The Words No Longer Flow

With passion an ending we seek.

Human nature bound by thread.

A heart beating louder than the words we said.

10o’clock the futures a lock.

Another moment spent wishing

That dreams weren’t the only thing

Filling our vision.

A quick nod and approach.

I didn’t really know you but I could have.

“I’m leaving and you won’t be able to find me.”

Those are the words you said.

They keep playing through my head.

A broken record destined to repeat.

For some reason they tore at me to my core.

This is the first time in a long time,

You became someone I wish I knew.

Lights and numbers speed by.

A hand hold, a foot grip.

I know not the wish you said.

Getting off at an abandoned station.

Left physically with only a passenger manifest.

Left internally with a migraine.

Lamenting the time spent traveling.

Come now, I’ll never get this right.

You know I broke the compass,

Snapped the divination rod.

Fate made with an uncertain blade.

I’m just a fool…

Is that you or my ear ringing?

Calling my name or shaming me?

I don’t really care either way.

Comfort or misery are equal parts intriguing.

A metal rivet holding my spine in place.

Maybe you can weld on more stability.

Happens to all of us.

The light won’t be enough.

Does that mean you’re not real?

I turned myself inward to close my eyes.

The windows are shut and the door is locked.

The one who was,

The one who could have been,

And the one that never was.

Remorse and relief.

I’ve never forgotten the words you said.

I was but a youth awash in feelings

I couldn’t hope to understand.

I left you and never forgave myself.

For setting you free.

For clipping your wings.

And for coveting your feathers.

You aren’t an angel,

But I could of sworn that was a halo

You held over your head.

Sometimes you’re meant to let go.

Or crisp and clean still on the shelf?

I find myself nestled in a bench.

I love the thin red line as a tether.

Pull pull pull.