Struggling Student™

anyone else feeling like university is not real & having no motivation anymore?

oh big mood this post

I don’t want a degree anymore I want a nap

why must i "pay attention" in class? is it not enough to simply be present?

uni is just. *repeats my classic mistakes* *regrets everything i do but too exhausted to make changes* *a yearning to disconnect from it all and go stand in a river* *constant state of mind is now the verge of a breakdown but too desensitised to it now* *internally screaming* *makes another to-do list that won’t be completed* *watches the clouds* 

Do you ever think really hard about university and ask yourself WHY? LIKE WHY AM I DOING IT? Omfg and with my one and only life……

exam season is just like *pours another cup of coffee* *hasn’t showered* *messy desk* *fogged up glasses* *texts friend to ask if they’re done studying* *pours another cup of coffee* *checks allotted exam room* *double checks allotted exam room because anxiety duh* *all nighters for that ONE subject* *cramming* *mental break down at 2am and then throwing up a peace sign* *pours another cup of c-

i hate the end of the semester so much! every day im like “ok honey u need to do x y and z or u will nearly fail all ur classes” and then when it comes down to it i’m watching 5 hours of youtube makeup tutorials