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You're in between degrees (you just can't decide!) and working at a coffee shop, living with your boyfriend when just a week before Christmas he leaves you and kicks you out! Stuck staying at the coffee shop, rich Satoru Gojo - a regular - just so happens to have his poolhouse for rent, and offers to help you out. He couldn't be the reason you're kicked out and need him, right? Your car didn't go out because of him, and your shitty boyfriend didn't leave you because of his threats - no, it's just a hallmark Christmas miracle!
pairings - yandere! Gojo x barista! reader
warnings - stalking, manipulation, soft yandere (he wants what is best for you!) videoing without consent, masturbation, oral sex, tons of sexual tension, p in v sex, tying you up w/Christmas lights, creampie, size kink like a mf, Toru has a hell of a breed kink hehe, lil cute oblivious reader, honestly this fic is oddly cozy for a smut fic. 8.2k WC
A/N - Merry Christmas angels, have a smutty gift from me hehe <3
art is by @hunnismokah!
Your luck for Christmas is terrible.
Imagine, a few days before your boyfriend just breaks up with you, and worse than that, you live with him. Out of nowhere, you go from cuddling in his bed, to him telling you he just doesnât feel anything anymore. Staying at your bossâs coffee shop for a couple nights was just humiliating, but she was nice enough to give you an advance to help you find somewhere.
Yet this was so not what you were thinking this holiday would be like â having no family really you clung to your boyfriend a lot. You thought maybe youâd even get engaged this year, you spent all your extra money on nonrefundable tickets for him too, so it left you completely screwed.
The snow is beautiful and all, but youâre not feeling very âmerryâ not even with Mariah Carey blaring in your ear in the soft atmosphere of the coffee shop, yawning with the shitty sleep you got last night on the office couch. Your boss hasnât kicked you out but you of course want to get out of her hair, sheâs kind enough to you to help you out as much as she has.
The bell jingles as one of your regulars walks in â every morning like clockwork heâs here to order the sweetest, most sugary thing on the menu. Heâs devastatingly handsome, something youâve been avoiding admitting to yourself while with your man, but now? You canât help but feel your heart race when his pretty blue eyes lock on yours, and he shakes off droplets of melting snow from silvery locks.
His smile is easy and bright, heâs all wrapped up in an expensive black overcoat today, boots swiped on the rug so as not to make a mess of the hardwood floors. Almost no one comes in quite this early, so itâs just him and a couple people who are in line in front of him.
Gojo is his name.
Always sweet, always tips too much, always ready for that caramel frappe with far too many pumps of vanilla. You already are getting it going when he gets up there, hands in his pockets. Fuck heâs so tall he towers over everyone in the damn coffee shop, youâre not sure heâd even have fit in your little apartment ceilings without dipping his head.
You nervously look down when you feel his baby blues on you â you havenât even showered in a couple days, you bet you look terrible. You hope he doesnât notice the eye bags, either, or the dark circles, but heâs already carefully assessing your face, frowning just a bit.
âEverything okay?â He asks softly, you sigh a bit now, almost breaking down from the question.
âUm⊠shit, Iâm sorry,â you swipe at your eyes now, snow is falling all around the coffee shop from the outside in a gusty wind, already several inches piled up, plattering on the glass like youâre in a little snow globe. âI shouldnât get like this.â
âWhatâs wrong, sweetheart? No smile like usualâŠâ He murmurs, as if he doesnât know.
As if he hasnât had his eye on you for weeks since he first walked in and saw you clinging to that shitty little boyfriend you had. He knew at that moment â you had to be his, but even so he tried to maintain a bit of distance, to learn more about you, study everything there was to know. He was patient, he could wait for you.
Until he saw him with some other girl â well that sure the fuck wouldnât do. Who would cheat on you when they had you?
Satoru had paid him a âniceâ little trip after that, and threatened him so much heâd pissed his pants. Satoru had chuckled at just how pathetic that boy was, but really you were much better off without a cheating asshole. Even though he knew you were currently staying at this coffee shop â your car hasnât left it â he did all this for your own good, really.
It was way past time for him to have you for Christmas, filled with his pretty white cum, heâd give you so much of it too, in all your holes. Heâd decorate you in Christmas lights and tie you up, make sure you never left â why would you though, when you finally were his? Youâd never have to work this shitty job again, he would keep you so full of cum youâd have trouble walking anyway.
The thoughts alone make his cock twitch underneath his slacks â he really should feel just a bit sick and depraved for his thoughts, but werenât they sort of pure? Didnât he just want to give you a perfect white Christmas?
âWhatâs wrong?â He asks, feigning confusion but not concern.
Of course he was upset you were hurting, even though youâll be so much better off soon. God donât you deserve it?
âBad breakup ugh, I think Iâm not getting enough sleep,â you mumble, handing him his warm coffee cup then, steam rising in a puffy little cloud. âPlease take this free, for me just sobbing like this.â
âNo way,â his fingers brush yours now, you gasp just a bit at the connection, before blushing right under his gaze.
Fuck youâre pretty.
âAre you okay honey?â Your boss comes to you, a hand on your back, you nod quickly, swiping tears. âSheâs just having a rough Christmas.â
âHow so?â Satoru asks, leaning on the counter, elbows propped up on the glass, setting his cup down.
âPlease you donât have to listen to my fucked ass life lately, Iâm sure you have work to get to.â
âI run my own company, sweetheart,â you and your boss swoon at his little smile. âSo I have time.â
âWhy donât you get a coffee with him?â Your boss nudges you just a bit, you frown at her.
âAre you sure?â
âGo ahead, sit for a bit,â she makes you a cup. âIâll take over.â
âYouâre too good to me,â you murmur, she just pats your back, and you nervously look at Satoru, clearing your throat now. âDo you wanna sit for a few?â
âOf course, I have time, Christmas is dead at the corp.â
âYou do marketing, right?â
âMhm, thrilling shit,â you giggle a bit, melting him like the snow thatâs left little wet drops on his coat. Your cute, puffy eyes and nose just a little rubbed raw clearly, he can tell youâve been crying over that trash.
He canât wait to make you feel so good.
âNo one wants to buy anything so things are slow, itâs kind of just hanging out at the office right now,â he leans back, sipping the drink, letting the sweetness hit his tongue and moaning. âYou make the best coffee.â
âNo way!â
âMhm, itâs why I come, alsoâŠâ he trails off with a little smile.
âAlso what?â
âPretty baristas make my morning better.â
âOh, not me right now,â youâre a flustered mess, brushing back your hair now, sighing. âYouâre sweet though.â
âAm I?â He certainly isnât thinking anything sweet, no heâs imagining if your cum tastes as good as this cream in his coffee.
âVery, ah where do I begin?â
âI guess why youâre crying, Iâm a good listener,â his knees brush against yours under the little table, you look out at the snow for a moment, sighing.
âI may have gotten kicked out and broken up with.â
âOuch, on Christmas?â
âYeah,â you grimace, sipping your coffee, feeling the bitter beans coat your mouth in warmth, looking back at Satoruâs handsome face. âItâs like some shitty hallmark movie, Iâm staying here till I get a new place.â
âAt the coffee shop?â He blinks just a bit, you frown, nodding. âWell, then I have a Christmas gift.â
âWhatâs that?â you set the cup down, he pulls out his phone now, showing you a picture with a little smile. âIs thisâŠâ
âMy pool house, I was just putting it up for rent. My friend lived there for a bit and moved out, so I was gonna see if anyone wanted to rent it out, itâs three bedrooms and fully furnished.â
So his poolhouse was bigger than your apartment â three times as big as you flipped through the photos.
âThis is just your poolhouse?â
âYeah, this is my house,â he swipes right to a literal fucking manor. âPretentious, I know, the family home blah blah.â
âNo itâs beautiful,â you hand him back the phone, frowning a bit then. âThe thing is, I spent all my damn money on this guy, I do have an advance, but no way I could afford that.â
You were getting a whole different degree after over five years of college, and youâre another two years in. You feel youâre the only twenty five year old starting all over, but you just hated what you majored in â thus the barista job. Youâre literally a walking cliche, and here is this rich CEO being way too sweet.
âMaybe like when I graduate I could afford-â
âIâll give you crazy cheap rent,â he wouldnât charge you a fucking dollar. âLike just whatever you can pay comfortably.â
âWhat?â You blink now, gasping. âWhy?â
âWhy not help out? I wanna be on the nice list and all,â he smirks just a bit, far too charming, fucking you up with that look. âItâs Christmas, you shouldnât be staying in a coffee shop.â
âI donât know how Iâll repay you, though.â You blink back tears now, Satoruâs hand brushes one aside gently, a cool touch on a heated cheek.
God he could think of many ways, you on your knees for him, the weight of his cock on your tongue, sliding in and out of that pretty, perfect mouth. You bent over his desk, letting him pump his loads into you, before he fingers them right back in your cunt, making sure to keep it in, breeding your perfect pussy.
âYou can make me coffee at my place every morning,â he says softly, snowy lashes flickering just a bit across your face. âMaybe cook me a real Christmas Dinner, I havenât had one in a long time.â
âI can absolutely do that!â You smile all big and pretty â Satoru will send the cooks away for a bit, just to see your cute little ass in the kitchen.
God, imagine when youâre round with his babies, youâll be so perfect.
âThen itâs set, Iâll help you move your things tonight.â
âItâs not much,â you admit, frowning now. âLike clothes, laptop, a couple things⊠I can just um⊠bring em in my car.â
âWhateverâs easier, Iâll meet you there at five, hereâs the address,â he jots it down on one of the napkins, handing it to you with his number on it.
âI donât know how to thank you enough.â
âJust consider it a Christmas gift, mmkay?â He stands now, and you eagerly get up, hugging him before you can stop yourself, feeling his hard body against yours, his heart racing in his chest underneath your cheek. His hand comes to your back.
He smirks.
Things are working perfectly.
*****
âYou donât have to do all this,â you get emotional that night, when Satoru shows up with the cutest Christmas decorations.
The first night there was him showing you around, he was so sweet when he came to you with a huge tote, covered in lights and little ornaments and even a little mini tree. Heâs got this cute little santa hat perched on one side of his head, heâs changed into this soft sweater and dark jeans after work instead of the suit you usually see him in.
Youâd never guess that he was bringing you little things to spy on you.
âNonsense,â he says, setting up the little tree and giving you a devastatingly attractive smile. âA place needs a little Christmas spirit, also I have so much just sitting, really.â
You help Satoru meticulously place each ornament, shoulders brushing each other, making you heat up a bit from the nerves. The pool house is warm, there are soft cinnamon candles he had the maids bring over and light when they cleaned the place just for you today.
This shit canât be real â maybe youâve hit your head watching a dumb Christmas Rom Com and so happened to dream him up. He smiles over at you, his eyes a myriad of blues, flickering candles reflecting in his pupils, lighting them up and making it so intense you can hardly breathe. Both of your hands reach for the same decoration, making you pause and pull back.
He picks up a delicate, hand painted crystal decoration, holding it up just a little bit. âThatâs like a Tiffany!â
âMmm, I guess,â he shrugs, not realizing all these damn ornaments are just insanely expensive. âThis one can go right here. I have a few others too. Look, this is Frosty.â
Your eyes light up so pretty when he shows you the cute plush little snowman, you take it and smile, brushing your fingers across the soft white fur. âHeâs so adorable, oh my god.â
âYou can put him in your room if you want,â he mentions casually. âOr we can put him on one of the shelves.â
âNo way, heâs too cuddly,â you hug him tightly, smiling at Satoru then. âAh, thank you so much!â
âYou can keep him too,â youâre looking right at that little camera in the snowmanâs black eyes, oblivious, working perfectly to his plan.
Imagine getting to watch you touch yourself.
Heâs got another little Santa, another camera, itâs like everything lined up so perfectly â you and him.
 He walked over to a small shelf on the wall, putting that Santa right there, smiling and feeling your gaze penetrate his back. Youâre sitting on the arm of the couch when he turns back around, legs crossed at the ankles, hugging on to the little snowman closely.
Youâre so perfect like that.
It takes a lot to play a slow game, to make you need him, to make sure he takes his time even with you here. But not sinking to his knees and worshipping you seems almost a cruel joke â isnât it what you deserve? Instead he walks over to you, tilting your chin up just a bit.
âHow are you doing?â He asks softly.
âThis morning I was crying my eyes out, sleeping on a couch, now Iâm here. It feels like a dream.â
âGood dream?â You smile at that, his fingers feel too good on your skin, you almost hate it when they drop.
âVery, but I guess I am really nervous. How to pay-â
âDonât say pay me back, please,â you bite down on your lower lip, as he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, goosebumps rise from just that, your body reacting to his little ghosts of touches.
âYou should get some rest, you went through a lot today.â
âYeah, that bed looks so comfy oh my god,â he chuckles just a bit.
âYouâre so cute.â
âNah. Maybe after a good nightâs rest and a good bath.â
âWell feel free to anything, Iâm right over there if you need me, yeah?â You nod, he leans down and for some insane moment you wonder if heâll kiss you, but instead he just stands and smiles. âGood night Sweetheart.â
âNight, Gojo.
He leaves quietly without another word, the front door clicking shut, you hug that little snowman tightly to you. Even after you bathe and dry your hair, you canât help but hold on to him, peering at the phone now, you look up your exâs socials out of a morbid curiosity â just to find him taking Christmas pictures with another girl.
You glare at that screen.
He just broke up with you, how is he in matching pajamas? Unless⊠unless he had her the whole time.
âShit.â You turn off your phone, youâve cried so much there arenât any more tears now, just burying your face against this cute snowman Gojo gave you.
Satoru Gojo, the man whoâs literally like some Christmas Miracle, just who was he, and why was he so kind?
*****
The next morning, you remember Satoru bringing up making his favorite drinks and meals, so you cross the snow-dusted lawn to the main house. It was even more beautiful in the daylight, bright and modern, so big itâs insane to think heâs all alone in there, but you suppose thatâs just what heâs used to. You find the key under the mat where heâd said it would be, nervously letting yourself in.
You feel a bit like some intruder, but youâd love to surprise him as a thank you, tomorrow was Christmas Eve and you didnât exactly have anything to give your new⊠landlord? Is that what he was?
What was Satoru really?
You take in the bright, ridiculously clean home and shut the door behind you, leaving the chill outside, walking towards the kitchen. That alone was a chefâs dream, all marble counters and stainless steel, he has three fucking ovens â what do you even do with three ovens.
âHolyâŠâ You trail off a bit, taking in your surroundings, peeking around each pretty white cabinet to find coffee. You feel even more like a damn intruder, ransacking his things, but he had said âmake yourself at homeâ. Oh, he said sweetheart too, as if to wreck your ovaries.
You think Satoru threw you from depression into ovulation with that little tilt of your chin last night.
You grind up expensive coffee beans you find in the pantry, the scent making you feel like youâre right back at work. Sighing at how good it smells, you get to work making him the perfect cup. Then you get hungry, and find an almost empty fridge â he has a full deep freezer of various ice cream cones and flavors but hardly any real food.
How does he keep a body like this when all you proceed to find is candy and junk food all over?
Itâs almost endearing, as put together as he seems, itâs a little hint of a bachelor pad, but you do find eggs and pancake mix.
âThatâll workâŠâ You start whipping up fluffy pancakes when he comes out, leaning against the doorframe of the kitchen, staring right at your pretty little ass in those leggings.
You, in his kitchen.
Making him breakfast?
He bets that loser never appreciated something this sweet, but he sure the fuck did, watching in awe almost as you whip your little arm around, the pan already sizzling with oil.Â
âWell, well,â you turn and then gasp, he smiles over at you, shirtless with just soft sweats on, your eyes drift down before you stop yourself. âWhat do we have here, are you makinâ pancakes?â
You felt a blush heating up your cheeks â god his body was perfect, hair a little messy from his sleep, his eyes lidded with a lazy smile. âI hope you donât mind me like⊠breaking in? I wanted to thank you for everything, so I thought Iâd at least make you breakfast.â
He walks over to you, saunters is the word, those v cuts on his hips and that silvery happy trail fucking you up, you swallow nervously as he comes to stand right in front of you.
âDo you like pancakes?â You manage to ask, he smiles, leaning down a bit.
âI do,â he reaches down, his thumb brushing a smudge of batter from the corner of your lip, making you gasp. He brings his thumb to his own mouth, his eyes locked on yours as he slowly licks it clean, smirking at you. âDelicious.â
Fuck.
Fuck was that!?
Your breath catches in your throat, you swipe a now clean corner of your mouth where youâd tasted the chocolate chip batter, feeling that gaze ruining you. Heâs so close you feel the warmth of his body, your heart hammering in your chest so violently it feels like itâll burst out. His hand falls now, seeing the pancake turning golden in the cast iron pan.
âOh!â You quickly flip it, exhaling in relief that itâs not burnt. âI made that coffee too for you!â
âLooks perfect,â he smiles and takes the cup, blowing on it for a moment all casual, as if that moment was something normal.
Licking his thumb making you think of the most obscene, lewd things.
âThank you sweetheart, I could get used to this treatment,â you smile back at him, trying to act normal.
âWell Iâll gladly do it every morning, not like I wasnât for⊠much less deserving people,â you grumble now, he frowns at that. âYou donât need to hear my bullshit.â
âI have a few before work,â he sips his drink and sits as you put a pancake and a bunch of syrup all over it. âGod, theyâre so good.â
âOh thank you!â You sit next to him now, settling in the chair and sipping your own drink.
âNo thank you,â he laps at his lower lip with a long pink tongue you just shouldnât fucking look at really, clearing your throat with a little smile. âDid he contact you?â
He better fucking not have.
Satoru paid him off well enough.
âNo, no, heâs got these fucking matching pj pics on IG, the little shit,â Satoru grimaces.
âWell thatâs just shitty, Iâm sorryâŠâ
âIâm just glad I did end up leaving,â you swipe a little syrup dripping on his chin now, licking it, watching his eyes dilate. âMmm, yum.â
Fuck. Are you trying to ruin him?
âTomorrow I have friends coming over for Christmas Eve,â he says then, gripping your wrist now, thumb trailing the underside of it. âIâd love you to come over too.â
âOh but wonât it be so weird?â
âNot at all, theyâre kind of my family.â You blush once more, looking down. âIâm guessing yours is distant?â
âYeah, they areâŠâ Satoru already knows. No dad, your mom seems to have nothing to do with you, and no siblings he could find anything on.
Satoru will give you a family though, he thinks it as his gaze drifts to your stomach, smiling just a bit imagining how pretty it will be round.
âIâd love to come over.â
âPerfect.â
That night after work back in the pool house â you couldnât sleep. The memory of his touch, of the look in his pretty blue eyes, that damn tongue licking his thumb that way? It was fucking you up in all sorts of ways, every casual touch or close proximity to Satoru was sucking your breath away, until you couldnât even remember how you got here.
Your ex wasnât even in your mind whatsoever, not right now, no it was just Satoru flitting through your head, images of him, feelings and touches. Tonight he made sure you ate dinner with him, in his immaculate house that just smells like him, hints of that expensive cologne, something soft and sandalwood that you canât quite place.
That cologne is in your senses too, you can practically smell Satoru on everything somehow, even this soft weighted blanket heâs got you, the image of his shirtless frame was burned into your mind. Your cunt is wet when you think about it too long, itâs been a while since you had cum.
But here, thinking of him?
You feel so wrong doing it, but youâre already aching and needy, imagining more â his fingers inside of you, fuck theyâre long. His lips⊠just all over your skin. That tongueâŠ
You slip your hand beneath the waistband of your pajama bottoms, your fingers finding the slick heat of your own cunt, touching a clit already pulsing and gasping out at it. You close your eyes, imagining it was his hand, his long, thick fingers brushing your clit right now, making you jolt, the blankets slipping off of you, as youâre overheated.
You feel it, warmth spreading all over, running circles on your swollen clit and whining out, itâs not enough, eyes fluttering shut now, picturing his face hovering right over you. Hadnât you always found Satoru devastatingly attractive? So much so you avoided looking too long at those piercing blue eyes before, always looking down quickly.
The way he looked at you.
Was it all in your imagination, was it just him and no interest in you? He probably just wanted to help, to be a kind person, give back or some shit â and youâre shoving two fingers in your own gummy walls, contracting and squishing so tight.
âAh!â You want longer ones, that hit your spot youâre trying so hard to, palm grinding on your clit, remembering the way his tongue had swept across his thumb. âMnh!â
Youâre pumping faster now, arching your hips, your other hand gripping those sheets beneath you, soft gasp escaping your lips as you press up on that little spot in your hole, the pressure building in your tummy. You shouldnât be thinking of his cock and how big it must be, shouldnât be cumming to him in his own poolhouse, but you canât stop yourself.
Satoru smirks.
Youâve been such a good girl for him, your snowman right on the dresser facing you so perfectly, as he watches you in the darkness of his home office, sitting back in his leather chair, watching the scene unfold. On one of his three monitors, you were displayed in high definition, lying on the bed with your legs spread wide, so he had a perfect view.
âThatâs it,â he coaches you quietly, undoing his sweats with a tug at the draw string, revealing his leaky cock that slaps his soft black shirt. âGot me leakinâ already, baby, fuck.â
He tugs up that shirt, letting his cock instead rest on his abdomen, moaning softly as his huge hand encircles his cock, stroking up and down carefully, his head falling back for a moment. God, imagine your little hand trying to cover him? Your mouth, the one crying out so wanton and lewd, full of him?
Heâd fuck your throat so good your voice wouldnât work.
He leans back forward, blinking you into view, watching as your back arches, your pathetic little fingers working between your legs. He knows you need him, itâs so hard not to give you it yet, listening to your whimpers, your little soft, desperate pants, clearly having a hard time making yourself cum.
âIâll help you soon, pretty,â he whispers, his own hand stroking himself in time with the rhythm of your hand, matching it and exhaling, spitting right on his reddened tip. âWhat you do to me.â
Should he feel bad, watching you? No, youâre his after all, and he wants to know what you like when he does touch you, pay attention to your clearly needy little clit, how your thighs clamp down. Heâll make sure to keep them spread, keep you folded in half, itâs all he can think as he bucks up into his hand, smeared with spit and precum, the snow falling against the office window in the dark.
His pretty, perfect Christmas gift, just waiting to be unwrapped all for him. âGood girl,â he murmurs to the screen softly, voice breaking in the middle, veins just pulsing as he pumps more precum. âPrepping my gift fâme.â
Satoru hungrily watches you hit your peak, hips bucking up into your little hand, head sinking into the pillows as you moan.
His name.
Fuck youâre moaning his name.
He strokes himself faster, whispering yours as he cums ropes down his hand, messy streaks that run warm, picturing pumping it all inside of that hole youâre slipping your fingers out of. Youâre softly moaning, shaking just a bit, your clean hand brushing your own hair back, covering your cute little face.
He bets itâs warm to the touch, in the prettiest blush.
Satoru exhales and cleans up, his eyes never leaving the screen, especially when you stand up and lean to look at yourself in the mirror, heâs already sensitive from cumming, but heâs pulsing and throbbing watching you. Leaned over and fixing now messy hair, looking all flushed and embarrassed.
âDonât be,â he chuckles and touches the cool screen, right where your face is, as you pick up the snowman and his show is over. He keeps you on though, since he can hear your gentle breathing as you sleep. âSoon, sweetheart.â
*****
Satoruâs friends are amazing, but you canât stop the awkwardness, the feeling of knowing you came screaming his name was overwhelming. You donât even know how to fucking face him in the morning, when your dumb ass car wonât start.
âI swear it was fineâŠâ
âI got you on a ride, donât worry,â youâd ended up next to him in that sleek sports car, horribly embarrassed.
âI donât wanna depend so much on you, already youâre doing too much,â his hand had come to your thigh as you both sat in front of that coffee shop, leaning low and looking at you behind his dark circle shades.
Too close, heâs too close.
His fingers are near your slick warmth, trickling down your inner thigh from how close he is, how his fingers press higher, squeezing your thigh so tightly it squishes in his grip. Youâre trembling, so nervous then, wondering if youâre brave enough to lean forward, to kiss him.
But heâs gone as soon as heâs there, leaned back now, smiling. âDonât worry your pretty head about that, weâll fix that car soon. Probably after Christmas though.â
âI feel Iâm putting you out.â
âNot at all,â you had sighed then.
âYouâre too sweet to me, you really are.â He had just smirked at you, this look that sent an ache through you, as close as he is you can almost taste the sweetness on his breath, as it ghosts on your lips.
You can hardly breathe in that car, the heat blaring, Gojo so close.
âSweet, hmm? Maybe Iâm not as sweet as you think,â youâd just giggled at that, shaking your head.
You have no clue he unhooked your alternator, youâre so cute.
Heâd of course had to pick you up too, the more you need him, the better.
Itâs Christmas eve of course, Satoru makes sure to get you the perfect gift, a pretty necklace he canât wait to tug and choke you with as he fucks you from the back â the chain is more than thick enough, just begging for your neck. He bought you a dress that youâre now wearing, looking so pretty in it he can hardly stand it, sitting there and talking to his friends.
You fit right in, but why wouldnât you? Itâs clear to all of them that Satoru is obsessed, they know their friend and when heâs in love heâs in love, hopeless and desperate, but even theyâve never seen him like this. He canât take his eyes hardly off you, even when heâs laughing, when theyâre all reminiscing, itâs like his gaze follows you across the room.
Everyone can practically feel how badly Satoru wants you â except you, of course, oblivious and cute, just enjoying the company, feeling so homey.
Shoko is hilarious, Nanami has this dry humor, Suguru is the yin to Satoruâs yang, like the exact opposite of him, but they fit so well. Seeing them on such a night makes you feel far too much like youâre at home, and not just staying in Satoruâs pool house for a time.
It feels too good, so good you get up to give them time alone, when he quickly stops you, a hand on your wrist, leaning low.
âSweetheart, where are you going?â He asks quietly, possessive in how he holds your wrist, looking down your pretty neck.
God he canât wait to tie you up, choke you until you canât breathe, fuck you until itâs just all him.
âI want to give you time, Iâve already intruded so much,â you look down and fidget a bit with one of the buttons of his dress shirt, he tenses, tightening his hold. âYouâve been amazing to me, but I donât want to take over your time.â
âI invited you,â he exhales now, stepping too close, leaning low. âYou wanna go be alone tonight?â
âUmâŠâ you blink tears suddenly.
Alone, youâre alone there, and here youâre with someone you want far too much, youâre far too comfortable, as if your ex meant fucking nothing the moment Gojo smiled at you. Part of you should feel bad, another part wants to sink to your knees and show him how much you appreciate him, that thought spreading to your core, with hot need.
How much would you have to touch yourself to even be okay? Itâs like every moment near Satoru Gojo makes it worse.
âI got a gift for you,â you gasp. âItâs nothing really, but I want you to wait for gifts so I can give it. Please?â
âOf course,â you smile tremulously then. âUm, I also got you something, but itâs really not much of anything.â
âPlease, anything you get me is perfect,â he kisses your temple, his lips lingering, your lashes flutter shut, leaning forward.
Too perfect in his arms.
You just are, he can practically smell how turned on you are for him, he wonders what panties youâre wearing underneath this pretty red dress he got you â were they soaked already? God heâd drink your cunt from them, bury his face, his hands lingering on your hips too long, lips still sitting there, the two of you breathless for a moment.
He wants to reassure you, but you just need to be a little needier, so he spends the next couple hours completely normal, waiting for his friends to leave, hugging them all good bye. You come help clean up, quiet and easy next to him, your gift sitting unopened still.
âYou donât have to clean, the maids will, sweets.â
âStill! No need to leave them much,â you start rinsing plates, when he comes behind you, turning off the water, hard body pressing against the curve of your spine.
You whimper.
Fuck, fuck.
He halts just a bit, you donât see his satisfied fucking smile, as the snow starts whirling and the fire is crackling in the living room, like youâre in this perfect cozy nook of Satoruâs world. You bite your lip, hating the sound that came out of your mouth suddenly, looking back at him, hands still dripping wet from water.
âIâm so fucking sorry, um⊠wine and⊠been a bit? And youâre veryâŠâ
âShh,â he cups your face, wrapping and arm around you, hand splaying your stomach, warm as it presses, and you canât stop the next soft cry. âOh yeah? Just been a while, thatâs why youâre like this?â
âI⊠umâŠâ His hand slips lower, cupping you over the red silk, your head falls back now against his chest, body arching.
âAre you tellinâ the truth, sweets? Thatâs why youâre so hot here, burning my fucking hand? A long time? Did he not make you cum, baby?â His voice isnât the sweet one from the coffee shop, itâs darker now, his eyes black when you look back at them, a smirk on his lips.
Youâre pulsing around air, aching for him, lost for words.
âI asked ya a question,â his hand starts to slide up that material soft against the creamy skin on your thighs. âAnswer me, sweets. Be good fâme.â
âGodâŠâ youâre arching for more, feeling a thick, heavy length press on your lower back now. âI um⊠no, thatâs not all.â
âThen what is it, why are you so wet? Hmm?â You bite down on a trembling lip, overwhelmed by the tall, buff white haired man toying with you, lost in his dark eyes and plush pink lips, parted, baring just a hint of sharp teeth.
âIâm wet for you, Gojo,â he moans then, slipping the material even higher, youâre so overheated from his body and the fire you feel beads of sweat trailing across your collarbone. âFor you.â
âSatoru,â he corrects, his cock leaking and sticking to his boxers, so ready to bury himself inside you. âSay my name.â
âSatoru.â
He captures your lips as soon as you say it, mouth crashing down on yours brutally. Itâs not the gentle, sweet kiss you might have expected from his lingering one on your temple, itâs not gentle, no â itâs hungry, devouring you, tongue plunging between the seam of your lips, taking you over.
You helplessly open for him, as if mentally you can fucking hear his voice murmuring âgood girlâ. The soft sounds of that christmas music are mixing with the fire, the heavy wind, his soft husky breaths, youâre so far gone you could cum from a kiss and your cunt exposed to the warm air as he tugs that dress high.
His other hand moves from your cheek to the back of your neck, fingers tangling in your hair and just tugging until it hurts, holding you in place as he deepens the kiss, his tongue sliding into the warm recesses of your mouth, drinking you. Thatâs what it is, heâs drinking you up, owning you, youâre desperately meeting his kiss, pressing your little tongue against his, whining out into his mouth.
He pulls back for a moment, a string of saliva just dissolving between you both, youâre shaking in his hold, lingering on his lips like wine, so perfect and sweet. Your eyes are already fucked out, a hand gripping his wrist where heâs so close to slipping his fingers in.
âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted this,â you gasp then, eyes shooting up to him in shock. âYou donât even know, do you? Oblivious, my sweet girl, but donât worry, you wonât need to think.â
âI w-wonât?â Youâre so cute to him then, he smirks just a bit, caressing your jaw delicately.
âNot at all, not when youâre all mine sweetheart, just let me fuck you until you forget everything.â
He should be concerning, right? The shit heâs saying, but you donât want to think anymore, you want him to take over, to take all the pain and loneliness, and pump you all full of him instead. Itâs insanity, the way you trust this man you barely know, how you want him inside you, on you, everywhere.
âSay the word and Iâll fuck every thought from that pretty head, youâll just be my perfect fuck toy, wonât you?â
God, are you really gonna say yes?
You nod, lips parted then, as he smiles, kissing you once more, messy and desperate. âYou sure?â
âI want to be.â
âGood, good girl,â you melt against him at that, the plates forgotten in the sink when he turns you to him, your hands coming up to grip the front of his shirt, as he presses you against that counter. âSo long baby.â
âSo long, what do you-â
âShh, no thinking,â heâs kissing down your neck, hands gripping your ass, sighing as his thigh presses between yours, soaking wet. âIâve been wondering all night, if those pretty little panties are already ruined for me. What do you think, sweetheart? Should I check?â
A whimper escapes your throat, so nervous suddenly, youâre literally stuck to your panties, slipped up puffy folds with how wet you are. You nod quickly in a jerky little motion, unable to form words as he kisses down the side of your neck, your cunt pulsing even more wetness out.
âYouâre too precious, canât talk already? I havenât even touched you yet,â he whispers those words in your ear, fingers finally finding ruined lace, and thatâs when he can hardly hold back anymore.
âMnh! SatoruâŠâ
âGod, you sayinâ my name like that,â he groans, pressing up, his snowy lashes fluttering shut as he toys with your sticky panties, making you moan softly. âSoaked. All fâme, arenât you?â
You nod again, sucking in a breath as he pulls back to look into your eyes, tugging a thigh over his hip, a thick finger directly over your clit, rubbing it in mean little circles over the thin fabric. You almost cum from that youâre so sensitive and needy, crying out and arching for more, head falling back.
âEyes on me,â you manage to focus when he grips your chin, pressing that cotton even more flush against you, youâre desperately shaking for more. âThatâs it, look at me, pretty girl. All your attention. Me.â
He keeps fucking whispering it as he touches you, until the ruined panties are nothing but this thin, messy barrier you want gone, slipping his fingers over them almost in you instead of moving them. Torturing and teasing until you cry out, your hips bucking up against his hand.
âPlease, SatoruâŠâ
âAll this time, youâve been sitting there with my friends, smiling and laughing, while this pretty little cunt was just aching to be touched. Werenât you, huh? Slutty pussy, godâŠâ
âY-yes,â thatâs all you manage to get out, heâs too much, but heâs also edging you, teasing you, the friction of that damp lace now cool against your needy, puffy little clit, thatâs just twitching for him. âSatoruâŠâ
âWhat do you need, baby?â He murmurs, pulling your panties to the side, slipping two fingers down your slit. âThis?â
âMore, fuck⊠please, more,â you have no sense of shame or embarrassment, grinding on him shameless, he pulls back those fingers, leaving your thighs shaking. âSatoruâŠâ
âMmm,â his fingers are soaking wet and glossy, he puts two to his mouth and sucks, the motion filthy as his mouth wraps it, smirking. âIf we do this, youâre all mine sweetheart.â
âBut you⊠donât even know me? AndâŠâ Heâs slipping your juices in your mouth now, fingers coated in your cunt and his spit, you moan.
âSuck,â you obediently do, his eyes are black then, a feral look on his pretty face, watching you bob your head. âYouâre mine. Just mine.â
You barely know what the fuck happens, or how you end up tied up with a string of pretty white christmas lights, Satoruâs insane ass grin as he ropes your arms shibari style, pushing your tits out as he ropes them. Heâs hungrily sucking on your perky nipples, moaning on each one, youâre on all fours on this soft rug in front of the fireplace, lit up for him.
âGod, thatâs perfect,â he murmurs when heâs done, and your ass is in the air, pussy soaked and dripping, your ripped panties next to that pretty dress tossed aside on the floor. âCunt is soaked, she needs me, hmm?â
âPlease,â you should be scared, ask yourself why youâre tied up with Christmas lights on Satoru Gojoâs floor, but when you see his body, his thick, girthy cock leaking pre, you instead eagerly suck on your knees.
âThatâs it, such a good girl, god I knew it,â he whispers desperately, cock heavy and hot in your mouth, the tip leaking pre against your uvula. Spit is drippin down his heavy balls, making it a mess, glossy with your spit as he rocks his hips, tugging at your hair. âThroat is only gonna know my shape, just mine, hmm?â
Your answer is a moan around his cock, pussy so needy and empty youâre dying for him inside, but you also desperately want to please him. Every fuck into your tight throat, every stretch and burn has you soaking wet, dripping down your slit onto that very rug beneath you, gasping for a breath as he shoves his cock as deep as you can even take it.
Satoruâs lost in how pretty you look like this, arms bound and lit up, his perfect Christmas gift that he canât wait to fill up.
âSuckinâ me sâgood, f-fuckâŠâ Heâs whimpering then, the sound shooting straight to your core, fucking your throat faster, pulling your hair until mascara trails down your cheeks with your tears. âIâll give you anything, baby, yeah? Anything.â
Youâre drooling when he pulls back, tilting your chin up to spit in your open mouth, you swallow so good, tasting saliva and pre, when he turns you to face the fireplace, pressing you down between your shoulder blades. He slides two fingers deep in your hole, youâre wriggling around, clenching him so tight, making his cock leak more pre, moaning.
âSo tight,â he whispers in wonder, he wants to give you more prep but he canât handle another moment without your cunt milking him. He bends down, pulling your ass up and licking a strip from your clit to your ass. âMmm, the taste.â
âSatoru! Mnh!â The way his huge tongue just licks you clean, filthy stripes that are for his pleasure, messy and not hitting your spots, just scooping in as his moans vibrate, and his hands grip your ass bruisingly. âPlease, please. In meâŠâ
âMmm, one more,â he canât help but drink just a little more of your juices, theyâre dripping in rivulets down his chin, he grins as youâre twitching, spreading your cute hole to spit in it. âArch fâme.â
You eagerly do, the green cord digging into your thighs, when Satoru lines up his leaky pink tip and finally fucks you. But he doesnât inch in, no he bottoms the fuck out in one mean stroke. Youâre gasping out, desperately clutching the fur underneath you, so full you canât take it, belly bulging and making the lights press in even more painfully than before.
Deep, punishing strokes that wreck your cunt, gliding easier and easier with the mess you are becoming, the slickness and your trembling walls accommodating his size. Every bit of pain just makes the filthy pleasure even better, the sounds of his moans, the smacking of skin, your squelching cunt all echoing in your ears.
He shoves so deep you scream then, so deep you feel him everywhere, in your tummy, fuck in your throat, gasping for air.
âSatoru, so much! Too much!â Youâre shaking, heâs laughing softly, breath caught when you clamp down on him, looking at how huge his cock is compared to your tiny little pussy as he pulls back.
âGod, look at that,â he watches that stream of slick pour down his cock as he pulls out then pushes back in, watching her stretch around him. âSo much bigger than you, aww, she can hardly even take him.â
Heâs dying over the size difference, the way your little hole is trying its best, the way his huge hand takes over your ass when it smacks down, the huge handprints spreading to your thighs. Heâs not gentle, no, heâs fucking you like he wants to make sure you never leave, never even think of anything again.
âThatâs it, takinâ my cock like youâre made for it,â he whispers, fucking you harder and harder, youâre gasping desperately, so full, his balls smacking your needy, twitchy clit with filthy fwaps, as you drip everywhere. âMakinâ a mess of that rug, hah, oh sweetheart you need me, huh?â
âN-need you â nghhh!â Youâre done when he loses his control, bruising grip, fucking you senseless, strokes so messy.
âGonna stuff you so full of white,â he chuckles, psychotic blue eyes glinting, prone over you, making everything dig in and leave its mark, cupping your face and looking down at you. âAww, you want that? My Christmas present. My perfect fucking present. Mine.â
He keeps repeating it â mine, mine, mine â cock pulsing and thickening, pressing into your cervix, sending you over the edge, blinded when that orgasm rips through you. Your cunt clamps down on him so tight, pulsing and milking him for all the white heâs promising, earning his groan, his tensing.
âGonna fill you up, next Christmas youâll have all my babies,â you really should be scared, confused, but youâre still reeling from it, his hips slamming into you, railing your cunt until it is all his. âYou want it, donât you? Say it baby, please.â
âW-want it⊠ah!â
âFuck, mâgonna give you so much, all you deserve sweetheart, all for you,â you feel him pulse inside you when he slams in to the hilt, hips snug on your ass now, a hot, thick flood of his white cum filling you up. âThatâs it, take all of it, sâall yours.â
Satoruâs barely able to hold himself up when he busts inside you, coating your quivering walls, itâs so much it starts to leak out around his cock, mixing with your own slick and dripping down your thighs. He pumps a few more times, shakily taking breaths, hands holding you tightly, moans escaping.
âTook so much, god youâre perfect,â he whispers, pulling out to watch that creamy mix push out of your abused hole. âGod youâre so good.â
The lights left their mark, but heâs massaging your skin after, cleans you up with his tongue, kisses every mark the lights left. Heâs got you in his bed when Christmas strikes, smiling as you snore soundly against his chest, youâre wearing one of his shirts that swallows you, his cum still dripping from your pretty pussy.
He canât wait until next year, when youâll have your first baby for him, and heâll already have another put in you next Christmas. You wake up sometime in the night, looking at him, blinking a bit.
âMerry Christmas, sweetheart,â he murmurs. âGo back to sleep.â
âMerry Christmas, Satoru,â you whisper, snug in his arms, wondering just what luck you have to be there.
Was it luck, some Christmas miracle? Or was it Satoru Gojo making sure he got his perfect gift?
heheh I hope ya'll enjoyed - idea was from my bb @strychnynegirl
Summary: Choso needs you, no he really needs you, you are everything to him and don't even know it. You don't know about the cameras he watches you on, you don't know he's jerking his cock in his office right across from you. You see a sweet, hot coworker, sort of shy, but Choso sees all of you, and when you invite him over randomly to 'hang out' Choso knows then it's his chance, to have you forever.
Warnings: Um ALOT- extreme yandere behavior, obsessed ass Choso, videoing without consent, using his tongue ring as manipulation lol, explicit sex, masturbation, stealing panties, oral (f and m receiving) possessive and unhinged ass behavior, overstimulation, some dacryphilia, somnophilia low key, manipulation of reader, rough sex, dirty talk, belly bulges, mating press, him being oddly sweet and cute for a nutcase, you name it. Subby Choso isn't here, only batshit Choso mmkay- (Please don't read if you don't enjoy darker content, I have lots of fluffy smut elsewhere) Oneshot- WC- 9.8k
Based on Yandere Bestie Choso - art in the banner from 28 on X here - dividers by @/cafekitsune and @/strangergraphics
TYSM for 9k followers!? Ya'll are so sweet!! consider this oneshot my thank youuu
âThank you, Choso!â You smile so bright and pretty at him every morning, as he always gets your favorite coffee from your favorite place, along with some sort of pastry that you always say âyou shouldnât have!â
âOf course, itâs nothing.â He murmurs softly, as the two of you ride up in the elevator up to the high floor you two work on, youâre touching his shoulder with your little hand, burning through the material of his suit.
Choso hates this job, but he stays for you.
When no one would even listen to him, you sat there and paid attention to everything, to how he misses his little brother who went off to school, to just how much he loves guitar. Every lunch break is spent with you, nodding with your hand under your chin, watching him with your full attention, only breaking to nibble or have a sip of a drink.
You made him feel so good, itâs only right that Choso Kamo makes you feel so good, and he can imagine just about every fucking way to do so. He can imagine licking your pretty pussy till you cry for him to stop, but latching on more, watching your face cover in glistening tears. He can imagine fucking you so good youâre drooling, that you canât even function.
Choso was never this way though, if anything he was more submissive in relationships, he got used or walked over for how sweet he was, and they usually controlled him in the bed. Though Choso loves to please, the things he wants to do with you are insane, to the point heâs vividly pictured tying you up in rope, knots pressing into your delicate skin, and having his cock in all of your holes.
Every single one would be so full of him, pouring cum out so gooey and white, heâs pictured using you so vividly heâs cumming to the thoughts alone multiple times a day. You seem so interested in him, but he wants more from that, no Choso wants you to need him, in every single way.
âI would never eat without you, I swear!â
He smiles at your comments, but itâs true, you always forget to eat and that just wonât do! He canât have you fainting when he finally gets you spread open in his bed, when he gets to decorate that pretty ass he sees under those business skirts with his hand prints.
Youâre going to need energy.
Plus, he likes to watch you eat, drink water, take care of yourself, you just work too hard lately. He notices, every tired blink of an eye, and every yawn, Choso notices it all- including things only he can see - like how you shift your hips in your office chair, how you cross and uncross your legs, wearing a different color of panties every single day.
Sometimes you wear lace.
Once you wore crotchless.
He got very mad at you.
Who were they for?
Men at the office flirted with you, bustling and busy and a little more men working to women, they all were after you. He has lost count how many dates youâve been asked on, but you always sweetly decline, Choso likes to think itâs because you already know-
Youâre his.
âYou should eat more, and relax a bit. Ever took a day off?â He asks you now, and you shake your head, sighing.
âToo many bills to pay.â You yawn once more, before pecking a kiss on his cheek, making him blush, which you find adorable. âSorry, is that okay?â
âOh itâs f-fine.â Choso is over six foot, towering over everyone, buff under that suit- you can feel it- and far too handsome for his own good, but heâs so shy he acts as if he has no clue of his effects.
On you especially.
Just being in his proximity gets you too excited, his dark violet eyes flashing just a bit as he looks down at you, when the elevator dings and you two walk out, your hand falling then. âIâll meet you at lunch?â You tease with a wink, and he nods a bit then, that flush fading just a bit from his cheeks, while you walk into the bright, open office.
Floor to ceiling windows abound, and cubicles are all over, but Choso works in his own private office, as heâs a higher up manager, and youâre the ownerâs receptionist and assistant. You prance up to your boss, Mr. Higaruma, who offers you his own kind and tired smile.
âGood morning.â He says your name softly, pouring over his paperwork then and downing his coffee, dark brows knitted together.
âGood morning, Mr. Higaruma, want me to take half your stack?â You put down your purse and your breakfast at your desk, he sighs then, running a hand through his black spiky locks.
âWould you be a doll and do just that? This weekend I gotâŠâ He looks around as if heâs not the boss, whispering in your ear. âHungover.â
You nearly snort, covering your mouth then, and Higaruma grins at your cute expression. âSorry!â
âItâs fine, no, it is kind of funny. But I never drink anymore, ugh.â
âOne secâŠâ You go to pull out a bottle of tylenol now, pouring water into a paper cup. âThis will help, along with something greasy.â
âGreasy?â You both start talking, and Choso glares across the office, waiting for you to just sit down already.
How close did you two need to get!?
You finally do sit down, and he eyes your panties from the camera he has strategically placed, seeing that theyâre purple today, making his cock throb as he sits in his office, he goes to shut the door then, staring at the image on his phone, watching you shift this way and that. Today the lace is clinging so tightly to your puffy lips he can see the outline of your perfect cunt.
âOh my godâŠâ He murmurs softly, if only you were his assistant, heâd have you bent over his desk right now, but for the moment he strokes his cock over his slacks, as you cross your legs, deterring his view. âOpen them for me, baby, pleaseâŠâ
As if on command you do just that, lean back and spread your thighs, god he canât stand how good you look, he eyes you out of one of his office windows as you smile over at him, waving so pretty. Clueless that heâs stroking his now leaky tip against his thumb, while he smiles back over to you, eyes torn between your pretty face and the upskirt view he has.
Chosoâs cock springs free as he strokes himself under the desk, whimpering softly as he pictures it inside you, this is his daily routine though, stroking himself, over and over, he does so at least every day if not multiple times, using the precum and his own saliva as lube to stroke his thick cock faster. He bets youâre so tight, he bets you taste as good as you smell.
Heâs leaned back, closing his eyes and murmuring your name when he hears a knock knock knock then, but heâs already cumming. âShit, shit, shitâŠâ Heâs trying to hide his whine as he pours hot sticky ropes into his hand. âHold on a minute!â
âSure thing, Choso.â Itâs you.
Fuck.
Choso hastily cleans himself up the best he can, tissues swiping at the sticky mess his cock has become, some of it is sticking to his black boxer briefs when he pulls himself together, opening his door. Youâre smiling up at him, and he wonders if he should feel bad. You donât know he sees your panties every day, but he brushes it off, because itâs not like he can help himself.
It takes everything not to drag you in as you just stand there curiously. âCan I help you with anything?â
âOh, Iâm sorry.â Youâre flushed as you look down a bit, biting that lower lip that makes him think insane thoughts. âI wondered⊠would you like to come over?â
âCome over!?â Heâs got his eyes wide now, and you feel your cheeks heat up more, shifting nervously.
âIs that too much? Is it weird?â
âWhat no I⊠you⊠huh?â Choso sputters now, imagining every way he wants you, god your lips probably would feel so good wrapped around his tip, wouldnât they? Cleaning his cum off himself-
âSorry, itâs stupid. Ugh. We just are so close here but we never hang out? And I have no friends here, just a cat I think.â Youâre babbling, as heâs staring at you like youâve grown another head.
Youâve wanted to ask him out for so long, surprised he never made a move, maybe youâre not his type? But curiosity gets the best of you, just who is he when heâs not so shy, when heâs not all in his business mode. Those glimpses of tattoos on his arms when he rolls his sleeves up are too enticing.
âA date?â He whispers, and you giggle then.
âIt doesnât have to be. Or it could be.â
âIâll be there, Iâll⊠bring wine?â He grins as you brighten up.
âI love wine!â
Oh, he knows.
He knows the brands you like, the type you enjoy, he knows so much about you already, heâs seen the outside of your home almost every night after work, just to make sure you get home safe of course. You live alone and youâre just a sweet, fragile thing, there are too many crazy men out there. Once he watches you, he leaves of course!
But he does notice you enjoy a glass of wine, you leave your window wide open when itâs nice out, petting your cat and sipping on it, reading some book. God you look so pretty when you think no one is watching, when your shoulders relax just so, in those moments his thoughts are far more pure, not like when he has to be tortured by the obscene amount of panties you have.
âIâd love to come over. Do you want me to bring dinner?â Heâs trying to sound calm, not like he just noticed with horror he has some cum sticking to his pant leg then, which you seem to notice, tilting your head.Â
âI think youâve got somethingâŠâ You bend down, brushing it off, making his cock jerk as you look at the sticky substance curiously, blinking while he panics.
âOh itâs just⊠itâs some⊠the glaze, from the donuts!â Heâs taking your hand now, and youâre already just licking it off your thumb.
You just licked Chosoâs cum.
Fuck.
âYou got donuts? Weird you got me bagels this morning. Silly.â You tease now, brushing your thumb back across your skirt, smiling up at him again.
âI uh⊠raided the⊠office cafeteria.â
âYou have such a sweet tooth!â
You have no idea. Once he tastes you he will never stop.
He doesnât think heâll even let you leave,
âI do, okay Iâll bring dessert, you do dinner?â You nod and giggle just a bit, the sound making his heart clench.
âPerfect, Iâll see you after work and give you my address.â
As if he doesnât know.
âSounds good.â You shut the door, and he leans his head on it, exhaling, as you curiously roll your tongue around your mouth.
What kind of donuts taste like that?
*****
âThis is my favorite wine, oh my God howâd you know!?â You take the bottle of blackberry wine, itâs not even common and sold at one specific store, Choso just smiles down at you, looking far too hot in his soft black shirt and jeans.
You only see each other in business gear, but seeing rolled up sleeves revealing veiny forearms is far too much to handle, along with the dessert ingredients he pulls out. âWas just a guess, is all.â
âA great guess.â Choso just smiles softly, with his lidded gaze drifting across the little tank top and skirt you have on. Just from his gaze your nipples press up, as if theyâre trying to tempt him with your every breath. Thank you.â You kiss his cheek, making his tummy clench, god he canât wait to fuck you, fill you, when youâre ready of course, when youâre begging him like the good girl he bets you can be,
âYouâre very welcome. Oooh that already smells so good.â You giggle a bit, taking the wine and bag out of his hands, heading over to where the ingredients are sizzling, youâre making steaks that smell far, far too heavenly already.Â
God youâre perfect, shimmying a bit when you taste the sauce youâve mixed up, beckoning him over with your two little fingers crooked up. âCome taste this.â
Choso urges his cock to go down at your innocent words, but were they innocent really, when he sees how your lips curl up at the corner, cozy inside your pretty little kitchen. He can tell you cook a lot by the amount of mixers, grills, devices and utensils neatly lined along your light countertops.
âDelicious, oh my god.â He murmurs, after you hold the ladle to his lips, brushing some sauce off the corner of his mouth with a sigh, for a wild moment you think of kissing it off him.
But he just touches your wrist, wrapping long thick fingers around it completely, the grip so tight it excites you, before heâs just pressing a kiss on it. Great, youâre some horny slut and heâs this⊠gentleman or something? You could damn near jump him - how good he looks, how long youâve been wanting this - but you make yourself act correctly, as you watch him work in the kitchen with you.
Heâs got the sweetest chocolate mousse, his turn to ask you to âhave a tasteâ and you lap it up off the beater, short circuiting his brain, while he simultaneously takes in absolutely everything in your home. Every little picture, and every knick knack that comprises you. Of course he sees your cat slinking around, right before the movies he goes to pet it.
âHe likes you, thatâs rare.â You admit, grabbing two glasses of wine, pouring the dark swirling liquid, handing him one as you sit down the plate with the mousse, taking a bite and moaning. âHeavenly.â
He bets you taste heavenly.
He wants to say it, when youâre right next to him, your legs tucked under you, sipping on the wine, leaving a pretty lip print with the color youâre wearing, a color Choso would love to see smeared across your face. Heâs tensing as you lean closer, his arm up and above you on the couch, casually strewn as if heâs not losing his mind.
Heâs mapping out more of your house even as he casually brushes his hand up and down your shoulder, as the gory movie begins, and he quickly notices you are not a fan. âEverything okay?â
âToo much⊠oh godâŠâ Youâre suddenly against him, he pulls you close to his hard body, as youâre exhaling, shaking your head. âScary.â
Chosoâs fingers brush against the bare skin on your shoulders, when youâre burying your face against his chest, heâd laugh at how cute you are scared of this zombie movie, but you against him alone has him throbbing. Your hands clutching his shirt as your hot little breaths blow on his neck is too much, he canât take it anymore, not having you.
His hand moves lower, brushing the sensitive skin down your arms, until he drops it to your hip, pulling you closer, hearing your breath catch as he does. Your nipples tighten in reaction, fuck itâs been a while and Choso smells so good, he feels good too. You donât move for a moment, feeling warmth spread, mixing with the wine in your body.
You were hoping heâd make a move, as you just werenât one to do so, but his hand doesnât stray from your hip, as his thighs spread just a bit, and the sounds of the screams on the screen ebb for a moment. âItâs over now, are you alright angel?â
You blush at the nickname, already overheated, shaking your head and snuggling deeper. âNo, it was too freaky.â
âYou picked it!â You giggle a bit then, pulling back to look up at him, with eyes he canât wait to have rolling back in your skull, his hand tightens at the thoughts, as your own grip tightens.
âI knew you liked horror, so I wanted to seem cool.â Choso watches you flush, so fucking cute then, and he pulls you more against him, now cupping your face with one of his huge hands. âIs that lame that I remembered that?â
Oh youâre so cute, as if he doesnât know everything about you.
Youâre feeling so small compared to him, when his hand takes over your face with his long, thick fingers, only making you wetter when he brushes a thumb over your lips. âYou donât have to try to seem âcoolâ with me.â
âChoso⊠IâŠâ You lean forward now, and your lips touch, but thatâs when Choso loses any semblance of hope of remaining normal, calm, shy even, not when he finally gets your lips on his.
Youâre on his lap before you can blink, gasping as his tongue swipes inside your mouth, barbell clicking your teeth gently, and youâre pulling back to gasp, looking down at his eyes. So dilated theyâre black, he emits the softest growl as he presses your clothed cunt down on his lap, and you cry out, gushing wetness until your panties are sticky.
âGod, look at youâŠâ He whispers, his voice is so different, everything about him is, when you lean forward, pressing a kiss to his lips, rolling your hips and feeling his thick length under his jeans.
He yanks you back down, mouths messy as you grind, as you move, nipping at his tongue ring with your teeth and pulling it, as his cock starts pulsing precum from your heat. âChosoâŠâ
âFuckâŠâ Heâs whimpering as you kiss down his neck, up to his ear, and he pulls you down harder, hands slipping up your skirt to grab that ass heâs stared at every day for a year. âYouâre so wet.â
âSâmuch I⊠embarrassingâŠâ
âNo, no, not at all.â Heâs pushing you back gently, so he can look at you, your nipples prominent against your top. He nips it over the thin material with his teeth, while youâre leaving a wet spot on his jeans.
He never thought heâd actually have you like this, silently begging him, one of your hands gripping his hair as he pulls down your top, revealing a nipple already perked up for him. Youâre panting when he sucks it in his mouth, feeling the weight of the other one in his palm, your tits are even more perfect than he could ever imagine, the thought that anyone ever saw them makes him furious.
No one will again.
âPerfect.â He murmurs, as he is now slipping down his finger until it hits your clit, rolling in small circles over your panties, as he feels himself already too close, when he sees your lidded gaze, your thighs trembling on either side of him. âCanât help yourself, can you baby?â
âFuckâŠâ Choso, sweet and shy and blushing, is talking dirty to you, as his barbell is flicking on your nipple, making you ache, so ready he could slip his cock in with ease. âFuck me, please.â Your words make him pause, words you donât just say, when have you ever asked- or fuck, begged?
Someone knocks on your door then, and you grimace in frustration, kissing him once more as he feels himself about to bust if you move once more, and the knock continues. âShould you get that?â
âItâs probably my neighbor, they're always asking for rides or for something.â You frown then.
âYouâre sweet, thatâs why hmm?â You just smile a bit, hoping theyâll go away, but ever persistent you hear her, shouting your name as Choso laughs a bit. âYou can get it, itâs fine.â
âItâs so not fine.â You hop up, leaving Choso a moment to breathe as you adjust yourself and head to the door, where your neighbor starts going on and on, and you sigh, looking back at Choso. âJust a minute!â
âNo worries.â As you step out on the porch to hear her ranting about another neighbor from what he can catch, you give him the perfect opportunity, he stands quickly, blood rushing to his head, he is so close to busting, he has almost forgotten about the little cameras he has.
He sneaks into your room now, finding it smells so much like you, your little plushies all along the dresser, which he casually takes one and puts a camera in, before opening the drawer, and seeing you do have an insane amount of panties. Just who are these all for he wonders, running a finger over your pretty bras now too, soft and silky and neatly folded.
God he wants them, but, he needs something youâve worn, these are all clean and smelling of fabric softener, that wonât do. He eyes the rest of your room, your bed just a little rumpled, opening the drawer of your nightstand, scowling when he sees your dildo and vibrator.
You wonât get to use those on yourself once he has a say.
He thinks briefly of tossing them, but that would look a little suspicious, though he contemplates it for a beat too long, as he runs out when he hears the door shut, and stands there casually, pausing the movie as you peer in. âJust one more minute, Iâm so sorryâŠâ
âItâs all good.â He smiles sweetly, and exhales in relief, heading to your bathroom now, where he finds the pair heâd seen earlier sitting right at the top of your hamper, those purple ones that you clearly soaked, he sees the wetness left from them and moans softly, before shoving it in his pocket
Finally youâre back inside, kissing him in his arms, up on tiptoes, your own hands trailing down his body, until youâre touching him, and just the touch and he feels himself about to cum. He needs to stroke himself before he even lets you come near him, clearly, he grabs your wrists, and you pause, blinking up at him, lips in a pout.
âAm I moving too fast for you?â You ask then, brows knitting, while Choso tries to envision everything terrible to make his cock stop, panicking.
âNo, I just⊠I have to⊠I got a call, while you were outside and um⊠I have to⊠leave.â He mumbles, you just blink a bit, pulling back and frowning.
âYou have to leave right now?â
âYes I⊠yes.â Choso kisses your forehead, before darting out and leaving you alone, standing there in confusion.
Were you coming on too strong!?
The thought swirls through your head as you take the glass of half finished wine, plopping down and sitting on your bed, frowning as you peek at your phone, he seemed so into it, was it the interruption, did he think better? You pause a bit, setting the glass down on your side table with a little clink, before laying and spreading your thighs, touching yourself with a hiss.
Youâre so wet youâre sticking to them, ugh.
You call him then, right as Choso has your panties on his face, stroking his cock and moaning, he has the image of you laying on your bed when he opens his eyes and peeks at the monitor, rushing to answer your phone. âChoso⊠Iâm sorry, but did I come on too much?â
âWhat? No, noâŠâ Heâs pulsing as he fucks his hand, now entranced by the vision of your legs spread like they are, itâs all he can see, when youâre shifting a bit.
âOkay um⊠I guess Iâll see you at work tomorrow?â
Say something.
Choso wants to so badly, but now heâs leaning forward, staring at you as you touch yourself, hearing a hitch of breath, and he continues stroking his cock as he watches you. âCho?â
âYou didnât do anything wrong, I got nervous.â He admits, continuing to watch as you giggle just a bit, gathering your slick when your fingers dip under your panties, he watches your hips roll and hears your little sigh.
Itâs like you know heâs watching.
âAre we still cool? I donât want it to be weird at work.â
âNo never, I-â
âI have to go.â You say suddenly, and he watches as the phone falls from your hands, glaring just a bit when you whine out, he can barely hear you, you hang up on him like a little brat.
You are rolling your finger on your clit as you smile just a bit, itâs a little petty sure, but he just walked out on you, so you get just a little satisfaction hanging up, remembering his touch, how good his hot mouth felt on your breasts. How good his length felt pressing up in his jeans, against your clit, god you can imagine how big it is when you slip two fingers in.
Picturing his tongue ring in the most wicked places, you feel yourself drenched, finally pushing down soaked panties, giving him the most perfect view when he finally sees your pussy bare. He blushes, looking away for a moment, should he be going this far he wonders, but he hears his name moaned from your lips, so he continues, wishing he could just call you back.
Just go back.
But heâs not ready- not just yet- you donât need him enough, do you? But he can tell youâre starting to, as youâre pumping your little fingers in and out of your perfect, pretty pussy- heâs not sure heâs ever seen one that looks that good. He knew it of course but god he canât wait to bury his face between your thighs, to lap up those juices he sees glistening.
âThatâs it baby, cum for meâŠâ Heâs murmuring, as you do just that, thighs shaking, as Choso finishes with a whine, and then he could swear you almost smile at that camera, but no wayâŠ
*****
You already have breakfast the next morning.
You already have coffee the next morning?
Your boss apparently bought them for you, and youâre sitting right on his desk giggling a bit, as Choso looks on with a scowl, crumpling the brown paper bag as a coworker comes up to him then. âSheâs so hot.â
Choso scowls, as another one walks up as well. âYeah she is, damn dude I thought you were gonna shoot your shot?â
âI⊠sheâŠâ Heâs stuttering, you gaze at him and wave a little bit, as Higarumaâs hand is dangerously close to your thigh while youâre sipping on coffee.
âIs she single then?â
âNo. Sheâs not.â They back off when the tall, buff man glares violet eyes at them, and Choso feels his body raging, hand itching to spank that ass of yours till itâs covered in his handprints.
You notice his glare, turning away your face then, you know you shouldnât be flirting, but youâve never tried so damn hard to get with a guy who just leaves you in the middle of you grinding on him. He left without even a âgoodbyeâ or âhad a nice timeâ - he ran away, and part of you has your feelings hurt, because it feels like youâre making all the moves.
You could feel his angry gaze all damn day, until you see him at one point stomp off to the breakroom, and you canât help but follow him curiously, surely a little flirting wouldnât upset him that much, right? âChosoâŠâ
Choso shuts the breakroom door then, pressing you against it and making you gasp, as he leans over you, one hand on the door, the other gripping you by your dress skirt, making you gasp. Your hands shoot up to his chest, as if to press him away, but when he is sliding up that skirt roughly you feel your heart thudding in your chest, feel your tummy heat up with desire.
Who is this Choso?
âDo you like him?â He demands softly - you blink a bit, biting your lower lip to hold in a slutty moan as his hand slips up your inner thigh, making you tremble.
âWho?â You whisper, smiling just a bit, but the smile freezes when heâs looming even more over you, taking over your every sense.
âYour boss, Higuruma. Do. You. Like. Him.â
You giggle a bit, breathless. âYou're jealous, why?â
Choso shocks you when his fingers find you under your skirt, your cunt drooling all over his thick digits when he presses the cotton against you, you're whining out at the touch, clit twitching in response, head falling back against the door. When your eyes threaten to flutter shut, he grips your chin, making you look up at him.
âDo you like him?â He whispers again, and you shake your head nervously, hips arching for more of his touch, and Choso Kamo smirks, a man youâve never seen do such a thing, a man that blushes and smiles sweetly. âUse your words.â
Fuck.
âNo, no I like you⊠but you donât- f-fuckâŠâ Heâs slipped his fingers under your panties now, exhaling against your lips, sweet breath like mocha against your lips, when he first touches your slick pussy without the barrier, he exhales, his hand on your chin slipping to tangle in your hair.
âYou have no clue what I want, so was that⊠to make me jealous?â He demands, scowling as he sinks two thick fingers inside your gummy walls that grip him, even though heâs so mad at you, he canât stop thinking how perfect your pretty face looks, how youâre tighter than he could imagine. He pumps inside you, hitting that spongy spot, pressing his lips right against yours. âAnswer me, now.â
âY-yes.â He laughs just a bit, curling his fingers while youâre wriggling in his hold, covering his lips with yours now, drinking in your cries as he hikes a thigh up over his hips, more and more inches of his fingers in your tight little drippy cunt.
âYou wanna cum, donât you baby?â Heâs whispering, kissing up your jaw, as you cling to his suit jacket, nodding eagerly, Choso acting like this is nothing you could even fantasize, you hear the squishing of your wetness even in the room. You nod in between his kisses up your neck, his teeth sinking into your skin, as he hits just that spot like he already knows your pussy.
âPleaseâŠâ You whisper out, and he thumbs your clit now, pressing against it and grinning as he feels you gush wetness, so much itâs insane to him, heâs fingering you in wonder as he feels your body tense.
âWere you a good girl? Do you deserve to?â You whine out when he pulls his fingers out just before you cum, making your lips part, when he sucks you right off his fingers, moaning at your taste, possibly the hottest thing youâve seen.
You cannot figure him out.
âGood? Are you being good? Canât answer?â He eases your panties back on, pressing your skirt down as you struggle to function.
âNo.â You admit, his cock is pressing against his slacks, leaking precum while he is fixing your hair.
âYouâre so pretty like this.â Chosoâs whisper resonates through your body, which his dilated eyes trail down. âTell him youâre not interested, and Iâll actually let you cum, hmm?â
You just nod, gulping as he stares so possessively at you. âWhen?â
âTonight, Iâll be at your place. He kisses you once more, a brush of his lips like some insane promise, while everything you think you know is flipped. âIâll be watching for when you tell him.â
With those words, heâs gone, leaving you to try to compartmentalize his words, his demeanor, as youâre aching for him, leaving you wanting twice now. You huff a bit, glaring up at him. âFine then.â
âYouâre so cute.â You scoff as you walk out, and Choso watches with a proud smile as you back off, as you sit right at your desk, and he sees just how soaked heâs made you.
*****
This time, there wasnât any wine or awkward talk, there was no movie playing, the moment Choso walks in youâre yanking him by his collar, slamming your lips up on his as he locks the door with a click, his hands slipping up your waist. He pulls back for a moment, taking a breath, before heâs picking you up like nothing, and you wrap your arms around his neck.
âYou were a good girl, did you tell him youâre mine?â You blink a bit then, confused, brows knitting.
âYours?â
âMine. Mine, mine, mine.â Heâs whispering now, gripping your ass with his huge hands, earning your whine while he squishes it in his hands. âDid you?â
âI will.â He smiles softly, walking you right to your room, far too familiarly, but you let him, he plops your right down, so the camera will capture the perfect angle, when he starts kissing down your pretty, perfect body.
âYouâre being good, a little bit at least.â Heâs whispering, dragging your skirt off your hips, revealing another black lace panty, which he touches, finding it dripping with your slick. âWear new panties every day, theyâre all so slutty, do you want people to see her?â
âWhat? IâŠâ
âWant them looking at what only I should see?â Heâs slipping the panties up between your lips, pressing his own cock into your mattress as itâs pulsing from just being this close.
âNo. I donât want them to see.â Your whisper ends him, he laps a hot, wet stripe over panties he has pulled so tight, exhaling at how pretty you are when he looks up at your face, and your hands grip his hair. âI want you to see.â
âMe?â Heâs dragging the soaking lace down your thighs, face to face with the pretty pussy he saw on a fuzzy camera, exhaling when he laps your pooling arousal from your slutty little hole. âSo you want to drive me fucking crazy?â
âY-yesâŠyouâŠâ Your sweet murmur along with how you taste ruin him, heâs spreading your plump lips, sucking in a breath as he sees you wide open, feeling your manicured nails pressing into his scalp while your thighs are shaking on either side of his head.
âSo you know what you do to me, huh?â He swirls his tongue around your clit, tongue ring hitting it and making you cry out, back arching off the bed. âAnswer.â
âN-no I donât know⊠I just wanted you to⊠make a move I-â
âTeasing me? Making me stroke my cock till it hurts? Tsk.â Choso bites at your little clit now, and youâre screaming when he flicks the barbell on your engorged little clit, youâre gushing all down his pretty face. âThatâs being bad, you know?â
âIâm s-sorry⊠you touch your-â
âOh babyâŠâ Heâs looking up under long lashes. âI hope you can make it.â
âMake what!?â Your words are met with a moan as he devours you, shoving your thighs up.
âHold them up, now.â His dominance not just shocks you, it ends you, the boy you thought youâd suck, ride, show things to, is a fucking menace when it comes to eating pussy.
No one has ever licked you like this, and heâs got two thick digits deep in your pussy, fuck his fingers are bigger than men youâve been with, youâre spasming around them as youâre rolling your hips up and down. Youâre pausing when heâs suffocating against your drooly cunt, his free hand pressing into your thigh, leaving bruises from his fingertips.
âNo, fuck my face, like a pretty slut fâme.â
Yep, youâre done.
You do just that, pulling his hair so hard it hurts, as he laps up every bit of your pretty pussy, youâre closer, closer, he feels it, looking up at you with a glistening chin and lips reddened from drinking you. âCum, let me drink you.â
âShitâŠâ Heâd chuckle but heâs lost in you, in the girl he canât stop watching, the girl heâs stalked for so long, just begging for him, screaming out, fucking his entire face, up to the straight nose that he buries inside your cunt. âChoso, Iâm gonna⊠f-fuck Iâm gonnaâŠâ
He just sucks your little clit in his mouth and hums, shoving two fingers and curling them up, when youâre shattering, screaming his name, and he feels himself cumming then, how can he not. His cum is sticking to his boxers, his jeans even, so much white seed pouring when youâre shaking, twitching, and heâs gasping as your thighs tighten on either side of his head.
âF-fuck⊠oh m-my godâŠâ Youâre weak as he leans up, smirking down at you, stroking a cheek. âLet meâŠâ
âNo, Iâm not done yet.â You blink in confusion, when he stands. âGive me just a minute.â
Before you can process whatâs happening, heâs back from the bathroom, and youâre on your knees, wanting to suck him, but heâs shoved you back down, lapping at you again, and youâre so weak, screaming out his name over and over while his tongue ring flicks your clit and heâs scissoring those fingers.
Choso had cleaned up but heâs hard again, you just do something to him, fuck why do you do this!?
âC-canât take more⊠fuck me, pleaseâŠâ He smiles on your thigh, heâll fuck you soon, but youâre not desperate enough yet, donât need him enough yet.
âCum again.â His order is met with him dragging your cunt along his face, and tears start falling with overstimulation, youâre hiccuping, pussy throbbing, so overstimulated. Heâs smiling down at you, that sweet smile with dark eyes. âOh, angel, weâre not close to done.â
âHuh? Choso⊠I came a lot lemmeâŠâ
âNot yet. Been waiting too fucking long.â Heâs devouring your pussy again, sipping you up as you keep cumming, your pussy so sweet itâs drugging him, heâs got you bent over, fingers moving in and out as he smacks your ass, but never fucking you, just making you cum over and over with his mouth, his hands.
âC-canât take anymore⊠p-please, too muchâŠâ You whisper, then he clicks his tongue, pressing kisses to your titties, leaving brutal bite marks all over your chest, thumb hitting your now sore clit.
âYouâre even more pretty crying, I knew it.â Youâre sniffling, tears, drool all mixing when he kisses you, and you taste your pussy on his lips, as he sticks in three, and youâve cum so much you can barely move, fatigue dragging you with the force of each orgasm. âOne more, fâme, hmm?â
âC-canât⊠p-please ChosoâŠâ Heâs grinning now, brushing your hair back sweetly like he wasnât three fingers in your sore little cunt.
âBegging me, crying for me, look at you. Do you realize how bad you were today?â You sniffle, nodding, but heâs unrelenting, curling three fingers and making you cry in pleasure and pain. âYouâll get fucked when you act right.â
âPlease! Too much⊠mnh!â Chosoâs back down eating you out, heâs lapping his tongue inside your hole, you feel every inch of his tongue, down to the texture as he looks up at the mess heâs made you, you feel the lines of his teeth when he grins, pressing up the hood of your clit. âAh, ah! Mâgonna⊠pass out IâŠâ
âOne more time, you can take it. I need to drink more of you.â Youâre shaking your head, but you canât stop the orgasms he elicits to the point where youâre gasping and clinging to him, to stay tethered, but the last thing you remember before you pass out is violet eyes bright, and a white grin from his face.
Choso laps at you after youâre limp, how can he not, heâs already cum again just drinking your juices, but now youâre so sore even in your knocked out state youâre jerking, hissing. Heâs exhaling even, and his breath on your clit with those lips spread, he can watch the poor little thing twitch.
âOh, youâre so sweet, look at you. So comfortable with me.â He cooes, brushing back your hair as your tears are drying all sticky on your face.
Heâs sure the camera caught it, but he canât help taking some pictures for himself later, while youâre so knocked out you lightly snore, while he brushes the dried tears off gently. He goes to clean his cock off again, coming back to clean you up, dress you once more, your body limp and pliant, just begging for him even in your sleep, but Choso wants your first time with you awake.
He can fuck you in your sleep after.
Curiously he sees your phone text, some guy asking if youâre free for coffee on the preview, and Choso scowls furiously, picking it up. Itâs a fingerprint lock, he kisses your hand in an apology before he uses your print, and starts scrolling though, seeing the amount of men that are in your dms. You seem to not respond to many, but this just wonât do!
What if one of them tried to take you?
Choso deletes them all, blocking them one by one, and when heâs done he stands up, tucking you in carefully, brushing a kiss on your lax lips.
âMuch better. Sweet dreams, angel.â
*****
âChoso Kamo!â Youâre shoving at him that morning, right outside of the office building, he blinks curiously, lids lowering.
âDidnât eat you out enough? Need more?â
âYou- what!?â You hold up your phone, earning his dopey grin. âWhere are all my numbers?â
âYou have your boss, unfortunately. And me.â
âThatâs it aside from like my girls, what the fuck!â Heâs scowling down at you now, backing you up until youâre against the wall of the building, where anyone could see you all, his thigh between yours.
âYou donât need to talk to them.â
âYouâre not even my boyfriend yet-â
âNo, Iâm more. Youâre more. Everything.â Youâre whining as he kisses you, feeling the wet spot on his slacks, while he grips the fat of your ass, pulling you down on him. âYou donât need them.â
âI just-â
âWant me to fuck your pretty pussy?â You gulp now, nodding and looking down, shocked at yourself.
What this man does.
This psychotic man.
How can he look like a kitten but be such a deviant little psycho!?
âThen get in the car. Now.â
âBut⊠work, Choso-â
âNow.â You follow him to his car, and heâs driving insanely fast, for a man that has a damn Volvo, the safest car there is, heâs scaring the fuck out of you, when he reaches a hand over, pulling you by your hair, kissing you at the light. âYou want it, donât you?â
âI w-want you, yes.â He moans at the words heâs died to hear.
âThen show me.â
Words and actions that seem so foreign, like the sweet exterior of him is peeling back and revealing how depraved he is, how badly he wants you, when you bend over, unzipping him as the car starts, and youâre bracing yourself on his thigh, revealing a pretty, thick cock. Your cunt starts drooling at feeling him inside your mouth, inside your throat, choking him down deep.
âFuck⊠why did you have to make me so mad?â He demands, free hand entangling in your hair as you bob up and down him. âCanât you see I did it for us, for you, to k-keep you⊠safe⊠from- mnhâŠâ
Choso whines out as youâre lapping him up, his hand trailing down your spine to find you soaked, his other hand gripping the steering wheel when he comes to another stop. He has never been one to even let women suck him or give him oral very often, but now he finds he wants to wreck your tight little throat, to stop your bratty mouth, the things you do to him.
âSlutty panties, every day.â You should be concerned, worried maybe, but instead youâre soaking them further, as he hits the gas pedal again, forcing your mouth more on him, your tongue tasting the musky, sweet precum coating your mouth. âAll for me?â
âMmhmmâŠâ Is all you can manage, as he continues torturing you over your panties, and comes to a stop, you are lifted off his cock, he swipes the pretty lipstick smeared on your cheek, slamming his lips down furious.
âDonât drive me so insane, angel. I canât take it.â He whispers, violet eyes so dilated they look black as he cups your face so tightly you cry out a bit. âI need you to be mine, no one elseâs, can you do it for me?â
You nod weakly, body acting against any better judgement. âY-yes.â
âYouâre being so good for me, finally.â Heâs smiling all sweet, as if he wasnât admitting to being insane, and you canât find any words to complain, when he picks you up in his arms, your arms wrapping his neck, his hands gripping your ass, you barely take notice of his house, aside from when you start seeing pictures of you all over his desk.
âWhat⊠is allâŠâ
âShh, baby.â Heâs got you naked in moments, as you look in horror to see your pictures printed and scattered, you blush as you see lotion and tissues. âIâve wanted this for so long.â
Psycho, heâs psychoâŠ
But your pussy doesnât really seem to care.
âAre these my panties!?â You demand, gasping when you see two pairs on his nightstand that look just like the ones youâve had on, and Choso just shrugs a broad shoulder, arm wrapping around your body, hand slipping up to grip your throat, lips plump against your ear.
âYou have plenty, too many really.â
âHow-â
âNow.â Is all he murmurs, turning you and unzipping your work dress, watching as the goosebumps rise on your precious skin. âYouâll be all mine, say it angel.â
âH-huh?â He yanks that zipper until youâre completely bare, panting breaths making your chest rise and fall in Chosoâs large master bedroom, where you start to see more and more things that are yours.
Missing pony tails, single earrings, a bracelet, how much of you is there exactly you wonder with a gulp, as heâs behind your bare body fully clothed. When he slips an arm around your waist, hand slipping down your tummy, making it tremble in response, your head falls back with how good it feels against any better judgement.
âYou knew you did this, admit it angel.â His words are honeyed, you can feel his pout on your cheek, while heâs rubbing your clit with one hand, the other holding your body against his, curve of your back on his chest, when he grips a bare breast, squishing it in his hand and overwhelming you with sensations.
âD-didnât know⊠thisâŠâ
âTch, canât speak already? Try⊠All mine. Mine, say it. Now.â
âIâŠâ
âNow.â
âYours.â Choso goes feral then, turning you so youâre looking up at him, and heâs cupping your face so tightly, leaning down as your shaky hands pull at the lapels of his jacket. âPleaseâŠâ
âBegging, youâre so perfect, sweet like this?â Youâre gulping as he steps back, eyeing your body and groaning softly, hands slipping down the sides of your breasts, down to your waist, the jut of your hips, as he drinks in your beauty. âBeautiful.â
One moment degrading, the next looking at you precious, his fingers trailing off while he then slips off his top, and you see him shirtless, his tattooed and buff body, muscles over muscles leaning to a narrow waist. A slutty waist, thatâs what he has, with red tattoos along one side of his defined ribs, flat nipples, you briefly register one his pierced as he pulls that shirt over his head.
âGodâŠâ Youâre trailing fingers down his body, and he turns you, until your knees hit the back of his soft bed, and youâre on your back, throwing you around like youâre nothing, slipping his pants off with your help over the plump of his firm ass, hissing when his cock is free.
âNo one else can ever touch you.â His words are batshit, but your pussy is drooling, tummy clenching when he lines his blushing tip, all reddened and sticky with precum, right between your glistening folds. âNo one can, right? I canât hear your cute little mumbles.â
âF-fucking⊠shitâŠâ Heâs smiling a bit, yanking up one of your thighs high, positioning himself at your soppy entrance, whimpering as your hot gummy walls now engulf his tip.
