel like happiness has disappear. I feel even worst when I realize that I should be helping them more instead but I am not an angry person and prefer to live a peaceful life. My little brother has been planning to live since a while ago. My plder brother is starting to plan to move to a new house. When I share my dreams and plans, they asked, "what about mom and dad? Who will take care of them?". I was left speechless. Since I am a daughter, I'm automatically assign to care for them forever. I wish I could leave to a new place and live a calm and lovely life. But I love them to much to just leave. I am not so heartless like them. But if everything works out, I will be able to live the life a dream in a few years. In the meanwhile, I just have make sure not to loose myself and my sanity. I realize that I cannot control everything and I should not change anyone.