Donât think that a person has the strength to lead any kind of life and stay the same⌠I donât know how to explain my soul to you. But what I mean is that we are very precious, and that thereâs only so much you can give up of yourself for the sake of other people and circumstances. All I planned to do was tell you about my new character, or lack of character⌠Darling, almost four years have greatly transformed me. From the moment I resigned myself, I lost all my vivacity and all my interest in things. Have you seen the way a castrated bull turns into an ox? That is what happened to me⌠despite the hard comparisonâŚ
To adapt to something I canât adapt to, to get over my dislikes and my dreams, I had to cut off my fettersâI cut off inside me the way I could hurt others and myself. And at the same time I cut off my strength. I hope you never see me resigned like this, because itâs almost repugnant⌠One day, a friend ďŹlled herself with courage, as she said, and asked me: âYou were really different, werenât you?â She said she thought I had been passionate and lively, and that when she met me here she thought: either this excessive calm is a pose or sheâs changed so much that sheâs almost unrecognizable. Someone else told me that I move with the lassitude of a ďŹfty-year-old woman⌠which can happen with someone who has made a pact with everyone, and who forgot that the vital center of a person has to be respected.Â
Listen: respect even the bad parts of yourselfârespect above all the bad parts of yourselfâfor the love of God, donât try to make yourself perfectâdonât copy an ideal, copy yourselfâthat is the only way to live.
Clarice Lispector in a letter to her sister Tania, as quoted in Why This World: A Biography of Clarice Lispector, Benjamin Moser.