âNeed to hear you, words, pretty.â Heâs acting all sweet, like he doesn't have his huge cock right against your hole, like he doesnât have a screen watching your room, apps on his phone now to keep track of you, plenty of rope to keep you from leaving if he needs to, no he looks sweet.
âNo one but you.â He exhales, shoving his cock inside you then, you hiss at the burn, nails digging into the strong muscles of his back as you arch up.
âG-good girl⊠fuck you feel perfect, I knew it.â Choso is lost then, your pussy is so tiny, struggling to take him, gushing down his veiny length to accommodate, but heâs already too far gone, heâs thought of this too much, far too much. âSo fucking tiny compared to me arenât you?â
Youâre whining pathetically as he fills you, stretches you with several inches, too fucking many, your thighs tremble on his hips as he grips two of your wrists, pressing sweet kisses as he pushes them over your head, sinking in deeper and earning your hiccup of pleasure. âChoso!â
âThere it isâŠâ Heâs whispering in wonder, you thought Choso would be passionate certainly, after heâd eaten you out until you literally tapped out, but the feral grin on his sweet face when he eyes you is overwhelming. He lets your wrists go to spread your thighs, moaning as he watches your tummy. âLook how big I am inside you, hmm?â
You blush as you see it, your tummy bulging and moving, heâs enamored by it, while he slows his movements, now a hand is touching your tummy, pressing just a bit to feel it. âToo much⊠itâsâŠâ
âNo, baby you can take it, hmm? Just like last night?â
âI passed out!?â
âYouâre so pretty like that, in your sleep..â You gasp as he leans over you further, shoving your thighs up against your breasts, until youâre folded in half. âIâll take care of you even in your sleep, you donât have to do anything angel.â
âChoso w-what?â Heâs lost now, tip slamming your cervix, pounding your pussy so deep while youâre convulsing around his length, cumming with one more slam so deep, and he moans at the sensation.
âIâll keep fucking you, donât worry beautiful girl. Wanted this so fuckinâ long, you know? How longâŠâ Your eyes roll back in your skull, body struggling to keep a hold of any sense as your climax rocks through your body, as Chosoâs hands press into the backs of your thighs. âGod I canât wait to fill you over and overâŠâ
âMnh! Too m-muchâŠâ Itâs too good, when he grinds and rolls his hips, black hairs on his pelvis grinding into your engorged clit, youâre gripping those blankets, sobbing with a trembling lip as he works you, losing himself in you.
âNo, you can keep going fâme, huh baby? Nod for me.â You manage a weak nod, and heâs grinning again, leaning back to spit on your clit, in a thin long trail of saliva, rubbing your clit again while sinking in your fluttering walls. âThere we go, need you to take all this cum, can you?â
âY-yes⊠ah mâgonna-â
âCum, milk him baby. So good.â Youâre cumming as if on command as his rough thumb and spit hits that spot, and you canât see anything but black spots and the glow of his violet eyes and his brows contorted, when his hand leaves your clit, to press your thighs up higher. âReady for me to fill her?â
You gulp, nodding weakly as Choso loses himself finally, in your perfect face, covered in those tears that just make him pulsate more as he finally busts his hot, gooey load so deep in your pussy, which is sucking it in greedily. You feel him everywhere as his white ropes fill your hole, coating your contracting walls, while heâs drunk off you.
Drunk and whimpering in your ear while he has your little frame folded right in half for him, your pussy so eagerly taking all he gives, so wet and messy as he kisses your swollen lips. He tastes the salt of your tears, letting your thighs fall finally, one hand entangling in your hair, pulling your head up as his tongue plunders your mouth, the other slipping down your waist, leaving goosebumps.
âGod you took so much, youâre so good fâme, look at you.â Youâre whining as he pushes deeper, white drizzles falling down his cock, and you blink into focus, to see his face is soft again, sweet again, like your little work bestie. He even has the audacity to blush just a bit when he leans up, caressing your face. âPerfect, pretty slut for me.â
âFor youâŠâ You should hate that, but it just makes your pussy clutch his cock, he moans then, easing out with a suctioned wet pop, his heavy cock making a sticky mess as cum starts pouring from your puffy lips. âAh! F-fuckâŠâ
âLook at all this, donât you want all my cum baby?â He asks with a pout, shoving two fingers back in your pussy, watching the cum disappear with a smile.
âToo s-sensitive- youâre c-crazyâŠâ
âYou havenât seen it all yet, baby.â
Choso has you bent over, ass in his face as heâs eating you out from the back, while youâre gripping his sheets, headboard banging on the wall when heâs back inside you, deeper like this. He has you cumming again and again, eventually tying you right up to the headboard, ropes digging tightly in your skin as he looks down at you, covered in him.
His cum, his handprints, his bites.
His, youâre his.
âI need some pictures, pretty, just a moment?â Youâre delirious as you shake your head, tugging at the knots he has you in, but heâs already up, and for a brief moment you take in the surroundings, of all the things heâd stolen.
You panic momentarily when heâs back, and heâs smiling with a lidded gaze, caressing your cheek gently, down the curve of your neck. âChoso?â
âIâll untie you, I wonât just leave you like this. WellâŠâ
âChosoâŠâ
âI wonât, donât worry pretty.â Heâs thinking of it, of never letting you leave the bed, he could just feed you right, keep you tied at the wrists when you needed things-Â
Nah.
He shouldnât.
Right?
âYou wonât leave me now, hmm?â Heâs pressing kisses on your forehead so sweetly, as you sniffle just a bit, shaking your head, earning his exhale relief. âJust a few pictures.â
Chosoâs snapping them then, dark messy hair falling over his brow, adding them to the collection of photos of you inside your home, from out your window mostly, along with those from last night, of course heâd printed them. Heâs positioning you just so, pressing sweet kisses while he snaps away on his phone, finally releasing your wrists, rubbing them so gently.
âAre you alright, angel?â He is frowning, so concerned like he didnât have a growing collection of your things, you just nod a bit, as he sees where your vision heads, sighing. âIâve had a⊠crush.â
âA crush?â
âWell, a really big crush. Iâm in love with you.â Heâs cupping your face now, smiling down at you. âMaybe I was a little shy?â
You blink before bursting into laughter, youâre losing it, you may just die or be trapped here, but youâre too fucked out to comprehend it. âShy?â
âYeah. Youâre just so perfect, I needed the right moment. But you were bad, werenât you? Made me so jealous.â Heâs glaring, hand tightening around your throat as he kisses your lips so tenderly, thumb on your fluttering pulse. âYou wonât make me jealous again, right baby?â
You shake your head, letting him kiss you now.
Choso has no intentions of letting you go, itâs the next morning and you can barely walk as heâs grinning at you, shirtless and handsome, cooking up pancakes and all sorts of yummy things. Your tummy growls in response, trying to forget the horror as youâd seen you were his pc background even, his phone background, finding more and more things all over.
âGood morning, beautiful.â He comes to you, flour on his cheek which you brush off with a trembling hand. âYou should skip work today.â
âI canâtâŠâ
âYou can, donât worry. Itâs for the best, that's all, you can stay here.â
âChoso, so soon?â
âI canât have you working, I need you home, our home. Eating goodâŠâ Heâs forking a bite of pancake into your mouth, as horror mixed with the sweetness mixes in your body.
âI mean, just a day off?â
âSure, a day.â Heâs smiling brightly, as if he hasnât already sent your boss a video of your cum pouring out of your pretty hole.
Heâs sure he enjoyed it, but maybe not the not so friendly message associated with it.
But you wonât need that job anyway!
âOkay, a day wonât hurt.â You sit down and wince, sore from the endless amounts of times heâd stuffed you full with his cock.
âYou need tylenol and coffee!â Heâs quick to grab them for you, sitting next to you, brushing your hair back as you swallow the pills so quickly, he brushes back your hair gently, oh heâs so proud of you. âGood girl, hmm? Youâre gonna feel better soon.â
Choso is BATSHIT in this my god ahaha, I cracked up writing the donut scene AND the end- TYSM again for 9k followers I am so glad you all enjoy my bullshit lol. Love you all and see you in the comments hehe <3
Sum: In an old western town where gossip passes as law and wolves wear badges, running was never going to be enough.
Yandere! SatoSugu x Reader âž WC: 5.1k
Warnings: yandere behavior, AFAB! reader, psychological horror, implied non-con, coercion, abuse of authority, violence, mentions of blood, mentions of alcohol, mdni
Your daddyâs a mongrel - or at least thatâs what the townsfolk are whisperinâ. Even the men mutter behind their roughened hands, palms callused from cattle ropinâ, leaning close to trade stories about the visitors your daddy had last night. Youâre used to the pretty ladies down by the general store whisperinâ about your daddy too, mostly for other reasons, waitinâ to flutter their feathered fans or twirl parasols just enough to muddle their lips, so you canât quite read what theyâre sayinâ.Â
Yet for all the townâs gossipinâ, youâll still see those same men and women sittinâ straight-backed in the pews every Sunday. Mouths sealed tight in prayer. Ainât they know God counts gossip as sin? Or maybe they just think the lord ainât listenâ so hard out here in the wild west.Â
You know your daddy ainât the best of men. A liar and a cheat. Hell, heâs nearly shot every boy whoâs dared to step on your doorstep ever since you turned eighteen. Not because heâs not eager to get rid of you, itâs because he doesnât intend to give another man access to the gold on his land, nor to anything else he owns.Â
You wonder if that gold is what drew the visitors in last night.Â
You werenât meant to be awake. The hour was late, moon hanginâ high and pale, its light strained thin through cottoned windows. Still, you sat perched at the top of the stairwell, bare feet tucked beneath your pale nightdress, listening in as two well-dressed gentlemen occupied the parlor across from your daddy.Â
You couldnât see their faces from where you were - only fragments. One had the silkiest hair youâd ever laid eyes on, gathered low at the nape of his neck with a ribbon of worn leather. Fresh-ink dark. His voice slid out, smooth and indulgent, a sinnerâs purr that had your heart thumpinâ in your chest. He had a broader frame than the two, shoulders stretching the fabric of his dark as night shirt taut, the cloth shifting with each movement. A practiced man. A smooth talker. Youâd never seen your daddy so rapt and willing to listen.Â
The other man was leaner, sharp in a way that made your skin prickle, hair white as a winterâs frost, posture lax, legs sprawled wide like his ma never taught him an ounce of manners. You wonder if they existed at all in his eyes.Â
You shifted carefully, nudging your nightdress out of the way so you wouldnât stumble when you stood. The floorboard, damn thing, needed a fixinâ, betrayed you away. The sound was hardly more than a sigh - but it was enough for someone with the hearing of a hawk. You caught the gleam in the white-haired man's eyes. No one else seemed to notice. Your daddy didnât pause, and the dark-haired man never broke the rhythm of his speech. Just a tap on his knee. It wouldâve been easy to blame the noise on the house itself - old bones settling, or that wicked wind woryinâ in the eaves.Â
But the white-haired man had seen you.Â
You watched his mouth tilt, just barely forming into a knowing smile before his gaze slid away, attention folding back into the conversation as if nothinâ had happened at all. You finally released a breath, you never realized you were holdinâ.Â
They felt familiar, the pair of them. Not in a neighborly way, but in the sense of somethinâ youâd seen once before, like some movie poster or something from a newspaper. Not some outlaws that the folk in town had been whisperinâ about. Yet, no decent man ever smiled like that when they thought no one was watching.Â
You decided not to test your luck too much, easing yourself back to your bedroom, careful of those old rickety floorboards. You thought thatâd be the last of them, a one-time investment of some sort.Â
Yet that one-time visit quickly became weekly visits, visits that got the town talkinâ because your daddy had been awfully sweatinâ this past month. Stressed beyond sin. Drinkinâ and smokinâ more and more before the two gentlemenâs visits.Â
You werenât sure why, but they always came with gifts. Flowers for your motherâs table. Suguru - the dark-haired one- always insisted on bringing you a new thing to wear. A broach for church, a new ribbon, sometimes a piece of jewelry. One time, you almost asked him where he got it from, such an expensive piece of rubies and silver, but the lead on your tongue was telling you not to ask such a thing. Not when his smile seemed so pure, but that gun on his hip said otherwise. Anytime he gave you a new necklace or two, youâd have this feeling to wash the piece because who knows maybe red rubies are actually white diamonds stained with something sinister. You found yourself prayinâ before bed a little harder that night.Â
Satoru - the white-haired tease - seemed to favor sweets.Â
Anytime he visited, heâd whistle for you, passing along a little bag of candy: sometimes taffy, sometimes a caramel or two, or if youâre lucky, a rare hard candy youâd never had the luxury of gettinâ your hands on before. Always with a note tucked inside: for my little sneak.Â
Heâd whistle the second he stepped onto the porch.Â
âCâmon now, sugarplum,â heâd croon, lounginâ back like he owned your maâs parlor, one boot - splattered dark along the white leather - propped right atop the nice coffee table your daddy paid a pretty penny for, bought from a man from foreign lands. âYou been hidinâ from me all morninâ? Heat gettinâ to ya?â
Youâd frown, your gaze settling on the stains along the side of his boot. Could be animal blood, you suppose. Youâd heard a gunshot earlier that morning - folks said the coyotes got into the sheep again last night. Still, the teasinâ only deepened your scowl.Â
âI ainât hidinâ,â you muttered. âJust donât like beinâ whistled at like Iâm some dog.â
âCouldnât be no dog,â Satoru murmured, his eyes tracking every inch of you, teeth worrying at his lower lip when he noticed your fists bunch tight in the frill of your dress. âDogs bark. You darlinâ? Youâre the purrinâ type. Takes a while to coax you out - more like a cat.â
Suguru only laughed softly, lifting his teacup for a slow sip. Always warm - he never bothered with ice. His fingers toyed with a strip of wood and a knife, carving something careful and precise. Your eyes could never settle on him; he was always too pretty. Yet it seems wherever he was, he was always focused on you, too. Like a wolf stalkinâ prey.Â
âBe nice, Toru,â he cooed, his voice gentle in a way that reminded you painfully of your motherâs, back when youâd cry yourself into hysterics, âWeâre guests, remember?â
âAh. Youâre right.â
Satoruâs grin stretched wider as he leaned forward, catching a loose strand of your hair between two slender fingers as you sat beside him. His crystalline gaze locked onto yours, voice drawlinâ low. âForgive me, sugar. Itâs just hard to behave when youâre sittinâ there lookinâ like temptation. Almost makes a man wanna settle down in the next town over.âÂ
When you sat with him in the parlor that late afternoon with the bugs buzzinâ in the fields, you tried not to look at the blood on his boots resting carelessly on your maâs nice table. A man with no manners whatsoever.Â
And your daddy - for all the beast he could be - never once told you to stay away from them. Perhaps he couldnât because of things youâd never be able to understand.Â
You noticed, though. Every time your daddyâs eyes landed on you talkinâ with them, or when Suguru leaned close to tuck a wildflower into your hair, your daddyâs gaze would dart straight to his boot tips, as if the snake embellish was far more interesting than your conversation. His hands would fidget, restless and unsure, fingers flexinâ like he wanted to reach for a gun that wouldnât do him a lick of good.Â
Your ma was no use either. It seemed the moment those men started cominâ around, the doctor began prescribinâ her a tonic - to ease her nerves, your daddy said. All of it started after you heard glass breakinâ between the two of them one night when you shouldâve been on your knees prayinâ before bed.Â
Now, she just lingers in her rocking chair on the porch, the slow creak of the wood the only sound she makes anymore. Her embroidery lies untouched in her lap, thread gone slack between her fingers. Her eyes were glassy, dulled over, like she was lookinâ clean through the world instead of at it and its wonders of whatâs to come.Â
You found yourself curlinâ up beside her more and more, the way a child would. Layinâ with your head in her lap, guidinâ her hand back into your hair whenever it slipped away. Sometimes sheâd stroke it absentmindedly, fingers movinâ on muscle memory alone.Â
After a long while, she speaks.Â
âUsed to be my daddyâs land,â she murmured, voice thin and distant, like she was talkinâ to someone long gone. âMamaâs before him, too. Every fence post, acre, tree⊠I know it all by heart.âÂ
Her fingers stilled in your hair.Â
âFunny how easy it is for somethinâ to stop beinâ yours,â she added softly. âAll it takes is the right kind of man.âÂ
You didnât know if she meant your daddy - or the men whoâd come after.Â
A few months pass, winter cominâ, and your daddy grows more hysterical than usual - frayed thin, like a rope used too long. Â
He keeps himself cooped up in his office now, pacing restless grooves into the floorboards and grinding his boots into the rugs you scrubbed clean on a warm Saturday afternoon. All that careful work ruined, fibers darkened and worn. His guns - polished to a dull, obsessive shine - hang heavy on his hips even inside the supposed safety of the house. He checks them often, fingers lingering too long on the grips, like cold steel might make up for everything thatâs already slipped out through his hands.Â
He doesnât come to supper anymore. No matter how hard you try. Not even now, when youâre the one cookinâ, stretchinâ meals thin since he fired the maids in one sharp, liquor-soaked rage. Heâd muttered then about money bleedinâ out, about gold vanishing like smoke, somethinâ about trust beinâ a foolâs currency.
Plate sittinâ cold on the table, untouched. You eat alone more often than not, with the house echoing hollow around you. Once filled with life, now with none other than you and that beast of a man.
You havenât seen much of your two wolves lately, either, not that you minded. Though the company would be nice.Â
Their visits had grown scarce, then vanished altogether. No whistle cuttinâ through the porch air. No flowers laid gentle on the table with rose thorns already trimmed - not even your motherâs grave tucked quietly and unmarked on the edge of the property. Your daddy never put up a headstone, nor a cross. Said stone was expensive and nobody ainât got the time to carve wood. Said names didnât matter once the dirt had settled. Only God needed to know where she lay.Â
No sweets slipped into your palm. Not even a careless grin. No folded note youâd later feed to the fire watchinâ the ink curl and blacken into nothinâ.Â
You tell yourself it must mean theyâve finished the work they were hired for. That the land is secure now. That whatever bargain your daddy struck - however crooked it may have been - has been settled and closed.Â
But late at night, when the house creaks and sighs like itâs rememberinâ better days, you hear him mutterinâ behind his office door. Words whispered sharp and brittle - owed, soon, canât - each one cracking under the weight of panic.Â
And still the house feels watched.Â
Like somethinâ patient is lingerinâ just beyond the fence line, breath slow and steady, waitinâ for a man to realize heâs out of gold and only got flesh left to offer.Â
The bank came by in the early spring, when the ground was still soft, and the air smelled like thawed earth and old promises. That if you survive the winter, you can somehow pay off your debts before the law gets you. The man spoke politely, but firmly, his hat held tight in his hands as he explained your daddy was overdue on his credit. Said papers had been filed. Said a sheriff from the next town over would be stoppinâ by soon enough to collect what was owed - one way or another.Â
You tried talkinâ to your daddy after.Â
You pressed your forehead to the office door, the wood warm from the fire with the sound of pacing on the other side, and you whispered like it were prayer. âDaddy.. Whatâs goinâ on?âÂ
What came back wasnât an answer. More like a bark from a dog. âGet.âÂ
The word cracked through and straight to your chest. You didnât ask again.Â
You stopped showinâ your face at church after that. You werenât goinâ to walk there either after Daddy sold the horses. You knew - even with the tough hide youâd grown over the past year - you wouldnât survive the looks, the murmured scripture, the quiet cruelty sharpened behind their tight smiles and frilly fans. You could already hear their words, feel them like welts before they landed.Â
Theyâd say your daddy bled himself dry. That he hired unlawful men and mistook wolves for guards. Let them drain the land down to bone and dust.Â
Theyâd whisper that your daddy was the reason your ma lay in the ground without a stone. Whatever broke her started long before that tonic ever touched her lips.Â
And maybe, alone in the quiet, with nothinâ but the creak of the house and your own breath for company, you wondered if they were right.Â
They didnât come like wolves that night.Â
They came like men collectinâ a debt long overdue.Â
Suguru stood easy in the lamplight, posture relaxed, hands folded loose as if this were a cordial visit instead of a reckoning. His voice carried smooth and measured, silk-soft but edged sharp beneath the polish. âNow, now,â he murmured, tone mild as warm tea. âThereâs no need for all that noise. Weâre only here to settle things.âÂ
Your daddy stalked the length of the room, boots grinding against the scuffed floorboards, breath coming hard and uneven. His fingers twitched near the holsters at his hips, knuckles pale, eyes wild and bloodshot.Â
âYou think I donât know what you are?â he snapped, spittle flying. âYou ainât law. Ainât got no badge. Ainât got no right to be standinâ in my house -âÂ
Suguru hummed thoughtfully, tilting his head just so, dark hair slipping loose over his shoulder. A fox considering a trap already sprung.Â
âLawâs a funny thing,â he said softly. âIt listens closely to money. Guns do some persuadinâ, sure - but moneyâŠâ His smile curved, slow and knowing. Already winning the game. âMoney does most of the biddinâ around here.âÂ
His gaze drifted then, unhurried and thorough. Over the stripped shelves. The overturned drawers. The safe yawning open, empty as a mouth with teeth pulled clean.Â
Something like sympathy flickered across his serene face. As if practiced.Â
âLooks like youâre in a bit of trouble,â Suguru added gently, almost kindly.
You awoke - just like the first night they came - just this time to shouts and hollers tearing through the house.Â
âYou ainât no sheriff!â Your daddy screeched, glass shattering on the floor, the sharp crash echoing loud enough to rattle the walls. You figured it was the last of his liquor, flung empty and desperate.Â
You stayed in bed, frozen beneath the quilt, breath trapped in your chest as your hands fumbled for the letter opener tucked inside your bedside drawer. Anything for a lick of protection. You held still like a child waitinâ for a storm to pass.
Another voice slipped through the walls - far too calm and amused for anything good to come of it.Â
âOh, but I am now,â came the lazy drawl. Satoruâs voice, thick with smugness, a grin folded right into the syllables. âSheriff of that sweet little town downriver. Ainât it funny how quick folksâll hand you a badge when you clear out a few problems for âem?â
You could hear him move then.
The sound of his boots - always light on his feet - crossing broken glass. Unhurried. Confident.
âThey even asked kindly to help out this shithole of a town,â he went on lightly. âSeems thereâs been a bit of an issue between you and the bank.â
A pause, you could hear the teasinâ lilt behind his voice, that cocky grin of his burned into your mind. Somethinâ you think a little too often, sometimes unholy things.Â
ââCourse, they didnât ask too many questions about how we went about fixinâ things,â he added lightly. âGuess givinâ the people peace over a mongrel like you is reason enough to want you dead.â
âIâll give you anything you want,â your daddy choked out.
You heard him scrambling, boots skiddinâ uselessly across spilled liquor and broken glass, breath hitchinâ sharp and wet like he couldnât quite pull enough air into his lungs. A gun clicked, loud and naked in the space, the sound trembling with the same panic that cracked his voice.
âMy daughter,â he blurted, tryinâ to save his skin. âYeah? You took an interest, didnât you? You both did?â
That was when you slid from your bed. Almost like a cue that things are about to get bad. If your daddy was savinâ his skin. You should be, too.Â
Bare feet met the cold floor, slow and careful, every step calculated as you crept toward the door. Your fingers clenched tight around the letter opener, its thin blade biting into your palm, useless but comforting all the same. The house groaned softly around you, old wood complaining under the weight of what was about to happen.
A low whistle cut through the hall.
Not playful like Satoruâs. A sharper sound. You knew without seeing him that it belonged to Suguru.
âSellinâ off your daughter?â Suguru said softly, voice smooth as oil, touched with something almost like amusement. âWhen you havenât even paid us for all that work we did for ya?â
You pressed closer to the door, heart batterinâ your ribs like an untamed stallion, fingers clenched white around the letter opener. The house felt too small, walls closing in, the air thick with the coppery tang of fear.
âWe slaughtered every man in those mines,â Suguru went on calmly, like he was recitinâ figures from a ledger. âYou think thatâs easy on the mind?â
A beat passed. You wonder if your daddy was a stammerinâ mess and you just couldnât hear it. Begginâ and pleadinâ like a sinner in church.Â
The only thing that broke the silence was Satoru with a long and dramatic sigh, like a bored child denied a treat from the general store down the road.
âAw, câmon,â he whined lightly, voice sing-song and wrong in the middle of all that panic. âCanât we just kill him already?â You could hear him shift his weight, boots scraping lazy circles through broken glass. âWe were gonna take the girl anyway.â
Your stomach dropped at the sound of that. There was a wet, choking sound from your daddy, something between a sob and a prayer gone unanswered.
Suguru didnât answer right away.
You imagined him standing there in the lamplight, considering it, head tilted, expression thoughtful, as if Satoru had just asked a reasonable question instead of sealinâ a manâs fate to be hung.
ââŠToru,â Suguru murmured at last, gentle but firm. âDonât be rude.â
The pause stretched. Suffocating.
âBut,â he added smoothly, âyouâre not wrong.â
The words settled heavy in the air, pressinâ down on your chest until your breath came thin and sharp, each inhale scraped raw against your ribs.
You had choices. Not real ones, only the kind that are ugly and desperate when the world has already made up its mind for your fate.Â
You could run.
Bare feet slapping against warped floorboards, the skirt of your nightgown gathered tight in shaking fists as you bolted into the night. The spring air would bite cruel and wet, the last of the frost still meaning business, stiffeninâ your joints and burninâ your lungs as you fled toward town. You could pray your legs were faster than theirs. Pray the dark loved you enough to hide you.
You could stay quiet. Melt back into the houseâs narrow bones, wedge yourself into some forgotten corner and hope the men whoâd stalked mines and slaughtered towns somehow overlooked a trembling girl and her ragged breath.
You could beg. Fall to your knees and offer tears where gold had failed. Hope mercy lived somewhere behind sharp smiles and even sharper eyes.
You could even fight - rush them with the letter opener clenched white-knuckled in your fist, blade flashing, desperate and small. Save your daddy. But the thought soured before it could settle.
You knew, deep and certain, that heâd sell you again in a heartbeat if it bought him one more breath. One more chance to crawl free.
The house groaned softly around you, old wood sighing as it had already accepted what was coming.
So you ran.
You didnât care that you were still in your nightdress, thin cotton clinginâ uselessly to your skin as it snagged and tore against brush and fence wire. You didnât care that the cold bit straight through you, numbinâ your legs even as they burned, muscles screaming with every frantic step.
You didnât care about the gunshot that cracked the night wide open behind you - too loud, too close - nor the sound that followed it: bright, childlike laughter, sharp and delighted, chasinâ after you through the dark. Boots struck the dirt hard and sure behind you, unhurried, like they knew youâd tire long before they would.
Tears streamed down your face, hot and blinding, streakinâ your vision until the world smeared into shadows and silver moonlight. Your breath tore ragged from your chest, each inhale shallow and panicked, throat achinâ like it might close up entirely. You stumbled more than once, heart a hammerinâ so violently you swore theyâd hear the wretched sound poundinâ in your ears.
You didnât care if wolves or coyotes were out tonight, teeth gleaming somewhere beyond the fence line, hunger sharp enough to rip you apart. Youâd grown up on stories - whispered warnings about girls who were alone with no protection, about what happened when they were caught by men worse than beasts.
You werenât goinâ to be another one of those stories. Not to be another cautionary tale at church. Not another girl laid in the dirt without a marker to say sheâd ever been here at all.
You ran and ran until your foot caught on a fallen branch, and you hit the ground hard, cheek scraping against bark, blood already trickling warm down your knee. You scrambled, breath hiccupping in your chest, dragginâ yourself through leaves and rot until you found it: a hollowed-out tree, just wide enough to crawl into.
You curled tight, knees pressed to your chest, the letter opener shaking uselessly in your hand. Blood streaked across the white of your nightdress. An unforgivinâ color. Adrenaline spiked too high for you to even consider the pain. Your feet throbbed. Frost crept up your spine like ghost fingers from those stories youâd share at the bonfire.Â
And still, you heard them coming. Satoruâs voice rang out first = sing-song, giddy, off.
âJust like a cat, Sugu!â he cackled. âDogsâll come runninâ to a whistle, but this one? Sheâs got claws.â A pause, boots crunching closer. âWeâll have to get her a bell.â
You clapped a hand over your mouth, chest heaving, hot tears streaming past your fingers. Every breath you took was laced with pine and blood and terror.
Suguru didnât laugh at that. You could picture him humminâ at the thought. Like he could pick you out a nice ribbon in town just for a soft bell to lay against your throat. You only heard his soft whistle, a tune of sorts. A lullaby for prey. Not hunting. Just waitinâ to see if his trap worked.
âPlay nice, Toru,â Suguruâs voice slipped through the trees, unhurried, almost affectionate. âShe just lost her daddy. Sheâs gonna need a couple of strong men to take care of her now, hm?â
You shoved yourself deeper into the hollow, splinters biting into your back. Your hand slipped in blood. Your lungs ached. Tears wouldnât stop streaminâ.
âBoo!â
Satoru exploded into view like a firework, crouched just inches from your face, his grin feral, unhinged, too wide for his face. Eyes glitterinâ with wild delight, pupils blown wide, frosty hair disheveled from the run, cheeks flushed with exhilaration.
âThere you are,â he panted, breath hot in the cold air, fog curling from his lips. âGod, you run so cute. Sugar, sugar, sugar - look at you! All scratched up and sobbinâ. Good thing weâre here to patch ya up!â
He reached for you, fingers blood-slick and shakinâ from all the excitement. Youâd never seen a man so joyful until he grabbed your ruined knee. You cried out, sharp and pained, as he dug his blunt nails into the open wound, thumb pressing into torn skin like he meant to keep you there by the bone.
âOh, sugarplum,â he cooed, and that grin didnât waver. âDonât cry like that. Youâll make me worse.â
His other hand slid up, knuckles brushing your face, smearing a tear across your cheek. His eyes didnât blink - just drank you in, tremblinâ with the high of having found you.
âYou look so pretty when youâre scared.â
Satoru dragged you from your hiding place like it was nothing, hauling you out into the cold dirt and pinning you there beneath him. He loomed over you, all long limbs and feverish energy, his knee wedged firm between your thighs to keep you still. His skyâblue eyes drank you in, bright and blown wide, alight with the manic thrill of finally having you right where he wanted.
Suguruâs voice followed, low and indulgent, drifting in like a cruel comfort.
âSorry about him,â he cooed gently, âHeâs been waitinâ. And waitinâ. Took a long time to get here to you.â
Bile burned up the back of your throat.
Suguruâs presence settled closer, not touching, not needing to. His shadow stretched long and deliberate over you, causing you to fold into yourself more. Like prey.Â
All you could shake out between hiccupinâ sobs was a string of, âPlease let me go,â and âI wonât say nothinâ.â
âYou ought to think about what comes after,â he said gently, voice low and patient, like how your ma would be when you were throwinâ an awful tantrum. âA young woman found alone. Nightdress torn. No father left to speak for her.â His violet eyes traced the ruined hem of cotton, the scraped skin, the trembling in your hands. âTwo men with her.â
Men carried weight. Finality.
âTowns donât care for truth,â Suguru continued softly. âThey care for stories. And stories rot quicker than bodies.â A pause, almost tender, you watched his silky hair in the night shake with his head as he pondered what could come of you if they let you go. âNo dowry. No family. No man lining up to marry what folks already believe has been spoiled.â
The forest felt closer then, branches crowding, shadows thickening, the air gone damp and cold as if the night itself were closing ranks.
âBest case,â he went on, mild as a sermon, âyouâd be passed from place to place on pity alone. Worst caseâŠâ He let the silence finish it. âThere are houses for girls who donât belong anywhere else. Places youâll have to pay without money. Awful places.â
Your breath shook, whether it be from the cold or the way Satoru straddled you, sittinâ right on your torso, barely putting his weight down but enough for you to struggle.Â
Satoru shifted above you, restless energy finally finding its shap. Hands searching, finding place on your cheek or under your nightdress. Thumbs brushing over your hardened buds in awe, you could see the drool on his soft pink lips as he drew himself to you. He really was a man with no manners. His touch wasnât hurried. It was hungry. Lovesick. As if heâd waited his whole life to feel you breathe beneath his palms.
âThatâs why I fixed it,â Satoru added on quickly, almost breathless. âTook care of the law part. Nobody gets to decide things about you anymore.â His voice wobbled with something like relief, eyes shining too bright in the dark. âI couldnât stand the thought of them touchinâ you. Talkinâ about you like you were already gone.â
He leaned closer, forehead nearly brushing yours, devotion cracking through his grin. All you could stare at was how his blue eyes seemed to have matched the moonlight glow tonight. âWeâre keepinâ you safe,â he insisted softly. âThatâs what sheriffs do. Thatâs what I do.Suguru will handle the church, and Iâll handle the law.â
Suguru smiled then, his hand moving to pet your hair like your mother would, blunt nails against the scalp, slow movements like calming a frightened animal.
 âWeâre the only ones who love you enough to stay,â he murmured. âThe world isnât kind to girls left alone.â
The woods stood silent around you. No lantern light. No roads. No witnesses. Just dark trees, damp earth, and the distant, lonely sound of something howling far off.
Satoruâs mouth brushed close to your ear, his voice dropping sweet and thrilled into the quiet.
âItâs okay to holler,â he whispered. âNothinâ but us and the wolves out here. Weâll make sure youâre still honorable for your weddinâ day.â
Could you even tell the difference anymore? Between the man and the beasts outside?Â
Leavin' you prayin' while Satoruâs mouth sucked against your neck and something hard pressed against your bare thigh. The sound of an unbuckle near your head where Suguru sat. Dread lay thick in your stomach. Nothin' but hope that this was all just a dreadful dream. That you were still in the summer heat, curled next to your ma.Â
mdni- Law professor! Higuruma x law student! reader
Your law professor Hiromi Higuruma is exhausted, he'd asked you to come for a meeting to discuss your upcoming internship with him - you were a top law student, after all, but he had no damn sleep and his coffee is too weak. He's eased back with his dark eyes shut, hands over his face, trying to wake himself up enough to see you.
It's hard to see you too, hard to even look at you, how fucking pretty you are makes his job difficult to say the least. You're a good twelve years younger, not that its' that much of an issue, the problem is you're his student.
He certainly can't cross that line, and he certainly can't jerk off every time he sees your thighs in your little pencil skirts, all professional and smiling as you bring him breakfast, lunch, fuck you're always bending over to give him something - and making him feel like a fucking depraved pervert. He tries not to think of you when he jerks his cock at night, but you flit through his mind.
How he'd fuck you right here on this desk, pump all his cum inside your pretty cunt. How he'd eat your surely cute little cunt, have your squirt all down his dress shirt, his tie, every inch covered in you. Fuck he'd bathe in it if he could.
Even now just thinking of seeing you has his cock throbbing, he's so tired he can't stop it like he usually can, jumping up when you walk in, clearing his throat and quickly sitting up, praying you don't get close enough to see the tent in his slacks. You smile all pretty, today your blouse is unbuttoned too much, hints of your tits peeking out as if to taunt him.
"Mr. Hiromi," you say softly, shutting the door behind you and holding two cups precariously. "I got your favorite espresso."
"Oh fuck I love you," you giggle when he panics, tired eyes lidded as they gaze down at your lips.
How would they wrap his cock?
"I mean..." He starts stammering just a bit, but you smile.
"I will take that," you tease, handing it to him, your fingertips brushing together when he takes it. You feel that heat shoot down into your tummy, a gnawing ache that's just constantly there for your professor -months of having to watch him lecture, watch him in court, your vibrator hates to see you coming after days you join him and watch him argue.
When he gets angry? Fuck.
He seems so calm but it's just brimming underneath the surface, he takes a sip and moans. "God that's good, so much better than the shitty coffee here."
"I figured so," you sip your own drink - much more foamy and sweet, handing him the documents he asked for. "Here you go."
"They can wait," he tosses them to the side now, sighing and leaning back in his chair. "It's the weekend, don't you have some party to go to or something? A date?"
"Nah I was just gonna watch Bridgerton and cuddle on the couch," you sit on his desk, crossing your legs, his gaze darts to them, fingers damn near twitching with how badly he wants to grip them.
"You're twenty three, shouldn't you be having fun?"
"As if you're so old," you tease, uncrossing them and swinging your ankles around just a bit. "But no, not my thing."
"I see," he tilts his head and leans close. "What season are you on?"
"You do not watch it!"
"Who says I don't," you're giggling all cute, ruining his muddled mind even further. "Okay I don't but I have heard of it."
"It's really good! You probably just rewatch Lincoln Lawyer on repeat."
"Tch," you're giggling again and drinking your cup. "You're right."
"Called it!" You hop down and nearly trip, he catches you buy your hips quickly, the coffee precariously falling but you some how catch it with both hands. "Oh I'm so sorry."
He says nothing, not when your tits are right in his face, and he can feel the curve of your waist, he hardly holds back a gutteral moan, not letting go. You set the coffee down with a shaky hand, heart hammering in your chest, stepping between his spread thighs now.
"Are you all right, Sir?"
"Don't fuckin' call me that," he rests his head on your waist now, exhaling and tugging you closer, nuzzling the little buttons of your bodice when your hand brushes back his messy dark locks. "You really should go."
"Oh? Why's that?" he chuckles just a bit, looking up at you underneath those lidded eyes, black from his pupils being blown out.
"If you stay I'll put a fucking baby inside you, how do you think your law career will be then?" You suck in a breath, thighs pressing together, filthy images fill his mind - pumping so many loads of cum in your cunt you can't walk without them dripping down your legs. "Go."
Your answer is to sink to your knees, he barely holds himself back when your fingers undo his zipper. "I don't want a baby yet but you can certainly say you wanna, you can cum inside me."
"God," he's hissing when you pull out his cock, the tip already leaking all that white he wants inside you. He holds your hair in a ponytail when you're flicking your tongue on his tip. "I won't give you special treatment in class, but I will fill you with all the cum you want."
"Mmm," you take him in your mouth now, sucking and watching him with your pretty eyes, he tugs your hair into a better ponytail, watching as you glide your throat down him. You're touching your clit over your panties as he starts to get mean with it, desperately rutting his hips up, hardly able to keep quiet.
"F-fuck, your slutty throat is that good? Sweetheart," he's mumbling now, your drool is spilling down his balls, tight and heavy, your nose brushing that dark pubic hair as you gag and choke on it. "Touching yourself? No."
He yanks your fingers off, you pull back with a wet pop, lips dripping with saliva and pre. "I need to cum, please Sir."
"You're asking for it," he grumbles - every time you call him that more pre spurts from his red, swollen tip, sucking you off your fingers, you gasp at the action, just to get tugged up by your hair to stand. "Turn around and lift your skirt f'me, hmm?"
This isn't meticulous, exhausted law professor Hiromi, this is dominant, commanding Hiromi with his big cock leaking, you eagerly obey and he sighs, sinking to his knees as you tug that skirt over the curve of your ass. He buries his face against your cunt, panties on and all, soaking wet already.
"You're already this wet? From sucking me?" Your answer is a muffled whine, trying not to let the entire college know that Hiromi is about to bury that long nose inside your cunt. "Prop that leg up - atta girl, there you go. Good job."
"F-fuck," you're clinging to his desk when he tugs your panties to the side, tongue lapping a fat stripe from your clit to your ass, slipping down to fuck into your quivering hole.
God you taste good - he can't get enough of it, the slick coating his tongue and lips, dripping down his chin. He parts your swollen folds to look at it winking right at him, cunt just gushing arousal in clear little drips that leak down your thighs. He licks it up greedy as it spills, and you're arching, begging for him.
"Please, inside," you're barely able to form a word when he nudges your twitchy clit with his nose, his papers just fucking scattering as you start clinging to the desk. "Mnh, please!"
"Shh, I'll give it to you," he leans up, turning your face to his - he's a gentleman and he hasn't kissed you yet, that just won't do. "Open."
You eagerly do what he asks, cock slapping against your ass with a loud thwack, your tongue out, he spits your juices right on it, closing your mouth and urging you to swallow, tip nudging that messy cunt, pressing in, she's so wet she's soaking his cock, dripping down onto the polished hardwood underneath.
He sinks his cock deep inside your walls, your head falls back, ragged little breaths escaping as your tongues swirl all messy, one of his hands tugging your thigh up even higher, bottoming out in one stroke. You can hardly take just how girthy his cock is, the tip kissing your cute cervix as he lets you adjust for just a moment.
"Feel better than I even imagined," you blush now - how cute you blush with cock inside you, walls quivering around him, his spit down your throat, when the door knocks and you tense up Hiromi just slams inside you harder.
"Ah!"
"Shh darling," he covers your mouth with his hand, fucking inside of you deeper, the wet squelch just echoing in his office. "Yes?"
"I need to talk about class tomorrow," it's professor Nanami, as soon as he talks your cunt pulses, Hiromi gets unreasonably jealous, his other hand toying with your twitchy clit.
"You're getting that wet from him?" You shake your head, but Nanami talks again and you're soaking his cock as it shoves fully in, balls smacking as he moves, the wet sounds obscene. "I don't share."
"Hiromi?" Nanami asks, his lips are on your ear as he lets your mouth go and you bite on your lip.
"Want him to know you're getting bred by your professor, pretty girl?" You do in fact, filthy thoughts are racing of fucking both your professors, though Hiromi is pounding your cunt so good you don't think you could handle more, his finger roughly pressing patterns on your clit faster. "Go ahead, cum."
"C-can't, psycho," you glare and Hiromi just smirks all tired, wrapping an arm around you to drag your messy hole right down him. "Mnh!"
"Is everything all right in there?"
"It's fine Nanamin, I'm just... wanting a nap, you know? Can I come see you in a f-fuck..." You're clenching too tight, he almost can't take it, cunt milking him for all he's worth. "In a few?"
"Always fucking napping and shit," Nanami sighs and stomps off, just in time for Higuruma's curved cock head to nudge your spot, you spasm and gasp out, barely able to cover your mouth in time, cunt squirting all down your thighs as your orgasm hits.
"Oh fuck, and you're a messy little law student, huh?" He's fucking you harder, pressing your back down so you arch even more, his fingers slipping inside your mouth. "Squirting just for me?"
"Mhm," you're nodding, letting him pin you down, your face next to those law books as he fucks you through it and into another orgasm, Hiromi's pinning your wrists down behind your back, moving harder, until you can't see.
No amount of masturbation prepared him for your needy, messy hole, nor how pliant and eager you are, letting him use your body however he wants. He hovers over you, lips brushing your temple tenderly as he moves his hips so goddamn mean. "I'll w-watch Bridgerton with you if you let me fill your cunt up."
You barely manage a laugh, turning your head as he lifts it by your hair and kisses you. "All seasons?"
"God anything, j-just wanna fill her up so full," you nod and Hiromi busts as if on cue, his messy white ropes all puffy and sticky in your slick walls, he's moaning desperately not even trying to be quiet. "Fuckin' taking all of it, want your cunt bred by me, hmm?"
You didn't think Hiromi would be filthy.
You didn't think he'd spit in your mouth, tell you he was gonna breed you or finger his cum back inside you. And you absolutely didn't think he'd actually come watch Bridgerton with you in your little off campus apartment, but he does. Though you're cockwarming him and he's torturing you, not letting you move.
Maybe Hiromi Higuruma is just a little sadistic.
****
that episode has me unwell
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warnings: 18+ minors/ageless/blank blogs dni, smut, tamsy (the warning is tamsy), no manga spoilers but possibly manga vibe spoilers (if that makes sense?), tamsy is a freak, pretty graphic depictions of choking/fantasies about choking, noncon/dubcon, tamsy is jerking off on the reg to the mental image of you and your choker, tokushin being used as god intended, minor blood kink but only as it relates to possessiveness, mentioned human trafficking, tamsy is really out here trying to trigger a ptsd episode, submissive!reader, sadist!tamsy bc duh, manipulative!tamsy bc duh, yandere!tamsy bc duh
notes: tumblr didn't like my original title for this so I had to settle for this less good title and I'm sad. ofc my first fic in over a year was never going to be easy.
words: 4k
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Chokers are so universally worn on the ground that they hardly warrant a second glance. Some people try to turn them into a true accessory by attaching charms. Others wear them as bracelets rather than around their necks. But no matter how people dress up or style their chokers, thereâs nothing remarkable about them.
And yet, Tamsy finds himself unable to look away from yours. At first, he thinks itâs as simple as wanting to savor the sight of something wrapped around the elegant column of your throat. Heâs spent countless hours imagining itâs one of Tokushinâs ropes circling your neck instead of the communicator. Heâs spent just as many hours fisting his cock and imagining taking Tokushinâs rope once itâs around your neck and tightening it with his bare hands until your teary eyes roll back as you lose consciousness.Â
But for as much time as he spends fantasizing about your throat, his hands, and navy rope infused with Anima, he knows itâs something more than that.
So then, he thinks it's because he's the one who gave it to you when he found you, when he saved you, and recruited you for Team Eager. Just knowing that an object he gave you is constantly hanging around your neck, and that it carries his blood, is enough to make him hard â especially when he thinks about how your blood is imbued in the choker around his own neck.
He remembers that when he first cut his thumb to swipe his blood along your choker, it took monumental self-control to keep from shoving it past your closed lips and forcing you to drink his blood straight from the source â so that a piece of him would always be part of you. And when you hesitated to cut yourself for a brief moment, looking to him first for assurance, before nicking your finger and giving your blood to his choker, the urge to grab the digit and give it a harsh suck had been almost painful to suppress.
However, even his sick satisfaction with knowing that you never take off the choker, not even when sleeping or showering, isnât enough to explain what has him so obsessed with the ubiquitous device.
The answer finally comes to him one day, months after his perverse fixation began, when youâre sitting innocently across from him and heâs daydreaming about stringing you up in Tokushinâs net and fucking you from behind, your bonds only tightening with every brutal thrust of his cock into your dripping and abused cunt. Youâre complaining about the paperwork Semiu has been nagging you to complete, protesting that as a giver who rarely, if ever, sees combat, youâre ill-suited to filling out reports. You insist that it should be Team Eagerâs leader â giving Tamsy a pointed look â that should have to complete them.Â
Itâs as he gives you an indulgent smile and gently admonishes you â just enough affection and amusement in his voice to keep it from feeling like heâs lecturing you as he says that Semiu is just doing her job as the Cleanersâ receptionist â that he gets to the part in his fantasy where reality crashes down on him with all the strength of a trash beast.
Because in his head, he imagines slipping his fingers beneath the back of your choker and yanking on it hard enough to have your back arching in an unnatural angle, or as unnatural an angle as Tokushinâs iron restraints will allow. But then he realizes that youâre wearing your choker so tightly that he doubts his fingers would even fit between the thick cord and your fragile skin.Â
Where everyone else's chokers hang loosely around the base of their necks, roomy enough that they usually leave the hollow of the throat exposed, yours is snugly wrapped around the middle of your neck.
The revelation â because it truly is a revelation â goes straight to his cock, and heâs thankful for how the many layers of fabric that make up his baggy uniform, the table between you that hides his lap, and his unflappable nature all work in his favor.Â
In all of his many, many, many fantasies, never once has he imagined that having something tightly wound around your neck â whether itâs his hands, Tokushinâs ropes, his belt, his tie, the hose to his oxygen tank, a seatbelt in the backseat of one of the cars, even his own long, silky strands on more than one occasion â would actually be welcome.Â
Thereâs a small part of him thatâs disappointed. Your tears, your choked pleas for him to stop, your nails biting into the backs of his hands, your fingers frantically trying to yank whateverâs around your neck loose, your gulping gasps when he withdraws his cock from your throat that last only as long as it takes for him to constrict your air supply again, and the look of betrayal in your shining eyes as the light fades from them have always been integral to every fantasy.Â
But the disappointment is quick to pass because while you clearly prefer having your choker snug, he thinks that if you were ever forced to confront it, you would be left lost and confused about what it might say about you. After all, when he found you, when he saved you, the first thing that you had done was to beg with tear-filled eyes for him to break the constricting metal collar that your captors had welded shut around your neck.Â
So his fantasies begin to take a slightly different shape. Youâre still helpless beneath him. Youâre still desperately trying to loosen the grip on your throat. Youâre still crying and pleading and wasting what precious little breath you have to ask him why. But now thereâs an added layer.
Because now, when he dreams of you helpless beneath him, your pussy is dripping with the sticky strands of your arousal. Now, when you desperately try to loosen the grip on your throat, your pussy clenches down around his cock in time with every squeeze of his hands. Now, when youâre crying and pleading and wasting what precious little breath you have to ask him why, itâs not why are you doing this to me, Tamsy, but instead why do you like it when he does this to you.
He knows it might break you to realize that the symbol of your captivity, when your worth was measured only in a monetary amount, is the same thing that makes you wet. And he hopes for it.Â
Itâs easy to find you alone, wandering the halls of HQ late one night. Itâs no secret that youâve always kept odder hours. However, itâs not him who finds you but Tokushin, one of its threads silently trailing after you in the dark. The yarn is light enough that you donât notice it as it slides up your body, closer and closer to your neck.Â
You remain so clueless, even as the thread reaches your choker, that Tamsy feels like itâs his duty as a fellow Cleaner to caution you about being more aware of your surroundings. But for now, heâll reap the rewards of your ignorance as he uses Tokushin to pop open your choker and remove it from your person entirely.Â
He watches you from the other end of the hallway with a frown as you continue to walk away, Tokushin retreating towards him, the end of the string wrapped around your choker. You really should be paying better attention, even in the safety of HQ.Â
When it reaches him, he plucks your choker from Tokushinâs thread before it rewinds itself around the wooden spindle in his pocket. Anima drains from the object and it becomes a simple distaff once more.Â
The choker is warm between his fingers, still carrying your body heat after having been flush with your skin for so long, and Tamsy canât help but rub it slowly against his cheek with a contented sigh. He could spend the rest of the night just savoring the feel of your choker, but youâre about to enter the stairwell and he doesnât want to let you get too far.Â
He calls out your name and you come to an immediate stop, your foot hanging in midair above the first step down. You look back and when you see him walking towards you, you turn to face him fully, the curious frown on your lips quickly morphing into a cheerful smile.Â
âI didnât realize you were back already. I thought the job was gonna take another day or two,â you greet him. âDid everything go all right?â
He smiles in return with a nod and an affirmative hum, but your attention is quickly drawn away from the topic of his assignment to the choker twirling around his index finger. Your eyebrows knit together in confusion. You instinctively bring a hand up to your neck, only for shock to light up your features when you realize that itâs your choker that Tamsy is twirling around his finger.Â
âYou dropped this,â he needlessly points out, both the dark and your surprise providing him with enough cover to keep his gaze trained on your fingers as you rub the bare skin of your throat where your choker usually sits.Â
âYeah, I guess it got loose. Thanks for grabbing it. It would have been so annoying if someone else found it first,â you reply, your nose wrinkling at the thought. âIâd never hear the end of how Iâm constantly losing things.â
âItâs a good thing Iâm around,â he offers, his tone benign. He gestures for you to come closer and a rush of satisfaction courses through him when you close the gap between you without a second thought. You hold out your hand to take the device from him, but he shakes his head and leans down to meet you. âLet me.â
Your eyes briefly widen in surprise, before hesitation creeps into your demeanor. You slightly curl in on yourself and your hand drops from your throat as you begin to play with your fingers, a clear sign of your nervousness.Â
âA-are you sure?â you ask, suddenly extremely conscious of how little space there is between you.Â
âMhmm. This way I can make sure itâs on right,â he explains, entirely rational. Heâs already opening it and raising the band before you can protest any further.Â
Itâs a simple thing â all he has to do is loop it around your neck and snap it shut, maybe give it a gentle tug to ensure the clasp isnât faulty. But he didnât orchestrate this late-night run-in to be done with it all in a few quick seconds.Â
So, he leans even closer in and takes his time sliding the choker around the back of your neck. He skims his fingertips along your skin under the pretense of trying to guide the band to the exact spot where he knows you wear it. Youâve never had a very good poker face, and even if there werenât only a few inches separating you, he would never miss the shiver that runs up your spine at the sensation.Â
âYou know, Iâve noticed that you wear your choker a little tighter than most people,â he remarks absently as he fiddles with the ends.Â
He thinks if you werenât so thrown off by the unexpected turn your night has taken â or if you werenât so trusting of him â you might think it odd that someone with his skills in combat is taking so long to do whatâs essentially an everyday task.Â
âY-yeah, I guessâŠâ you murmur, clearly distracted by the way his thumb sweeps a small line right up the center of your throat. âI havenât really thought about it. It justâŠseems like thatâs how it should fit.â
When he brings his face just a little closer to your neck, he can feel each one of your exhales on his temple. Heâs sure youâre aware of it as well, considering how your breathing starts to quicken.Â
âItâs just a little surprising since you spent so long with something trapped around your neck,â he says. His tone is casual, like the observation just came to him and that he doesnât think much of it. His words are punctuated by a soft click! as he snaps the choker closed, and the noise combined with the abrupt mention of your past has you freezing. âAnd they kept it tight, didnât they? I can still see the scar here.â
âI d-donâtâŠitâs notâŠâ you stumble over your words, unnerved by the reminder of your time in captivity and the collar that you had been forced to wear for so long that it left a permanent ring etched into your skin.Â
You can faintly recall how self-conscious you used to be of the scar when you first joined the Cleaners, and how it was only the scar that took up almost half of Tamsyâs face that eventually eased your anxiety. Because, while you donât know the history of it, if he could wear a scar so prominently on his beautiful face without a care, then shouldnât you be able to as well?
âActually, I remember being surprised you took the choker to begin with. I thought Iâd have to convince you to at least wear it on your wrist,â he muses with a soft huff of laughter. He continues to fiddle with the clasp, tightening it so slowly that you donât even notice â like a frog jumping into warm water without realising the temperature is incrementally increasing.Â
Heâs so close that he doesnât only see you swallow, but the sound echoes in his ears. Your tongue peeks out as you lick your lips and he has to hold in his sigh of longing at the hint of pink, settling instead for relishing how your wet lips now shine in the moonlight filtering in through the windows.Â
What he wouldnât give to see you drooling around his cock, your spit messily trailing past your chin and down your throat to coat Tokushinâs fibers, your saliva becoming another cherished part of his Vital Instrument.Â
âY-you said it was important for me to wear it. That it connects us,â you finally reply, breathless from the position he has you in and the topic heâs brought up. He glances at you to see the slightly dazed way youâre staring at the ceiling, fully exposing your throat to him, too trusting to be aware of the danger he poses.Â
âThatâs right,â he hums pleasantly. âIt ties us together.â
With your gaze directed up and away from him, he allows his mask to slip for the briefest moment, his lips stretching into a wide, sadistic grin as he suddenly tightens your choker beyond how you normally wear it. Your reaction is instantaneous â you gasp, your body tenses, and your hand makes an aborted gesture to grab onto the front of his jacket, your senses half a second behind your reflexes, before it changes course and reaches up to the choker itself, only for him to bat your hand away.Â
âTamsy! Itâs too tight!â you protest, although it comes out as more of a wheeze, your chest rising and falling rapidly as panic begins to build. Heâs never heard you say his name with such anguish and it sounds so beautiful, like a perfect melody.
His posture straightens as stands back up to his full height, looming over you in the dark, and when he sees the mixture of confusion, fear, and alarm on your face, itâs almost enough to make him groan and shove you to your knees â all thatâs missing are streaks of his cum.Â
But itâs the desperation he sees in your eyes that will stay with him forever, the way youâre pleading with him because you know that heâs the only one who can provide you clemency. Itâll fuel every fantasy he has of you from that point on. Every time he imagines something wound around your throat or his cock pistoning in and out of your pussy or your knees forced wide open by Tokushinâs strings, itâll be with the same desperation coloring your expression.Â
He turns pitying as he looks down on you. Heâs released the choker â itâs tight enough that it stays in place without needing to be held â but his hands are still loosely hanging around your neck. He soothingly rubs small circles on your throat with his thumbs as he shushes you, like heâs trying to calm a spooked animal.
âShhhhh, youâre fine. Itâs just a little snug,â he consoles you, every word dripping with condescension as he makes light of your distress.Â
âTamsy,â you beg, helpless to what you believe is his uncharacteristic cruelty, but he just shakes his head and gives you a look of sympathy.Â
âI canât make it looser. It could just fall off again,â he explains, as if heâs telling a child why they need to take their foul-tasting medicine. He almost sounds pained, like it hurts him as much as the choker is hurting you. His thumbs havenât ceased moving along your throat and he softly gives you another shush. âYouâll get used to it.â
It looks like youâre about to protest and tell him again that itâs too tight.Â
âBe good for me and take it, okay?â he breathes into what little space remains between you, and heâs surprised he doesnât come on the spot with how quickly the fight drains from you at what appear to have been the magic words.Â
âThese chokers are the only way you and I can stay constantly connected,â he murmurs as he watches how your breathing begins to calm, your tension easing with each rub of his thumbs. âSo, you have to be good.â
You nod dumbly in his hold and he lets one of his thumbs trail just slightly down until itâs right above the center of your choker. He waits half a beat and then applies just enough pressure on the middle of your throat for it to be noticeable. He wonders if itâs going to set you off again, especially when your hand suddenly grabs his wrist, but rather than trying to push him away, you simply cling to him â like those pathetic little kittens hanging from branches in those lame motivational posters that turn up every so often in the trash.Â
While his expression remains sympathetic, as he takes in the way your lips have slightly parted, how your pupils have blown wide, and how your breathing is picking up again, only this time not from panic, he can hear the resounding cackle in his head as his internal self celebrates the realization of his fantasy. Â
He stays perfectly still, allowing himself another minute to savor the moment, before he loosens his hold on your neck, although he refrains from releasing you altogether. Instead, he returns to fiddling with the clasp of your choker, as if heâs checking one final time that itâs secure.
âNow, arenât you gonna say thank you?â he gently teases you. However, the small, playful smile that tugs at the corner of his lip is belied by the flash of something darker in his eyes.Â
It takes you a moment to come back to yourself. Your eyelashes flutter as you blink and your tongue makes a second appearance that evening when it darts out again to wet your lips.Â
âT-thank you, Tamsy,â you say in a broken whisper, and he internally scoffs in disbelief over how good his luck is that not only does he have his hands around your throat, but youâre actually thanking him for it.
âAnything for my favorite teammate,â he assures you with a smile so genial that it has his eyes turning into two crescents. He slowly lets go of you entirely. But as he drops his hands back to his sides, it doesnât escape him how your own hand is reluctant to release his wrist.Â
He takes a step back, putting a more appropriate amount of space between you, as the tense and heated aura hanging over you both slowly begins to dissipate. However, he can see how the awkwardness still continues to linger in your form, like youâre not sure whatâs just happened or how to act.
âYou really should get on a more regular sleeping schedule,â he gently chides, his tone laced with concern. âDonât I owe you a trip into town soon? How am I supposed to take you if youâre going to sleep just as the day is starting?â
The nagging seems to reestablish the sense of normalcy you were desperately scrambling for because your features scrunch together unattractively. He watches with hawklike eyes as your hand absently reaches up to instinctively adjust your choker before you realize what youâre doing and drop it.
âYouâre starting to sound like Delmon,â you grumble, your fingers toying with each other again to keep them busy, and he snorts with amusement. âFine. Iâm off to bed.â
You give him a half-hearted wave as you begin to head in the direction that you both came from. But just as you pass him, he says your name and loosely wraps his fingers around your wrist to stop you before you can make it much further. You look up at him curiously only to freeze, because while heâs still wearing the same smile that youâre so used to seeing from him, thereâs now something about it that unsettles you.Â
You donât know what it is or why you feel your skin breaking out in goosebumps, your hair standing on end. Thereâs nothing out of the ordinary about how heâs looking at you, but for some reason, you feel like youâre trapped in the threads of a spiderâs web. What confuses you even more is the unexpected urge you feel to squeeze your thighs together.
âYou look good with a collar,â he says, looking pointedly down at your choker.
Your mouth suddenly feels dry. Dread pools in your stomach. A small tremble appears in your fingers.Â
Not once have you ever thought of the choker you willingly wore â that keeps you connected to the people youâve come to care so dearly about â as anything similar to the collar that tore your skin and chained you to your captors. Â
But is he right in referring to it as just another collar? Youâre becoming increasingly aware of how tight the choker feels around your neck all over again.Â
âTamsyâŠâ you trail off, entirely helpless before him.Â
He simply smiles in return, as if his words hadnât sent you spiraling, and lifts a hand back up to your neck, his baggy sleeve sliding down his forearm as he does. He manages to squeeze the tip of his left pinky â the only one he still has â beneath the bandâs center, making you flinch harshly. With the finger heâs hooked around it, he gives it an unexpectedly harsh tug that has you tripping slightly towards him, before he releases you again. Your own hand comes up reflexively to rub your throat as you watch him with wide, teary eyes.
âAll thatâs missing is a little bell, so I always know where to find you,â he teases, but thereâs something slightly darker in his tone that makes you think for a second heâs not joking. You forcefully shake your head and tell yourself to forget it because this is Tamsy. âBe good and get some sleep, okay?â
You can only nod dumbly in response as he gives you one last smile before walking away towards the stairs, where he soon disappears from your sight. Youâre left alone in the dark and silent hall, confused, shaken, and with no one for company but the shame that creeps up on you as you notice how wet you are.
desc 18+
you found him broken in an alley and thought you were saving him. you didn't realize he was something hungry, and slowly deciding you belonged to him.
a/n req from @zyasia âĄ. thank you so much for being the first, i honestly love reqs because sometimes a girl gets brain fry and cant think of anything, but its just fun to see some interesting ideas and improving my works. i actually loved this idea so much and omgoshheje i fucking love tamsy with my whole being you dont understand hes so gorgeous. pls enjoyâŠ
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you find him collapsed in the shadows of the alley, half-hidden behind a dumpster, shoes scuffed, hair falling across his face in a way that almost hides it. at first you think he's hurt, maybe drunk, maybe worseâbut there's something about the way his body moves, even when still, that makes you pause. he doesn't look at you, doesn't flinch. he just tilts his head.
"hey," you murmur, voice low, careful, "you okay? want some help?"
he finally meets your eyes, and you swear something flickers thereâinterest, amusement, hungerâand it sends heat straight to your chest. he doesn't answer, just lets you crouch next to him, lifting his wrist to check for a pulse, brushing the dust off his pants.
you find yourself talking to him anyway, offering water, wrapping your jacket around his shoulders, feeding him scraps of your snack. he watches you while you move around, still, silent, and every glance lingers too long, every tilt of his head too deliberate. it's unnerving and thrilling.
he hums once when you brush your fingers over the cut on his cheek. low, soft, almost a purr, and your stomach flips. "you're gentle," he murmurs. "interesting."
you pause, looking at him. "i'm just⊠trying to help."
"help?" his lips curl into the faintest smirk, shadowed in the dim alley light. "hm. yes. your human instincts."
something about the way he says it makes your chest tighten. your hand hovers over his arm, and he lets you touch him, leans into it like it's exactly what he wanted. the subtle thrill of holding him, the heat radiating off him, the quiet dominance in the way he allows itâit all coils around you.
he finally sits up fully when you guide him to your apartment, still silent except for the faint sound of his breathing, and it's enough. enough to notice the tiny details about him: sharp nails, the way his jaw catches the light, the way his pupils dilate when he catches you staring. and slowly, inch by inch, you start to realize something's⊠different about him. not human different, not injured lost human different. dangerous different. alluring different.
you've been taking care of him for days nowâfeeding him, tending to the scratches you swore were nothing, making sure he's warm, letting him lean against you while he recovers. each small gesture, each quiet moment together, has built a tension you hadn't fully recognized until now. the way he waits for your attention, the way he studies you in silenceâit's becoming impossible to ignore.
you inch away from the couch and he leans against the armrest, eyes never leaving you, voice low and smooth. "don't wander too far. i like having you in my sight."
that's when it hitsâyou feel it in your chest, in the small hairs on your arms. the way he watches, every glance, every flicker of muscle, like he's memorizing you piece by piece. the heat radiating off him, quiet but insistent, makes your skin hum and pulse in a way you didn't expect.
your movements feel deliberate now, almost instinctive, every shift of your weight pulling him closer. every brush of your fingers along the couch, every tremble in your breath, makes him lean in, pressing his heat against you. the tip of his nose brushes your shoulder. his hands roamâgripping, kneading, dragging along the curve of your neck, the line of your jaw, the swell of your chest. you shiver under his touch, back arching, hips tilting into him without thought.
he murmurs your name over and over, low and wet against your ear, calling you his human as his lips trace shallow kisses down your neck, then biting just hard enough to make you gasp. his hands wander to your thighs, pressing, squeezing, moving you against him until every inch of you aches for more. you grind against him, chest flush, nipples brushing the fabric of his shirt, desperate for friction, for contact, for the way he dominates without words.
when he tips you back, presses you fully into the couch, skin sliding against skin, you're caught entirely but you don't pull away. you let him have you, let him teach you, let him mark you as something beyond just a human who cared for a lost stranger in an alley.
his mouth moves lower. his teeth graze your lower stomach, trailing kisses as his hands hold you steady. you gasp, hips tilting instinctively as his tongue brushes against your slit, teasing over your wetness, tasting you. your back arches as he moans softly, lips sucking, tongue pressing, fingers dragging along your thighs. you clutch his hair, tug him closer, moans slipping past your lips.
"so sweet," he growls, voice low and controlled. "you taste incredible, my human."
you're trembling, thighs quivering as he licks, sucks, teases. fingers curl into your hips, pressing you into him as your body reacts, every flick of his tongue sending shivers, every press of his lips drawing gasps from your throat.
he alternates between sucking and teasing, fingers brushing, tongue curling, every motion deliberate. you moan openly, hips rocking, hands gripping his shoulders.
he pulls back just long enough to line himself up, hips pressing against you, hard, teasing. your body writhes, desperate for more. he pushes inside slowly, letting you feel every inch before moving fully.
"there you are," he growls. "so perfect."
your back arches, chest pressed to his, every nerve on fire. his hands clutch your hips, controlling the rhythm. your moans grow louder, head tipped back, nails raking down his back.
he leans down, mouth brushing yours in a heated kiss, groaning over your lips, jaw, neck. you're trembling, completely lost.
"cum for me," he murmurs.
you do, almost immediately as if he was in complete control now. clenching, shivering, crying out into his neck as he presses, thrusts, holds you tight, milking every sound, every quiver. lips on your shoulder, voice harsh, needy, praising.
he's still inside you, thick and impossibly hot, every thrust slow and dragging out the tension until your body shakes. his hands grip your hips, thumb circling your clit.
"you feel exquisite, so warmâŠdon't make me stop," he says, teasing and commanding.
"yes⊠don't stopâŠ" you whisper.
he chuckles, thrusting deeper. "that's it⊠my good human. so perfect, trembling for me."
you moan, hips lifting instinctively, trying to ride him, and he presses you flat.
"you belong to me," he growls. "every sound, every shiver⊠i feel it all."
his hand cups your ass, pulling you flush against him. "don't fight it. scream if you need to⊠no one else hears it."
"pleaseâ keep goingâŠ" you gasp.
he smirks, teeth grazing lightly. "i'm far from done."
you arch, legs trembling, body wracked with pleasure. he presses harder, rolling his hips slowly. you cry out, hips jerking, every nerve on fire as he drags you up the edge again and again, whispering filthy praise into your ear.
"look at you, squeezing me⊠mine⊠all mine," he hisses. "cum for me⊠human, all over me."
and when you cum, it's not gentle. thighs clamp around him, body convulsing, chest heaving, voice raw. he doesn't pull away, grinding slow, deep, circling your clit as he whispers, "good girl⊠not done yet."
your vision flickers but he stays, moving again, dragging you into the next wave. moan after moan, gasp after gasp, breaking apart in multiple staggered climaxes. he hovers, lips brushing your jaw, murmuring, nipping, reminding you how tight and wet you are.
"don't fight it," he hisses. "finish again⊠i know you love it."
you cry out, arching, shaking, writhing under him, cumming again, muscles clenching, shivering, and he keeps going, hands pressing, lips claiming, voice low and steady.
finally, your body trembles uncontrollably, mind swimming, vision flickeringâbut he's still there. still inside. still moving. still claiming. whispering your name, "so good⊠so perfectâŠ"
your body goes limp, shivers fading⊠and you feel him continuing, deliberate, a low hum vibrating against your skin, keeping you tethered as consciousness slips.
when you wake, your body is warm. heavy. sore in the best way. your chest rises sharply as awareness comes back in pieces, he's still there, still inside. eyes glowing faintly, gaze fixed on you with possessive hunger. not moving fast. not rough. just slow. steady thrusts, like he never stopped. when your gaze finally focuses on him, his mouth curves.
"there you are," he says quietly.
his hips roll once, deeper, just enough to make you gasp.
"i was wondering how long you'd last."
his fingers slide along your jaw, down your throat, over your collarboneâpossessive.
"did i exhaust you," he asks softly, "or do you want me to keep going?"
and the way he says it makes it clearâhe absolutely will.
warnings  suggestive scenes , semi-established relationship , profanities , sexual tension , 3 scenarios
wordcount  1.5k / 1563 wc
a/n  finally wrote something for tamsyyy ! my sweet evil beloved angel >.<
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à«ź ††àŸàœČá : feedbacks and reblogs are much loved and appreciated ! thankyew !
You and Tamsy are quite known in the Cleaners as the âtroublemaker coupleâ. No, you arenât dating. You arenât exactly friends either. But who cares about those things ? They just make no sense ! Are the sentiments that you share with him every time you make excuses when people ask what you guys are.
When there are open commissions, itâs usually the two of you who are sent there as a team. Sometimes, accompanied by one or two other cleaners. But most of the time, itâs just you and him.
Shit always goes down whenever youâre left with him.
The client wants a clean finishâTamsy makes a mess. You complain. He talks back. You snap at him. You roll on an argument. A trash beast shows up. You two fight it. Still arguing though. But in the end, you get the job done, you manage to find a solution to the mess he made, a winâs a win. But youâre still mad at him. So, he ends up making it up to you by buying you your craving with a kiss on the cheek.
âKnew you couldnât resist me.â
âThe dumplings saved you. Donât be cocky.â
âI bought it.â
âDo I care ?â
âNo.â
âExactly.â
âYouâre lucky I think youâre hot.â
âBaby, I am hot.â
He only smirked. Lower lip caught between his teeth. Eyes nearly rolled to the back of his head as he crossed his leg over the other. Poorly concealing your effect on him whenever you talked back like that and knew exactly what to say. Fuck, heâs so aroused.
âTie me up ?â
âFuck no. Are you crazy ?â
Heâs not gonna beg, is he ?
âPlease, baby ?â
Ah, hell.
The Cleaners definitely think youâre dating. Youâre not. Semiu once asked whatâs up with you and Tamsy. You only shrugged and hummed. Said you were friends. Tamsy laughed, saying he doesnât need friends. And you certainly werenât one. This caused a negative reaction.
You scoffed. Turned around. Walked out with a loud slam of the door. Semiu watched with wide eyes and slowly turned to Tamsy.
âTamsy, you little bitch. You gonâ lose her if you keep actinâ up like that.â
âI donât need her.â
âUh-huh. Weâll see about thatâŠAnyway, Corvus called for you just now.â
That evening, you didnât come to his room like usual. You didnât call through your chokers. You didnât even leave a message. Whether it was you cursing him out or whatever, no nothing. He only looked at himself through the mirror of his vanity, long hair draping down like waterfallsâtalked to himself.
âSheâs gonna come back. She canât live without me. Iâm not the one that needs her.â
But nope, was he wrong. The next day, instead of going on a mission with him as usual, you went with Team Akuta. He saw how Enjin was all over you. Saw how you laughed at one of his stupid and flimsy jokes. Watched the way that you placed your hand on Enjinâs arm while you told him something. Glared at Enjinâs hand that dared to place itself on your lower back where his hand was supposed to be touching.
His blood was fucking boiling. But then again, he didnât need you. You needed him. Youâd come crawling back to him again soon.
Yeah, no. This shit went on for two whole fucking weeks and heâs losing his damn mind.
Knock, knock, knock !
The sound against the door of your bedroom disturbed your sleep. You scowled and ran your fingers through your disheveled hair. Your shirt was wrinkled and was hanging by your one shoulder. Your hair is a mess. And you probably looked like shit too. Who the hell is it and why the fuck is this bitch knocking at 2 in the morning ?
That question was immediately answered when you opened the door. Tamsy stood there. His long hair wasnât in its usual updo. He had bags under his eyes. That never fucking happens unless heâs going through shit. You raised an eyebrow. What the hell does he want ?
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you ?â
âIâm sorry.â
You blinked. Paused. Your spirit literally awoke. Did Tamsy just apologize ? To you ? At 2 in the morning while you looked like shit and he looked majestic despite the restlessness in his eyes ? Yep.
âI- what ?â You laughed breathily. This is unbelievable. In a really shocking way.
âIâm sorry. Do I have to spell it out for you ?â
âDonât give me that attitude.â
âYouâre acting deaf again. You know I hate being like this.â
âWhat ? Being a decent person who knows how to apologize ?â
âI thought you needed me.â
âYouâre a bitch.â
âIâm your bitch.â
âDamn right.â
You both smiled. You opened your arms and he fit right in. Face buried in your neck with his arms wrapped around you tightly. Your fingers ran through the silken locks of his long hair. He sighed in contentment before beginning to press light kisses against your neck and up to your jaw.
âLet me make it up to you ?â
âBe honest. This is what youâre actually after.â
âYou know me so well, darling.â
âFuck you.â
âYou don't have to tell me twice.â
The next morning, youâre paired up with Tamsy again. Semiu watches as youâre practically glued together. Or, his hands are all over you. Sheâs already tired of this PDA.
âTold ya.â Semiu smirked at him.
You raised an eyebrow. Tamsy only pulled you away to get that mission done and have you all to himself.
God, heâs so fucking smitten he canât even hide it anymore. And he doesnât bother hiding it. Especially in front of Enjin and all the other wannabes that ogle at you.
You were sent on a commission. A solo mission to be more exact. Corvus said you could handle it, you agreed. Tamsy obviously thought otherwise. Not because he thinks youâre weak. Hell no. But because he doesnât want you roaming around Ground all alone with all those dangerous people that could jump at you anytime.
Though youâd definitely knock them all out without needing his help.
âIâm coming with you. Who knows what youâll encounter out there ?â
âTamsy, Iâm a trained cleaner who can take down most members of our org. What the hell are you even worried about ?â
âIâm not worried about you. I donât like the idea of other people approaching you with malicious intentions. You need your angel with you, darling.â
âYouâre the embodiment of malicious intention, Tamsy. Donât fuck with me.â
âIs that a compliment ?â
You slammed the door at his face as you left your room. Vital instrument in hand. The others watched as you walked through the hall with Tamsy following you from behind. Theyâve never seen him like this. And itâs so hard to imagine him being like this. Itâs harder to believe that heâs being like this even though the image is right in front their eyes.
âWoah, is that really Tamsy ?â
âHeâs usually calm and collected. Now, he looks like a puppy.â
âThe effect of being obsessed."
Once you reached the front desk where Semiu was at, she looked up from the magazine that she was reading and raised an eyebrow at the sight of your exasperated expression and Tamsy tailing you like a freak. Which he is.
âYouâre not planning on coming with her, are you, Tamsy ?â Semiu asked and sat properly, crossing her arms over her chest
"I am."
âYou canât. Bossâ orders.â
âWho cares.â
âTamsy, I swear if you donât behave-â You groaned.
âMake me.â
You glared at him. He stared back. A sly grin on his face. The air between you turning thick.
âDonât do that shit in front of me. Go find a room or somethinâ.â Semiu rolled her eyes.
So, you did.
âYou are not coming with me. Thatâs final. Donât make me repeat myself.â
âAnd why should I listen to you ?â
âBecause I said so.â
The corner of his mouth lifted. He stepped closer. Successfully backing you up against the nearest wall. His head lowered as he gazed down at you. A sinister glint beneath his yellow-hued irises.
âI said, make me.â
You glared. Heâd been pestering you since last night. Your patience surely would have run out. You wouldnât have the energy to tell him off anymore and you wonât have a choice but to let him tag along. After all, you love him too much to leave him here just to follow Corvusâ orders.
But your response certainly made him falter and rethink his thoughts on you.
You pulled him by the collar. Soft lips crashed onto his. Tongue slipped into his mouth as his arm automatically snaked around your waist to pull you closer. Your back pressed against the wall as he kissed you back with the same fervor. But he successfully lost it when you bit down his lower lip to tug at it while looking right into his eyes. He swore he almost fucking came.
âYouâre staying right here and youâre gonna wait for me like a good boy.â
â...fuck.â
You ended up going on the mission alone. A victory against Tamsy. Meanwhile, he was left standing in his room with his fingers pressed against his bottom lip. Eyes darkened with an intensity that nobody can name. His breathing, low but ragged. His lips slowly formed a smile. Thoughts filled with you. And the realization dawned at him.
Heâs totally obsessed with you and heâs never letting you go.
Synopsis. Research on the Herwi clan of Pandora is both sparse and sacred. Current reports claim the existence of an icebound Naâvi residing in the bitter sub-zero mountains of Pandora: snow-white and unforgiving, as elusive as the fleeting snowflakes. Though physical evidence of these people are so far non-existent, and so are the eyewitnesses alive to tell the tale.Â
As a scientist on Pandora, you have only one goal: to prove the existence of the Herwi clan. As oloâeyktan of the Herwi clan, Gojo Satoru has only one goal: to make you his mate.
A/N. This oneâs to all the lovely babygirls whoâve been begging for this heheh, I lob you all <33
âSatoru of the snowâonce the ice disappears so shall your name.â One amongst the elder members of the Hunt sighs.
Gojo Satoru was a phantom figure before them. He led the wayâtowering and lithe. Long ivory hair dancing in the flurry. Bioluminescent freckles upon skin such a pale blue that it was practically white. Even amongst the Herwi, Gojo stood out.
Their oloâeyktan. Their leader.Â
He cuts a pathway through the wind and snow, carrying the carcasses of several snow beasts that heâd hunted himself. They rested upon his strong shoulders - the groupâs largest catch, as always - and Gojo was unyielding to the howl of Pandoraâs highest peaks. These mountains were a crown upon the young Naâviâs head.
The elder clicks his tongue, âDo you not believe it is time for this clan to see our oloâeyktan mated-â
âSo let the snow melt.â Had it been anyone but Gojo Satoru, then these words would be lost to the snowstorm. âBut I shall forever remain waiting for my mate.â
âBut the absence of a tsahĂŹk-â
âMawey- do slow down.â For not the first time since their trek started, Gojo is turning his head behind him. He might have been a firm leader, but he wasnât unfair. He watches the Herwi hunters that extend from his feet to far beyond hills of ice and frost - some middle-aged and weathered by the snow already, some fresh-faced and cold with the eagerness to prove themselves. Following them were six-legged canines they called txeylanâpowerful hinds pulling sleds piled high with hunt. âThe younger ones are having trouble keeping up.â
Gaping, the elder looks between his leader and the younger members near the middle of their group. Flanked by older Naâvi. âBut- but oloâeyktan-â
Heâs looking up at the irritated sky, âI will see no further talking.â
Though there is an easy smile across his face, the elders know not to cross him. Senior in ageâonly age.Â
They bowed their heads and looked away above all because he is their leader, but below that - deep, deeeeeep below what their prides would allow them to ever admit - because they knew he was stronger. The strongest.
