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a place for fandom ocs (and a few canons). | half-rp blog, half aesthetic hoard.
fandoms include: dragon age, swtor, d&d, and final fantasy (so far)
roleplay and aesthetic blog for my myriad of ocs (and a select few canons)! many of which are either morally grey or outright villainous.
fandoms included (subject to change):
star wars (the old republic), final fantasy (VII/VIII/XIV/XV), && baldur’s gate/d&d.
written by fen, he/him/it (transmasc) and certified fandom old (30+).
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you may know me from such hiatus’d blogs as [sinamxris] or [cerberusandsadism] or [moltementi]. it has taken a stupid amount of time for me to step outta my comfort zone and actually create original characters- much less share them. pls be nice.
i post problematic shit, and am aware it’s problematic! such is the fun of writing it tbh.
by following/writing with me, you understand this. if such is not your jam, i’m not the blog for you, and that’s okay! i however will not tolerate any attempts to purify my blog with guilt or logical fallacy**.
[**] - such is notated only because i have become aware of a shift in the tumblr morality scene. morality/purity police have always been here, but rarely so in such level of ‘if you consume media with these topics, you support them irl and are thus a bad person!’; which quite honestly blows my mind as to how far that has managed to spread.
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if this was a meme I can't remember!! :D | @rogaire
So he's not as stealthy as he'd like to imagine. It wasn't exactly his fault- William never trained him for circumstances along the lines of 'an artifact of Eden getting its knickers in a twist and shot-putting a remarkably handsome archivist into Revolutionary FUCKING France in a hissy fit that rivalled the damn Crusades'.
Can you tell he's bitter? The smell of piss doesn't help. The Brit still vaguely hopes he's on a particularly bad acid trip-- or whatever Rebecca put in her gummi bears.
"Archivist for the Order." It's out of his mouth before he can think too hard on it. Which may or may not work in his favour- given who he thinks this is. "Didn't know where else to go, really. Uh, sir." Now he just has to think of a NAME- one preferably belonging to a Templar that actually existed, but more as a recluse.
Somewhere in the back of Gregs mind he's pleased to hear Sherlock say his actual name, but he knows it is not the part of the sentence he should really be focussing on.
"If they really are hunters, then they're dangerous to you, too." He'd dealt with a few in his time, and knew that even with all their tricks he was still stronger and faster than any human.
"I can take care of myself, Sherlock." Even if Sherlock refused to accept the help Greg would go anyway; he wasn't about to let Sherlock get hurt when he could lend a hand.
There is a certain, disturbing gravitas to the look Sherlock levels at his shroud-walking friend.
Friend?
Yes- certainly.
The possibility that a predator built for blood would not scent such upon his hands on the off days the 'detective' had no time for much other than antibacterial soap was fairly infinitesimal by his estimation. Putting aside the fact Sherlock was still metaphorically reeling at the revelation vampires were very much a thing-- Sherlock has been itching for a fight for days.
"They will know how, and be willing to kill indiscriminately, one of your kind. They will not be as likely to harm me- yet I obviously can't stop you, Inspector. I hope you choose to let me enact my plan first. If it fails... you are more than welcome to have a snack."
Shaun’s vocabulary is vast as we’ve all plentifully experienced through the Animus and it’s databases. Though in regards to swearing / expressing strong emotion, Shaun is what I like to affectionately call the ‘religious’ type - the kind where God, damnation, Hell, Heaven, and the like are a main focus.
Growing up Catholic tends to imprint. Becoming disenfranchised with said faith also has an effect. Also is he the kind that when the word ‘fuck’ is used one can reasonably assume to best stay out of his way.
Examples include, but are not limited to:
Bloody hell / hellfire
Sweet Jesus / sweet God
For the love of--
( God / Christ / all that is holy / God and sundry / All and sundry / Fuck )
Goddamn it
Holy shit
For Christ’s / God’s / Fuck’s sake
[you] righteous twat
Aside from these obvious little short ones that are more likely to be disgruntled exclamations, Shaun has more detailed statements / insults / threats that he tends to make up on the fly that have nothing to do with blasphemy.
The last time he'd been so disoriented, a desert had stretched out before him in shades indescribable to one who's never before seen a jewel of such infinite cuts. Had left behind the blade embedded into his body by a boy now fit to be king- a lamb to the slaughter a god had lain an altar for at the dawn of creation; all for a brilliantly dressed man who gazed at him as if he were the Sun Itself.
It's a forest now, and gold alights upon distant smoke- a universal signal flare be it for distress or destruction. Yet for once, it is the ringing silence within internal cacophony that snags his near-complete attention.
His gods... have no influence here.
It seems Bahamut had lost His grip, Ardyn abandoned to a wilderness unknown to any of his memories ( they're all him, or is he theirs? ) and that... was comforting.
A battle seems to have been fought here recently; prone bodies both dead and dying garbed in fairly-bright colours. Red and white on one side... with funny little hats?
There's sound of civilisation nearby, and so it is there he begins to tread. Perhaps would have reached, had a lone woman not been witnessed dropping from the trees. Onto a man. Then the man is no longer a man- but detritus, and Ardyn smiles softly: proud of such stealth, despite not knowing who was guilty of what.
"Mm, I'm sure he'd deserved that in some small measure~." It's nearly a purr, making unwanted commentary something to focus on aside from his confusion. "A terribly intimate way to get rid of someone though..."
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"A result from an action, more like~. Definitely a good one- ah, at least if oral is your cuppa tea. Sorry, I just overheard and couldn't help my mouth."
It's rather strange - and perhaps precious - that Sherlock's recollection for the detective inspector's name finally forms accurately whilst under duress. Or perhaps it was, more accurately, always there; Sherlock simply presuming the unnaming amusing validation.
