꧁༒☬𝓑𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓜𝓪𝓷☬༒꧂

i know i’m probably better off on my own

i see the permamnent damage you did to me

i just wish i could forget when it was magic

i wish it wasn’t four a.m.

you know you had to do it. 

the bravest thing i ever did was run

sometimes in the middle of the night i can feel you again

i just miss you and wish you were a better man

i know why we had to say goodbye

i know i’m probably better off all alone than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute

and it was always on your terms

i waited on every careless word hoping they might turn sweet again

oh but your jealousy, I can hear it now

you pushed my love away like it was some kind of gun

you never thought i’d run

i hold onto this pride because these days its all i have

i gave to you my best and we both know you cant say that

i wish you were a better man

i wonder what we would have become if you were a better man

we might still be in love if you were a better man

you would have been the one if you were a better man

꧁༒☬𝓝𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓝𝓮𝔀☬༒꧂

they tell you while you’re young “girls go out and have your fun”

then they hunt and slay actually do it

(they) criticize the way you fly when youre soaring through the sky

(they) shoot you down and then they sigh and say “she looks like she’s been through it”

lord, what will become of me once ive lost my novelty

i’ve had too much to drink tonight

i know it’s sad but this is what I think about

i wake up in the middle of the night

its like i can feel time moving

how can a person know everything at 18 and nothing at 22

will you still want me when i’m nothing new?

how long will it be cute?

you can blame it on my youth and roll your eyes with affection

my cheeks are growing tired from turning red and faking smiles

are we only biding time until i lose your attention

are we only biding time until i lose your attention and someone else gets your intention

people love an ingenue

how did i go from growing up to breaking down?

i know someday i’m gonna meet her

it’s a fever dream

she’ll know the way and then she’ll say she got the map from me

i’ll say i’m happy for her and then i’ll cry myself to sleep

i wonder if they’ll miss me once they drive me out

꧁༒☬𝓑𝓪𝓫𝓮☬༒꧂

what about your promises?

what a shame 

didn’t want to be the one who got away

you broke the sweetest promise that you should never have made

you call, but I wont hear it

how could you do this babe?

you really blew this babe

we aint getting through this one babe

this is the last time i’ll ever call you babe

taking down the pictures and the plans we made

we’re a wreck

you’re the wrecking ball

we said “No one else.”

I keep picturing her lips on your neck, I can't unsee it

꧁༒☬𝓜𝓮𝓼𝓼𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓘𝓷 𝓐 𝓑𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮☬༒꧂

I know that you like me and it’s kind of frightening.

i became hypnotized by freckles and bright eyes

you’re so far away and i’m down

feeling like a face in the crowd

i’m reaching for you, terrified

you could be the one that i love

i could be the one that you dream of

message in a bottle is all that I can do

standing here hoping it gets to you

you could be the one that I keep

I could be the reason you cant sleep

these days i’m restless

work days are endless

time moves faster replaying your laughter

Where were you while I'm wondering If I'll ever see you again?

꧁༒☬𝓘 𝓑𝓮𝓽 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓐𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓜𝓮☬༒꧂

three am and I’m still awake

i’ll bet youre just fine, fast asleep

the girl in your bed has a fine pedigree

i’ll bet your friends tell you she’s better than me

i tried to fit in with your upper crust circles

they let me sit in back when we were in love

yeah they sit around talking about the meaning of life

I'm harder to forget than I was to leave

i bet you think about me

You grew up in a silver-spoon gated community

I was raised on a farm, no, it wasn't a mansion

you know what they say, you can't help who you fall for

you and I fell like an early spring snow

reality crept in

you said we're too different

You laughed at my dreams (and) rolled your eyes at my jokes

Do you have all the space that you need?

i don't have to be your shrink to know that you'll never be happy

Why did you let her go?

Does it make you feel sad that the love that you're lookin' for is the love that you had?

last time you felt free was when none of that shit mattered 'cause you were with me

I bet you think about me when you're out at your cool indie music concerts

I bet you think about me in your house

꧁༒☬𝓕𝓸𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓦𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻☬༒꧂

He says he doesn't believe anything much he hears these days

Why fall in love, just so you can watch it go away?

He spends most of his nights wishing it was how it used to be

He spends most of his flights getting pulled down by gravity

He's up, 3 A.M., pacing

It's not just a phase I'm in

All this time I didn't know you were breaking down

I'd fall to pieces on the floor if you weren't around

Too young to know it gets better

He seems fine most of the time

His laugh is a symphony

When the lights go out, it's hard to breathe

I pull at every thread trying to solve the puzzles in his head

Live my life scared to death he'll decide to leave instead

He's up, 5 A.M., wasted

My voice comes out screaming

If I was standing there in your apartment I'd take that bomb in your head and disarm it

I love you even at your darkest 

believe in one thing. I wont go away.

꧁༒☬𝓡𝓾𝓷☬༒꧂

Give me the keys, I'll bring the car back around

We shouldn't be in this town

I'd drive away before I let you go

So give me a reason and don't say no

I'll wait for you

run, like you'd run from the law

Darling, let's run

We can go where our eyes can take us

Go where no one else is

you laugh like a child  I'll sing like no one cares

I could see this view a hundred times

there's been this hole in my heart

this thing was a shot in the dark

(you) say you'll never let 'em tear us apart

꧁༒☬𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓥𝓮𝓻𝔂 𝓕𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓝𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽☬༒꧂

i wish I could fly

i miss you like it was the very first night

i never go alone and i don't seem brokenhearted

my friends all say they know everything I'm going through

i drive down different roads but they all lead back to you

 they don't know about the night in the hotel

they don't know how much I miss you

we never saw it coming

not trying to fall in love

back then we didn't know we were built to fall apart

we broke the status quo, then we broke each other's hearts

no one knows about the words that we whispered

no one knows how much i miss you

take me away

OPEN. / starter 

“My heart’s not breaking cause I’m not feeling anything at all.”

he listened to her speak to the stranger, hanging in the shadow. “That really working for you?” he said, doubtful expression on his face.