The heir born of a blizzard, Satoru of the snow.Â
It was said he opened his eyes during the coldest night of that year. Ice-blue. Bitter blue. Like the pools of crystallized water that the Herwi people would dance their celebrations upon - and that night they held the longest celebrations to date. Arms in arms and singing songs. And giving thanks and giving the young his first taste of snow.Â
And though the position of oloâeyktan had an aspect of inheritance to it either way, it was undeniable that the world had just borne their future leader.
Heâd grown up taller than other Naâvi his age. Stronger. Stormy flurries wherever he stepped, and a blizzard himself.Â
There almost seemed to be a gap between him and everyone else.
Gojo had been sixteen when he was officially granted the mantle of âThe Strongestâ by the clan. It was only about time, and only because of the eldersâ reluctance that itâd taken this long.
And now it was impossible to say whether he was more loved or respected as a leader: the more boisterous of the younger Naâvi certainly loved him, the elders couldnât stand him, the ones of mating age just couldnât get enough of him. Though it was all for naught.
In all the twenty-eight years that heâd sifted through these snows - in all the ten years since heâd come of age - Gojo hadnât so much as looked at another with a degree of infatuation.
Not for a lack of propositions- in fact, if you asked his attendants then theyâd tell you that Gojo had a surplus of propositions. At least five Naâvi would stroll up the familiar pathway to his underground hut, calling out sing-song wishes to braid his hair, to walk amongst the ice glaciers together, to mend his fur clothes.Â
Hopefuls.Â
His attendants were ordered to send them all away with a gift from the oloâeyktan and a firm rejection (though, Gojo finds that that certainly didnât deter themâŠ)
They just didnât seem to understand why such a suitable young Naâvi seemed to be waitingâŠwatchingâŠfor something even he himself didnât seem to understand. Always turning his blue eyes to the skies, ever since he was a child, always, always-
Gojo stops in his tracks.
One of his arms raises to halt the procession behind him.Â
The Naâvi hunters freeze.
The Naâvi hunters let their tails swish.
The txeylan sniff the air.
Gojoâs long pointed ears twitch in every direction before resting in a single direction up ahead - where the belly of the snow seemed to swell with something. Something that the recent snowstorm had swallowed.
âOloâeyktanâŠâ One of the younger Herwi behind him whispers. âWhat is it?â
âMawey. It might be a dead snow beast.â He hisses, though he knew that wasnât right. It wasnât uncommon for even the creatures of these terrains to be bested by nature. But something about the figure in the snow wasâŠdifferent from the hounding things they hunted. Much more delicate, much more scrunched in on itself.
Gojo keeps his hand held high in the air and passes on his hunt to the nearby clansmen. Still holding onto his bow and arrows, he edges closer. âĂâawn- the clan stays here while I investigate.â Leaving no room for a word edgewise.
The wind whips his long hair and kuru as the Naâvi steps closer. And some maddened part of him almost feels that it was as though Eywa, their goddess, herself was trying to get him to stay away.
But an even madder part of him wanted to get closerâneeded to get closer.
He was being drawn in.
Making not even a single noise with his padded feet, heâs crouching down before the unmoving figure and using his long skeletal fingers to wipe away those dredges of snow.Â
Away from a faceâ
He gasps.
The rest of the Herwi startles behind him, âWhat is it- what is it, oloâeyktan?â
âIs it a snow beast? Must we commence the rituals-â
âCease! Are those fingers it has-â
âFive?â
But Gojo doesnât answer their queries, instead heâs silently pressing his ear to the swell of the bodyâs chest andâba-dump!
Listening to that faint heartbeat.
Heâs not sure how this little human was still alive, and he pulls back to look at them- the first heâs ever seen. Gojo has already heard the whispers from other Naâvi clans, of these aliens named mankind whom had settled upon Pandora a few years ago.
Heâs heard about humanityâs wits, their machinery, their greed.
Heâs heard of the way theyâve hurt his people.
But heâs never seen one up soâŠclose. Were they all this small? How could something so small be so destructive?
Gojo tilts his head down at you and runs one of his cold indexes down the side of your masked face, did they all look so hurt by the cold? He canât imagine that it didnât hurt- after all, the only reason that the Herwi had managed to reside in these mountains for hundreds of years was because of its harsh environment. Not human nor animal nor Naâvi wanted to be hereâbut Gojo always loved this place, as did his people.
He wondered whether it was such passionate love or hate that drew the little human in his arms to climb such peaks. To come this far.Â
He canât help but lean down and scoop the human up into his arms.
âO-oloâeyktan what is the meaning of this-â
âFnu- shhhh.â Gojo responds in his native language, âSheâs resting.â
The oloâeyktan carries the human all the way back the treacherous path to his clan huts.
And every time he looked down, he could see the way that smaller body fell and rose with each faint breath. He could see the flying of human-made coats that did nothing to fight off the cold of Pandora. He could see the pen and notebook stuffed inside it as if they were the most precious treasure of all.
He can see you.
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Day #1 in the Herwi village:Â
Woke up in what seems to be the healerâs hut, a wide insulated space that is more or less steeped into the underground with a berth of the entrance AS (above snow). Capped dome on top. Walls are composed of wooden planks on the interior flanked by compact ice from the outside, decorated in the thick furs of what appears to be snow beasts. Long book shelves. Kindling lantern of something bioluminescent and emitting heat. Shockingly warm inside. Vents are present but small to prevent an excess of thin air. Separate storage spaces and areas for examination, implications of advanced surgery and medical procedures taking place far beyond what we humans can understand.
Though Herwi healing techniques seem to be similar to that of other Naâvi clans (particularly the Omaticaya) in terms of relation to Eywa and natural resources, it must be noted that Herwi healing makes prominent use of ice for anti-inflammatory and vessel constricting methods.
Sparse presence of herbs and more emphasis on pressure points (for a copy of the Herwi circulatory system diagram see Page 8âŠ), though the oloâeyktan reassures that there are a multitude of flora endemic to the Pandoran heights.Â
The oloâeyktan seems particularly eager to give a tour?
With your eyes blinking openâŠyou think youâve died and gone onto whatever there was afterwards.
It wouldâve been just like you to meet your demise during the pursuit of your research- the higher-ups at your laboratory predicted the same thing. The last thing you remember before blacking out was feeling faint - weeks of hiking up this arduous peak and youâd run out of your provisions a few days ago, surviving on only melted ice to fill your belly. At least, until the sudden threat of a snowslide had resulted in you abandoning your tent and bags behind for escape.
From then on it had only been: you, your pen, your notebook with your research, your translator, and your burning passion to find the Herwi.
It was no surprise that you didnât last long.
But you suppose you just didnât expect the âafterwardsâ to be a blue, blue summer sky.Â
Ohâhow you missed the cloud-frothed ocean of blue down on Earth. It was never quite the same on Pandora, and youâre just beginning to wonder whether heaven was really home-
âYawne, txen?â
Before your muddled mind realizes that this really wasnât your sky after all.
What you were looking up into were the eyes of a Naâvi warrior.
Heâs leaning his overlarge body above yours, and youâre pressing yourself flatly against a mattressâone that was made of copious amounts of furs and the softest spun wool to make you feel as though you were floating up on the clouds.
But the farther youâre getting, the more he dwarfs you with his curious peering.
Closer.
And the only thing you can do is look up into his handsome blue face- the lightest of blues youâve ever seen.Â
Now, you have to start this off by saying that every single Naâvi youâve seen was beautifulâevery single one of them.Â
But you donât think youâve ever seen someone like him before: long white hair, blue eyes almost like a Metkayina, and glowing spots scattered like snowflakes across his cheeks. Heavy eyelids. Taller than your average Omaticaya. Perhaps a bit bulkier, as well.
If you tilted your head just past his looming figure then you could take in the tufted fur clothing he wore, slightly more coverage than of Naâvi from the more tropical areas; with patterns of rosettes peaking out wherever his skin was exposed and dotted like a fainter version of a snow leopardâs. From your own planet.
But you were not on your own planet.
Far from it.
Youâre realizing with a jolt that he was one of the Herwi clan-
âAre youâŠâ And though youâd dreamed and wished and hoped for this day for so longâright now you find yourself absolutely speechless. âAre you- fuck.â
To which he only beams- âNga lu rusey- oh, nga lu rusey.â His pearly white teeth are on full display, one little dimple crinkling at the edge of his smile. He just looks so handsome like this that you almost lose your breath- no. It must be the hypothermia thatâs getting to you. It must be. And if you didnât know any better then youâd have said that he almost sounds utterly relievedââOe'm lefpom. Txen? Lu nga txen? Tsal pung?â
Before he can say anything more, youâre digging in your coats- or at least attempting to. It doesnât take long for you to shuffle behind the thick blankets and realize that you werenât wearing those humanly thin layers you did when climbing up the mountain. Well-fitted for the Earthâs cold, but not for the harsh ever-winters of Pandora.
Instead you were wearingâŠa thick woolen coat?
Much too large on you- almost comically so. It had sleeves that reached a few feet past your fingertips, draped down to your toes, and enough space that you could hide at least five of you inside it.Â
No translator.
No pen. No notebook-
He sees this smaller figure fluttering about worriedly and tilts his head curiously, ââUpe lu nga fwew?â Before handing you your notebook and pen from a table behind him.
âPardon? Ah- thank you so muchâ!â You beam at him, and he beams back. But looking into his blue eyes once more, you feel a sudden sense of helplessness wash over you. âBut Iâm sorry, I still canât understand you.â
At this the Naâvi furrows his pale brows - youâre not quite sure whether he knew what you were saying, but he seemed to have picked up on your emotions. Nudging his large face against yours with a purring sound, âYawne? Oe'd tĂŹng aynga.â
And a part of you somewhat melts- âI said I really canât- hahah.â You half-heartedly try to push his incessant face away with a laugh, taking particular delight in noting how happily his tail was swishing. Fluffier with more fur than youâve observed on other types of Naâvi, also covered in pretty rosettes that swayed to and fro.
Itâs right now that you wished you had the patience to stay behind and immerse yourself more in the Naâvi language lessons your laboratory had provided. Most scientists didnât even go out into the field until they were experts - but you were too antsy, too greedy to know. Something seemed to have called you here whether it cost you your life.
Given youâd picked up on some phrases here and there, but it seems that the Herwi had a different accent from the clips played in those listening tests. Slightly softer, slightly more of a whisper.
Like the breath of winter, his words cooled your mask and heated up something entirely different inside of you. âOe pey ngim krr.â
Before you know it, the Naâvi clasps both your hands in hisâand youâre startled by just how large they are, just how cold. Youâre analyzing the way his pale fingers hold your own as if it was all that was tender in the world.
Intertwining.
âNgim krr.â He looks at you with those azure eyes seriously, opening up the palm of your right hand and touching his to yours. Palm against palm. Breath against breath. âNĂŹt'iluke.âÂ
You get the feeling that you were missing something very important- âIâm sorry I really wishâŠIâm so sorry to ask any more of you- I really am. But have you happened to see my translator anywhere?â
âTĂŹngaâprrnen?â He cocks his head in confusion, trying to mouth the word.
âErm- yes?â Hoping that he understood you, âMy translatorââ You emphasize the syllables- âItâs a little device to understand you-â
Youâre gesturing between the two of you- and you swear you see the light blue Naâvi pale. âTĂŹngaâprrnen? Oe?â
âYes?â You knew that âoeâ referred to oneself.
He balks- maybe you were getting through to him? âNga new ne kanom oe tĂŹngaâprrnen-â
âSkxawng.â
Before heâs suddenly cut off by a hard smack to the back of his head- and youâre looking up just in time to see another Herwi Naâvi enter the hut. The dimorphism between this particular strand of Naâvi wasnât anything too prominent, you find - both were tall, both were pale, both had long tails and rosettes scattered across their agile bodies.
The only real difference was that the one at your bedside was more rugged, with even more pure-white beads woven into his hair. Though that you could chalk up to their separate duties within the clan.
She walked inside as though she owned the place, throwing her long loose hair behind her shoulder. She doesnât even flinch as she shuts the other man upâas she brings out a black earpiece from behind her and hands it to you. âI believe this is yours. It was dropped in the rush outside.â
âO-oh!â Youâre surprised to find that it was none other than your translating device. Taking it gratefully, âThank you so so much.â
âDonât mention it.âÂ
At your baffled expression - as far as you knew, the Herwi were the last remaining uncontacted clan of Naâvi, with no knowledge of humankind nor their many languages. âI learned your language from my books-â Gesturing around her - you were right to assume that this was her hut, filled to the brim with ointments and books. Mostly of Naâvi origin, but you could spy a few in English and Japanese. â-sent by friends in the Omaticaya. I find your human stories areâŠquite amusing.â
âI see.â You breathe.
She gestures at herself, âIeri Shoko of the heart.â Then at the male Naâvi member, âGojo Satoru of the snow. I apologize for him, he is our oloâeyktan- also the one that found you.â
âSo youâre my saviour.â Youâre looking towards him- Gojo once more. He catches your eyes and looks away with a pale blue hue dusting his face. âIrayo nga.â Giving your thanks (one of the few phrases you could speak with complete confidence).Â
Youâre looking towards him- He shudders, âOe ke ronsem tsonta lu tĂŹngaâprrnen.â
As soon as heâs saying it, Shoko smacks her hand on her forehead- and you wonder what exactly he means.Â
So without further ado, youâre fixing the earpiece onto yourself.
âIdiot.â Shokoâs turning back to Gojo, âYou know thatâs not what she meant?â
Gojo crosses his arms and huffs- âIâm just saying I wouldnât mind if itâs for her-â
âNot even Eywa could make that happen.â
âGetting preg-â
âHello?â Testingâand if the way both Naâvi jerk their heads to you in slight surprise is anything to go by, then youâd say that the translator was working rather well. It was less an earpiece that translated and more a device to target that part of your brain that communicated and understood foreign languages.
Allowing you to both understand and speak in the dialect of the Naâvi - an invention by yours truly, of course. Youâd (as close as) perfected it just last year for this expedition. âCan you understand me?â
Gojo stares at you with wide blue eyes.
With his pretty lips parted.
With his tail swishing back and forth.
âI see y-â
âWe understand you.â Shoko nudges him roughly in the ribs, âI apologize if weâre a bit startled- itâs the first time weâre seeing a human in person.â
âI couldâve guessed that.â You giggle, flickering your eyes over to the starstrack Naâvi. Though you were equally as such. Somehow you speaking in his language just seemed to make himâŠâBut I want to emphasize that I come in peace- I just want to learn as a scientist, not even my laboratory knows exactly where I am. And I intend to keep it that way.â
Shoko crosses her arms and looks gravely at you, âWhat do you want?â
âTo learn. To research you and your people.â You look between them both, âTo confirm the existence of the Herwi clan has been a dream of mine for a long time- not for the papers or the accolades, but because I just wanted to know you.â
âAnd how can we trust you?â Shoko says, getting nudged by Gojo afterwards.
âI wonât reveal anything you donât want me to.â Determination dripping in your tone, âNot even if they kill me for it.â
They appraise you, and itâs silent for a beat before Shoko looks at Gojo.
And Gojo nods.
Shoko shoots you a barely-there smile, âWellâŠhuman, what do you want to know?â
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After you woke up, it was after a long talk and almost three or so hours later that youâd gotten up- Shoko and Gojo had both rushed to your side. Waving them off, youâd attempted to shrug off the coat and hand it back to Gojo - long since realizing that it was his - but heâd almost been offended by the gesture.
Refusing.Â
Heâd kept a hand behind on the small of your back to steady you with every step climbed towards the entrance. And once you were out- you could practically feel the storm freeze around you.
Colder than cold.
The Herwi looked at you with fear.
They stopped in their tracks and didnât even look to breathe until Gojo had followed right after. And standing beside him like that, youâd been made too aware of the drastic height difference between you two. The average Naâvi was about nine to ten feet tall, though by the look of it the Herwi of the snow were much larger than their oceanic counterpartsâslightly thicker, with limbs that were long and covered in sparse fur to protect them from the cold.
The Herwi average was about ten feet, youâre finding.
Though Gojo stood at a proud eleven feet (11â1 as you come to interrogate out of him more precisely later on) and rested his hand gently upon your shoulder. They had faint scars on them that marked him as a warrior, and you could feel the slight callouses send shivers across your coat-swathed body. His tail curled around your thigh.
You donât think you even came up to his stomach-
âMy peopleâŠâ He announced in booming Naâvi. â-as some of you may know from the hunt today, we have a guest.â
You shift at the stares.
âMore importantly, my guest. And we will make her feel welcome like family.â
âFamily?â The whispers came.
âBut she is one of the sky peopleâŠâ
âPart of the family isâŠbut if the oloâeyktan says soâŠâ
âIâve never seen him so casually touchy with someone before-â
âShhhhhhh!â
âI understand if you are scared, and to those who wish it- you are free to leave and never interact with her while she is here.â Though none of them do move. Fixated. âBut to those who arenât, I urge you to share the beauty of our culture.â
To which youâd gulped before introducing yourself as you had to Shoko and Gojo.
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Day #2 in the Herwi village:Â
The governing system of the Herwi is quite reminiscent to that of other clans - made up by a singular oloâeyktan or olo'eykte, accompanied by a tsahĂŹk (though Gojo assures proudly that he is not mated as of writing this), and a council of clan elders that act as an advisory board.
Most decisions are made solely by the wisdom of Gojo himself, though large choices require a vote from the council as well as his people. Such requisites are rare, however, as it seems the oloâeyktanâs impact extends to the non-council people in such a way that they trust him with everything. (For more on the lovely reception and the sheer popularity of Gojo Satoru see Page 11âŠ)
Governing seems to be harmonious if a little quietly tense in regards to certain elders that disagree yet are ultimately obeisant to their oloâeyktan.
This scientist in particular caused a little stir in the Herwi leadership once a research visit was proposed by the oloâeyktan to the rest of the elders. Though initial reactions had been reluctant, after a terse discussion, ultimately six moons had been granted to collect all appropriate research (due to be checked by the elders prior to leaving). No more. No less.
Six moons should be more than enough!
Shoko might have let it slip that it was Gojo who used his privilege as oloâeyktan to convince the councilâŠand he wasnât too happy that theyâd granted you merely six moons (five days if youâre counting the first night there) to stay here. He wanted to gawk at this new human more, you supposed.
But you were so very grateful to each and every one of them either way - even those wizened elders who scowled at you suspiciously wherever you passed. Though even glares seemed sweet when you were living your dream, hm? And it best be believed that you were taking advantage of every single second you had with the clan - every single second.
Because this was exactly what those cigar-smoking higher-ups had laughed at you for.Â
They thought you were chasing a myth.
The Herwi people had been so gracious as to offer you an empty hut, despite Gojoâs fervent insisting that you take his and he can simply tough it out in the cold outside-
And the next day you were up early- perhaps a little too early for the oloâeyktan whoâd apparently tracked your trail and followed you around for an hour. Before he finally managed to stop you in the middle of your field study - helping out a young Herwi mother take care of her crying toddler, whilst learning about Herwi childcare techniques - and raised his bag full of food.
Breakfast.
Youâre smacking your hand against your forehead as youâd completely forgotten - not quite out of the ordinary for when you got too immersed in your work. But it was different when you had someone seeking you out to take care of youâŠ
And so after sharing the abundance of breads and berries and soups (far too much for but the two of you) with the Herwi mother and child, the two of you sit outside her hut and admired the view of the village. The soft half-sun that melted across the capped peaks, a buttery layer of light that was not even half as bright as on Earth.
But somehow gentler.
Gojoâs raising one berry to his lips before- âAhâŠâ His mouth drops when he takes a glance at you- more accurately, at your masked self. And heâs stopping in his movements, âExcuse me for just a second, beloved.â
âOh? Of course.â
You watch as heâs standing up and sprinting light-fast towards the edge of a great steaming lake in the horizon. His figureâs crouching down and cupping his hands in the sparkling water, bubbling with fury. Gojo brings it up to his face and whispers a mantra that you couldnât quite determine. Not from where you were sitting.
Before carefully bringing it right up to you- âDrink, beloved.âÂ
He gently leans down to let his fingertips meet your mask.
And youâd had no optionâyou consider it for science, though a part of you knew you didnât have to linger your lips so much on his cold skin- but you lift your mask up and drink it.
Once the water floods your throat, you knew something was different.
Your lungs quiver.
Once.
Twice.
And youâd found yourself able to breatheâ
Breathing on Pandora.
âHow did youâŠâ As you gasp, Gojo reaches out and removes the mask off of you completely. Heâd let the earpiece stay on, of course, but lightly grazed his cold digits against the shell of your ear and made you shiver. âI donât even know what to say- thank you. I didnât even know this was possibleâno other Naâvi clan let alone a mere human has discovered a way to let us breathe normally on Pandora.â
âFor you. Lake Yapay.â Gojo says, large hand still cupping your face. âIt steams great billowing heat in the day, and freezes by night. Here in Herwi, we use its water to expand our lungs during snowstorms.â
And you want to write it down- you know you should, but the pen in your fingers wonât move. Or more accurately, your fingers wonât move.
He continues, âThis land is alive and works in mysterious ways. It has worked for you, beloved, as I knew it would.â
âThank you again, oloâeyktan.â
âSatoru.â He interjects.
âSatoru.â
He smiles as if it meant the world.
And so your feast commences.
âYou have to remember to eat.â Gojo says to you as he scoffs down a sweet paste made of ice-blue berries, âHow will you brave the winter storms otherwise? Of course, I will protect youâand yet still.â
âWell, I sure hope I survive six more nights for my research then, hm?â You joke.
But you hadnât expected Gojoâs face to darken, for him to shake his head. âItâs not fair.â
âPardon?â
âSix more nightsâŠâ And you hadnât exactly expected him to be soâŠinvested in your research - you admit that you would benefit more from a longer period of studying the Herwi, but you were ready to take what was given. He looks down at the glaring snow and whispersâmore to himself. âItâs not fair. I will correct it.â
âCorrect?â
âOh?â And you look from him to the village straight ahead, âWell, Iâd be happy either way, Satoru.â
Just then that little Naâvi youâd been helping to watch over before comes waddling and giggling out of the hut to hold onto you- and you pick her up readily.
Gojo took one look at the two of you and shivered.
Shivered.
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Day #3 in the Herwi village:Â
Hunts are an imperative part of the Herwi lifestyleânot only is it how the people are nourished, but itâs a social activity, itâs a coming-of-age activity.Â
As aforementioned, hunts are commenced and led by none other than the oloâeyktan. A large group of Herwi warriors shall trek across the icelands in one unit, and it was quite interesting to note that most of the younger hunters are positioned in the middle where they are less likely to get injured during such a trip.
It is in the middle of their hike that Gojo will alert when the group is to split up: Snow beast hunters and snow marine stilts. Divide and conquer seems to be the only strategy that somehow tames such an unforgiving environment, and Herwi marine-hunters seem to be picked from the most patient of warriors. They carve out a hole in the middle of frozen bodies of water (never Lake Yapay, this divine body is never harmed) and each positions themself atop a tall icicle beside it to escape prowling beasts and currents. Crouched and ledged atop one, the sheer core strength and balance is divine once they cast their lines and wait.
On the other side of things, we have the Herwi beast-hunters. Using a large variety of weapons, the most popular is noted to be the bow and arrow - used by the oloâeyktan himself. They stalk in the cold white billows of snow with not even a single shiver, they lay in wait for hours, they tire their prey out.
And nevertheless this scientist found todayâs hunt rather interestingâŠ
The third and fourth days had passed by in much the same fashion - except for the slight tweak in your routine that included opening your hut door and finding the oloâeyktan standing there every single morning.
Always with food, always with a smile, always with some interesting niveous flower for you to press into your notebook. Then afterwards the two of you would set out to help you interview the Herwi people of all ages and backgrounds, to take samples, to explore the natural fauna, to even join Gojo on one of his Hunts on the third day.Â
They admitted that they didnât focus on hunting as much as they normally did on that trek, too enamored with this strange little human that had showed up one day and had their oloâeyktan glued to her side.
You interviewed hunters and elders (well, the ones that didnât ignore you completely or were on the verge of cursing you out until they caught their leaderâs eye) until your mouth hurt. And Gojo had taken you into the best spot with natural Pandoran fauna, making you jot down notes until your fingers cramped.
Once the sun was beginning to set and the Naâvi were getting ready to head back to their village for the night, youâre taking the opportunity to interview some of the young hunters. Gojo was off in the distance making up for the slightly lowered hunt by ice-spearing more snow beasts. And you were more than happy not to distract him while he took care of his oloâeyktan duties- after all, the other hunters were nice. Never having seen a human before, theyâd been more than happy to answer your questions.
Ribbing each other, guffawing as they answered, placing their hands down on you and ruffling your head from above.
Almost as if you were a plaything- and you admit it was in the name of science, you didnât mind it too much until a particularly boisterous hunter about Gojoâs age had kept swatting at you no matter how many times you politely moved away. Until heâd caught you on the scruff of your coat and tried to lift you upâ
You hear the sound of bones breaking before you realize what it is.
Whipping your head behind you in an instant to see that Gojo was behind the other hunter and pulling his hand hard enough that you hear other Naâvi cry out.Â
He lets go of you, of course, and you watch with widened eyes as Gojo then bandages his fellow Naâviâs arm himself. Though you note that he doesnât apologize.
Gojo didnât leave your side for a single second after that.
That night after the dinner by the lake, Gojo walks you to your hut and sleeps outside in the bitter cold- no matter how much you tried to get him to take up the bed inside. Heâd insisted.
After mating, heâd said.
You wonder whether your translating device was malfunctioningâŠ
(See Page 26 on Herwi possessivenessâŠ).
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Day #4 in the Herwi village:Â
Beads.
A well-known part of Naâvi culture, one of the most recognizable, perhaps. The scientific community has written long and extensively on the importance of bead-sharing in the Omaticaya clan, however, this scientist shall be the first to detail the beauty of how this tradition extends to the Herwi clan.
According to the artisans of this village, beads arenât fashioned through molten stone or seeds or clayâgiven the availability of such in this environment. Rather, theyâre made with snow.
Never-melting snow.
Yes, the design of hona beads from snow is a practice unique to the Herwi clan. Broken off from the hardest icicles growing at a peak of Mt. Hoet said to touch the sky, not only is it a treacherous passage to get to those specialized bits of ice, but the process of making the beads finds itself just as arduous. These icicles are then welded into delicate beads and dipped into the waters of Lake Yapay at night, letting them soak and then carried to freeze at the highest peak once more.
This process is repeated until the beads are as hard as diamonds on Earth- perhaps even harder. Never-melting. Never-breaking. Never-forgetting. Though not too hard so that the Herwi will be unable to carve unique patterns and symbols special to themself. Rinse. Repeat.
Though the clear meaning of such is ambiguous, it is most certainly a way of showing appreciation - as one would have to love someone very much to do this, no?
It was on your fourth day amongst the Herwi clan that Gojo didnât show up with a beautiful flower or trinket from the terrain- instead, heâs bounding up to you with a string of beads and knotting it against the side of your face.
Pushing it back and taking you in with it.
Without a question.
âSatoru, did youâŠâ Youâre holding the line of beads up to the sunlight and watching the little patterns glimmer. They were slightly frosted and flurried like the smallest of snowglobes, âDid you make this for me?âÂ
And you swear they had the most intricate design of clouds on them, swirling and tumbling.
âOf course.â He smiles proudly. âUs Herwi are taught how to design our very own hona beads ever since we were children, and as Naâvi coming of age we walk up the path to make the first one for ourselvesâŠas adults we make one for our family orâŠâ Mates.
âAnd this- god, I need toâŠwrite about this but I canât even imagine how long this wouldâve taken.âÂ
âFour days.â Gojo cocks his head and looks down at you- and that brilliantly confident grin of his plasters across his face once more. âFor most it takes four years, but for you I did it in four days.â
âOh, theyâre just amazing.â You run a hand down the ice-cold globules, âThank you, Satoru.â
He holds your hand as he leads you out into the village.
Gojo tells you that night to wear those very beads to the clan dinner - once a week (at the very least) after a particularly successful Hunt, the Herwi people will get together for a massive feast. Youâd heard excited whispers about it from the public you surveyed, and it seems that the oloâeyktan had chosen tonight.
Night had begun to fall, and you were dragged playfully by some younger girls straight to the edge of this vast frozen lake. Past snow-capped huts that stuck out of an even more snow-capped ground like eager heads, and ice-jeweled trees and frozen rivers and pathways lit with bioluminescent algae trapped in lanterns of ice.
It was a world in frost.
Where Naâvi had gathered with their families, their friends, their foodâall in an array of tables that circled the crystallized body of water like a wedding ring.
Under the snowy night sky they communed.Â
âYou are wearing my- I mean your hona beads.â Gojo had beamed as he eventually caught up with you and guided you himself. He led you by hand again - even though you werenât exactly quite sure whyâŠat least it kept you from being toppled over by the other tall Herwi rushing to snag their own seats. âYou look beautiful with them, beloved.â
And you werenât quite sure what to say- though the bubbling pit at your stomach certainly wanted you to tell him something. Instead you divert the topic, âYou hunted today as well, yes? Is there anything here that you hunted?â
To which he looks at you with a rather cocky smile, âBeloved, I have hunted more than half of the feast tonight. Trust that you will enjoy it.â
And you might have joked about him being presumptuous- but you really did enjoy the feast.
Under a star-studded sky and glimmering lanterns that twinkled like the freckles upon Gojoâs face, he led you to the very head table that no other Naâvi dared touch. It was rather obvious that this one was meant for the oloâeyktan himself, but what was curious was when your seat had been placed right next to his.
Perks of being a special guest, you suppose?
Shoko was beside you and shot you an amused smile, before preening for another Herwi next to her with a scar that ran across her face and half-braided hair.Â
âUtahime.â Gojo had whispers in your ear, âShokoâs mate.âÂ
âAh- I see!â Pen quivering in your hand, youâre jotting down your observations in your notebook under the table. âPerfect. Iâm quite curious about the mating rituals of the Herwi, you see. Do you suppose Iâd be able to ask them some questions later on in the night?â
âDonât ask them questions- ask me.â Gojo huffs. Brows furrowing. Lower lip jutting into a pout.
He leans over and wraps his arm around the back of your chair. Squirming, âO-ohâŠbut youâre not mated yet, are you, Satoru?â
âNope!â
âRightâŠâ But then how could you ask him about mating if he wasnâtânevermind.
Because just then the group in charge of cooking for the clan had rounded the tables and begun placing their most savored delicacies on top of them. Meats upon vegetables upon berries that youâd seen growing naturally across the mountainside they lived on. It was steaming hot and everything that you could dream of.
Whether you didnât like meat, whether you didnât like vegetables- there was always something there for you.
Most of the richest dishes were allocated around the oloâeyktan and your single table, stuffing the surface to the brim until you had to squeeze next to Gojo for space. Of course, he didnât seem to mind. Perhaps too busy piling his place with the sweetest treacly milks and frozen desserts that he could reach.
After dinner came the dances.
It happened every night after the community dinner when everyone - full and satisfied by then - would start humming and chanting their ancient hymns. Echoing into the sleepy snow and the ever-young night, someone would pull out two snow beast-skin drums by then. Thumping away to the songs of the snow.Â
Children ran off and made snow-prints and snow-fights in the mountains of powder. Family members would begin drowsily feeding each other and insisting they eat more. Others traced their own hona beads and promised theyâd make ones for the one they love.
More would punch small holes through the frozen lake and bring the water up to their mouths, of which a sudden blow would make the water freeze and scatter out into the air in twinkling snowflakes. Emulating the stars themselves.
Snow-breathers.Â
Theyâd sing, theyâd sound, theyâd show off and thenâŠthe first mated couple would walk onto the middle of the frozen ice.
Then the second.
The third.
The fourth and the fifth and the sixth-
What a way to end the night, love warming the cold air and couples twirling around each other with their tails intertwined. Usually, youâd be content to clap and attempt to sing alongâ
But then Gojo stands up- and you almost believe he was ready to leave the table altogetherâŠuntil heâs reaching his hand out to you.
You.
And you look around in slight surprise- almost as if expecting someone to materialize right beside you and take Gojoâs hand instead. But the only thing youâre getting is Shokoâs approving nod from next to you, before she lets herself be dragged by Utahime onto the frozen lake.
And so youâd danced.
Rather an interesting sight considering the height difference, you admitâbut it was beautiful. Gojo scoops you up into his arms with one steadied underneath you, the other holds one of your hands in his.Â
So much larger. So much more powerful.
And yet so gentle.
He twirls you around to the music and you laugh at the wind stinging your face.
âSatoru, youâre going to drop meââ
âI should rather die than drop you.â
âBut- but what of the other Herwi that will be mistaken?â You ask then, already sensing the envious looks that were thrown your way.Â
âThere goes my dream of being tsahĂŹk, Iâm almost sure of it now-â
âBut I havenât been able to try my luck with the oloâeyktan yet-â
âOh shush, girl! You seriously think any of us had a chance?â
You look into his handsome face, eyes trained on you despite all the whispers and disturbance amongst his people. Only you. âYou wonât be able to find a mate this way.â
Something unreadable in his blue eyes, flickering with fire from the tables and something else entirely. âPerhaps I donât want one.â
âWell that would be entirely your decision.â You place your hands on his broad shoulders, flexing as they move you around with ease. âBut it seems in Herwi tradition, the oloâeyktan is wont to take a mate.â
He raises a white brow, âAnd who should you believe must be my mate then?â
You didnât quite know how to answer that.
Averting his eyes- and those of the Naâvi staring at you two. âW-well, Herwi has many fine women and men. Reykol is the best singer.â
âI do not want Reykol.â
âTĂŹtaron is a good hunter.â
He pulls you closer, âYes, she is a good hunter. But I am better, and I do not care for TĂŹtaron.â Reaching up one hand to brush away the snowflakes that had begun dusting your face, âI believe I have already been fated to. Even before I was born, I have already chosen.â
You swallow, âWho, Satoru?â
He only smiles.
âWho?â
But he does not answer, youâre twirled around once more and the moonlight catches your dangling beads.
âIs thatâŠâ
âSurely our leader isnât saying what we think he is saying-â
âBut look at him, he looks soâŠhappy.â
You turn your head to catch the fact that most of the Herwi were looking at you, whispering behind their hands. In hindsight, you think that perhaps it was not a coincidence that they ogled you - and particularly the hona beads that youâd been gifted. Not a coincidence at all.
You wore his signature because you were his.
And they all knew you were his.
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Day #5 in the Herwi village (the last day):Â
Leaving tomorrow, a perceptive scientist may notice that there is only one thing missing from this comprehensive research into the Herwi clan.
The source of Eywa.
As a deity to all Naâvi people, her influence seeps into the songs and prayers of even the highest terrains on Pandora. Into the healing. Into the well wishes. Into the belief system of a people so accepting and harmonious that their tree of Eywa does not need to be visibly present for her will to be carried out.
But as for where she resides hereâŠ
Your fifth and final day was less research and more saying your goodbyes to all the friends youâd made in the Herwi clan. Youâd be leaving first thing tomorrow, before the sun even rose, according to the sternest of the elders.Â
Gojo hadnât met you outside your hut that morning, and youâd idled away the time packing and repacking your bag of samples and books. Thrice, before you started to believe that he might not come after all.
But that was alright, ultimately believing that heâd show up later on in the day, you visited all the healers, the hunters, the dancers, and the chefs. The mother and toddler youâd grown close to on your first day here, and even a stray elder that had sought you out to bow goodbye.Â
All the young Naâvi and the old Naâvi.
All the Naâvi that had come to not fear you and the Naâvi that had found you endearing at first sight.
Theyâd warmed up to you since you first came here. They gave you gifts, each of them, and your heart ached as you thought of leaving.Â
Goodbyes were always painful - but perhaps one most of all. Gojo.
He still hadnât met you by the end of your route, and youâd circled the village about twice by the time you were done. He was nowhere to be seen.
It was almost as if heâd disappeared into thin air.
It was with a heavy pit in your stomach that you started to head back to your hutâyour last dinner with the Herwi people would be in a few hours. Afterwards, Gojo had previously arranged for you to be accompanied by some of the clanâs best warriors on your trek down.Â
You just thought thatâd include him.
Perhaps you could sleep it off until the final dinner- and you were shutting the door just behind youâŠ
Before sounds a hurried, hasty knockâ
You open the door to see the oloâeyktan of the Herwi tribe.
Panting. Covered in snow.
âMy apologies, I have spent the day clearing the pathway for us.â Gojo huffs out, leaning against your door frame with one hand. The other reaching out to youââCome with me, beloved?â
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The Herwi source of Eywa was inside an ice cave.
One that would get blocked when the goddess herself did not wish to be seen, one that Gojo had torn through layers of packed ice to burrow a pathway for the both of you. Heâd carried you all the way to the gaping mouth of blue ice and ghost snow.
Closing in on you like arms of rime beckoning you to the tree of Eywa. The Tree of Winter.
The cold embrace of a mother.
One you were still not quite sure whether you were allowed to seeâbut Gojo knew he wanted you to see. He saw you.Â
At the end of the cave was an ice column about eighty feet tall and naturally formulated to look like the winding branches of a tree. Dripping to the ground in phantom white snow, each one delicate and graduating from white to blue. There almost seemed to be a glowing aura about it.
Clear mirrors making up the treeâs vines. Honed tips of the icicles rising from Pandora and stabbing down towards it. The top of the tree reached where the cave roof was hollow, beaming a circle of light from the skies that donned Eywa in innocent pink.
You gasped at the white snowsprites that bounced off of the tree and onto your two bodies.Â
Where Gojo stand with his back straight, his meaty thighs spreadâpearly white teeth biting down to stop himself from fucking moaning at the feeling of your mouth sliding up nâ down his hot cock.
While you were standing.
You didnât even have to get on your knees.
His eleven foot figure loomed above you, one hand on the back of your head and the other pumpinâ his furious erection. Your maw slips down his puckered tip and he shivers- bucking ever-so-slightly and hitting the back of your throat dead-onâ
And yet he wasnât even fully bottomed out.
He wasnât even fully bottomed out.
The sudden realization makes you claw at the sides of his blue skin with a whine- direct vibrations that make the puckered tip lodged inside your mouth twitch. Heâs sploshing out even more syrupy pre like he couldnât stop it.
Heâs not even trying and itâs already so much, cascading like a waterfall down the front of your chin.
âNow- hah, now.â One of Gojoâs prolonged fingertips reaches out to smear away the slippery sheen across your face- at least, thatâs what you think heâs doing.
But instead youâre feeling him curve his rude digits between your lips and push those dewy droplets inside. Shovelling his cock just a little bit deeper, âSânot good to waste it, beloved. Open your mouth and take it all like a good girl, yes?â
âMmmpf-â A damn miracle that you could get out that much sound in the first place. Youâre pulling off to answer, and Gojo jerks his hips a lilâ to chase your damp mouth. âYouâre saying you want me to take it allâ?â
He shivers, leopard-like tail twitching. âYes.â
And right before your very eyes, you can see his shaft throb even bigger.Â
Harder.Â
The prettiest bluish-pink on his tip, one with a divot that leaks out a line of precum. Youâre following it with your dazed eyes- before the next thing youâre seeing is a close-up of it.
Gojo has his massive hand plastered to the back of your scalp and is pushinâ your head in, digging his dripping wet tip against the back of your throat. With a groan, the Naâvi pins you to him and hammers out a few sloppy thrusts of his cock.
Again and again.
Slurp after slurpâ
âGonna take it all- hah- my entire cock inside that pretty mouth, yes?â Heâs cocking his head to the side and asking down at you sweetly. And he might look all in control, but Gojoâs voice fucking breaks at the very end of his sentence.Â
Right in synchronization with the way you were dragginâ your sizzling tastebuds down the veiny sides of his erection. Just the cutest tongue that was eagerly lapping up everything he was givingââDoesnât matter if youâre a lilâ human, youâre gonna take the leaderâs biiiiig cock, arenât you?â
Removing yourself from his thickened tip with a wet pwah! âY-youâre really serious about the-â
âYes.âÂ
And heâd apologize for cutting you off later- hell, heâd grovel at your feet if he has to. But right now all Gojo can think of doing is holding onto the back of your head and strollinâ his thumb down the column of your throat. The oloâeyktan can feel that fat cylindrical intrusion where his cock was pumping in and out- and heâs sliding his fingertip dooooooown that bulge. âArenât you a scientist, beloved?â
âY-yes?â
âThen arenât you curious about just how far a human can take Naâvi cock?â
âWellâŠâ You blubber out, âI guess so-â
âThen consider it for your research.â With each syllable heâs cutting your breath off by thudding his cockhead against the roof of your mouth. âThen just fucking- haaaaahââ And youâre finding that the pre Naâvi cock exuded was actually rather sweet- almost like honeydew flooding up your mouth nâ being slid all round by the intrusion of his shaft. â-take it.â
âMmmpfângh.â Tears were streaming down your face by now, wetting your cheeks and making the Naâvi wipe them away with his thumb.
âDonât cryyyyyââ Heâs airily calling out, almost nothing like the level-headed Naâvi youâd met before. âBig girls donât cry. Donât worry- mâgonna give you all of my cock, beloved.â
âS-Satoru-â
But each of your broken yowls were being bullied back in with his bludgeoning wet tip, bruisinâ away its splitted end anywhere and everywhere.Â
He swabs into the tiniest nooks and crannies inside your mouth with his sheer size, leaving your knees utterly weak where you were still standing. Heâs holding your head up to his cock- âCâmon- feel.â
You peer up at him in confusion.
âFeel for your research.â Fluttering his long pale lashes down at you, a sultry smile spreads across his lips. âHow many loooong thick inches youâre being given. How many veins are filling ya up. How many times I hit the back of yer throat like this-â
A shuddering slam right where you were most tender. âPlease-â
âMâhelping you with your- fuck, research.â He chuckles down lecherously, âBy shutting that smart human mouth of yours up.â
âFuck-â
âFeel it- just feel.â
He thrusts so hard that his heavy ballsack smacks! against your chin, âFeel the way that lilâ mouth of yours can barely even take me. Feel how fat my balls are with cum just for you. Count them? Wanna calculate the girth?â Until it was stinging a permanent girth on your skin, rubbed raw with impact. âFeel the way I- ngh, bruuuise your throat nâ those sensual lips until anyone that talks to you knows Iâve been here.â Heâs babbling on stupidly by now, eyes falling more nâ more half-lidded by the minute. Heâs holding on tightly to your restless head and shoves- âFeel the way I fuck my mateââ
Gojo trails off as if shocking himself, and youâre snapping your teary eyes up to him with a muffled- âWhat?â
But you donât know whether itâs on cue, you donât know whether itâs the startle of being caught- but Gojoâs slamming his cocktip way past the back of your throat and cumming.
Oozing out hot dollops of cum that take over your pretty mouth.
Shaft throbbing furiously. Balls twitching like no other. He throws his head back and squelches straight down your throat, and you can feel the thickness of it plug up your voicebox.
So sweet.
So much.
And youâre not sure whether itâs a Naâvi thing or itâs a Gojo thing that heâs cumming so much in one go.
Loooooong miry stripes that trickle down the sides of your mouth- he leans down and pushes them back between your lips with one of his thumbs. Ivory sap constantly leaking down onto your tastebuds, he feels the heady slip nâ slide of his cock against those wads of cum. âFuh-fuckâŠâ
And then heâs not moving, merely clasping the back of your head and bringing you firmly up against his slender pelvis.Â
Your nose rubs against the tufts of white on his abs before you realize that heâd just bottomed-outâjust once, like heâd promised.Â
And it was enough to send you reeling, feeling the pushback of his swabbinâ tip. Pouring out even more heady liquid every time he was draaaaging down your velvety tongue.Â
The tip of your tastebuds flicks his sensitive slit just right and you can feel him pulse deep inside. âFeel me in there?â Gojoâs groaning from above. âFeel how much I ache for you. Feel the volume of my cum- are you counting it?â
âI-Iââ
But evidently your half-sob wasnât enough.
And the Naâvi is reaching down and pinching your nostrils together with his free hand. âAh ah- focus on your research, beloved.â
And youâre struggling uselessly against his mean action, to which Gojo watches with a predatory gaze at the way you huff nâ sputter. And he has the audacity to snicker-
âI really can throw you around like a ragdoll, huh?â
Itâs as if the realization had just struck him and heâs shuddering.Â
It almost feels like ages before heâs finally pulling away with a loud plop!
An excess of your cum was leaking out of your maw and threatening to drip onto the floor- âTch, this is a sacred place, my human.â Heâs rasping outâswipinâ up the frothed white cum as if he wasnât absolutely desecrating you. Pushing those clingy wads between your maw.
He then guides his honed tip to glide across your lips, gluing your lips shut with all his seed.
And Gojo canât help but admire you- peering up at him with his towering height. All covered in his syrupy slick and speechless, unable to talk even if your voicebox had been left intact.
He smiles, tail swishing happily to and fro. âMy human.â Gojo leans all the distance down to kiss you upon your sopping wet lips. âMy m- pretty human. My pretty humanâŠâ
But you donât have enough sense at the moment to ponder too long on his little slip-up before heâs bending down close with his hoarse mouth against the shell of your ear.
Making you feel so sensitive.
â-did ya get enough research yet?â
And then heâs good on his other promise: throwing you around like a ragdoll.
Before you know it, Gojoâs thundering down onto his knees upon the frozen floor - taking you right along with him. He grabs his fur coat from a little ways away and makes you rest down on top of it. With ease.
Back flat on the coat. Legs spread high in the air.
Twisted around the back of Gojoâs neck and locked in place-
âSatoru-â You look around the Tree of Winter that only seems to glow even brighter, the snowsprites buzzing. â-are you sure we should be doing this hâoh.â
Gojo doesnât say anything - he doesnât have to.
Heâs merely unhinging his jaw and letting his loooong pinkish tongue drip out. It was glossy with ravenous saliva, thick at the base, and curved at the tip. The end of it dripped tantalizingly with spittle- almost torturously.Â
Achingly needy.
There was an almost feline quality to it that made your thighs clench.
âN-nevermind.â
The only thing youâre managing to get out before Gojo had his tongue stuffed against your wet core and swabbinâ away until you saw whiteââM-mmmpf.â His mouth was just so large that he could engulf your pussylips with a single bite, honed canines grazing the outer edge of your cunt while he kisses inwards. âMy pretty mate- my tasty mate.â
Itâs almost as if he was pussydrunk already.
With just a single slurp of his curvaceous tongue glidinâ up and down your slit, Gojo has his blue eyes rolling to the back of his head and his hips bucking. Wildly. âWhy didnât Eywa tell me that youâd taste so good-â
âOh myââ Your back arches while his thickened fingertips come between your legs to pinch your puckered pussy into his mouth. Pushing you against him even more - greedy. âShit, it just feels so-â
Smack!
And without a single warning, Gojo has his roverinâ fingertips slamming down on your pussy. Straight on top of your slit where your clit was hidden, it sends shockwaves of both pain and pleasure up your spine.
Youâre gasping and staring down at him-
âNow now, no cursing- be good before Eywa, hm?â That damn hypocrite - and you could see it in that sultry smile of it. Gojo was getting off on the way youâd squirm your cunt restlessly against his face, sighing into the way he starts fucking your pussy once more. âOr else mânot gonna eat this pretty pussy of yours out, ya hear?â
You gape, âThatâs not fucking fair-â
Smack!
âWhat was that, beloved?â
âI saidââ
Smack!
Smack!
Smack!
Until Gojoâs leaving your pussy raw and needy, and even then he wasnât done with you- he has the audacity to purse his plump lips and spit. Spit. Letting the sharp strike of saliva make you shiverâ
âWhat was that?â He asks you in such a breathy tone, such a ruined tone. Gojo spoke like if you told him you needed him right now then he would simply shatter.Â
And you can only gulp at the state that he was in - youâve researched Naâvi during times of high pressure, during battles, during their coming-of-age ceremonies. But never had you met one that simply seemed soâŠferal. âI-Iâll be good, Satoru.â
He smiles like heâs been wanting to hear those exact words for years.
Fingertips jittering with excitement, he then reaches for your intertwined ankles with his tail.Â
Locking them in place, Gojo murmurs. âGoodâŠâ Before heâs getting ready to dive straight back into your sweetened cunt once more, âBecause you better not run-â
And you donât get to ask just what might constitute you running from his mouth. His tongue.
You donât get to ask just what it meant when he looked at you with that dark inkling of something carnal, as if he was about to devour you whole.
You donât get to ask anything, in fact, and whatever questions were already in your throat burst into a zillion pieces at the feeling of him pushing his tongue inside your hole. Properly.
Not lapping away coquettishly on your outer cunt, not slurpinâ up all your treacly juices.
Gojo had his tastebuds stuffed inside your entrance and was draaaaagging them all across every orifice inside of you. Thrusting his entire length in and out at a rapid pace, you could feel the edge of his chin hitting your base with every movement.
Inside and out.
Inside and out.
But the sheer speed of him wasnât even the bit makinâ you the most dizzy- see Gojoâs Naâvi tongue was something amazing. Something incredible.Â
Just so large and lavish that it was stretching your walls out like never before.
âP-please-â You donât think youâve ever felt anything like this- the way that Gojoâs textured tongue would mold against your walls, the way heâd pinpoint even the tiniest orifices with his flexible tip, the way heâd expand and contract his tongue purposefully. Until you saw white. BuckingââPlease it just feels so-â
âWhereâd ya think youâre going?â
And the slur in his voice makes you pause- âWh-whatâŠ?â
The last thing youâre managing to get out before Gojo tightens the rude grip of his fingertips on your pussylips. And the other one of his hands holds onto your waist to haul you back down onto his mouth- you hadnât even realized that youâd been edging away in sensitivity.Â
âDidnât I tell you not to run?â Spankinâ those rugged fingertips of his down on your clit once more. You get the feeling that Gojoâs meanly choosing your clit because he knew thatâd make you clench âround his tongue even more. âDonât run. Donât even move.â
âYouâre just so fucking- ngh, big and you expect me not to move?â You wail out in indignity.
âWell, who told you to fuck a Naâvi warrior?â Heâs countering, those half-lidded eyes of his twinkling with humor. âBetter yet- who told you to fuck the oloâeyktan-â
And you suppose you had no explanation for that.
Especially not even Gojo was pumping his thickened tongue into you so fast that any and all explanations in your throat start to dissolve. Instead being replaced by the most pathetic whines and groans as he keeps fucking your pussy greedily.
As though Gojo was a man parched.
Because your wettened pussy was more refreshing to him than the waters of the lake- and if he could, heâd have his head stuffed between your legs every second of the day. Simply slurpinâ up every dewy droplet that escaped out of you, Gojo catches even those tiniest of wads.
Slipping his looooong tongue insideâyouâre driven damn near mad once he slithers his length in and grazes your g-spot.
Hips bucking, eyes snapping open. âH-how did you even manage-â
âAh ahââ His familiar tut, and soon enough youâre glued back down onto his pretty mouth again. Gojo doesnât even need to try to ease you pliably back onto his face no matter how much you try to run- but oh, it was just so fun to watch your sultry surprise. The way you only got wetter when he manhandled you. âSo this is that cute lilâ g-spot human have, hm? I thought it was just something in Shokoâs anatomy textbooks.â
âYou- you read her textbooksâŠâ You ask.
âAll day and all night.â Gojo replies with a smirk, his ears twitching as he hears the quickening of your heartbeat. âOnly Eywa knows how much Iâve touched myself imagining this.â
âOhââ
It hits you like a flash of lightning- and so do the sudden swipes of Gojoâs tongue reaching your sweetest spots. Thud-thud-thud-thud heâs ricocheting against your bundle of nerves rapidly, making it echo like your own heartbeat in your ears. Thud-thud-thud-thudâ
âShit-â And suddenly you understand- you thought you understood before? But no, now you understand why Gojo had been telling you not to run away initially.
âDonât run.â He warns.
Because all youâre feeling are the large stripes heâs licking up your slick walls, and the only thing you can think of doing is bucking. Rutting. Reaching for his lips wildly- though your body moves torturously as if you didnât know whether you wanted more or to run awayââShit.âÂ
âDonât run.â
But how could you not run from it? How could you not even move when Gojo had your body teased nâ toyed with till absolutely no end?
He was hammerinâ his tongue against your g-spot furiouslyâand you were sure by now that he has the exact pattern of his tastebuds bruised right on that area. Shapinâ your velvety walls to his tongue, Gojo dives in just so animalistically.
And you canât help but buck. You canât help but arch your back. You canât help but reach your hand out and attempt to grab onto something- anything for dear life.Â
Again and again. âShiiiiit is it even allowed to feel this good-â
But the Naâvi leader merely stops your hands with his own, folding them neatly into his hair. Holding onto his clammy scalp- âAs Eywa wills it.â He smiles and your cuntâs just so sensitive by this point that you can feel the exact degree of curvature of his grin. âWhich reminds meâŠâ
And for your profanity youâre getting three more direct spanks, âShit-â
One more.
Before you feel him then twist his fingertips on your throbbing clit and pinch- âYa reeeeally canât be a good girl fâme, huh?â Gojo asks you with a smile, though there was a hint of something in his voice that reminded you why exactly he was the oloâeyktan of such a large clan. âLook at youââ
âSh-shit, that feels so-â But he isnât listening, and youâre fighting the heels of your feet against his broad back.Â
âLook at you.â Heâs tightening his tail on your ankles and dragging you back down. Heâs spitting down through clenched canines, every single word sending sparks up to your hazy brain. Barely even working by this point, surely. âSwearing. Squirming. Moaning like a slut and trying to escape- as your leader, I should punish you, beloved.â
âNo more pussy spankingââ You whine, âJust makes me so sensitiveâŠâ
âIâm not talking about pussy spanking, beloved.â To emphasize his point he gives just a light tap on your sensitive nub once more.
It leaves you shaking to wonder just what else he has in store for you- though you donât have to let your mind grapple in the dark for too long. Because in absolutely no time - just a few more vulgar thrusts of his tongue - youâre feeling the sudden plump intrusion of something slender at your hole.
It certainly couldnât have been his tongue, because you knew what that ridged texture felt like.Â
It certainly couldnât have been Gojoâs cock, because youâd tasted that and you knew he had a much larger circumference.Â
So that left only one optionâGojo had your pussylips spread apart and your entrance gulping up every inch of his fingers. They just looked so stark with their blue color disappearinâ into your hole, and Gojoâs increeeeedible length making you feel so full.Â
Two of them were all that were shovelled inside- and yet he was already stretching for your very cervix on his first thrust inside. He scours the spongy end of your pussy then slides back outâin and out, in and out, in and out.
Each time his knobbly joints push against your g-spot and left you crying-
âFeel my fingers inside you?â Gojo rasps ruthlessly, his mouth wrapped around your throbbing clit. Groaning at the way you grow even wetter- Naâvi senses were strong, and he could smell the impending orgasm on you. âFeel the way I reach for your- hah, womb all inside? Feel the way I can fuck a baby in you so easily?â
âYes-â You answer to them all, âYes yes yes yesââ
And before you can say anything more, his powerful tail hauls you down. Bashinâ in even deeper with his plush fingertips. âFeel the way Iâve found eeeevery cute spot of yours? Feel the way I know your pussy inside and out?â
âYes- fuck.â And you donât even care if youâre âpunishedâ any more for breaking Gojoâs stern rules. Gojo himself was slamming his knuckles red and raw against your cunt, fucking his humanâs tight pussy. âFuck, Iâm gonna-â
âFeel the way mâmaking you mineâ?â
âSatoru, mâgonna cum-â
âNote it down in your research.â
And then youâre exploding straight into your high - and you know itâs the best youâve ever had.
Your eyes fall shut and the only thing youâre seeing behind them is pure black with stars of white, pulsing against your bleary vision in time with the furious throbbing at your cunt. Little zaps of pleasure shoot all the way down to the tips of your toes every time heâs moving his maw across your core. Sharp. Sensitive. Heâs wedged between your legs and lappinâ up each pulse.
Sluuuuurpâ!
Long, aching drags of his tongue. Theyâre roverinâ over the most sensitive spot of your clit, meanwhile his fingers were glazed in slick nâ fucking you stupid already.
Gojo thrusts you through your high as if he was angry at you. As if he canât get enough. As if heâs losing his damn mind and you nâ your pussy are the only reasons why-
It takes you only a minute more for your wave of bliss to taper out, fully riding through it.Â
And then only another minute more for you go from fucked straight to overstimulated by a few more of his rovering thrusts. He swabs your g-spot once more and you think youâre bawling- âS-Satoru, Iâm already done-â
But he doesnât respond. He doesnât even seem to hear you.
In fact, you couldnât sworn that he was grabbing onto your right thigh with his free hand and keeping himself plastered even more into your cunt-
âSatoruâ!â Youâre calling out helplessly, âSatoru, Iâm already- ngh, done-â
âMhmmmm?â Muttering something wet underneath his breath, and you have to strain your ears to actually hear him. Breathy. Panting. âResearch- fuck! MoreâŠâ
âI canât even- oh.â It was almost dangerous just how potent he was with his mouth and fingers, and before long your thighs were starting to shake with sensitivity. Causing you to grab onto his scalp even tighter and-
âO-oh.â
And accidentally tug on the long braid of white hair thrown over his shoulderâhis kuru.
Did that manage toâŠ
Your breath hitches, and youâre reaching out to graze your fingers down his kuru once more-
âFuhâfuuuuck.â Gojo throws his head back in a voice that almost sounded like a whimper, his slick lips quivering. His skin covering in goosebumps. His erection throbbing from where you could spy him. His entire large body shakes with the zaps of hypersensitivity going down his spine, âD-donât think you know what youâre getting into, belovedâŠâ His murky breath clouds out in front of him.Â
âYou sure?â You challenge - what a privilege it was to see him break.
The oloâeyktan grits his teethâ-âIâm warning youâŠâ
But when were you ever one to listen to warnings?
Without thinking much of it, you tighten your hand âround his kuru and tugâ
And then heâs on you in a split-second.
Heâs not even moving- heâs grabbing onto your hips and bodily puuuulling you right back down till your cunt lips kiss his cock. Heâs pushing your legs up until your kneecaps hit your tits. Heâs hunching his entire body forwards and-
âSh-shit.â Your eyes widen, âSatoru, did you just-â
âYes.â
Just you teasing his kuru is enough to make Gojo spuuuurt out in creamy wads of cum once more, coating the outer part of your pussy in a thick layer. It feels hot and wet on top of you, streaming down to drench the coating. Before heâs swervinâ his swollen tip inside and fucking you-
No hesitation. No preparation.
Youâre getting what you deserved, and that was to be fucked like an absolute anima by the Naâvi.
âYou donât know what youâve done.â Heâs spitting- straight into your hotly opened mouth. Those sharp canines of Gojoâs nipping at your bottom lip, âYou donât know what youâve done- you donât know what youâve done-â
âShit, shiiiitâSatoru.â Moaning out his name like a broken record player. Heâs bullying out harsh semi-thrusts against your cunt that leave you scrambling for breath- just shovinâ his puckered tip inside, just tasting the inside of your pussy with his cockhead, just trying to fucking fit.
âSayinâ my name like that and you donât even fuckingââ Before Gojo feels your soppy walls clench tightly âround him, and his lips part a little before racing down and spitting on your cunt. âFucking fit.â
âYou say that like itâs so easy-â You sob out.Â
He was pistoning his hips into you ferally.
The only thing he was doing was stretchinâ out your cute hole a few times, just so big that youâre being push-push-pushed up the fur coat you were splayed out on-
A hand at your throat.
âDonât. Fucking. Run.â
And you donât have the chance to tell him that you werenât actually running and in fact it was just his roverinâ hips forcing you upwards- but before you could do that, Gojoâs already rendering you speechless with his cock.
Heâs grabbing an even tighter restraint of your neck.
Heâs manhandling your entire body down like heâs crazed.
Heâs juuuuuust barely managing to squeeze in a sultry inch of two of his massive length- the mere sensation of that in itself enough to send your mind bursting into a heap of stars. It was almost numbing on your lower half, to have this much of him fitted inside you.
Stuffed inside you.
Throbbing inside you.
And it seems that the only one more affected by that fact wasnât you - it was Gojo Satoru himself. Head falling into the crook of your neck. Tail flinching as it now wraps around your right thigh. Mouth parting with an agonized groan.
âFâfuck.â Heâs echoing out hollowly into your ear, âFuck, youâre so fuckingâŠtight.â
Gojo spits out the word as if it was the very reason the oloâeyktan was shattering right about now. And almost on cue, those sopping wet walls of yours clench âround his tip and makes the Naâvi yelpâ
âFuck, donât do that.â Heâs shuddering through his sloppy strokes, his split-ended tip filling you up with dewy precum. âFuck, donât do that unless you want to be taught what happens when you pull on the kuru of a Herwi like me, little scientist.â
âWhat happens?â You ask innocently.
âSâwhy Iâm telling you to fuckingâoh.â
Just a few more pulsating clenches of your cunt, and Gojo shivers as though heâs being held hostage by your wet walls.
He bears his canines and snarls at you in the way youâd seen Naâvi do when they want to signal, to intimidate, to mate.Â
But you stare up at the oloâeyktan of the Herwi clan with determination.
And heâs giving you one final probe-
âIâm going to get you fucking pregnant.â
He breathes out against the shell of your ear, almost like the last whisper of his sanity before Gojo stares into your wide heart-eyesâand heâs reeling his hips back to plunge.
Uncaring how unready your poor entrance was.
Uncaring how your tiny human body shakes underneath his larger one.
His fat cock swipes between your glittery folds and puuuuushes against the instinctual restraint of your hole, all the way until you start to tremble- and he knows he canât push any more. He knows he canât break you.
Heâs fighting back every sudden primal urge in him that just wants to fuck you all the way inside- and furiously pumps his solid inches back and forth. Back and forth. Back and forth. Keeping a hand always on the top of your stomach for when heâs feeling his hard globular tip push upwards.
Gojo was just so big that he could feel himself sinking in from the outside-
âAnd thatâs not a promise, beloved.â Gojoâs pale brows furrow as his cockhead starts swabbinâ even deeper after each thrust, âThatâs not a promise- thatâs not even a challenge-â
âTh-thenâ?â Heâs pushing doooown on your overstuffed core and you find it hard to breathe, both pressures from between your legs and from Gojo pushing on your cylindrical tummy bulge was justâŠ
The oloâeyktan grins when he watches his cute lilâ human struggle to take his entire cock, the bluish hue of it spreading apart your thighs. He reels his slender hips back in quite the long dragâbefore ultimately hammering- âItâs an oath. Before Eywa.â
A divine oath.
Added to the fact that Gojo was slamming his ruddied tip into you with each syllable- and you could never forget about the sheer size difference. The way that it helped him bend over you and fold you in half as though nothing but a lawnchairâyour ass was cleanly dangling off the floor with how much Gojo was bending you.
A mating press. The meanest one youâve ever seen.
Youâre hit with the sudden inclination that you werenât about to walk out of here any time soon.
And Gojo seems to be doing well on that fact- he hadnât completely bottomed-out yet, but he was still drilling into you with such fervour. Streaking his cum from before across every inch of you, a layer of white that you feel from the inside.
Feverish cocktip swabbinâ all the way at the back of your cervix, full balls smacking your cunt.
Every time he was hurtling his hips forwards, it almost felt as if the ground beneath you was trembling.Â
It almost felt as if he was hitting each of your geysering spots without even needing to try. Just so big that the veiny sides of his cock rubbed nâ dubbed up against those orifices unfairly.Â
It almost felt as if you were losing it-
âSo I think youâll have a loooot of fuckinâ research, beloved.â Gojo snickers, his tail flicking you playfully. And at this point youâre not even sure what the conversation was about, just knowing that it was the background music to the lecherous thwacking of his hips on yours.Â
So hard that you could feel the wads of his high from before glazing your insides. Dripping all the way near the rim of your cunt before being pumped back inside.
He pushes down on top of that bulge once more and watches you whine, âI almost donât want to, mmm, ask what itâll be aboutâŠâ
âOhhh, yâknowââ Gojo trails off airily, something shaky in the back of his tone that sends shivers up your spine. It makes you almost content to know that youâve gotten him so pussydrunken- but then again you werenât too far behind. He tilts his head to the side and looks at you through partially closed eyes, smiling. â-human-Naâvi babies.â
And itâs with that that Gojo finally - finally - drills his cock all the way to the hilt.
Bottoming out.
His breath catches at the realization.
Blue eyes widening. Mouth watering.
It feels so different to have your hot innards surrounding him entirely- and fuck, Gojo wasnât even sure whether a human like you would be able to take all of him. But it seems that you really were made for him, yes? Every curve and edge of you. Every bit of your cunt that he gives an experimental buck into, before pumping inside like a madman-
Pounding you into the smooth ground of the celestial temple.
It feels like youâre being thrust into heaven itself because of the way he was so big, big, bigâall the way from the purple-ish tip that was zig-zagging your walls, to the oversized tummy bulge he was fucking into you, to the way he had you folded. Manhandled.
Gojoâs only lasting a few strokes before heâs crushing you to him so hard that it almost hurts- âRight hereâright here.â The hand atop your stomach pushes down where his ruby-red tip was kissinâ and kissing at your womb. âYouâre gonna have a lot ta research about fucking- ngh, getting bred by the fucking oloâeyktan. A lot to research about carrying my next heir, yeah?â
âYesâŠâ Arching your back into him.
âAnd then hereââ That very hand now drifts down to the in-betweens of your pussylips and rubs his thumb over your clit. Heâs drawing little circles and hearts on top of your sensitive nub that makes you wrack with pleasure, âYer gonna have to research giving birth to such a biiiig baby, beloved.â
You shiver at the thought, mostly excitement.
And he purrs as he rubs his cheek against the sweaty crown of your head, âBut sâokaaaaay- Iâll help you through every step of it, beloved. My mate.â The Naâviâs staring down at you lovingly, fucking you filthily. âMâgonna breed you all full, okay? You might just have to research more about Naâvi phenotypes- heh.â
You can only nod. âPleaseâŠâ
And before you can dwell too long on that last particular wordâmateâheâs continuing. âAnd then you donât have to worry âbout a thing- I can take care of eeeeverything. Iâll wash our kid. Iâll dress our kid. Iâll feed our kid. Iâll do everything and anything just please-â
âY-yes?â Your voice cracks.
And he winks down at you almost mischievously, âLetâs do some research together on when Iâll be able to breed you all full of my cum next, hm?â
And with only a few more vicious thrusts, youâre feeling your second wave of pleasure tonight take over. You knew itâd been bubbling inside your veins for some time now- and right now it almost felt as if that euphoria was overflowing.
Overspilling.
Just like the gushing wads of slick that drivel over the front slit of your cunt and leave you so wet that you feel like a waterpark. Just rhythmic bursts of your high that leave your body loose and limp, shaking a bit every time that Gojoâs cockhead plummets inwards.
Head muddled.
Eyes rolling to the very back of your head.
This might just be the best orgasm of your entire life, and your wave of pleasure is looooong and drawn-out with how many times Gojo thrusts his cock in to fuck you through it. âShit, ToruââÂ
Again and again and again.
Each time hitting the target of your g-spot dead-on and watching as you gush around him even more.Â
You were at Gojoâs complete mercyâŠalmost.
Shaking. Your hands find themselves in his hair once more- or more precisely grazing the long length of his kuru. âSatoru.â Youâre breathing out as he shivers carnally, âSatoru, I want it- ngh, inside.â
His eyes widen, âDemanding something of the oloâeyktan, are you?â
âInside, Toru.â Desperate now.
To emphasize, youâre lightly tugging on his kuru and watching as it makes the Naâvi above you shudder. His cock pouring out heaps of precum that only act as a warning for somethingâŠmore. âF-fuck, better keep this all in until tomorrow-â
At the very least.
Youâre honestly not sure if you can keep it all in even nowâbecause then Gojoâs throwing his head back and cumming long and hard. Harder than he ever thinks he has before- his seed dribbles out of him like a gooey waterfall, taking place inside every nook and cranny you have.
Heavy balls clenching almost aggressively as they empty out inside you.
Heâs swervinâ each ounce of it inside by dragging his globular tip, that reddened cockhead making you swear you taste Gojo all the way at your throat.Â
Flooding.
Your toes curl, it almost feels as though heâs fucking you into a third and fourth high altogether-
âUntil tomorrow-â Gojo barks out through his smoky tone, âUntil always-â After reaching his high so many times in one night, his sparks of euphoria just rip through him. And you can feel the sheer intensity of it by the way his slippery slick thwacks! against the back of your pussy, hot and heavy. It seems to inflate you from the inside, âUntil we have ourâŠfuck.â
And itâs not like Gojo to let up a sentence. Especially one that wavered with emotion.
âUntil I haveâŠâ He starts again, blue eyes twinkling. ââŠyou.â
Right now he was cupping the side of your face with his left hand- accidentallyâŠor perhaps notâŠdslodging the translating device from your ear.
And then the Naâvi oloâeyktan leans with his forehead pressing down on top of yours.
Dragging his hand down the side of your head, where his beads for you twinkled in the glow of Eywaâs tree. Breathing out the wordsââOel ngati kameie, muntxa si.â
He looks at you with a slightly sad smile as if he was almost bitterly glad you didnât understand. Though little did he knowâŠâOel ngati kameie, Satoru.â
And the look on his face was worth all the time youâd spent poring over Naâvi language books with Shoko these past few days. At least you understood this.
You grin, âI did a bit of research myself.â
He holds you tight, he holds you as if he wanted you two to become one.
More so.
Eventuallyâafter about four or so more rounds, and once you were thoroughly shattered and kept on begging for it, Gojo had swiped his long kuru into his hand and raised it up to you. You yourself didnât have one, but if there was anything you learned from being with the Herwi peopleâitâs that love comes in all forms and differences.
You press your lips to his flower-like nerves at the very end of his braid. Immediately, a rush of something between you two and you understand what he meant about being mates.
You feel what Gojo sees.
You feel what Gojo smells.
You feel what Gojo hears.
You feel what Gojo tastes.
You feel what Gojo feels.
You feel complete.
.
.
.
Day #6 in the Herwi village (day after the mating):
The ancient of the Herwi clan were one of the only believers in fated mates, of one who had been destined to walk beside you upon this good planet through Eywaâs will. It was said that life does not flower until one meets oneâs fate, not even the skies shall migrate, not even the ice shall melt.Â
Two souls bound to meet.
And until then one can only look up, up, upâŠ
This scientist was found in quite the curious position as mate to the oloâeyktan on the morning after.
Re-entering the village, hand-in-hand, it was inevitable that the Herwi people would stare. Not only was it quite past the deadline of six moons given, but each bore resemblance of a mating session that couldâve been spotted a smile away.
Bite marks. Bruises. Slight falter in walking.
Not to mention that it seems word had spread about theâŠinoccupancy of the Tree of Winter just the night prior. (Additionally for more on Herwi stamina read Page 69âŠ)
Circling back, the stares were rather unabashed. Some gasping. Some ribbing. Some tuts by elders of the clan who then again turned around with a smile.
It was obvious that they had been praying for the oloâeyktanâs happiness for a long, long time.
It must be noted that congratulations were doled out heavily at the communal dinner that night. Food. Dances. Parades.
It must be noted even further that preparations for coronation at the Herwi tsahĂŹk shall be taking place in a weekâs time. Who would have thought, a human being a tsahĂŹk? Who would have thought that humans had fated mates as well?
For this scientistâs final note, preparations are already being planned meticulously for the arrival of a new heir to the Gojo name.
And that leaves the scientific community with one last thing, now that fluency in the Naâvi language is on the path to be attained: the glossary.
TsahĂŹk - Head shaman, high priest, interpreter..
Oloâeyktan - Male clan leader.
Mawey - Calm.
Txeylan - Best friend.
Ăâawn - Stay.
Fnu - Be quiet.
Txen - Awake.
Nga lu rusey- oh, nga lu rusey. - Youâre alive- oh, youâre alive.
Oe'm lefpom. Txen? Lu nga txen? Tsal pung? - Iâm happy. Awake? Youâre awake? Are you injured?
âUpe lu nga fwew? - What are you looking for?
Yawne? Oe'd tĂŹng aynga. - Beloved? Iâd give you anything.
Oe pey ngim krr. - Iâve been waiting a long time.
TĂŹngaâprrnen - Pregnant.
TĂŹngaâprrnen? Oe? - Pregnant? Me?
Nga new ne kanom oe tĂŹngaâprrnen. - You want to get me pregnant?
FĂŹ'u - This.
Irayo nga - Thank you.
Oe ke ronsem tsonta lu tĂŹngaâprrnen. - I wouldnât mind being pregnant.
Lake Yapay - Lake Steam.
Hona beads - Endearing.beads.
Mt. Hoet - Vast.
Kuru - Neural queue.
Oel ngati kameie, muntxa si. - I see you, my mate.
Oel ngati kameie, Satoru. - I see you, Satoru.
A/N. It must be acknowledged that Herwi culture was influenced by some aspects of Inuit culture, as well as some aspects of my own Sinhalese culture! Both such beautiful cultures that I was honored to research more in-depth on. Also this Na'vi vocabulary bank was used, and for longer Naâvi sentences this translator was used and might not be fully accurate ahhh-
Synopsis. Your duties as a nanny are simple: pick Itadori Yuji up from elementary school, bathe him, feed him his veggies, and take care of him until his hot blond dad gets home. It doesnât include something likeâŠspending Valentineâs Day with the overworked, overstressed, absolute DlLF Nanami Kento. Does it?
Does it?
A/N. BOO! SURPRISE VALENTINEâS DAY POST?! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABYGIRLS <33
Nanami canât help but sighââOne more meeting and Iâm quitting.â
Even though he knows he wouldnât.
Those boxed-in, white-collar jobs felt just as lukewarm to quit as they were to work. One learns to numb oneself to the constant drone and sputter of the office, the ceaseless fury of a microwave that wouldnât heat, and the wail of a printer printing listlessly furlong - too far behind its service date. So was there even a point?
That stupid screech followed him even out of the office: one could ignore the cracks and jolts of joints, but that doesnât actually stop the noise.
He feels a headache coming on.
But Nanami canât lie- the pay wasnât all too bad. Besides, the extra hours helped him pay for the nanny heâd recently hired for Yujiâspeaking of, he could hear you shuffling about inside.
His keyâs just reaching for the door before it swings wide open.
âWelcome homeâ!â
And Nanami Kento canât understand that strange, sweet flutter in his heart.
One of his hands jerks upwards- right to the pounding space above his heart. He knows he must look a bit of a sight right now - a grown man pawing at his chest - and part of him wonders whether this was all the all-nighters taking a toll on him. About time.
But another part of him wonders whether he should consult a cardiologist.
Also about time.
Because itâs been like this ever since he hired you - the vetting process for finding a nanny had been a long and tedious one. And Nanami had rejected (heâs sure) at least fifty different candidates, had been blocked by five different agencies, before he finally landed on you. Either theyâd been too strict, or too lenient, or too new, or simply not cut out to handle the benevolent whirlwind that was his adopted son.
The poor man had been on the verge of giving up.
In fact, he was two paragraphs into an email to HR whilst stress-eating a homemade Danish pastry and wondering whether buying his boss flowers would be overkill- when it happened. God, could this day get any worse? First his manager gives him a ton of work just before he clocked off, certainly not in his list of responsibilities, then heâd burned those damn Danish pastries, then one of the nannies heâd interviewed had nearly passed out at the sheer energy Yuji had.
Heâd been working more and more these days. And Nanami needed just a few more months - a few more nights putting in overtime before he could-
It was then that the doorbell had rang.
Ba-dump!Â
He opened the door tentatively, hoping that it wasnât yet another ambush by a salesperson - each with their bright plastic garbage, and their even brighter smiles. But what heâd been met with instead wasnât one of those visitors he dreadedâŠnot in the very least. It was youâ
And your explanation that you were here because of Shoko.
âErm- she told me that you were looking for a nanny?â You flashed your conversation with Nanamiâs clinical friend as proof. He flickered his gaze over to the screen but his eyes remained unreadingâhe remembers turning them back over to you.
Blinking at the vision of you.
And youâd slightly jolted at the intensity in them.
Digging through your pin-covered bag, âI also have my CV in hereâŠsomewhere.â He watched as you only grew more and more frustrated as that CV evaded you- âIt really should be somewhere- give me one second-â
âThatâs alri-â
But instead of your CV, your bag had poured out notes and pens in return. So much of it that Nanami marvelled at just how much fit inside that humble satchel. They dropped to the floor and you dived to pick them up, wincing. âIâm so- sorry-â
âLet me.â Crouching down in front of you, Nanamiâs much-larger hands had had no trouble scooping all those papers up. In an instant he had them aligned neatly and handed to you. Prim. Proper.
By the tie still âround his neck, you guessed heâd just come home from work - and little did you know heâd also just finished four failed interviews for the position of nanny - yet he didnât have a single blond hair out of line. They were slicked-back and handsome in a way youâd seen only in old movie stars. You thought you saw a few strands of silver.
Lines at the edges of his eyes. That tired strength about him.
It was hard to not ogle him.
Your fingertips brushed his rougher ones as you took the papers from him. âThank you.â
âItâs my pleasure.â The older man peered down at youâso intense that you could almost feel yourself sinking into the mediocre polyester carpet lining the apartment hallway. Neither of you made a move to get up. âI want to ask you about your availability.â
Youâd jumped slightly. âYouâŠyou actually want to hire me after that- I mean!â
âShould I not?â And what was this? Nanami Kento had to stifle a chuckle at that? How curiousâŠit mustâve been the work day getting to him at that point- yes. He was feeling a little delirious.
âI mean- please doâŠâ
Heâd looked away with a slight smile once you reached into the depths of your bag once more. This time, you didnât make it erupt in scribbled notes- instead you were pulling out a printed table that looked to be a time table. âSorry I just- printing makes it easier for me to rememberâŠsometimes.â You explained, âI donât have any lectures on Wednesday and Friday- and the ones I have on the rest of the weekdays are rather flexible soââ
A college student!
Nanamiâs jaw had dropped then.
He knew you looked young but-
A college student?!
âWait a minuteâŠâ One of his hands twitched, almost as if to beckon that time table to himself and make sure.
But then you nodded, âI first met Shoko-san during a medical conference she gave at the university, and she told me you worked late on weekdays. I should be free in the evenings then, but will you be working late on the weekends as well? Because I do have this one professor that really-â
Nanami didnât know how on Earth the topic of him wouldâve even cropped up in your conversations- but he needed to end this.
Now.
Listen. It wasnât that you seemed like a bad kid- you seemed great, even! But Nanami himself was well into his thirties with absolutely zero idea on balancing Yuji and his work life. So he really didnât want to burden someone over a decade younger than him with-
âPapa?â
The sweetest, sleepiest voice echoed from inside.
He doesnât even have to turn his head to know that Itadori was swaying, all decked-out in his Spiderman pajamas, at the end of the hallway. Likely having gotten out for water or because of the ruckus caused outside. He blinked his sluggish eyes open and ogled the two of you.
Nanami doesnât know why- but he shoots up to a stand. Almost as if he was caught doing something he wasnât supposed to.
You followed.
Which one of you three was the responsible parent here, by the way?
His parched mouth opened toâwhat? There was nothing to explain.Â
It was true that Nanami hadnât had the time to even stop and think about dating or relationships in the time since heâd adopted Yuji. Not even if he wanted to. And, admittedly, he did have dreams of getting married one day - he watched all those sappy TV shows, alright? He knew how it felt.
He wanted to walk beside someone to that shrine. He wanted to have a few more kids, to give Yuji a bigger family than this. He wanted to quit his dead-end job and move out with his family to a bigger house in the countryside.Â
But none of that was as important as his son right now.