Gavin, Graham. Geralt made it in somewhere once. Always masculine.
"Were I going anywhere but a collection of self-professed 'vampire hunters', Greg, I may take you up on that. But I have reason to believe at least one of them is legitimate."
1/2/3 for the wildly specific questions -corditeheart
Wildy Specific Headcanon Questions / @corditeheart
1. What's the lie your character says most often?
Malachi:
Given how many rescue/infiltration/generic observatory missions he's done over the course of not only his career as a SeeD, but as a realm-displaced Glaive, the answer to this is, tragically, "You're going to be okay."
From sites of war, to the peripheral villages and cities in the path of destruction- Malachi has seen more than his share of futile rescues, and many 'last moments' of those with no one to call. Yet no pre-assessment is going to stop him from providing what last, miniscule comfort he can to those that need it most. Being a realist doesn't make him an asshole, and admittedly much of that is due to life experience and age.
Nyx:
Inversely, Ulric's largest lies tend to be some variety of "I'm fine"/"I'll be fine". Not only from battleground injury or overuse of borrowed magic, but from the egregious and untreated case of C-PTSD and survivor's guilt that haunts his near-every quiet hour.
From auditory hallucinations of his sister to dissociative flashbacks and what-if scenarios that underline his potential for failure, Nyx Ulric is very much not okay. Guilt eats at him and can reliably be said to be his driving force: why he is so dead-set on being 'the Hero'. Perhaps if he saves enough of those in need, he can be forgiven for failing those who mattered most.
Ardyn:
If we're talking about (recent) active duty lying; for the past 30 in-universe years this man has been deceiving and manipulating an entire Empire, and regularly (within the last 3 years) not even knowing who he is day-to day. Yet if I were to hazard a guess/establish a HC right here, I'd have to say it would be some variety of "There's no need to fret~." / "Don't worry~.", with a potential 'my dear' added on by instinct.
If we are to speak on simply the lie spoken most often over the course of time itself; two-thousand years of simmering in the betrayal of your kin and hanging like a slab of meat, bound to an Astral-guarded Isle whilst boiling alive in the rage and confusion on what you POSSIBLY could have done to deserve such agony-- I like to think 'He didn't mean it/it was a mistake...' was likely the most often, deliriously uttered lie told to himself to comfort his shattered heart over his brother's betrayal.
Grief is cyclical. Imagine that cycle yoyoing for millennia.
2. How loosely or strictly do they use the word 'friend'?
Malachi:
In terms of using the word in general?
It's flung all over the place if it will help foster goodwill for whatever his missions may need. He'll cozy up to civilians, merchants- most anyone who shouldn't be exposed to the ugly of his work- again whatever that may be. The world is already a disaster (either 8's or 15's, it's all a mess) and most everyone is just trying to make it day in and day out.
Also, one gets more with honey than with vinegar.
In the emotional sense on who he considers his legitimate, actual friends worthy of his trust and vulnerability? It's... I wanna say astronomically rare.
In his native amnesiac!Glaive state (and to an extent his ff8verse), a warbond is built - for him - out of necessity. He trusts them to keep him alive; to do what they are trained to; to give enough of a shit that they all go home to do it all again the next day in a world on it's last legs. In that sense they're war buddies, brothers-in-arms. But the amount of people he has fought alongside to GET that sentiment can be counted on one hand (to his failing memory) and half are dead.
Malachi is a bizarrely mixed case of abundant-if-restrained compassion, vaguely pessimistic realism, caustic wit, don't-give-a-fuck-itis, and introversion. So the previous point isn't to say he's cold and distant. He's remarkably personable, and will shoot the shit for as long as such a mood lasts. He'll even play guitar when requested- not that he can remember where he learned to do so.
He's a friendly sort to most, but only considers a handful of people friends to himself.
3. How often do they show their genuine emotions to others versus just the audience knowing?
Malachi:
It depends on the emotion, the situation, and the opposing "other" muse he's interacting with. And believe me, I want to shove a hot pepper in my own mouth every time I say the words 'it depends' because... I say it too often. But in this case it's less 'oh, he's soooo changeable' and more he's fair willing to show emotions to those he knows and trusts to some degree.
He's secure in the knowledge he can beat ass if someone wants to be a dick about it.
But as stated before, it depends on the emotion, situation, and person combo- so I'd say the audience gets far more exposition because I'm a slut for it, no matter if the scene is him mean-mugging someone.
Nyx:
This one's a bit easier to answer, simply because Nyx - to me - is a 'keep to himself' sort for a myriad of reasons (outside his friend group). Be it 'I gotta be the hero' to 'my friends are having a good time, I can't bring em down' to 'I'm having a good time, who tf is this asshat crashing the party' and in any of those situations he tends to mask up-- aka, the audience will definitely see far more from my exposition.
Military training (to my extremely limited knowledge and thus portrayal) also doesn't quite encourage soldiers to be anything other than ready to deploy/the weapon they were honed to be. With enough time a soldier can outgrow that- and had this pretty face been less traumatised about who and what he could trust (fuck you Glautos), and not - y'know - internally crispy fried, he may have been able to loosen up.
Mind you I'd be more than down to write plots and developments where he learns to trust again!
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Do you know why I love lots of threads with the same person? Because if on a particular day I have no idea how to answer a thread, having multiple threads allow me to keep playing with a wonderful person no matter how my brain is an idiot. So yes, no matter how much threads we have together, just keep on sending stuff if you want. You’re never bothering me.
sneaks up right behind him and slides her frozen little hands right up his shirt. -corditeheart
@corditeheart // >:c
now his nipples are hard. thanks!
not like he had time to change shirts before going to 'new brat orientation'- so here's him slapping a full hand upon her ass on his way out the door. "If I get hit on, it's all your fault~."
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