Amour pour toujours

I don’t want to fall in love anymore, I feel like I’m constantly repeating myself; telling people my favourite songs, showing them my favourite movies and TV shows, my favourite colour, places I like to visit, just everything. And I’m tired of repeating myself, I don’t have the energy anymore. I want someone who already knows that a particular song is my favourite because it makes me cry happy tears, I want someone who knows that this movie is my favourite, because one of my earliest memories was watching it as a kid, when we were still a family. I don’t want to give people parts of me only for them to become a stranger again, It’s not fair. I’m tired

But how do I tell you that you’re on my mind from the second I wake up until the second I fall asleep at night? And even then, I still dream of you… How do I tell you that when we’re cuddling or my hand is on your leg, I want to somehow pull you in even closer? Or that the moment you leave, I wish I had kissed you a little longer and a little harder… How do I tell you that we haven’t been together that long, but all I want is to have you by my side for as long as I can? And that I can picture myself having a family with you… How do I tell you these things without sounding completely crazy or needy or desperate? I don’t think you’ll ever know how much I love you, and I will spend forever trying to show you how much of you I have in my heart.