However, he knew that Yuji saw all those happy couples during pick-up at the elementary school- and his boy was sweet. The sweetest, actually. Nanami knew that Yuji wouldnât say a single thing about him being the only exhausted father to arrive all alone. Day after day.
The two of them in their lonesome.
His sweet boy would beam the biggest smile nevertheless.Â
But kids were smarter than adults gave them credit for. Doesnât he feel that loneliness, too?Â
Perhaps that was why Yuji ran up to you in an instant.
Right past his haggard father and only towards you - all previous sleepiness now gone - he reached up towards the pretty stranger with the pretty pin-covered bag.
Stubby finger pointing up at a particularly red oneââDo you like Spwiderman, too?â
âOf course.â Leaning down, you smiled warmly at the boy. His hair was a rose-colored mess that stuck up at all odd angles. âAnd my spidey senses are telling me that a certain someone does, too?â
He gasped, âThatâs me!â
Before Nanami knows it, you were held hostage and dragged inside by a particularly overactive pink-haired boy. Shown all around the apartment as part of your tour to be shown-off Yujiâs prized Spiderman-themed bedroom.Â
And unbeknownst to him - against that lock-and-key and jaded guard - youâd walked into Nanami Kentoâs cozy Tokyo apartment (and the strange cavity in his chest that softened whenever you were around).
He sighed.
A college student!
Still, Nanami canât deny that itâs been a delight having you around.
Despite your packed schedule and your note-filled bag, you were always there to greet him when he came home. Without fail. Either tapping away at some assignment due before midnight, or humming to yourself as you wiped down the kitchen countersâlast minute fluffy pancake emergency, he thinks of those nights.
Even though itâd been about eight months since your initial meeting, itâs almost fearsome how easily heâd gotten used to the routine of it all.
Something that should be so mundane - he flips each moment through his mind over and over again until it felt like they made up the grooves of his brain itself. The gyri and the sulci. Or so heâd heard you muttering to yourself as you studied one night.Â
Heâs studied, too. Heâs memorized how youâd open the door for him, with a smile across your face and a finger to your lips- telling the older man to be quiet as he shook off his shoes. Heâs memorized how youâd never fail to tell him about the leftovers in the fridge as you reached for your satchel. Heâs memorized how youâd hesitate to meet his gaze- but smile the brightest once you do, and how youâd linger at the doorstep telling him about Yujiâs day.
Nanami has memorized how it made some dust-covered part of his heart stir. Blinking away the exhaustion of the day.Â
Nanami Kento has never felt more invigorated than he is during those sparse few minutes that he caught up with you at the end of the night. Voices low, like neither of you wanted to interrupt a sleeping thingâYuji, yes. But something else, too.
He gets the feeling that itâd feel like this even if you werenât around as a job. If perhaps the two of you had met- the same age, at the same university.
Maybe in-between the sluggish hours of study sessions where you help him with some particularly hard question. Maybe in the library where he helps you reach some dusty olâ book from the topmost shelf.
Times like this, he allows himself to dream.
Youâd make the best wife.
You were the best nanny he couldâve ever chosen.
But one always has to wake up to oneâs alarm. He sets his alarms himself.
âCome in.â Nanami tells you as he shrugs off his coat at the entrance. He watches as you stop in your tracks at the doorway, fiddling with your familiar pin-draped bag. âIâm just about to fire up some brownies for tomorrow.â
You pause.
âI-if itâs not too late and you donât have any classes early tomorrow or-â
âIâd skip all my classes for some of your brownies.â
He lets out a breath of relief as you start walking back from the doorway. âPlease donât.â
It takes a little less than half an hour for the brownies to bake until they are crisp on the top and perfectly gooey in the middle. Layers of chocolate that are only sweetened by the conversation that you brought into Nanami Kentoâs humble kitchen.Â
He listens as you talk about your day, about that professor thatâd been out to get you, about that exam you were sure youâd fail (he knows you wonât in the end). Only adding brief hums of affirmation and nods as the older man sweeps through his counters, broad back turned to you, muscles flexing against his office shirt as he whipped up a hot fudge as well as a strawberry sauce for you to add to your brownies.
ââand youâd never guess what Yuji told me today.â Tonight you seem a little more breathless than usual. Stuttering out your thank-yous as he brings out the tray from the oven and cuts out the first piece for you.
âBlow on it. Itâs hot.â Nanami leans over the other side of the kitchen island. He watches as your pretty lips fall into a soft circle, âWhat were you saying, my dear?â
âWell-â You dart your gaze around the rest of the empty apartment. âYou know how itâs Valentineâs Day tomorrow, Nanami-san?â
Nanami runs a hand through his silver-streaked hair. Smoothing it down. He knows how his son can be, and he has to bite back the grin that threatens to spread across his face. âMhm?â
âYuji here seems to think that- wellâŠâ Bringing a hand up to your lips, fingertips slightly shaking. The brownie was just amazing. âHe seems to think that Valentineâs Day is a bit like Christmas, you see. And so the entire day he wouldnât stop making a list for Cupid.â
Now that piques his interest particularly- Nanami was never a man to skimp out whenever his loved one wanted something. âOh, is that so? And what does he ask from this ah- Cupid?â
âThat is- I donât even know if this is appropriate for me to say butâŠâ Looking around one last time. âBut it seems Yuji is under the impression that we are together.â
âOh.â
âTogether together.â
âOh.â He canât help but inch just a little closer- a strange weight in his stomach. Not entirely unpleasant. âI see.â
Youâre mustering up a little more courage, âAnd it seems that what Yuji wants the most this Valentineâs isâŠfor us to get married. Spiderman-themed wedding, he says.â Watching as Nanamiâs eyes slightly widen. âB-but of course, I told him that that might not exactly be in erm- Cupidâs range of power! He kept insisting however-â
He looks at you silently as you rub your temples.
âBecause then he said a little brother or sister would be fine, tooâŠâ Was it time for the conversation about the birds and the bees already? Instead of storks, Yuji relies on Cupid?!
Nanami follows suit, running a hand through the silver streaks in his hair. âIs that so?â He sighs. âI shall have a little talk with him about askingâŠimmoderate requests of Cupid.â
âHeâs a sweet boy. Just a little confused.â You smile sheepishly. âThough I canât really blame him- my friends think weâre together, too.â
Just an inch closer. âI see.â
And Nanami feels your breathing go heavy- enveloped in the hint of his cologne, the sweetness of the brownies, the musk of something that was entirely him. âI-itâs silly, isnât itâŠâ
He stares at you intently, reading your every reaction. âQuite.â Pupils flickering down your face. Just another inch closerâyou wonder how much more space was left, and what you wanted to do with it. âIâm far too old for you, my dear.â
Your lips part-
The clock strikes eleven.
Both of you startle as if shocked with electricity- âI-I really should-â
âYes, I understand-â
âThe brownies were amazing-â
âPlease, take this.â He pushes a bag topped with that delicacy and more of whatever topping you liked into your hands.
âThank you so much.â You rush out breathlessly, other hand snatching your bag from the counter. âNight, Nanami-sanâ!â
âGoodnight, my dear.â
âAnd thank you for the brownies!â
The door shutsâwith a lingering creak and ebb of your smile behind it. And soon enough Nanami finds himself lumbering in the direction of Yujiâs bedroom.
Itâs not long before he stands before the parade of red and blue and masked superheroes: personnel stationed all to take care of the boy with a tuft of pink hair. His precious treasure. Nestled in the middle of his car-shaped bed.Â
A small bedside light traces a glow across his chubby cheeks.
As he does every night, Nanami walks up to the little boy and crouches down beside the bed. Forearms rested upon the soft mattress, face rested upon his forearms- it was always around this time that Yuji would stir and look up at his father.
âPapaâŠâ He sleepily mumbles. Rubbing his sleep-swollen eyes, âGone?â
âMhm.â Nanami nods. âLeft just now, sunshine.â
âAwww, manââ Yuji seems to deflate- but that only pushes him deeper into the puffy pillows. Making him yawn so wide that it makes the older man chuckle. âI really like her, papa.â
His father pauses before he answers. âI like her, too, Yuji.â
âNo, but- I really like her. You know, sheâs my best friend along with Kugisaki and Fushiguro and you-â
Nanami starts tickling the boy on his sides until he bursts into peels of laughter. âReally, huh?â
Through giggles, he nods. Before stretching his arms above his head and falling back onto the comfy bed- perhaps he was still dreaming. âWhy canât we keep her, papa?â
âWe canât just keep people, Yuji.â Nanami has to hide his own smile. He knows he should mention the thing about Cupid right now, but he just canât bring himself to do it. Maybe tomorrowâŠ
âYes, butâŠâ
âI know, I know.â Nanami pushes his face deeper into his strong forearms. Sometimes, he still felt much like a kid himself. âI get it.â
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The next morning, Yuji still wasnât giving up.
âPapa, itâs Valentineâs Day!â
Papa was about to burst a blood vessel.
Heâd chattered on and on about Valentineâs Day as Nanami shuffled him out of bed, heâd announced what chocolates were the best according to his very distinguished five-year-old palate as Nanami helped him brush his teethâheâd even turned his nose up at the heart-shaped scones that Nanami had made for breakfast.
âPapa, youâre gonna hafta make better hearts than this if you want to marry-â
âYuji, sunshine, weâre going to be late.âÂ
Nanami Kento was barely a match for his son. And itâs with something akin to relief - like the exhausted sigh of a stranded man, finally coming across the silhouette of a rescue boat in the bleak horizon - that he manages to hurry the boy into finishing his breakfast. Tugginâ on his Spiderman backpack, Nanami held Yujiâs hand as they exited the apartment.
Today wasnât even a school day.
It wasnât even a school day! And yet the teacher wanted all students in for a short assembly and some chocolate party in class. Nanami would be damned if he didnât let his son enjoy these small pleasures.Â
The elementary school that Yuji attended was only a short distance away from the apartment- usually theyâd just make the trip by foot. During those ten minutes itâd become routine for the little boy to jabber away about whatever came to his mind.
How unfortunate for Nanami Kento today that, today, all Yuji could think about was youâ
Not because Nanami wasnât doing much the same- but because he didnât like thinking of himself as doing much the same. Even though he knew. Query: if both father and son couldnât get you off their minds, then which one of the two was going to use it?
The older man shakes his head just a little as Yuji suggests a Spiderman wedding cake againâhe disagrees with both the cake andâŠthe wedding. Right?
But the boy catches the movement and pouts-
âWhy donât you want to tell her, papa?â
Theyâre stopping at a red light. Nanami didnât want to think about how those miniscule bulbs had been programmed to flicker in the shape of a heart today, instead of the usual pedestrian walking. What an apt metaphor for his life, no? Nanami Kento wanted to find something wrong in the traffic light - in the visibility, the practicality, the color - but he couldnât.Â
In fact, it was rather pretty.Â
The crossing threatened to bubble over with salarymen and salarywomen and groups of families each hoping to be the first, the fastest, to jump the road. He tugs both himself and Yuji more towards the back where they were well out of the way of whizzing cars. Is it just him or were there more wedding cars than usual today?
âTell her what? To marry me?â He absent-mindedly answers, âWhat did I say about no forced marriages, Yuji?â
âNo.â He lightly stomps his feet. Making the blond man look down- âI mean why donât you tell her that you like her, papa?â
And Nanami canât help but look around like a caught teenager. âYou- you canât just say those things, sunshine! What if sheâs heading to class and nearbyâŠâ
âBut you told me you did last night?â Yuji answers.
Which, fair. And it leaves Nanami slightly at a loss for words. âIâŠâ
âBut why canât you tell her?â The child nods sagely to himself, âSâlike when I broke Fushiguroâs red crayon- and I told him. Donât you always tell me not to lie, papa?â
âThatâsâŠtrue.â His father hesitates. âBut thatâs different from-â
âBut anyway- thatâs why I asked Cupid.â Yuji hums. Content. âYouâre a scwaredy-cat, papa, but I asked Cupid for you. Like Santa. And Santa always gives me what I ask for.â
One day, Nanami will consider telling him that Santa had to work a month overtime to get him that car bedâhappily however. But that dayâs not today. âOh?â
âYeah.â He looks up at his father with wide, innocent eyes. âAnd I also asked Cupid for a bwother- maybe this year I should ask Santa, too.â
âOh.â
âDo you think Cupid will make my wishes come true, papa?â
âIâmâŠafraid I canât be sure, sunshine.â
The light turns green.
And Nanamiâs the first to step out onto the road.
From here, even the crosswalk seemed to twist and turn into the shapes of hearts.
Along the rest of the way to his elementary school, Yuji tugs on Nanamiâs coat and asks him for his phoneââAlright, but no games before school, Yuji.â
âNot playing games!â
And he didnât think much of it.
Not until Nanami was on the subway heading to work, about to shoot a phone call to one of the contractors heâd be working with today- and he finds Shokoâs name in his call log.
Outgoing call â Shoko [8:01AM]
Lasted three minutes.
How strange. Nanami doesnât remember calling his friend at any point today - it mustâve been Yuji during his walk to school.Â
A mistake?
How strange, indeedâŠ
But to be quite honest, Nanami doesnât get the time to ponder upon this happening too deeply. The very second heâd considered clicking on that name himself and asking Shoko- the train had slid to a halt at his station.
Then came the chaos of the office: it seems that one of the interns had forgotten to fax a file yesterday. And Nanami had five angry clients on the phone before 9:00AM, one presentation to lead before 10:00AM, a few more angry clients just after the meeting, and a few more contracts to type up and edit before 12:00AM. Those utterly gaudy pink decorations hung about the room didnât do anything to help with his oncoming headache.
Everyone in the office knew not to wish him today.
By the time that the overworked man was free for lunch, it was close to 2:00PM. His joints pop as he stretches his arms above his head, flickering a look at the clock above.
It was almost time for Yuji to be let out. Nanami knew youâd be humming to yourself as you walked to his school - and if his son was there, heâd join in, too.
At risk of sounding like a creep, he admits that heâs often listened to the low drift of your voice as you walked out of his apartment. It would start up once he shut that door. And he often stood there - on the other end - until it disappeared. Along with the sound of your footsteps.
His house always seemed smaller then.
Shaking his head free of such thoughts, Nanami stands and walks out of his department, wondering what heâll have for lunch today. This usually wasnât a problem with him, but this morning heâd been rather a bitâŠfrazzled. So to say.
All those questions and ârequestsâ that Yuji had left him with just barely enough rationality to scrounge up something for the boy. As for himself, he was meandering through the busy streets of Tokyo - tarmac carpets flying by at a pace faster than he ever seemed to be able to. How was it possible for something inanimate to soar, to race, to live more than he did? Was it always built this way or was he one of the unlucky few?
He wonders which category youâd fall into.
That cheap ramen shop down the street wasnât too bad - their broth was so good that Nanami was almost able to ignore the sappy love songs crooned from their battered radio. They had a special deal going: 80% off for all couples on Valentineâs Day! All ribbons and glitter. All special pink desserts and lovers holding hands. All loveâŠlove and a happy elderly couple behind the counter - the owners, it seems.
It was quaint- cute. The type of place he thinks you might like.
As he was walking back to the office, it seemed as though the city was fit to brim with similar sentiments.Â
Flower shops bursting with bouquets like carnivorous sunsets, bleeding hearts and ruby-red roses. Candy shops with something sweet for every color of the rainbowâand more covert advertisements for moreâŠadult indulgences. Sex shops that Nanami had to speed-walk past because of how full and flush they were. Ripe with Valentineâs Day.
Nanami Kento might try to ignore what today is, but the world sure as hell wouldnât let him forget.
Once he finally runs back to his cubicle- he ducks his head and focuses his eyes solely on the computer screen. He hopes no one comments on the numerous glitzy bags beside him.
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âWhat the hell are you doing in my apartment?â
âYâknow- most people would sayââWow, itâs so nice to see you. Now I should totally stop brushing off your invites for drinks. Thank you for being such a kind and respectful and understanding friend, Ieri Shoko.ââ The woman in question stretches languorously on top of the couch, her test tube-patterned socks dangling from the other side. âAnd youâre welcome, by the way!â
Nanami raises one hand in front of him- almost as if to pause the scene entirely. He closes his eyesâwhen he opens them, he hopes that this had all been a bad dream and heâll wake up to his glaring computer screen.
He opens them.
Nope- still real.
âLet me rephrase- what the hell have you done to my apartment?â
Shoko gets off the couch and gestures at the apartment like a magician showing off a trick. âTa-da!â At all the yellow candles that cast miniature sunrises where they wept, at the music that crept sensually from some mysterious corner of the room, at the humble dining table that now looked like it came out of a Timesâ 10 Best Spots To Take Your Lover for Valentineâs Day.Â
Nanamiâs stern lips part as he takes in the silver-covered dishes on top, on top of some white clothâwas that his goddamn blanket?!
âOh câmon-â Shoko rolls her eyes. âDonât act so surprised, I see the bouquet in your hands. You obviously planned something of the sort.â
He forgot about that damn thing. Nearly dropping those flowers in his haste to hide it behind his broad back, though there was really no use - he simply couldnât stand Shokoâs laughing eyes any longer. âTh-this was for Yuji.â
âI see the smaller bouquet in the bag.â She points out. Almost empathetically, Shoko sighs. âYou really arenât slick, Kento.â
âThis isnât- this is justââ But the longer she smirks at him, the less he seems to have an answer. Soon enough, heâs bringing out that massive bouquet from behind him and letting his friend fawn over the thing.
âWow, sheâs really going to love this-â
âItâs called being nice, by the way!â Nanami answers, belatedly.
The look Shoko gives him is enough to make him click his mouth shut.
âI hope you know that I bought one to give you tomorrowâŠIâm throwing it out now.â Because no matter how much Nanami denied it, today was about love. Parental. Platonic. Even the love that he could never have. As Shoko rummages through the bag with an excited squeak, he drawls on. âWhere even is she, by the way? What have you done to her?â
âHm? Oh, Yuji called me this morning. Thank you for these, by the way.â Shoko stands with a beautiful yellow rose and purple zinnia bouquet in her arms. She sniffs at the sweet fragrance- âYuji called me asking whether he should leave out cookies for Cupid just like he does with Santa. It seems he wanted Cupid to bring us a wedding, and guess what? I wanted Cupid to bring us a wedding.â Her face breaks out into a smug smile - the one heâs only seen when she used to cheat through biochemistry exams without anyone ever knowing. âSo we called up your darling nanny and let her know that her scheduleâs changed for today- then Yuji and I did a little sprucing up in here.â
âSprucing upâŠâ
She turns around to admire her work, âHonestly, Kento, if I knew that you didnât have a romantic bone in your body then Iâd have dissected you-â
âPapa!â
Spared from hearing whatever gory plans that Shoko had for him by the excited yelp of his sonâNanami hears his footsteps before he sees him. He feels the impact before he sees him.
Yujiâs running down the hallway and launching himself at his father at full speed- âPapa, youâre home!â
âThat I am, sunshine.â Nanami smiles down at the boy. âHow was your day? I have something for you.â
âFor me?â Tufts of pink curls bobbing as he cocks his head, following his fatherâs movements as Nanami crouches down and reaches into one of the bags. Before breaking out into the most brilliant smile at the sight of the flowers. âWoah- theyâre so prettyâ! Thank you.â
Crushing the bouquet of pink carnations and hydrangea to his chest, he wraps his arms around Nanamiâs shoulders and hugs him.
âHappy Valentineâs Day, papa. Iâve got a gift for you, too-â Breaking away, Yujiâs throwing an arm out towards the room at large. âAuntie Shoko said this was how you bring Cupid! And we also tried to make those heart-shaped cupcakes you make, but it tasted like tar soâŠâ
âThatâs perfectly alright, Yuji.â He swipes at a smear of icing still on the boyâs face. âWe can learn together on my next day off, right?â
âRight!â Yuji jumps in excitement. âAnd after your wedding today-â
âYujiâŠâ
âAnd right on time.â Shokoâs voice permeates the room- right alongside the sharp fwip! of the window shutters closing. She turns away from the glass and pushes off from her station. âCâmon Yuji, now the plan is a-go! Go! Go!â
âAye-aye!â With a chubby hand raised in saluteâYuji wastes no time giving his father a final hug. âBye bye, papa.â
âWha-â Nanami looks at the harried duo in confusion. âWhat are you two-â
âAnd donât mess this up, Kento.â Shoko gives him a stern wave.Â
Before she clasps Yujiâs hand and helps the boy match her longer stride- the two of them speed-walk in the direction of the door.
âYeah- donât mess this up, papa!â
âUh, where are you taking my son?â Nanami stalks after them. Not letting the front door close behind them, he watches the two figures - bouquets and all - race down the hallway. How strange that they didnât take the usual route - instead opting for the one that would let them leave through the back entrance. âHello? Shoko-â
âDonât mess this up!â
He has half the mind to chase after them - itâs not that he doesnât trust Shoko with his son, but really, what on Earth could they be getting up to?! Especially so late past Yujiâs bedtime. At the very least, maybe he could run up to them and let Shoko know of his sonâs Spiderman ritual before eating and the tendency he has to bite fingers when-
âNanami-san?â
Your voice.
Was he dreaming?
And yetâNanami snaps his head towards the source of the noise so fast that it almost causes whiplash. He breathes your name out in a whisper.
So this is what Shoko meant about-
âAm I hallucinating or is that Shoko-san and Yuji running down the fire escape?â You point at something beyond his line of vision, though Nanami doesnât need to look to know that it is, in fact, Shoko and Yuji running down the fire escape.
âI think Iâm hallucinating, to be quite honest.â He mutters. Because surely there was no conceivable world in which he would see you like this - standing outside his door on Valentineâs Day, looking all gorgeous as you always did - and dare to bring out the bouquet that he had bought for you. Also was thatâŠwas that a bit of make-up youâd dabbed on? More so than usual?
His eyes linger on the glitter beside your eyes.
The thought that it mightâve been because itâs today - that it mightâve been because youâd been as nervous about seeing him today as he was about seeing you - makes him jolt. Heâd been smoothing his hair down the entire subway ride home thinking of you.
Thirty-something years and heâs acting like a teenager in puppy love.
Certainly no conceivable worldâŠ
And yetâŠhe does. He reaches behind him to bring out that prideful bouquet: 520 flower-heads that blushed themselves silly over not being even half as beautiful as you.
âFor you.â He croaks out. Awkwardly pushing up his glasses.Â
âOh.â Your jaw drops, and the bouquet weighs heavy in your hands. In nothing but a whisper- âItâs beautiful, Nanami-san.â
Red, red roses.
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Nanami explained the situation before he invited you inâŠsomewhat.
Certainly nothing about how badly heâd been teased because of this little scheme or the ah- confession of feelings. Heavens, no! Nanami himself wasnât entirely sure whether heâd go along with their planâŠ
As far as you knew, Shoko and Yuji thought itâd be a funny little prank to âinvite Cupidâ into his apartment this Valentineâs Day. Leaving the two of you alone in an apartment draped in candles and roses like the most deviant of mistresses.Â
And Nanami knew you knew. You knew that Nanami knew.
The implications were there for all to see.
It was there in the way his face burned red, and Nanami couldnât meet your eyes- âIâm aware of how it looks. And it seems that my son still holds the idea that ermâŠeither way, ahem, I completely understand if you would much rather go home. Please do know that this will not affect your job in any way whatsoever- in fact, I will cover your fee double tonight-â
âNanami-san.â Youâd interrupted him. Cocking your head with a slight smile, âMay I come in?â
From there heâd been the perfect gentleman - not that he wasnât usually. Even in the months since youâd worked for him, youâd come to find that Nanami was the type of man that opened doors for you, that pushed your chair for you, that covered your taxi fare home, that escorted you as far as he could by foot either way.
But nowâŠoh, right now he was putting any Prince Charming to shame.
He had his hand hoverinâ right above your waist- leading you inside to the romantic dinner table. Here, heâd pushed your chair for youâand before you could even thank him, Nanami had his hands helping you out of your coat.Â
He insisted on plating for you.
You couldnât help but gawk at the way his biceps pushed against his work button-up, flexing slightly as Nanami stood beside the table and neatly cut your bread - one heâd baked just this morning, according to him. Shoko had clearly rummaged through his kitchen wellâŠ
Conversation was somewhat breathless at first- the both of you waiting for the other to go first. The both of you anticipating every single word.
Wondering what every single word meant.
But after the first two courses - Shoko certainly hadnât burned these - the both of you were talking freely. Moving on from the more polite topics, like your day, his day, that were really a front for something more - speaking with Nanami was always so easy, he was the best listener youâve had in a whileâto dessert: strawberry shortcake cupcakes and a confession that slips from your lips.Â
âYâknow- this is the first Valentineâs Day Iâm spending like this.â You giggle, wiping off the cream that sticks to your lips. Nanami watches with half-lidded eyes as you devour the delicacy heâd baked this morning.
He swirls his half-empty wine glass. Certainly not enough to get the man tipsy - Nanami was quite the heavy drinker when he wanted to be - but enough to make him ask. âOh? Tell me more, my dear.â
The candlelight catches on the rim of his glasses, encasing his eyes in an intense glow. You think he looks even more handsome like this- âSorry. Itâs probably going to sound stupid to someone more experiencedâŠâ
âThere is nothing youâd say that would be stupid.â He pushes his glasses further up his sharp nose. Fingers crossing before him, he leans in. âContinue, my dear.â
âItâs just- I havenât had many serious relationships, is what.â You admit. And he looks at you so intently- âWith life and university, itâs hard to find the timeâif I was looking anyways, that is.â You sputter, before he can ask anything about whether the nanny job was cutting into your time. âThe selection in my department isnât great at all.â
âSoâŠâ Nanami runs the tip of his finger âround that glass cup. The thin rim. The gaping mouth. â-no lilâ boyfriend, then?â
âNo boyfriend.â You echo. And perhaps being drunk on the proximity is what makes you blurt out- âBut if I did have one, I think Iâd like someone olderââ
He quirks a brow in interest, âOlder?â
You nod. Crossing your arms in slight embarrassment, âBoys my age will ask you out and then go halfsies just because you donât want to go home with them.â
âMhmm.â Nanamiâs lip curls in distaste.
âI just want someone to like me for me- yâknow? Just to sit across from me like this and really talk to me for once.â
âHas no boy ever wined and dined you like this?â He asks.
âNo.â You admit, somewhat sheepishly.
âHas no boy ever bought you flowers?â
âNo.â You cast a look at the 520 roses - now housed in a large vase that Nanami had pulled out from one of his cabinets.
âNoâŠâ You breathe.
He inches forwards, forwards, forwardsâand wipes at a remnant of sweet, sweet cream on your lips. That roughened edge of Nanamiâs thumb grazes the edge of your mouth. âHas no boy ever been sweet to you like this?â He catches the look in your eyes. And his own lower. âHas no boy ever treated you like a man would, my dear?â
The older man doesnât hesitate in reaching his thumb back up to his mouth- and lickinâ off the cream. âHas no boy ever eaten you out like this?â
âNo-â
Your lips upon his are even sweeter than the cupcakes heâs baked- and heâs lavishinâ his tongue over your mouth gently. Opening you up so wideâ
And even that isnât enough.
Nanamiâs thumb finds permanent purchase at the end of your chin, letting his own sinful tongue slip inside. In and out. In and out. In and out.
Almost as if he was fucking you with it-
Youâre not sure how long Nanamiâs kissing you like this.Â
Maybe minutes. Maybe hours.
Youâve lost track of time- and the only thing you know is that your head feels dizzy. Your knees were growing weak in your seat. A slick line of spittle glides down the side of your mouth- and Nanami reaches a thumb up to smeeear it.
âMy dearâŠâ He murmurs, his deep baritone taking on a husky tone. Hot breath fans across your face, heating you up from the inside out.
Youâre raising your face to meet his molten gaze- and it almost shocked you just how handsome Nanami Kento is. Noble features chiselled in the soft candlelight. His mouth slightly kiss-swollen. Blond hair unravelling from his usual neat style nâ cascading across his forehead.Â
He reaches closer to you and siiinks his teeth into your lower lip, âHave you ever been kissed like that- here before?â
You squirm. Shaking your head-
But he tugs on your pretty maw. âTell me in words, honey.â
Gulping as one of his rugged hands snakes down your middle. A carnal jolt echoes through your body once Nanami presses the edge of his palm between your skirt- your legs. âIâŠâ You think of all the disappointing dates youâve been on before, of all the disappointing hands in places almost forgettable. âNot like that, Nanami-san.â
âNow nowâwhen we fuck, call me Kento.â He mutters, finally making his way âround the table. Before you know it, heâs looming over you- and two of his strong hands rest underneath your legs. âUpsy daisy.âÂ
Heâs lifting you uuuuuup, up, up to splay out across the dinner table.
Lifting you like you weighed nothing.
Pushing aside first and foremost those plates and flowers- youâre being rolled with your back against the tabletop, and Nanamiâs honed hips pinning you down. A dimly-lit halo of light behind his golden hair. He wastes no time before throwing both legs of yours on top of his shoulders- âMâgonna teach you how a real man eats pussy.â
You nod-
âFirst lesson. Big girls use their words.âÂ
And your jaw dropsâ
âK-Kentoââ
Youâre not sure whether the primal noise escapes you because of his words, his tone, or because of the utterly desperate way that Nanami Kento falls to his knees. Thud!
Loud enough that it should hurt- but you donât think it even registers in Nanamiâs frenzied brain right now.Â
Not when he was pushing up that damn sinful skirt of yours- extra tight tonight. Nanami wasnât a fool - he knew what you were doing. Not when he was starinâ deeply at your pussy, all wet through your panties and throbbing so hard he could practically see it.
Count it.
One-two-three.Â
Not when he was worshipping you as close as a man possibly couldââNot quite the answer I was looking for.â Then the next thing youâre hearing is a sudden thwack! The next thing youâre feeling are the five pointed tips of Nanamiâs thick fingers, smacking down on top of your pussy. âBut Iâll let it slide since sâyour first time being eaten out all properly, mhm?â
âMhm.â You nod.
âWhat was that?â Those mean fingertips of his raise again.
âYes, Kento.â Youâre hurrying to answer. And just as a little reward, Nanami smears his digits atop your swollen folds.Â
âThatâs more like it.â The glaze of your sweetened slick lets out the loudest squelch, and you squirm as heâs tugginâ aside your panties with a single index. âAre you ready, my dear?â
âYes-â
âAre you excited, my dear?â
âYes-â
âGood girl.â
Let the feast begin, heâs thinking. And Nanami Kento doesnât wait. Nanami Kento doesnât tease nâ toy. Nanami Kento doesnât even swivel his fingertips around your wet hole more than a few times to check how soaked you are before heâs taking what he wantsâhe doesnât have the damn time for anything else.Â
Heâd been starving for far too long.
And the closer nâ closer he gets to your pussy, the more his mouth waters.Â
Nanamiâs left drooling at the mere sight of your wet fuckinâ holeâyou swear you could hear his stomach start to growl. Fuck.
He gulps.
He takes a single sniff.Â
With a sudden lurch - like he couldnât hold it back any longer - he leans up and shoves his face nose-deep between your legs.
His tongue swiping your hole, jaw hittinâ the end of your slit.
Heâs curving that wet, wet muscle against your walls. Just so soft that it feels as if youâre melting around him- âFuck.â It escapes him- harsh and cracking. A primal groan at the back of his throat - one he doesnât seem to even realize himself. âFuck.â
You tremble at the tone.
Because there was something dark in it. Something almostâŠpredatory.
This was nothing like the calm, composed Nanami Kento that you were used to - absolutely nothing. This wasâŠyou didnât even have words for it.
So fiercely needy that it shoots electricity up your spine- Nanamiâs tongue was ravenous. He was holding onto both sides of your legs and- and correctionâŠhe wasnât merely holding onto them. Nanami Kento was using all his strength to push them as faaaar apart as they would go before suffocating himself on your sopping wet cunt.
Such strong hands. Furious tongue.
No matter how much youâre bucking your hips- he just keeps fucking his muscle between your wet pussylips like the last thing on his mind was breathing.Â
Swooping his head even deeper and munching for more. More. More, more, more.Â
Nanami crushes his mouth against your pussylips - so deep that you start to wonder whether his oral area would start to bruiseâ
And itâs only because of that broken call of his name that Nanami flinches. He freezes. He puffs out a murky breath. As if only now registering where he was, what he was doing, and just what his name was at the moment-
Heâs breaking free from your pussy with an echoing slurp!
âK-KentoâŠâ Youâre looking on in pure worry at the dazed man - his eyes were still glazed, and there was something almostâŠferal about his demeanour still. Though he seemed to be much calmer than before, âKento, are you okay to contin-â
âI am.â His voice comes out strong. Firm. Like heâs never been more sure of anything in his entire life.Â
Nanami lets out a few stilted breaths- running a hand through his now-unruly hair. The glisten of a silver streak in it. âI am. I justâŠitâs been a long timeâŠforever, actually, since Iâve tasted anything so delicious.â Wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, âI hope you can forgive this old man for getting a little carried away, my dear.â
Was he really that ruined from but a single taste of your cunt?
He stares down so long and deeeep at your quivering pussy. That cute hole peeking out from your pantiesââSheâs just soâŠsweet.â
And though he was speaking to you, Nanami looks down lovingly between your legs.Â
Now that he didnât have his lips all plastered to your folds- he was rubbinâ his right thumb vertically down your slit.
Pressing down on the cute button of your clit-
âAwww did I scare you, honey? I sure hope I didnât.â Honey, because you were just too sweet sizzlinâ on his tastebuds. Guiding one of your hands to grip his scalp, âForgive me. When it gets like that, donât be afraid to pull me- to use me, alright?â
âKento, you donât have to-â
âConsider it my second lesson.â
You squirm, âB-but donât they say toâŠrespect your elders, Kento?â
And youâre just too cuteâhe canât help but flatten his palm down and spank your pussylips once more. It makes so many beads of slippery slick spray out from your cunt nâ glue against that chin of his. âYou certainly can.â He hums, thoughtful. âBut just remember- I wonât be respecting this pussy, honey.â
âI see.â You gape.
And while speaking to you - while speaking to you - Nanami lavishes out lilâ kitten licks between your folds. Lick. Lick. âI bet this pretty pussyâs never been eaten out like that before, huh?â He continues. Merely peeking up at you through blond lashes to confirm- and you can only nodâ
Yet another spank sputtering down on your wet crevice.
âWords.â Nanami reminds.Â
Hiccuping, âYes, please. All those boys usually just like- graze my clit and thatâs all.â
He nods. He continues, voice nothing but deep murmurs that sets your entire body aflame - and itâs as though the more syllables heâs uttering, the harder nâ harder he rubs on your clit. âAwww poor girl. I just canât help but think of how long this pussy has been wasted on- haaah, boys who didnât know how to handle her.â
âToo- too long.â
Lovinglyâalmost drunkenly, heâs pressing a direct peck against your hole. The tip of his tongue just lightly slipping out and teasing your entrance- Nanamiâs free hand grips onto your thigh as if holding himself back. âMmmm, thatâs what I thought.â He murmurs. âAnd how long has she waited to be eaten out by a man who isnât afraid to get a littleâŠsloppy?âÂ
âToo long-â
At this, he chuckles. âAnd as for my last question-â Not even smooching anymore- heâs just smeeeeaering his puffy lips along your slit. More rapid. More hungry. âActually- take this as my third lesson.â
Youâre scrambling up onto your elbows. âYes?â
âCan you settle down like a good girl?â
Whatever that meansâŠyou arenât given the time to figure out. Because before you know it, Nanami purses his lips and plants a wad of spittle that hits your cunt with a wet splat!
Only making you even wetter for him to gape his jaw open- âFuck.â For him to swirl his ridged tip around and around your snug entrance until it left your mind all dizzy, it makes your cunt streeeeetch incredibly once he digs the tip of his tongue inside. Thoroughly.
Itâs almost as if he was splitting you apart on the thickness of his tongue.Â
Expanding and contracting. Expanding and contracting.Â
The stretch is so incredible that it leaves your mind searing
âSettle down. Settle doooown-â Heâs humming in a low tone. Whenever Nanami feels you squirminâ or clenching just a tad too hard, heâs making note of that particular spot and bashing it all in again. Thick muscle reaching in and out for your deepest depths until your tight hole canât take it anymore- until youâre screaming for mercy.Â
âOh fuh-fuuuuckââ Youâre arching straight off the table, the fabric clinging onto your skin briefly. Only for a few split-seconds before one of Nanamiâs hands fastens onto your hips, pushing you right back down where you came from.
âWhat did I say?â He wasnât even using much of his strength- you were just so easy for him to move âround. Especially when he has his mouth attached to you in a way that was so ravenousâ
Ruined.Â
âSettle. Fucking. Down, girl.âÂ
Pinning you to the flat surface and letting his gaped maw run wiiiiiiild. Itâs making you realize that he wasnât going feral in the beginning- he was merely holding back.
Both in strength and in pure carnal hunger.
No matter how badly you were craving to grind down restlessly on his face for hours- Nanami keeps you on a tight leash. He keeps you restrained on the table nâ getting only whatâs given. Pushing down. Maneuvering his greedy mouth. No matter how much you wanted to plant your feet down and take control - Nanami Kento really does know whatâs best.
âFailing the third lesson already, huh?â
Tears stream down your cheeks without you even realizing. âS-sorry, I didnât-â
âShhhhh shh shh. No need for an apology, honey.â He opens his swollen lips up wider nâ latches them around your clit for a few seconds. âMy poor girlâs just overstimulated because sheâs getting her pussy eaten out, huh? This pretty pussyâs just excited?â
âYes-â
âThatâs why your Kentoâs here.â Nanami hums, his cold glasses frames hit the front of your cunt and you flinch. Making the man push them up his nosebridge with a chuckleââAnd mâgonna take care of this pussy, baby.â
The way that Nanami looks dead-set into your widened peripherals as he says this makes your heart race.
Spitting a few more times down your dribbling slit. He was teeeeasing you before reaching his right hand down nâ smearing your pussylips open with two fingers- the rugged tips of his index nâ middle streeetching your damp hole apart. Just so goddamn thick. âFourth lesson: sometimesâŠfingers feel even better.â
âO-ohhhââ Your voice breaks out in carnal trills. Trying to bend your spine but then holding yourself back-
He was thrashing inside a few more sloppy strokes - swiping, slurping, scrapinâ every inch of your velvety walls. Anywhere you could think of, his thickened digits were pumping in.Â
At one point, he flicks his glistening tongue outside for you to take in his sheer size. âSize does matter when it comes to pleasing this needy pussy, alright? Donât let any fuckinâ boy convince you otherwise.â
You mewl, âI-I wouldnât need another boy if I just had you, KentoâŠâ
And thereâs something in his tone that sounds ecstatic- âMmm, good girl.â Showing you a demonstration of his previous statement by mazinâ away straight towards your g-spot. And you could feel yourself shaking- all those times you had to worry about whether a guy could manage to make you cum?
Nanami was eatinâ you out like his one and only purpose in life was to make you cum.
âAlways teasing me.â He scoffs out in a scalding breath. Raggedly running his mouth- his tongue. âAlways riling me up with those pretty looks and that- damn-â Pushing and pushing onto your g-spot so hard that it makes you sob out of pleasure. â-mouth.â
Your jaw drops. âI l-love itâfuck.âÂ
Practically on instinct, youâre gliding a hand down your tummy- where you could feel butterflies. They only seemed to grow even harder nâ rougher with his textured tongueâŠâI think I can feel you right- ngh, here.â
âSâthat so? You love it, huh? I can feel this pussy growinâ so wetâSheâs so fucking tight, bet sheâs never been fingered properly before.â As if anticipating your next moves, heâs digging his fingers deeper against your flesh. Leaving little crescent marks.
Whatever rational part of you is left begins to wonder just why he might have to pin you down even harder.
âAnd for my fifth lesson, honey.â
Youâre waiting with baited breath as he presses a few more heated-open-mouthed kisses. Nanamiâs luscious tongue reaching spots inside you that you werenât even sure you had - ones undiscoveredâ
And itâs the only warning you get before the puckered, pretty flaps of his mouth opens up your pussylips. Just past where your folds were all swollen nâ tight- it was quite a squeeze even when it was just his tongue. Just his fingers.
So to have both Nanamiâs fingers and his tongue inside?
It was sheer madness.
It was driving you stupid with his touch in but a single stroke- the jostling feeling of his wet muscle and his digits pressing against your walls and each other. Your walls. Each other. Your walls. Each other. Your channel was so snug that even the slightest movements made it feel as though you were bulging from the inside.
Pressing in. Fucking in.
In and in, and inâ
âA real man is- haaah, always hungry.â Alternating between slipping his tastebuds into your hole, and then fishing himself back outânot to breathe. No, not even close. He was merely roverinâ his mouth over to spank down on your clit. âA real man would never get tired of his lover, my dear.â
âKentoângh.â Youâre echoing out.Â
Your moans bang against the four corners of the room and straight into his ears- the prettiest song heâs ever heard. âSee how good you feel? Sâonly my duty to you, my dear.âÂ
âBut Kento-â
Mouth makinâ out with your cunt as if heâd gone mad, too.
âKento, donât you need to breathe-â
âFifth lesson. Who cares about breathing?â
He gasps out in interruption. Tongue swiping at a constant rhythm - it was difficult to get a single syllable out when all Nanami wanted to do was stick himself to your cunt and lick and lick and lickâ
Both of you are realizing at the same time that heâd miscounted.
âFor my fifthâŠâ And he sounded maddened, too. Octaves higher. Tone breathy. There was a feral sort of hunger in his eyes that shook you to your core- âSixthâŠ?â As if he was just so pussydrunk that it was causing his brain to melt, acting on pure carnal instinct. âFor my sixth lesson, honey. This old manâs mind is a little foggy, you seeâŠâ
You donât get the chance to answer.
Because with that, Nanami only accelerates. First those fingertips of his were shoved all the way in and making your walls twitch with every hard prodâthud-thud-thudding way. Then he was smoochinâ over that same bruised spot with his slithering tongue, just swipinâ up where you were most sensitive.Â
Before draaaaagging all the way out and about to suck on your clit. Throbbing so hard that he managed to time his lilâ bites to each pulse.
It was a dual sensation that left you driven mad. Absolutely mad.
Rubbinâ his fingers absolutely raw on those knotted bundles of nerves-Â
You buck.
You get hit with a sudden spank.
âMmmmâdo you think you deserved that, my dear?â He asks. Too cute- the more he eats you out, the more heâs twitching in his pants.Â
You sob, but youâre nodding. âY-yesâŠâ
Another spank.
âWhat was that?â
âYes, Kento.â
âGood girl.â And honestly you could feeeel that sultry stretch of his grinâgently dabbing his tongue over your clit. Nanami Kento mightâve been a stern man, but he certainly wasnât merciless. âBut forget one more time and Iâll make you call me âsirâ.â
You couldnât deny the way that made your cunt twitchâŠ
âSeventh and final lesson.â Nanami pronounces, his mouth slicked with so many layers of your sap that it gleamedâhe wore those dangles of goopy syrup like a medallion. âWhen I make you cum- hah, you better reward me by cumming aaaaaall inside my mouth, honey. Or my cock.â
Your throat was utterly parched by now. And the only thing you could do was rasp out- âU-understood, KentoâŠâ
Soon enough, he was babbling out hot breaths of something you could barely even understand- though each promise only sounded more ravenous than the last.Â
Mouth glued to your cunt. Nails digging into your skin. Rougher than you ever thought was possible before, heâs sucklinâ at your clit and pounding his fingers into you so hard that it looked like nothing but a blurâ
Nanami counts one, two, three rapid clenches of your pussy walls-
Before youâre throwing your head back and absolutely shattering into your high because of him.
Your toes curling. Your throat ragged raw.
His textured tastebuds are swipinâ across every bead of slick you were dripping out. Dripping. Every bead of slick. All over your puffy pussylips. All between them till he meets your hole- even all the way up your inner thighs.
He wasnât letting a single bit go to waste.
Not even as that translucent sap dribbles down the sides of his mouth and ends up splashinâ right up to his handsome cheekbones-
The pleasure washes over you twofold - both with your orgasm and the way that Nanami was eloooongating your orgasm. Both his fingers and his mouth were working overtime to press into each peak of your high. âO-ohââ Thighs trembling on top of his shoulders- you donât know when, but they end up locked so tight around his head. âIt feels s-so good.â
Each tiny curve of his fingers made your body twitch in the aftershocks. âExtra lesson- fuck back into me.â
âWh-what?â
It takes you a significant amount of effort to even open your eyes - let alone start to swerve your body uuup nâ down. And yet youâre doing it anywayâmoaning as you ride all of Nanamiâs handsome features in looooong, sloppy drags. âFuh-fuck, like this?â
And he was just loving it.
âMhmmm.â He gurgles out. Cracking one eye open, âExactly. I know this is the best fuckinâ orgasm youâve ever experienced, my dear.â
He wasnât even being cocky - and you usually wouldâve called him out on it - this was just plain true. âI-it is-â
âI know this pretty pussy wants it again, my dear.â
You can only nod.
âI know I surely want to eat her again, my dear.â
And nod and and nod as heâs fucking you through even the tiniest peaks and spasmsâthe surplus of bliss making your veins bubble. Burst. Bulldoze your senses as youâre practically vibrating with the sheer amount of pleasure that runs through them.
There seems to be a hazy aura covering your vision as you finally ride through your entire high.
Struggling up onto your elbows once more-
âStay downââ
âYesâŠ?â Your eyes widen at Nanamiâs strict order. He leaves a final slurping kiss at your clit before he stands onto his feet. Slightly swayingâ
There was a glaze over his eyes. There was your slick coating all the way from his lower face, and puddling dooown to form a dark patch on his button-up. There were the short, panted breaths he was emanating - like a predator honed in on his prey - the longer he looked at you splayed out on the messy table.
Nanami Kento almost looked drunk - and not on the dinner, not even on the sparse wine.Â
He was completely nâ utterly ruined on nothing other than your pussy.
He lunges towards you-
âFuck, Kentoââ Youâre squealing at the rugged hands that tear through your clothes as easily as if they were butter. Shirt and bra easily landing on the carpeted floor- and your skirt was to follow before you even realized.
Youâre just about to help Nanami shuffle you out of your panties - hips raising to facilitate it - before he takes another look at you. One long, hard look. And his hands leave your body as though that was enough-
He wanted your panties on.
Nothing but a sopping wet mess twisted âround your hips. Evidence of his depravity.Â
âI want these off then.â Youâre reaching up to tug on one of Nanamiâs sleeves. He was still partly in his office clothes: button-up, formal pants, tie. And those sleeves of his had been pushed up to his elbows during your dinner, leaving you struggling not to gawk at the older manâs forearms. Strong. Slightly veined. Slightly tanned.Â
He was just so attractive that it made you squirm.Â
Nanami looks down at himself and lets out a hoarseââOhâŠright.â Like heâd been so caught up in you that he hadnât even realized he was still clothed.
Pop!
Pop!
Pop!
Pop!
Those neat white buttons end up flinging to the ground- useless against his sheer desperation. Nanami wastes no time before tearing through his layers, ripping them off. Fabric pools onto the carpet below. His belt buckle clangs as it hits the ground.
Gentlemen couldnât deny such a thing when their loverâs asking so nicely, could they? At least Nanami couldnât-
And fuckâŠ
Now, you always assumed that Nanami Kento was the kind of guy to be well-built. It was naturally in the way he moved, the way he stood, in the broadness of his shoulders.
But youâd never in your wildest dreams could have imagined that heâd be this chiselled. This toned.
You have to stop yourself from ogling himâyou have to. But you canât help it.
Not when Nanamiâs body was ridged and curved in muscle- almost Herculean in nature. He had pecs that looked lush enough for you to bite - and you could already feel your mouth start to water - with a faint coating of golden and silver hair scattered across his skin. Wide shoulders. Trim waist.
His biceps flexinâ as he moves onto the buttons of his pants.
Lined through the middle with similar golden hair that drove down, down, downâŠ
But you think your favorite part of him wasnât the muscles or the hardness- no. Though they were certainly a nice addition, what made your pussy throb the most was just howâŠthick Nanami Kento was.
It was evident that Nanami was the type of person who liked hitting the gym often- but then again, it was evident that Nanami was the type of person who didnât have the time to be hitting the gym often.
As often as he used to, at least.
And you? You were loving it.
Because all those muscles of his were naturally-formed. But with all the years of responsibilities as a father which meant his body was comforted by a layer of slight chub, big. Strong. Suddenly, you understood why âdad-bodsâ were all the craze on social mediaâbecause you - for one - couldnât help but linger your eyes at the sight of the softness to his shape. The slight roundness to his belly, abs barely peaking through.
âMy dearâŠâ
âKento.â
He presses a thumb against the hemline of his trousers-
And then heâs letting you see himâall of him.Â
From his V-shaped waist to his meaty thighs.
So thick. So strong.
You just wanted to be crushed between them.
And right down to the furious cock that stood upright and erect between them. Such a bulbous red tip, streaming with never-ending ribbons of pre. Such a thickened shaft that made you swallowâhe had so many veins zipping down either side of him. You think he was about nine or so inches- perhaps on the lower end.
Before youâd realized it, youâd been reaching your hand between his legs- only for Nanami to stop you in your tracks.
âK-KentoâŠâ
His thick fingers intertwine with yours and press your hand down on the tabletop. âHoney, you donât have to reciprocate.â The older man stares deeply into your eyes- âYou donât owe me anything. I ate your pretty pussy out because Iâve been starving for her.â
âBut I still want to.â You insist.
âMmmm, how about after then?â He reaches his free hand up nâ thumbs across your bottom lip. âAs much as I want to paint these beautiful lips with my cum, thereâs another pair whoâve been waiting patiently for their turnâŠâ
You shiver, âErm- Kento, you should know thatâŠthis is my first time.â
He pauses. âExcuse me, my dear?â
âIâve never done it before.â Looking up at him through your tear-draped lashes. âYouâll be my first.â
The thought takes a second to register in the older manâs sex-hazed mind. That animalistic part of him being overpowered by the rational.
Your first time.
Your first time.
Your first time.
He was about to take the virginity of that cute lilâ nanny heâs had his eye on for so long. âHoney, are you su-â
âYes.â
Nanami almost moans at the sheer eagerness in your voice - your eyes were shining, and your legs locked tighter around him. âWellâŠâ The man starts, dipping two thumbs down to your glistening pussy and spreading your folds wide open. He takes a good look at your entrance in comparison to the thickness of his cock, âBrace yourself then, my dear. Sâgonna be a tight fuckinâ fit.â
In a split-second, heâs jerking his hips closer and smoochinâ your naked cunt with his cock. His rounded tip spreading your pussylips. His shaft sliding between your slit and massaging you with his veins.
Nanami was so goddamn hard that it looked painful.
And what better way to alleviate the pain than by pushing his pretty lil nannyâs legs apart and shoving his cock between them? Aching and needy for you.
Nanami was big enough to fuck you stupid with just his tip.
And he knows it, too. Having such a hard time completely fittinâ in his crowned girth, he just barely fucks the top of his shaft inside before groaning. Taking a peek at the way you were squirming below him, sobbing below him. Absolutely ruined- âShit, honey.â Cupping his hilt with his left hand- Shit, honey, can you recite the lessons for me?â
Youâre wobbling up onto your elbows, âRecite them?â
He can only nod. âJustâoh.â Cut off with the slightest sliiiiide between your sweet, swollen pussylips- heâs only managing to nudge the rounded edge of his length. âJust recite them. You have them memorized fâme like a good girl, yeah?â
âYes-â Nodding frantically. âYes, Kento-â
And that cute obedience of yours is enough to make him smile- tap-tap-tappinâ away the curve of his tip down there. For absolutely no other reason than wanting to. âGood.â He reels his hips back. âThen say it fâme, my dear.â And then forwards- âSay it while I fuck you.â
And the only thing you can fucking do is to babble out those words- the very same ones thatâd been drilled into you. âThe first lesson is thatâfuck.â All the while Nanamiâs probinâ tip enters your hole in a sudden thrust. â-th-that big girls use their words.â
Nanami grunts, voice shot. âGoooood good good- keep breathing now.â Hand clawing down your frontâfeeling for himself as he pumps inside. Tiiiight fucking fit, like he said. He almost wonders whether it would go in- âAnd then?â
âThe secondâŠâÂ
But itâs almost impossible to remember- to even think with those rapidfire haaaard hammers of his cock.Â
That curved tip of his shaft kept pushing iiiin with the most lecherous squelches, drawing more nâ more sweetened slick out of you with every single thrust. That stretch was just incredible- it was making you see white. Just the first few inches of his pretty pink cock squeezing inside and pushing in and in and inâ
Thwack!
Those rugged fingertips of his come spanking back down on your cunt - this time, however, they fit between your pussylips and latch onto your clit. And they stay there. Heâs tugginâ on that poor nub a few times just to bring you back to your senses- âAwww, you didnât think youâd go unpunished for thatâ-did you, my dear?â
âI-Iâno.â Because tears stream down your cheeks, and Nanami still isnât letting go. Heâs flopping out his tongue and lapping at that salty flavor-
âThen continue.â Humming at the taste of you. Fitting and fitting andâtrying to stretch your elastic hole out to take him. Itâs the first time youâve ever felt something like this. âYouâre doing so good. Keep going for Kento.â
Thwack!
âKeep talking, honey.â
âSecond lesson-â Unable to do anything but arch your back, youâre being met with Nanamiâs soft chest. Those pecs. The thundering of his heartbeat. Itâs enough to make your mouth already waterâât-toâŠuse you.â
He leans in, âWhat was that, my dear? Old man, you knowâŠâ
âTo use you-â
âTo not be afraid to use me.â He corrects.Â
And itâs the last thing you hear before both Nanamiâs hands snake down to grab your ankles- restraining them. Tightening them.
Heâs bending you easily in half.
Legs on top of his shoulders. Thighs against thighs.
Pushing you all the way back into a mating press.
A fucking mating press.
Of course the hot DILF that youâre nannying for puts you in a mating press. Of fucking course!
And itâs only causing you to become wetter than youâve ever been in your entire life- your head falls back against the table surface. Thud! An action that makes the older man on top of you reach behind nâ cushion the back of your scalp. âEasy there, my dear. Eeeeeasy.â His left palm lightly massages your sweaty head.Â
âK-Kento-â Through your tears.
âEasy there- third lesson, remember?âÂ
âTo s-settle downâŠâ
âThatâs my girl.â Nanami hums, head threatening to tip backwards at the sensations of your quivering cunt. Itâs impossible to keep his mind when you were gushing out so much slick that it coats his shaft and leaves his ballsack all drenched.
And if he was this gone, then where did that leave you?Â
Well, you were just babbling away the pretty syllables of his lessons. âThe f-fourth lesson is that fingers feel better.â Hips bucking upwards. âThe fifth is that real men are hungryââ Eyes scrunching with tears. That large circumference of his were pushing into tender spots nâ crevices that you didnât even know you had - it felt as though your poor pussy was being split by him. Push after push.
After probe after probe.
Just animalistically trying to fit insideâ
âThe sixth- the sixth-â
âBreathe, honey.â Those smoky words of his scorch your face, as if Nanami himself was burning from the inside out. And there truly was a feverish tint to his wordsâto his actions, fuckinâ away sloppily between your pussylips. Slurp after slurp. âBreeeeeeathe- câmon do it with me.âÂ
Conducting you through these relaxation exercises for a few strokes.
Listening to his own advice - that fourth lesson - his right hand lifts off of your thighs to roll over your throbbing clit. Just so neglected by now, it makes you see white to have him massaging that sweet spot all slow and sensual.
âThe sixth lesson isâŠwho cares about breathing?â
âMhmmm.â
A guttural tone that sent vibrations straight from your drippinâ core and up to your brain. Only growing more muddled by the inch- âAnd oh! The extra.â As all good students do, youâre deciding to show a demonstration. How sinful that this sort of demonstration is you balancing your hips on the table nâ choosing to bounce right up to meet Nanamiâs rutting hits. His pounces. âTo- ngh, fuck back into you.â
âOh, good girl- this old man almost forgot that one.â Sleazily, heâs pushing his glasses up his nosebridge.
Staring at the lewd sight below of you griiiiinding your hips up into his. It was just so messy because your lips were jittery with pleasure.
His happy trail rubs carnally on top of your clit- and it sends you into a frenzyâ
âF-fuck that was-â
âShhhh shh shh, easy.â
You waddle your ankles from their perch atop his shoulders. âYes, I know-â Hissing outââIâm breathing, Kento. Iâm listening to what youâre saying, promiseâŠâ
âGood girl. Now inhale.â Of course, you canât help but take a looooong gasp of the heady air thick in the dining room - the candles were scented like roses. âAnd-â
âAndâŠ?â
And Nanami doesnât finish his sentence. He doesnât bother telling you to exhale before his fat, throbbing cock is fucking every volume of air from your lungs. In this mating press, he could hit each angle even deeper than before - and that meant youâre feeling his thick circumference bruise all the way against your womb.
Your cervix.
Bottomed all the way out and Nanami was pummeling his length away as if there was even more, more, more of him left. A hint of something metallic hits his nostrilsâand he canât hold back the victorious chuckle that leaves him. Heâs done it. âContinue.â
âIâwhat-â Struggling to catch your breath. âOh my fucking-â
âContinue.â
âWho cares about breathing-â
A sixth lesson that he was fully demonstrating.
He really was mean.
He really was merciless.
Because he was fucking you into the dinner table like a damn animalâand the thing is Nanami wasnât even going at a particularly fast pace in order to leave you speechless. He wasnât merely half-thrusting away and hoping that you liked it. He wasnât just tracinâ his cockhead down the sweet spots at the back of your pussy.
Nanami Kento was holding you down tight in his mating press. He has one hand gripping onto the back of your scalp - such a gentle gesture turned so sinful - and another crushinâ the fatness of his palm to your pussy.
Purposefully, the older man pushes the edge of his palm down on your clit. Harder. Harder. Harder.
And he was drilling into you harder by the second, too. Harder didnât mean faster.
Just draaaagging every inch of his vein-covered shaft down your slick channel - heâs making sure that you can feel every single curve nâ ridge down his cock. Heâs making sure that he massages your insides so thoroughly that it feels as though youâre being molded to his cock. Nothing more. Nothing less.
You swear youâre seeing the pearly gates spread wide open before your very eyes. âO-oh my god-â Reaching your hands up, Nanami lowers his strong body further into yours. Pushing you down against the dinner table, the pressure from all sides is too much that you have to claaaw down his perfect back. âKento, whatâfuck. I didnât know that it could feel like this-â
And deep inside, you can feel his thickened tip flinching. Directly at your g-spot. âMhm?â
âYeah-â Voice shattering in your throat as his circumference swells just a few millimeters thicker inside of you. He was growing even bigger, harder, just by the sensations of your slurping cunt. âI-it just feels so good- Iâve never been fucked like this.â
âHoneyâŠâ Nanamiâs mean yet pointed tone makes you stare up at him. âYouâve never been fucked before me.â
âOh.â
âYour virginity is mine.â
âOh.â
Just that gone on his cock that youâd almost forgotten - even the realization itself seems to take up too much storage inside your already-muddled brain. Now filled with only the thought of him nâ his achingly hot cockâpouring out bucketloads of precum until it sloshed around inside.
Inside and inside.
Stirring âround and âround with his probinâ cockhead. He pushes deep into spots that you hadnât even known existed, let alone could be smooched away by his pulsating shaft. He constantly whacks your g-spot until it feels numb.
Enough to render you speechless-Â
ââgraduated.â
And that makes your eyes blink open. âWh-what?âÂ
âOh, honeyâŠâ Nanami plants a loving peck on your lips- until that peck turns into a rugged bite. âWhat world are you on, hm? Sâmy cock that good? Awww, my poor girlâhere.â Nanamiâs perspired forehead sticks against yours. This time, heâs staring deeply into your eyes as he pronounces the words, âYouâve graduated.â
You cock your head in confusion, âFrom university?â
He chuckles, fine lines popping out from the edges of his eyes. Youâre noticing that his glasses have slightly fogged up by now- âNo, silly girl. From my lessons.â
âOhâŠâ Pouting, âBut I liked your lessons, Kento.â
âMmmm, youâll like this one even more.â Dipping down- Nanami presses his stern lips right to the shell of your left ear. Whispering as if a secret shared by no one but the two of you in this world, âRemember how Yuji mentioned he wanted a little brotherâŠâ
A jolt goes through your body- as does the realization.
âIf youâd like then-â
âYes.â You know it might be rash. But looking at him like this - looking at Nanami Kento so deep in the pangs and plunges of his carnal pleasure - how could you deny what you want? âYesââ
The blond manâs breaths start to grow heavier, eyes slightly widened. For the first time in the longest time, he actually looks like his usually-sensible self. Those molten eyes of his search yours for an answer- âHoney, really think this throu-â
âI did.â Youâre insisting. And if that wasnât enough, he could feel your wobbly ankles surge with the strength to lock âround his neck. âInside, Kento.â
Nanamiâs mouth moves noiselessly with an answer, but his cock does all the swelling. So painfully hard that you were sure it was tougher than rocks-
And thereâs only one thing left for you to do. âInsideâŠsir.â
If he was any less of a gentleman - of a man, really - then Nanami wouldâve cum inside you then and there. At least in his mindâwhich was focused solely on digging his heels into the carpet, solely on gritting his teeth and holding his damn cock back from pouring out those wads of cum like he knew he wanted to.
Was on the verge of doing.
He was instead collapsing the entirety of his weight upon your body- feeling your limbs strain, hearing your joints pop. But not even that noise crackling in his eardrums is enough to get the man to slow down.
Now he was just fucking you sloppyâgrunts filtering between his grit canines by the minute. By the thrust. âThe first to fuck you.â And what a rare occasion: to hear the ever-eloquent Nanami Kento stutter. âIâll be the first to breed you too, my dear.â
âOhâfuck, yes.â Your entire body shivers in excitement. You could feel the pit of pleasure starting to grow in your stomach.Â
âIâll be the first to give this pretty cunt a taste of cum.â And you could hardly believe that such a sinful sentence was leaving the confines of his mouthââSheâs probably so thirsty by now, no? Iâll be the first to quench that thirst, my dear, just you wait-â Pinching your clit between the fingers on his right hand once more. â-mama.â
Really, if you were calling him âsirâ then it was only fair for him to call you by that pretty nickname. Something primal awakens inside of you-
âIâll be the first one to stuff this pretty pussy-â Nanami gurgles out, eyes locking in on your stomach. That was where his rounded tip occasionally made an appearance by bulging through your flesh nâ skin as he fucked inside you. â-with so much of my cum that youâll be bloated.â
You gasp hysterically, âYes-â So turned on that it almost hurt - you wanted him. Now. âYes, yes, yesââ
âIâll be the first to make you feel me in here- for weeks. Months.â Thrust after thrust. Pinch after pinch. It was incredible how much he was stimulating you to tears- âIâll be the first whereâwhen you walk down the street, everyone will know that I fucked you. Everyone will know that- that this pretty pussy is mine, that Iâm the one fuckinâ her and stuffing her andâand giving her my cum every night.â
Rolling a sweet, sweet heart on top of your clit.
âTheyâll know that Iâm the one fuckinâ the cute, sweet lilâ nannyâall of them. The professors. Those parents at pick-up. Your friends. My friends.â He chuckles darkly. And he doesnât care whoâd be scandalized. âWanna know why, my honey?â
âWh-whyââ You sob out.
And he leans in to whisper in your ear- âBecause Iâll be the one making you a momma.â
Until youâre all round and glowing with his seed.
Until youâre so full of him that you canât take anymore.
Until youâre so stuffed that you wouldnât be able to hide it- he hopes youâre walking âround with his cum between your legs for weeks.
Itâs taking only that and a single puuuush against your g-spot for you to topple off the edge of your high. Bliss pumping through your veins in waves, you couldnât escape from the constant throb and ebb of it. Dimming the edges of your vision. Making the lights seem brighter.
Again and again and againâ
Heâs probinâ inside that swollen cockhead to push you through the bouts of your pleasure. In the time heâs had you like this, Nanamiâs already mapped out where every single one of your sweetest spots where- and first heâll thwack! his hand upon your clit. Then heâll move onto your tender bruised spots at the rim, then his cock delves deeper until heâs hitting your g-spotâthen again and again heâs knockinâ on your womb.
Filling it with so much of his cum.
âBreathe.â Your orgasm hits you so hard that you have to manually control your breathing- and Nanamiâs right beside you. Walking you through every step, every exhale and inhale. âBreathe iiiiiin.â
Youâre sucking in a breath. âFuck-â
And itâs just then that heâs emptying out a particularly powerful wave of his own euphoria. Balls clenching as his ribbony white cum leaks near your cervix- with your breath sucked in, youâre only feeling the sensations even stronger. âAnd out.â
Panting out with a whine. âFuuuuck- f-feels so good.â
Too good, almost.
You never knew it could feel like this to have someone pourinâ out all their lecherous sap inside of you- the thick layers clinging onto either side of your walls. Thereâs so much of it - so much volume that you wondered just how he managed to keep it all stuffed inside - frothing out and forming a circle of white âround Nanamiâs hilt. Gleaming with every thrust. Puddling out and sticking your thighs togetherâÂ
Head throwing slightly back, though still peeking at you through his lashes. âHoneyâŠâ
Nanamiâs gruff tone makes you jump. âYes?â Still slightly twitching from the aftershocks of your incredible high.
He stares into your eyes with a slight smile. Something unreadable. âYou forgot the seventh lesson earlier.â
The seventh�
Oh.
Oh.
Fuck.
Itâs with a sudden cold thrill that youâre registering what he said- and remembering the mistake youâd made during your recitations earlier. âI-it was to cum all over-â
âThatâs quite alright, my dear. No need to tell me now.â Nanami smiles the sweetest smile that makes your cunt start to throb - his eyes shuttered closed, his lips pecking yours. His cock shovels a long, hard thrust inside youââBut I will have to rescind your graduation.â
You gape, âWhat, why-â
âUntil youâre completely and fully stuffed by me.â He grumbles out the rest of his statement. His condition.Â
Hands rovering all over your body, Nanami makes sure that every slight tingle of your high has passed before heâs pulling out of you with a loud sluuuuurp! Immediately scooping you up into a princess carry nâ walking in the direction of his bedroom.
It isnât long before you find yourself draped over Nanami Kentoâs large mattress - on all fours so that he can slip inside you with ease. Pumping away immediately- âUntil youâre fuckinâ pregnant, consider that youâre still taking lessons.â
Youâre sobbing into your newly-caught pillow. âOhâoh fuck.â
To which Nanami leans over and snatches your neck into a fucking headlock- his strong biceps pushing against the sides of your throat. âHappy Valentineâs Day, my dear. When this is all done- fuck, mâgonna show you how much I love you.â
âI l-love youââ Feeling his rounded tip immediately pierce across your g-spot and towards your womb. Full. â-too.â
âMmm, I love you more.â Watching as you shake and quiver. âWeâll get you something sweet after this, honey, donât you worry.â He hums- before sneaking a look at the both of you through the mirror in his bedroom and chuckling.Â
Ruined. Completely and utterly ruined.
âIf we make it out of Valentineâs Day alive, that is.âÂ
Maybe Shoko could babysit Yuji a little longer?
âPapaâs gonna do his best to try for a second child, alright?â
.
.
.
Morning shed its sunlight like the clothes upon Nanamiâs apartment floor.
A stream of white-gold Sun, the richness of the day, enters through his windows and splays out perfectly on the bed. It dapples light across his naked chest and leaves him stirringâ
Valentineâs Day.
The dinner.
The table.
You. Being taken on the table.
Afterwards on this very bed, afterwards on the damn bedroom floor after he heard a snap coming from somewhere on the bed frame. Heâd shovelled himself nâ his gooey white sap inside you until the Sun had risenâ
And itâs enough to make him jerk upright in his bed.
Blankets falling around his waist, sleepy eyes scanning the room for any sign of you.
From here, he couldnât see whatâd been made of your clothes in the dining room- or your panties in his bedroom. But it was obvious that you werenât here. If from your physical presence, then from the warmth you brought into his drafty Tokyo home.
Just to make sure, he casts several wide-eyed looks around the room - breath-still in case there was a single noise from the kitchen - and stillâŠnothing. Absolutely nothing.
Thereâs a sinking feeling in his chest that he doesnât want to make sense of.
Of course, what was he thinking? Heâd saidâŠthose words to you last night- but just because youâd said them back didnât mean it was real. It was probably in the heat of the moment, youâd probably snuck out before dawn broke so you didnât have to face him. Youâd probably woken up disgusted.
He didnât blame you - there were no promises between the two of you. And even if there had been, he knows he canât find it in himself to get angry at you.
If anything - if you chose to quit after this - he supposes heâll have to start looking for a nanny again. Something in Nanamiâs chest twists, and he reaches up to rub the spot where his heart was.
He wouldnât mind the long and tedious process if it still led him back to you. He wouldnât mind the long and tedious process if it meant you were there with him - not as a nanny, just yourself being you.
It was a cold morning.
And Nanami Kento was clenching his sheets, just about to throw his legs over the side of the bed and get outâhe needed to put away his clothes anyways before Shoko came with Yuji. What was the time anyway? It was his off-day today, and maybe he could take Yuji out to the park to take his mind off of-
And itâs then that several things happen at once.
Nanamiâs eyes catch the face of the clock on his bedside cabinet: 12:48PM.
Nanamiâs jaw drops at just how late it is.
Nanami snatches his phone off of the cabinet and makes to race outside while calling Shoko-
And he makes it about two frantic steps, too, before getting stopped by a sudden squeal of laughter. Loud and bubbling. Euphoric.
Of course, it was none other than his son.Â
Echoing a short burst of laughter throughout the apartment- before abruptly cutting himself off with a pronounced âshhhhhh!â It rings even louder than his laugh, and reaches Nanamiâs ears alongside some words. âSowwy! Yuji promises not to wake papa!â
And Nanamiâs brows furrow, wondering whether Shoko had somehow managed to forge a key to his apartment and get in. Before out of nowhereâyour voice is the one that answers him.
âSâalright, sunshine.â Youâre using that nickname he always did. Sleepiness was still laced into your tone, and he could tell it hadnât been long since you mustâve waddled away.Â
Since you mustâve put away the clothes in the dining room, since you mustâve opened the door for Yuji - Nanami would hate to imagine the smug look on Shokoâs face then, but the surplus of texts from her were already doing the job. âPapa needs to be awake for breakfast-in-bed, doesnât he?â
The smell of pancakes drifts through the bedroom door - along with Yujiâs answering call. âTrueâŠbut what if papa wonât wake up?â
âThen we eat the pancakes.â
âYesââ Yuji echoes, âThank you, Cupid.â
âHm?â
âBecause Cupid made you nâ papa married, right?â But of course. It leaves you stunned for a few seconds, and Yuji obliviously chattering. âIâve always wanted to keep you- papa, too. Even though I know he wonât sayâcan we keep you now, Ms. Nanny?â
Your voice sounds slightly thicker than before. âYou can keep me as long as you want, Yuji.â
âThank you, Cupid!â
Two evil cackles, and the sound of footsteps.
Youâre opening the door with a flood of sunlight and a tray of pancakes in your hand. Yuji rushes in after you with a call of âgood morningâ - and by the smile on your faceâŠyeah.
Yeah, it really is a good morning.
He still doesnât know how to explain to Yuji that the two of you arenât married yet, however.
Itâs in an hour that you finally break the news- but rush to assure the little boy before he bursts into tears, that he could âkeep youâ as long as he wanted. And that the two of you were togetherâyes, together together. Nanami puts off answering Shoko (she ambushes him for gossip the very next day).Â
Itâs in a month that you start officially calling yourselves lovers - boyfriend and girlfriend, whatever it is. It seems like so much more than that, however. And so Nanami just settles for introducing you as his partner at those tedious work dinners.
Itâs in a few more months that those work dinners become the last heâs attending. Because Nanami Kento quits that damn job, using everything heâs saved up to buy a little bakery and a house just a small ways off from the heart of the city - not quite the countryside as he once imagined, but this was good, too. It was still a manageable distance from your university and Yujiâs school, and yet so much bigger than the apartment.
Itâs in a year that Nanamiâs bakery is at the height of business - a figure that will only keep growing as the years pass by. Word spreads far and wide about those treats- and soon enough, heâs forced to fire extra hands and more part-timers than he ever thought would be needed. The little bakery grows into a big bakery, with time.
You couldnât have been more happy to see those dark circles underneath his eyes cease for once, to see him pursue his dreams. Yuji couldnât have been more happy to get all the sweet treats he couldâve ever wished for.
And now, Nanami could buy him all the car beds he couldâve ever wished for.
He also starts looking into wedding rings.
He still isnât sure about a Spiderman-themed wedding, but he knows heâll be baking the cake.
A/N. Hehehe that Nanami and the flowers scene was inspired by my father having a tradition to always buy me a bouquet as well today.
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jock yuji doing shirtless pushups above you awakened something in me bc heâd be making all these sounds that have you clenching your thighs together and just being so close to his biceps flexing ooooo i need him
đ eighteen plus only ! â minors donât interact â smut â push ups â dry humping â pussy jobs â edging â characters in their 20s â jock bf yuuji itadori, fem reader !
no like heâd be so sweaty, droplets running down his face maybe between his pecs which jiggle with every movement. at first yuuji asks you to lay underneath him as motivation ⊠but then it quickly turns to torture because he instinctively grunts all low and sexy every time he lowers himself over you and his expression is strained like when he first pushes into you after hours of holding back. n maybe he doesnât notice how wildly turned on you are at first, too focused on counting his pushups to realise youâve been squirming this whole time, unintentional grinding your clit against the seam of your panties because youâre so needy it hurts.
âah, shit,â yuuji chuckles, starved for breath as he exhales into the next push up. âmy arms are gettinâ shaky.â
heâs laughing, your undies are drenched and your whole pussy is throbbing and heâs laughing⊠because he truly has no idea how gorgeous he sounds while working out. showing off his strength, glistening and grunting. itâs not even funny, youâre like a second away from cumming untouched â keeping your own whimpers trapped under your tongue as your greedy gaze slinks down to the bounce of tanned pecs whilst yuuji stoops low and bends his arms in quick fire succession. you feel his stomach muscles ripple against yours, abs hot and hard where you are so so soft and you swear, you feel a small trickle of arousal run between your swollen folds â its scent tangling in the temperate, sweaty air of the gym.
itâs not until he looks down at you to ask if he should try one handed push ups because at practise the other day fushiguro said he couldnât he catches your pouty lips and the glossy sheen in your eye. yuuji blinks, once then twice and then smiles. itâs neither cruel nor wicked â not that you can tell.
âoh, i see baby,â itadori coos down at you, not intending to be patronising â even though you like it. his head cocks to the side, chocolatey eyes peering through his lashes as though heâs seeing you right down to your needy soul. then suddenly, his waist angle a little lower â intentionally pressing against you so that all you can feel is his thick, oozing hardness through his shorts. âiâve been holding back too. letâs try a different work out, that sound okay?â
now youâre nodding, legs instinctively raising and hooking onto his hips to make sure he hits just where you need. your hands fly up to steady themselves on his rugged, bulging biceps to anchor yourself to reality when yuuji finally nestles his cock between clothed folds â a breathy and amused scoff escaping him at the lewd squelch your sex makes from how sticky it is.
âp-please, yuu,â you sniffle, clenching around nothing, gushing even more so. your trembling thighs bracketing yuujiâs hips threaten to with draw and squeeze shut â desperate for any kind of friction to ease the aching heartbeat in your mound.
the jock tuts, bowing down on his forearms with his hands planted firm either side of your head, to press kisses to the teary apples of your cheeks. you had no idea you were even crying. âi know, honey,â yuuji coos softly. âso keep these perfect thighs open for me, yeah?â
one heavy hand claps against the side of your ass, short and sharp â enough to make you yelpâŠbut itadori quickly offers you a short reprise, snapping his hips into yours and nudging his bulge against the swollen, precious nub tucked away behind your ruined panties. just enough to have you gurgling and quivering through your release.
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Synopsis. When you came knocking at Nanami Kentoâs mansion, stranded in the middle of a storm, he couldnât turn you away just like that - could he? After all, you smelled so cold, so scared, soâŠdelectable. And you might learn that thereâs a reason they keep demons locked away in large, lonely mansions. Because didnât you know that heâs one hell of a butler?
âGoddamm- oh.â The merciless hand of the storm swipes your face, and you instantly clamp your eyes and lips shut against the sting.
It was a night colder than cold, a storm crueler than cruel. Fallen instantly: it was as if someone had simply snuffed out the light of day, and plunged you into a world that hurtled on its axis. Despite the portico you stood underneath, you clutched your tattered coat tighter against the wind.
This place had been the first youâd encountered during your treacherous walk. A light. And without thinking, youâd stumbled towards it.Â
Perhaps a home. Perhaps shelter.Â
The fog thickens. Your fist raises, knock-knock-knocking against the tall, wooden door. It was decorated in intricate swirling patterns and engravings that you couldnât make out in the darkness right now.
You wonder whether whoever was inside could even hear you over the storm. Desperately, your fist raises to knock again when-
The door opens.
And inside stands a handsome blond man.
Almost otherworldly.
âMy lady.â
Your breath hitches, and youâre not entirely sure why. Perhaps it was the rich baritone of his voice, the way it pierced your ears even above the wind, wetness, and anger of the storm. Perhaps it was his classically handsome face - slicked-back hair, high cheekbones, a pert mouth that was somehow knowing - like in one of those historical paintings, a Prince Charming.Â
You wouldnât have been able to pinpoint him in any century.
Or perhaps it was the way that when you stepped back, on instinct, he leaned down to loop a strong arm around your waist in a single, fluid motion. So fast that you muse he mightâve teleported.
Whooshâ!Â
You startle at the noise above you, and look up to find that the strange man had unfolded an umbrella over the two of you - one that you hadnât even realized heâd been holding.
He lets the berth of it cover your frame, like the dark wings of a bat stretched taut. Uncaring of whether he himself gets wet, the man shields you against the icy billows of rain that blew through the portico. His warm grin stretches, urging. âMy lady?â
âO-oh.â It registers that he was speaking to you. Youâre unsure where to place your palms, and they lay flatly open against the manâs toned chest. Still. âMy apologies for- for the intrusion so late. But IâŠâ
You were getting distracted by his kind, molten eyes is what. But he finishes for you with a slight huff of amusement, âHappened to get caught in this monstrosity of a storm, am I right in guessing?â At your nod. âWell, itâs no wonder then, my lady. Iâm only glad you made it here safe.â
âI-â You were right in feeling like you werenât able to pinpoint which century he was from. Because his tone of speaking wasnât reminiscent of any dialect youâve ever heard before - something melodic yet stiff, something understandable yetâŠdated.Â
And despite your incessant pondering, he stands as patiently as ever. Holds you as patiently as ever.
Even though the wind ruffled that neat hair of his, and the rain pelted his sides without the cover of the umbrella. You hasten to explain yourself, âI was actually on my way from a work function, a bit far away. When this storm suddenly hit and my car broke down in the middle of it- actually, I think it ended up in some ditch with no power, which is why I ended up- well- here.â You finish, lamely.
He looks thoughtful, nodding empathetically.
âAnd I really do apologize for the intrusion, really, but if I could stay just until the storm blows over and I can call for help-â
âDo forgive me for interrupting you, my lady.â The manâs precise tone speaks once more, âBut you may stay here as long as you like.â
Relief washes down your spine like a bucket of heat, melting you instantly. âOh, thank you- thank you.â And before you know it, youâre falling deeper into his arms.Â
âA lady must not thank a mere worker.â He hums with a tut, and you wonder whether that means he was one of the staff at this large building - what little you could see of the silhouette seemed larger than a normal house, and youâd assumed that it was some hotel at first.
