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Such is life. But what can one do at this point in time? laugh and move on.

bone collecting is also a nice! I enjoy the color black, purple, forest green and red. I don't remember if this is in my intro, but I am also diagnosed with intermittent explosive disorder.

Sure. If you get it up after hurting people, who am I to judge?

my father was pretty normal to me, anon. never hit me, never verbally abused me. He just made me very angry my whole life! I'm sorry your life didn't turn out the way you wanted it to.

One of the best feelings is just accepting what kind of creature you are. I felt pleasure from seeing other creatures in pain, crying from fear, pissing themselves. I was some disturbed teen watching videos where animals where in distress or pain, being destroyed by other animals or whatever shit I could find. I could feel something in my stomach, slowly moving to my groin. Accepting it just made the feeling better.

One My early memories of sadistic behaviour. I was 5-8 years old, in my Yard with our puppy. I began pushing it around and purposefully stepping on its tail as hard as I could. It cried and I felt good. I wanted to keep going to see how much it would last without biting me, in the end, my parents came running when they heard enough cries. I had to stop.