i'm not leading // i'm scouting.

hello, bumblebabes!

it is with a saddened heart that i am announcing i am RETIRING this account. i have kept this account up for SO long in hopes that i would one day find the motivation to roleplay as my beloved shithead once more. but i no longer feel that desire; instead, i feel i must put this blog to rest. 

the years i spent roleplaying with you all were some of the best and the most emotional years i’ve had. y’all watched me get my first boyfriend, experience my first break up, earn my CDA, graduate high school... my activity on here has been spotty at best, but i have never forgotten a single one of you. i hold every single post on this blog DEARLY within my heart, and i will never forget the joy i feel whenever i open this website and look back. 

i will keep this account up, but i will be changing the URL accordingly. if you’d like to keep in contact with me, please message me and i’ll let you know some of my other social medias!

thank you. thank you for writing with me, for chatting with me, for supporting me.

—  [ me: ive not been on this account in months. where is my muse? where hath he gone?

Beware. Ratchmom has optics on his back.

He pauses any and all movements. His door wings twitch subtly as a feeling of hesitance washes over him. What was this? This feeling of ... parental supervision being watched? He was alone!

There is a disturbance in the Force. Can you feel it?

intense staring

♫— ; ; All is quiet...

— [ aww, thank you so much!!! i never even saw this!!

super informal post i’ll probs delete but an update!!

i went to the hospital today bc i slipped and all my weight landed on my right kneecap. it didn’t fracture but i’m on crutches for a week!

[ hello!!

as of may 25th, i graduated high school!!!!!

that’s right! i done did it. i busted my ass and got my geometry credit redone and i graduated with a 2.4 GPA. am i very proud of that GPA? for how much i struggled in high school, yes.

i used to be a 3.8 GPA student. high school has been a huge strain on my mental health; i’ve reached lows i didn’t think humans should be able to reach and i lost 2 of the bestest friends i ever made. i did not attend graduation and i did not walk across the stage. i did not have my senior portrait taken and i didn’t attend the last day of school. there was no energy left in me. i just wanted to be done and out.

and now i am learning how to drive. my blood pressure spikes whenever i have to switch lanes and i hate any speed limit over 30. but i am finally getting to do some of the growing up i should have done a long time ago.

                                                ⊰ and not because you WANT something? ⊱