He steps soundlessly to help you steady yourself. And youâre soon being warmly gestured inside, the umbrella being held over your head with each step, even as he stepped aside into the rain to let you through. âCome now, we must dry you off at once. Being in the cold for this long wonât be good for your constitution, my lady.â
You step inside as he directs, and it feels like stepping into a warm bath - just right.
And what youâd seen in the distance - that yolky, blinking light that led you here, your body moving as if on instinct - wasnât actually a lightbulb, as youâd thought. In actuality, it was about a dozen, flaring chandeliers.
Illuminating a fresco of gardens and flowers and spring. Lined along the sprawling ceiling like fruits that were overripe, fit to burst. They danced ever-so-slightly in the draught that the open door brought, yet not a single candle extinguished from what you could make out.
You felt so tiny in the house- mansion, as you were quickly coming to learn.Â
Greeted by an imperial staircase made of marble, and accents of gold that fought with the chandeliers over which one of them shined brighter. You donât think you could possibly count how many hallways holed themselves into the mansion just from here. Hidden caverns filled with antiques, and ever-green chrysanthemums, and paintings that you could just see the corners of. Upon either side of the entrance were large Clerestory windows that provided snapshots of the flared lightning outside; so high up, so large, that it made the front door feel dwarfed.Â
You think it looks strangely familiar - perhaps something reminiscent of those illustrations youâd seen in classic stories.
Curiously, along the winding corridors, you note that there were many mirrors. Some small and bejeweled, some tall from ceiling to floor.
In intervals unknown to you, they stood out - the brightest of them all.
You jump at the feeling of something touching your elbow-
âMy apologies for startling you, my lady.â Comes your hostâs deep voice, and you whirl around to find him bowed. With a warm, citrus-scented towel presented to you (when did he even have the time to get that?) âPlease, do make use of this towel to rinse off the water on your body. If you would like, I may do it for you?â
âNo no, I can do it.â You insist, feeling your heart race. His stern lips quirk up ever-so-slightly when you reach for it. âThank you.â
âIt is my pleasure. I wouldnât want my lady getting sick.â
My ladyâŠ
You shake your head, trying to get it free of that giggling lilâ voice that kept repeating those two words. Instead, you take the towel from the beautiful man andâoh.
Underneath your breath, you gasp through your nose. Because the very second that your fingers had grazed his own when taking the towel, a chill wafted down your spine. So cold. SoâŠunnatural. You werenât sure whether it was the sheer temperature, or the fact that it was the sheer temperature of his hand.
Why was he so cold?
Almost as if he sensed your thoughts, the man swiftly pulls his hand away. And itâs only then that you realize that he was dressed so smartly.
Shoes polished till they reflected your bewildered stare. Well-fitted black pants. A three-piece suit filled out by his broad shoulders. Black tailcoat. High collar. Steely buttons. And an emblem on his coat pocket that you couldnât read from here. Gloves. Ahâso that was why he was so cold, you guessed.
Surely there was no other reason, right?
Lightning flashes.
The rooms lights up in ice-white.
âOh dear, it seems the storm wonât be getting any better tonight.â He announces, clapping his hands twice. And then, previously unseen curtains start closing in on the windows so high above. Effectively shutting out the storm, the night, and with it, the world.
You wondered what automatic mechanism that was.
âWe best get you to bed immediately, my lady.â The blond-haired man says, his hair gleaming in the candlelight - and you couldâve sworn that itâd been all ruffled and messy by the storm just prior. Now, it was untouched, as if heâd never stepped outside.Â
He rounds the entrance, politely gesturing at you to follow.Â
âSuch a lovely place.â You observe, as youâre led up the staircase and into the East wing. The hallways were tall and ancient, humming with centuries of stories untold. And, as youâd expected, the antiques, the chrysanthemums, the paintings.
Blurs of faces that you were walking too quickly by to properly make out.
âWhy thank you, my lady.â He looks back briefly, holding a golden candelabra to light your pathway. Still walking, he doesnât need to stop to speak. âThis is an old home, with old bones, old secrets.â The man cracks a grin, âI should know, I have been lucky to call myself a worker of this fine home for a long time.â
So he did work here - a butler, all signs were pointing to. You hum, butlers had always seemed like something out of a soap opera, or those regency novels.
Having him in front of you like this made you feel somewhat dizzy.
And you were entranced by the noiseless way he moved, âAnd how long is a long time?â
âOh, one could say it feels likeâŠcenturies.â He chuckles to himself.
You make a few turns, heading deeper into the mansion. And you canât help but notice that youâve yet to see a single other person here except the two of you-
âThe masters of this home are more in name.â The butler says, in his smooth tone. Like he could sense the question forming. âThis house has been passed down through generations, and I fear that I have yet to officially meet whoever owns this grand establishment now.â
âOh?â Your brows raise, âThey seriously donât come to visit a house this beautiful? Not even as a vacation home?â
âIâm afraid so. It is all but abandoned.â He nods, âBut alas, I do not complain. They employ me here to clean and take care of this home, and thatâs all I can ask. To preserve a piece of history so magnificent, no matter how much they try to forgetâŠit shall always haunt you.â
âSo youâre alone here?â
He stops then. And turns back to you with an unreadable expression- oh, something about the way the candelabra outlined the hollows of his face made you feel cold all over again. âIâm afraid so.â Voice quiet. âWould you prefer otherwise, my lady?â
In the distance, the growl of thunder trundles.
âNo no, nothing like that.â You rush to answer, not wishing to offend the kind soul helping you for the night (and honestly, even despite that, you didnât feel a speck of discomfort with him- in fact, you feltâŠat ease). âHonestly, youâve been more than a delight- I was just wondering whether you donât get lonely in such a big house, all by yourself. I certainly would visit.â
He observes you for a moment. Before his warm expression is back again- âDo not worry yourself over my wellbeing, my lady, of course, as all good workers do, I have gotten used to it. YetâŠI must admit that there is the occasional night in which I, too, crave humanityââ
You listen, enraptured.
Before he then gestures to the door in front of which youâd stopped at - you hadnât even noticed. It was an unassuming mahogany door, polished and pristine like all the rest.
His gloved hands gently twist the doorknob and lead you inside. âYour room, my lady.â He leaves the candelabra on top of a cabinet by the doorway. âI have arranged for a warm bath to be prepared for you, with a fine selection of body washes and shampoos from around the world. After which I ask you to allow me to treat you to a light supper in bed, as you must be hungry after such an exciting night. Kindly ring the bell-â He gestures at a slim handbell on the cabinet beside the candelabra that you hadnât seen before. â-and I shall be here for you before the second ring.â
âThis isâŠâ You look around the room- chamber, more like.Â
The candles on the chandelier inside had lit up as soon as you stepped inside (you had to figure out that mechanism, somehow!) Bathing the expansive bedroom in a soft glow, like this, it almost looked like a piece of heaven itself.
An antique chamber. A four-poster king-sized bed in the middle. A plethora of sweet-scented flower pots. A few paintings of landscapes. A floor-to-ceiling window overlooking the balcony, the garden. Though now, you could only see the storm outside. On one side of the room, you could see a shelf of thick tomes, impeccably dusted, and next to it was a fireplace. Roaring.Â
You wondered how he had the time to light it.
On the other side it opened up to what you imagined must be an equally as luxurious bathroom. The polished tile squeaked as you made your way inside, reflecting your wind-torn coat that felt more than out-of-place in such a room. It almost felt like you were wading across a ballroom.Â
You whirl, and you note that one of the walls adjacent to the bed wasnât taken up by some painting or mural or wallpaper- it was nearly covered by a gleaming mirror. How interesting.
â-this is amazing.â You breathe.
âI am glad that it is to your liking, my lady.â He bows, âIf you need anything, or wish to ask anything, simply ring the bell.â
And as the blond-haired man moves to exit with a final bow, you reach your hand out- âWait-â
He turns. âMy lady?â
âAh, I didnât ring the bell but- your name.â You fiddle with the drenched fabric of your coat as you ask, wondering whether it was salvageable anymore. You tell him your own name, before questioning, âCan I ask your name?â
He smiles. âNanami Kento, my lady.â And thereâs a zip of excitement that runs through your body at finally putting a name to a handsome face. Nodding, you expect that that would be the end of your small pleasantries, and you turn back-
But before he leaves for good tonight, Nanami speaks over his shoulder. âAnd worry not, I am one hell of a butler.â
You snap your head back to listen to him speak, and find that he was already gone.
The hallway was dark outside, and there was a slight wind coming in. You hasten to shut the door and find that you canât even hear Nanamiâs footsteps disappearing, canât even hear his shadowâwell, you always had the bell, right?
You shook off the slight prickling at your skin, and welcomed yourself into the clouds of warmth spiffing from the bathroom.
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That night may have been the best sleep of your life, you had to admit. Like youâd been home, and doubled by the luxury of the place.
It might have something to do with the fact that the massive bed was amongst the comfiest things youâve ever felt, or it might have something to do with the easy cotton fabric of the pyjamas that Nanami had left while you were bathing.
Youâd come out of the bathroom, refreshed (the bathroom ceiling was blanketed with the most beautiful mosaics, and the bathtub was accented with gold), only to find that heâd left out nightwear of your liking.
Of your exact size.
Youâd stopped then, wondering how he managed to find something that fit you so perfectly.Â
Perhaps it was a lucky guess, and a previous owner of the mansion happened to be your exact size? Then again, it did feel so new in your handsâŠ
Without wearing yourself out even further, youâd rung the bell and partaken in a quick dinner (youâd been famished, having only scoffed down a protein bar during the conference). And then chosen to ignore the shivers that ran down your spine to tuck yourself in. Soon oblivious to the storm, and the mansionâs creaking, and the eyes that seemed to watch you at night.
It all felt like part of a dream.
In the morning, youâd awoken to the twittering of birds, and a slab of golden sunlight, like butter, filtering in through the window. Nanami had already laid out a gorgeous princess-line dress of emerald green for you, with a deep v-cut collar that showed just a coy bit of skin, and a silhouette that flattered your frame perfectly.
That, too, was the perfect fit.
You adjusted your sleeves and couldnât help but titter to yourself as you felt like a princess. In no time after you got ready, there was a knock at the door.
âOh, come in.â
It couldnât be anyone but Nanami. And he looked as handsome as the last time youâd seen him (earlier, in the late hours of the night youâd almost wondered whether it was the dimness that made him look so extraordinarily handsome).
But no, he was as beautiful as ever. His golden hair glinting in the sun, like a halo, and his smile beaming as he walks closer to you. âGood morning, my lady.â Nanami bows, âI see you have already prepared yourself for the day. How exquisite you look, should my eyes fall upon such a sight every morning then I should be blessed. Am I correct in assuming that the dress is adequate to your tastes?â
âItâs just beautiful, Nanami.â You run your hands down the sides, admiring. âI donât know how you managed to get my perfect size.â
He brings a gloved index up to his lips, with a wink. âA butler always had his secrets.â Before he straightens up, âNow, if you would allow me, may I help you with your hair and make-up?â
âOh-â Youâd just thought about rifling through the vanityâs drawers, with the slight hope that you might find the products you use. And as if he could read your mind, he was offering. âAre youâŠsure?â
âIt would be my honor, my lady.â Nanami sits you down on the chair before the vanity mirror. His broad frame behind you- from here, you could see just how snugly that tailcoat fit his slender waist. âYou may keep your eyes on me, or on yourself- please tilt your chin upââ
Soft, cold hands get to work.
And you really did feel like a princess.
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By the time youâre walking downstairs for breakfast, you find yourself all dolled up just the way you like it - and you didnât even have to give Nanami too many directions. You thoroughly considered taking him back once you leave.
With the crook of his elbow stuck out for you to hold onto, his biceps flexed, you made your way to sit at the head of a long table. Narrow and at least as lengthy as two of your bedrooms back home.
Him trailing behind you at the entrance, you excitedly walk forwards to sit down- and have your chair pushed in byâŠNanami?
You look towards the entrance once more, you couldâve sworn that he was still there the last time you looked.
He swiftly placed a steaming silver dish of breakfast in front of you, and then filled the table up with so many fruit platters upon toast upon sneaky puddings. Your eyes took in the kaleidoscope of food, feeling slightly dizzy at the sheer amount. âDid youâdid you make all of this just this morning, Nanami?â
âWhat, this?â He looked in slight surprise at the table, as if wondering whether that was really an incredible amount. âJust part of my duties, my lady. Along with the cleaning, the baking, and the watering, a few to name.â
You look behind you - the dining room overlooked part of the garden that you hadnât noticed last night during the storm.
Plush plants that somehow seemed unaffected by the torrents of water that had poured down: roses, chrysanthemums, marigolds, and weeping willows that all swayed idly in the wind. Like they were welcoming you. Welcoming you back. They were planted in a maze-like pattern. From here you think you could see flower-filled archways, and a lake that glittered underneath the sun.
You wondered how you missed it all last night - surely you would have stumbled across a few of the hedge growth? It all seemed so barren as youâd wound your way up to the portico, so acrid. But nowâŠ
âAnd if you donât mind me being so brazen, I hope you do forgive me for this.â Nanami says, and you whip your head back to him- him and a very familiar set of car keys he was holding. âI took the freedom to move your car into our driveway.â
Your eyes nearly pop out of their skull, âYou mean you pushed it all the way here?â
âPerhaps. Perhaps not.â Nanami smiles that secret smile, âWould you like to take a look at it after breakfast, my lady?â
You nod fervently, gulping down the rest of your breakfast.Â
In a few minutes, youâd already finished and was being tutted by Nanami into drinking enough water and putting on the outside slippers (procured by him, also your exact size) before you went outside. As expected, your car was a wreck.
There was one wheel missing and the engine seemed to be completely busted.
âI have already summoned the townâs mechanic.â Heâs telling you, as you looked on at the car in gloom - that thing had taken up a lot of savings to acquire, and above all you hated to see it in such a sorry state. How would you get home?
âAnd?â You ask, eagerly. âDid they say when they would get here?â
âIâm afraid he wonât be here for at least a few days, my lady.â Nanami frowns empathetically, mirroring you. âThe storm last night was quite vicious, you see. It has most of the roads blocked with trees, and until those get cleared up, he wonât be able to make it up here.â
You swear underneath your breath.
âBut the good news is you can stay here as long as you like!â He attempts to lighten the mood, with a smile. âIn fact, I might just keep you even longer.â
âOh, but I really couldnât imposeâŠâ
âI insist.â
And that was that, it seems youâd be staying here for a little longer than youâd originally planned. Though, with Nanamiâs hospitality, you doubted youâd feel anything but at home.
Right?
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The rest of your day and the next was spent simply reading the fantasy novels in your bedroom, lounging in the gardens and corners of the mansion.Â
By your second day there youâd explored every inch of the mansion that there was to explore (except for, perhaps the basement. A strangely nostalgic door outside. Which you had reached the very foot of, before Nanami had gently nudged you back inside with some comment about wines being mulled there that cannot see the light of day until the time was right). Itâd taken you five entire days to get yourself properly acquainted with the place. Â
And with your profanities.
Spewing them out, you donât think youâve ever used before as you attempted to get even a single bar of signal for your phone.
âGoddammit-â You grit your teeth, for the nth time in the past hour. Itâs your second day in the mansion, and youâre leaning over the balcony of your bedroom, so far outwards that you think you might just fall off.Â
With your hand outstretched, phone fisted in the air and searching for a signal. You couldnât call anyone like this, let alone the mechanic to confirm. None of your messages or emails went through, either. âHow are we this far up and yet I canât get a single bar- oh, when I get home Iâm cancelling this stupid subscription mark my words.â
âMight I suggest, my ladyââ Nanami says from behind you. He stood beside your bed, changing the blankets and fluffing the pillows. â-that in the meantime you perhaps take a look at our library? I think youâll find that we have certain books that are quite riveting.â
âMaybeâŠâ You respond, still stung by the uselessness of your phone. âI donât suppose that in the meantime you could also arrange a messenger pigeon for me, could you?â
He perks up, âI shall tame a pigeon immediately-â
âNo no, itâs alright.â You wave off, with a stifled laugh. Ah- he always did manage to put you in a better mood, despite your circumstances. âMaybe Iâll take a look at the library tonight, it beats trying not to smash my phone to bits.â
âQuite.â Nanami quips.
And before you can say anything more, heâs walking over to you. Placing his hand on top of the phone - effectively on top of yoursââAfter all, it is a beautiful day outside. Would you fancy a walk in the garden, my lady?â
âY-yes please-â You whisper, at his proximity. Cold to the touch.Â
âThen, I shall get your slippers ready.â He smiles, and leaves. You can only look from afar as he exits, letting a breath leave your chest that you didnât know youâd been holding in for the moment.
Your head drops down without thinking to look at your phone. Onlyâ
NOT FOUND ERROR 404.
You furrow your brows, trying to press on a few buttons- but the error message doesnât leave. It glitches. Different from the meager âno signalâ symbol thatâd been there earlier. And the crashed page is all you can see once more.
NOT FOUND ERROR 404.
NOT FOUND ERROR 404.
NOT FOUND ERROR 404.
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The error message lasts until your walk in the gardens.
The error message lasts all the way until after lunch. After dinner.
It was in the dead of your third night here, under the veil of darkness, when you finally manage to find a signal.Â
Despite your phone having crashed, and despite your feet aching from your productive day, you found yourself leaning over the edge of your bedroom balcony once more. The edge of your phone reaching outwardsâone bar of signal obtained.
You breathe out in relief, falling back onto the heels of your feet. The wind was whipping in spirals around you, creating a cloud of your nightdress to billow. Soft silk. Feeling like the touch of a hand.
You look at the phone screen that had finally stopped flashing that error sign, and eagerly tap towards the phone app. Onlyâ
Your phone vibrates with a call.
Confused at the Unknown number, you wonder whether this might be someone from home thatâs been worried about your whereabouts. And so you donât question it much when you slide the blaring bar and answer the call. âHello?â
No one answers.
You repeat, âHello? Can you hear me?âÂ
No one answers.
Perhaps it was the wind that was making you hard to hear? You turn away from the gales slightly, careful not to lose the humble signal that you have. And you press your phone harder against your face. âHello? Whoâs this-â
No one answers.
But thatâs when you hear it: heavy breathing.Â
Low and labored. Like someone had just run a mile and immediately picked up the phone, somehow dialing your number.
âIs this some sort of prank?â You hiss, âBecause it isnât funny. Who is this?â
No one answers.
Heavy breathing.
âAnswer me-â
No one answers.
Heavy breathing.
âHello?â
No one answers.
Heavy breathing.
âAnswer me-â
Thereâs a sharp tone as the phone ends, whether by you or whoever was on the other end of the line youâre not quite sure.
Heavy breathing.
This time, not from the phone.
You whirl around with a gaspâthe curtains gust out at a sudden wind. And thereâs no one behind you - thereâs no sound of breathing behind you, either. But youâre sure youâd heard it before. Youâre sure.
Lightning flashes in the distance.Â
Thereâs the rumble of thunder that almost sounds like laughter- in fact, youâre sure that if you let your ears keenly listen in, it was laughter. Masculine and deep. Echoing into the distance, like it was someone surrounding you.
With your phone clutched to your thundering chest, youâre quickly walking to the safety of your bedroom inside. And you decide to lock every window that night.
You couldnât sleep.
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The day after that - your third day in the mansion now, your fourth night - there was still no sign of the car mechanic. Youâd taken to sleeping during the day, lounged upon an intricately woven love seat that was inside your chambers.
Of course, Nanami hadnât questioned a thing.
He was as warm and welcoming as ever, of course. Always so efficient getting you the things you needed, helping you get ready, and cooking your favorite foods - almost too efficient. Any time you looked at him, he never seemed to have a hair out of place, despite being embroiled in the toughest of domestic tasks (he took offense any time you offered to pull your own weight until the mechanic arrived).
Practically perfect.
Almost unnatural.Â
You wondered how he had the time to do it allâŠ
And that foggy night, you tossed and turned amongst the sea of expensive silken blankets. Ultimately, as the clock struck 2AM and you still found yourself unable to sleep, you got off the side of the mattress and walked. To the candelabra on the cabinet. And then outside.
With no fixed aim nor destination, your feet took you down one of the paths youâd explored during your days here. Though, you had the faintest feeling that even if you hadnât explored- youâd have known your way around here. Past unwilted flowers and paintings that seemed to stare you down as you passed. And soon enough, you were standing in front of the great double doors of the library.
One of them, at least.
Nanami had told you that the mansion boasted about five massive libraries, filled to the brim with books across all ages and authors. And the smell of pages and put-out fires greet your senses when you enter, your slippers thudding across the cold stone floor.
The ceiling was high, almost never-ending.
And from above peered severe gargoyles, their wings outstretched, and their mouths mid-scream as if to warn you not to take a step closer. You wrapped your arms around your body and shivered, looking up at the high shelves.
With one hand craned out, you trace your fingers down their thick spines. Not a speck of dust on them.
Until, finally, the hairs at the back of your neck seem to raiseâ
You look behind you.
Nothing.
It was dark in the library, the sole source of light being the paper-thin moonlight that filtered in through the windows. Casting an almost eerie glow on everything itâs spindly fingers touched.Â
Though, you still donât think you would be able to sleep if you headed back to your bedroom right now. And you curiously read the book spines where you stopped walking (it was too dark to make them out properly, yet you still take a few of them with you, in hopes of a distraction).
You sit down at the nearest wooden table, and the singular candle holder in the middle of it flickers to life. As if awakened by your presence.
You really wondered what this mechanism must be - you made a mental note to ask Nanami tomorrow. And in the glow, you could now see what books youâd actually picked up.
Bakerâs Book (1901)
Sebastianâs Book on How to Keep the House Warm
Pride and Prejudice
A Historical Analysis of the Nanami Mansions
That one was struck through, its scabrous leather cover torn as if someone had ripped through it with a knife. You squinted as you tried to read through the title, to no avail.
Of Demons and Servitude: The Hellish Agelong Contracts That Surpass Love
That last one seemed a little out of place amongst the rest- well. You took a look around. Perhaps it wasnât that out of place.
And in the dancing candlelight, you open the first book and begin to read.
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Youâd fallen asleep there.
Somewhere midway through a paragraph about how this very mansion had no official founder, and how it had been handed to the first owner by chance; thus, resulting in its descent into discourse over ownership (with masters who, surprisingly, rather than fighting for it had been fighting not to have it), and how the whereabouts of the last master was unknown.
You dreamt of contracts and haggling masters and packed bags and demons. The red, red eyes of a demon that watched from the shadows.
As much a part of the mansion as the mansion was part of him.
And you swear that in the depths of your slumber, you felt cold, cold hands graze your skin. Your cheek. Your arms. With his pointed fingernails that were meant to kill.
A candle snuffs out.
You woke up and it was morning, and someone had draped a blanket over you.
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.
Nanami had noticed that you were becoming more and more engulfed in your books. After several more tries to reach a phone signal had failed, youâd resigned yourself to merely waiting for the mechanic to get to you.
He informed you that the road clean up seemed to have been taking longer than usual, given the constant downpour the land was experiencing. And you understood.
After all, you werenât lacking for anything here at all. Nanami made sure of that.
Youâd moved on from the mysterious, and half-recorded, history of the mansion. Somehow more interesting than you might have imagined. On towards the baking book, the novel, even the domestic book.
Until the only thing left out of the book youâd picked was the eerie one about demons. Though you could easily go back and choose another, you werenât a quitter!
And so you found yourself flipping through its pages, all the while watched over by a silent Nanami.
You begrudgingly admitted that the book had you enraptured. And soon enough, you were drinking in all there was to drink about the rituals it took to summon said demons, the way they could take on the most exquisite appearances, and even a few âreal lifeâ recounts of people whoâve encountered them.
âLook at this one, Nanami.â You pointed somewhere on the page, and he leaned over your shoulder kindly to follow your finger. âThe person saying they saw a demon here is from this very town, hah! What a coincidence.â
He smiles, âWhat a coincidence indeed, my lady.â
âJust imagine- meeting a demon. I wonder what it would be like- Iâd probably get my soul stolen in an instant.â
âDemons steal souls only after theyâve bound a human in a contract, my lady. Though other methods of payments for a demonâs services can manifest themselves in the form of blood, flesh, sex. They thirst for those things, demons. Going without is almost worse than death- of course, a demon canât die.â At your slightly stunned silence, Nanami cocks his head. âChapter sixteen, the ways of the body.â
âR-right.â You start, âSorry, I just didnât think youâd be the type to be into such things.â
He bears a secret smile. A secret, secret smile. âThere is much that you donât know of me, my lady.â Nanami spreads butter on a piece of toast without you even asking to, and places it gently down on your plate. âBut of course, there is much time to find out.â
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Itâs by your sixth day that Nanami finally knocks at your bedroom door, deep into the evening. And he informs you that-
âThe mechanic shall be here in a few hours, my lady.â You look outside through your window, at the blue and gold night. And of course he notices that little action - he notices everything. âI may have had a hand in the somewhat ah- untimely manner of things. You see, I had pressured him into coming as soon as possible, and it seems that the roads have only just cleared.â
âOh, I see.â You reply, âI expect I should go down to wait for him in a bit, then.â
âIf you so wish, my lady.â
After dinner, you took your demon book with you and paced the halls of the mansion. Just waiting. It was a few hours past when the mechanic was supposed to come, and you could feel yourself getting antsy. No matter how many times Nanami told you the mechanic would be here soon, and that he would take care of it all.
Nonetheless, when you found the corridors thoroughly trodden, you stepped outside. It was a clear night out, and you sat on the porch with your book in your lap.
Reading through the passages in the dim twilight as you waited.
You were on the final chapter now.
âChapter 22: Fables From the Shadows - Nanami Mansion.
Hearken, oâ mortal. In another story from the deep, the darkness, I entrust your ears with the legend of the Nanami mansion.
Hundred of years old. It stands still, braving the storms and the times, a relic of a past that never changes. And shall never change. Not as long as the mansion is haunted by the ghosts of its past, they say that the very walls of the house are infused with a force unknown.
Or so they say.
No mortal soul can say with utmost certainty when the mansion was built, nor by who, nor for what purpose. Only that the line of its masters has been both gruesome and bloody; history claims that what had once been impassioned family feuds over ownership quickly turned into a family heirloom that no pawn shop would accept.
No soul wished to be the master of a demon.â
A twig snaps.
And you gasp, looking up- though there was no one there. The light that flooded in from the mansion revealed no one outside, and so, shaking, you kept on reading.
The mechanic still wasnât here.
âYes, oâ mortal. It is true.
Though one cannot say for certain the dark forces that envelop the house, it is what resides inside that is sure to catch the interest of a demonologist such as you and I.
A demon.
They say that he - or, at least, he who takes the shape of a man - runs the household as if its masters still occupy its decadent bones. As if its masters werenât taken by the very force that now cleans the windows, and grows pretty flowers in the mansionâs garden. As if its masters still live.
Still linger.
But do not be fooled, dear reader, the only thing that lingers in this household is the demon himself. His smile gentle. His face kindly. It would not be out of the realm of possibility that those of mortal desires, like us, are disarmed by the handsome face he uses to mask his bloodthirst. And he has snuffed the mansion of anything that makes this house a home.â
Someone was watching you.
Somehow, it didnât feel human.
âOne by one, it started with the other servants, centuries ago. Those who were lucky to flee their posts and tell the tale spoke of a shadow that haunted their every waking moment, of a fleeting presence that produced nail marks in the morning, or items in their chambers suddenly unravelled.
He was the model worker, unsusceptible.
And by the time the masters of the household realized, it was far too late for their mortal souls. The servants had disappeared, the livestock had fallen to plague, and the only residents of the mansion were them. And him.â
Someone was waiting.
You knew it didnât feel human.
âThere need not be much speculation on the fates of the owners in the house at the time, after which there was a scramble to pawn the mansion by living relatives.
Though, by that point, rumors of the mansionâs more supernatural occurrences were already beginning to fester, and the effort was futile.Â
And though the mansion stands lonely now, never think that it is abandoned, oâ mortal. Perhaps you shall find that the chandeliers are always lit, and the beds are made. Dinners at the mansion are lavish and a-plenty. All of this can be given credit to the demon that runs it, of course.â
You stand up.
The mechanic was countless hours past when he was supposed to come, and you guessed he wouldnât be making it today, either. Perhaps something more urgent had come up. Your feet step backwards- but something stops you, as if an invisible force. And without taking your eyes away from the page, you step forwards.
âWhy this ancient creature torments the mortals that reside in the mansion, yet takes such meticulous care of it is a question unanswered to us. Perhaps we may never know.
Though some whispers claim that the rightful owner isnât any lord or ladyship or bastard heir. No, not at all. It is - and brace yourselves for this, dear reader - none other than the demon himself.â
Forwards.
âOf course, this is only one theory put forth by demonologists. But as the rightful heir to the estate, the demon takes his time finishing off the foolish mortals that believe that it is theirs to claim. When, in actuality, you are stepping into the very abode of the creature. And no one - no one - has lasted longer than six days in its abode.
A creature that cannot ache. A creature that cannot love.â
Forwards.Â
âAnd he will always have his door open to the ignorant that walk in. Into what one may think is a heaven named after his very self.â
You stop.
âNanami Kento, of the Nanami Mansions.â
The book drops from your hands.
A scream in your throat, youâre realizing that youâd walked yourself - almost in a trance - right up to the shrub-covered door to the basement. The very same one that Nanami had nudged you away from last time.
NanamiâŠa shiver runs down your spine. You donât know what to think.
Almost as if it will provide you the answers, you reach out and twist the basement door handle. It creaks out in agony as it opens, and you almost have half the mind to run away right then, right now.
But youâre no quitter.Â
In nothing but the pale moonlight, you step inside the basement and make your way down its narrow stairway. They were made of metal, biting through the soles of your slips with each step. Youâre squinting your eyes in the darkness, hands reached out in front of you like youâd find something.
And thenâ
And then, right as you reach the landing of the staircase, you step in something wet.
It almost felt like a puddle after rain. Though the liquid stuck to your slippers, thicker than that. And as you raised your feet, it created a hollow squelch; the viscous sap looked much darker than water was supposed to be.
You gasp. It canât be-
Lightning strikes.
Just a snapshot of light. Like someone had taken a photograph and burned it into your retinas.
In that split-second, you saw that what youâd thought was a puddle of water wasnât really water at all. It was red. It was thick.
And it was leading a pathway all the way down to a body in the middle of the basement.
Two-toned hair bled red. Eyes pure white.
The mechanic lay dead on the basement floor. For how long, you werenât quite sure.
With a scream, you almost slip on the blood as you sprint upstairs. Running out into the pouring rain outside - if youâd been guided in a daze to the massacre, then your brain was working in overdrive to guide you out.Â
Slippers squelching. Eyes stinging with rain. You couldnât even see where you were going, and it reminded you of the night you arrived here.
Yet, youâll always find the mansion - always. And in almost no time (though it felt like eons to your poor, shivering body), youâre running inside the mansion and slamming! the front door shut.
Body pushed against the door. Lungs heaving. You gulp.
With your eyes downturned, your watch the rich carpet beneath your feet drench with beads of water. Rusted water. Blood.
Fuck.Â
You had to get out of here right now.Â
Just as soon as the thought has struck your brain, the candles go out. Every. Single. One of them. Startled, youâre whipping around and trying to open the door- bang! bang! bang! It only rattles underneath your hands, firmly shut with unseen bolts and padlocks that you wouldnât have been able to open no matter what.
And itâs only with the thin glow of the moonlight that you can move your urgent body, one step after the other. Jerky, as if you have to force yourself to do it.
As if you have to fight against some outside force to do so.
You knew that no matter where you went inside the mansion, Nanami would be able to find you. What if youâthe balcony.
You gasp, and try to tamper the thought down as swiftly as it had formed.Â
Without a second of lingering any further, your feet dart you up the sprawling staircase. Spirals. Heart thundering, feet thudding, and your gasps laborious as you ran towards the bedroom that he had oh-so-graciously given to you.
Footsteps.
Slow.
Steady.
The complete opposite of your own, follow you the closer you get to it. Seeing that gleaming wooden door wink at you from the end of the hallway, like an old friend.
Until, finally, youâre throwing open the door and running inside-
âMy lady.â
You howl in terror and itâs swallowed up by the sudden crashing of the storm outside. You hadnât just raced into your room- youâd ended up bumping into none other than Nanami Kentoâs firm, toned chest.
Carefully looping his arms around you.
âYouâre-â You hiss, stepping backwards. âYouâre a-â
âYes.â
And then suddenly heâs behind you. Caging you inside the room, with no possibility of running back where youâd come from.Â
He looms, larger than life. His shadow walking inside- âI canât believe youâre a-â You stagger backwards, âSo all this time-â
âAll this time.â Nanami breathes out, even though you knew that his lungs didnât need to work. Then he grins and oh- itâs the one thing that you could see completely clearly in the dimness of the night: his stark-white fangs, those crimson eyes, pupils like a snakeâs.Â
They bore down at you, especially when your limp legs stumble- and Nanamiâs right there to steady you. With his inhumanly strong arms capturing your waist, and his chest pressed to yours.Â
Oh.Â
That low voice of his buries deep within your eardrums, sensual. âAnd Iâve been waitingâŠâ He practically purrs, and your thighs clench. â-so, so long for you, my lady.â
You feel shivers go down your spine when Nanami nuzzles his nose against your throat, âA- a long time- so you mean that-â
âYes.â
âAm I an descendant to the owner of this house-â
âYes.â He sighs out his answers, like it took everything in him. Like he was breathing life into you. And you canât help but notice that the two of you have edged towards the bed now, and you slightly turn your head to look at the mirror on the wall. âAnd you donât know how starved I have been, my lady.â
Only to find that Nanamiâs reflection didnât show up on it.
It looked as if you were standing by yourself, and the blond-haired man (demon, more like) only holds you tighter in response. He murmurs in your ear, âThough enlightening, that book of yours doesnât hold much truth.â
âIt doesnât?â
âWell-â His fangs glint, â-it does.â
You shiver. Not only with coldness, not only with fear.
Something more akin to a carnal need, with him pressed up against you like this.
âThough, it was wrong about two things-â Nanamiâs plump lips graze down the column of your throat, and you wonder whether he can sense the way you growâŠwet. â-a demon can yearn, a demon can love.â
Oh.Â
One of his overlarge hands drag down your spine, fiddling with the ties of a dress that heâd tailored to your exact size. Perhaps centuries ago.
âAnd this demon has been waiting for centuries for your soul to return, my lady.â
Your arms tighten on his shoulders, and tender slip up to loop around his neck. âIâm here, Kento.â Your body is boneless in his hold, and he holds you to him like he wants you to be of one soul.
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Thereâs a sodden squeeeeelch as heâs lightly tugginâ those cute panties of yours aside- how could you even walk around with something so sweet on you?
Nanami feels his oh-so-famished tastebuds start to water at the sight of your pretty, pretty cunt. Just a thin line of drool makinâ its way down the side of his stern lips, mirroring the way that your tight hole was weeping out.
He rubs his glove-clad thumb down the front of your glistening folds, and you whimper at the scratch of its smooth texture. âHave you ever done something like this before, my lady?â
With a mewl, you nod.Â
And you canât help but notice the way that Nanamiâs jaw clenches. âI see.â And thereâs an inkling of something dark in his tone that you canât quite pinpoint right now, roverinâ his mean fingerpads just over where your poor clit was. âAnd, forgive me if this is too forward, but have you ever fully enjoyed something like this before, my lady?â
âWell-â You try to keep your tone even, bucking off the bed. You were all sprawled out with only your drenched panties on, and Nanami Kento was on his knees by the foot of the bed.
On his knees for you.
His lips twitched impatiently, a sort of hunger in his eyes the longer he had to watch your needy pussy cling onto nothing. Continuing, âWell, Iâve liked it before with other people but-â
âYes, my lady?â
And as you finish off, you slightly duck your head in shame. Whispering the words out (though you knew heâd hear with his demonic senses anyways). âBut none of them have ever made meâŠcum before. I can reach it by myself but with other people- you know.â
âI understand.â You peer up to see the way that Nanami stares kindly at you. Something understanding in his eyes. SomethingâŠprimal.
And your cunt starts to throb even more once he reaches his dominant right hand up to his mouth, then proceeding to bite down on the edge of his glove, and pull it off with his tongue. So unintentionally attractive. âThen, kindly allow me.â
In a split-second, his thick fingertip is probinâ between your pussylips.
Feeling the hotness of you clenching âround him and he groans- âYouâre so ready for me, arenât you, madam?â Just the slightest hitch in his tone as heâs then sinking in with a slooooooppy slurp. The kind that leaves your ears ringing and your mouth dropping with each scouring inch he eases in.
Your eyes roll to the back of your skull at the feeling of his tender girth poking your insides. âO-oh my god.â Bucking your hips even deeper into his touch- âHow does it feel so good already?â
âOh, is that soâ?â Nanamiâs blond lashes flutter in amusement, âBut you havenât felt anything yet, my lady. Wonât you just raise your hips for me-â He guides you, and youâre squirming down his lengthy digits. â-yes, yes. Just like that, keep taking it all, alright?â
âI am I am-â Sobbing.
And you donât know where youâre bawling more from - your swollen lips on your face, or the ones down below. The ones that he was striking viciously with his mountainous knuckles, every time he thrusted to let the long, solid inches of his finger delve inside.
Inside and inside.
Pushinâ in- he was just so eager to plunge himself inside.
Until the very forefront of his knuckles smacked your pussylips, and Nanamiâs ruthlessly pressing his ring finger against your outer cunt. Smooch-smooch-smooching the very round tip of his ring finger against your pulsing clit, until heâs trying to fit that inside, too.
âEasy does it.â Nanami hisses, blond brows furrowing. Beads of sweat start decorating his forehead as he concentrates. âEasy- eeeeeasy. You can take it, my lady.â
And if you thought that the stretch of one of his fingers was enough to drive you wild, then you werenât ready for two. âOh my- fuck. Youâre so mean.â You whine, holding onto his other gloved hand. Nanami has his fingers romantically intertwined with yours, and you were just clawing at his wrist there.Â
The demon raises a brow - devilish. âWould you like me to stop?â
âNo!â You rush to blurt out, your hips startinâ to gyrate. It took you a few vulgar strokes to get used to the size of him stretchinâ out your tiniest hidden nooks and crannies open - you swear that Nanamiâs fingers were larger than normal. Scouring oh-so-deeply inside. âNo no no- keep going. Ngh, youâre a-almost there.â
âMmm, am I?â His lip curls, âAnd I wonder if ah- âthereâ would feel even better with three fingers, hm?â
âO-ohâŠâ
âThatâs all you have to say, madam?â Nanami genuinely questions, though thereâs a certain waver in his voice that lets you know he was teasing you. He was making your honeyed cunt grow even wetter with how Nanami Kento, of all beings, was being mean to you.
And with a few more slashing strokes, heâs fully opened up the clingy channel of your walls- fuck, he couldnât even reel his two fingers back without your needy pussy trying to gulp him back up again.
Then with a sudden, soaked squelch youâre feeling a third of his fingertips kiss your tight hole. Tapping just a few times before he instantly presses down on your clit and makes you gasp- âOh, fuck.â
The perfect moment for Nanami to shove his extended digit inside. All three of them expanding and contracting, scissoring a few times to engrave the crowned edges of his fingers against your most tender spots. âThere-â Nanami hisses, between clenched teeth. âThere there there-â
Youâre suddenly seeing white- why?Â
Because on that fourth bludgeon of his, Nanamiâs easily locating your g-spot to pummel.
â-youâre taking it all so well, my lady. Sâlike youâre made fâmeâŠheh.âÂ
âShit-â Only blubbering and panting, heâs hittinâ your favorite spot so hard that your vision starts to blue - and you donât know whether itâs because of tears or the sheer amount of white-hot pleasure that heâs making run through your body. âShit shit shit shit- oh. Right there, keep going, Kento.â
Yet another smack! to that gooey bundle of nervesââOhhh, how I love when you call me that, madam.â Hard.
Push after push after push, and heâs spreading his prying tips so open- letting the doughy edges catch on the crevices of your g-spot. Meanly caressing.Â
Even though heâs speeding up, slick dripping down the sides of his overworking wrists like a faucet, you donât think he misses that lewd target of his even a single time. Push after push after push. Dizzy with the force, you look up nâ find that Nanamiâs slitted pupils were glowing.
He was using his demonic powers to perfectly angle the strikes of his fingerpads against your sweetest, sultriest spot. Stickinâ straight against your nerves, you had absolutely no chance of a breather when he was using some sort of x-ray vision to keep your pussy captive.
âCaptive?â Nanami reads your thoughts, âMadam, I fear that this isnât even- hah, half of my speed. Would you like me to accelerate?â
And he does.
And youâre feeling so much bliss at the moment that you canât stop yourself from anchoring your feet onto the mattress and pushing off- unsure whether you wanted to help meet his cadence or run awayâ
âAh ah, what an adorable feat.â
His husky baritone breaks through your hazy thoughts- and before you know it, Nanamiâs free hand untangles from yours to grip the sides of your neck nâ tug you right back.
Slapping that cutely sensitive front of your pussy with his knuckles, the demon chuckles darkly as you squirm at the pleasure. âYou donât think you can run away from me, can you, my silly lady?â With a growl, he tightens his restraint on your throat and makes you wince at the lack of oxygen. âYou canât. You wonât.â
And with that, Nanami cranes his watering mouth down to kiss the insides of your thighs. Letting the syrupy-sweet sheen of your slick coat his chin, âIâve waited for you for centuries, and Iâll wait for you centuries more. Iâll find you.â Tightening. âDonât think of running, madam.â
âWonât- wonât-â You squeal out, and through the blurry gaps of your vision you can see the way that Nanamiâs salivating. The way that his lips edge towards your heated core, the way he looks like heâs starving the longer he stares down at your cunt. âBut, Kento, I do have one request of you.â
He snaps his head up immediately, âAnything, madam.â
âCould you please, ngh-â Your lips wobble desperately as you utter, and Nanami listens enraptured to every word. â-please put your mouth on me?â
And the stern man - a demon, living for centuries, unphased as he waited for your soul to meet him again - lets his mouth drop into a heated âohâ as he registers. As he lets your words throb all the way at his furious cock.
âAs you wish, my lady.â
Then youâre feeling the scorching hot sensation of his breath cloud your inner thighs, slithering upwards just in time with his mouth. âAs you wish-â Nanami whispers, more to himself - more like a mantra.Â
âAs you wish, as you wish, as you- mmm.â His mouth slips over the crevice of your cunt, and youâre feeling him perfectly slot his lips with your folds. He cracks his ravenous mouth open, âAllow me to- oh.â
Before immediately shutting himself up after the first candied taste of your cunt.Â
He lets his slicked tongue squeeze inside, gulping. âF-forgive me for not finishing my sentence. What I meant was, allow me to-â You buck, shoving him nose-deep between your sultry pussylips. â-oh, fuck. Forgive me, you just have me soâŠâ
And he canât even finish his sentence like this.
Because every time heâs parting those stern lips of his to speak, yet another glittery wad of your slick slips between that greedy maw of his. Pooling at the back of his mouth like some puddle, he canât fucking get enough of your sweet, sweet juices. âItâs just- the taste of you. Shit. My lady, and who has allowed you to taste this sinful?â He hums. Guttural.
âMmm, I dunno. Maybe you shouldâve found out earlier-â You say, coyly. And raise your hips up to let his strong, velvety tongue pry inside nâ out. Almost fighting his fingers for space inside.
âMaybe you shouldâve appeared earli- oh, fuck.â Shit, did he love hearing your gorgeous voice in conversation.Â
But if that meant breaking off his prolonged, open-mouthed kiss with your pussy then he wasnât wasting any time. He was just slathering his maw widely agape, the flat tastebuds on top of his tongue moving back and forth and all over.
And spearheading just his honed tip inside, the crowned girth of his tongue snakes all the way to your innards. Jostling his own fingers-
You gasp when that only makes him skid his fingertips against your g-spot even further.Â
âI promise, Iâll be able to finish my sentences-â Nanami seethes. â-promise Iâll be able to, just with another- mmm, just another taste-â And his tongue lavishly licks up and down your slit. â-and another- oh, maybe one more-â
Again and again.
Heâs trying to control himself but he canât.
His sizzlinâ hot tastebuds probe their way inside, before ultimately pulling out and resting against your clit. Nanami counts your throbbing pulse one-two-three-four times before he starts fucking you with it again.
All three of his digits and his tongue. Swirlinâ in dizzying patterns around and around and drawing a cute heart on top of your nub. Followed right up by his silvery initialsââN.K.â
Youâre shivering, curling the tips of your toes as the fatness of his tongue rolls over your clit. Again and again. And his fingers are just merciless- digging three slender circumferences against the side of your walls, feeling that if he could thrust even deeper to hit the side of your cervix then he would have ages ago. In factâŠ
âWh-what are you-â You jump your upper half off of the springy sheets - it was as if your wet dream was coming to life. Nanami was elongating the tendrils of his fingers with supernatural powers, slipping every thorough inch even deeper. âOh my god- ngh, now thatâs just unfair-â
âAnd yet, Iâm not the one that thought of it.â He snickers, plunging his digits further. And further and further.Â
So deep, in fact, that you think you can feel his slimy, slick-glazed tips all the way near the back of your throat. Stabbing in thorough thrashes, you huff. âAnd yet- whoâs the one thatâs, mmm, pussydrunk, hm?â
âNo- no no no, Iâm not pussydrunk, madam.â Nanami insists, âNot at all. This is just a slight affliction that I- mmpf.â
You clench âround his fingers and that only makes him jerk his face even deeper- thank goodness he didnât have to fucking breathe, because he was spending all his time swabbinâ away. Using the hand he still had on your throat, he pulls you in incredibly. âItâs not that mâpussydrunkââ Slurring his damn words. â-itâs just thatâŠâ
âMhmâ?â
Youâre so wet by now that you begin to gush down his face. And Nanami didnât have blood running through his veins, of course, but you should still feel his cheekbones burn with heat.
Youâd made the centuries-old demon blush.
Youâd made him gurgle on the slippery wads of your slick.
So completely pussydrunk that the thought of you realizing he was so- and taking your treacly cunt away made him glue his lips to your clit with a slight cry. A slight whimperââD-donât take this pretty pussy away from me.â His hand lifts off of your neck to hold onto your thighs, tugging. âPlease?â
And as if to prove his point - to prove his desperation - the roverinâ tip of Nanamiâs tongue moves even harder against your pussy.
Even faster.
And his scouring fingerpads probe in so deep that you throw your head back with a moan. Those wriggling tips filling up your every orifice, âYes-â You weave your fingers into his unruly golden locks. âMânot gonna, Kento-â Gasping. âMânot gonna take myself away s-so you donât have to- oh.â
âThank you, my lady.â Just so rough with it. âThank you- thank you- thank you-âÂ
You swear heâs bruising at the battered innards of your walls, and heâs leaving nail marks for daaaaays upon your thighs. Battling with his own lecherous fingers. Moving his lush tastebuds again and again and again-
âThank you for lettinâ me taste such a sweet, sweet pussy, madam.â Nanami scorches out against your cunt, slobbering all down it. âThank you for letting âer- ngh, cum all down my tongue.â
âC-cum?â You lift your dazed head at his pussydrunk babbling - only to find that it wasnât just babbling, after all.
Because Nanamiâs honed abilities meant that he could sense when the zapping fireworks at the pit of your stomach grew, he could fucking smell the honeyed fragrance of your cunt growing close. And, sure as day, with a few more vulgar strokes, youâre falling apart on his fingers and his mouth.
Your back arching you even closer against his nuzzlinâ nose, you cry out as your high zaps right through you. âIt feels so good- oh, Kento. Oh my g-god.â
âMmm, the opposite, my lady.â Nanami chuckles, fucking you through every peak of your high- you should have expected that he has a sixth sense for it. And with the soaring peaks of your orgasm, Nanami mazes his fingertips to directly hit your g-spot.
So good.
Youâre drooling through your entire high stupidly, your eyes watering through the sensitive pangs of pleasure. Tugginâ on Nanamiâs clammy scalp to pull him in even deeper, and he was more than happy to let himself be moved. To be ridden.
Long, sloppy drag of his tongue making you arch your back. âSh-shut up-â Mewling out, you let yourself be wrung dry of the waves of pleasure.Â
âAs you wish, madam.â
And he dutifully listens, there for only your euphoria. To which you respond by elongating your high by grinding down on his faceâallll the way from the point of his handsome chin to the tip of his straight nose. âShit-â You whimper, âShit shit shit- never felt so good. Never felt like this.â
Nanami groans âround your clit, the vibrations sending you into a frenzy.
âMâserious-â You prattle out, your movements eventually slowing. That might just have been the best orgasm of your entire life - you were never going to be the same. âIt just felt so good, KentoâŠwait, youâre not- ngh, done?â
He only shakes his head.
He only lets his slitherinâ tongue lap and lap at the teary crevice of your pussy.
With every lick, youâre feeling your body go into overdrive. Heat flaring. Heart racing. You absolutely thrash against the damp sheets of the bed as he continues- like youâd never even reached your high.Â
Just plap after plap after plap of his knuckles against your tender outer pussy- and you start to wonder whether it doesnât hurt for him. Whether his wrist doesnât sting. Whether his mouth wasnât swollen nâ rubbed raw on your drippinâ wet pussy, âMmm, told me to shut up and make you feel good, didnât you, madam?â You werenât entirely sure that that was what you said, verbatim.Â
Yet youâre too gone on his silvery tastebuds to bite back anything now. âY-yesâŠ?â
âAnd thatâs exactly what mâdoing.â
Heâs overstimulating you even more. Thrusting his tongue between those sopping wet lips of yours to poke at your throbbing g-spot, you swear heâs able to elongate his wet muscle even further.
Slashing against your most tender spots-
âSh-shit- but mâso sensitive.â Whining out, you half-heartedly attempt to tug him off of your pussy- but it was as if Nanami was plastered to your wettened lips. âI donât even know if I can cum so soon again, Kento.â
He slightly raises his head - not enough to stop his drivelling mouth, of course - and raises a blond brow. âYou donât know, my lady?â
You shake your head.
âWell, thereâs only one way to find out.â
And with that said, heâs fingering you to make a point. Staring at the writhing expressions on your face every time Nanamiâs digits plunged inside, they hit the near-back of your pussy with such slurping sounds.
Hit after hit. Teasingly kissinâ against the throbbing spot of your nerves, and thatâs when you can feel the fireworks start up again in the pit of your stomach once more-
And thatâs when Nanami can sense it.
Smell it.
Taste it- fuck, it was as if you became even sweeter on his tongue any time you were nearing your high. And he doesnât say a single word - doesnât waste the time to - only thrashing and thrashing, he hits the bruised area of your g-spot and watches as you fall apart once more.
Pleasure zipping through your body.
Toes curling.
Tears were streaming down your cheeks, and your mattress was all but drenched with the moisture.
âOh my god-â Youâre all but limp by your second orgasm, letting it wrack your body mercilessly. âYou were right-â Your breath hitches. â-ngh, mâcumming again, Kento. C-cummingââ
âMmm, I know, madam.â Nanami grins, and you can feel it form against the tender folds of your pussy. Branding itself there. âI did that.â
He was mean.
You buck and you buck and you buck as he licks every crevice of your insides, and once he was done fucking you well nâ proper through your other high- the slicked tip of Nanamiâs tongue slurps back in once again. As if to do it all over again.
He feels you clench âround him urgently, âA-again?â You ask, with a weepy tremble in your voice.
âMmm, donât think you can do it a third time?â Nanami gutturally groans out, âDâyou wanna find- ngh, find out, hm?â
âActuallyâŠâ And he hangs onto your every word.Â
Your jittery fingers intertwine with his polished hair, tugging. Continuing where you left off, âI was thinking that mâready for something else.â He looks on in something that almost looks like disbelief - desperation. As if he couldnât believe that these words were really spilling out of your mouth. âWanâ your cock, Kento.â
And something in him seems toâŠsnap.
âA-as you wish, my lady.â
He bows to you, right then and there.
In practically no time - though, to Nanami whoâd been waiting for centuries, it only felt like centuries more - youâre being pushed back on the mattress until your head softly nudges the headboard. Nanami heaves himself up on the bed.
And you canât help but notice that for someone who always looked so prim and put-together, he looked absolutely gone.
Hair sticking up in multiple angles. Eyes half-lidded and drunk. Slick dribbling down the sides of his mouth and down his prominent Adamâs apple. It drops from his fangs, which have now elongated. And lecherously down the front of his suit, which was a darker color than it usually was- drenched in heaps of your mess. In heaps of his mess.Â
In quick, severe movements, Nanami takes his suit off. So fast and urgent that you can hear the whooshing sounds of the fabric attempting not to rip at the seams.
When it gets to his pants, your eyes drop down - itâs been a feast for the eyes with every layer that Nanami peeled away. First it revealed those broad, milky shoulders of his. Then it revealed his plush pecs, his ladder-like abs.
Until finally you were following the line of his sparse happy trail down to his thick, aching cock. And fuck- a few profanities leave your mouth, he was the biggest size youâve ever seen.Â
Just about nine inches (perhaps ten), with a plethora of winding veins that made it look as though heâd feel like he was twelve. A thick hilt. Ready balls. And the fat mushroom tip of his cock was glazed in a glittery topping of precum, pulsing primally as the cold air hit him. Dripping.Â
âAnything you wish, my lady.â
Shivering at his serious tone of voice, you reach a hand up to your own collar-
Only to be halted in your tracks by an invisible force.
Nanami had one hand raised, his power surging. âAllow me.â He says, and with a harsh brush of his animalistic fingernails, heâs tearing your dress into shreds. Like butter under his touch. Easily falling apart.Â
Your dress to your bra, they fall into tatters. And the only thing left is your slick-flooded panties that he scrapes a hand down to tear off, as well.
Before stopping- and seeming to think better of it- âActually.â Nanami starts, âKeep them on.â
Oh, he was being filthy.
He was being mean.
And before your hazy brain can even register it, your legs are being flapped open. Kept firmly apart by two of his soft hands, feather-light, he pins them to the mattress and lets his slick cockhead slide juuuuust between your pussylips.
Back and forth, back and forth. The weight of his throbbing girth only makes you grow even wetter, and youâre gasping by the time heâs glazed himself up ânough to start pushing in.
âNow-â Nanami hisses, fangs grit. His heated body hunches over, and sweat beads down from his forehead to yours. The first feeling of your pussy clamping all âround his rock-hard length, and Nanami is a broken man. Slamming his hand down on the top of the mahogany headboard. âNow, madam, weâre gonna have to breathe, alright? Breathe with me now-â
You gasp- âFuck- fuck, youâre so big-â
âMhmmmâcâmon, my lady, breathe with me.â And though he was almost falling apart at the seams, he found the ability to string together coherent-enough sentences. Seething. âBreathe in. Breathe out. Breathe inââ
In and out. In and out.
Just like the way that plush, pinkish tip of his was swabbinâ repeatedly- he was pumping out half-ruts, just trying to fit himself inside your pussy.
Opening you up wiiiidelyâ
You try to follow along with what he says, âFuck-â But the stretch of the first inch of his cock fitting in was incredible, he was molding his way inwards. Shaping out your snug channel, âBut how am I supposed to when you feel like- hah- that-â
âAwww, difficult, hm?â Nanami coos, empathetically. You nod, all teary-eyed and pretty taking his elongated shaft that he canât help but let himself swell just a lilâ wider. Thicker.
Youâre taking this change in size with a moan.
And he ponders to himself for a few more strokes, getting used to the warmth of your cunt. Before humming like heâd just been struck with an epiphany- and soon enough, Nanamiâs holding out his strong, vein-covered forearm in front of your line of vision.
Murmuring, âThen bite on it.â
Your eyes widen, âWhat?â But before you know it, youâre already making use of the demonâs sinful little solution - the next inch that heâs somehow mazing inside you, youâre sinking your teeth into the golden flesh of his forearm and taking it.
âMmm, just like that.â He pants, squeeze-squeeze-squeeeezing his way past your puckered folds. The globular front of his cock kisses either side of your walls, pinpointing specks of pre everywhere his fingers had touched just moments earlier. âTake it- take it take it take it- sloooow and easy. Youâre doing so well, my lady.â
Sensually, heâs managing to let your ravenous cunt swallow up his inches.Â
And your sobs hitch after every stroke, it just felt like his fleshy tip was gracing your very lungs. You straddle his slim waist- tugging. âK-KentoâŠâ
âImpatient, are we?â He raises a brow, âYou have to take it easy, madam, if we want it to fit- breathe in. Breeeeathe inââ
And every time you did, he was shovelling in a few more inches. But the thing about Nanami Kento is that he made sure he tended to your every need; playfully rolling his thumb over your clit as he pumped himself into your hot core.Â
Which meant that he took things slow, took things at a pace that your feverishly needy mind was being infuriated by.
Without warning (though, later on, youâre sure that heâd sensed it coming and simply let you), you lock your ankles around his hips and pull-pull-pull him in.Â
And with that, his roverinâ wet shaft.
Bottoming out.
The headboard heâs holding onto cracks under the pressure.
You wanted him deep inside you. And Nanami can only respond by spitting out a line of swears that hits you in a scorching breeze, his face twisting into something of pure ecstasy. âO-oh.â Nanamiâs voice stutters. Nanamiâs voice cracks. âOhhh, you shouldnât have done that, my lady.â
And without further ado, heâs fucking you like a madman.
âWanted to t-take it easy- you shouldnât have done that-â He manages to spit out. Body shivering. His cock throbbing angrily right at the spongy platform of your cervix. âYou r-really reallyâŠâ Dazed, slightly, like his body was moving in water, he unhooks his palm from the now-splintered headboard. Then he throws those cute legs of yours over his deltoids.
Letting them lock firmly behind his sweaty neck, Nanamiâs bending his ripped body doooooown. Folding you in half, too- you swear youâre hearing a few of your joints pop!Â
And Nanamiâs only hazily gliding his palm down your limbs, a soothing coldness overcoming them. No broken bones on his watch (even if his body was moving before his mind right now). So thereâs no excuse for why you canât bend in half for him. No excuse for why he canât press his sticky forehead to yours and drill his hips even harder.
No excuse for the way that rotund tip of his scrapes your cervix with a rapid thud! thud! thud! The tender curve of his ballsack strikes the front of your pussy all rawâ
Your mouth waters with the impact, âY-youâre reaching in so deep, ngh.â But of course he was: he had you manhandled until the caps of your knees hit your tits.
âMmm, just how you like it- hm?â Nanami chuckles, though thereâs a certain pleading tone in his voice. Those drunken, honeypool eyes of his are boring straight into yours, and he memorizes even the slightest expressions youâre making at the massage of his puffy cock. âIt feels good? Feels great? Makinâ this pussy feels so- oh, loooovely like she deserves?â
âYes-â Youâre gasping, your throat hoarse at the feeling of his zig-zagged veins that just kept intruding into your deepest hidden crevices. âYes yes yes yes- yes-â
Somehow, he always managed to find the area that your drippinâ wet cunt needed him the most. Just straightly heading his wet tip towards that spot, and pressing a thorough smooch that made you damn near scream into his mouth.
And itâs then that a sudden thought hits you.
âOh.â
âOh?â Nanami echoes- fuck, youâd almost forgotten that he could read minds. And with those demonic powers of his, he was echoing out a certain cockdrunken idea that you had. âSo you want to know whether I can use my extra vision to hit your g-spot with my, mmm, cock, huh?â
Restless, you nod.
âAnd you know what you need to- d-do to have me fulfill your wishesâright, madam?â Uttering out - stumbling though his words.Â
Shit, even he was affected by the idea.
The ends of his tight fingertips shivering as you finally unfasten your mouth to ask- âC-can you please- ngh, use your powers to hit my g-spot, Kento?â And when you flutter those teary lashes of yours for effect?
Fuck, you might as well just call him a dead man (he was too far gone on your gushing cunt to register the fact that he, technically, wasnât living).
Because with a sudden, concentrated surrender of his hips- Nanami perfectly angles the blushinâ red end of his shaft. That lilâ divot on the very end streamed out precum that made you splosh around from the inside, âBreathe in.â He rasps, thumb flitting down to press on your clit. âBreathe- out-â
âOh- oh myââ More like youâre squealing out at the rough jab of his cockhead. The demonâs eyes activate into something glowing when he perfectly targets your needy g-spot.
Snickering. âBreathe in.â
You breathe in.
âBreathe-â
This time, he doesnât even finish his damn sentence before letting the slit of his shaft snag your sweetest spot. You had so many cute, clingy ridges inside that he loves to stretch out with his sheer girth- and one of them was right by your g-spot that Nanami just kept rubbing and rubbing and rubbing all over.
Wadding out a mess of his precum until your walls likely looked like cobwebs from the inside- âYou donât know what youâre- hah, doing tâme, little mortal.â The fatness of his thumb rolls over your clit, making you see stars. âHave no idea. No- oh, have n-no idea.â
His free hand holds your quivering jaw, turning your face up to look at him and only him.
âYouâve made a demon fall in love with you, my lady. Tut tut.â
Youâre squirming in his hold- he was losing control over his body. Unraveling at the seams. Rutting like an animal. Even the smooches of his hardened cock left your insides all bruised nâ battered, swat-swat-swat.
âAnd not only thatââ Nanami continues, in his slightly breathy tone. You half-wondered whether he even knew what he was babbling away- âOh- not quite, madam. I do apologize.â He answers your unspoken question.
Your breath catches - so he was pussydrunk enough to simply be prattling away. Unthinking.
The spit-slicked edges of his mouth gluing against yours, his tone was absolutely shattered as he mutters into your open maw. âBut youâve made me fall in love with your- your pussy, too.â
As if in response, your dampened cunt lets out some of the most lecherous noises. And you huff out a teasing giggle, âYouâre talking as if this is your- mmm, first time, Kentoââ
But Nanami doesnât laugh.
Nanami doesnât do anything but look at you so-very-seriously.
âW-wait-â Realization starts dawning on you, and you can feel your heartbeaten quicken as it sets in. âDonât tell meâŠit really is your first time.â He grinsâŠand nods. âAnd earlier with your mouth, too- was that-â
âBut of course, madam.â The demon breathes, thoroughly ruined on your sweet, sweet pussy. âI did say that I have been waiting- mmm, centuries for you, no?â
Oh, shit.
If this was what he was like when he was inexperienced, then you almost feared to wonder just how good heâd be when he was experienced - with none other than you, youâre imagining. And as if to prove his point, he plunges and plunges his thickened shaft into you.
The plump circumference of his tip fitting against where he was causing your g-spot to indentâhollowing out with his rotund end.
In time with each of his thrusts, Nanamiâs fingers pinch your perky clit. You were throbbing with need for him, and his mean thumb drew out so many things right on top of where you were most sensitive.
Swirls nâ hearts nâ his initials.
You could feel the branding of his name stinging against your core, each movement of his fingerpads creating the sloppiest slurps. âOh, please-â Whimpering, you rut against his glissading abs. âPlease please please please-â
âYou canât just say âpleaseâ with no- mmm, command.â He chuckles to himself, as if you were the cutest thing in the world. âYou have to tell me what you want. Your wish is my command.â
âI want youâŠâ
âYesâ?â
And to utter these very words, youâre dragging him in closer. Touch burning. His breath laborious. Youâre pulling Nanami in reeeeeal close and letting his straight nosebridge graze yours, lips tenderly touching yours. âWill you be cumming inside, Kento?â
He nuzzles the crook of your neck, âI shall do so as you wish. But first, donât you know that you must give a demon permission to- take- a part of you?â
âSo you canât cum inside until I say the word?â You blink, a strange zap of power running through your body.
âThat is so, madam.â
And oh- heâs pounding you into the aged bedsprings like he was trying to pound the words out of you. Thumb becoming frenzied on your clit, simply driving you wild. âI see- I- oh, ngh- I see-â A smirk stretches your lips, âAnd do you want to cum inside, Kento?â
âNot if you donât wish for me to-â But just then, your cutely heart-shaped insides clenchâand Nanamiâs cutting himself off with a few rough swears. âOh, f-fuck- yes.â
As you try to catch your breath, heâs completely losing his.
Again and again and again.
The lines of his veins throb nâ plaster against every ridge inside your velvety walls- âYes, I do-â From the back of his throat, constant groans wrench. âI do I do I- do-â And each one was punctuated with the most probing jackhammers of his. âOh, how badly I want to cum inside you.â
Before you can respond, his free hand drags down the front of your stomach. And he rests it easily where that lilâ bulge of his cockhead was thudding into your cervix.
âI need it. I desire it- I desire to stuff you full of my cum right h-here.â And then he presses down to put force on where his cylindrical length was tunneling. âI desire to see you all swollen with my seed, having taken so much that it has no place to go other than to drip onto the sheets.â
Youâre squealing, feeling the world spin around you. âOh- fuck. Please, mânot gonna last long-â
âI desire to feel every wad of cum of mine as I fuck you.â He gruffs out, âI desire to bind you to me forever-â Nanami leans in closer, as if he was whispering a secret to you. â-to let myself be truly yours. For eternity, this time.â
Sounding so pained.
âLet me cum inside, my lady-â He begs now. âI-inside. Let me cum inside, let me cum inside- please.â
âYes- yes, I want it.â You crash your lips against his, feeling his fangs nip against your lower lip. âYou can cum inside, Kento.â
And then with a final few thrusts, youâre exploding into your high.
So powerful that it results in your eyes clenching shut, white behind your vision. Back arching into his chest. You could hear the thundering of your pulse in your eardrums, right along with the husky, attractive groan of your name that Nanami lets off before he, too, finishes.
And youâre feeling it before youâre registering it.
That sultry splash! of something hot and wadded hitting the back of your pussy. It trickles all the way in lines down your cervix, and then ends up overflowing in your snug channel.Â
âOh- oh, youâre really taking it.â Nanamiâs hand presses down on your front, eyes activating. âLook at youâswallowing up every single drop. This pretty pussy of yours was- ngh, hungry, hm?â
âShit, youâre so filthy.â You whine, clawing down his muscular back. And Nanami Kento only smiles like he knew it was true.
After all, he was feeling everything that heâd described earlier - the sploshing of webbed-up seed inside you, the way it glissaded down his shaft. Every line of his veins was coated in ivory sap, and the demon was fucking in each gluey wad inside you.
Your own high is overtaken by his - and you donât know what else you expected: Nanami was cumming like he hadnât in centuries.
Just bucketloads of cum that left your mind all stupidly hazy. With each quiver of your own pleasure, you could feel the clingy mess slipping out of your hole. It created this intricate white ring âround Nanamiâs hilt that heâs thumbing away with a smile.
Pushing dooooooown- âSâtaken.â Nanami breathes, somewhat in awe as he gazed down adoringly at where your womb was. With those powerful eyes of his. âFuck yes, sâtaken, my lady. Iâm so proud of you.â
âYou meanâŠ?â
âYes.â
âF-fuck.â
He watches as that white hot mess dribbles down his fingerpads, and he saysââStick out your tongue, madam?â
Slightly befuddled in the aftermath of your high - nothing more than a few sensitive twinges at the pit of your stomach by now, oh, heâd dragged it out so perfectly with his ready cock - you do as he says. And in a few sultry seconds, Nanami has his cum-glazed thumb sticking in his own mouth. Said mouth of his edging even closer to yours to spit.
And then he kisses you fully.
You moan, shocked by his sinful, sinful antics.
And itâs only then that you start to feel a strange rush go down your skin. Itâs only then that you feel atoms stop in attention around your body, where yours met his.
So caught up in the feeling, you barely even notice when Nanami finishes riding out his own high. Each nâ every ounce of his sap pushed thoroughly into your deepest innards. And he was so proud of it- no, youâre too caught up in the fact that you knew that.
In that fact that you knew he was proud.
You could sense it.
You could remember it: fragments of a time spent in this very mansion, that didnât include the last few days. A flourishing garden where you stole kisses. Pale blond hair in the darkness of this very bedroom. The screams of the scullery as they found out. Blood. A new life. You remembered it - not all, it came to you slowly.
With a gasp, youâre pulling back to look at your hands; they looked as normal as always, except for a strange tingle ofâŠsomething that left you feeling like you could smash this very bed frame if you tried to.
Wait- you turn your head to the mirror on the wall, only to find thatâŠnothing was there. Nothing but the room, in all its emptiness.
For mirrors donât reflect demons.
âYouâve made me a-â You gulp, and he purrs in affirmation. â-a demon.â
âIâve contracted us for life, my lady.â Nanami responds, âLook here.â
He taps his index down on the spot where his palm had been plastered mere moments ago, where he was feeling for his cum sprayinâ out into your womb. And as you look down, you can see that your skin was emblazoned with a glowing purple mark of supernatural sorts. Swirling spirals and hearts: you were branded.
âAnd here.â
You raise your eyes to where Nanami had stuck his tongue out now- and there it was. A matching tattoo (symbol? Branding?) that matched the one you had, right in the middle of his tastebuds.
Two peas in a pod.
Two demons in a mansion.
You could feel the exact moment that Nanamiâs cock throbbed at the fact that you were growing even wetter at the notion - a soul that was formerly yours, shared now, for eternity. And youâd spend it all with this handsome man, in a mansion that would never crumble.
âI can smell it on youââ Nanami snarls, canines showing as his lips twist into a feral snarl. He gives another squelching thrust, âWeâre going to have a looooong few centuries to make up for, my lady. Mistress of the house.â
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âChapter 22: Fables From the Shadows - Nanami Mansion. (Contâd)
And yet, the tale of the scorned heir is only one theory seeking to explain the existence of this deeply demonic yet tragic figure of Nanami Kento.
I think you will find, dear reader, that this author in particular is quite inclined to believe a much lesser-known theory. It is one slightly less blood-curdling, though with no less a flare of drama: the theory of the scorned lover.
Though most records of interviews with the original servants that served the Nanami Mansions have been lost to time, what few have been procured did speak of what has been aforementioned in this chapter. Yet, it is in the footnotes that the most jarring pieces of information start to reveal themselves.
They speak of a rather different character to the demon, Nanami Kento. A demonic yet agreeable character: sharp, sensible, no less human (or at least acted so) than the other humans that it worked alongside, keeping the mansion shining like a crown jewel.
And perhaps most representative of the demonâs humanity of all, was the way in which he fell - and quite hopelessly, it is said by one worker - for the daughter of the mansionâs master. Her nameâ And her wits, her laugh, her kindness seemed to have enraptured this demon. And it makes us think that, perhaps, even the most hellish creatures of all are asinine in the face of love.
Love makes a fool of us all.
And yet, there is a reason that demons do not fall in love.
For once this secret dalliance was discovered by the household, it is said that the master was enraged - till one could not tell the difference between human and demon. In the ownerâs fitful anger, some say that the dishonored daughter was made a sacrifice of, others justify that she was discarded from the mansion, never to be seen again.
Whatever the result of misplaced love (perhaps it was not misplaced, after all, who are we, as mortals, to judge?), the demon had lost her.
And that loss manifested into grief, that grief manifested into anger. The once-proud stone pathway to the Nanami Mansions painted itself red, and it has not had a master since.
They say that Nanami Kento still roams the empty halls, and keeps the house a home, in wait of his lost lover.Â
As for the fate of them, only time will tell.Â
Do you believe in reincarnation, oâ mortal? For, demons certainly do. And if a soulless being could not love a mortal centuries ago, perhaps there is hope that her soul may find him once more. Whether by accident, or by chance, or by fate altogether. Demons always are quite stubborn.
And perhaps, this time, they may love one another as two souls who have ever loved one another should. As one.Â
This author, in particular, chooses to believe that their souls are already one. For there is a home for every lost soul, doors and arms wide open.â
âOf Demons and Servitude: The Hellish Agelong Contracts That Surpass Love by Sebastian Michaelis.
A/N. Was technically supposed to be posted last month but ah-
synopsis: there is no doubt that mr. geto is an exceptional dancer, and a kind instructor. you have no doubt, either, that the perverse, voracious need you have for him is unrequited. of course, he calls you little dove and watches you dance low-lidded and teases you with innuendo, but surely he doesn't mean it...right?
pairing: ballet instructor!geto x ballerina!reader
a/n: it's been so long since i've posted a full length fic! i'm sorry and i love you all and please open your holes to me so i may place this fic there
18+! mdni <3
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mr. geto is nothing like the instructors you despised as a teen.Â
you can remember walking to your car after your first lesson with him and pressing your forefinger to the tender crest of your ear, marvelling at the lack of ringing there. you were used to shrill yelling, to the echo of it against the mirror and back again, to higher and stretch and reach bellowed into your bones.
but mr. geto, it seems, is exceptionally thoughtful about how his sound carries, speaking only as loud as necessary to be heard by the furthest dancer from him. the register of his voice makes the floor thrum and your knees twitch and he seems to notice these things, take stock of them, adjust.Â
he does not use his hands, either.
all other ballet instructors at your company use their fingers to adjust the body, to create the proper lines. you are completely familiar with fingertips in the crease of your knee, along the slope of your navicular, down your spine: it is not uncomfortable, not anymore, and it is in service of this art you have devoted your life to. you donât mind. and in the dead of night when your duvet feels heavy over your waist and thighs you think that you wouldnât mind, in particular, if he used his fingers to adjust your body.Â
but he simplyâŠdoesnât. he uses the shapes of himself, his own arms and torso, the extension of his own legs, to compose his requests of his dancers. higher, stretch, reach, he murmurs to the group of you, extending himself into position and showing you.
and a part of you likes that a great deal; there is no sense of injustice with him, no upset that he is asking something of you that he cannot himself achieve. you and the rest of the dancers watch as his twists and bows, displaying himself to guide through the moves, and itâs such a striking thing to behold that you canât bring yourself to mind.
still, his beauty is the hardest part of being his student. the cording of his muscles, the sleek ink of his hair, the lithe curvature of his movements, itâs torturous. all at once you want to dance as he does, want to make your audience feel as he makes you feel, want him to shed himself of all professionalism and touch you somewhere irrevocable. you feel terrible and silly wanting it, wanting him, but thereâs no helping it, you think.
and anyway, you insist that this wanting you indulge in in the dark isnât dangerous. there is no oxygen for it in the studio, nothing to nurture your fantasies, and so you have to believe that they will wither and die with time.Â
of course, while you tie the ribbons of your pointe shoes around your ankles in the empty studio, you pray this fantasy death will happen sooner rather than later. itâs completely exhausting to be so constantly wondering what his cock feels like, and mr. geto likes to remind you that exhausted is no state to dance in.
you love arriving to the studio early like this. before the room is overtaken with the smell of sweat and resin, you can breathe in the marley flooring and stretch your legs wide, grateful. you seek out lonely moments to appreciate how rare it is that youâve succeeded in ballet enough to make a living from it; you close your eyes and get overdramatically philosophical, and itâs a privilege. you love it.
and yes, fine, it secures mr. getoâs first five minutes in the studio for yourself. this cannot be helping your attempt to suffocate your wanting, you know, but then heâs walking through the door draped in fine linen and hair pulled messy to the crown of his head, and you go boneless.
âgood morning, dove,â he calls over his shoulder, turned away from you as he sets his things down.
you donât remember when he started calling you that, and you donât know if he uses it with other dancers, but god how can you blame yourself for getting sticky for him when he addresses you that way?
âgood morning, mr. geto,â you call back, trying to sound lazy with the dawn as you continue stretching. you watch your fingers splayed on the floor, the borders of each vinyl panel, anything other than his strides towards his seat at the front of the room.
he plops rather unceremoniously down, legs spread slightly and head tipped back as he groans something truly criminal. you can feel something hot and biting between your legs but you try to ignore it, looking up at him.
âexhausted is no state to dance in,â you say with a smile.
he does not lift his headâyou wonder if he wants to cause you pain by forcing you to watch the curved tilt of his throat and jawâbut you can see from the movement of his cheeks that he is smiling a little.
âiâm not dancing, dove, you are.â
you roll onto your back and starfish out, sufficiently limber. âwhat sort of terror will rain down on us today?â
he does look down at you then, lip still curved enough to look like a smirk, and when his head tilts just slightly you die a little death. âterror? iâm never terrible, i know iâm not.â his fingers make a soft sound against his thigh as he taps on it mindlessly. âyouâll like the combos today.â
you canât help but bark a little laugh. âyou donât mean that. thatâs something you only say when theyâre hard.â
a chuckle pushes out through his nose. âyes, i know.â and then, matter-of-factly, he adds, âyou like it hard.â
and god you try not to draw attention to the innuendo in that comment. just as he says it the doors are pushed open with a low thunk and the rest of the dancers come filtering in, and so you have every possible opportunity to be normal and professional and not silly and terrible, but you are a silly and terrible woman, so your chest stutters on your next breath. and he watches.Â
you choose to believe, for your health and happiness, that he still couldnât quite discern what your reaction was, or why it would have happened. but you cannot deny the fleeting scent of smugness on him, or the way his jaw twitches when his eyes flit to you between greeting your colleagues.Â
he must be, you decide as you come to take your place at the barre, a cruel and unusual man who has recognized your unrequited lust and wants to punish you for it.Â
yes, that must be it, you assure yourself.Â
the rest of class is excruciating. all the typical torment of watching the man whose bones you are so desperate to jump contort himself into beautiful shapes is mounted further by the way he watched you this morning, the way his head dropped to the side just so to see you fluster for a moment.Â
you try to channel it into the combos. as you travel across the room, you work to carve the feeling from your chest and toss it outwards, anywhere else. your legs burn with your leaping and turning but you push harder, hoping youâll reach some critical point at which the physical soreness of your muscles eclipses the fluttering behind your navel, but you canât quite catch it. and every time you hope you might be close, you feel your fingertips just grazing a moment of forgetting, you catch his eye again, and something hungry pulses in your stomach.
you probably need to get fucked. you definitely need to get fucked, actually, because youâll ruin all your leotards if this continues.Â
sweat shines down your body by the time class is finally, mercifully over, and the plan has already solidified then. youâll go out tonight, youâll get well and sufficiently railed, and at long last you will be able to address your fucking ballet instructor properly.Â
even collecting your bag from the floor makes your muscles scream. your steps drag as you shuffle about, removing your pointe shoes and slinging your purse over your shoulder in the waning light of the day.Â
âwas that your attempt at proving me wrong?â
you straighten, inhaling sharply. when you look over your shoulder, itâs only you and mr. geto in the studio again. heâs standing in the threshold now, body leaned against the door as he watches you finish packing.Â
fuck.
normally you might relish this sort of attention from him, but at this point you feel overfilled with the smoke of your desperation and you need to breathe. you need to go to the club and release some of this pent up sexual energy. you need to get out before you spread your legs for him in front of the fucking mirror.Â
you try to laugh lightly, but it sounds tired and reedy. âyeah, i guess not.â shrugging a little, you add, âcouldnât help it.â and you tried to use that tone of voice one uses when a conversation is over, for the first time since meeting him hoping he simply turns and leaves, but he stays static there, watching you.
you flounder, looking for anything else to say. you want to lighten the tension thatâs pulling your hips towards him, so you put on a wry smile. âiâll try less tomorrow.â
that makes him chuckle as he brings a hand up to massage one shoulder. inevitably you think of how it might feel under your fingers, how it might tense if you were riding him and he was using that arm to lift and drop you on hisâ
âi do have one note for you, actually,â he murmurs, and you try to mask the horror on your face as he begins walking towards you. âshow me your grand adage from the last combo.â
you hesitate a moment, clutching your purse tightly with one arm and opening your diaphragm so he doesnât see your lungs constrict. this is normal, you remind yourself, he is being a normal instructor.
and itâs true, this is normal, but he has abnormal sex appeal and you are abnormally tightly wound and and he has never adjusted you with his hands before. this is a terrible, horrible, grotesque idea, but what are you supposed to say? no?
you drop your things slowly at your feet, tracking the sweeping of his eyes along your movements. with your hands empty again you stand still a moment, surely looking as bewildered as you feel, but he nods slightly: go ahead.Â
you steady the soft tremble of your fingers as you extend your arms outwards, aligning your spine as your leg extends behind you. your core engages to keep your hips from tilting upwards, chin high to create a sloping line from your neck and down your torso. even though you do notâcannotâlook mr. geto in the eyes you can feel him watching, your muscles twitch when he assesses them, fluttering like little birds under your skin.
