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You want my opinion? We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness — and call it love — true love.

sometimes you have to let people go because they’re toxic for you. you have to let people go because they mean you no good. sometimes you have to sacrifice the temporary happiness that people will give you - in convenience.. and you have to chase an unconditional happiness only you can give you. you have to let them go because you’ve forgotten your worth and you have to regain a sense of self. let them go because they continuously take - always leaving you empty.. always leaving you uncertain. let them go because while you’re learning yourself & seeking fulfillment - they’re unapologetically draining you.

i am confident i am over you. so much that some mornings i wake up with a smile on my face and my hands pressed together thanking the universe for pulling you out of me. thank god i cry. thank god you left. i would not be the empire i am today if you had stayed.  but then.  there are some nights i imagine what i might do if you showed up. how if you walked into the room this very second every awful thing you’ve ever done would be tossed out the closest window and all the love would rise up again. it would pour through my eyes as if it never really left in the first place. as if it’s been practicing how to stay silent so long only so it could be this loud on your arrival. can someone explain that. how even when the love leaves. it doesn’t leave. how even when i am so past you. i am so helplessly brought back to you.

It’s easy to say you’re over someone if you aren’t seeing them. The real challenge is looking them in the eye to see their smile and hear their voice and still being able to say, “This is not what I want anymore.

It was worth it, you know?  Being loved, and loving you. I’ll never regret it.