Block don't report I'll cum

Idk I just fucking. I'm a bit upset with it.

Like okay yeah she's cool with it fun she's not a snitch but WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT WITHOUT TELLING ME? OR ASKING IF IT WAS OKAY? DO YOU REALIZE THAT NOT EVERY FAMILY IS GONNA BE ALL CHILL FUN TIMES ABOUT ME BEING A FAGGOT??

And it's just. That's not even a boundary I feel like I should have to set in place because it's common fucking knowledge that you don't out people without their permission, right? Like we agree, that's bad, right??? Or am I overreacting?

All I can do is imagine scenarios where my sister let's it slip to my family and ruins everything and ugh I can't do that I can't do this

I get to have a boundary you have to tell them but I'm just so upset because I feel like it's common knowledge yet apparently everyone has to know that we're gay and you kissed me or that we fucked, YOUR BESTFRIEND DOESNT NEED TO KNOW THAT WE FUCKED EVEN IF IT WASNT THAT MUCH ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

And what irks me is that I would NEVER EVER tell other people those things but for her she just does. Literally the first time we did things she told me not to tell anyone and then immediately told her friend not even a few days later.

I don't know if she realizes that this relationship IS two people atp because she's acting like everything fucking revolves around her when it comes to this stuff as though I am a background character with loving supportive ally parents and family and i just want EVERYONE to know what a whore I am and what a tranny fag I am

I don't know what to say back. There's such a disconnect from my mouth and brain and emotions that I shut down on the spot because what do I say? I'm sorry?

And I just don't get it. I don't get telling people my problems when it's too many to say in words and all I want to do is get worse. Thats not fair for me to vent and want to get worse, it isn't.

So I will bottle it up and suck it up and man up and try to be a good listener but I'm not a good speaker so I'm sorry