âyes, thatâs it,â he says, low, behind his teeth. he begins to walk around you, and if you didnât know any better youâd think he was trying to make you feel predated.Â
two things happen at once. you realizeâand the weight of it nearly buckles your knees and takes you through the floor of the studioâthat he is not going to show you want he wants by doing it at precisely the moment one long finger brushes the under side of your thigh. there isnât even anything promiscuous about where he grazes the fingerpad, but nevertheless you feel like an open wound, a nerve, only barely restraining a full body shudder at the feeling. what the fuck is he doing?
âyou can lift this higher.â
youâre almost thankful that you scoff on instinct; it makes you sound less affected by this than you are. âiâmâiâm trying, butââ
and then you really do shudder, hot and tacky from the nexus of your legs as his hand grips your thigh in full, pulling it a centimeter higher and watching your body absorb the movement to balance. your breaths puff sharp and you canât even attempt to stop them now.
his voice is no louder than a whisper but thereâs no breath in it, all timbre and sound. âthere, dove. hold that.â his hand pulls away torturously slow, and at such an angle that you feel the point of each fingertip as his palm falls away. you hope heâs spontaneously blinded so he canât see the goosebumps erupting down your arms, but instead he leans an inch closer to you, close enough that you can feel the warmth of him, watching you strain to keep the position from just behind your shoulder.
âit makes it harder if you hold your breath.â you can hear the twitch of his lips in that and it makes it no easier for you to take in air, but you pull a trembling gulp of air in anyways. to please him, you suppose, because apparently thatâs all youâre capable of doing.
he hums in approval, âthatâs good enough, dove, thank you.âÂ
and no sooner do the words leave his lips are you dropping your leg and fleeing out the door, only barely remembering your bag.
~~~~~~~
youâre learning that your desperation for your ballet instructor is an exceptionally powerful tool.
earlier today, you pushed your body beyond its limit in the name of exorcising yourself of the curse of him. you were an outward force then, expanding and swelling and trying to expel the dark sweetness between your thighs.
now, haunting the neon shadows of this club in your highest, most painful heels, you think your desperation has a scent. you canât remember ever being looked at in this way; from across the dance floor and behind the bar and in a far away corner, you catch menâs glances, all of them wolfish and interested. they can tell you need to be fucked, immediately.
you select the largest specimen you can find; a hulking mountain of a creature with a scar down one side of his mouth. heâs not quite handsome in the way suguru is handsome, itâs a louder, more insistent sort of attractiveness, but nonetheless you eye fuck him until he approaches you, knowing his weight will feel nice enough from behind.
he grabs at your side when he arrives in front of you, sliding a paw down your lower back. âcome dance with me,â he rasps into your ear, and while normally youâd ask for the decency of exchanging names, tonight youâre sold.
you laugh as he tugs you into the fray, a throng of bodies pressed close and tacky with sweat. thereâs a strange relief as he settles behind you, strobes flaring in your vision and his thick fingers around your waist. you can already feel how this ends, something sloppy and vaguely grotesque but you donât even mind, youâre so coiled and greedy for this man you cannot have.
the music pulls you together and he grinds with you in time with it, pulling your ass against his jeans and twisting your hips back and forth.Â
he runs his nose down the slope of your neck, feeling how pliant your limbs move for him. âyouâre flexible, huh?â
with your head tilted back against his shoulder he brings one hand slowly up the front of your body, grasping loosely at your neck. you grin and nod into it, letting your eyes go hazy as you look up at the rigged lights and the rising fog.
youâre fucking soaked. you really would just like it if heâd bully his cock into you here in the middle of the dance floor so you can finally think straight, and youâre considering pulling him into the bathroom to do something truly indefensible against the dirty basin of a sink, but you feel his tendons tense around your throat and it makes you tilt your chin back down on instinct.
into your ear he asks, almost amused by what heâs seeing, âdâyou know him?â
your heart sinks.Â
whatever buoy you had wrestled between your arms was dissolving back into salt water, youâre slipping, youâre frantic, youâre looking across the dance floor and fucking suguru geto is there.
his hair is down and silky over his shoulders, which pull a white t shirt taut across the planes of his chest. you can see, even from here, the shadows of lean muscle, his bodyâs capacity for dance. the sleeves of his shirt are short enough that you can see, for the first time, the head of a snake tattoo peeking just below the hem.Â
fuck.
and no wonder your enormous dance partner figured you knew each other; the way heâs looking at you is lethal, a sharp slice of a stare from across the room, a pointed watching. his lips twitch when he sees you notice him, something conspiratorial and entirely his own there. it looks as though heâs holding a live animal in his mouth, sly and coy and biting down on a moving thing behind his tongue. a single, sinewy hand lifts from his side and he waves.
fuck fuck fuck.
in a fleeting out-of-body event, you can appreciate the hilarity of this moment. it pulls a sound from your throat, almost a laugh, almost a scoff, too, and you stumble slightly out of the hold of the man behind you. âiâwell, yeah, actually.â you have no idea what look youâre wearing, but when you turn to face your dance partner, it makes him chuckle under his breath.Â
âyou uh,â he scratches at his scar with his thumb, âyou wanna go over there?âÂ
heâs teasing youâthis much is obvious to youâand so much of you is desperate to tell him no, iâd like to stay right here, and grip to the veins of his forearms and let him take you home. but then you think of mr. getoâs hands along your thigh as he adjusted it and itâs almost like he has you between his fingers again, towing you towards him.Â
âiâiâm sorry, i just think i should go andââ you gesticulate behind you, vaguely, reaching for something dignified to say, âand say hi.â a failure of the highest order.
the man in front of you laughs again, deep and from his stomach this time. heâs already tilting his body away from you, already letting you go, already sensing that the smell of your pussy was meant for the long-haired figure a few feet away. âyou go right ahead, ma,â you think if he wasnât so huge a person, his laughing would sound like giggling, âiâll be fine.â
the sight of him slipping away from you makes you nauseous. youâre watching your own failure, all six feet and four inches of him, dissipating again into the sea of people, already under the manicured fingers of other women who arenât waiting to arch for someone who essentially equates to their boss.
but thereâs something secret and sweet to watching him go, too. standing resigned on the dance floor, accepting whatever honeyed trap fate has set for you, you can unburden yourself from this taxing process of trying so hard not to embarrass yourself. yes, you think, i will simply embarrass myself, and maybe whatever follows wonât feel so excruciatingly painful.Â
geto watches you carefully as you slink to his table. he keeps the muscles in his face slack, neutral enough to obscure the meaning from his expression, but the faint pull of his jaw reminds you of this morning, of after class. despite yourself, you align your body properly as you take the six odd steps to stand at his feet, extending your legs the way you know heâd want in the light of day.Â
he smells like musk and something botanical when you get close enough. you hope you donât smell like your own slick.Â
âit was sort of deja vu, watching that,â he begins. even under the beating of the music he refuses to shout, voice unfurling from behind his lips and just barely reaching your ears.
you wrinkle your nose a little. âhow do you mean?â
the ice in his drink chimes with a flick of his wrist. âwatching you dance.â
you tilt your head back and forth, feigning some sort of consideration. âno, i think this might be different.â
heâs smiling enough now that you can almost see his teeth. the part of you that is desperate to be cautious screeches that heâs playing with you, he doesnât want you, but with each tip of your skull you can feel that voice liquifying. you hope it slips out your ear.
âhow so?â he asks.
you do your best to keep a straight face. âwell, for one, i donât want your notes.â
he looks almost joyful to spit this back at you: âoh i have a few, actually.â
your laugh is too breathy and real to truly hear it against the ambient noise of the room, but he tracks it anyway, swishes his ice again. âyouâre unqualified, unfortunately. this type of dancing isnât your expertise, mr. getoââ
âsuguru,â he interjects. âsuguru here.â
your thighs twitch, almost stinging with need now, but you steady yourself with a breath, humming, âokay, suguru, this type of dancing isnât your expertise. i only accept edits from experts.â
âi might surprise you, dove.â
you run your tongue along the front of your teeth. heâs asking you to play, you think, and so you raise your eyebrows and tilt your chin the way he does when he wants you to begin.
âwell,â he takes a fraction of a step towards you and you match it backwards, pushed by the heat of him and the smell of his cologne, âi think you moved a little too quickly.â
youâre moving entirely in tandem now, him forward and you back, all the way until your head bumps a wall. cornered like this, he eclipses almost your entire line of sight, a vignette of dark hair.
âthe part when you tilt your head back here,â and he gestures to his shoulder, âthatâs the best part. you fell straight into it.â
something shudders up your legs and you squeeze them together, desperate for a moment of anything against the swelling button between them.
âthey need to wait longer for it. makes it better.â
his smirk is slowly fading, something more intimate making space for itself across his mouth. if he recognizes the irony of this, he doesnât show it, demanding simply: âshow me.â
you have half a mind to gape at him, at what heâs offering, but instead you turnâstupid, whorish thingâas he asked, pressing yourself slowly to him. when your ass bumps against his pelvis he groans low. heâs rock hard against you, and a gasp moves up your windpipe but he has his free hand on your chin first, forcing your head back to his shoulder.
contorted like this, his nose grazes your cheek, his breath filtered into your ear. you whine, feline and soft, and he hums in return.
âyeah, itâs good, huh?â and he ruts his hips slightly into yours to emphasize his point, nosing your cheekbone. âso you have to start somewhere else.â
the hand on your chin falls away, moving to the small of your back where it bends back for him. he pushes his thumb to your spine, and then the rest of his palm, bending you forward at the waist. your hands come up to brace on the wall and you let your forehead fall there, too, letting the cool concrete tether you to whatever sanity you have left.
he exhales like veneered restraint watching you tilt, feeling the extra push of your thighs against his cock twitching in his pants. âyes, dove, like that.â he grinds against you in earnest then, dragging the clothed shaft of him over the globes of your ass. âhe should work for it a little.â
he pushes again and you moan fully. it leaps from the wall to his ears and it earns you another drag, his fingers bruising against your waist.
âand then,â his composure is dwindling, you can hear it, and he ruts again, âonce heâs worked up,â he drags the hand at your hip up your side, around your front, between your breasts to arch you back to him again. your back bows taut and impossible to meet him, head falling immediately to his shoulder this time, eyes squeezed shut. you wonder if your slick is running down your legs now, or if itâs still pooled in your panties. he finishes into your ear, âthen you come up here.â
you wiggle your hips against him, needy, and he grunts. âwhat did he say to you?â he grits out.
your capacity to think is low, practically panting like heâs already inside you. âhuh?â
âwhen he had you here, he said something that made you laugh, i wanna know what it was.â with his hand fanned across your stomach he can pull you tight against his thrusts.
âh-he, he said iâfuck suguru, i-â
âcome on, little dove,â he coos.
your eyes flutter open to find him watching you, purple eyes skidding across your skin. âhe said i was flexible,â you huff.
he smiles like heâs going to eat you. âoh yeah? and did you tell him itâs because your mr. geto stretches you?â
your fists bunch and pull against the wall. youâre certain he can feel you clenching through your dress. your mr. geto, jesus. ân-no,â you breathe.
âoh, that cuts deep, dove,â he tuts, but he fucks against your ass again anyway, âi work so hard to stretch you open and youâre not giving me credit?â
you find yourself with the fleeting and miraculous wherewithal to laugh, light and towards the ceiling. âiâll tell him next time, then.â
that makes suguru laugh, too, the both of you almost manic with the truly absurd suggestion that you would ever be touched by anyone else.
you feel very suddenly like a stray dog at his doorstep, scrap-fed by his hand, bony and waiting for something warm to be tossed out again. the fear that he doesnât mean this the way youâre taking it, that he wants you only briefly, chokes you still.
âare you drunk?â you ask him.
he lets you feel the frenetic pattern of his breathing against your neck. âno.â
and then even smaller, you canât help it: âare you messing with me?â
slowly, he brings the hand with his drink up, extending his forefinger out around your front. itâs cold from the glass as it taps on your chin once, twice, and then drags down the line of your throat. âno.â
and you arenât quite sure how you would describe what you feel move through him then, a trembling sort of shake, maybe, but as it buzzes through his hips he thrusts the momentum up into you. later, you would come to realize this was the sensation of him, at last, deciding something he could not take back.
âi think you left something with me at the studio today,â he murmurs. the electricity of knowing you did not leave something at the studio takes hold of your ribs and tugs. âyou left in such a rush.â
âi think you know thatâs youâre fault, suguru.â
he smiles small into the side of your face. âyes, i know.â a finger brushes under the swell of your breast. âi can drive you there to come get it.â
youâre beginning to squirm in his hold now, the beastly thing between your thighs drooling in full, usurping control of your limbs. âhavenât you been drinking?â
and suguru is all too pleased to bring his glass to your lips, tipping it slowly onto your tongue.
heâs drinking fucking sparkling water.
he isnât even tipsy.
youâre nodding before you can even gulp enough air to say yes.
~~~~~~~
you barely make it out of his car before heâs on you. pressed against the passenger door, he kisses you like he wants to reach inside and pull out a rib. itâs teeth and tongue and your mewls in his mouth, and it makes him pull one leg up around his hip to grind slow against your clothed pussy.
he strokes his tongue along yours as he guides you to the front door, bucking into you when you bite down soft on his bottom lip.
âfuck,â he pants. âget inside.â
seeing the studio at night is strange. the moonlight glints off the mirror, bathing the room in silver streaks. stranger still is hearing geto come in behind you, locking the door with a low snick.
he passes behind you like a memory, stepping just to graze your back and shoulder before pulling away and towards his usual seat at the mirror. âstand center floor for me, dove,â he instructs.
your body moves without much thought. itâs so easy to do as he says here, to pervert the habit of following his directions as you stand at the center of the vinyl.
suguru runs a hand across his jaw, over his lips, watching you stand static as asked. you know how lust blown your eyes are already because you can see the black depth of them in the mirror behind his head. âstretch for me,â he sighs.Â
a strange confidence feeds and swells in your belly, something alight and excited as you bend at the waist. your movements are no more salacious than they normally are, simple contortions to warm your hips and thighs, but you slow them enough to match the moment. your dress, too, heightens it; the hem teases the curve of your ass, your swollen mound, tight against you in ways your dance clothes arenât. geto has sharpened the air to a fine point, and you teeter on it.
your head flips over, legs softly bent and then straight again, swishing open and closed. between each movement you glance up at him, swallowing thick at the shadow behind the tent in his jeans, the clench of his fist as it approaches his length. when you open your legs past second position and bend to stretch between them, he moans, unashamed, and you can tell from the lilt of pain in it that heâs stroking himself over his pants now. your pussy nearly opens in this position, faced away from him, and you feel the fever say his name.Â
âyour middle split now, dove,â he grips himself like he means to strangle, tipping his head back against the mirror to watch you over the bridge of his nose, adding, âplease.â
with your hands splayed on the floor, you drop simply into it. when your clit bumps the cool flooring you whine in your throat, settling your weight. suguru is stroking himself in earnest over the denim when you peer up at him. âuh huh,â he pants, âand bend the knees now, just a little.â
your knees cant up and you tuck your tailbone, forcing your dress to ruck up around your hips and display, fully, the wet mess of your panties. the suffocated whine suguru sounds punches the air from your lungs, and you lean back onto your elbows behind you, looking to breathe, looking to survive for another moment.
you wish you could have a picture of the two of you this way; you entirely on display for himâand for yourself, too, as you cannot avoid your own reflection beside himâand your unflappably composed instructor, squeezing down the veins of his cock through the rough pull of his jeans, watching. and because you spend hours every day being directed by him, you know what he will ask you next before he even voices it, but you wait to hear it anyway.
âtouch yourself for me.â
your fingers fly to your clit, drawing slow circles around, crossing over to feel yourself jolt. your hole pulses and spits, and suguru growls like he can see it from halfway across the room. the utter relief of friction, fucking finally, makes you tip your head back, moaning wild into the still air.
but then you hear his lips part to say something and youâre pulling your head back straight, still circling over your clit and then your entrance, meaningless patterns over your thong that make your toes curl in your heels.
âyou know i never onceângh, fuckâhad the urge to adjust a student with my hands? i always hated that when i was in class,â he grits. with trembling hands, he begins to unbutton himself, pulling his cock out and tugging on it immediately.
god, heâs pretty. long and soft and leaning the way the rest of him leans, gliding between his fingers with the pearls of pre beading at his tip.Â
âbut i thought that if i,â he pauses to groan with you, âif i touched you once i could fucking forget about it.â
you speed your fingers with each word he says, each stroke of his hand over all eight inches of his cock. a far away voice registers that youâre whining, too, but your mind filters it away, tuned completely to suguruâs confession in the dark.
your smile is wry, and reveals as much as anything. âdid it work?â
he laughs then, almost at you. âno, you know what dove, it didnât reallyâhahâdidnât really work for me.â
your hips buck into your fingers, a buzzing coil now. âsuguru,â you begin, but he doesnât need to hear any more.
âi know,â he moans.
you have transcended his direction, you think, merged into him enough to comply without listening. heâs tearing his shirt and pants off as frantically as you tug your dress up and over your shoulders, and youâve only barely shimmied your panties down your legs when he arrives in front of you, completely bare. you think suguru geto, tacky with sweat and need and cock nearly swollen purple, has achieved his own pinnacle, descending to his knees to meet you.
and thereâs an ephemeral, fleeting moment, when you both simply watch each other in all the places youâve kept obscured for so long. his eyes circle over your tits, the pert peaks of your nipples, the gleaming of your slit. you track the snake tattoo from the bulge of his shoulder and around his back, pupils flitting between him and his reflection.
suguru takes hold of both your ankles on each side of his narrows hips, squeezing once, and then gliding them up, up, around your knee, along the inside of your thighs. it dawns on you that he knows exactly where to press, where each muscle begins and ends, because of how much he watches you flex and extend. your breathing comes labored and round, small yips and whines when goosebumps push into his fingers.
he canât help but tug your hips towards his bobbing cock when his hands arrive there. you squirm and twist to try and sink him inside but he holds you to the floor, jaw tight.Â
ânot yet, dove, i need to stretch you,â he grunts.
and youâre giggling before you can stop it. âyou use a lot of double entendre, is that on purpose?â
heâs smiling now, too, but more than anything you think its a wicked joy with how your mouth drops open as he circles two fingers around your entrance. your arousal is so hot and so everywhere that you think you can hear it dripping onto the marley.
âkeep your legs open.â he uses the tone of voice he employs during class and it only makes you gush more, but you do as he asks, tightening your outer thighs to hold yourself spread as he pushes two fingers inside.
âoh fuck,â you pant.
it seems to affect him in equal measure, cock twitching with each pull of his digits, lips parted ever so slightly. he scissors his fingers apart and back again, feeling along the inside of your walls, looking.Â
âahâyeah, yes, there,â you mewl, and he moans something sincere in turn. the pads of his fingers brush and swish along that spot and something behind your ribs is turning over, growing teeth. you whine out a small fuck and thatâs it: suguru is gone.
in a single motion, he pulls his fingers from you, breathes in your protest of a whine, and lowers his hips to run the ruddy tip of his cock over your clit, down, down. you run your nose along his forearm as he braces them on each side of your head, feeling the brush of his hair along your shoulder.
his mouth parts directly over your ear like this, and you feel his hand squeeze your left thigh. âlift this for me.â
and as you extend it up to hook over his shoulder, legs spread in almost a full split below his hold, he notches his head inside, a lewd pop that echos up your spine and between your ears.
suguruâs head drops to your shoulder as he bares his teeth. âfuuuuuuck jesus christ.â
youâre no better, winding your right leg around his left and bucking your hips to slide him home. he indulges you this timeâperhaps for the first time since meeting himâand cants his hips again. youâre so fucking wet and ready and open for him that he slides to the hilt that way, and both of you are reduced to animals then. the sounds between you are completely inhuman, and you canât tell where yours end and his begin.
and suguru fucks you like he teaches: not slow, but intentional, precise, every movement with an insurmountable sense of purpose.Â
and fucking bossy.
ângh yeah, squeeze me like that again, dove.â
âoh f-fuck, baby, align your hips.â
âc-can youâhaahâarch into me a little more? yeah, thatâs right.â
with each driving thrust of his hips you rub your clit along his pelvis, warmth spreading behind your belly button and down each leg. suguru never quite recovered from that first thrust, forehead damp and still at your shoulder as he groans directions into the soft skin there. and your hands grab anywhere they can reach: into the roots of his hair, down the planes of his back, along the slope of his ass to feel the muscles grind.
the friction his happy trail makes with your clit is driving you wild, youâre fucking close, and he can feel it in the way you pulse around him.
with the sudden capacity to mock you he coos gently, âoh, little dove, are you close?â
and you can only nod and pant and whine like a bitch in heat, the crest of your pleasure tapping leisurely on the wing of your shoulder, ready to round the corner.
âhahâyeah, i can fucking feel it.â he adjusts his weight to one arm so he can band the other around your back, pulling your tits flush to his chest. the leverage only grinds him harder into you and youâre nearly screeching with the pressure. he wants to kiss you and you want to return it, but your lips meet open, exchanging air to be puffed back and forth.
âmake a mess for me,â he encourages, each thrust more erratic than the lastâheâs close, tooâand every moan pitched higher. âcâmon, iâshit, unhâi wanna feel your pussy choke me.â
you come so hard you feel like youâre spinning, like youâre on stage, like thereâs some great applause awaiting you. it detaches from deep in your groin and pulses outwards, gushing arousal and cream over suguruâs cock and entirely fragmenting you, boneless as he fucks you through it.
âfuckfuckfuck,â he bites the juncture of your shoulder with your neck, âi made this body, dove. youâre mine, huh?â
and hearing it, even from his own lips, takes him over, too, hips stuttering to a stop as he growls wild, seed spurting inside you, warm. your name, your real name, unspools from his mouth, and it sounds like thank you.
part of you expects, sweaty and still and plugged with suguruâs softening cock, that a great shame will dawn upon you now. you think maybe you should feel ashamed for letting him fuck you here, raw, his student.
but as youâre whining into each otherâs mouths when he pulls out, as he smooths his hands over your stomach and thighs, as he kisses you again without the sort of demands he had before, the guilt doesnât arrive.
suguru watches you closelyâheâs good at that, youâve determinedâas he sits back on his haunches. you realize heâs waiting for that guilt to come, too.
âokay?â he asks softly.
you could laugh at him for that question, but you grin instead. âmhm.â
his chest unburdens a weight seeing that look on your face. you can see something gathering on his palate, too, something he likes the taste of.Â
and then he spits it: âthereâs a shower in my office bathroom.â
you really do laugh this time, full-bodied and sore and wet again.
~~~~~~~
you donât think youâve ever seen mr. geto with eye bags before. you donât think anyone has. though, you suppose he seems the type to prioritize his beauty sleep.
or, most of the time, anyway. you couldnât help that he wanted you again in the shower, and then at his desk chair, and then from behind with your knee propped against the barre, and thenâ
nobara bows into a pigeon stretch next to you, snickering as she assesses him in his seat. she heckles him: âexhausted is no state to dance in.â
your body seizes with embarrassment and delight all at once, and even though your chin drops to your chest as you stretch your hips, you can feel him watching you all the same.
nobara is watching you now, too, but you notice it too late. she stifles a giggle next to you. âis that a fucking hickey?â
~~~~~~~
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your stoner best friend choso and you are deeeep in sexual tension, you are his girl, but not really his girl. cuddling, forehead kisses, being glued to eachothers hip, it eventually simmers down until neither of you can take it anymore. (my favourite work i've done so far) (smut with a shit ton of plot, angst, fluff, comfort.)
wc: 16k || art creds: @/einrvji
smut with so, so much plot.
choso kamo is the kind of boy people notice without realizing theyâre staring. heâs not loud, never one to demand a roomâs attention, but something about him pulls you in, the lazy grace of someone whoâs always just a little bit stoned and completely at peace with himself.
he throws the best parties on campus, the kind that arenât just about getting drunk or high, but about the vibe. incense burning in the corner, led lights set to red or purple, trap playing softly over speakers. and yet, youâre the only one who really knows him.
you, the sweet girl who never misses a single one of his parties. the one always curled up next to him on the couch with a red solo cup of something you can barely taste, your legs draped over his lap, your cheek pressed to his shoulder. itâs always been like this. ever since freshman year, when you met him during that stupid icebreaker event on campus that neither of you wanted to go to.
somehow, youâd ended up next to him. not even talking at first. just being. and then heâd pulled one earbud out and offered it to you without saying anything, and youâd heard frank oceanâs âivyâ playing soft and crackly from his phone. youâd smiled at him, and heâd smiled back. just a little.
after that, it was like something clicked. you didnât have to try with choso. you just existed in each otherâs space like you were meant to.
youâre sweet, outgoing, a little flirty, always the first one to compliment someoneâs outfit or remember their birthday. people love you for your light, your laughter, the way you make everyone feel seen.
but when it comes to closeness, to real comfort? thatâs reserved for choso.
itâs a mystery to most people. you, the glittering, glowing party girl, and choso, the stoner boy who doesnât even have social media. but it makes perfect sense to anyone whoâs seen the two of you together.
you show up to his parties before anyone else does. you help him string the lights, pick the playlist, bring snacks no one asked for but everyone eats. youâre the one sitting on the counter while he rolls, sipping from a straw and babbling about your week while he nods, smiling faintly, muttering things like âthatâs wild, ma,â or âyo, youâre too nice for them.â
and during the parties, youâre never far. you gravitate toward each other like magnets, slipping into place the way you always do. chosoâs usually on the couch, arms stretched over the backrest, and youâre tucked under his arm without even thinking. you lean into him when you laugh. he rests his chin on your shoulder. he passes you drinks and you take tiny sips before handing them back to him with a wrinkle of your nose.
and itâs so easy. dangerously easy.
chosoâs never been one to push. heâs got feelings, real ones, deeper than heâll ever admit out loud, but he keeps them buried. not because he doesnât want you. he wants you in a way that scares him sometimes. in quiet moments, when heâs too high and youâre asleep on his chest, he thinks about what it would feel like to kiss you. to be yours for real. but heâs content, at least for now. content to have you like this.
you give choso a kind of peace he didnât know he was missing. before you, things were kind of blurry. background noise. but with you, itâs all color. you laugh and the whole room tilts toward you. you touch his hand and itâs like static electricity under his skin. he pretends he doesnât notice. he jokes, he teases, he lets it pass.
because he thinks heâd rather have you like this, close and real and warm, than risk losing you completely.
and you? you love him. maybe too much.
youâve never said it out loud, not even to maki or shoko, but you know it. you feel it every time you see him laugh at something you said, every time he lifts your chin to tuck your hair behind your ear, every time he waits for you outside class just because he felt like it. choso is yours, in a way no one else is. and you donât know what to do with that.
maybe youâre scared to ruin it too.
itâs not just the friendship, itâs the rhythm. the quiet glances, the shared playlists, the way you always, always end up in his bed after parties, clothes still on, hearts too full.
youâll lay there in the dark, both of you wide awake, and youâll wonder if he feels it too. if he notices the way your breath hitches when his fingers brush your waist. if he hears the way your voice gets softer when you say his name.
but neither of you ever says anything. not really. not yet.
thereâs something unsaid between you, always has been, something glowing and soft and maybe a little fragile. like the chords of âivyâ hanging in the air, too tender to touch. itâs in the way he looks at you when youâre not watching. in the way you linger at his door after a party, lip gloss smudged and heart aching. in the way he lets his hand rest on the small of your back just a little too long.
itâs a love thatâs still blooming. hesitant. deep-rooted. and for now, maybe thatâs enough.
maybe not forever.
~
the partyâs already full by the time you get there, but you know exactly where to find him.
bass thumps through the floor like a second pulse, red lights spilling down the hallway, laughter echoing from the kitchen where someoneâs poured jungle juice into a mixing bowl. bodies press close in the living room, the air thick with smoke, perfume, sweat, but none of it touches you. not really. not when you know where youâre going.
you slip past people who call your name, who compliment your outfit, who try to keep you still, but youâre already moving, already smiling like youâve got a secret. because you do.
heâs on the couch. he always is.
slouched like he was poured there, long legs spread, a blunt pinched between his fingers. thereâs a few people around him, suguruâs sitting on the floor, half-asleep against his knee, gojoâs perched on the armrest talking to some girl, but he doesnât really look at anyone. just stares at the smoke curling above him, the red light making shadows under his eyes.
until he sees you.
chosoâs head tilts slightly. his gaze sharpens, just barely. his mouth softens, corners curling up into something small, lazy, private.
âyo,â he says, voice low and smooth like honeyed smoke. âthere you are.â
and just like that, youâre home.
you drop down next to him without a word, tucking your legs up on the couch, leaning into his side like you were made to fit there. his arm lifts automatically to rest behind you, and your bare shoulder brushes against his chest, skin to skin. he smells like weed and citrus and something warm, like sunbaked cotton. familiar. dangerous.
âi brought you chips,â you say, holding up a bag. âbecause you never remember to feed people when you throw these things.â
he laughs, soft and breathy, and takes the bag, tossing it onto the table without looking.
âyouâre the only one who eats at my parties,â he murmurs, dragging the blunt to his lips. âtheyâre lucky you show up.â
he inhales, slow and deep. lets it sit in his chest for a moment. then he turns his head toward you and exhales, deliberately, slow, a trail of smoke that ghosts over your collarbone. itâs not on purpose, but it is. everything choso does is like that. unbothered. intimate. effortless.
your heart stutters.
âyou look good,â he adds, like it just occurred to him. his eyes dip, trace your legs, the cut of your dress, the gloss on your lips. âreal good.â
you smile, sweet and slow, like youâre soaking it in.
âyouâre stoned.â
he shrugs. âyeah. still true, though.â
you nudge his thigh with your knee, and he smirks that lazy, barely-there grin that never quite reaches his eyes unless itâs you.
the party swells around you. bodies dance in the center of the room, the music gets louder, someoneâs yelling in the kitchen about the beer pong table. but in your little corner of the couch, everything is slowed down. hazy. sacred.
he keeps passing the blunt, and you keep refusing with that little scrunch of your nose he always teases you about.
âdonât know how you come to my house every week and still donât smoke,â he says, flicking ash into a red solo cup.
âdonât know how you survive without eating dinner like an adult,â you shoot back.
he chuckles, tipping his head back. his throat stretches long, his hoodie slipping off one shoulder to reveal the black ink of a tattoo just under his collarbone. you donât even pretend not to look. choso doesnât pretend not to notice.
âyou missed me?â he asks after a beat, quieter now. the smokeâs made him slow, softer around the edges. more honest.
you glance up at him, lips parted. âi was here last weekend.â
âyeah, and then the whole week happened.â he shrugs, lazily. âi got bored.â
you nudge your way closer. your knee slides between his. âyou say that like you donât have other friends.â
he hums. âdonât hit the same.â
youâre both quiet for a second. itâs a thick, heady silence, not awkward, not tense. just full. full of everything thatâs been building since freshman year. everything you donât say. everything you both feel in moments like this, when youâre a little too close and heâs looking at your mouth and his hand is resting just a little too low on your waist.
you want to kiss him. god, you do. but not yet. not here.
so instead you lean forward, just enough to rest your head on his shoulder. you feel him go still for a second, then relax, melting back into you.
you stay like that. for a long time
later, when the house gets louder and hotter and someone pulls you up to dance, you feel his eyes on you.
youâre not a wild dancer, you move like youâre in your own little world, fluid and soft and smiling. some guy tries to grind up behind you and you immediately peel away, laughing as you shake your head. but when you look over, just once, you see choso watching from the couch.
his eyes are darker now. still lazy, still half-lidded, but focused. pinned on you like heâs memorizing the way your dress moves, the way your hair sticks to the sweat on your collarbone. one hand resting on his knee. the blunt long gone.
you move back to him eventually, of course you do, and he opens the space beside him again like he knew you would.
âhave fun out there, superstar?â he asks, gaze flicking over you.
you shrug, settling back into him. âmissed my favorite dance partner.â
he raises a brow. âyou donât dance with me.â
you grin. âexactly.â
he snorts, shaking his head. you rest your hand on his thigh, fingers splayed over ripped denim, and he doesnât flinch. doesnât move. just lets you stay there. touching him. like you always do.
like you always will.
when the party starts dying down and the lights dim even lower, when suguruâs asleep and gojoâs disappeared and the couch is just the two of you again, you curl into him like you belong there.
he yawns, one arm around your shoulders, hand playing lazily with the strap of your dress.
âyou crashing here?â he asks, already knowing the answer.
you nod, cheek pressed to his chest. âif thatâs cool.â
he makes a soft sound, something between a hum and a laugh, and dips his chin to brush his mouth against your temple. not a kiss, exactly. just a press. warm, soft. barely there.
âalways.â
you smile, closing your eyes for a second. his hand is still resting on your waist, fingers tracing absent little shapes into your skin like heâs not even thinking about it.
you could fall asleep like this. youâve done it before.
but he shifts a little, murmurs, âcome on, ma. letâs get off this fuckinâ couch. my backâs killinâ me.â
you whine quietly as he moves, and he laughs again, a lazy rumble in his chest and slides an arm around your waist to help you up.
âdrama queen,â he says, tugging you to your feet with effortless strength.
he doesnât let go.
you move through the sea of red cups and leftover smoke, past the people half-passed out in the hallway, with his hand still slung around your waist. like itâs normal. like itâs instinct. your arm hooks around his middle, and you lean into his side as you walk, slow and steady, like youâve done this a hundred times. because you have.
chosoâs room is down the hall. itâs the only one with a broken doorknob and a blacklight taped above the bed, buzzing faintly. it smells like weed and clean laundry and him.
you kick off your shoes the second you walk in and collapse face-first into the unmade bed, limbs spread.
he laughs, low and indulgent, then flops down beside you.
âyo, scoot over,â he mumbles, nudgin your hip with his.
âyou scoot,â you shoot back, voice muffled by the blanket.
he doesnât argue. just lets his body melt sideways until your shoulders touch again. you shift your head onto his chest without thinking, cheek to the soft fabric of his hoodie.
and there it is again. home.
âthis party was kinda ass,â you say.
ânah,â he says softly. âyou were here.â
your stomach flips.
but you donât say anything. donât need to. you just lie there, breathing in sync, your hands curled in the hem of his hoodie while his fingers play with your hair, slow, lazy twirls that make your eyelids flutter.
âremember the first one?â you ask, voice hushed now. âthe freshman-year party where we met?â
choso smiles at the ceiling. âfuck yeah. you were wearing that little white dress and yellinâ at some guy who spilled beer on your shoes.â
âhe ruined them,â you murmur indignantly.
âand i was just sittinâ on the porch, watchinâ the whole thing,â he grins. âhigh as shit. thought you were hot as hell.â
you lift your head to look at him, one brow raised. âyou still say you donât remember how we ended up talking.â
âi donât. swear to god.â he shrugs. âone second iâm finishing a blunt, next thing i know youâre sitting next to me like youâd been there forever.â
âi probably just decided you looked safe,â you say, settling back down. âand hot. but, like, quiet hot.â
he chuckles, slow and low. âquiet hot?â
you nod. âlike⊠hot in a way that doesnât try. like you didnât even know it.â
âdamn,â he mutters. âflirting with me now?â
âalways.â
his hand slides down from your hair to your shoulder, warm and broad and steady.
âthatâs why i fuck with you,â he says after a moment. âyouâre real.â
you blink.
âlike, people show up to my parties for the vibes or whatever. you show up to make sure i eat dinner.â
you laugh. âwell someone has to.â
ânah, but for real,â he says. âyouâve been showinâ up since day one. always got my back. always know what i need before i even do. shitâs crazy.â
your throat goes tight. but he doesnât sound emotional. he sounds calm. sure. like itâs just a fact of life, gravity, weed, you.
he doesnât say it like itâs a confession.
he says it like itâs just the truth.
âyou do the same for me,â you murmur, voice small.
his thumb strokes your arm, slow.
âyeah,â he says. âi know.â
the room hums with silence after that. not heavy. not awkward. just real.
he lets you lie there on his chest, the beat of his heart under your ear, the rise and fall of his breathing making you feel safe in a way nothing else does.
you shift after a few minutes, and his hand moves automatically , tugs the blanket up over you both, settles you closer, fingers smoothing over your arm like itâs second nature.
he doesnât flirt with anyone the way he does with you. doesnât touch anyone like this. people know youâre close, but they donât get it.
they donât know how choso listens to you rant for hours about your classes even when heâs half-asleep. how he always keeps snacks in his room he doesnât like, just because you do. how heâs seen you cry at 3am and didnât say a word, just pulled you onto his chest and played with your hair until you calmed down.
how youâve cleaned up after every party. how you always know when he needs water. how you never smoke but you always light his blunts for him.
they donât know that youâve been doing this, just like this, since freshman year.
youâre not together.
but this? this is something else.
âyou good?â he mumbles, his voice starting to get gravelly with sleep.
you nod, curled into his side.
âyou?â
âmhmm.â he exhales through his nose, deep and slow. âdonât leave before i wake up.â
âi never do.â
he hums, already drifting.
you close your eyes.
"night, cho."
"night, babe."
and in the dark, in his bed, wrapped in the quiet warmth of chosoâs heartbeat and the hush of something unspoken between you, you fall asleep.
right where youâre supposed to be.
~
the sunâs too fucking bright.
chosoâs got his hood pulled low, hands stuffed in the front pocket of his faded sweatshirt, hoodie sleeves bunched at his wrists like armor against the cold. his airpods are in, but heâs not playing anything. just using them to avoid eye contact. to avoid people.
his chem lecture starts in twelve minutes. heâs not rushing.
heâs never rushing.
the quadâs half-full with undergrads moving in packs, laughing too loud for this hour. he weaves through them like a shadow, dark-eyed and slow-moving, sleep still clinging to his bones.
he hasnât showered. hasnât brushed his hair. smells faintly like weed and sleep and your lotion, the floral kind you always keep in your bag.
heâs halfway across the quad when he hears it.
âyo.â
he looks up.
toji.
posted up on a low wall near the main staircase, nursing a large iced coffee and wearing the same zip-up heâs worn every morning since choso met him. he looks good, like he always does, jaw sharp, eyes tired, posture loose in that older-guy way that makes people think twice about messing with him.
choso pulls out one airpod. âyo.â
âyou look like shit,â toji says, amused.
choso shrugs. âfeel fine.â
âlate night?â
âalways.â
toji grins. âbet.â
choso wanders over, boots crunching gravel, and leans against the wall next to him. tojiâs got that lazy menace vibe, like he could break someoneâs nose or fall asleep in the sun, it could go either way. choso respects it.
theyâre not close, but theyâre good.
âyou throw last night?â toji asks.
âyeah. packed out.â
âheard. saw some dude getting dragged out by the neck around one.â
choso huffs a little. âsukuna. again.â
âno shit?â toji laughs. âthat guyâs a walking lawsuit.â
âgot blood on my stairs,â choso mutters. âruined the rug.â
âtragic.â
theyâre quiet for a second. choso watches a squirrel dart across the walkway. toji sips his coffee.
âhow much you make off the door?â
âcouple hundred. enough for groceries. gas. weed.â
toji nods like thatâs the natural order of things. âyou ever think about pledging?â
choso snorts. ânah.â
âyouâd run that shit,â toji says. âturn those little rich boys inside out.â
âiâm not good with rules.â
âfuck rules.â
choso grins a little. âyou sound like yuki.â
âi taught yuki,â toji says, deadpan.
that gets a real laugh out of choso, low and amused, breath curling in the cold air.
âyou got chem?â toji asks after a moment.
âyeah. lab.â
âtough.â
âi'm so fucking hungover.â
toji smirks. âso. last night. you go home alone?â
choso shrugs. ânah. crashed with her.â
toji looks at him. not surprised. not shocked. just curious.
ây/n?â
âyeah.â
a beat.
âyou guys together now or what?â
choso looks up, brows drawn. ânah.â
toji raises an eyebrow. âhuh. figured that wouldâve happened by now.â
âwhy?â
âyouâre always with her.â
âyeah.â
âyou sleep in the same bed?â
choso shrugs again, easy and lowkey like it doesnât mean anything. like itâs normal. âall the time.â
toji whistles under his breath, grinning. âyouâre a better man than me.â
ânot like that,â choso mutters, looking away.
âright,â toji says, smirking. ânot like that.â
choso stays quiet. doesnât explain. doesnât elaborate. he just lets it sit in the air between them like secondhand smoke, warm, familiar, a little dangerous.
because it isnât like that.
not yet.
but toji doesnât push. just nods, takes another slow sip of his coffee, and claps choso on the shoulder with a rough hand.
âyouâre cool,â he says. âbut if you ever fuck that up, someone else wonât be.â
choso just exhales through his nose. shrugs.
he knows,
he knows.
~
choso slouches in his stool at station 4B, safety goggles pushed up into his messy hair, long fingers lazily rotating a test tube over the bunsen flame. heâs supposed to be running a titration, but heâs running on three hours of sleep and an edible that hasnât stopped hitting since breakfast.
thereâs a small chemical fire happening at the next table over. he doesnât care.
his partner, some girl from his gen chem section who only speaks in whispers and perfume, scribbles answers onto their worksheet like her life depends on it. sheâs never once asked him to help. chosoâs fine with that.
his phone buzzes in his hoodie pocket. he pulls it out without looking, thumb unlocking the screen by feel. itâs instinct. the way he always knows when itâs you.
[10:37am] you: what class r u in rn
[10:38am] choso: chem
[10:38am] you: ew
[10:38am] choso: yea
[10:39am] you: wanna meet up after?? iâm bored
[10:39am] choso: wya
the response comes fast.
[10:40am] you: bleachers behind the field. bring snacks or iâll cry.
choso smiles.
itâs the kind of smile he never shows anyone but you. lazy. lowkey. like a secret he doesnât need to say out loud.
he texts back a thumbs up emoji. tucks his phone away. watches the blue flame flicker under the test tube like itâs trying to tell him something.
~
the bleachers behind the athletic field are barely standing. rusted metal, cracked paint, half the steps warped from years of cleat-stomped abuse. itâs one of the only spots on campus that still feels untouched, still feels yours. people donât hang out here. itâs too open, too weird, too quiet.
perfect.
youâre already there when he shows up, sprawled across the middle row like itâs a chaise lounge, sunglasses perched low on your nose and a bag of kettle chips open in your lap.
you perk up when you see him. smile wide and lazy. âyou brought me snacks?â
he lifts a 7/11 bag in greeting.
âyouâre an angel,â you say, and you sound like you mean it. choso climbs up beside you, drops the bag between you, and sits with a long sigh like the weight of the whole morning finally got the memo that it can fuck off.
he lets himself lean back on his elbows, head tipped toward the sky. hoodie sleeves pushed up to the elbow. hands ringed in silver, knuckles faintly bruised from last night. jaw sharp, neck tattoo peeking just above his collar.
you glance over at him, bottom lip tucked between your teeth for a second too long.
he doesnât notice.
or maybe he does.
but he doesnât say anything.
âwhat happened in chem?â you ask, voice slow with sunlight.
âalmost set the bench on fire,â he says. âagain."
you laugh, and itâs the good kind, low and warm and familiar, like something soft you wrap yourself in. âyouâre gonna fail.â
ânah,â he murmurs. âi got you. youâll cry to shoko for me.â
you shrug. âprobably.â
he grins.
you eat chips together for a while in comfortable silence. people jog past on the track below, but itâs like the two of you exist in another timeline, quieter, slower, deeper. every time your shoulders bump, he doesnât move away. every time your fingers brush in the snack bag, he lets it linger.
you pull out a cherry lollipop from your tote. unwrap it with delicate, distracted fingers. stick it between your lips and suck thoughtfully.
choso looks over. blinks once.
his throat bobs. âyou eat candy like youâre in a music video.â
âduh,â you say. âgotta stay on brand.â
âyour brand is slutty candy princess?â
you flash him a wink. âyou know it.â
he groans into his hands. âyouâre gonna kill me.â
âyouâd like it.â
âmaybe.â
you both laugh.
but underneath it, thereâs a tension you donât touch. not yet. not today. not when the sun is this warm and the wind is this soft and the space between you feels like a bubble no one else can pop.
âso whatâd you tell toji?â you ask suddenly, pulling your legs up under you. âhe asked about us, right?â
choso blinks. shifts.
âhowâd you know that?â
âi just saw him talking to you this morning and you rushed of before i could catch up.â
he sighs. rubs a hand over his face. âjust asked about some dumb shit, was surprised we aren't fucking.â
âoh yeah?â
âyeah.â
you hum. âwhatâd you say?â
he shrugs. âtold him weâre just friends.â
you nod.
but your fingers are tight around your lollipop stick. âdid he buy it?â
choso looks over at you. eyes half-lidded, lazy. âdunno. didnât really care.â
you donât speak for a second.
thenâ
âyou know,â you say lightly, âif we were dating, people wouldnât question it.â
he raises a brow. âyou wanna date me?â
you laugh like itâs a joke. like the ideaâs crazy. âobviously not. iâd ruin your whole vibe.â
ânah,â he says, quiet and cool. âyou are my vibe.â
it knocks the air out of you a little.
you donât reply.
he doesnât push.
instead, he pulls a lighter from his pocket. a faded red bic with a sticker of a cartoon frog on the side.
âyou mind?â he asks.
you shake your head. âgo for it.â
he lights the joint behind the bleachers, careful to block the wind, and takes a slow hit like heâs been doing it his whole life. like breathing.
you watch the way his lips part. the way the smoke curls from his mouth. the way he blinks up at the sky, exhaling slow, like thereâs nothing in the world that could ruin this moment.
he passes it to you.
you hold it between two fingers. bring it to your lips, but donât inhale. you just like the closeness. the ritual. the rhythm of it.
âyou always smell like weed and coconuts,â you say absently.
âyou always smell like sleep and candy.â
âthat a compliment?â
âyou know it is.â
you smile.
and then, like always, you shift until your head is in his lap, knees bent, lollipop back between your lips.
he threads his fingers into your hair like itâs automatic. like muscle memory.
you donât say anything.
you donât have to.
âthereâs a party saturday,â choso says, like itâs just a passing thought. his voice is mellow, dragged slow with smoke and sun.
you squint up at him from his lap, one leg kicking idly off the edge of the bleachers. âyours?â
he shakes his head, dragging another pull from the joint before it sizzles low. ânah. kappaâs.â
âtojiâs place?â
âmhm. sukunaâs throwinâ it.â
you make a face. âew.â
he laughs, lazy and low. âyeah, i know.â
âwhat kinda party is it?â
he shrugs, flicking ash off to the side. âdunno. probly loud. messy. overrun with freshmen.â
âmy favorite,â you say sarcastically.
âcome anyway.â
you raise a brow. âyou want me to go?â
he nods, eyes still soft from the joint. âyeah. all our people are gonna be there. gojoâs bringing that speaker he stole from the rec center. suguruâs bringing weed from the plug that scares everyone but him. shoko said sheâs pre-gaming at yours.â
âshe didnât tell me that,â you mutter, amused.
âshe said quote, âiâm getting blackout on your floor so you better have mixers.ââ
âclassic.â
âmakiâs going too,â he adds. âand yuuji. megumi. nobara. yâall can take over the kitchen or whatever.â
you snort. âwe always end up doing that. turning some random frat kitchen into our private lounge.â
âbetter lighting.â
âless vomit.â
he taps his knuckle to your forehead. âso?â
you blink at him. âso what?â
âyou cominâ?â
you stretch your arms over your head, lollipop tucked in your cheek like a secret. âmmm, depends. whoâs walking me home if i black out?â
he gives you a look. âme."
âwhoâs holding my hair if i puke?â
âme.â
âwhoâs dancing with me when they put on early 2000s throwbacks?â
he smirks. âyou already know.â
you grin and nuzzle into his thigh dramatically. âugh, fine. i guess iâll go.â
âwhat an honor.â
âyouâre welcome.â
you stare up at him for a second, at the sharp angle of his jaw, the lashes curled against his cheeks, the faint bruises of exhaustion under his eyes.
thereâs something warm in your chest.
like always.
âwhat timeâs it at?â you ask.
âlate.â
âwhen are we getting there?â
âlater.â
you smile. âas always.â
âas always,â he echoes.
you reach over, fingers brushing the side of his hoodie pocket where his lighter peeks out, red and fading, sticker peeling at the edges.
he doesnât notice.
but you do.
you always do.
~
the sun has long since set when youâre back in your dorm.
shokoâs stuff is already half-scattered across your bed, a tote bag overflowing with lip gloss and tequila, her ripped denim skirt folded beside your pillow like it lives here. your bluetooth speaker is charging in the corner. your fairy lights are glowing dim, and the whole room smells like something between vanilla lotion and sharpie markers.
because youâre painting.
your desk is a mess of scattered brushes, scratched acrylics, and an empty matcha can youâve been using as a water cup. right in the center sits the new bic lighter you picked up after social, jet black, perfectly smooth, untouched.
youâre painting red spider lilies across the front, his favourite.
the petals curl across the plastic like veins, wet with gloss and attention. youâre careful with the details. youâve looked up references. youâve done this before.
but this timeâs different.
this oneâs for him.
you donât know why, exactly. maybe itâs because his old oneâs going dead.
maybe itâs because you love him.
not like that.
not yet.
but in the way you know exactly how he likes his ramen. in the way he texts you âhome?â when itâs late and doesnât sleep until you answer. in the way he rolls his blunts left-handed and always lights yours first. in the way he remembers your momâs birthday even though heâs never met her.
in the way he makes you feel safe in a room full of noise.
in the way he never tries to make you anything other than yourself.
you lean over the lighter, the brush held steady between your fingers, and add the final line of gold detailing around the petals. your breath fogs the surface. you wait for it to dry.
outside, someone blasts a bad edm remix. the partyâs already pulsing down the block.
you arenât ready yet.
but you will be.
because he asked.
because you always go when he asks.
by the time you and shoko step into the kappa house, itâs already hell in there.
thereâs music vibrating the walls, some mashup of jersey club and distorted britney spears, smoke curling from doorways, the reek of beer and weed and something you hope is a vape cloud drifting from the stairs. someoneâs already swinging a half-finished bottle of patrĂłn in the foyer, and a guy in a spiked collar is passed out half-naked on the pool table. red LEDs paint the room like a warning.
âjesus,â shoko mutters, pushing through a knot of people. âitâs worse than last time.â
âthatâs saying a lot,â you reply, laughing.
you pass a makeshift tattoo station set up in the kitchen, a foldable table, three guys with gloves and prison-grade guns, girls taking shots with their shirts off, someone yelling about cross-contamination. someone else is already screaming into a paper towel, gripping their friendâs thigh as ink bleeds into skin.
âhow much you wanna bet that guyâs not even licensed?â shoko asks, pointing with her cup.
a few feet away, a couple is practically devouring each other on the couch, hands in places that definitely shouldnât be public, their moans barely muffled over the bassline. you and shoko share a glance.
âten bucks says theyâll be upstairs in five,â she says.
âtwo,â you shoot back.
you find the rest of your girls near the island, makiâs drinking straight from a bottle of dark rum, nobaraâs yelling at some guy for calling her âsweetheart,â and miwa looks like sheâs trying to spiritually leave her body.
âthere you bitches are,â nobara says, throwing an arm over your shoulders. âi was gonna beat some freshmanâs ass for trying to say you werenât on the guest list.â
âi just got here!â you laugh, letting shoko pull you in tighter. âi havenât even taken my jacket off!"
âwell hurry up,â nobara insists, pouring something violently pink into a solo cup and handing it to you. âthis nightâs cursed already.â
you take a cautious sip, bubblegum and battery acid. âwhat the hell is this?â
âitâs called the thong dropper,â shoko says helpfully.
âgirl.â
you let the chaos swirl around you for a bit, settling into the rhythm of things, catching up on nonsense, swapping wild stories, dodging spilled drinks and clumsy hands. nobara starts talking about some guy she hooked up with last week, rolling her eyes and groaning dramatically.
âhis stroke game was so weak,â she says, slamming her cup down. âhe kept asking me âis that good?â like, cmon. do you not hear me faking it?â
maki snorts. âyou faked it?â
âof course i did. i had to get it over with.â
shoko leans in. ârookie mistake. just tell âem straight up.â
âi canât crush a manâs ego like that,â nobara defends.
âtheyâll live,â maki says.
you giggle into your drink, letting the warmth buzz up your spine.
âwhat about you?â shoko nudges. âyou getting any lately?â
you shrug, trying to hide your smirk. âdefine âgetting.ââ
they all ooh at that, but you wave them off.
ânah,â you add quickly. âjust been⊠chillinâ.â
nobara raises a brow. âchillinâ with who?â
you donât answer.
you donât have to.
because you just spotted him.
across the room, slouched low on the ratty couch like a king on a broken throne, hoodie slipping off one shoulder, blunt glowing between his fingers, is choso.
heâs got his head tipped back, laughing at something gojo just said, eyes heavy-lidded and hazy, lips pink and glossy from smoke. his legs are spread wide, rings catching the LED lights, and thereâs a plastic crown crooked on his head like someone dared him to wear it and he just went along with it.
you hand your cup to shoko. âback in a sec.â
you beeline straight to him.
he sees you coming, of course. always does.
âyo,â he says, voice syrup-thick, laced in that lazy drawl you know too well. âthere she is.â
you plop onto the couch next to him, thigh pressed to his instantly, as natural as breathing.
âhey, babe.â
he pulls the blunt from his lips and passes it to gojo. âyou look real hot,â he murmurs, eyes scanning over you. âlike⊠stupid hot.â
you grin. âyouâre high.â
âand youâre a fucking bombshell.â
âso high.â
gojo chuckles. âheâs been saying shit like that about everyone for the last twenty minutes. told sukuna his chains looked âshiny as fuckâ and that he would fuck him if he was gay.â
âand i meant it,â choso says, nodding solemnly.
âsukunas a menace,â you laugh.
âa sweet menace,â choso adds.
gojo tosses the blunt into an ashtray and stretches. âaight. iâm gonna go find the aux before someone puts on country again.â
âgodspeed,â you tell him.
choso watches him disappear into the crowd before turning back to you. âyou good?â
you nod. âthe girls are wild tonight.â
âwhen arenât they?â
you smile. âmmm. partyâs kinda gross, though.â
he grins. âyeah. itâs ass.â
âi miss your parties.â
he hums, dragging a slow breath through his nose. ânext week, tuesday.â
âa tuesday party?â
âhell yeah.â
you laugh softly, eyes dropping to the front pocket of his hoodie. his lighterâs there again, the red one. the same one from earlier, edges worn down like itâs been used a thousand times.
without saying anything, you reach into your jacket pocket.
he watches you curiously as you pull out the lighter you painted, black and glossy, the spider lilies blooming across the surface in blood-red ink and gold veins.
you hand it to him wordlessly.
his fingers brush yours as he takes it, and something in his face shifts, softens, quiets.
he turns it over slowly in his palm, eyes scanning every detail like heâs memorizing it.
âyou painted this?â
you nod.
âmaâŠâ he says under his breath, almost like itâs too much. âyo. this is⊠this is fucking beautiful.â
âyour other oneâs dying,â you say, a little shy now. âfigured you needed a new one.â
heâs quiet for a second, blinking slowly.
then,
âyouâre such a fuckinâ angel.â
you laugh. âitâs literally just a lighter.â
he doesnât let his gaze leave it. ânah. itâs you.â
you blink.
he says it so casually. so high. so him.
like itâs just a fact.
you donât say anything, and neither does he. the music swells. the lights flicker. people scream and laugh and break things somewhere in the background.
but right now, itâs just the two of you, and a lighter between your palms.
âyouâre gonna make me cry,â you joke, even though the way he keeps looking at the lighter makes your chest feel a little too full.
choso doesnât answer, just keeps running his thumb over the curves of it like itâs some delicate artifact, black with the glossy gleam of fresh paint, those red lilies blooming across the surface like blood in water.
he flicks it once. flame bursts up.
âperfect,â he mumbles.
âit works?â
âbetter than my soul, babe.â
you laugh, leaning your head against his shoulder, and for a few seconds everything around you falls away, just the throb of the music, the warm press of him, and the soft flicker of that tiny orange flame between his fingers.
you sit like that for a little while, talking about nothing. him complaining about a group project he hasnât started. you teasing him for skipping chem lab again. him promising you some ânext-level weedâ for tuesdayâs party that âtastes like peaches and existential dread.â
his voice is slow, syrup-thick, a little slurred at the ends. heâs stoned, clearly, but youâre used to this. used to the way he leans into you when heâs like this, heavy and unguarded, every thought coming out a little slower and more unfiltered. itâs a version of him that doesnât get tired of looking at you.
he tugs at the hem of your jacket playfully. âyou gonna stay with me tonight?â
you raise a brow. âdidnât plan on going anywhere else.â
he grins, that sleepy smile that makes your heart tick funny.
then your name cuts through the room, pitched over the music.
âoh shit,â you say, glancing over your shoulder. âtheyâre calling me.â
choso hums, not looking away. âtell âem i said hi.â
you hesitate for a second, not wanting to leave the warm bubble youâve curled into. but shokoâs waving you over, and makiâs already halfway across the room with a bottle in her hand and trouble in her eyes.
âiâll be back,â you say, giving his knee a squeeze as you get up.
he watches you go, eyes dragging over your silhouette, that sway in your hips, the flash of your smile as nobara yells something at you that makes you laugh and flip her off in the same breath.
then heâs alone.
not really, the house is packed, pulsing with bodies and music and smoke, but alone in the way that matters.
the lighterâs still in his hand.
and it wonât stop looking like you.
'she fuckinâ made this.'
that thought loops through his head in lazy spirals. he stares down at it like heâs still not fully processing that itâs his now, the way it fits so perfect in his palm, like you painted it with him in mind, like you know his hands that well.
(which you do.)
'what an angel', he thinks again, your face still ghosted in his mind.
heâs high. so high. his body feels like a heartbeat, slow and deep and pulsing warm. and the lighter, it keeps dragging him back to that moment on the couch, your thigh against his, your fingers brushing his, your quiet little smile when he lit it up for the first time.
'she always does shit like this. just makes stuff better. without even tryinâ.'
it hits him all at once, sudden and full-body.
he needs to mark this. this moment. this feeling.
heâs already pulling out his phone before the thoughtâs even fully formed, scrolling through the camera roll he swore he didnât care about but secretly checks too often. blurry candids, selfies with you curled against his chest, that pic from two weeks ago when you were looking up at him from the floor of his room with a red gummy in your mouth and sleep in your eyes.
he pauses there.
your eyes in that picture. big, soft, glassy, sexy.
his thumb hovers over the screen.
âyo,â a familiar voice calls, sauntering through the haze. âyou look fried.â
sukuna.
choso glances up. âam fried.â
sukuna grins. âfigured. that couch is cursed, by the way. guy got a blowie on it last week during pong night.â
choso shrugs. âadds flavor.â
they lean on the wall together, easy silence for a second.
âyou see the tat guys?â sukuna asks, chin-jerking toward the kitchen. âsomeone just got a fucking worm on their calf. like a literal earthworm. said it was âsymbolic.ââ
choso laughs, low and thick. âsymbolic of what?â
âdunno. being dirt, i guess.â
he doesnât respond. just looks back at his phone.
sukuna raises a brow. âyou good, dude?â
âyeah.â
âyou look like you just had a vision.â
choso finally meets his eye.
âyo,â he says slowly. âyou ever just feel something and know you gotta do somethinâ about it right now or youâll bitch out?â
sukuna squints. âuh. like what?â
choso doesnât answer.
instead, he pushes off the wall, hoodie slipping off one shoulder again, lighter still clutched in one hand, phone in the other, and starts walking.
sukuna watches him go, a little amused. âdamn. alright.â
the air is thick with smoke and bass as he weaves through the crowd, bumping shoulders, dodging a girl dancing with her heels off and her hair in her face.
he reaches the makeshift tattoo stand.
it smells like rubbing alcohol and regret.
âyo,â he says, voice smooth as silk and twice as slow.
the guy behind the table, ink sleeves up to the neck, black gloves, sunglasses indoors, glances up.
âwhatâs up, man?â
choso leans down slightly, eyes low-lidded and unreadable, body loose and stoned and sexy in that careless way he always carries.
he holds out his phone.
âcan you do this,â he asks, âon my arm?â
the artist blinks, then looks at the screen.
itâs a close-up of a girlâs eyes, wide, seductive, yet still glowing with laughter. looking up at the camera like whoever took the photo was the only thing in the world.
looking up at him.
choso taps the screen once. âthose are hers.â
the guy raises a brow. âlike⊠your girl?â
choso shrugs one shoulder. his eyes never leave the photo.
the buzz of the needle starts soft, a low, persistent hum, and choso doesnât even flinch. he just leans back, one arm draped lazily across the armrest, hoodie shoved halfway up his bicep where the artist wiped him down with alcohol. his eyes are half-lidded, bloodshot from whatever gojo rolled earlier, but locked on the phone heâs holding out in his opposite hand.
the pictureâs still up. her eyes, warm and wide, lashes curled, looking up at him like she trusts him with her whole heart.
âpretty,â the tattoo guy mutters, angling a small light to get a better look as he sketches the stencil. âyours?â
chosoâs mouth curves slow. doesnât answer right away. just flicks his lighter open and closed, click, click, click, the red spider lilies catching the light each time.
then finally:
ânah.â
the guy hums. âgirlfriend?â
he huffs a little, amused. ânot that either.â
he sets the lighter down on the table beside him, keeps his eyes on the screen.
âsheâs just,â he pauses, then shrugs, soft and slow, âher. yâknow?â
the artist side-eyes him. âdeep.â
choso smiles again, eyes unfocused. ânah, iâm just fuckinâ high.â the guy presses the warm stencil into chosoâs arm, smooths it into place.
âyou sure you wanna do this while youâre, uh,â he glances at chosoâs glassy expression, the faint grin still tugging at his mouth, âclearly not sober?â
âiâm not wasted,â choso says lazily. âand iâm not dumb. itâs not a mistake.â the artist nods once, respects it. âalright, man.â he flips on the machine again, lines it up.
âyou done this before?â choso grunts a laugh. âyâthink i got these in my sleep?â he gestures vaguely at the black ink already crawling across both arms, jagged, abstract lines, constellations and waves, some faded with age. some done in basements like this one. âfirst time sober was the weirdest one.â
the guy snorts. âfair.â
the needle hits skin.
choso exhales slow. doesnât flinch, doesnât shift, doesnât even blink hard. just stares at the wall across the room, jaw slack, hoodie sliding off his shoulder, the buzz settling into the meat of his arm like a low hum of intention. âyou ever tattoo someone like this before?â he murmurs after a beat.
âlike what?â
he shrugs again. âsomeone whoâs⊠yâknow.â the guy doesnât answer right away.
choso elaborates, voice softer this time. âsheâs not mine. i donât want her to be. not right now. itâs not like that. itâs justâŠâ he trails off, brows furrowing a little, tongue tucked against the inside of his cheek.
âshe just means somethinâ. donât got a word for it.â
the artist doesnât look up from his work, but his toneâs gentler when he speaks again. âyeah. iâve seen that before.â choso sinks deeper into the chair, breathing even. the painâs dull and constant, but it grounds him. keeps his thoughts from spiraling too far out, keeps his high in this exact moment.
âyou think sheâd be mad?â he asks, voice airy. âif she saw it?â
âdunno,â the guy says. âyou gonna tell her?â he blinks slow, head rolling back against the headrest.
ânah.â
another pause.
ânot now. itâs just for me.â the tattooer gives a small nod. âthatâs real.â
a silence settles between them, the steady hum of the needle, the sound of someone vomiting into a bush outside the window, a muffled scream from the beer pong table two rooms over.
âlooks good,â the artist murmurs, wiping excess ink from the forming lines of the eyes. âsheâs got crazy lashes.â
choso huffs out a small laugh. âsheâd fuckinâ love that you noticed that.â
âyeah?â
he smiles again, softer now. âtalked about lash serum for like a week. gave me a whole presentation.â
the guy chuckles under his breath. âsounds like she talks a lot.â
choso closes his eyes.
âshe talks just enough.â the buzz continues. the lines take shape. her eyes, right there, etched into his skin. not to claim. not to confess. just to remember.
just for him.
~
the buzz dies down gradually, tapering into a low hum before the artist finally flicks the switch and pulls back. the sudden quiet settles like a heavy blanket over the both of them, just the soft thud of bass from the next room and the subtle scrape of latex gloves against skin.
âalright, man,â the artist says, leaning back with a stretch. âdone.â
choso blinks slow, still slouched deep in the chair like heâs been there for hours, like the cushion molded around his bones. he lifts his head, eyes hazy but laser-locked on the strip of bandage being pressed to his upper arm.
âyo, hold up, lemme see it before you cover it,â he says, voice low and hoarse from either weed or reverence, maybe both.
the guy lifts a brow, but obliges. carefully wipes the skin one last time, blood and excess ink coming away in soft red-black smears. the roomâs fluorescent lights hit the raw lines at an angle, shining off the freshly tattooed skin like itâs something holy.
and fuck.
there it is.
your eyes.
wide and soft and open, curved lashes sweeping upward in a way no stencil shouldâve captured but somehow did. that quiet way you look at him, like he hung the stars, like heâs yours even if the two of you never say it out loud. inked permanent on the soft part of his bicep, nestled between a set of waves and the jagged edge of a half-finished constellation.
for a second, he doesnât speak. doesnât move.
he just stares.
it hits him slow, like a good edible, starts behind his eyes, low and warm in his chest, then spreads.
yo.
heâs obsessed.
like fully, all the way, brain-meltingly obsessed.
he turns his arm slightly under the light, eyes tracing the lines, the slight curve of your upper lid, the detail around the corners like you're mid-laugh or mid-thought or both. it looks exactly like you, his favorite version of you. the version that looks up at him like nothing else exists in the room.
god.
you look good on him. not in the possessive way. not even close. itâs not that.
itâs something else. something way quieter. something he canât even name when heâs sober, and definitely not now, baked out of his skull with his arm still tingling and his hoodie falling half off.
but still, heâs wearing you now. and it feels like something thatâs always been true, just waiting for the ink to make it real.
âyou good?â the artist asks, half amused, already reaching for the plastic wrap again. âyeah,â choso says, slow, mouth crooked into a lazy grin. âlooks fuckinâ sick, dude.â the guy chuckles under his breath. âkinda figured youâd say that.â
âyou killed it,â choso adds, finally dragging his eyes off the tattoo. âlike, actually.â
the artist nods, pleased. âappreciate it. was fun as hell to do, honestly. you sure you donât want her name or somethinâ? under it?â choso snorts. ânah. thatâd make it weird.â
âfair.â
he watches the guy gently press a clean dressing over the fresh ink, tape it up. the sensationâs a dull sting under his skin, not quite pain, just awareness. a reminder that itâs real now. that itâs his, for good.
she doesnât know. you might never know. and thatâs kinda the whole point. heâs not gonna flash it at you mid-party or say anything slick when you sit beside him later like you always do, throwing your legs over his lap and stealing his drink.
nah.
this oneâs just for him. a secret under his sleeve, tucked into the curve of his body like a memory.
âyou gonna keep it under wraps?â the guy asks, like he can read chosoâs whole plan off his face.
âyeah,â choso mutters, grabbing his hoodie and tugging the sleeve back down with a practiced flick. âat least for now. donât need her freakinâ out or nothing.â
âbet,â the guy says with a short laugh. âi get it.â
choso stands slow, body still heavy from sitting too long and smoking too much. he sways a bit but rights himself, shaking out his arms like heâs just come up from underwater. the whole basement smells like blood and rubbing alcohol and resin, but itâs warm, and the energy buzzes low and steady around him.
he digs in his pocket for a few bills, slaps them into the artistâs open palm.
âappreciate you, man.â
âanytime, bro. take care of that, donât go dunkinâ it in a keg or anything.â choso grins. âno promises.â
he walks out with his hoodie draped low, sleeve tugged all the way to his wrist despite the heat and the crowd and the chaotic press of bodies funneling in from the hallway. music floods back in slow, a pulse of bass syncing up with his own heartbeat.
but he canât stop thinking about it. every step he takes, every time the sleeve brushes against the fresh ink, it reminds him.
not of what they are.
but of what you mean.
upu didnât need to give him that lighter. you didnât have to think about him in that little quiet way you always did, like heâs more than just a weed plug or the guy you party with every weekend. that little moment, just you in your dorm, painting red spider lilies on a bic you knew heâd never throw away? that shit went straight to his chest. and now you're on his skin. maybe you'd freak out if you saw it. maybe you'd cry. maybe you'd laugh.
maybe you'd get real quiet and never say anything again. or maybe you'd look at him the way you did in that photo. maybe you'd look at him like you knew.
but all thatâs for later. for now, heâs just stoned as hell, arm warm and throbbing, and so unbelievably content that itâs almost embarrassing.
he spots gojo again across the room, already perched on the arm of someone elseâs couch with a red solo cup and a grin like he owns the house. choso veers toward him, slips back into the noise like he never left.
sleeve tugged down.
lighter in his pocket.
eyes on his arm, just for him.
~
later that night you navigate yourself back to choso after your banter with the girls.
you spot him sunk deep into the cushions, hood half up, curls falling into his face, a bottle of water in one hand and his eyes half-lidded and sleepy with that lazy high he wears better than anyone. heâs surrounded, gojo splayed on one armrest like he owns the place, sukuna lounged sideways with his feet on the table, and suguru perched on the edge, nursing a half-finished blunt.
âyo, look who it is,â gojo grins as you walk up, already clocking the way you move like youâre headed home, not just to a guy. âprincess finally found her prince.â
you donât say anything, just slide right into the little space at chosoâs side like it was made for you. his arm shifts automatically, pulling you in like itâs instinct, and you tuck your face into his shoulder, letting out the softest exhale. you can feel the thrum of his voice in your cheek when he speaks.
âhey, ma.â
his handâs warm against your hip, steady, grounding. he smells like weed and cedar and the faintest trace of paint from the lighter you gave him. itâs in his pocket now, safe like something sacred.
âso anyway,â suguru picks back up like you didnât just crash-land in chosoâs lap, âiâm telling you, the guy had no idea what he was doing. tried to roll with a swisher, no guts, just dumped the weed in and twisted the end like a fuckinâ lollipop.â
âgod, not the lollipop roll,â sukuna groans, dragging a hand over his face. âfreshman?â
âof course it was a freshman,â gojo says, grinning. âthose little guys think watching one youtube tutorial makes them bob marley.â
âyo, remember that one dude at the delta party?â choso says, head tilting back slightly. ârolled a joint with a bible page.â
âamen,â sukuna snorts.
ânah, for real,â choso laughs, hand tightening just slightly where it rests on your side. âhe said it made the high holier.â you huff against his hoodie, and his fingers flex like he felt it, like it was the best sound heâd heard all night.
they keep going, weed stories, party war stories, the dumbest shit theyâve ever seen in a frat house at 3am. itâs relentless, loud, chaotic, but you stay quiet, tucked against chosoâs side like heâs the only still thing in the room. his thumb runs in slow circles against your waist through the fabric of your top, and you feel the way he laughs before you hear it.
âyo,â gojo says, leaning across suguru to point at choso. âwhatâs the craziest thing youâve ever done at a party?â
âbesides adopt a girlfriend he doesnât kiss?â sukuna adds. choso blinks slow. doesnât rise to the bait, doesnât even twitch.
âprobably that time at theta when i fell asleep in the bathtub and woke up with a raccoon in my lap.â suguru chokes. âyou serious?â
âdeadass.â
âwas it⊠alive?â
âbro. it was chillinâ. just vibinâ with me.â
âyou probably hotboxed the tub,â gojo says, wiping tears of laughter from his eyes. âraccoon was just tryna get high.â
choso grins, soft and slow, and you nudge your nose into his hoodie like youâre hiding your own smile. âwhat about women?â sukuna says suddenly, eyes glinting like heâs fishing. âyâall ever hook up at your own party?â
âyouâre disgusting, that's against regâ gojo tells him cheerfully.
âdonât lie,â sukuna drawls. âyou know you have.â
âalright, once,â gojo admits. âbut i kicked her out after because she tried to name my bongs.â âyouâre heartless,â suguru says, deadpan.
âyou donât name the bongs,â gojo insists. âthey earn names. itâs sacred.â
âwhat about you, choso?â sukunaâs gaze cuts sideways. âyou got bodies stacked in your stoner dungeon?â choso hums, slow and easy. you feel the low sound in his chest, pressed flush to your cheek.
ânah,â he says. âi donât hook up with girls who donât know how to roll.â the boys howl, gojo nearly falling off the couch.
âthatâs so on brand,â suguru laughs. âyou need standards,â choso mumbles, amused, and leans his cheek briefly against the top of your head.
the lighterâs still in his pocket. his armâs still over your shoulders. and beneath the sleeve of his hoodie, hidden from the world, your eyes are inked into his skin.
you shift a little, just enough to tuck your legs under yourself, settling more fully into him, and he adjusts without thinking â arm around you tighter now, palm spread warm across your ribs, thumb grazing your side through the fabric. heâs careful. doesnât let the hoodie ride up. doesnât let anyone see. the tattooâs still fresh, still tender, and itâs just for him.
âyo, you good?â suguru asks, nodding at him. choso blinks slow. âyeah manâ.â
âthat weed hit hard,â gojo says. âi feel like iâm seeinâ sounds.â
âyou tryna kill someone?â suguru laughs. âevery time i hit one, i feel like my soulâs leaving my body.â
âshitâs a rite of passage,â sukuna shrugs.
ânah, a rite of passage is hosting a rager with a cop at your door and acting like you live there,â gojo grins. âhave you?â choso asks, amused.
âbro, iâve answered the door in a bathrobe before,â gojo says proudly. they all crack up again. you donât say anything, but your smileâs pressed right into chosoâs chest, and he dips his head for a second to nuzzle his nose into your hair.
âsheâs real quiet tonight,â suguru says, noticing. ânah, sheâs just comfy,â choso says easily. âshe donât need to talk when sheâs like this.â
you donât. not when youâve got his warmth, his arm around you, his voice rumbling low in your ear with every lazy joke. itâs always like this, like no one else in the room really matters, like you could fall asleep right here and heâd keep the world spinning while you did.
âthatâs love,â gojo says mock-serious.
âshut up,â choso mutters. but he doesnât stop smiling. and the lighterâs still warm in his pocket.
and your eyes are still inked into his arm, safe and secret beneath layers of cotton and smoke.
~
the house is still going when you two finally get up. itâs past 2am, maybe closer to 3, but the music hasnât let up and thereâs still people on the floor, drinks in hand, voices loud and slurred over each other. someoneâs passed out with a sharpie mustache, another guyâs making out with a pillow. classic kappa chaos.
chosoâs the one who moves first. you feel it in the way his arm shifts, in the soft brush of his thumb against your side like a nudge. he leans in close, voice barely above a murmur.
âyou good to dip?â
you nod into his hoodie, eyes half-lidded, heart heavy with warmth and weed.
he helps you up slow, palm steady at your back. when you stand, the cold air from the open back door hits your legs and you shiver a little, instinctively leaning back into his side. he shrugs his hoodie higher and throws an arm around your shoulders like he already knew itâd happen.
âyo,â choso calls out over the couch, voice scratchy and low. âwe out.â
gojo perks up from where heâs still posted with a half-spilled drink, eyes bright. âtell your girlfriend goodnight for us.â
you donât say anything, just press your face into chosoâs shoulder again, and he laughs under his breath.
ânight, man,â suguru says with a nod, already halfway into rolling another blunt.
sukuna lifts a hand lazily. âtext if you end up in a ditch.â
âif i do, iâm takinâ you with me,â choso mutters.
they all laugh again, and it follows you both out the front door, the porch light buzzing weak and yellow above you. the nightâs cooler now, quiet in a way that makes everything feel soft around the edges. your heels click against the pavement as you walk, but only for a second, choso notices and without a word, crouches down in front of you, glancing back over his shoulder.
âget on.â
you blink, amused. âseriously?â
âcâmon, ma,â he mumbles, tugging at your wrist. âyour feet hurt.â
you climb onto his back with a little laugh, arms wrapped loose around his shoulders, and he stands like itâs nothing, steady under your weight. his steps are slow and sure down the sidewalk, the frat house lights shrinking behind you, the sounds of the party fading with every step.
âyou always take care of me,â you mumble against his neck.
he hums low. ââcourse i do. you're my.. best friend.â
you walk like that for a while, his hoodie soft against your cheek, his hair brushing your face every time the wind shifts. he doesnât say much, just hums sometimes or comments on dumb shit you pass, a traffic cone in a bush, a raccoon on the curb that freezes when it sees you, like it knows choso somehow.
he sets you down once youâre close, only when his own buildingâs steps are in sight. his hand stays in yours as he leads you inside, up the stairs, past the other bedrooms where people are either passed out or definitely not sleeping. his door clicks shut behind you with a soft thud, and everything goes quiet.
his roomâs the same as always, warm, dim, the faint smell of weed and whatever incense he burned earlier in the week still lingering in the corners. one sock on the floor, a hoodie thrown over the back of his chair. youâve been here a hundred times, maybe more.
but tonight feels different. softer. warmer.
he pulls his hoodie off slow, careful of the sleeve, and tosses it toward the desk chair. the bandage underneath catches the light for a second, but he turns before you see too much.
you toe your shoes off and crawl onto the bed without thinking. he follows, slower, body still heavy with high and heat and something else he canât name.
youâre both under the blanket when he finally speaks.
âhey.â
you look over, curled on your side facing him.
his eyes are half-lidded, soft. one arm tucked behind his head, the other stretched toward you, palm open on the comforter like heâs offering it.
âi really fuckinâ love that lighter.â
your heart stutters a little. âyeah?â
he nods, slow. âlike⊠a lot. been using it all night. even switched pockets for it, kept checking to make sure it didnât fall out or get swiped.â
you smile, something small and full blooming in your chest. âgood. itâs supposed to be yours.â
âfeels like it.â
he looks at you for a long second. the space between you shrinks until his arm slides around your waist and pulls you in close.
you go easy, always do, settling into him like heâs your own bed, your own pillow, the place you always end up no matter how far you drift.
he breathes in slow, his nose brushing your hair.
âthe flowers⊠whyâd you paint those?â
you press your face into his chest.
âthey reminded me of you,â you say quietly. âred spider lilies. theyâre kind of⊠complicated. people think theyâre about death or goodbye, but they also mean memory. rebirth. starting over. they grow in all the places nothing else does.â
chosoâs quiet for a second.
then, soft, âyou think iâm like that?â
you shrug against him, voice even softer. âi think youâre the kind of person who sticks. who stays even when shit gets hard. and you donât always say how you feel but⊠youâre steady. like those flowers. like fire.â
he exhales slow.
âfuck, ma.â
âwhat?â
âyouâre gonna make me cry or some shit.â
you laugh, a quiet huff against his chest. he wraps both arms around you now, tucking you into the space beneath his chin, his hand sliding up into your hair.
his fingers stroke slow, gentle. again and again.
