This blog is a coping mechanism xx

O my god im dead

I am rabidly angry right now

Man i even miss Gonzalo isnt it fucking funny. Im feeling so goddamn lonely lol

I had a dream about Gonzalo wtf

I feel like a new piece of wisdom that ive gained over the past couple of years is that it really doesnt matter how much i try to act nice or try to hold back my anger with people that mistreat me and i try to be nice with them, they will still treat me like shit. Laila, Lily, Albert, the italians, Antonio. I tried to be on my best behavior with all of these fuckers but they still treated me like shit through and through. So i really shouldnt give a fuck what happens to my relationships with people because shitty fuckers will be shitty fuckers to me and no amount of patience will change that. I should just always be confrontational and proud and never blame my ego on anything EVER. I‘ve been through so many experiences where it‘s always been proven to me that my ego is never the problem. If people like you then they will like you no matter what, like Sergi did.

It‘s kind of a total bitch move that i met with him and told him a whole story that‘s personal and i obviously did that because i want to be friends but now he refuses to meet with me. Like holy shit dude i was the one more hurt by the whole thing and not your friend, give me some grace instead of acting like im a hoe that broke his heart when i really simply didnt know that we both liked each other

I am tired of how nothing is easily attainable in my fucking life of misery. In my 25 years i am constantly yearning for something and i can never have what i want. I am so fucking sick of my luck in which i am never ever satisfied and never ever happy

Alvaro liked my story for the first time ever and so of course being the totally desperate girl i am i had an entire dream about hiking alone with him😭 that‘s mad

كس أم حياتي

Had a nice weekend with my palestinian best friend and i texted the malaga guy to hang out and he left me on delivered so thats AMAZING lmfao. Acting like im a whore because things didnt work out with his best friend

I want him so bad :( pero el no piensa en mí verdad?

I had a dream Oier held my hand while we were hanging out with our friends😭😭😭oh i wish

Oh bitch i really want him there is nobody else half as hot and funny AND he complimented my spanish so much

God i just want the malaga guy to text me again :( :( :( :(

The creepy upperclassman saw me and was flirting with me again today🤮🤮🤮i also saw the pedophile jew for the second day in a row🤮🤮🤮also that married bengali creepy mf🤮🤮🤮God how come its so many terrible people still here can you please fuck off

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