âyou can cry,â you mumble. âi wonât tell.â
he chuckles low, the sound vibrating through you.
ânah, iâm good. just⊠i dunno. not used to someone thinkinâ about me like that.â
you donât say anything. just curl closer, your fingers fisting lightly in the fabric of his shirt.
the room settles into silence. soft and slow. your breaths even out together.
his hand keeps stroking through your hair, steady and grounding. like he could do it forever. like maybe he will.
his voice comes again, quieter this time.
âgonna keep that lighter forever.â
you smile, eyes fluttering shut. âgood.â
ânot even gonna let gojo touch it."
âdefinitely good.â
his lips brush your hair, a ghost of a kiss.
you feel it all, the warmth, the safety, the way his body curls slightly to fit around yours like a shield, like a home.
his heartbeatâs slow against your cheek.
ânight, ma,â he whispers, already half-asleep.
you murmur it back, voice slurred with sleep, breath syncing with his.
his fingers keep moving, slow circles through your hair.
and in the soft dark, beneath the blanket, beneath the silence, his arm curls around you just enough to press the fresh ink on his bicep to your side, a quiet secret. a permanent truth.
just for him.
just for tonight.
just for you.
~
~
itâs been a chill afternoon, sunâs out, classes dragging, brain fried. chosoâs walking out of the lab building with his earbuds in, hoodie half-zipped, replaying your last message in his head. a pic of your shoes kicked off under a library table, captioned come save me, three broken hearts. made him smile. still does.
heâs almost past the quad when a shadow cuts across the sidewalk.
âyo, choso.â
doesnât need to look up to know who it is.
that voice, too smooth. familiar in the kind of way that feels like smoke curling up your back.
he pulls one earbud out and slows.
tojiâs leaned against the trunk of an oak tree like heâs been waiting. sunglasses on, black tee snug across his chest, arms crossed like heâs got all day. his smirkâs already half-there.
âwhatâs up?â choso mutters.
âyou got a sec?â
choso gives him a long look. he knows toji. knows the kind of calm that means somethingâs coming.
ââŠyeah,â he says anyway.
they walk.
theyâve done this before, that time a few weeks ago before his lab, once or twice after parties, when everyone else was loud and drunk and messy. tojiâs always been different. sharper. like he watches the room just to see where it bleeds.
âhowâs life at delta mu?â toji asks after a few steps. casual. fake.
âsame shit.â
âyeah?â he smirks. âyou still throwing those weed parties with your little mascot?â
chosoâs jaw ticks. âyou mean y/n?â
toji chuckles. âyeah. her.â
he tosses a glance sideways. too casual.
âsheâs got some energy, huh? always bouncing around, arms all over you. she like that with everybody or just you?â
choso doesnât answer. toji doesnât need one.
ânah, iâve seen it,â he continues. âalways tucked up next to you. on your lap. wrapped around your arm. clinging to your hoodie like itâs the last blunt in the world.â
he laughs under his breath. âkinda cute.â
chosoâs fists go deep in his pockets.
âsheâs just like that,â he says flatly.
toji hums. âyou sure?â
choso looks over.
âwhatâs your point?â
âjust wondering,â toji shrugs, still smiling like itâs harmless. âyouâve told me before, you two arenât dating.â
âweâre not.â
âbut you hang out every day.â
âyeah.â
âsleep in the same bed sometimes, right?â
chosoâs mouth tightens.
toji grins like he caught something.
âso sheâs single?â
choso stares straight ahead.
ââŠyeah.â
âgood to know.â
silence.
the wind brushes through the quad. students chatter behind them. someoneâs playing music from a bluetooth speaker in the grass, something smooth, almost romantic. it doesnât help.
âsheâs just real⊠open, you know?â toji says. âlike, warm. sweet as hell. makes you feel like youâve known her forever.â choso stays quiet.
âi ran into her the other day,â toji adds like itâs nothing. âoutside the gym. we talked for a sec.â his tone is lighter now. teasing. like heâs digging.
âshe remembered my name. smiled real nice, too. said she was headed to meet you.â
no surprise there. you always say where you're going. always talking about choso like heâs the center of your world. and maybe thatâs why this stings. and toji knows it.
âyou ever wonder if she does that for you?â he asks. âtells other guys sheâs headed to see you. uses your name like a shield.â
he doesnât wait for a reply.
âor maybe itâs just habit. maybe sheâs comfortable. you ever think about that?â
âdonât do this.â
chosoâs voice is low now. warning. toji just smirks.
âlook, man. iâm not trying to piss you off. just⊠trying to understand. âcause you act like youâre her boyfriend, but then you say youâre not.â
he tilts his head.
âso which is it?â
choso breathes slow through his nose.
âweâre close. weâve always been close. thatâs it.â toji nods. like he buys it.
but he doesnât.
âdamn,â he says. âyou got more patience than me.â
âwhatâs that mean?â
âmeans if a girl like that was pressed up on me every night, i wouldnât be wasting time calling her my friend.â he says it with a grin, but thereâs something sharp underneath.
âyou really never tried?â toji asks. ânever kissed her? not once?â choso doesnât respond. he canât. he kisses you all the time, on the head, never on the lips.
because the truthâs stuck in his throat, the way you fall asleep in his arms, the way you hold his lighter like it means something, the way you always come back to him like heâs home. and heâs the dumbass who never claimed you.
âso sheâs single, then?â toji repeats.
âyeah,â choso says, quieter than the first time, barely above a whisper.
toji gives him one last nod.
âfairs,â he says. âjust wanted to be sure.â and then he walks away. choso doesnât move. not for a long time.
just stands there, fists clenched, teeth gritted, watching tojiâs silhouette disappear down the path like itâs a threat, because it is. he knew.
he knew before he asked.
and now heâs coming.
because choso left the door wide open.
and you?
youâre free to walk through it.
~
chosoâs room, late in the afternoon.
your legs are curled under you on chosoâs bed, hoodie three sizes too big hanging off your shoulder, his, of course. the windows are cracked open, letting in the soft hum of birds and the echo of some guys yelling down at the basketball court. his room smells like incense, sage and something deeper, something him, warm, sleepy. youâve been here a hundred times like this. maybe more.
his hoodie sleeves keep sliding past your wrists as you text, thumbs quick, quiet smile pulling at your lips. heâs across the room, digging through a drawer for his rolling tray. you can feel his presence without even looking. you always do.
âyo, did you move my grinder?â he calls, glancing over his shoulder.
ânope,â you answer, distracted, fingers still flying over your screen. your phone lights again.
toji [3:04pm]: you looked cute at that mixer last night.
you bite your lip. thumbs hover.
then you type:
you [3:07pm]: oh, so ur stalking me noww?
you donât see choso pause. you donât see how long his eyes linger on your phone. you donât realize he saw the name, until he speaks.
âwho you texting?â
you blink up, tone of his voice unfamiliar.
âhm? ohââ you shift your phone in your hand, instinctive. âjust⊠someone.â
he tilts his head.
âsomeone, huh.â
you laugh a little. âwhy do you sound like that?â
he doesnât answer. he crosses the room instead, slow steps. plants himself at the edge of the bed, arms folded. you look up at him and that warm energyâs gone. replaced with something colder. sharp.
âthat toji?â
your breath stalls.
ââŠyeah.â
choso stares at you. unreadable.
âwhy?â
âwhat do you mean why?â you ask, eyebrows tugging. âhe messaged me. we were just talking.â
he hums, low.
'not buying it.'
âjust talking,â he echoes. âwhat about?â you sit up straighter. âwhatâs going on?â
âwhatâd he say?â
âchosoââ
âlemme see.â
he gestures at your phone. you clutch it instinctively. like muscle memory. like guilt? âare you serious right now?â he doesnât answer. jawâs tight. eyes dark.
âwhatâd he say?â he asks again. your fingers squeeze your phone. you feel a flush crawl up your neck. not from embarrassment, but shock.
âyouâre not serious,â you say again, this time quieter. he just looks at you. so you speak.
âhe said i was cute, that's it.â
his jaw ticks.
âyou flirting with him?â
âwhat?â
âyou heard me.â
you scoff. âno. i wasnât. it wasnât even- i didnât mean it like that.â choso steps back, runs a hand through his hair. pacing now.
âyou texting him while youâre in my bed?â
âwhat does that matter?â
âit matters.â
his voice is sharper now. rough around the edges. not loud, but tight, like itâs fighting to stay inside his chest. âyou know how i feel about that guy.â
âchoso, heâs been nothing but nice latelyââ
âheâs not nice. heâs not interested in being friends. heâs waiting, heâs circling, you donât see it?â
you blink.
âso what, youâre mad âcause i texted him back?â he looks at you like you just spit on the floor. âiâm mad âcause youâre in my fucking hoodie, in my bed, telling some other guy heâs got a shot.â
you freeze.
the silence that falls is loud.
so loud.
your eyes widen. you stare at him, lips parted. unsure if you heard that right. unsure if he meant to say it.
âa shot?â you echo. he looks away. exhales hard.
ânever mind.â
âno,â you say, voice firm now. âsay it again.â
he doesnât. but you both feel the truth echoing off the walls.
you look down. suddenly too warm. like the hoodieâs burning your skin. ââŠi didnât know youâd care,â you say, almost to yourself.
choso swallows. âi do.â you glance back up.
âwhy?â
he doesnât answer, but you already know. and now the air is thick with it. the unspoken thing. and for the first time, itâs not sweet. not warm. it hurts.
because it means everything heâs never said, everything heâs been, came with conditions you never agreed to. came with borders he never drew, but expected you not to cross.
you breathe slow. he watches you. you speak first.
âif you wanted to be the only one texting me like that, you shouldâve said something.â chosoâs face shifts. his mouth opens like heâs going to say something, defend himself, maybe, argue the way he always stays quiet because he doesnât want to lose you,but nothing comes out.
instead, his brows knit together, lips pressed in a tight line. his fingers curl at his sides.
âyou really think i donât wanna be that?â he says, voice rough. âyou think this shitâs been casual for me?â you blink at him. your breath catches.
âyouâve never said it was anything else, choso. what was i supposed to think?â
âfuck,â he growls, pacing again. âyou were supposed to know. i thought you knew.â
his voice rises, not yelling, but loud with frustration. heâs unraveling in real time, and itâs shaking something loose in you, too.
âhow was i supposed to know?â you shoot back. âyou flirt but you never say anything. you touch me like iâm yours but act like iâm just your best friendââ
âyou are mine.â your voice dies in your throat.
he stares at you. and when he speaks again, itâs quieter, but no less intense.
âyouâre mine,â he says again, like a confession. like a curse. âalways been mine.â your stomach flips.
âthen whyââ your voice cracks â âwhy didnât you say anything?â
choso runs a hand through his hair again, like heâs trying to physically hold himself together. like it hurts.
ââcause i was scared,â he snaps. âscared that if i said it out loud, itâd fuck everything up. that youâd look at me different. that youâd leave.â you stare.
âso youâd rather let someone else have me?â
he stiffens. you rise onto your knees on the bed, fire lighting behind your ribs now. âyouâd rather let toji of all people try it?â
his jaw clenches. âheâs not gonna have you.â your heartbeat skids.
he moves in fast, faster than he ever has, and grabs your wrist, firm but not rough, like he canât bear to let the distance exist any longer.
âiâm not letting him have you,â he mutters.
youâre still frozen, looking up at him. something between fear and thrill curling in your gut.
âchoso,â you whisper. he doesnât stop. he pushes you back gently onto the bed, one hand catching your waist, the other bracing against the mattress. he hovers over you, breath heavy, eyes searching your face like heâs begging you to see it, really see it this time.
âiâm fucking in love with you.â
your heart punches into your throat. his forehead dips, pressing against yours, voice hoarse.
âiâve been in love with you since you showed up to my first party and we listened to that dumb song together.â
you let out a shaky laugh, but your eyes are wet his thumb brushes your cheek.
âi never said it âcause i thought this was enough. thought just having you close was better than risking it all. but i canâtââ he pulls in a breath, voice shaking now too â âi canât sit quiet while other people try to take you from me.â
youâre blinking fast now. breath catching. every inch of your skin feels like itâs on fire beneath his touch.
âyouâre my girl,â he says again, softer this time. âyouâve always been mine.â
you donât answer right away. your chest rises and falls beneath his, shallow and unsteady. your palm is still on his cheek, but your eyes have shifted, staring past him now. unfocused. wet.
âyouâre only saying that,â you murmur, âbecause someone else finally had the balls to go after me.â
his breath catches. your voice is quieter, but sharp now, like youâre trying to convince yourself. like you want to believe it, but the cracks are there, and theyâre splitting open.
âyou didnât say anything until he got involved. until he started asking about me. texting me. seeing me.â your hand falls away from his face. âand now suddenly, iâm yours?â
his eyes widen. ânoââ
âyou had so long to tell me, choso. so many chances.â
ây/n, itâs not like thatââ
âthen what is it like?â you breathe. ââcause i donât get to be the girl you only want when someone else does.â
choso stares at you, heart hammering. like you just ripped something raw and bloody straight out of his chest.
he swallows.
and then, slowly, he pushes back, just far enough to sit up on his knees beside you. the mattress dips with the weight shift. his hands fumble for the hem of his hoodie.
he pulls it up and over his head in one quick move. your breath stutters.
there, inked into the inside of his upper arm, where heâd hidden it every time you curled up against him, is a tattoo.
of your eyes.
staring straight back at you.
your real breath, the one stuck in your throat, finally punches out of you.
choso watches your expression shift, eyes flicking from the ink to his face and back. he swallows once, hard, and says:
âgot it the night of the party. when you gave me the lighter.â you blink.
âyou were curled up on me. whole time i was talking with the boys, i couldnât stop thinking about you. how close you were. how you looked at me like that was your home.â he swipes a thumb under his nose, like he doesnât know what else to do with his hands. âso i got up, high as fuck, to the guy tatting people in the corner. told him to ink your eyes on me.â
your lips part, but nothing comes out. his voice softens.
âi didnât say anything âcause i thought it was enough. just having you near. but itâs not. not anymore.â
your heart pounds so hard you feel it in your ears.
he looks at you like youâre the only thing in the room. like he needs you to believe it. really believe it.
âthis isnât about toji. itâs never been about him. i wanted you long before he ever said your name.â
youâre still staring at the tattoo.
he moves closer again. his hand brushes your knee, gentle.
âyou think iâd get your fucking eyes tatted on me just âcause iâm jealous?â you blink fast.
his hand finds your face again. tender. grounding âyouâre it for me.â
his voice is low, raspy. not just from the emotion, but from how hard heâs holding it in, like if he lets go, everything heâs ever felt for you will come spilling out and drown him.
but he lets it go anyway.
âyouâre all i think about,â choso says, brushing his thumb over your cheek again. âwhen iâm high, when iâm sober, when youâre across the room and laughing at someoneâs stupid joke, when youâre asleep in my bed, wearing my shirt, youâre in my head all the time, ma.â your breath catches.
âevery song reminds me of you. every little thing you do drives me crazy. you donât even know how much of me youâve got.â
he leans closer, forehead nearly touching yours.
âyou gave me that lighter and i wanted to kiss you right there in the middle of that party. when you paint your nails i stare at your hands for hours. when you fall asleep on me at parties, i sit still like a statue so you donât move. iâm always lookinâ at you like ive already lost you, and it kills me.â
his hand finds your jaw, warm and steady, fingers curling behind your ear. your breath hitches, and heâs close enough to feel it.
âyouâve had my heart since freshman year. and i didnât say anything âcause i thought maybe you didnât want it. or maybe you already had it and didnât need to hear it out loud.â
you swallow, shaky. lips parted. cheeks flushed.
and choso looks down at them, your lips, like heâs been holding himself back from kissing you for a lifetime.
and then he doesnât anymore.
he crashes into you like heâs starving.
the kind of kiss that drags a sound out of your throat before you even realize it, all heat and pressure and ache, all the months and years and everything heâs shoved down, poured out into the way his lips mold against yours. he kisses you like heâs afraid youâll pull away, and like he knows you wonât.
your hands claw at his shoulders, winding into the mess of his hair, tugging him in even closer. and choso groans, deep in his throat, pressing you down into the bed, slotting his hips against yours.
his mouth moves fast, desperate, lips, tongue, teeth, like he canât get enough. like the taste of you is something he needs in his lungs.
âfuck,â he breathes against your mouth, dragging his lips down your jaw, âyou donât get it, do you?â
your back arches, lips parting when he sucks lightly under your ear.
âhow bad iâve wanted this. you.â
his hands roam, over your waist, under your shirt, up your sides like heâs trying to memorize all of you at once. and every place he touches leaves a trail of fire.
you moan his name, soft and shaky, and he loses it a little more, bites your bottom lip as he grinds his hips down into yours, heavy and hot and so there.
âsay it again,â he mutters, eyes half-lidded, forehead pressed to yours. âsay my name.â
âchoso.â
he shudders.
âagain.â
âcho!.â
he kisses you so deep it knocks the breath out of your lungs. kisses you like he owns you, like youâve always belonged to him, and like heâs finally letting himself claim whatâs already his.
and fuck, you let him.
youâve wanted this just as long, you've needed him just as bad.
and now, with your limbs tangled, your body burning under his, your heart thudding like a war drum in your chest, thereâs no more pretending.
youâre his. heâs yours. and itâs written all over his face.
choso looks at you like youâre the only thing heâs ever wanted, like heâs starved for you, but still savoring the moment. his eyes are dark, heavy-lidded, but soft. reverent. he cups your cheek with a hand thatâs just slightly trembling, brushing his thumb along your skin like he canât believe youâre real.
he kisses your forehead, slow and grounding, like a promise. then your nose. then your lips, and that one lingers. warm, aching, deep enough that it steals the air from your lungs. itâs not just desire. itâs everything heâs never said until now.
âplease let me see you, ma." he whispers, voice hoarse, like heâs been holding back forever.
you nod, lips parted, eyes locked with his. your breath stutters as his fingers ghost over the hem of your shirt, lifting it inch by inch like heâs unwrapping something precious. he tosses it aside, only to pull you in again. his palms spread wide across your ribs, thumbs brushing just beneath your chest.
âfuck,â he breathes, low and to himself. âso fucking beautiful.â
he leans in, mouth dragging hot and open along your neck, kissing and breathing you in, his lips trembling against your pulse like heâs drunk off you. he murmurs something there, a soft, almost desperate, âmine,â before he undoes your bra with one practiced flick.
and when it falls away, he doesnât touch you right away. he just stares, like the sight of you has knocked the wind out of him.
his hands come up slow, palms warm as they cup you like heâs afraid to break something delicate. âbeen dreaming about this,â he says. âabout you. here. like this. in my bed. lookinâ up at me like you already know iâd give you everything.â
you shiver under the weight of it all, his voice, his gaze, his touch. and then his mouth is on your chest, lips sealing around your nipple, tongue flicking before he sucks. slow, deep, just enough to make you arch into him with a needy whimper.
âchosoâŠâ
he groans, hand sliding lower, fingers hooking into the waistband of your shorts. he pulls them down with your panties in one motion, dragging his palms down your thighs on the way. and when he sits back, just to take you in, bare, breathless, flushed, his eyes go wide, like heâs trying to commit you to memory. âlook at you,â he murmurs, chest rising with each ragged breath. âyou donât even know what you do to me, do you?â
you reach for him, tugging his shirt up and over his head, palms skating down the strong lines of his chest, stopping only when your fingers find his arm. your breath catches.
your eyes. inked in black and red over his skin, etched like a confession. you won't ever get sick of seeing it.
he watches you take it in, sees the exact moment you understand, and he doesnât say anything. not at first. he just leans in, takes your hand in his, and presses it over his heart.
âsee?â he whispers. âbeen yours. always.â
your eyes brim, chest tight with something that has no name. and then he kisses you again, slow and deep, tongue stroking yours, hand sliding between your thighs. he groans into your mouth when he feels you, warm, wet, already trembling.
âso wet for me,â he mutters, lips brushing yours. âall this for me, huh?â
his fingers dip into you, one at first, then two, slow and deep, curling just right. your back arches, mouth falling open with a gasp as he starts to move them, watching every twitch and shiver you give him like heâs memorizing the way you come apart. âfuck, baby,â he breathes. âyou feel so good, been wantinâ this for so long. just wanted to take care of you. make you feel good.â
his lips trail back down, mouth closing around your nipple again as his fingers keep working you open, the room echoing with your broken gasps and soft moans. he kisses your sternum, your ribs, every inch of you he can reach like heâs trying to make up for every second he didnât have you.
and when your legs start to tremble, when your thighs squeeze around his hand and you whimper his name into the crook of his neck, he groans, low and sexy, and pulls back just enough to strip the last of his clothes.
his cock is flushed, hard, already leaking, and still, he pauses.
he leans in, pressing his forehead to yours, breathing hard. âyou sure you wanna do this hun?â
âi want you,â you whisper, voice cracking. âi want all of you.â
and when he slides in, slow, deliberate, itâs overwhelming. your nails dig into his shoulders, mouth open in a silent gasp, and he just groans, long and low, burying his face in your neck.
âfuck, sweetheart⊠you feel so fuckinâ good, made for me, huh?â
his hips rock into you, slow and deep, dragging along every sensitive inch inside you until youâre trembling again, mouth parted in helpless moans. he kisses you through it, messy and uncoordinated, full of teeth and tongue and need.
he doesnât hold back anymore. not his body, not his voice. heâs everywhere, his hands, his mouth, his words, and every thrust is rougher, deeper, hotter than the last.
âbeen yours since the day i met you,â he breathes against your skin. âyouâre mine, baby. mine. no one else gets to have you like this. no one else even fuckinâ compares.â
you believe him. how could you not, when heâs saying it like heâs been waiting years to let it out?
you fall apart first, clenching around him with a strangled moan, whole body trembling as your orgasm crashes through you, and choso follows, grinding into you with a low growl, holding you close as he spills into you.
he doesnât let go. not even after. he stays buried deep, forehead to yours, one hand cradling your jaw like itâs fragile.
ânot lettinâ you go,â he whispers. ânot now. not ever.â
~
raging music throbs and the partyâs already in full swing when you two walk in. the bass thrums under your feet, bodies packed tight in the kappa house. familiar faces flash by in strobes of color and sound, solo cups raised, someone laughing too loud, gojo shouting across the room with a bottle in each hand.
and then you and choso step into the chaos like itâs nothing. except tonight, itâs not nothing. itâs everything. your hand is in his. his thumb strokes over your knuckles like itâs second nature, and youâre tucked into his side like youâve always belonged there. heâs wearing that hoodie you love, and youâve got it slung off your shoulder like itâs yours now. he hasnât let go of you since you walked through the door, and he doesnât plan to. people notice.
gojo sees first. his mouth falls open around the mouth of a beer can, and he drops it on the counter with a dramatic gasp. âoh my god.â choso raises an eyebrow, smirking. âno fuckin way,â sukuna mutters, eyes narrowing. âthis for real?â you donât say anything. just smile, nuzzling into chosoâs chest. and choso, god, he melts. his arm tightens around you like instinct, like heâs not even thinking about it. âyouâre kidding,â maki blurts from across the room. sheâs half-drunk and squinting, pointing her beer bottle at you two like sheâs trying to make sense of a mirage. âyou finally fucked?â
âmaki,â shoko hisses, slapping her arm, but sheâs already grinning. âi knew it. i knew it.â suguru lifts his drink with a slow, knowing smile. âtook you long enough.â gojo, meanwhile, is spinning in a circle like he just witnessed a miracle. âwait wait wait,â he says, pointing between the two of you. âyouâre telling me this entire time, weâve been watching you two eye-fuck each other across every frat house on campus, and now youâre just casually showing up like this?â
âwhat can i say,â choso murmurs, pulling you even closer, âi figured it was time.â âlook at his hand placement,â shoko says, leaning into maki. âthatâs not friends. thatâs boyfriend hand placement.â
âyeah and look at her,â maki laughs. âshe looks like she just got dicked down and praised like a goddess.â you duck your head a little, embarrassed, but choso leans in and kisses your cheek, then your temple. itâs so soft, so easy, and when he pulls back, he looks straight at toji whoâs staring wide eyed, steady, calm, but with a flicker of challenge in his eyes.
âdonât look at her like that,â he says, voice low. ânot tonight. not ever.â toji scoffs, raising his hands in mock surrender, but his grin is sharp. âdamn. someoneâs possessive now.â
âbeen possessive,â choso mutters, like itâs not even up for debate. he turns his attention back to you instantly, brushing your hair behind your ear.
âyou okay?â
you nod. âiâm perfect.â and then he kisses you. not a peck. not for show. itâs slow, unhurried, with his hand cupping your jaw and his lips moving with the kind of tenderness that makes your knees weak. the room could be burning down and he wouldnât stop. you donât even hear gojoâs dramatic screech until you break apart.
âyo this is crazy,â he says, spinning around and yelling to no one in particular. âchoso is off the market. choso kamo, resident stoner-lover of no one but his weed and his hoodie collection, is now cuffed.â
âwhatâs it feel like,â suguru asks with a smirk, raising an eyebrow at choso, âto be someoneâs boyfriend?â
âfeels like i shoulda done it years ago,â choso says. you blink up at him, heart catching in your throat. âyo,â yuuji calls from the other side of the room. âdoes this mean weâre finally allowed to say you two have been in love since freshman year?â âi always said it,â nobara yells, shoving through the crowd with a drink. âdonât act like yâall didnât see them cuddled up at every party like an old married couple.â
âwait does this mean sheâs moving into his room?â gojo asks, visibly spiraling. âwhatâs gonna happen to the guest bed? whoâs gonna roll for me when chosoâs too busy being in love?â
âdie mad,â choso says flatly, and everyone laughs. but even through all the noise and teasing and attention, his focus never strays from you. his hand stays on your waist. his eyes keep dropping to your mouth like heâs remembering exactly what it feels like.
âyou good?â he murmurs again, like he just wants to hear you say it.
you press your nose to his chest and nod, smiling. âmore than good.â
he kisses you again, slower this time, like itâs just for you. like no one else is in the room. like heâs exactly where heâs always wanted to be.
and the thing is, he is.
heâs yours. fully, finally, publicly.
more choso for you >~< 'sticky situation' 'you,always.'
summary! your best friend satoru gojo has had a massive crush on you for years, the only issue is, he's pretty slutty. all he wants is you, god, you're the only thing he cares about these days, but he's too insecure to let himself want someone as beautiful and kind as you are.. he feels like he doesn't deserve such a loving person, so he sticks to his promiscuous lifestyle until you two can't handle pretending you're not enamoured with each other anymore. (insecure gojo, angst to comfort, gojo uses sex as an escape (no explicit mentions of said sex between others), toxicity, he's a sweetheart i promise)
satoru was off-his-fucking-face drunk.
he saw you from across the room chatting it up with shiu, a well known plug around campus, and a very attractive one at that, although he hated to admit it.
he knows he probably shouldn't of felt that stab of jelousy that just radiated through his gut, he's supposed to smile, then shrug all nonchalantly, cmon. donât be weird. she talks to people. you talk to everyone. thatâs how this shit works. he thinks.
but then he clocks the way shiu leans in closer, not to the point he's feeling all up on you, but he's close enough that it really, really pisses gojo off.
so, like any good 'best friend' who was almost blackout would do, he stalked over and threw his floppy, muscular arms around your waist with a deadly glare.
"can you fuck off shiu? no one wants you around here fucking up freshman with your fucking sketchy shit." he slurred, clinging to you like a koala.
"good cussing, satoru." shiu smiles with a new cigarette hanging from his lip.
"i hate you."
"i know, buddy..." he replies, winking at you before slipping the back of smiles into his pocket, "well uh, i'll leave you two alone then?" the obviously more mature man offers, you clench your teeth and pull one of satorus arms off of your body.
"sorry, kong. we'll chat another time?"
"no, you won't. go away shiu." satoru quipped, the black haired man just waves with a chuckle and moves on. he knew drunk gojo wasn't to be taken to heart, after all.
good riddance, he thought. everyone knew you were his, so why wasn't shiu getting that?
he sighed, but deep down he hated that part of himself. the obsessive part that wants to pull you away while knowing full well he's never once made any sort of claim on you. he doesn't get to play guard dog when he himself is the one who's taught everyone he's nothing more but a temporary play thing for others to use.
he knows it's pathetic, but still, he couldn't help but cling to you. it was just second nature to him at this point.
once shiu's gone, you exhale curtly. this always happened. despite your and satoru's relationship being nothing more than a tight friendship, he always got disgustingly possessive when you gave your attention to others, especially men, and especially at parties.
you sigh, then pry his other lanky arm off you with a big huff, fuck, he was heavy.
âyouâre being ridiculous, satoru,â you groan, yelling over the music even though he's loud enough for the both of you, âi was only asking him how his studies were going.â
âdonât care,â satoru mumbles with his cheek pressed to your smaller shoulder. âdonât like him.â
âyou donât like anyone who talks to me.â
âmhm.â
you groan softly, this has happened so many times itâs become expected at these kinds of things. you reach for his collar and tug it, steering him away from the kitchen before he can latch back on to shiu who was now talking to maki.
âcome on,â you roll your eyes. âyouâre piss faced.â
he laughs boisterously, a stark change from the pout he was wearing a few seconds ago. âonly a bit.â
âyouâre literally swaying.â
âand? i sway when i'm sober.â
you can be bothered arguing with this meat head. instead, you turn toward the stairs and brace for impact because right on cue, his hand slides into yours and he pulls you up them.
âsatoru,â you hiss, but heâs already halfway up, pulling you along behind him.
âi want to go to my room,â he says bluntly. âit's too fucking loud down there.â
he keeps a tight hold of your hand all the way up the spiral stairs with his thumb brushing your knuckles over and over, a nervous little tic he did when he got overwhelmed.
people smile and shout at the both of you as you walk pass, you think you can make out sukuna yelling his name, but he ignores all of them with a scoff like the dismissive drunk he is.
the moment youâre inside his room he shuts the door with his foot and leans back against it, still holding your hand.
this is always the part that makes your heart go all soft.
satoru looked so much gentler when he was inebriated like this. physically heâs still got that massive muscular upper body, still takes up all of your personal space and all, but he seems so fragile. like heâs set down the flashy go getter version of himself everyone else sees and picked up the one he only lets you have.
âsit,â he says dragging you toward his bed.
you smile at his slightly slurred speech and sit, he drops down beside you with his long lanky knees bumping yours. he immediately scoots closer until his leg presses against your own. his hand itch's until it's touching yours, your wrist, then your fingers, lacing them together.
he was always a little touchy when drunk.
âyou okay?â you ask.
âyeah,â he says with a smile, then, âyouâre really good.â
you laugh and lean back on your free hand. âthat wasnât the question, silly.â
he shrugs, flopping back onto the mattress and dragging you with him so youâre both propped up against his bashed up and faded wooden headboard. he loops his strong arm under your back and around your waist, pulling you closer to his body. okay, maybe a lot touchy.
you and satoru had a special kind of thing going on.
in freshman he spotted you from across the way at a mixer, he clocked you from the other side of the room and decided, for reasons he never really explained, that you were his person now.
he stole your cup, replaced it with a fresh one, and talked your ear off until you forgot what being nervous actually felt like, he seemed like a suave man on the outside, but this guy poured straight chronically online brainrot humour into your brain for like, two hours straight?.
by the end of the night you were sitting on the curb together, sharing fries he'd door dashed to the frat laughing like youâd known each other forever.
from then on, it was just a thing. you studied together, even though he never actually studied and mostly complained. you slept over, even though you both had comfy beds of your own.
you knew his school schedule, his little moods, the signs that meant he needed to leave a party early and unwind somewhere else. he knew when you were lying about being fine and when you needed him to just sit there and not try to fix anything.
people joked about you two all the time.
geto once asked why you didnât just date already. satoru laughed far too loud and said thatâd 'ruin absolutely everything'. you giggled too, telling yourself it was better like this, that you liked having him without the risk of romantic intimacy.
but like everything, the truth always came out.
one night where the both of you were almost blackout drunk, he took you upstairs after throwing his guts up into the toilet. you laughed at him and he flipped you off back, cleaning up then pulling you into his room like a rag doll.
he held you in the middle of the floor after you'd both toppled over, and he admitted everything to you through very crappy, slurred speech.
he told you how much he loved you, how badly he wanted you all to himself, how no one else could do it for him. you admitted the same, you told him how much you needed him in your life and how you felt more loved with him that anyone else.
you kissed, it was gross and quick but it happened. your feelings were out in the open.
for that night, at least.
morning came and the previous confession felt like small tiny fragments in both of your minds, you just couldn't remember any of it fully.
you went about your little friendship like nothing had changed. from what was left in your brains, you had a semi-clear thought on it all.
oh shit, maybe she/he likes me back?
sometimes, late at night, youâd lie next to him while he talked about nothing, sometimes you thought you caught drawls of that night in how he went quiet when you mentioned another guy, or when his hand squeezed yours that little bit tighter. but then heâd joke it away, or pull back, or remind you with a grin that you were his best friend.
so you stayed quiet, and so did he.
because being close to him like this felt better than not having him at all, loving him quietly was safer than risking losing him.
you didnât know he was doing the exact same thing, from the other side of that line, telling himself over and over that you deserved better than him and that wanting you meant destroying his favourite thing in the world, your friendship.
now, your eyes drag over his pretty face as he stares up at the celling, letting out a long sigh that smelt like hard solo.
then he starts talking.
âgod, this theme sucked actual nut sacks." he announces. âit was so bad, y/n. tell them to never do it again.â
you snort. âhm? weren't you the one hyping it up last week.â
âcan you be quiet? i was lying. why are you lying to me?" he was making no sense.
âi feel like that's not... a proper answer?â you shake your head like you yourself were letting it go, he wasn't sober enough to be answering things correctly.
ârude.â he turns his head to look at you. âeveryone looks stupid.â
âyouâre wearing bright red board shorts and no shirt."
âyeah,â he says seriously. âso fucking stupid.â
you glance at the discarded lifeguard whistle on his desk, the red plastic stark against the silky oak. âyou look fine, toru.â
ânah.â he shakes his head, hair flopping into his eyes. âeveryoneâs dressed like baywatch rejects. i hate it.â
âyou hate fun.â
âi love fun.â he squeezes your waist as to prove his point. âthis just isnât fun fun.â
âyeah? whatâs fun fun then?â
his face turns and he's suddenly looking happier. gosh, these drunken mood swings.. âlike... a onesie party.â
you laugh and sit a bit closer. âof course.â
âlike animals,â he adds, gaining conversational momentum. âor dinosaurs. geto would be a gorilla. choso would be like, a wolf or some shit.â
âyeah? what would you be?â
he breathes out an answer before you can even finish your sentence. âa bunny.â
âoh wow, no you would not.â
âi absolutely would. i'd buy ears and everything.â he whines with a forlorn expression, oh we're sad now? perfect.
you picture it and bite your lip to keep from smiling too hard, but he notices.
âsee,â he says, now smug (you seriously couldn't keep up). âway better than 'surfer sluts'.â
you look at his shorts, then back at him. âat least the name was semi-creative?â
âtch, only thing creative 'bout it.â
he rambles on, complaining about the trashy pitbull music, about how someone spilled a drink on his nice new grey decarbra's, about how the freshmen are hella annoying this year. his hands wonder as he talks, sometimes he's squeezing your fingers, sometimes drifting to your hip, sometimes tracing the line of your knee cap? he's doing it absentmindedly so you guess it was fine.
you two chat about how shitty the party was for a good half hour, circling back to old gossip and relationship dramas, laughing and spit balling for ages. you'd never tell him but you loved these moments, where he'd laugh and talk to you like you'd known him since he was born, rather than just a few years ago.
he always looked at you like you were the most precious thing in the universe, whether you'd be out on long drives in his fancy car, or over at your dorm making really crappy cupcakes, he'd always gaze at you so lovingly. the bond between two best friends, am i right? you pushed away the thought of his lips on yours.
he sobers up a tad so the conversation is semi coherent on his end.
eventually, he circles the topic back you like he always does.
âso, you talk to shiu a lot,â he says quickly, darting his eyes back and forth from your face to gage your reaction.
âyou know i talk to everyone,â you reply.
âyeah, but like.. you talk to him a lot.â
you smile at his badly hidden jealousy, âheâs in my stats class, satoru. nothing more.â
âstill.â
you roll your eyes. âi asked how his studies were going. thatâs it.â
he hums but it sounds very unconvinced.
âyou get so weird about this,â you add. âitâs not that serious, i promise.â
he shifts closer again and his forehead drops to your shoulder. âi just donât like when guys look at you.â
âtheyâre going to look at me.â
âi know.â his voice drops. âi hate it.â
you bump his knee with yours. âthatâs a you problem, toru.â
ârude,â he repeats, but thereâs no real malice in it.
you blurt out quickly, regretting it as soon as it pours out, "you're the only guy i'm this into, satoru, don't worry." fuck why did i say that?!
gojo's heartbeat is now thumping. she means that... in a friend way, right? of course. of course she did. no biggie...
he bites his lip as his hand goes all shake dragging up and down your arms.
you sit in silence for a bit as he and you both process, listening to the muffled frank ocean seeping through the floor boards. his thumb keeps tracing your knuckles, slower than before like heâs losing steam, getting sleepy.
to satoru, his room feels so much safer because no oneâs looking at him like they want to eat him alive. not in here, with you. there's no one staring, waiting for him to be alone so they can make a move. sure, he's into it, but sometimes he jsut wants this, with you.
this is the version of him that he loves, sitting. talking. hands brushing without it being a big deal.
he wonders, not for the first time, why this version never feels like itâs allowed to want things. to want things like you.
the silence is comforting, but you make the mistake of opening your mouth. you promise you were only trying to lighten the mood, and/or distract from your almost confession earlier.
âc'mon,â you say lightly, not really thinking, âyou should be thriving tonight, not sulking up here in your room. i mean, this theme was basically made for you.â
he lifts his head. âuh? whatâs that supposed to mean?â
you shrug. âyou know, surfer sluts. pretty fitting, no?"
you don't realise, but he goes stiff at your throw away comment, his fingers pause their ministrations on yours, his grip loosening until your fingers slide apart. he sits up straighter, and his body naturally moves away. his blue gaze dropping to the floor.
heâs heard it all before. much worse than this. louder than this. laughed off in locker rooms and kitchens and group chats.
'he's a slut.'
'a manwhore.'
'gojoâs just being gojo.'
he knows deep down he's built it, with every hook up being another brick. it was easier than being the guy who wanted one girl and didnât know how to ask without ruining everything.
but fuck, he doesnât want you to see him like that. thatâs the fucked part. he doesnât mind anyone else thinking it. just not you.
âoh,â he says.
you tilt your head, smiling. âoh, what?â
ânothing.â
you watch as his face turns into a distant blunt pull, you can't tell if he's still going through his drunken emotional switch ups or what.
âhey,â you say. âhey, i was joking.â
âyeah,â he mutters. âi know.â
he doesnât look at you. oh shit.
without him pressed against you, the room suddenly inflates ten fold, when did it get so cold? the space between your bodies is small but very prominent, like a missing piece to a puzzle you'd spent hours putting together.
âtoru?â you try again.
he scratches at his neck, a nervous habit youâve seen a hundred times but never really questioned. âitâs fine.â
itâs clearly not, but you donât push. youâve learned when to stop.
he swings his legs off the bed and leans forward, elbows on his knees. the chatter downstairs seeps up, laughter and shouting coming through the walls. he stares at nothing, his mouth moving like heâs chewing on words he doesnât want to swallow.
âeveryone thinks that,â he says eventually, âso youâre not wrong.â
you frown, then fling your own legs off of the couch and hug into his side. âhm? thinks what?â
âthat iâm just⊠that.â
oh.. you wince to yourself and drag a hand up and down his arm for comfort, âhey.. i didnât mean it like that.â
âi know.â he huffs a laugh lacking all the humour it usually had. âdoesnât really matter how you meant it.â
he looks down at you, âitâs true.â
you don't know how to answer, because you know it's true, too. you didn't mean to be rash, but he was a slut. this guy averaged two girls a week and bragged to almost everyone about it, why was he getting angsty now? his constant rotation was the main reason you hadn't brought up your feeling for him since that night. who sleeps with that many chicks if they really did like someone for real?
he keeps going, words pouring now that the damâs cracked.
âi mean, look at me,â he says, gesturing at himself. âeveryone hereâs fucked me or wants to. itâs kind of my thing now, not that i totally mind, it's just.. not all i am.â
âi don't think that's all you are, okay? you're my bestfriend, satoru. i know you better than that.â you're trying so hard to save this sinking ship.
'bestfriend..' he echoed in his mind, a solemn smile playing at his mouth, he wanted to be so, so much more than that.
"yeah, i know you don't think that.â he shrugs, smiling softer. âyou're the only opinion i really care about, anyways.â
you tap his wrist for his hand again and he lets you intertwine your fingers. his heart blips, you don't normally initiate this type of intimacy, it was always him grabbing for your hand.
"of course satoru, don't worry,â you say.
he wants to say something else but whatever it was stays lodged behind his smile, any sadness he had was long gone, he was now hyper fixated on your hand.
"i know you wanna tell me something else."
âyeah but.. forget it,â he says almost too happily.
you squeeze his hand. âc'monn, tell me.â
he shakes his head, hair falling into his eyes again. âitâs stupid.â
âyouâre stupid,â you say gently.
stupidly in love with you..
~
satoru stretches and lets out a deep, throaty groan. he somehow didn't have a hangover this morning, that was surprising.
he yawns and rolls over to bury his face into the pillow, his head feels packed with cotton and gravel, but it's not necessarily throbbing.
he's halfway through another groanish yawn when he realises the blankets that are pulled over his chest, when did they get there?
he stares at the ceiling, frowning. his comforter is pulled up to his chest with the corners tucked around his shoulders in a fashion he never ever does himself because heâs lazy and tall and always hangs off the bed. someone even kicked his shoes into place on his shoe rack.
you, of course it was you.
your face floats right to the front of his mind clear as day. your pretty little laugh, your hand in his, the precious way you were looking at him when he knocked out, you looked so beautiful.
he had morning wood and the thought of you was only making it pulsate harder. you were so kind to him, you'd always been there as an anchor, no matter what. he'd crash at your place when he felt like it, he'd squeeze into bed with you and hold you against his body.
shit, your body.. he presses his boner into the bed and groans, draging a heavy hand down his face.
âfuck.â
he's loved you for years, every girl he's ever fucked was a distraction. a distraction from the fact he never felt good enough to have you, all of you, all to himself. he hated it.
he catalogs the evidence like itâs a horrible case against him and his promiscuous ways. the kind words you'd always spewed, the way you can leave him without it feeling like you're really gone..
he racks his brain for every girl whoâs woken up here and slipped out before he got to learn their last names. how none of them ever did this. how none of them stayed this gentle with him.
he tells himself thats gotta mean something.
then, he reminds himself that wanting something doesnât mean he deserves it..
as he's having a deep, 'i love my bestfriend but i'm too much of a whore to deserve her, what the fuck do i do?' crisis for the fiftieth time this month, the door slams open.
ârise and shine, whore,â sukuna bellows, stepping into the room blowing a fat cloud of sweet vapor straight into the air. âget the fuck up. house looks like a dump.â
satoru squints at him. âi hate you.â
âyeah, yeah.â sukuna hits the vape again. âcome clean. you threw up in the downstairs sink.â
âthat wasnât me.â
âit was absolutely you.â
satoru rolls onto his side and curls in on himself dramatically. âfuck off.â
sukuna snorts. âget up and mop you insufferable asshole.â
he waits until the door slams shut again before forcing himself to sit up. he scratches at his neck, then glances down at himself, he's still shirtless and in these ridiculous shorts. he grabs his geek bar off the side table and takes a hit, then throws it aside and sniffs.
he grabs a pair of grey sweats off the floor along with boxers from his draw, he strips, poses nakedly in the mirror for a good ten seconds, and pulls them on, not bothering with a shirt. he comes down the stairs barefoot, every step reminding him of how much of a lightweight he is. he makes it to the bottom and, holy fuck, the house was a mess.
empty cups are everywhere, bottles spilt into the carpet, peoples sweaty clothes strewn all over the place, what a palace.
choso is sweeping loads of trash into a big rubbish bag on the floor, nanami is wiping down the counters with a pissed off look, sukuna and toji are flipping the couch back over.
geto spots him before everyone else, "there he is,â he smiles, clapping a hand on satoruâs shoulder. âyou okay?â
âno.â
geto grins. âheard you were real fucked up last night.â
satoru sighs. âdonât.â
he grabs a rubbish bag and starts scooping cups off the floor, his mind keep floating back to you, over and over again. he can still feel your hand in his, he can still see the way you'd hugged into his side when he got all quiet.
thatâs the last thing he remembers before everything goes black is you.
he clears his throat. âhey.â
no one looks up.
âhey,â he tries again, louder. âdid anyone see y/n leave last night?â
ino looks up like hes been waiting for a question like that, âwhy,â he asks. âyou forget where you put her?â
satoru shoots him a look. âshut up.â
âi think she left kinda early,â nanami says without looking up. âbefore two.â
satoruâs chest loosens just a bit. âyeah?â
âyeah,â nanami continues. âshe walked out with-"
toji stood up from kneeling besides the couch,
âshiu,â he says casually, cracking open a beer he had in hand. âshe went home with shiu.â
the room goes quiet for exactly a second.
satoru stops and the trash bag slips from his fingers.
âwhat,â he says.
toji shrugs. âsaw them out front walking to his car. sure looked cozy.â
he feels his heart beat thump, his head starts to throb and his eyes feel like they want to water and spill.
âthatâs not-" he laughs weakly. âthatâs not funny.â
toji takes a sip. âwasnât joking.â
geto raises an eyebrow, watching satoru a little too closely. âyou sure, man?â
toji nods. âyep.â
it feels like someone socked him in his mouth, his ears ring, the house feels claustrophobic, suddenly everything's very wrong.
you wouldnât.
would you?..
he thinks about the way you held his hand, the way you tucked him in, all 6"4 of him, the way you told him he was 'the only guys you were this into.'. maybe that never happened ? maybe it indeed was just a figure of his imagination.. fuck, maybe his whorish lifestyle had finally scared you off..
he breathes in deep. if you did sleep with him, satoru doesnât get to be hurt. heâs the guy who taught you this was normal, that this was so right and casual.
if you chose someone else, all that means is you learned the rules from watching him doing it over and over and over again.
his chest tightens and he laughs again. âha. wow. okay.â
ino bursts out laughing. âare you deadass?â
sukuna snorts. âc'mon bro, you hook up with mad girls. don't be pressed when she does the same.â
geto covers his mouth, he wants to laugh but he knows he shouldn't. âthatâs rough, but sukuna's right, satoru.â
gojo wipes a hand down his face quickly, blaming the hangover. âyeah. hilarious.â
âguess surfer sluts really was her thing,â toji adds, smirking.
that one lands.
satoru bends down and picks up the rubbish bag again with his eyes fixed to the floor, âiâm gonna go take the trash out.â
"okay, bro."
~
now, in your defence, while you did go home with shiu, you didn't sleep with him.
you couldn't, not when you were this deep under the satoru spell.
"thanks for letting me crash here, i didn't want to disturb gojo's sleep. oh, and yuki brought higuruma over last night. didn't wanna be up until 4 listening to them fuck."
you're half dressed under the covers, wiping your eyes as he come in with a cup of coffee.
"i got you, don't worry." he smiles from the door of his room, he let you take his luxurious bed while he slept on the equally as nice couch. shiu was surprisingly rich for a collage kid, maybe all that 'sketchy shit' as satoru liked to put it, was really selling.
he brings the cup down onto the table besides your bed and flicks your nose, "just remember your promise, gotta do that last section of the assignment for me, payment for my generosity."
"mm, wouldn't dream of leaving you without proper compensation." you laugh, taking the cup and sipping gently.
he looks from one of your eyes to the other like he's appreciating your presence, then quickly looks away and spins around.
"gotta make a few runs this morning, leave whenever you feel like it, yeah?" he throws over his shoulder.
you give him a thumbs up and he nods, waving while walking out.
the morning scuffles along, you eventually pull yourself out of his beautiful bed and get dressed into whatever clothing you could find that'd fit you in his draws. there were a few women's camis aswell as sweat pants in here, oh no, did he have a girlfriend?
as if being summoned by the universe, who else but shoko walks into the house, with her own key, no less.
she locks eyes with you for a second then smiles and waves like she couldn't care less.
"sh-shoko? what the fuck?"
"hey, y/n. is shiu still here?" she was so calm you just had to pry.
"why? are you two a thing? god, i promise this isn't what it looks like, i was just at a party and he offered to-"
"hush, i don't give a shit if you fucked him, girl. he's not my man."
phew... wait- not phew! you guys didn't even do anything!
you explain to her what went down, and she, in turn, told you why she was there. turns out she and shiu were hooking up on the dl, but she only felt for him physically, so you weren't a bother to her. "yeah, we fuck and he gives me drugs, pretty sweet deal. would recommend."
"yeah, i'm so good, thanks."
after that semi-akward interaction you gathered your stuff and got the hell out of there.
shiu's place was just off campus so the walk back to your own apartment wasn't far. like you did every morning after a party, you tried to give satoru a call. only, after the third ring, the line went dead.
satoru was finishing up the last little chores around the frat when he got your call, he stared at his phone as it rung on the kitchen bench, your name in cute heart emojis flashing on the screen.
he declined.
the last thing he wanted right now was to talk to you after shiu had been apparently digging in you. no way.
"yeesh, that's harsh, man." choso commented from his spot sitting at the breakfast bar.
"it's nothing, just busy right now." satoru tries his best to sound nonchalant but it's obvious he's still very much annoyed.
"oh yeah? you stop training when she calls you, man. you're never 'too busy.'" choso makes air quotes around that last part.
satoru sighs and chucks the last of the solo cups in the recycling bin, then takes off back up the stairs.
he shuts his door far harder than he needs to and falls onto his bed.
shiu.
the name keeps coming back, no matter how hard he tries to shove it away.
he tells himself he has no right to feel like this, none. he fucks around constantly, hell, itâs practically his brand. heâs built this whole thing around being easy, wanted and available. so why does the idea of you choosing someone else make his chest feel so disgusting?
youâre your own person. you always have been. heâs never tried to cage you, never tried to tell you what to do or who to see. thatâs not him and he prides himself on that.
still.
youâre supposed to be his person.
not like that, he tells himself. not in a gross way he gets to possess but in the way you always end up together. the way you fall asleep next to him without it meaning anything and somehow meaning everything at the same time.
he massages the bridge of his nose with both hands.
get over it.
get over it.
get over it.
god, he just can't. instead, he unlocks his phone and stares at your pretty contact photo, the stupid nickname. his thumb taps call before he can talk himself out of it.
it barely rings twice before you're answering all giddy.
âtoru!â your voice is so bright. âoh my god, i was just about to try you again. are you hung over?â
he feels pain coil up in his tummy.
âno,â he says flatly.
on your end, you're taken back by his bluntness âoh! uh, okay.â
he winces internally at your dejected response but doesnât soften the blow. if he does, heâll crack, and he canât afford that right now.
âwhatâs up?â you ask, still trying.
ânothing,â he replies. âjust busy.â
your heart clips like it'd been hooked onto a fishing hook.
ââŠhey, uh, are you.. are you mad at me?â
he scoffs sharply. âwhy would i be mad at you.â
your voice dips. âi donât know. youâre being kinda blunt, i guess.â
he laughs curtly. âiâm allowed to be blunt.â
ânot like this,â you say quietly. âyouâre never like this with me.â
that hits him in his throat. he pretends to ignore it when in reality it throws his heart for a loop, "what do you want,â he asks, it's so clipped.
you go silent for a second, clearly recalibrating. âi was wondering if you wanted to hang out later? maybe get food or something. i can come over.â
normally heâd say yes without thinking. normally heâd already be planning how fast he could ditch whatever else he had lined up.
today, though, his jealousy makes the decision for him.
âcanât,â he says. âiâve got a girl coming over.â
the line goes very quiet.
ââŠoh,â you say.
gosh, he can picture your face. the sweet little drop in your eyes you try to hide. the way you probably nodded even though he canât see you.
thereâs a mean, awful part of him that hopes it stings. not because he wants to hurt you, but because he wants proof that he matters the way you matter to him.
the rest of him despises that part. hates that when things feel out of control he reaches for the only thing thatâs ever numbed really it.
he doesnât want the girl coming over. he wants you. he always does. but wanting you feels so dangerously hard in a way fucking his feelings out never does.
âright,â you add. âthat's okay.â
he should stop. he should backtrack and admit to what he really wants, he wants to talk to you about shiu, why you did it when you know he hated him, why you'd sleep with that fucker of all people, get some sort of closure. instead, he keeps going, so cruel and careless.
âyeah,â he says. âdonât really feel like cancelling either. kinda want good company.â
thatâs a lie. he feels like shit. but he wants it to sting, shit, he hates that he wants that.
you swallow audibly. âokay. well. have fun then.â
âalways do,â he replies, too fast.
the silence is horribly awkward.
ââŠi know you said you're fine, but really, toru, are you good?â you ask, one last attempt.
he exhales through his nose. âyeah. donât bother coming over tonight, okay?â
there it is. the line he knows will hit you deep.
your voice wobbles a little, âi wasnât.â
âgood,â he says. âtalk later.â
and before you can respond, he hangs up.
the second the call ends, regret slams into him full force.
âfuck,â he grumbles, slamming the phone onto the bed.
he presses his palms into his eyes and groans. what the hell was that? why did he do that?
you didnât deserve that. heâs supposed to be your best friend, not... not whatever that was.
he tells himself heâs doing you some sort of fucked up a favor. that pushing you away now is kinder than letting you see how messy he actually is when he cares.
it sounds noble until he admits the truth. he ran because staying wouldâve meant being honest with you.
he sits there for ages, replaying your tone over and over until it makes him feel nauseous.
he hates this. hates how jealous he feels. hates that he canât say anything about it without blowing everything up. hates that he took it out on you because he doesnât know how to handle it like a normal person.
his phone vibrates, instead of checking the notification he unlocks it, opens a different app, scrolls, and sends a message he knows heâll definitely regret later.
gojo: come over
her reply is quicker than he'd thought it be.
xxx xxx xxx: omw ;)
he drops the phone and leans back, staring at the ceiling. this is what he does. when things get too much, he drowns them out. replaces one feeling with another until itâs all numb enough to ignore.
a knock sounds at his door twenty minutes later.
he doesnât give himself time to think it over, he opens it, steps aside, and lets the girl in. she smiles at him, then she reaches for his arm like it's her god given right.
the door clicks shut behind them.
and even as he kisses her, his mind betrays him, flashing back to your voice on the phone, so sweet, so soft and hurt.
he squeezes his eyes shut and pushes it away.
anything to not feel like this.
~
now, the party a few days later is so much worse.
the theme is white out so the crowd looks like a sea of seagulls packed into this seats living room.
you're clad in a pretty little white dress with big white heels and matching accessories, pretty basic yet still jaw dropping.
you're walking past the tv when satoru comes into view, today, not only was his hair white, but his entire outfit was too.
heâs across the room near the kitchen island, leaning back against the counter with a drink in his hand and two girls pressed in real close. one of them is laughing like a hyena at something charming he said, her fingers hooked into the waistband of his jeans like sheâs testing how far she can go. the other is touching his arm, tracing up his strong bicep.
he's too busy with them, he doesn't even spare you a fleeting glance.
you try not to look, you really, really do. but itâs just so difficult when that used to be your spot. when that used to be you next to him, stealing sips of his drink, talking shit about everyone else at the party like you were above it all together.
you frown, the conversations you and satoru had lately have been few and far between. he's dry as hell, and suddenly busy every time you ask to hang out.
you keep telling yourself itâs fine, it's all good. people grow apart all the time, it's collage! maybe heâs bored of being your friend. maybe you leaned too hard on a friendship that wasnât meant to last.. and while you tell yourself it's fine, your chest twists and ticks and throbs with pain.
you step toward a couch where choso, shoko and geto are lounging around, all three of them clock your mood the second you flop beside them.
âhey, you good?â geto asks, passing you a drink.
you shake your head. âiâm okay.â
choso gives you a look. he's not gonna push but he'd like to. âyou wanna sit here with us?â
âyeah,â you say quietly. âthatâd be nice.â
you sit between them with your legs tucked up, watching the party happen around you like itâs something youâre not really part of anymore. your eyes keep flocking back to satoru like some sort of pathetic magnet.
you loved satoru's company. he was your favourite person on earth, you'd spend every second with him if you could, now he was pushing you away? you'd of at least liked a conversation about it. maybe a warning.
hes getting loud talking like he's the only person worth listening to in the entire room, patting girls on the ass and leaning in close to their necks to hear them properly.
every time he laughs or slings his arm around their shoulders, you feel your heart crack.
you miss him. god, you miss him so bad. not whatever this was.
choso nudges your knee gently. âc'mon, you donât have to stay if itâs not fun.â
you shake your head again. âi donât wanna be alone.â
he nods like he understands that more than you realise.
time drags on and an hour passes. then another. you try talking to other people, but it feels so wrong. your attention keeps snapping back to satoru.
heâs still backed against the kitchen island with a drink he hasnât touched like, forty minutes, he's pretending bf to laugh at those girls terrible jokes, letting them sleaze all over him.
normally heâd lean into the gag. he'd flirt back and say something stupidly charming and let the night dissolve into a forgettable hook up.
but tonight it just feels so weird.
the girl on his left moves in with her mouth near his ear, saying something he pretends not to clock. her breath fans over his skin and his stomach churns, not with excitement but with this dull guilt that keeps scratching his lungs raw.
he looks at their faces and feels a light sense of absence.
he thinks about how easy it would be to disappear upstairs with one of them. how everyone would nod like yeah, that tracks. just gojo being gojo, and the thought makes him want to rip out of his own skin.
he didnât want this shit tonight. he didnât want these grabby hands all over him. heâs so tired of being wanted in the most bare minimum way.
he wanted you here.
eventually, after you'd stared holes through the back of satorus head, choso leans down to your ear. âyou wanna go upstairs for a bit? iâm gonna smoke.â
you stumble over your words. âoh, i uh, i donât smoke.â
âi know,â he says quickly. âyou donât have to. just⊠sit with me. i donât really wanna be alone either.â
good, you really needed an escape right now.
âokay,â you say. âyeah. iâll go with you.â
you stand together, weaving through the crowd toward the stairs. you can tell people are staring but you donât look over your shoulder.
choso leads the way up, your shoulders brushing as he pulls out a pre roll with a smile.
across the room, satoru is midway through a sentence when he spots you. he wants to smile, its his reflex when he catches sight of you, but then he remembers he doesnât get to do that right now, and the happy pull of his lips dies before it ever reaches his face.
youâre walking up the stairs with choso, close enough that your arms are touching. youâre leaning in to hear what heâs saying, head close to his mouth in a way satoru hasnât had in days.
his put on smirk falls immediately.
âhey,â one of the girls says, pulling on his arm. âyou listening?â
he pulls his wrist free without looking at her. âyeah. go get a drink or something.â
she frowns. âwhat?â
âlook, just go,â he snaps.
both girls scatter away, muttering throw away curses but he really doesnât care. heâs stalking over to where geto and shoko are now sitting with bottles to their lips.
âgreat,â he says bitterly, sitting down hard onto the couch. âfirst sheâs fucking shiu and now my best friend? perfect.â
geto thinks for a second. â...what?â
shoko squints at him. âwhat are you talking about?"
satoru laughs bitterly, âdonât play dumb. i just saw them.â
geto follows his eyes to the stairs and sees you and choso disappearing around the corner. he sighs. âtheyâre going up to smoke.â
satoru scoffs. âyeah. sure, she doesn't smoke.â
âno,â shoko cuts in, annoyed. âactually sure. choso asked if sheâd sit with him.â
satoruâs face drops into a deeper scowl, âsince when does she hang out with him like that."
âsince always?â geto replies. âtheyâre friends you just hog her, normally.â
satoru shakes his head. âthis is bullshit.â
shoko sets her drink down with a dissatisfied groan. âyou donât get to act like this.â
he snaps his head toward her. âlike what.â
âlike you own her,â she says flatly. âyou donât.â
geto nods. âman, youâve been pushing her away all week.â
âbecause she doesnât want me,â satoru fires back. âshe made that pretty clear.â
shoko raises an eyebrow. âdid she now.â
âshe went home with shiu.â
shokoâs face twists. âoh my god.â
geto leans forward. âthatâs what this is about? you're ditching your best friend because she wanted to get her pussy ate?â
âwhat- no-,â satoru says. âyou make it sound like-" he stop himself from spewing words he doesn't really mean. "it's just the fact she knows i hate that guy. that and everything else..."
âshe didnât sleep with him,â shoko repeats. âshe stayed the night because she didnât wanna wake you up at the last function.â
the wave of relief that flows through him is euphoric, but it's followed closely by guilt. because despite everything you still chose him in the quiet ways. and heâd repaid that by pushing you as far away as possible.
geto turns to shoko. âoh, are you serious?"
âdead serious,â she says. âi walked in that morning. she was fully dressed and half asleep. they didnât do shit.â
satoru feels like the floor drops out from under him and his heart is smudged into the wood.
âshe told me herself,â shoko adds. âshe was worried about you that morning, too. wanted to go over straight away and see if you were hung over.â
he's taken back by the revelation, satoru feels like he can't breathe.
geto runs a hand through his hair. âmanâŠâ
âalso,â shoko continues, clearly not done, âsheâs been really upset. you know that, right?â
satoru stares at the stairs. your face flashes in his mind. the way your voice sounded on the phone. so hurt.
âi'm gonna be honest, youâve been acting like an asshole,â geto says gently. âand sheâs been taking it like a champ. i'd of socked you in the jaw by now."
the music seems to disappear into the depths of his mind as he reels.
you didnât fuck shiu.
you weren't up there sleeping with choso.
god, he thinks about the way he spoke to you. the way he brushed you off so calloused, the way he said he had a girl coming over and didn't brush her off for you, like he'd always done.
his stomach drops.
âoh fuck,â he whispers.
shoko watches him closely. âyou're a real asshole, you know.â
he swallows. âfuck, i know.â
geto snorts.
satoru rubs a hand down his face, standing abruptly. âi need air.â
he takes off, on his way past he stops at the bottom of the stairs, staring up at them.
for the first time in days, he doesnât feel angry.
he feels scared, typical gojo reading too deep into things and reacting rashly. he really needed to work on that.
~
"i don't know cho... this is the first time something like this has happened. i feel like he hates me or something... i just don't know what i did."
choso, bless his heart, had been listening to you pour your heart out about gojo for the past half an hour, blowing smoke out his open window. that last part caused his zooted brain to form a coherent thought.
"it's probably because you fucked shiu." he announces in uneven tones, he was more than a little gone.
you stare at choso like heâs just spoken another language.
âuhm?â you quiz.
his head falls to look at you from his spot by the window, heâs so relaxed he looks like gravity might forget about him any second now.
âyeah,â he nods, very sure of himself. âthatâs gotta be it. gojoâs dramatic like that.â
your stomach drops, not in guilt, but in pure disbelief.
âi didnât fuck shiu,â you say with a bitter taste in your mouth.
choso's neck rolls and he rubs his face, ââŠhuh?â
âi didnât sleep with him,â you repeat, ânothing happened. i crashed at his because i didnât wanna wake satoru up and yuki had a guy over our place."
he processes this slowly with his face scrunching, the thought is buffering.
âokay,â he says after awhile, âbut you went home with him.â
âyes,â you snap. âbut thatâs not the same thing.â
he hums, then shrugs. âdunno, sounds the same.â
you were gonna punch this loser.
âoh my god,â you mutter. âi have to go.â
âgo where?â choso asks genuinely curious.
âi have to tell satoru,â you say grabbing your phone. ânot because i did anything wrong, because i didnât. but because he thinks i slept with someone he hates.â
choso sighs again. âyou know youâre allowed to sleep with people.â
âi know that,â you say quickly. âthis isnât about that. itâs about him thinking i did it behind his back with someone he clearly canât stand.â
choso nods like this makes sense to him, even though it absolutely does not. âokay.â
you pause at the door. âcan you not tell anyone else?â
he raises two fingers in a salute. âyour secret is safe with me.â
you donât trust that for a second, but youâre already shutting his door.
you bolt down the stairs two at a time looking over the crowd. the stupid partys still bumping. you look for his pretty white hair, for his broad shoulders, but with everyone wearing the same color it became impossible.
you groan and head for the couch you left shoko and geto at.
âwhereâs satoru,â you breathe.
âuh. outside, i think.â geto responds surprised.
âyeah,â shoko adds. âwent out front. needed air, apparently.â
you nod and make your way to the front door, the coolness of the night sweeps over your face and you notice a very tall man almost instantly.
heâs leaning against the lamp post across the street with his phone in one hand and his vape in the other.
he only vapes when heâs stressed.
stepping closer, you clock just how small this moment feels and how big it could blow up and become if you say the wrong thing.
âtoru,â you say softly.
he looks up.
the second his eyes land on you, he feels his heart pulse.
âcan we.. can we talk?â you ask.
he doesnât answer, he gives you the most longing stare you'd ever seen. then, he steps forward and pulls you into his arms.
hard.
his biceps wrap around you so tight, his scrunched up face presses into your hair, his grip is stable and you want to cry at how passionate this feels.
he breathes out a shaky, âiâm sorry.â
you wrap your arms around his waist and squeeze him back.
âiâm so sorry,â he repeats. âi was a dick. i shouldnât have been so rude. i shouldâve talked to you, communication and all that shit.â
you move back to look up at him. âhey. hey, itâs okay.â
he shakes his head. âno, itâs not. i acted like a stuck up cunt. i thought you slept with shiu and i just⊠i lost my mind.â
you sigh. âi didnât. i swear. nothing happened. i should of told you that.â
he nods quickly. âi know. shoko told me. i just⊠god. iâm sorry i made you feel so shit.â
you reach up and rub your thumb under his eye. a sweet gesture youâve done a hundred times before. âiâm sorry you got that impression.â
he leans into your touch for half a second before catching himself. âi had no right to be mad even if you had slept with someone. i know that.â
you nod. âyeah. you didnât. but i get it's because you thought i did it behind you back, especially with someone you really hate."
a beautiful, silent moment exists between you two before you step back, forcing a small smile. âare we all good?â
he lets out a weak laugh. âyeah, you're so good.â
âthat wasn't the question, silly.â you add, gently.
after that, you'd both agreed to ditch this lame party and stay at yours for the night. yuki was at higuruma's, so the place was all yours.
at your apartment, you both shower separately then change into comfy sleep clothes. his essentials hoodie ends up on you without either of you talking about it. when you come back into your room, heâs flopped onto your bed with his big arms spread, staring at the ceiling.
âcâmere,â he says, patting the space beside him.
you smile and crawl in next to him, turning onto your side so your head rests against his chest. he adjusts automatically, one arm coming around you, fingers threading through your hair in slow, relaxing strokes.
it feels like safe, blissful warmth. like coming home.
you lie there in silence for a while, listening to his breathing even out.
then he speaks again.
âhey, uhm.. sorry for blowing you off for a chick, the other day, by the way.â
you lift your head. âhuh?â
he grimaces. âi lowkey didnât even have plans. i invited her over after i hung up. just wanted a distraction.â
your chest does a confusing little blip.
âwouldâve liked to see you instead,â he adds quietly.
your heart aches and swells at the same time. you press your face back into his chest, âitâs fine.â laughs at your adorably muffled voice, then sighs. âi shouldnât have done that.â
you shrug. âyouâre allowed to see people.â
he hums. âyeah.â
you hesitate, then say it anyway. âi donât care about the girls you hook up with. doesn't really effect our friendship, right?â
the words feel so distasteful and strange, but you push through.
he smiles a forlorn smile. "right.â
he pulls you a little closer, brushing his lips against your temple in an almost kiss. he threads a piece of your hair through his fingers like a coiled ribbon, feeling the individual stand's texture against the pads of his fingers. this was his therapy, the soothing lull of you, with him.
he can feel your soft breathing slow down as you knock out, the way you always do when you know you can trust him to stay with you.
and god, that trust truly destroys the last bit of careless arrogance he carried in him.
because just hours ago he was so sure youâd replaced him. that youâd looked at someone else and chosen them.
but you no, didnât.
you never did that.
every girl heâs ever dragged into his bed flashes through his mind in quick, ugly snapshots like those old black and white movies.
they've got faces he can't remember, voices that sounds distorted and wrong, and their bodies look like every other persons. it's surreal.
he tells himself, not for the first time, that he never meant for it to get this bad. it all started as some quick fun. then it became a boarder line addiction, one he desperately wanted to break.. he feels sick at how it turned into something people expected from him, something he leaned into because it meant no one would ever ask him for more.
no one except you.
you wriggle around adorably in your sleep, your knee hitting his thigh, and it smacks him all over again how easy it would be to lose this bliss. how close he came. how close he kinda still is.
heâs been hiding behind it for so long. the flirting. the girls. the persona. acting like he doesnât care.
but lying here with you? knowing you didnât do anything wrong, knowing he almost burned the best thing in his life because he couldnât get over his own shit, something in him finally snaps into place.
he doesnât want to be that guy anymore.
he wants to be someone you can choose without any hesitation. someone who doesnât make you doubt where you stand. someone who doesnât reach for distractions the second things feel too hard for him to handle alone.
iâm gonna fix this, he thinks.
heâs not stupid enough to think itâll be easy. habits donât disappear overnight. insecurity doesnât vanish just because he wants it to. but he can stop hiding behind other people. he can stop pretending heâs fine with the left over crumbs when what he wants is everything.
he wants to earn you.
not with big gestures or revolting drunk confessions he canât really back up, but by showing up differently to what hes been doing. by choosing you the way youâve always chosen him.
he was gonna stop. he couldn't be labeled a good for nothing playboy anymore,
~
"so bro, did you figure shit out with your girl?"
"what, you mean y/n? yeah, man. that's all sorted."
gojo was back at the frat the next day after a very messy, long night of staring at your sleeping face, (and fighting to overwhelming urge to kiss your pretty nose.) he was chatting it up with toji who had heard about the drama through shoko.
"just curious, are you two like.. a friend with bennies kinda situation? or what." he asks, shaking his banana protein powder violently in it's can to break apart the clumps.
satoru starts drumming his fingers against the kitchen bench, trying to sound nonchalant. "nah, man. she's just my friend. i've got other girls for that shit." he winces at that douchey response... hm, if he wanted to stop the slut allegations he needed to work on how he talked to guys like toji.
"yeah, and she's just fine with that?"
"i dunno, bro."
toji shakes his head and chuckles, then geto interrupts from the couch.
"ever think of like, oh, i don't know. telling her you're into her?"
gojo lets out a fake groan like he's sick of the question, not like he's obsessed over that very idea for around a year now. "can you two lay off? i'll tell her eventually."
"yeah right. you're gonna waste away your life fucking hoe's you don't even like, and she's gonna get a guy hitched. like shiu." sukuna chimes in from the stairs. fuck, was everyone coming down to clock his shit?
"fuck off with the shiu shit, they didn't do anything."
"yet."
he was seriously about to throw hands.
the chaos is interrupted when nanami walks through the large front door holding a piece of paper.
"i just got the theme for the next function." he says, holding it in the air. "it's that stupid white lies thing we did last year in june, remember that?"
oh, they remembered. everyone in white or coloured shirts with sharpie on the front spelling out a little white lie about each person. so much drama came from that, it was insane.
satoru faintly remembers sukuna's shirt saying, 'i'm not cheating on my girl.' and getting his wallet set on fire not long after said girl got to the party.
"sweet, that's easy to set up." toji commented. all satoru was thinking was how you were the first person he had to invite, his hand itching for his phone.
he smiles at your response and pockets his phone, his mind reeling with what he was gonna write on his shirt, as he taps a finger to his chin, the most big brain, amazing thought pops into his head.
god, i'm so suave.
his promise to himself was about to become really real after this party, he just hoped it didn't all go downhill..
you on the other hand, you were contemplating whether or not what you had planned for your shirt was too much. the instant you'd read his text about the theme, the idea immediately popped into your head.
being brave enough to actually go through with it? that was another story..
~
11pm saturday, the frat.
okay, you're really nervous now. you stand outside for way longer than necessary, your jumper covers the secret writing on your shirt, you can't embarrass yourself, yet.
you take a deep breath and walk into the familiar house you'd crashed at so many times.
it's still early, so only the people actually in the frat are there so far. you walk through slowly and the first one you clock is sukuna.
heâs got a beer in one hand (already? smh.), his white shirt is stretched across his muscly chest with thick black letters that read, i hate milfs.
you snort before you can stop yourself.
tojiâs near the tv wiring up the music, his shirt says, iâm not a felon.
these guys weren't real, what the fuck.
shokoâs leaned against the counter nearby, one of those big chunky choofs in her hand. her shirt reads, iâm not addicted to nic.
you love her.
you pull out your phone and shoot satoru a text letting him know you've made it, you barely have time to lock your screen before arms wrap around you from behind.
big, hard, comforting arms.
gojo buries his face into the side of your neck, "there you are,â he says, pleased. âyou smell good.â
the blush that covers your cheeks is embarrassing. âwell, hi to you too.â
he pulls off and beams down at you, although, you can't help but see a slight hint of nerves in his eyes.
âmissed you,â he laughs.
before you can overthink that, you notice that his shirt is covered by a loose flannel, hanging open but covering the writing on his chest.
he notices your eyes flick down and smirks. âdonât look yet.â
you scoff. âoh, so youâre hiding yours too.â
âmaybe,â he says. âwhat about you?â
you tug at the strings of your jumper. âmhm.â
his eyes narrow playfully. âsuspicious.â
"you love it."
he grins. âyeah. i do.â
heâs tugging you along by the hand, weaving you through the house toward the kitchen the next second.
âcome onn,â he says. âitâs still early. let's pregame before it gets all sweaty and gross.â
the kitchen is devoid of people, satoru hops up onto the counter, then contemplates ad corrects himself.
âwait,â he says. âno. you sit.â
before you can argue, he lifts you and plops you on the bench, your face feels hot but you blame it on the lack of air flow.. or the way heâs standing way too close.
he pours you a drink keeping in mind youâre not trying to get wrecked tonight, then puts it beside you.
âthere ya go, sweets,â he says.
âperfect.â
you sip, then notice his fingers tapping against the counter like a drum, oh yeah, he's definitely nervous.
you tilt your head, flashing him that gorgeous smile that always made him weak in the knees. "so.â
he looks at you. âso.â
you smile. âwhatâs your shirt say?â
...
his laugh is strangled and just a little too loud. âoh, uh. straight to the point, huh.â
âyou know it."
he rubs the back of his neck. âitâs stupid.â
âuh huh.â
âand youâre gonna laugh.â
âprobably.â
he squints at you. âyou go first.â
you shake your head. ânope.â
âcâmon,â he whines. âyouâre way braver than me.â
you giggle, heart doing that annoying thing again. âmm, absolutely not.â
he rolls his eyes, then comes up with a compromise.
âokay,â he says. âsame time, then.â
you pause. âuhm?.â
âwe'll both reveal it at the same time,â he continues. ây'know, like one, two, three.â
you stare at him. âc'mon.â
âyou're so lame, pleasee,â he plead.
you roll your eyes. âokay, okay, fine.â
he grins, wide and oh so nervous. âreally?â
âyeah,â you say, with your fingers are already curling into the fabric of your jumper. âon three.â
he nods. âokay.â
the moment stretches. neither of you moves.
âyou count,â he says.
you swallow and nervously laugh. âone.â
his fingers fall into the edge of his flannel.
âtwo.â
your hands slide to the hem of your jumper.
âthree.â
both of your fabrics lift.
his flannel drops open as you tug your jumper over your head, both of you frozen for a good minute as the truth finally, finally stares back at you.
iâm not in love with my best friend.
on both shirts.
identical. same handwriting style.
you stare at his chest.
he stares at yours.
then you both lose it.
you're both toppled over laughing at how ridiculous this was.
âno fucking way,â he gasps.
you wipe your eye, âare you kidding me.â
he steps closer, closing the space until heâs right between your knees, caging you in gently. his smile softens as he looks down at your shirt.
âwow,â he murmurs.
you feel exposed in a way that has nothing to do with fabric.
âguess we both lied,â you say quietly.
âguess so.â
his hands caress your face ever so slowly, like heâs giving you time to slap him off but you donât.
you stare up at him with big, wide eyes. he smiles and inches toward until your noses touch.
he leans in, âcan i?â he asks, quietly.
you nod smiling harder than you ever had before. âyeah.â
then, he kisses you.
itâs soft and warm, nothing like that sloppy drunk one you both pretend you forgot.
you kiss him back deeper, your fingers drift through his hair pulling him closer, and the sound he makes against your mouth is almost whiney, wrecked.
the bliss is interrupted by someone yelling from behind you.
âabout fucking time,â sukuna bellows.
you break apart laughing again, foreheads still touching. satoru groans and drops his head to your shoulder.
âiâm killing him,â he mutters.
he hops you off the counter, taking your hand. âweâre leaving.â
âwhere.â
âmy room. like, now. these assholes are not ruining my moment.â
you follow him up the stairs both of you grinning like idiots. he's pulling you softly but quick enough the moment isn't lost.
his door closes behind you. the room is dim, only lit by the lamp on his desk, nice and moody.
he doesnât rush you and he doesnât pounce like he did with other women. no. he reaches out and tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear, âhi,â he says, dumb and fond.
you smile. âhi.â
satoru literally can't fight this urge any longer, he pulls you into his chest and wraps his arms fully around your body. your cheek presses to his chest, right over his heart, and itâs beating oh so fast. one of his hands slides up to cradle the back of your head with his fingers threading through your hair, stroking slowly.
âiâve wanted this for so long,â he says into your hair. âlike, embarrassingly long.â
you laugh softly. âyeah?â
âyeah,â he says. âi just didnât think i was, like, allowed to? if that makes senseâ
you look up at him with a confused smile. âwhy wouldnât you be?â
he swallows. his eyes flick away, then back. âbecause iâm kind of an asshole, if you couldn't tell.â
you knew what he meant. the women, his not so shiny reputation, his arrogance.
âyou're not the only one, i didnât say anything either.â you rub the side of his face.
he smiles into you hand, âwhy?â
you stop. then take a breath and decide to be brave. âbecause you sleep with everyone. and i thought if you wanted me, you wouldâve... i don't know, stopped.â
ouch, but deserved.
âfuck,â he says quietly. âi hated that you saw me like that.â
âi mean,â you shrug weakly. âitâs kind of hard not to.â
he laughs. âyeah. fair.â
he presses his forehead to yours. âthat shit was never about wanting other people, y/n. it was about not knowing what to do with wanting you.â
your head just went really fuzzy at his poetic expression.
âi made a promise to myself,â he continues. âafter i realised i was gonna lose you if i didnât get my shit together. iâm done with it. all of it. i donât wanna be that guy anymore.â
you search his face, looking for the joke, but he's dead serious.
âi didnât think i deserved you,â he admits. âso i kept proving myself right.â
for a moment, neither of you speak. then you reach for his hand and hook your pinky around his.
âokay,â you say. âthen letâs just⊠talk. no more of this back and forth.â
âpinky promise.â he smiles and seals it, then leans in and kisses you again. he pulls back for a second then begins to pepper your face in sweet little pecks, making you giggle at the ticking movement.
âiâve wanted to do this,â he says between kisses, grinning like he canât stop himself. âjust whenever. whenever i felt like it.â
you laugh, hands in his hair now, tugging him back down. âyouâre so silly.â
you end up tangled on his bed, just talking. his legs are weaved through yours as he kisses your face occasionally. you tell him you'd been feeling for the past, what, two years? you tell him how the women always made you jealous, how you'd wish it were you he wanted. he spills his guts just as much. he tells you how they never meant anything, how he knew he had a problem and he was working on it, for you.
three hours of straight yap fly by.
he eventually goes really quiet and clears his throat out. âhey.â
âhmm?â
âwould you wanna,â he hesitates, suddenly adorably shy, âgo on an actual date with me? like. flowers. dinner. me trying really, really hard.â
you smile so hard your cheeks hurt. âyeah. i would.â
his grin is blinding, him and his stupidly perfect teeth.
âholy shit,â he laughs, pulling you close again. âi got the girl.â
you smile, then drift off wrapped up in each other, both of you finally feeling secure in your feelings for one another.
"night, toru."
"good night, sweetheart."
A/N: i'll be writing some spicy/dating headcanons for this fic !!
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A dear anon Requested; Yandere Rover with unlucky reader.
While thinking about how to write it, I remembered a request in my Wattpad; Yandere Male Rover with an Isekai'd simp reader.
The ideas opened the flood gates and I combined the two to write it, But accidentally I posted the half written Oneshot instead of saving in drafts, in a panic I deleted the whole thing and then lost the anon Ask.
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After having a meltdown, I got back the motivation and wrote it from scratch.
Yandere M! Rover x unlucky simp isekai'd F!Reader
This was the blueprint / reference sheet for this sotry.
Slowburn
12k words (was having so much fun writing this I didn't even notice the word count.)
Wuwa Version 2.0 Rinascita spoilers
Part 2 coming soon
Rinascita was never ready for your thirst.
You were losing your mind. Not in a metaphorical, âhaha I love this gameâ wayâno, actually losing it. Right there on your bed, wrapped in a blanket burrito, your phone inches from your face, you screamed at a pixelated man who had no idea the chokehold he had on your soul.
âYESSSSS! 100K DAMAGE! GO OFF, KING!â
Your screen was a whirlwind of Havoc energyâyour Rover dodging as your fingers maneuvered with precision on your phone screen. With a flick of his fingers, the Umbra bar pulsed to max, you clicked the resonance Liberation.
His voice came:
âYou will Obey!â
âAHHHH I SWEAR TO GOD YOU COULD MURDER ME AND IâD THANK YOUââ
Dark Surge erupted. His scythe formed from a pulse of void-black resonance, and in a single sweep, the TD was gone. Like, deleted. A 100K crit damage number splashed across the screen and you collapsed backward like it had personally hit you.
You clutched your phone above your head, grinning like a madman, heart pounding like you'd just been proposed to. âThis is it. This is peak gaming.â
Then gravity remembered you existed. The phone slipped from your fingers and smacked you right on the nose. You yelped, hands flailing, dignity nowhere in sight.
Peak gaming? More like peak misfortune.
After picking up your phone, you started to do your dailies. The dailies were easy. With him by your side, you finished off everything with a grin. You tried to act normalâkeyword tried. But you still found yourself whispering, âLook at my man gooo~â every time he did that spinning blade combo.
"Now, I just need to finish the Rinascita quest and Aero Rover is mine!" you declared dramatically, just as your phone clung to life at a tragic 5%. You stared at it like it had personally betrayed you. With the sigh of someone who's been wronged by fate itself, you slapped it onto the charger.
When you finally logged out, you sighed long and hard, rolling onto your stomach.
âGod, I wish I was there,â you muttered. âLike, not even in a weird way.â You rolled around on the bed, talking to yourself like any sane person would. âOkay, maybe a little weird, but I just wanna meet him. Iâd totally be chill, right? Iâd be cool. He wouldn't know I'm mentally married to him. I can fake normal.â You stared up at the ceiling.
âJust one chance, universe. One chance.â
Like the protagonist of every isekai anime ever, you fell asleep like that, mind filled with daydreams about him. Blanket half on the floor. Still mumbling about scythe physics and âhow hot it is when he says anything in that voice of his.â
You woke up mid-scream.
Not because you were in danger. You were falling. Your body was currently plummeting through the air like a sack of potatoes. A flash of green, a swirl of clouds, and nowâface-first into a patch of moss.
âMmfhâowâoofâmy backâŠâ you groaned, rolling over with all the grace of a flipped turtle. Leaves stuck to your cheek. Somethingâprobably a bugâbuzzed suspiciously near your ear. You slapped it away with a shriek and scrambled up, wobbling like a newborn deer.
What the hell?
You looked around, eyes wide. The trees swayed gently above you. As you looked up, a breathtaking sight unfoldedâtowering trees and jagged mountains pierced through the clouds. Ancient ruins peeked through the foliage, whispering tales of a bygone era. The air was thick with the scent of moss and hummed with strange frequencies.
Everything shimmered faintly, like the gameâs graphics got injected with magic steroids. Except... this wasnât your screen. This was real.
You smacked your own cheek once. Twice. âOwâokay. Okay. This is happening.â
Your heart thundered. You spun in a circle, awe and panic slamming into each other like bumper cars. âThis is Rinascita. This is actually Rinascitaâholy SHIT Iâm IN the GAME.â
You shrieked and tripped over a tree root you definitely shouldâve seen, collapsing into a bush. It scratched the hell out of your arm, but the pain was just proof: real, not a dream.
And then you heard footsteps. You froze, your butt still plopped on the bush.
Crunch. Crunch.
Shadows danced across the moss. A low hum of resonance energy vibrated through the air, in a way that sent goosebumps down your spine.
As he came into view, your lungs forgot how to function for a second as your gaze collided with his. Broad shoulders, lean waist. Black belts/straps wrapped around his hips and chestâhe looked very dreamy up front.
And those eyes, so magnetic. âI love you,â you blurted out without even letting the thought cook in your brain.
The silence was loud, as he paused, shocked by the abruptness and genuineness of your tone. Even the wind paused like, girl.
You clamped your hands over your mouth, eyes wide in horror. âIâI meanânot like thatâI mean yes like that but not in a weird wayâwell, okay, maybe a little weird, butâoh god, I justâI swear Iâm normal. Sometimes... Fuck.â
Rover tilted his head, stepping closer, his eyes zoning in on the cut on your arm. âAre you injured?â
âYesânoâI mean emotionally, yes. Physically... just my ego,â you mumbled the last part, still embarrassed.
You tried to stand, but your foot caught the same cursed root and you fell again, this time right at his feet. Like a peasant paying tribute.
You groaned into the dirt. âThis is why I canât have nice things. My unlucky streak is at it again...â
He didnât laugh. Of course not. He is a gentleman through and through. Instead, he crouched down beside you.
You stared up at him from the ground, limbs tangled and expression fully dead inside. âYouâre even hotter in person. Thatâs not helping.â
Pause, try not to be so obvious. you scold yourself, reminding yourself to keep the fangirling to a minimum.
He held his hand in front of you to help you get up, voice low and calm. âYou seem... disoriented. Are you actually alright?â
You shook your head, took his offer with the kind of reverence usually reserved for divine intervention, allowing him to pull you up. He didnât comment on the way you tripped again immediately after and used his jacket to steady yourself.
âI am sorry,â you whispered, gripping the fabric like a lifeline. âIâm not usually like this...â
He helped you be steady on your feet. His eyes didnât leave your face. âThatâs difficult to believe,â he said softly.
You couldnât tell if he meant it as sarcasm or observationâbut either way, damn, it did things to you, and he was so close.
You feel the lingering warmth of his hand on yours.
Not metaphorical warmth, Not the âhe touched me, oh my God Iâm swooningâ kind. Actual heat, like a campfire still flickering in your veins. You glance down at your fingers Youâd clung to him like he was the last thread tethering you to sanityâbecause maybe, he is.
He hasnât stepped away, still hovering near. You guess heâs staying close so you donât trip again. aw, how nice of him!
Youâre still staring at that hand of yours. Itâs shaking, combined with the sting of the scratch on your arm.
You blink down at your fingers. Curl them. Uncurl. You press your thumb into your palm like youâre trying to wake upâyou already know the answer but you are still in denial. Nothing happens. The world doesnât blur. Thereâs no logout button hovering over your peripheral vision.
Your throat tightens.
âIâm in Wuthering Waves,â you whisper, voice barely carried by the air. âThe game. This is the game.â
You blink up at the skyâthose shattered clouds, the hazy blue, the orange-tinged light that never feels quite right. Itâs too beautiful to be real, and thatâs the problem.
âIâm in the fucking game.â Your legs go stiff. You canât look at Rover. Not yet. You can feel him beside you though. âWait, wasnât Truck-kun in charge of Isekai?! I mean, I love this game and Iâm in it⊠I was happy a moment ago, but now I suddenly feel anxious!â
âI canât even run two miles without gasping like a dying fish,â you mumble, voice catching on a breath. âI sprain my ankle walking too fast in socks. And now Iâm here⊠in a post-apocalyptic monster hellscapeâŠâ
A breath escapes your lips. It sounds like a laugh, but itâs broken. It doesnât make it past your teeth.
âIâm going to die here,â you whisper, almost stunned by your own words. âOf course this happened to me. Of course, knowing my luck. My life is just a string of bad RNG. And now in a game that would have me killed in less than a second!â
Your knees feel unsteady. The nausea creeps in like a slow wave, curling into your gut. Rover silently stands beside you, So completely unaware that you are currently having a mental breakdown in HD 4K resolution.
Maybe he knows but doesn't want to interrupt, ah, you are too far gone to think about that. You inhale shakily, Try to joke it off. âHaha, yeah, Iâm sure Iâll be fine,â you whisper but Your voice cracks.
Cool. Cool. Everything is fine.
You stare at him, Then you ask, âHave you met Cartethyia yet?â
He tilts his head. â...Who?â
You laugh. Itâs the kind that sounds like itâs trying to crawl its way out of your throat, a panicky exhale.
You start mumbling.
âMontelli family⊠yeah, youâre supposed to team up with Carlotta. Thereâs this whole bit where you join the Troupe of Fools? Fight against Phrolova but make it look like a carnival performance. And then you receive the Laurel from Cartethyia, the Maiden. You meet her when she is dancing on water.â
You rub your temple, your brain short-circuiting, You crouch on the ground, slowly curling in on yourself, arms tightening around your knees.
âI donât want to die,â you whisper, too soft. âI donât even know how to hold a sword. I canât fight monsters. I canât run.â
Seeing someone fall, Rover quickly ran to help the said person. He had noticed you long before you realized he was watching.
Not just the way you stood awkwardly in this worldâyour posture not matching the other inhabitants, not aligning with the rhythm of this realityâbut the way your eyes followed him. That slow trail of longing, like your gaze held a history no one had written yet.
He sees people look at him all the time. Wanting something. Needing something. Dressing up desperation in flattery.
But you blinked at him like someone seeing a memory in flesh. Like someone who couldnât quite believe he existed. And thenââI love you.â
The words landed with a sincerity so bare, so vulnerable, it made his breath still for half a second.
Not lust. Not seduction. No angled smile or slanted voice. Just a truth, trembling at the base of your tongue, so unfiltered it didnât even wait for permission.
His mind locked onto you like a puzzle piece with edges that didnât match anything else in the box.
Flirtingâheâd seen it all. It was currency here, like pain or adrenaline. Everyone tried it. A hand brushed too long, a compliment too smooth, a feigned stumble into his chest. It was the unspoken agreement of survivors: flatter the strong, and they might protect you.
Heâd grown immune to it. So when you said you loved him?
He waited for the follow-up. The manipulation. The ask. The trade. But it never came.
You just stood there, awkward and pink in the cheeks, with eyes darting like you regretted speaking too loudly in church.
He noted the way you bit your lip, then tried to backtrack. The fumble of your fingers, the way you kept glancing away like maybe if you looked somewhere else long enough, time would rewind itself and un-say what youâd said.
Cute. He found you cute.
Heâd catalogued emotions a thousand times. Studied expressions for lies, eyes for betrayal, postures for threat.
But yours didn't fit any category.
And then came the dump.
The babble of a girl who knew too much. Who said names like passwords, dropped references like prophecy.
At first, he assumed you were delirious. Shell shock, maybe. Madness. The kind that comes after a concussion, you did appear out of nowhere from the sky.
But the more you spoke, the more specific it all became.
You told him he was a character. That you had played through this world, and he was at the center of it.
He didnât believe it.
But the clarity of your voice, the ache in it, the precision with which you whispered namesâit didnât match a lie. It matched conviction.
He stored it. Like a tracker tagging something rare. Slid the information into a mental folder and filed it next to things he wasnât supposed to understand yet.
Later. Heâd circle back to it later.
He watched as your body began to tremble. As you sank into yourself, shoulders hunched, head bowed like the weight of this world and the other one you came from had finally crashed together.
âYouâre still alive, see,â Rover finally spoke, making you look up at him from your knees. He crouched down beside you again.
âLet me help you. We should definitely go somewhere safer. The forest is filled with TDs.â
Offering you his hand again, he watched as you stared at him like a deer in headlights.
âIâll ask Zani to accommodate a place for you to stay. It seems youâve lost your way.â
You blink rapidly. Rover watched you with a calm, unreadable gaze, waiting for you to take his hand. It seemed you had finally calmed downâor perhaps heâd distracted youâbecause the last trembles of your meltdown were fading.
âSo,â he said, voice smooth like worn velvet, giving you a small smile. âWhat is your name?â
You, still high off panic and full simp-mode, blurted, âYou can call me your wife.â
Instant regret. Your eyes went wide. âWait, I didnât meanâI meanâI donât mind if you do, but I didnât mean toâoh god, Iâm making this worseâsorryâah, Iâll stop!â
You buried your face in your hands, wanting the ground to open up and swallow your simp soul. âForget I said anything. Please.â
Rover couldnât help the amused glint in his eyes. He wanted to test something. The edge of his voice dipped, smooth and amused, just enough to tilt the world sideways.
â...Would you tell me your name, or should I start calling you âmy wifeâ ?â
You squealed internally. Your soul left your body. Your mind short-circuited. âThat would be nice,â you said in a dazed whisper.
Rover chuckled softly. You were quite fun to tease.
Your eyes flew open. âAh! No! I meanâsorry! My name is [Name]!â
You finally took his hand as he helped you stand. You let go quickly, already embarrassed and internally cringing at your slip-ups. You wanted to keep your fangirling side locked up, so you took a step away from him.
âIâll guide you back to Ragunna City and help you settle,â Rover said, already walking ahead.
You stayed frozen in place.
Noticing you werenât following, Rover glanced back. âStay close,â he said calmly.
Startled, stumbling a bit before quickly jogging to catch up, falling into step beside him.
Oh god. You are so fucked.
You and Rover have been walking for⊠you donât even know how long. Not to mention, as you two were walking out of the forest, there were so many TDs that attacked. Thank god Rover took care of all of them, and you were happily cheering him on from the back.
The misfortunate situation is not lost on you, knowing how your luck is, you were kinda expecting to run into more trouble after that. But this journey so far has been peaceful, and now you really donât want to jinx it.
Oh, thinking about how peaceful it is might jinx it. I should stop. You shake your head to dispel the thought.
The weatherâs nice too. Sunny, but not too much. The clouds, thick, cottony ones, hide the sun occasionally. Just the right kind of sky to take a walk and touch some grass.
Reaching a set of stone stairs, you notice a Resonance Nexus nearby. Rinascita Nexuses are shaped like the lower part of a fishâs tail, itâs unique. And on your left side⊠is a cave. A very dark one.
âDo you know this place?â Roverâs smooth voice comes from just beside you, making you snap out of your daze.
âUmm⊠I donât know much of the map of Rinascita since I just started playing and then got dumped here. Well, I already know about the port part, where Brant and his crew leave you and then you meet Zani. I think⊠My memoryâs a little fuzzy. Wait, no! You meet Phoebe first⊠now that I think more about it, you meet an NPC called Cristopopo. No, um⊠what was his name?â
You ramble on, words slipping faster than your common sense.
âCristoforoâŠâ Rover answers, his eyes narrowing as he watches you with a sharpened gaze. âHow did you know all this?â
At first, he chalked off your ramblings as a possible concussion response. But now? You know how he arrived here. Who he met. Too much, actually. All of this is starting to feel very suspicious.
âBecause I was the one behind the screen, Rover!â you chuckle, then pause.
WaitâŠYour brain stutters. Shouldnât I be hiding the fact that I know too much? Iâve seen enough isekai anime to know this is a red flag move.
âOh shitâŠâ You slowly meet Roverâs gaze and smile as innocently as possible. âI am a normal human⊠whoâs a little crazy. Yep! I think I actually got a concussion by falling from the sky! Weird⊠hahahaâŠâ
You laugh nervously, trying to lighten the mood, where was your common sense when you needed it the most?!
But those golden eyes, glint with something unreadable. The air suddenly feels thick with tension.
Rover nods slowly, and you exhale a breath you didnât know you were holding. âThis is the way to the city square.â he says, pointing toward the cave.
âŠ?No way. If you remember correctly, this actually leads to the Cathedralâthe Orderâs base.
Still, you follow him into the cave. He walks a few steps ahead while you lag behind. Itâs dim, lit only by candles on either side, on the ground, shadows licking the stone walls. The air is cold and damp.
Itâs so dark that if someone were to murder anyone in here⊠no one would know.
You chuckle to yourself.
Imagine if Rover brought you here to murder you because youâre suspicious. Hahaha⊠funny.
Rover pauses mid-step as if he heard that thought.
You freeze.
He turns to look at you and you swear his eyes are glowing.
âThere are stone stairs up ahead. I think I should guide you from here, knowing how you can trip unprompted.â he says, offering his hand.
Aw, how nice! But wait, did he just make fun of you?
Eh, whatever. You canât focus on that when Rover just remembered something so trivial about you! Your heart does a little flip as you take his hand without hesitation.
He helps you walk down the stairs, and the cave opens into a half-balcony area. From here, you can see the structure of the place more clearly.
Thereâs an opening to your left where the stairs lead down to a wide area with a fountain in the center. Another balcony lies to the right, and what looks like an elevator structure stands to the left.
Oh! you know this place.
âRover! This is the Cathedral area, not the city square. The elevator leads down to the entrance of the Cathedral andâŠâ
You walk to the balcony that overlooks the Cathedralâs massive dome.
âAnd I remember doing an Echo Challenge: Flight VI here!â
You turn to face Rover. âSo why did youââ Your voice dies inside your throat as you see the look on his face.
Heâs smiling, The I-just-confirmed-my-suspicion kind of smile.
And he looks so hot.
ââŠyou know a lot more than you let on,â he says, casually.
You raise both your hands in surrender. âLook, Iâm from another universe who got dropped into this one out of nowhere! And then I met my future husbââ
Rover raises an eyebrow. You panic and pivot mid-sentence.
âI mean, I told you everything I know! Iâm no threat! I canât even fight or anything!â
Youâre really selling this like a bad NPC, and the delivery is getting desperate. A true Oscar performance.
Rover nods again, as if still processing your info. Then he lifts his chin toward the landscape. âThatâs Ragunna City. But you already know that, donât you?â
You look out across the scenery. In the game, itâs beautiful but in real life? Itâs stunning.
âAre we gonna take the elevator, then a boat to the city?â you ask, excited.
âNo,â Rover says. And suddenly, heâs standing right in front of you.
You gulp.
His eyelashes are so long. His lips look kissable as hell
Focus!
ââReady?â
âHuh?â
Before you can even process it, Roverâs hand wraps around your waist and pulls you close as he jumps off the balcony.
His Flight wings appear just in time, catching the wind, and the two of you are soaring through the air. The wind rushes past you, your heart threatening to beat right out of your chest.
Down below, the city opens up in all its glory. Itâs breathtaking.
Rover lands gracefully on the city square, letting go of you immediately. You wobble, regaining your footing, eyes wide.
âYou shouldâve warned me first!â you exclaim. âBut that was awesome! Itâs such a bummer you can only use this utility in Rinascita and not in Huanglong.â
Rover frowns slightly, but then smirks. âI did tell you we were about to fly down to the city square.â He leans closer to your eye level. âSeems like, you were lost in that head of yours.â
Ugh. This man. Why is he soâŠâŠillegally attractive?
Ragunna City in all its glory, where the architecture immediately captivates with its harmonious blend of form and function. Buildings rise in warm hues of beige, ivory, and terracotta, their facades adorned with intricate carvings and ornate balconies that seem like something straight out of a dream.
Canals weave through the city like veins, crossed by arched stone bridges that connect various districts. Along these waterways, colonnaded walkways provide shaded paths, their columns supporting overhanging terraces lush with greenery.
"Wow!" Youâre blown away by how breathtaking the city is. âItâs about time Zani calledâŠâ Rover murmurs just as his terminal rings.
âUnfortunately, bad news, I did connect with the places around, but there arenât any rooms available in any of the hotels in the city,â Zani says over the call. Rover had asked her if she could arrange a room for you.
What surprises you more is that Rover didnât mention a single thing about how he found you, where you're from, or any of your wildly suspicious ramblings. He simply stated you were someone important to him and that Zani should treat you like she treats him.
Weird⊠but you donât dwell on it.
âIâve told some of my people to keep searching. This is uncanny to say the least,â Zani continues, and Rover hums in response.
âIf we canât find anything,â Rover says, turning his gaze to you and calling your name, âyou can stay with me.â
You blink. Spending a night with Rover? In a room? Alone?! Count me in.
After the call ends, youâre busy ogling the streetsâyour eyes wide as you try to soak everything in.
âWould you like to look around the city?â Rover asks, voice smooth as silk.
âCan we?! Donât you have to, like⊠go meet the head of the Montelli family? Maybe a certain troop of fools to plan the Carnival performance?â
There you go again, digging your own grave with the shovel. Might as well throw in a few flowers while youâre at it, because Rover is clearly locked onto you again.
ââŠâ
âAhâI would love to! Letâs look around the city!â you shout, immediately speed-walking toward the Tub Tacet Discord to distract him.
âHey Rover, she is very suspiciousâŠâ
âShhâŠAbby, now is not a good time.â
Rover simply follows, letting you lead the way, subtly steering you through the city like heâs indulging you⊠or observing. Either way, you're too thrilled to care.
The shops are narrow but deep, with arched doorways and canvas shades overhead. The lighting is dim but golden, bouncing off copper lanterns and polished wood counters. Markets are open-air, scattered through the city like hidden gems.
Youâre definitely enjoying yourself. Doesnât this feel like...a date?
And to thinkâyour mother luck has finally shown up for you, because nothing bad has happened so far. This whole exploration? Solid 10/10.
âI wonât be coming back to the hotel tonight, so the roomâs all yours. I have some things to take care of. We might see each other in the morning.â Rover says as the two of you finally arrive at the hotel heâs staying at.
MightâŠ? You blink. Right, itâs probably the quest time. Maybe heâs off to meet the Troop of Fools or something. It is nighttime, after all.
âWe wonât see each other in the morning?â you ask, the disappointment slipping out before you can stop it.
âMaybe, maybe not. It Depends.â Rover gives you a smile and with that, Rover walks off after handing you the room key.
You enter the room and plop onto the bed with a dramatic sigh. So tired. Your legs are aching like you walked across the entire map. Rolling back and forth on the mattress, you try to find a comfortable position.
âI wonder⊠why didnât Abby appear when I met Rover? In the Rinascita quest, Abby was always out and aboutâŠâ
With that final thought, sleep takes you, deep and heavy, completely unaware that, somewhere out there, you had already slipped beneath their skin, settled into their thoughts.
The next morning, you're already up and about, practically skipping through the sun-dappled streets of Ragunna City. How could you not? You're in the world of Wuthering Waves! The most logical thing to do? Soak in every glorious detail.
Well, after that nervous breakdown yesterday, youâve come up with a brilliant ideaâyou're going to settle in Ragunna City, find a job, and live a comfortable life, far away from the wild and hostile Tacet Discords.
You gasp, the memory of the Phrolova fight and its breathtaking cutscene flooding back. Oh. My. God. You're so ready.
You race toward the gathering crowd, the air buzzing with anticipation. Brant sits atop a high platform. But where's Rover? Maybe he's with Carlotta, preparing for the performance.
Suddenly, red petals begin to drift from above, catching the sunlight as they fall. You look up, and there she is.
Phrolova.
Your heart skips a beat. The sky parts like a curtain, revealing a scene that's both eerie and mesmerizing. The atmosphere is tinged with an otherworldly aura, sending a thrill down your spine.
The crowd's cheers swell as Phrolova begins to speak, her voice resonating through the square. She gracefully settles onto a circular hoop suspended in the air, exuding an ethereal elegance.
It's about to begin!!!
You watch, enraptured, as Carlotta and Rover take the stage, battling wave after wave of Tacet Discords. Brant narrates the scene like a grand play, his words weaving the action into a captivating story.
The climax arrives with a burst of fireworks as Rover slices through Phrolova's wand with his scythe. He lands on the stage, the remnants of Phrolova's domain dissipating around him. A laurel materializes, crowning his head.
You're practically bouncing with joy. Witnessing this in real life is beyond anything you could have imagined. It's absolutely magnificent.
Suddenly, a feeling wraps around you like a hug, it's suffocating.
You feel Eyes on you.
You glance around and find Rover staring directly at you, his golden eyes burning with an intensity that sends a shiver down your spine. There's something in his gaze, so unnerving.
Instinctively, you feel an urge to hide, to escape those hauntingly beautiful eyes.
Without thinking, you turn and weave through the crowd, slipping into the narrow alleys of Ragunna City, your heart pounding in your chest.
After the Carnival, Rover walks into the hotel, footsteps soft on the polished floors. Heâs greeted instantly.
âMister Rover, another room has been prepared for you. Hereâs the key,â the receptionist says with a practiced smile.
He smiles back, taking it without a word, fingers curling around the cool metal. Once inside his suite, the door clicks shut behind him.
Not a single thought passed through his head, just the static buzz of your voice echoing in some unreachable corner of his mind.
With a heavy exhale, he dropped down onto the edge of the bed. he sat with both feet planted wide on the ground, knees spread, forearms resting atop them.
One hand slid through his hair, slow, rough, pulling at the strands like he could rake the thoughts from his skull.
âIâm in the fucking game.â
âHave you met Cartethyia yet?â
âMontelli family⊠yeah, youâre supposed to team up with Carlotta. Thereâs this whole bit where you join the Troupe of Fools? Fight against Phrolova but make it look like a carnival performance. And then you receive the Laurel from Cartethyia, the Maiden. You meet her when she is dancing on water.â
âUmm⊠I donât know much of the map of Rinascita since I just started playing and then got dumped here. Well, I already know about the port part, where Brant and his crew leave you and then you meet Zani. I think⊠My memoryâs a little fuzzy. Wait, no! You meet Phoebe first⊠now that I think more about it, you meet an NPC called Cristopopo. No, um⊠what was his name?â
âBut that was awesome! Itâs such a bummer you can only use this utility in Rinascita and not in Huanglong.â
âBecause I am the one behind the screen, Rover.â
Your previous conversations loop around in that big brain of Rover's. He rests his chin on his clasped hands, elbows propped on his knees, eyes glued to the wall.
The pulse in his temple beats a little too hard.
âShe said Iâm a character,â he whispered, eyes narrowing. âThis world isnât real.â
A sharp breath rattled into his lungs as he closed his eyes, tilting his head slightly, as if listening to some whisper only he could hear.
âShe knows Huanglong. She knows Rinascita. She talks like she has known me since the beginning of my journey...â
âI love you.â
The moment it replayed in his mind, something fractured beneath the surface.
Abby burst from the Tacet mark, crackling into the air with a spark of gold light. âWhat if all sheâs saying is nonsense?â
It pouted when Rover didn't say anything. âRover, donât we have to meet Carlotta, Brant and Roccia for the celebration tomorrow? Let's just sleep!â
He didnât move. His eyes were still on the wall, still seeing the shape of your smile in the cracks of the paint.
âAbby⊠whatâs her frequency like?â
Abby blinked, startled by the question. âEh? I meanâitâs normal. Kind of weirdly low, actually. But itâs got this⊠this vibe to it. Hard to explain.â
Abby floated in slow, thoughtful circles, frowning in concentration. âIt just feelsâŠâ
Roverâs gaze finally broke from the wall, softening when turning to Abby.
âOut of this world!â Abby said suddenly, snapping its little paw-fingers. âThatâs it!â
He nodded. âOtherworldly,â he murmured, almost to himself. Then his voice dropped. âCan you absorb her?â
Abby jerked in mid-air, appalled. âEw! No! Sheâs sweet! Like aggressively sweet! Iâd get indigestion.â
A slow exhale left Roverâs mouth. He stood without another word, walking to the door, movement fluid, like the weight of his thoughts no longer held him down.
âWill we go to the party tomorrow?â Abby zipped after him, in an excited spiral. âUmm..where are we going?â
Rover nods, smiling softly at Abby. âYes we will. For now I just need some fresh air.â Abby floats beside his shoulder. âWhat about the strange girl?â
He pauses at the threshold, a shadow stretching long behind him from the hallway lights.
âI must keep her close.â
You weave through the streets, your steps slowing to a casual stroll despite the frantic beat of your heart.
It felt like⊠no, you donât want to finish that thought.
Thereâs no reason to. Rover would neverâheâs gentle, thoughtful, the kind of man who's Carring and always waits for your answer. Heâs your Rover.
The sun has long dipped below the skyline, shadows stretching like claws across the cobblestones. The streets are lit by eerie blue lamps, that give off that weird hypnotic sound.
The occasional flutter of a curtain from open windows, or the low creak of Ragunna City's buildings, the distinct sound of people are the only thing keeping you company, You have walked towards the empty part of the city.
Youâre not walking with any direction, just letting your feet take you through the winding alleys, marveling at how this place feels so much like Rome. So beautiful, so rich with history and yet, so easy to get lost in.
The wind howls through the upper levels, curling around the rooftops like a predator circling in silence.
And then it hits you, that feeling. That dreadful, skin-prickling, breath-snatching feeling. Something is watching you.
You lift your gaze, heartbeat stalling.
Two glowing purple orbs, blink into existence atop a rooftop. They shift, jump, moving roof to roof, always staying just far enough to make you doubtâŠ
but close enough that you know theyâre watching. And theyâre getting closer.
No. No, no, no.
One single word cuts through every thought Run.
And so you do.
You bolt through the city, panic clawing at your throat, your shoes skidding on the stone paths as you turn corner after corner, blindly sprinting down alleyways and corners that all look the same.
The wind behind you screams. You donât dare look back. You donât need to. The orbs are above you now, gliding overhead like phantoms. Theyâre keeping up, very easily.
Your lungs are burning. Your legs ache. But still, you run.
You make a sharp turn, too sharp and slam headfirst into something solid. You stagger back, the impact jarring your senses.
And in your dazed panic you hear the person in front of you whisper your name softly, Spoken like a question, and yet it cuts through your fear like a blade. Youâd know that voice anywhere.
âRover!â you gasp, your voice a ragged mess of relief and exhaustion. âOh thank god, Rover, I think I was being chased! There were these orbs, like, ghost things, jumping over rooftops!â You point up, frantic, your breath hitching.
But thereâs nothing. Your outstretched finger trembles. You blink up at the empty rooftops.
Rover steps closer, brows furrowed with visible concern. âYou didnât return to the hotel,â he says, voice soft but serious. âI got a little worriedâŠâ
The way he says it, that makes guilt wrap tightly around your chest. You hadnât thought about that. Youâd gotten so swept up in the fear of getting away from him, but he was the only one who came to your rescue.
Before you can respond, a sharp, slightly indignant voice cuts in.
"Meh! She better have a good explanation! You wasted my precious time!"
Your heart leaps with recognition.
âAbby!!â you squeal, spotting the tiny, cat-like Echo floating indignantly beside Roverâs shoulder.
You lunge forward and scoop it into your arms before it can float away, smothering it in your excitement. âOh my god, you're so fluffy in real life! Youâre adorable! So cute!!â
âLet. Me. Go!â Abby grumbles, squirming and kicking its little limbs in protest. It floats upward with an angry wobble as soon as you loosen your grip, glaring at you with narrowed eyes.
You pout. âOk, ok sorry! I know I didnât ask before hugging you but I got hit with cuteness aggression! You canât hold that against me.â
The little Echo huffs and sticks its tongue out at you without missing a beat, you stick yours right back.
Rover watches the interaction in silence, noticing how easy it is to distract you.⊠but that earlier intensity still lingers at the very edges of his expression.
After that long, nightmare-like night, you returned to the hotel with Rover. Morning came too soon, walking out of your room you catch a glimpse of familiar dark fabric moving past you, Your heart jumps.
Quickly, You follow him along the hallway, Rover is already walking ahead, his silhouette framed by golden light from the lobby windows.
âRover!â you call out, voice echoing softly across the corridor.
He pauses mid-step, turning just slightly. That warm, boyish smile spreads across his faceââGood Morning.â and that breathy softness of his tone. The kind that makes your chest squeeze painfully and your legs feel weak.
Itâs stupid how fast he can do that to you.
You greet him back with enthusiasm, falling into step beside him, trying to ignore the butterflies in your stomach. It's too early to be simping again, gotta make your brain think of something else.
âYou know, I was thinking... Iâm going to stay in Ragunna City. Maybe get a job, settle in a bit. That way I donât have to run into any Tacet Discords...and honestly...I really donât want to learn how to fight.â
Roverâs eyes flick toward you as he opens the front entrance of the hotel. The door glides smoothly, and he holds it open without a word, letting you step through first.
âThatâs smart thinking,â he murmurs, and for a second, you swear thereâs something weightier behind his tone.
Your heart does a flip. Rover just called me smart. He thinks Iâm smart! Heh!
You glance up at him, beaming, but the smile on his face has vanished. Heâs watching you now. A stillness in him, like the air before lightning strikes.
âBut,â he says slowly, and starts walking again, now the two of you are walking down the streets. âYou told me about what happened last night⊠and it sounds like Ragunna City might not be as safe as you think.â
You blink at him. âWait⊠you believe me?â The shock is real, raw. You hadnât expected him to take your words seriously.
He stops walking and Turns. His golden eyes meet yours, catching the sunlight just right, thereâs a glimmer in them that feels too sharp to be soft, too intense to be gentle.
âYes, I do,â he says, voice smooth, measured. âEvery single word since we met⊠Iâve believed you.â He leans in slightly, lowering his tone to something quieter, something softer that curls beneath your skin. âYou wouldnât have a reason to lie to me. Right?â
Thereâs no threat in his voice. None at all. Only kindness. Too much kindness. It floods over you, sweet and heavy. You gulp.
But then you see it. That unwavering focus in his eyes. Like heâs not just hearing you but memorizing every syllable, and every feature of yours.
Still, your smile returns, hesitant but hopeful. He believed you, About the ghost. You werenât crazy, and somehow that felt like everything.
âYep! I was serious about that.â you say, a little breathless. âThank you.â
Right then, his terminal buzzes.
But Rover doesnât reach for it immediately, His eyes linger on you, longer than necessary, longer than what should be polite. like the interruption has offended him somehow.
Only when the buzzing repeats does he finally pick it up.
âWere you awake, Rover? I trust you had a restful sleep?â a womanâs voice purrs from the other end.
You slap a hand over your mouth to stifle the squeal building in your throat, eyes going wide. Oh my god. It's Carlotta! This is it! This is where he goes to meet with Brant, Roccia. You're practically vibrating with excitement, quietly giggling into your hand like a lovesick person.
âPsst! What are you giggling about!?â a tiny voice snaps beside you.
You blink, turn your head and flinch. âAbby!? When did you get out of Roverâs Tacet mark? Youâre still weak, you shouldnât be out!â
Abby floats right into your face, squinting suspiciously. âYouâre weird. You know things only me and Rover should know. Iâm watching you.â It squints harder, doing the two fingers motion from its eyes to yours, then promptly zips back into Roverâs Tacet mark like a gremlin vanishing into shadow.
The call ends with a soft beep.
Rover turns back to you, but thereâs something unreadable in his gaze, like heâs thinking too much. Or not thinking at all. âDonât mind Abby,â he says. âWould you like to come with me?â
You blink. âWhere?â
He raises an eyebrow, as his lips quirk up slightly. âYou already know the answer. So why ask?â
You huff, flustered, watching as Rover turns his back to you, walking ahead with a casual confidence. Like he already knows youâll follow.
The space you arrive in is open and tastefully decorated, big plush couches arranged around a low table, soft lighting casting warm glows over the area.
And your breath catches.
Because there they areâBrant, Carlotta, and Roccia. In the flesh. Living, breathing, talking. Not just pixels or dialogue boxes. You practically light up, your eyes going wide and sparkling like youâve stepped into a dream made real.
You barely register the soft click of Roverâs boots behind you.
He watches you. Watches the way your mouth parts just a little in awe, the way your body angles forward in excitement.
He drinks in every detail like heâs parched...
but itâs not enough. Because for the first time since you met⊠youâre not looking at him.
Youâre looking at them.
And he doesnât like it.
Not one bit.
Thereâs a weight in his chest, something sharp and unfamiliar. A prickling tightness blooming behind his ribs like thorns.
He clears his throat softly, a warning disguised in civility.
You blink, glancing back at him. Heâs smiling But something in his eyes is off.
Rover gestures toward the trio and some other people from the troop of fools with a tilt of his head, silently urging you forward. You step ahead with a nervous bounce, and he trails just behind you.
His eyes never leave you.
Not even for a second.
âRaise your glasses! Shout it loud, friends! To us! To the carneval! And to our very own Laureate!â Brant cheered, his voice a bit too loud and his steps more than a little wobbly. He looked absolutely wasted, swaying on his feet as he raised his drink high into the air with a proud grin.
You paused, standing just a few feet away from him, trying not to let your expression reveal the internal screeching happening inside your head. Rover stepped forward slightly, close enough that his shoulder nearly brushed yours. âPlease, stop,â he murmured. âYouâre making me feel embarrassed.â
Brant gave Rover a sloppy, closed-eyed smile, completely unbothered by the scolding. Then his gaze shifted and landed on you and he lit up like a firework. âOh! The Laureate's Maiden!â he exclaimed, voice cracking with excitement as he stumbled a little. âYou were the one Rover left so early for, aren't you?â
He extended his drink toward you in a cheerful toast, and you froze. Your heart practically stuttered at the title, âLaureateâs Maiden.â The words echoed in your mind like a prophecy.
Rover said nothing. He only lifted a hand to his forehead while shaking his head.
Carlottaâs sharp, observant eyes flicked toward you in curiosity. Meanwhile, Roccia leaned in toward her and whispered, âHeâs drunk again,â before offering you a small, apologetic smile, in her shy demeanor.
You were losing your goddamn mind.
You stood there, barely holding it together, silently screaming. You were watching Brant be an absolute mess, Roccia being adorable, and Carlotta giving you the âI see youâ stare. And then it hit you again how real everything is.
Your inner fangirl was one step away from combusting.
You felt it building upâyour excitement almost boiling over your lips.
A hand wrapped around your wrist.
Your head snapped up, eyes locking with Roverâs. His face didnât betray much, but the look in his golden eyes was enoughâsharp, steady, and entirely too aware of what was happening inside you.
Somehow, he knew.
That you were about to slip, about to fangirl out loud and shatter the whole illusion. You didnât even get how, but he caught it. As if he was tuned to your every breath.
You swallowed your squeal and took a deep, steadying breath. Then gave him a small, sheepish nod.
But he didnât let go of your wrist and you could feel it in the pressure of his touch, the way he refused to release you.
Carlottaâs gaze softened, her attention drifting from Roverâs hand on you to your expression.
She smiled, and looked down for a moment, then patted the empty space beside her on the couch. It wasnât direct, no announcement or fanfare, but the invitation was clear in her casual, elegant way. Just a subtle gesture, as if saying; Come sit. Letâs talk. Youâre welcome here.
Carlotta rose gracefully, lifting her glass with a quiet confidence that commanded attention. âA toast, everyone!â she called, her voice ringing clear across the space. âdrink freely and celebrate without restraintâeverythingâs on me.â
A ripple of cheers followed, glasses raised, laughter blooming in the air like fireworks.
You giggled to yourself, heart warm, eyes sparkling as the atmosphere buzzed around you. Slipping from Roverâs graspâfingers parting with a reluctant dragâyou moved to sit beside Carlotta on the plush sofa, feeling a soft thrill.
Carlotta turned to you, her expression calm but kind. âWelcome,â she said smoothly, folding one leg over the other. âYouâre Roverâs special person. Youâll be treated as such.â
Your chest gave a small, involuntary flutter. You blinked at her, caught off guard by her directness. âAhâThank you! Um⊠but I donât know about being specialâŠâ Your voice trailed into a mumble as you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, cheeks heating. âI want to be, thoughâŠâ
Carlotta tilted her head, repeating your words with an airy lilt, âYouâre not?â a flicker of relief, so subtle it almost slipped past you.
Before you could open your mouth and spill something mortifying âyour unfiltered thoughts like, âRover's fingers felt like silk ropes and I think I stopped breathing for three secondsââa sudden shift interrupted.
Rover moved, Just strode forward and sat himself directly between you and Carlotta, his body sliding into the space. His shoulder pressed lightly against yours, and you had no choice but to scoot slightly to the sideâcaught off guard by the smoothness of the maneuver.
Carlotta blinked in mild surprise, eyebrows raising ever so slightly. Your own eyes widened too. The tension was brief but palpable, like the quiet before a lightning strike.
Carlotta adjusted her posture with ease and offered no protest. She simply redirected the flow of conversation, her tone shifting into something professional as she began discussing details about the event.
Rover and Carlotta kept talking, their tones low and deliberate as Roccia chimed in now and then. You stayed quiet, content to observe. but the heat at your side was impossible to ignore.
Roverâs leg brushed against yours, now settled there, beside yours. His hand settled near his knee, close enough that you felt the weight of it, even without touch. There was less to no distance between you two.
Whatever that gesture meant, it was received. Even the Orderâs acolyte, who was spying from afar noticed it.
No one would approach you. Not now. Not with him right there.
It would be reported to Primus, an unexpected detail theyâd soon turn into a calculated advantage.
Youâre alone again.
The wind cuts soft against your skin as you stand on the balconyâthat balcony. The one Rover brought you to the cave opened up into a place, Order's Cathedral.
He got summoned by the Primus. Some urgent request, diplomatic bullshit. You didnât want to go inside. So you told him youâd wait hereâwhere it all began. Where you both first touched Regunnaâs sky.
The elevator hums behind you.
Ding.
âExcuse me, Miss. Are you with Rover?â
You blink, caught mid-thought. When you turn, you find an acolyte standing just a few feet away, the fountain splashing steadily behind him.
âYes?â you say slowly, confused. Why the hell is one of them talking to you?
âWith the Primusâ request, weâd like to give you a tour of the Orderâs wildlife.â
Huuuh!?
You stare at him, deadpan. âDoes Rover know about this?â
He doesnât answer, Instead, his hand appears from behind his back, holding out a bouquet. A beautiful one. Flowers in shades that donât exist in Regunnaâs natural palette, arranged like a bribe wrapped in silk.
âFor you, my lady,â he says with a thin smile. âA gift from the Primus. As a welcome.â
Huuuuuuuhhhhh?!
You feel your social anxiety flare like a damn solar flare. You grab the bouquet on instinct just to make this weirdo stop looking at you. The scent hits you immediatelyâsweet, heady, with something underneath, Faint and Strange.
Rot?
No. Itâs not bad. JustâŠ
âWould you please follow me?â
You donât want to.
You donât want to.
You want to ask more questions. Call Rover. Push this guy into the railing and run. But your body⊠itâs moving. Feet light, legs slow, floating forward.
The bouquet trembles in your hands.
Your throat tightens. âRo...verâŠâ you try, but your mouth opens soundlessly. Not a whisper, not a wheeze. Nothing.
Inside, youâre screaming. You are begging for your voice. For control of your body.
Help me.
But all you can do is follow.
Youâre in a field now.
Wide, open, The sky is dimmer here. Or maybe youâre imagining it. You blinkâyour vision sharpens. The manâs walking away, saying nothing. His silhouette fades into the distant treeline like he was never there.
And just like that, you drop the bouquet.
It hits the ground with a soft thump, and suddenlyâitâs like you can breathe again. Like some part of your soul just clawed its way back into your chest.
Your hands shake.
âThat bastard,â you hiss, furious. You want to run back, grab someoneâanyoneâby the collar and scream at them, What the fuck was that?!
But⊠who would believe you?
Then a voice, warm and steady, echoes in your memory.
âEvery single word since we met⊠Iâve believed you.â
Rover.
Your breath hitches. Yeah. He would believe you.
But first, you need to get the hell out of here.
You spin around, scanning the field. You donât even know where you are. Thereâs grass. Rocks. A distant shimmer of trees. You have no idea which way is back to the city. And of course, the second you realize how alone you are, The air shifts.
It gets cold. And then you hear it. Skittering. Growling. Clicking. Then, like stars in a nightmare sky, they appearâone by one. Tacet Discords...At least twenty of them.
All shapes. All sizes. Some teddy bear like. Some Grotesque silhouettes against the horizonâelongated limbs, blinking eyes, wet jaws, razor-wings.
The air hums with primal danger.
Your heart drops straight into your gut.
âNonononono! fuck me sideways...â you breathe, taking a shaky step back.
Then they move, Fast. All at once. You run.
Thereâs no plan. No direction. Just sheer, animal panic. You dodge a spiked tail that slams into the ground where you stood a second ago. The impact makes the earth tremble, and you screamâloud, raw.
Your luck is absolute shitâno, scratch that, it's cosmically cursed. You were having such a good time.
And now? Thrown into this mess.
Funny how things go to hell the moment Rover isnât by your side. When heâs around, your luck feels blessed, like the universe has your back. The second heâs gone? Boomâchaos and now apparently a welcoming bouquet laced with âfuck-youâ energy.
Branches whip at your arms as you dive into whatever passes for cover hereârocks, shallow dips, ruins of something ancient and forgotten. You keep going, because stopping means dying.
You trip once. Twice. A claw nearly catches your ankle. You donât look back.
Your legs burn. Your lungs are begging for mercy.
Your brain is just screaming: Youâre going to die here.
Youâre not built for this. You never trained. Youâre not a Resonator. You donât belong in the middle of a Tacet Discord bloodbath.
All you have is your decent sense of sarcasm, and what you hope is enough spite to fuel your survival.
âGreat!â you shout breathlessly. âThis is fantastic! You guys didn't even ask me on a date and now Iâm on the fucking menu?!â
A Tacet Discord shrieks behind you in response. You scream back, middle finger raised in pure survival-mode insanity.
Theyâre everywhere. Every direction you turn..You can't outrun them. You know that.
But youâll damn well try.
Because dying like thisâalone, devoured in the dirt like trash?
Not on your list of acceptable Tuesday activities, wait is it Tuesday here? Nevermind.
And if youâre going down... at least one of these freaks is gonna have indigestion afterward.
The air is thick with dread.
Your legs are jelly, lungs burning, and the cacophony of Tacet Discords closing in is deafening. Each breath feels like a countdown to oblivion.
Suddenly, a blinding light pierces the gloom.
A shockwave erupts, sending Tacet Discords flying like ragdolls. The ground trembles beneath you, and for a moment, the world holds its breath.
From the epicenter of the blast, a figure emergesâRover.
But this isn't the Rover you know. His eyes blaze with an otherworldly light, and an aura of raw power radiates from him. The very air around him seems to bend, acknowledging his dominance.
He moves with lethal grace, each step purposeful. With a mere gesture, he summons ethereal weapons, dispatching Tacet Discords with surgical precision. The creatures, once so terrifying, have become his playthings.
His eyes glowâbrighter than the stars, colder than space.
The frequency thickens around him like a cloak of shadows alive and hungry. His Spectro resonance still hums at the core, pulsing in rhythm with his heartbeat like a ticking bomb.
In a blur of movement, Rover twistsâhand slicing the TDs clean and efficiently, like a surgeon cutting through rotten flesh.
More surround him. A pulse of Havoc ignitesâDark Surge expanding. He warps forward, vanishing for a half secondâthen reappears behind them mid-spin, hurling his scythe from both hands. The Tacet Discords shudder before collapsing, torsos sliced clean.
You blinkâand two more Tacet Discords have already fallen. You canât even see how he did it.
You sigh in relief but damn it, he looks terrifyingly hot. That dark gleam in his eyes, the effortless precision, the sheer dominance in every moveâŠ
Yeah, youâre shaken, but a part of you? Still hopelessly down bad.
The adrenaline drains from your body like a snapped string. You can finally let go, but your limbs tremble uncontrollably. Now that the fear has passed, your body finally realizes just how close you came to dying.
A sharp crunch pulls your attention up.
Rover steps forward, walking toward your crouched form with slow, steady steps. The ground doesnât quake beneath him anymore, and that unbearable frequency that had screamed around him moments ago has vanished. The pressure lifts.
Tears spill over your cheeksâhot, heavy, unstoppable. The sob rips from your throat before you can even stop it. You were going to die. You were so close to being torn apart andâ
You donât even register him moving until his arms are around you, pulling you into a firm, grounding hug.
You bury your face in his chest, fists clutching the undershirt beneath his jacket like itâs the only thing anchoring you to reality.
One of his hands moves slowly over your back, tracing calming circles. The other cradles the back of your head gently, like youâre fragile glass and heâs terrified of cracking you.
And in that moment, you feel safe. Safe like never before. Not because the danger is gone.
But because he is here.
Your sobs have finally faded to sniffles. You rub your puffy eyes, shifting just a little away from his chest but still firmly in his embrace.
âI actually thought I was going to die,â you mutter, voice scratchy. âLike! I know I broke my personal record of staying alive for a week, which is amazing, but I still didnât wanna die, you know?â
Rover hums softly, his gloved fingers gently threading through your hair. The motion is rhythmic, soothing. âYouâre still alive,â he says, voice calm and warm. âSee?â And there it is, that smile. Soft. Sweet. Heart-melting.
Youâd fight twenty more Tacet Discords for that smile. Urm⊠hide behind him while he fights.
âYeah⊠thanks to you,â you reply, trying to gently pry yourself from his hold.
Keyword: try.
His arms donât budge.
âRover⊠I think Iâm okay now,â you laugh awkwardly. âWe can head back to the city?â
Youâre not sure why it came out as a question but somehow, when it comes to him, you feel like you need permission to even breathe.
Rover finally nods and lets go, though his eyes linger on you, scanning, calculating, checking every tiny tremble in your limbs.
You stand beside him, brushing dust off yourself as he steps ahead, leading the way. The silence is easy⊠until he speaks, like itâs casual small talk.
âI met with Primus. Can you guess what happened?â
Heâs smiling, but... somethingâs off. You glance down and see his fists clenched so tight.
âOh yeah!â you perk up, totally missing the tension. âI remember that questâkind of. Doesnât he like, talk in riddles about âThe Maidenâ or whatever?â
You ramble, voice light and airy now, blissfully unaware that your words arenât answering his question so much as distracting yourself.
âMostly accurate, but he mentioned you as well. And threatened me, indirectly.â
You donât notice how Roverâs gentle tone shiftsâhow frustration slips into the spaces between his words, how tightly heâs reining it in.
âWait! Wait! Wait, what?! Am I ruining the plot?!â you blurt, wide-eyed. âNo way! I donât wanna get involved, nope. Rover, can you likeâsend me to Jinzhou? That place is super peaceful right now and itâd be perfect for me to start a new life in. Like then I won't have acolytes luring me into a place filled with Tds...â
Rover stops walking. Thereâs so much in your words that bugs him. The way you talk about leaving like itâs that simple...like he could ever let you go.
âSo,â he mutters, as if confirming something to himself, âthatâs what happenedâŠâ
Then louder, firm enough to cut through your spiral. âItâs okay. Nothing will happen to you.â
And he says it with such unshakable certainty, it doesnât feel like reassurance, it feels like a threat to the universe itself. this is his vow to you.
You exhale. âThank youâŠâ The walk continues, and thereâs a light brush of Roverâs hand against yours.
You hesitate, then test it, fingers creeping toward his, shy and slow. Like youâre asking a question without words.
And rather quickly, Rover answers.
He intertwines his fingers with yours, firm and grounding. No hesitation. Just his hand, holding yours, like heâs always meant to.
You grin to yourself, giggling inwardly like a little gremlin. Heheh, holding hands before marriage. How scandalous.
Well, you muse dramatically, weâve held hands before⊠but this is different. This is sacred. Because I initiated it.
You beam with inner pride, your silly little heart puffing. Because yes, this moment matters. Because yes, youâre holding your husbandâs hand.
Husband as in: you married him in your daydreams. Details, details.
As you and Rover entered Ragunna City again, you were immediately met with Carlotta. it seemed like she had been waiting for the two of you.
âRover!â she called out, striding toward you both. Her expression brightened, then faltered the moment her gaze landed on you. Concern twisted across her face like a storm cloud. âAre you okay?! My goodness...â
âIt was the Order,â Rover replied, his tone calm but clipped. Then, turning to Carlotta, he made a quiet requestâasking for her help. His eyes found yours again. âI need to take care of something. Carlotta can be trusted, donât worry. Iâll be back before you know it.â
Your hands were still interlockedâhis grip firm, grounding. Then, with a final squeeze, he let go and walked away, his figure disappearing like a tether snapping loose.
You turned to Carlotta, awkwardly brushing back your disheveled hair. âUm⊠sorry for how I look? I feel like I offended you somehow.â
Carlotta blinked, clearly startled. âNo, no! Please, be at ease. As I said beforeâRoverâs special person will be treated with the utmost care and respect. Please, follow me.â
She led you to her estate and provided a guest room stocked with fresh clothes. After a soothing shower and a change into soft, clean fabric, you collapsed into the bed like a soul exorcised of fatigue.
It wasnât long before a gentle knock on the door pulled you from your nap. âCome in!â
Carlotta entered, a composed smile on her face, followed by a butler carrying a silver tray. Your mouth practically watered on reflex. The far end of the room revealed a small table and chairs. The butler wordlessly placed the tray down and exited with the elegance of a ghost. Carlotta gestured for you to sit with her, settling into one of the chairs with regal ease.
You took the seat across from her, and she offered you a genuine smile. âDonât mind me. Please, dig in.â
You didnât need to be told twice. The food was warm and familiar, like a safety blanket in edible form.
Finally relaxed, your guard temporarily down, you decided to bring up the thought that had been gnawing at your mind.
âSo, I was thinking of going to Jinzhou. You know, that city in Huanglong...â
Carlotta tilted her head with interest, eyes glinting. âMay I ask why?â
âI donât feel safe in Ragunna City after the...â you hesitated, poking at your food, âYou know... and Jinzhou is, like, very peaceful right now. A perfect place to not get attacked by anything!â
Carlotta nodded, leaning back and folding one leg over the other with the poise of a queen. âI can help you with that. Arrange transportation. Iâll make sure you arrive safely and are well taken care of once youâre inside the city.â
You gasped, hand pressed to your chest dramatically. âOmg! You would do that? Thank you so much!â
Carlotta nodded, her smile never faltering but her eyes held something calculating beneath the warmth. Of course, she had her own reasons. She was a woman of business, after all. And every investment had its return.
Carlotta had escorted you back to the hotel after receiving a message from Roverâhe wouldn't be able to pick you up himself. You didnât think much of it. Maybe he got caught up in something.
You made small talk with Carlotta.
Once you reached the hotel entrance, you turned to her with a small smile.
âThanks... for walking with me. And for, well, everything,â you murmured, scratching your cheek awkwardly.
Carlotta smiled, her gaze softening. âOf course. Take care of yourself.â
You waved her goodbye, entering the building and making your way up the stairs, shoes clicking softly against the polished floor. As you reached your floor, something odd caught your eye. You noticed a door, just beside yours, was slightly ajar.
Curiosity won over common sense, and like the nosy little gremlin you were, you peeked.
And immediately regretted it. Who are you lying to? You didn't regret it a slightest bit.
Rover stood inside, his back to you, just as he was taking off his jacket. Then came the gloves, tossed onto a nearby chair. The strap across his chest followed, sliding off in one smooth motion. Then he reached for the hem of his shirt. That clingy, perfectly-fitted grey undershirt. He was halfway through tugging it off when your soul panicked.
You panicked, raising your fist and knocking loudly. Your eyes widened. Your cheeks caught fire.
Rover turned his head slightly, catching you in the corner of his eye, shirt now caught at his ribs, he lets go of it.
Your face flushed immediately.
He looked unfairly good like thisâhair slightly tousled, collarbone peeking out, that necklace glinting against his skin like a silent warning.
âOh, youâre back... safe and sound.â he said, voice dipped in honeyed relief. His eyes roamed over you, then lingered just a second too long. âGood.â
You cleared your throat and stepped inside like a guilty cat caught knocking over a vase. âIâuhây-yeah, I justâsorry, I didnât mean to peek or anything, I justâyour doorâit was open andâuhââ You were absolutely malfunctioning. âYour shirt is committing war crimes.â
Rover chuckled softly and didnât press it. His smile was warm, and yet something about it felt strained, like there was static just under the surface. As he turned fully, the soft lighting dancing across his face, the shirt clinging to his muscles.
You cleared your throat, You sat down on the arm of a chair, legs swinging slightly. You figured now was a good time to talk. âAnyway, I wanted to talk to you... about something.â
He tilted his head, eyebrows lifting as he leaned against the table. âIâm listening.â
âSo⊠I kinda had a conversation with Carlotta while I was stuffing my face with food. And, wellâŠâ you paused, watching his hands still, You smiled awkwardly. âSo... I talked to Carlotta. And she said she could help me get to Jinzhou. You know, because Ragunnaâs not exactly âletâs settle down and bake cookiesâ levels of safe.â
Roverâs smile didnât vanishâit simply froze, like a painted expression.
âOh?â he said, with an almost imperceptible pause.
His tone stayed even. âAnd why would you want to go there?â
âLike I told you before..â You shrugged. âI donât feel safe here. I mean, what happened in the field? Thatâs not something I want a round two of. And Jinzhou's got, like⊠zen energy. I can heal a bit. And I think... I need that. I think Iâd feel better there. You could come visit too, of course.â You grinned at him, clearly trying to keep the conversation light, because the strange, tense atmosphere is becoming suffocating.
âI see,â Rover said softly. He took a step closer. âLeaving is the right choice?â
âI mean⊠yeah?â you answered with a sheepish grin. âDonât get me wrong, Iâd miss you. A lot. Youâre like the worldâs best emotional support. Likeâseriously. Who gave you permission to look that good covered in dust?â
That got a small laugh out of him but the tension didnât fade. His fingers flexed slightly at his side.
Then your eyes caught something, on the edge of his undershirt sleeve, just beneath the fabric...
Your heart jumped, Blood. A faint, dark smear near the hem of his shirt.
Your lightheartedness fizzled. âWait⊠are you hurt?â You stood, frowning. âDid something happen?â
Rover tilted his head, then looked down like heâd forgotten the evidence on him. âNo,â he said quickly. âNot my blood.â
That did not make it better. Not his? You blinked. âThen whoseâ?â
âItâs nothing you need to worry about,â he said with a gentle smile, the kind that felt... wrong now. âYouâre safe. Thatâs what matters.â
That strange calm in his voice made your skin crawl in the oddest way. You tried to shake it off. Your body stiffened instinctively.
After a pause, he looked at you againâthis time softer, almost vulnerable.
âWill you stay?â
You hesitated. He waited. You shook your head slowly. âNo. I mean, I care about you, and I have made that clear, I guess very clear⊠but I just donât want to stay here anymore. It doesnât feel right. I need space. Maybe you can come visit me in Jinzhou when you get a break or something?â
You smiled gently and stepped toward the door.
But it shut before you could touch the handle.
A hand pressed flat against the wood in front of you, and heat rushed down your spine. Rover was behind you now, close enough that you felt the weight of his presence in your bones.
âThat,â he whispered, voice no longer gentle but absolute, âis not an option.â
Your breath caught in your throat.
You turned your head slightly, only to find his face right there, cheek against your hair, mouth near your ear.
âI didnât believe you at first,â he began, voice barely above a whisper. âWhen you said all those things. About me. About this world. I thought you were just being poetic. But I listened. Every word. Every little slip. Youâve known me since the beginning, havenât you?â
You slowly turned to face him. His eyes werenât wide with madness. No. They were too calm. Too lucid. And that was so much worse. You backed up slightly but there was nowhere to go, Your back pressing against the door.
âYou talk like youâve always known me. From the beginning of my journey. Every choice Iâve made...you understand it before I even speakâŠâ
He exhaled a laughâshort, humorless. âI started noticing things after I met you. Things I shouldnât notice. The way the world shifts around us. The way time bends. The way... none of it feels real anymore.â
You blinked. âWhat are you talking aboutâ?â
âI see it now,â he breathed. âThe repetition. The scripted kindness. The way people pause just long enough for you to speak. I am in a story. I wholeheartedly believe you now...And youâŠâ
He leans closer, his elbow bending, caging you gently between him and the door.
âYou are the only unpredictable thing in this world. The only one who looks at me like Iâm more than lines of code. The only one that feels real. Because you are the only one anchoring me to the real world.â
You could hear the tremble building under his voice, like a crack in the earth before the quake.
âI started wonderingâwhat am I? A character in a story? A game? Made for peopleâs amusement?â
His voice broke, briefly. âAm I real, or just code wrapped in skin?â
You tried to speak, but the words caught in your throat.
âYouâre the only thing that makes sense now,â he continued. âYouâre the only one who doesnât glitch. The only one who talks like sheâs seen me.â
âRoverââ
âNo. Listen. Do you understand what that means?â His hand cupped your cheekâsoft, reverent, yet trembling with obsession barely restrained. âYou are my anchor. Without you, this world dissolves. Without you, I become... just another piece of fiction.â
His forehead pressed against yours.
âI donât want to forget how your voice sounds. I donât want to wake up and realize I imagined you. I don't want to go back to a loop where you never existed.â
You felt his breath tremble against your lips.
âI need to know that Iâm not just a story youâll get tired of.â
Your heart thundered in your chestâpart fear, part something far too complicated to name.
âI fucked up...â you whisper to yourself, barely audible.
Rover smiles.
That soft, puppy-like smile. The kind that used to melt your heart, the kind that once made you believe he could never hurt you. The kind that now feels like a mask.
He steps away for a momentâonly to hook his fingers around your wrist with a gentle tug, pulling you back. You stumble, breath catching, and the back of your knees meets the edge of the bed with a muted thud.
âI notice everything about you,â he murmurs. âThe way you dote on me... those little moments? They donât go unnoticed.â
He extends his handâlike he always has. From the moment you met until now, it has always been there, waiting. Waiting for you to take it.
And you always did. With no hesitation. Sometimes even with joy.
But now...
Now you hesitate.
His hair is slightly disheveled, a few strands falling into his eyes. Thereâs a faint smear of blood at the hem of his grey shirtâcrimson staining cotton like paint across canvas. When he tilts his head, the necklace he always wears catches the light, swinging like a pendulum.
Even now, in this moment, he looks so...Beautiful. Unreal.
âDonât you want to be my wife?â His voice is low, coaxing. âWhy hesitate now...?â
He says your name like a lover's prayer. Or a spell. Like the idea of you slipping away is unbearable. And it makes you ache to take his hand again.
âYou said you loved me. Remember?â
His eyes widen. The desperation in them is stark, unhidden, raw. Wild. Like a man teetering on the edge of a cliff and calling it faith. Like falling is a choice... and dragging you down with him is a promise.
Then, in a voice so quiet it makes your stomach twist.
âSo prove it.â
Your breath stutters. He was patient. He gave you your space, didnât he? Gave you time to think. To breathe. He waited...
But patience is fragile.
And even if you run, it wonât matter. heâs the main character of this world. He knows that. he knows this world bends to him.
You canât escape.
Everyone loves him, adores him. They always will. Heâll use that love, twist it into a cage so soft you wonât even know youâre inside it.
He sees it now, your fear. Sees the way your body tenses like a trembling leaf. He exhales, slow and measured, and steps into your space until thereâs nothing left between you.
âJinzhou,â he repeats, like heâs tasting the word. âYou want to go there?â
You nod quickly, reflexively. Any wrong move could shift the moment. Could turn gentleness into something else entirely.
His hands lift, hovering in the air, waiting, Would you flinch? He would never do something that would push him away from you.
But you donât flinch. You donât move.
So he cups your cheeks with such tenderness it makes your skin crawl.
âThere,â he whispers. âRelax. You can go to Jinzhou. I wonât stop you.â
Because this world already belongs to me. I donât need to lock you up to keep you.
You shiver. His voice is calm, but his eyes... those eyes arenât the ones you fell in love with. Theyâre deeper now, darker, bottomless pits that donât reflect light, only swallow it.
âDonât worry,â he soothes, fingers brushing along your jaw. âYouâre safe. Iâll make sure of that.â
And you nod.
You lean into his touch because, in this worldâwhether you like it or notâheâs the only one who can protect you. The only one who wonât let you go.
Pairing: Doctor/Mafia!Kim Seokjin x Intern!ReaderÂ
Warnings: Yandere behavior, Possessiveness, Manipulative behavior, If youâre not 18+ please, PLEASE, do not interact. Be mindful of the warnings. Let me know if I miss anything.
A/N: Jin Wick is finally happening!
Masterlist, Part XII of XIII
Kim Seokjinâs POV
He was six when he first took a manâs life.
He didnât remember what exactly happened or how his father made him do it.
He didnât remember the details â not the manâs face, not the smell of gunpowder, not the sound of his fatherâs voice urging him on. What he did remember was the weight of the gun in his small hands, heavier than it should have been. He remembered how his fingers trembled and how his fatherâs hand steadied them â not out of comfort, but out of command.
He just remembered how loud his mother screamed when he returned to the mansion, his pristine and expensive shirt ruined with blood.
He just remembered how his mother called him a monster.
He just remembered how she said she never should have married Seokjinâs father, then maybe, he wouldnât exist.
He was ten when he first realized that although there was no love lost for his mother, his father was deeply enamored by his mother. It was the kind of love that was too much â something that was obsessive, toxic and hurtful.
Seokjinâs mother loved his fatherâs money while his father craved control over his mother.
It wasnât love, he realized when he was thirteen.
And if it was, he vowed never to love anyone.
He was seventeen when it dawned on him that he could leave this all behind, that he could be someone who didnât have to hurt anyone, that his hands could heal instead of hurt, that he could be anyone else but a Mafia Prince, a title that had been thrusted on him since his very first breath.
He was eighteen when he quickly learned that if he wanted to save his brothers from the same fate as his, that he needed to become the very man he tried so hard not to be: he needed to be the Mafia Prince.
He became the monster his mother accused him of being.
He ended his fatherâs reign and coincidentally, he became a prisoner of his own decision, a life built in deceit, of having blood in his hands and a life built to heal. He had long accepted it. This was his life: a doctor by oath, a criminal by birthright. He built a life in deceit with one that healed by daylight and bled by dusk. A man with blood on his hands, and a heart that refused to stop trying to save others even when he knew no one could save him.
Until you came into his life.
You were a force to be reckoned with, something that could never be predicted. He was content with his life. In fact, he had long accepted that he would always live a double life. He promised himself that he wouldnât be like his father, that he would never damned someone else to a life with him.
He built walls too high that he unknowingly became a prisoner of them. But youâŠyou came into his life with a smile that could disarm anyone. Every warmth you sent his way, regardless of how undeserving he knew he was, thawed the coldness in his heart.Â
He promised not to love the way his father did â possessive, consuming, cruel, obsessive.Â
Deep down, he was terrified that a part of his father was ingrained in him, that when he did allow himself to love, that heâd hold onto that person tight enough that itâd kill her. Deep down he knew. He knew that there was no erasing a father from son. And like his father before him, he was terrified that his love no matter how pure it felt would be the very thing that destroyed you.
But you never gave him a choice.
He should have known he never stood a chance when it came with you.
He tried.
God, he tried. He buried himself in work, stayed longer in the hospital, stitched up wounds that werenât his just to forget the one you had opened in him, put irreparable damages on people who thought they could take down the Bangtan. He avoided your calls, your eyes, your touch. He ran away from you in the most literal sense and in his haste to escape the feelings you forced to the surface, he ended up hurting you.Â
But you were everywhere: in the scent of jasmine that lingered in the corridors, in the sound of his own heartbeat that quickened whenever he thought of you, in the tenderness that he couldnât forget.
You were simply a cliff.
And he had been standing at the edge his whole life, pretending the fall wouldnât kill him.
But then you smiled at him one evening. It was just a simple, unguarded smile and he realized it was too late. He was already falling, helplessly, hopelessly, completely. He realized that he could only deny for so long before the truth caught up to him. He realized that his world returned to lifeless gray when you took all your sunshine away with you.
There was no saving himself from you.
And so when you came home injured, he didnât exactly know how he remained calm, or at the very least, how he was able to play a façade of a man who was calm and wasnât craving violence. He wanted to destroy whoever had done this. Wanted to make them feel the kind of pain that didnât heal. But instead, he clenched his jaw and swallowed it down, every muscle in his body screaming for release. He forced his hands to be gentle as he reached for you, his touch feather-light, almost reverent.
Right then and there, he realized that the reason why fate didnât let him turn his back on the dark world was because of you. It hit him like truth often did â quietly, cruelly, completely.
It was because he needed to be strong to protect you.
âYou know, I wasnât done playing with her. I am having fun playing with her,â the man who would soon wish he was dead said as he picked up a knife while Seokjin was bound to the table. He must have been the boss of these idiots.
Seokjin would reserve the worst death for him.Â
Blood dripped from his lip onto the cold metal, slow and steady. He didnât flinch. His breathing was calm â too calm â his eyes steady as he watched the man approach. The ropes around his wrists cut deep, but he didnât struggle. He let them tie him up.
He let them think they had won.
He let them, of course. Also, this was his punishment for letting them hurt you. Had he claimed you sooner, had he accepted his feelings sooner, then this bastard wouldnât have been able to hurt you. Had he come home unscathed to you, then it would be suspicious. You were an intelligent girl, you would find it hard to believe that a doctor like him would ever leave this scene unharmed. He was, after all, an upstanding citizen. He wouldnât know anything about hurting anyone.Â
To you, he was just a doctor who was too good at his job. Nothing more.
âAnd you think you could just saunter here and what? Pay her debt for her? Save her? Who do you think you are? Her knight in shining armor? Hah!â
The manâs voice was coarse and mocking, the kind that reeked of cheap whiskey and arrogance. The words were barely out of his mouth before his fist came crashing into Seokjinâs cheek, the sound of impact sharp and wet against the quiet of the room.
Seokjinâs head snapped to the side, a small trickle of blood running down his lip. He didnât move. Didnât flinch. He just stared at the floor for a beat, jaw tightening before he turned his gaze back up.
He had experienced worseâŠfar worse, to be honest. His fatherâs fists were heavier, colder, more deliberate. His father knew how to hurt. His father knew where to hurt. Pain was nothing new to him. Pain was familiar, almost comforting in its predictability. This? This was nothing.
He straightened slowly, the metallic tang of blood in his mouth before he spit the blood on the ground, his eyes unreadable. âAre you done?â he asked softly, voice calm, dangerous in its restraint.
The man laughed, loud and guttural, mistaking composure for weakness. âOh, youâve got some balls, doctor. I like that. But letâs make something clear. Your money cannot save anyone here. Especially not her.â
A slow smile tugged at the corner of Seokjinâs bruised lip, a smile that didnât reach his eyes. He looked up at him emotionlessly. âYouâre right,â he murmured, voice low, almost gentle. âMoney cannot save her.â
He chuckled, the sound cold and haunting. âI do.â
The ropes snapped loose with one sharp, practiced twist, the sound of metal against metal echoing through the dim room. His eyes widened at him. With swift movements, Seokjin managed to land a powerful blow on the manâs throat, rendering him incapable for a moment. He calculated that there were seven men inside the warehouse, two guarding the perimeters and five inside with him. He was severely offended by the number of people brought here to contain him.Â
They werenât enough to clench the burning anger he felt inside him when he found you injured.
Two men ran to him, fully intending on subduing him and ending his life. They thought numbers could save them. Seokjin caught the first one by the wrist before the blade could reach him, twisting sharply until bone snapped with a clean, wet crack. The man screamed, dropping to his knees. The second lunged from behind, but Seokjin moved with surgical precision, a sharp elbow to the jaw, a swift kick to the ribs. The man crumpled, gasping for air that would never fully come back.
It was almost disappointing.
Their attempts were hilarious, really â pathetic in the face of the fury that lived inside him. They were street rats trying to bite the hand of a lion.
Three down, four to go.
The warehouse was a mess of groans and the metallic tang of blood. One man lay sprawled against a stack of crates, another clutched his broken arm, whimpering for mercy that would never come. His arm was bent in a way that shouldnât be humanly possible. Seokjin stood in the middle of it all, breathing steady, knuckles slick with crimson, the faintest trace of boredom flickering across his face. His suit remained almost impeccable, not a drop of blood on them but a crease that happened when he was thrown in the car several hours ago.
One of the remaining men moved in a blur, or what he probably thought was one. The knife flashed toward Seokjinâs side, but Seokjin sidestepped with the kind of grace that should not belong in a place like this. The blade cut through air, nothing more.
âToo slow,â Seokjin murmured, almost disappointed.
He caught the manâs wrist mid-strike, fingers tightening until the knife wavered, then stilled. With a swift jerk, Seokjin slammed the manâs hand against a nearby crate. Once. Twice. The third time, the knife dropped, clattering down beside the fallen bat.
The man gasped, stumbling back, clutching his swollen handâonly to find Seokjin already in front of him.
A knee to the gut drove the air from his lungs.
A palm strike snapped his chin upward.
Then a final punchâclean, preciseâsent him crashing onto a pile of discarded sacks.
The man didnât get up.
The remaining man raised a baseball bat, his grip trembling. The other brandished a knife, waving it like it could actually make a difference.
Seokjin almost laughed. Really?
He wanted to roll his eyes â and nearly did. Instead, he exhaled slowly, tilting his head as if he were assessing a mildly interesting patient rather than two men preparing to die. âYou sure you want to do this?â he asked, voice deceptively calm, even gentle.
The man with the bat snarled. âYouâre dead, pretty boy!â
Seokjinâs smirk was cold before he ran his hand through his dark locks. âWeâll see about that.â
The first swing came fast, but Seokjin was faster. He ducked, caught the handle mid-arc, and yanked hard â the man stumbled forward just in time for Seokjinâs fist to connect with his throat. The sickening crack echoed through the room. He dropped like a stone. But Seokjin didnât want an easy fight. No. He wanted them to suffer the worst fate. He landed fatal blow after blow, his fist bruised and bloodied but he didnât care.Â
He didnât hear the cries of the man begging for mercy. And if he did, he found it in himself that he couldnât care less. The manâs face was now unrecognizable, his nosebridge bent in itself, his eyes bulging out of his sockets.
He didnât care about anything outside of the violence he was taking part of. It was as though all his senses shut down to quench the burning anger in him.Â
The man stopped fighting. Â
Only then did Seokjin pause, chest heaving, blood dripping from his fist onto the body beneath him.
He pushed off the ground and turnedâ
âand froze.
You were breathing hard as you ran inside the warehouse, your eyes wild with worry, your hair disheveled as you assessed the situation before you. Your eyes were wide, frantic, skimming the room, the bodies, the bloodâuntil they landed on him. Your eyes were wide with fear as you looked at him, at the man covered in blood.
And for the first time since the fight startedâŠ
Seokjin felt something slice through the fog of his rage.
Because you were looking at him like you didnât recognize him at all.
Two hours ago
âNoona, I am not kidding. Seokjin hyung will kill me if I let you leave-â
âJungkook! He wonât! He canât even kill a fly!â
Jungkook looked at her weirdly before sighing so loud one would think he carried the world on his shoulder. He opened his phone, tapped his fingers swiftly until you saw what appeared to be a map.Â
Was that a GPS?
â-on the other hand, if I donât let you leave, youâre only going to find your own way out of here. Seokjin hyung will also kill me-â he started with a wondering tone, his hand rubbing his forehead in stress.Â
You frowned at him before walking closer to him menacingly. You gripped his shirt in your fist as you tried to meet him eye to eye which was difficult by how physically huge he was. âJungkook, you listen to me. Heâs been missing for almost 20 hours now. He could be anywhere by now! They could have hurt him now! If you donât let me leave, donât worry about Seokjin killing you. Worry about me.â
Jungkook blinked owlishly as he leaned away from you. âThis is why Seokjin likes you,â he sighed before shaking his head and heading to the door. âFine. Letâs go. But letâs be clear! You tell hyung that you threatened me and that the only reason we are wherever he is is because you had a knife on my throat!â
âFine!âÂ
Why were you here, Seokjin thought.Â
His brows were furrowed as he met your terrified eyes. Suddenly, it was as though the entire warehouse was silenced, as though the sound of groaning men in pain faded into nothingness. Kim Seokjin, for all his intelligence, forgot about everything and everyone but you at that very moment. He forgot the fight, the danger, the blood dripping down his knuckles. All he saw was you. Looking back, he could clearly remember how your eyes were filled with confusion, questions that remained unanswered gracing your lips.Â
You werenât supposed to see him like this.
He remembered how terrified you were and despite it all, how you ran to him, your hands gently cradling his bruised face as you looked up at him. You touched him as though he was breakable, fragile. You touched him with a reverent gentleness as though he wasnât the monster he believed himself to be.Â
Your tears were falling.Â
You were crying.
You were crying for him.
His breath caught in his chest.Â
No one had ever cried for him before, not even his mother when his father lashed his back so many times that he went home bloodied, his skin barely hanging on to his flesh.Â
Your eyes ran over his form, your hands soon followed in an attempt to pinpoint where he was hurt. You were trembling as you stubbornly wiped your tears off your face. âW-we need to get you to the h-hospital,â you beganÂ
âW-we need to get you to the h-hospital,â you stammered, voice breaking as you tried to steady him, steady yourself. âYour hands⊠Y-youâre hurtâSeok-â
Seokjin held your small hands in his bloodied ones. He wanted to shiver from the feeling he got when his skin touched yours, something he denied himself from doing too often. He met your eyes and offered you a smile. âIâm okay. See? Iâm fine, Sunshine. Please donât cry-â
âItâs because of meââ your voice cracked.
His chest tightened painfully. âNonsense. None of this was your faultââ
âYou wouldnât be hurt if not for me!â you burst out, your voice breaking under the weight of guilt, fear, and the sight of him bleeding in front of you. âIf I didnâtâŠIf I didnât go after you, if I didnât like you, then you wouldnât be hurt!â
Seokjinâs eyes widened at what you said. Your confession washed through him like water over flame, quenching a burning demon he had carried for so long it felt like part of his soul. The rage. The bloodlust. The coldness he clung to for survival. Your words were the only one that could calm the demon in him.Â
âSunshine,â he breathed, voice low and rough, almost disbelieving. âAre you stupid?â
Your eyes widened, a wounded sound caught in your throatâbut before you could pull away, he cupped your cheeks with his bloody hands, forcing you to meet his gaze.
âYou are the only good thing in my life,â he said, voice shaking with a truth so raw it almost hurt to speak it. âI donât care what happens to me. I donât care what I have to do. You are the onlyââ
âTouching. Really,â a voice drawled from behind you both.
The man who made your life a living hell for the past years was standing behind Seokjin. His face might have been bruised, his walk might have been staggering, but the darkness in his eyes was unmistakable. This was the face of the man who knew this was the end, and he would be taking everyone down with him.Â
Your heart slammed against your ribs as Seokjin instinctively tensed, but it was already too late.
Before he could even turn, before he could react, a blade flashed in the dim light of the warehouse.
It plunged into Seokjinâs back with brutal precision.